Today I accompanied my friend to all the slimming center to see what they could offer. Well, in the world of slim ppl, you tend to want to conform. So my friend wants to lose weight the easy way. To say that she's fat is alike to saying that I'm the size of dinosaur T-REX (am NOT).
Had the whole check up and almost fainted at two things. First, my BMI number. It was big, I mean really big. It makes me feel like a pig ready for slaughter. Secondly the price of the service. One treatment center wanted to charge RM6800 for 10 treatments. *faints* *Woke up look at the number and faints again*
Man, I have to get myself a multi millionaire to go for all this. But I must look REALLY go before anyone will be attracted. So, what to do, better not do things the easy way. Diet and areobics. That's the key:p
No wonder I saw all this Datin, Datin (rich man's wife) type. Wow! $_$ I just can't get over the price of this things. Darn, slimming is a good business to go into. wonder how many ppl actually go for all this stuff o_O
Love,
Julie
I really want to write a really nice e-mail but at the end of a working day, boss sent me a nasty e-mail that I've yet to get over. Right now, I'm just taking time to breath and have patience over smart bosses that seem to forget that to get a perfect exec., you have to train them. Which my company don't do.
So unlike my other friends that has job training, my boss usually throw any job to me and expect me to figure things out by myself. Hence the stupid semi negative comment in my work assesment last year. I feel like bashing that stupid person. I wish his assistant was my boss. Because he tells his staff exactly what he wants not some half baked ideas that I'm suppose to magically produce.
Yes, I agree, my job is exciting because you never know what you might be assigned to. I've been in charge of a major project, write up inventory, prepare reports for publication, give training and etc. Really stupid! Cause I have to learn myrid things that is completely unrelated to my field of study.
But this is only one of those things that makes me want to kick up a ruckus. Otherwise things are fine. I hate ppl who don't dare to tell me things face to face and then sneak peek and see my reaction afterwards. Really annoying cause I'd be frowning fiercely at the pc and doing my work. With my eyebrows shapes as it does, I look like I'm about to eat ppl up and spit out their bones.
GTG, later..
Love
Julie.
There's nothing like total unkindness to make me feel angry. You see, I'm totally (jelly fish) spineless. I hate to get into an argument. It bothers me to bits. It makes me want to run and hide. So usually I just pacify the ppl who try to rise an argument. Especially when the argument is not worth fighting over. Like, the way you want your coffee made, the way you'd like your cake to be served or the things that you want to do YOUR way.
I will mostly do the things your way because I'd hate to argue over trivial matters. What's worse, there are times that I just don't care. It's not my problem, seriously. Just do what ever that pleases you. But when you try to dictate me, make me feel less the what I am, that is when my hackles rises.
It usually start with teeth gritting. As it progress, I'll withdraw into complete silence and process all the complaints that you throw. After you finish, I'll try to talk in a very logical calm manner. Someone has to keep their calm when the other is just itching to fight. But if you persist, rest assured my eyes will narrow and thats when I give all that I held back.
You see contrary to all thinking, I hate to rise my voice. It's a sign you've lost control. Unfortunately, some only know how to speak at above normal volume. And if you don't match, they wouldn't listen. Even as I tried, I couldn't help wondering, what is it about this person that makes him/her so obstinate? What did he/she eat while they grow up?
It annoys me when ppl say stupid things to hurt others. I might do it upon occasion when I feel really hurt about something but not for fun. Not to make myself feel better at the expense of others. Not to stab on someone's back. Not to feel SO superior as compared to the rest of the human race.
Yes,I've met people who trive upon other people's trouble. I've seen someone hurt his/her own friend's feelings so that he/she wouldn't feel inferior. I've met people who enjoy breaking friendships just because. But when I have to face such thing, I'd be VERY annoyed. I either say, this friendship is not worth preserving or I fight because I think that this friendship is precious.
Right now I'm angry. I'm angry because I can see some who thrive on my self doubts. Feeding me more and more of my frailty, my failures and my mistakes. Things that lack in me. You know what, I am human, not perfect, never will be. As you enjoy watching me twist myself like pretzels to please people around me, remember I might doubt my self worth as a human but I definitly know where I stand. If I don't I can't become better. So when you are over critical about me, just wonder, "what on earth does Julie think about me." I never say much do I?
I remember someone asked me, "Why did you XXX? You should have said XXX back to her." My answer was, "I have to be careful of people's feeling." "Sure, take care of other people's feelings and let them trample over yours." I don't know, mother did taught me manners.... I'd hate to forget life time training only to lower myself to other people's standards. I wonder, have I insulted you, dear reader?? Well, as they say what goes around, comes around. If you hurt someone's feeling, then expect your feelings to be trampled. Unless, of course you have thick face the size of an elephant. Then, karma shouldn't worry you.
I better go. I'm tired of ranting. It's raining thunderstorm outside. Suits my mood I guess. I'm furiously angry. A.N.G.R.Y
Julie
So that both of us don't waste our time, let it be known that I'm suffering from write's block. So, for the time being, I'll think about blogging but not really doing anything.
Crap, I'm late and mom will kill me!! Later!!!
Love,
Julie
