Last weekend I had a date with a friend. We wanted to watched Shrek2. The night before, some women who was my bestest of all best friend called and said, "Julie, you *****, what happened last weekend? We were supposed to go and have our manicure and pedicure done." To which I answered, "I was waiting for you to call you twit." So I had to squeeze her into my already tight morning schedule.
We went to the nail parlor and had our pedicure. I added buffing for my finger nails. Then as usual, I'd dig for news from those dearest to my heart. Moon Baby was there and I cheekily asked of her 'friend'. One of those rare males who endeared themselves to me. I understand why she is attracted to him, he's a private person who had that charm that glosses over that 'not quite there' personality. But if you are patient and careful, you'd meet the wonderful guy behind all that facade.
How pedicure works? First, they soak your feet. Then, they put some sort of cream on your nails to soften them. They clean under the nails and cut the cuticles(sp). After that they shape the nail. They will wash your feet and use a skin scrub to clean your feet. You can op to have your dead calluses scraped. They will massage your feet a bit and was off all the products. Once the final cleaning is done, they will rub on some moisturising cream. And, you are ready to go.
My friend and I love pedicure cause it pampers our feet. She works on her feet and therefore believes in pampering herself every once a while. As for myself, I just love to baby myself. Hence the occasional manicure, pedicure, hair salon visits and sauna. Soon I should add, facials and massages. Ah, for the life of leisure..
Perception and Truth
My brother finds my mind to be more than a little bit scary. He says that my mind doesn't work like a typical Malay does. All this because I was talking about temporary damage and long term damage. I guess what I said was a bit more colder that that. We were discussing about Malay students who goes overseas to study and marry over there, only to end up divorce when they come home after 5-10 years later because they grew up to be different ppl.
According to brother, the main factors of this not-too-short term marriage is because of hormones and loneliness. My main argument that if you are in that state it's better for you to go clubbing rather than marriage. I don't see any reason to marry and later make life difficult for the children who don't understand why Mom and Dad no longer love each other. Then, my brother said that our religion is one of the factors that forbids such thing.
Surprised I said, "You mean, you'd rather destroy innocent children's life/stability so that you don't 'sin'. What kind of logic is that?". I said go clubbing, not go to a club, get drunk and have wild sex with a stranger. As far as I'm concerned, you go clubbing to dance. The drinking, picking up strangers and whatever else is optional.
Isn't that so much better that 8 years down the road you divorce and come out of the relationship with 2 kids in tow. And the fact that your children's life become worse off is not a sin? In any divorce, children are usually the casualties. They feel destablized. It's a pity to learn in such a young age that not all relationships lasts.
Then my brother proclaimed, "It would take a rare Malay man to marry you. I predict that you will have to marry a non-Malay. Your ideas are just to out of the norm." To which I said, "Bah humbug!" Marriage is something very sacred and I wouldn't just willy nilly jump into. No sir, not me. I want so much more than just this life. I need to find my path, and right now, I'm still looking for things to do with my life.
Work calls, later ppl.
Love,
Julie.
Canto Alla Vita (featuring the
Corrs) |
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Original lyrics |
English translation |
Dedicato a chi colpevole o
innocente |
Dedicated to the one who guilty or
innocent |
Today started as a very cloudy day. I was not in a good mood. I tire myself our fighting with people, or rather, gritting my teeth while people get angry at me. Sure, I could just fight back but, in the final analysis, it's not worth it. Although, right now my jaws are aching due to all that teeth gritting and grinding. Getting angry doesn't pay they say... I disagree, but sometimes you keep your peace cause the fight is not worth your effort. Sure, you feel emotionally battered afterwards, but there's always sleep, and silence that you can retreat into.
Come to think of it, I'm quite good at silence now days. I no longer have the need to babble about everything and nothing. I guess, in the end, I might just end up in a padded room talking to the walls. Who knows? *shrugs* Life has endless possibility.
