If you noticed (at least the ppl who read my blog regularly), I haven't been blogging for a few days. O.M.G, I am currently running at full speed to finish stuff and my study. It didn't help that I had classes every Tuesday and Thursday (It's a very nice and enjoyable class). Today I already wrote a full schedule when someone decided to send a 1.6MB e-mails.
Argh!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hate incompetant ppl doing work that requires somewhat intelligence. If that makes me a snob then be it. I spent the whole day clearing her mess. Why must you ask others, including my boss, about a subject that is MY speciality???????? I had a 1 and 1/2 hour training, that's it.
BRB
It has been quite an eventful day. It started with a meeting which was somehwhat idiotic with my boss being too busy to really concentrate with the vendor. Anyway, the meeting wasn't really necessary because it was just a handover of the proposal. I'm being cranky I know.
Due to my ever nearing exams, I've been getting quite stale. The home environment is no longer suitable for studying. I feel that the walls are beginnig to close on me. Melodramma? Sure. But I feel it anyway. not my fault for being ultra sensitive to my environment. So I decided to study in my office. So far, the office air has been quite productive for me.
As usual I got the key from my boss. my friend left at 7.30 p.m. I studied till 8 p.m. cause I just wanted to finish some of the subtopics. Packed by 8.05 p.m. and left my department heading down after locking up. Only to find that the outer grill was locked. Stared at the lock and thought, "If this building caught on fire, I'd be toast."
The very intelligent security guard had left for dinner some 10 minutes earlier. Called up some ppl to tell them about my predicement. Just in case, you know... I would have studied except that I think that by then my brains are just too tired. time to catch up with ppl so I called some ppl to confirm my retreat from KL. Yes, I am going on a holiday during the fasting month. No where in Quran did it say that I can't so :P
Fast forward 1/2 an hour later. My brains was very very exhausted. By then I don't think I would be able to think rationally anymore. All I wanted to do was cry. My brain hurt and so does my body. It has been a very long day and any more I'd scream.. Wait..., I think I did that already. I was screaming to be let out of the building. Sent my boss a futile SMS.
Thankfully, 15 minutes later the errent security officer appeared. I calmly told him that I waited for 45 minutes already. He confirmed that he was told that I was leaving sometime around 8ish. I wanted to scream or at least karate kick him. But that would be uncivilized and I am a proper lady. So I said good night since he apologise profusely.
Today's lesson :
1. I need better self-control
2. I need to cope with stress better.
3. I get cranky and unreasonable when I am mentally tired.
4. I cry too easily when I'm upset (angry or otherwise)
5. Next time, I shall hangout at Sentral Starbucks to study.
6. I hate being locked in any building. If I could have screamed the whole
building down, I would.
Tired... sleep.. Good night...
Love,
Julie.
Hi! It's late I know but I'm still in the office finishing up some stuff before starting to study. Today the whole department went to a orphanage. There are 35 children all together. The Pastor was really nice and kind. Some of the children are orphans and some were taken away from abusive family and there are some who came from a single parent family or a poor family.
I was taking pictures and stuff when I saw a little boy looking curiously at his gift. So I knelt and showed him how to open the present. To my suprise, he quickly settled himself on my lap. Very cosy indeed as we explored his gift and his hamper. I watched as his tiny fingers arrange his new pencil case and stationary carefully together. Such tiny hands and someone pointed out to me, "Look at that." There was a big scar on his hands. Later I found out that he was abused hence the quietness.
Too soon, it was time to go home. I reluctantly stood up as Samuel(his name) and I was getting along famously. We helped him open his jelly and watched him as he at it quietly. What I find very disturbing was his quietness. It is not natural for a 3 year old boy to be so silent.
We saw that there was an Indian girl who spoke Mandrin very fluently as she instructed the younger children. A sight to behold indeed.
Look at the time, time to study. *Hugs* Later!!
Love,
Julie
PS: I got some pictures, leave ur e-mail add if you want to see them.
I really begin to hate this page name field on pitas. I keep on typing random phrases into it and expect my readers to go figure what it really means. I might find it amusing when they totally misunderstands me but when they hit too close to the truth, I get wary.
It's like I'm hiding things in plain sight but suddenly someone suddenly stop and noticed things. Very uncomfortable. Like showering in public only to notice later that some ppl can see throught the tinted glass. Madness?? Maybe... truth?? definitly.
