ukm || actuarial science || third year
Most happy when:
nagging || wasting my time hanging out || meddling in other people love lives
Friends!
Annie
Boon
Fabian
Hani
Jean
Maz
Munira
TJ
Yu San
Nina
Missy
Pet
Thanks to:
Pitas
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Dear ppl,
I've been accused of being a whiny brat... indirectly of course. I totally agree. I could whine about anything and nothing. I'm a champion whiner about things that is wrong forgetting what went right. I wished people had been more forthcoming about their annoyance about it. Talking behind my back (technically back stabbing) is not going to make me a better person nor does it stop me whining. I may pout for a day or two. But then I'd think I'm enough of a women to accept things that people say about me and change. Some even think I should go to the doctor. (I'm discrete enough not to mention names so don't bother asking.) I pains me that people I trust cannot tell me what they really think about me. Just to be bitchy, everyone needs a vice, I don't drink like a swine, smoke like a chimney or read slash (sorry darling). I enjoy bitching because it doesn't hurt me nor does it hurt anyone. (I mistakenly assume.) Finally, I should say this, ignore my ranting because by the next day I don't remember it anymore. I need to rant so that I can just blow off some steam. So... what's you problem? If you don't want to listen do what Hani does, "Julie, shut up." It's just that I'm used to listen to people ranting that I thought I could rant back. So just don't mind me. Just pretend that either you can't understand or block me out:)
Oh, by the way I'm still am rarely on the net. I can't use the office net for sometime until they finish upgrading and my home pc cannot access my mailbox. Phone line sucks. Please be patient with me. Other than that,.. boss dump a load of correction on my lap today 1 hour before office hour is over. I wish he had given me that thing earlier or on Monday so I don't have to worry about it over the weekend. I refuse to bring work home (Famous last words, I'm sure:) Well, nothing else to rant. It's not like I'm such an interesting person with scores of knowledge and information under my belt. I don't even bother with philosophy any more. Later!
Love,
Julie
My co-workers and boss are such darlings as they accepted my appearance there with open heart (its a new position). The first few days was boring as I get tossed from one manager to another so that I get briefing about each division. Some suggested some R&D work that I should look into.
Then last weekend went clubbing with Az, Lina and Hani. What a fun thing to do. I should do this every weekend.
Oh, and today is MOM'S BIRTHDAY!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MOM!
I have nothing else to say. Later!
Dear ppl,
Yes, I haven't blogged constantly. I have a lot to write about but usually I feel tired by the end of the day that I just drift to bed and sleep. Ha, ha. I got good news, I got a job. On Friday, last week I decided that I have rested enough and need to find a permanent job. I was a part time research assistant to my lecturer. As I often say, I'm restless once I've rested enough. Which explain me accepting the job with my lecturer. I had to commute between KL and UKM for 2 weeks already since I wanted to report in the data I found. Such a pain. I stay 2 days at Bangi or spent the weekend with friends at Bangi. By the time my stint is at the end, I got mild gastric problems. I don't take care and was foolish, I apologize to those I troubled.
Yes, by Monday the person at the company I interviewed at called. I got the job. I shall work as research & developement exce. As much as I resisted the idea since the first year, ( I wanted to work in financial institution instead of an insurance one) I was hooked. I was told that they wanted to start a new project and after making internet research about it, I wanted to be a part of the team. So today I went to the company to hand in the acceptence of the offer letter. The guy I was suppose to work with was nice enough to ask if I wanted to see my office.
I got a room:) Okey, so the room has lots of windows that people could exactly see what I'm doing. So, no funny business during work ours hmmm... Well, the desk was very new. It has nothing on it. No computer, nothing. I was a little taken aback by that fact. The nice thing was I have a super super senior there. Also a UKM graduate so at least I wouldn't be alone.
So right now, I alternate between fear and excitement of entering the workforce. Cool huh? Hope I don't blow it come Tuesday. Wish me luck!
Love,
Julie.
Dear ppl,
I was surprised that when I got into a debate about rights and wrongs with someone, that person laughed at my naivety. I was accused of living in a fish bowl. That I don't have the right to talk about ethics and morality. I am not working in the 'real' world yet so I don't know how it feels to be living in the big bad world. I'd like to correct those assumptions if I may. Firstly, I've been exposed to the big bad public ever since I was a child. Why? Because I joined many types of society and clubs. I've seem people back stabbing each other. I've gotten in trouble when someone wanted my position badly enough to tell nasty gossips. I've had my juniors tattling about how I did this tiny change in my singing. Why? Because I was a soprano and that tiny twit thinks that she could take my place. I met total strangers when I had to make public presentation. I had to learn to be polite and smile when people ask totally irrelevant questions. I had to listen to everyone, I had to listen to people venting their anger, I had to defend those who are dear to me and I stood behind all those I count as friends. So you say, I'm a goldfish? I bet I know more people then you do.
One of the main arguments was, the world is a $hitty place. So if people behave morally wrong, you accept it as a new trend and move on. I disagree. As Muslims, or anyone who has a religion for the matter, we have to defend the right and fight the injustice. When I mention fight, don't take literally, I mean you could help by not accepting the morally wrong and by standing by your principals. For example, if you know that its wrong to take a bribe and your boss is doing it. Don't follow your boss's actions. I mean you could only be so loyal to your boss. The company doesn't pay you to follow your boss to hell.
So, you think some of us are blindly faithful followers of certain political party. I at least can honestly say along the line of, 'I don't care one way or another.' But I'd be dammed if I let anyone dictate my life and my faith. I refuse to let people force my hand at wearing tudung or such. When I feel I'm good and ready I will do such. I refuse to demean the command of go to mere physical evidence of faith. When I wake up every morning and look around me, who do you think I think of? Who do I thank for another day of living?
You are stubborn and you refuse to see the truth in front of you. But what am I saying? Truth is to each perception, right? How very secular of you:) I studied western philosophy, read eastern philosophy and discuss such with my lecturer who is a well respected religious teacher. He he can accept and respect my point of view, why cant you? He is more knowledgeable about religion, yes? So, if you want to live life like a bitter man/women that's your choice. I choose to make a difference. So there.
Love,
Julie.