I accidentlly insulted a friend. I guess I should apologise, but I'd rather wait untill she apologise for scolding me for no good reason. Annoying, yes? I refuse to give an inch it seems. Then again maybe not. I'm tired of being good, I should just turn evil. After all, good and evil is merely attached to one's perception. Now I find it good to good to me. So if the result is evil, well... you'd never know...
I find lack of respect nowday to be appaling. Maybe not really respect but politeness. I usually give away my seat in trains and buses for old people, pregnant women and children. But as I do this, I only get thanked by the old generation. The pregnant acted like it was a God given right (others were ignoring her so I sorta pity her) for her to sit down. I was astounded. How rude. The mother of the child who I gave my seat to? Pretended that it didn't happen. I repeat, how rude.
I find that this lack of manners in society to be appaling. It is not a Malay way at all. As a tradition, a Malay believe in extreme politeness and grace. Well mannered children are brought up in this environment, understands that this is his/her culture. Then what happened to this? What happened to all the manners that parents drum into their children's head?
Everytime I hear anyone idolizing the KIASU culture, my hands itches to smack them. Somehow it didn't sit right with my upbringing. Do onto others as you wish to be done on to you. Is that so hard? The worse part? When they are on the receiving end, the whine like @#$%^&*. Hello, people, if you haven't notice yet, you reap what you sow. If you act like a @#$%^&* expect to be treated as such, you @#$%^&*!!!
I better go. I feel badly today. Maybe supressed anger but, I'll work it out. Got to go. Later!!!
Love,
Julie
Il mondo gira con me questa
notte
Piccoli passi che faccio con te
Segue il tuo cuore, e seguo la
luna
Cosi' nascosta lontana da me
Il mondo gira con noi questa
notte
Ah, esistesse lontano da qui
Un posto, dove scoprire il mio
cuore
Sapere se lui puo' amarti o no
E girera! E girera!
Il
cuore mio assieme a te!
E girera la terra
Girera la mia vita
E un
giorno lui si si capira
Sei tu che giri con me
questa notte
Sei tu che giri lontana da qui
Ma si io so che tu sei la mia
luna
Qualcosa mostri, qualcosa non
Ci sono strade azzurre nel
cielo
Ci sono occhi e il cielo e gia li
Si questo credo che siano le
stelle
Ah, se potessi fermarmi cosi!
E girera! E girera!
Il
cuore mio, lontan' da te!
E girera la terra
Girera la mia vita
E un
giorno lui si si capira
Cuore gia lontano
Si tu
sei la luna
Potessi scoprirlo nel cielo
E girera! E girera!
Si girera il cuore
mio
Girera la terra
Girera la mia vita
E un giorno lui si si
capira
Un giorno lui si ti capira
Today I woke up angry. I hate it when that happens because that means that I will be angry throughout the day. Plus that means that today is not the day I should not be crossed because I might just do the unexpected. Like think, "F**k polite" and give anyone a piece of my mind.
Dad talked me out of my bad mood, but now that I arrive to the office and read the !@#$%^&* e-mail from one company, I wanted to crush something. Yes, today it seems is the day for over reacting to things. Dad, tried to get me to control my temper by reminding me that I am scary enough for everyone around me even without a temper. *hiss* *scratch* *scratch*
Yesterday I had a crappy late afternoon. I had some crazy insane stalker who watches me in silence at work. I would really like to tell him to **** off and die. But, then again, I am working in a high crime area. No point pushing my luck. But who knows, today might be a different day and I might just give him an impolite dressing down. I rarely do that but when it happens, stay clear out of my path.
I really wanted to get my bad a$$ brother (not Pet) to have a word or two with this guy. But then again, it just takes too much effort. The best and easiest solution is to just lose my temper. I have no idea why I'm cursed with strange stalkers in my life. It's been what? 4 of them already? In 4 years or so?
A friend said, "Find a boyfriend and then all these idiot stalkers/psychos will go away." Yes, sure, complicate an already complicated life why not. I'm tired of being polite to strange crazy stalkers. Die you strange psycho stalkers out there!
*sigh* I'm tired and it's just 9.30 a.m. Today is going to be a long day :( Later!!!
Love,
Julie