Charity Day
This Friday was designated as our department's Charity Day. We will be going to an ophernage in Cheras to donate food and pcs. The process of preparing for the whole thing was fun. They went shopping yesterday and today we wrapped all the gifts. Yey! It is true, attitude definitly counts. I had a hectic morning when I was running from one pc to another, you'd have thought that I was dead tired and will be sitting at my place. Not me, not I.
We sat in the general area together as we worked. Gossiping and telling jokes. Sharing ayat kejam (cruel words) that we inflict to others and laughing some more. It made ppl look forward to next year's charity event. I really like organizing things like this :)
GTG, ppl calls.
Regards,
Julie
Well, I guess today I need to express myself more vaguely. There are somethings that I need to blog about and still I don't really want ppl to know.... Let's start with today. I couldn't wake up today, even with 2 alarms and numerous wake up calls from my parents. Ugh...
When I have some things that runs through my mind. It keeps me occupied even as I go through my whole routinal work. It's with me as I study and as I work. And since I still couldn't figure out how to handle things, I keep the thought on back burner as I handle today's crisis in the company. When we had a black out, I then studied but the thought stubbornly clings to my mind.
As my heart questions and debates with my heart. Logically, maybe things will be as it should. But the heart is a stubborn organ. Very irritating if you have to persuade the heart to listen to logical reasoning. But, but, but.... The endless questions and arguments are driving me insane. And I need all my mental capacity to study for my exam. Should I let my heart have it's way this time? Just once so that I can study in peace. So my slumber shall be restful and deep.
The alternative is so much better. It's less risky. Everyone know how risk averse I am. The thought circles my mind and no matter how many ppl I talk to, the stubborn heart refuse to budge. Not very lucid is is? I have to go.
Later!
Love,
Julie
The department organized a Family Day gathering in Genting Highlands last weekend. Despite my reservations (it's my hermit season), it was a blast. I managed to corrupt all my co-workers' adolesent children. Mwahahah... Like planting ideas of the joys of singlehood and out and out craziness. Ah...., the joy of sharing my madness with the children and wathcing them have fun.
We arrived at G. Highlands around 12ish and waited for the room till 1p.m. before leaving for lunch. Food mostly sucked except for dinner. At 3 we went to the outdoor park only to be twarted by the rain. So I said, "Hey. let's go and take the tea cup ride shall we??" (Remember the teacup TJ???) And I managed to convince some ppl to join us. I conspired with the boys to twirl the teacup and the winner is the person who manage to make their fellow teacup rider dizzy. Sadly, in my teacup there was a baby. So I spun around gently. In the end, I guess Loong (12 year old) managed to make Eric (15 year old) so dizzy that 1/2 an hour later puked. (Note to self: Must teach Loong to moderate his torture. Extremes only chase ppl away)
Later went on the chair which spun round and round. So we went on and on. And I go "Wheeeeeeee....." With my feet in the air and my head leaning back. I was begging ppl to take the Solero shot ride with me. The only person who had guts was my boss :P Later managed to recruit the IT guy and my co-worker's husband(he's an adrenalin junkie) to join us. When we are close to the ride my boss and the IT guy started to discuss the technology used for the ride.
IT guy: Hey, they use hydrolics(sp)
Boss: Yup, I heard that it's very unreliable.
IT guy: Well, look at the lorry's brakes systems.
Me: Ppl, I so don't need to know that.
And you can hear that I have a VERY healthy set of lungs. And yes, if you know me you can discern that that scream belongs to me. As soon as the ride ended, we went to the Cockscrew Rollercoster. I told everyone to scream during the Solero Shot ride but from their expression I figured that they were too scared to make a sound. When I urged everyone to scream during the ride this comversation started :
Boss: Why do you have to scream? That is so... childish.
Me: Oh, I use all these rides to scream to my heart content. That's all.
Boss: Why?? Why do you even want to scream.
Me: Well, this is to compensate for all those times that I want to scream at you in the office but can't.
Boss: .... *laughs*
So my boss ain't so bad after all, huh?? Later we had a bowling competition where ppl have been given to 4 teams headed by boss, his assistant, the IT guy and myself. It was a laugh. The lesson I learned was "It doesn't matter how good you are at bowling, if you haven't played for a long while you better practice." My team lost, enough said.
After all the game, we were free to do our own thingy. Some went to the Casino. I went to check out the new clubs in Genting Highlands. Now they have Cloud 9, Safari Club and Sports Bar. All of them hold no appeal to me. The music sucks :P So I walked around and think. It seems that I have this need to move while I sort out all the things that's running through my mind. After 2 hours of just walking, I went back to my room for a good long hot shower. Nice....
Overall the whole thing was a sucess. Later!!
Love,
Julie.
