(Friday, January 2, 2004, 08:35 a.m.)
Dear ppl,
Happy New Year and wishing all a sucessful year ahead. Gosh today I get to enjoy configuring computers and re-formatting those darted pc for ppl who has large databases to handle. That's not fair! I'm not an IT exec. I don't know a lot about pc. Plus I have bundles of deadline and fine print to go through. *whine*babble*whine*whine*blubber*whine*
Julie Art of Lying
Do you know that it's really difficult to pull through a really big lie? It's almost impossible especially when the person you are trying to lie to has a sixth sense when ppl are lying or if they have very good ppl connections and can find out the truth. I have a nose for liars cause it takes one to know one. Especially lousy ones. Their effort are pititful at best. So I decided to help all those hopeless liars out there. Here are my golden rules:
1. Work out the detail of the lie.
Don't be too specific when you are lying. You'd forget details and as ppl say : Give enough rope the liars will hang themselves. Keep track of your BS please. Lies like, "I can't go out cause my dog is sick." sounds terriblly stupid when you don't have a dog and eventually that person will find out. It makes you a very disgusting liar. It's one thing to lie but another to get caught.
2. Have an accomplis to be your back up.
It would be nice if you have someone to vouch for your sincerity. Especially when there are more then 1 ppl involved. Make sure your story match. It's stupid for you to say, "I'm are going to watch LOTR: RoTK at Mid's with my bro, mom." and have your bro say, "Julie and I am going to KLCC for movies mom". Ppl as canny as my parents are smart enough to check stories to make sure 2+2=4.
3. Lie only when your a$$ is on line of fire
Don't lie for fun. Don't lie to save face. Don't lie to make ppl happy and finally don't lie for fear of hurting someone. It's worse that way. When the person find's out about it on their own, it hurts worse. You will destroy a friendship when you do that. Sometimes the truth might just be the only way to maintain a friendship.
I can understand lie when you want to make your friend feel better about themselves. But when the lie makes them look stupid in a long term basis, tell the truth. Sometimes you have to hurt to be kind, like a surgeon resetting a broken bone. It hurts but after that it heals properly. BTW just so we know that it's ok to tell the truth, I know that some ppl has watched RoTK last weekend. I'm watching it this coming weekend with my brother if it makes you feel better. I'm disappointed but life goes on. See... I didn't throw a tantrum. I'm at peace with myself.
PS: BTW I wonder if anyone read Emma by Jane Austen? I think I've learned a lesson, I think when it comes to defending ppl. I think I'll stop fighting ppl's battle for them. It twist things into something else.
Emotional rollercoster
It's funny when I gain control over my life and ppl comment about my precision. You see, I used to feel and absorb every single emotions from my surrounding. I'm sensitive to ppl's needs and like/dislikes. I embrace my colorful personality and emotions. But it only brought me to my downfall. You see, when you become emotional, ppl can hurt you. You react to ppl's criticism and learn to hate yourself.
To stop this downward spiral, I took my father's advice in self-control. I decide on what to feel and when to feel it. Occasionally, I fall for temptation and give an unprofessional and unrestrained replies to conversation. Now when ppl say something personal, I choose on which one to listen to and which one ignore. I like myself better now knowing that ppl mean well when they say anything personal. I just have to remember that nobody's perfect and restrain myself from pointing a personal finger on other's weaknesses. We are human, flaws and all.
Diet, die with a T
I am on a diet. Before you start nagging and preaching, let me explain. I was sick maybe a month or so ago and it was bad. So the doctor decided that I need a lifestyle change. First, I need to learn to give up on junk food, I seem to be allergic to them. I can taste them but if I make a meal out of it, rest assured within 24 hours, I'd start showing symptoms.
Now I'm slowly changing my diet. I have to give up on most of the fat and consume more vegetable and fruit. I made very slow progress due to my difficulty in giving up the taste of fat. But, I'm making progress. I feel healtier. Now days, I have rare cup of coffee when not so long ago I couldn't work without coffee. I learn to savor every morsel that I eat. I notice hints of garlic and lemongrass easily. I notice texture of the food I consume. Now, isn't that beautiful?
I am on diet under a doctor's supervision. It's to boost my antibodies. Not to lose weight, thought that wouldn't hurt. I'm sick and tired of the cycle of getting sick and healing but only to fall sick again. Hell, I even catch the flu bug from my nephews both 2 and 5 of age. Things got to change somehow. So there!
This post is getting way too long. GTG, work calls. Have a nice weekend okay. Enjoy! Later!
Love,
Julie.
(Wednesday, December 31, 2003, 12:32 p.m.)
Dear ppl,
It's almost 11 hours from New Year. I'm still working and bless the company we get half day today:) My plans?? Nothing? I did plan something but it went bust last minute. It's all due to the fact that some ppl don't like crowds and all the jostling and noise and smell and... you get my drift. I merely thought of it as part of the scene. It doesn't bother me since I'm a complete palebian(is that the right spelling?)
Fireworks are ment to be enjoyed in a crowd. Unless you are the super rich who could either afford to book one of those snazzy hotel room with overlooking window or if you are really really rich, have your own New Year firework display:) I guess the crowd doesn't bother me cause my mind have been very quiet and I am at peace. No more chaotic thoughts thanks to office work load. By the time I get home I'm so tired. So I'd hole up in the attic with a book or computer game. Oh, what I'd do to go and watch glorious, glorious fireworks. Well, this year I'd just have to watch it on TV. At least its better than last year, I had to study for mid-term:p
Tangled Lies
Do you know how difficult it is to keep a lie a secret? Especially when there's follow up questions:) I remember telling a really big one to a friend. She was a repented nasty person and I was one of the victims. So when I visited her in campus I gave one big lie with the help of my best friends. She believed it even when the whole gang was having such a difficult time to keep our details stright.
But an hour later, I confessed and we had a great laugh over it. She was sporting enough to take it in her stride. I guess I could never lie to a friend, especially when it has possibility of hurting her later. Lies always has a way of coming right back like a square slap on the face. Sometimes truths makes you look like the bad person but with the right reason, I guess it's better in a long run. All it takes is one lie to make people distrust you.
I'd never tell a friend that she look like crap in any particular dress. I'd rather just steer her to other choices instead of lying and letting her look like a complete fool. I guess it calls for diplomacy not lies. I just learn the art of mistrust and somehow I don't think that I would learn otherwise. Somehow, it feels terrible to hear things behind your back and hear only lies from the person who's too cowardlty to give it straight to your face. Live and learn,I guess.
Kuantan Trip
I drove back to the hotel and we rested. At 11 p.m., Niza complained of hunger. I grinned and said, "This is Kuantan ppl, I don't think that we are suppose to go out this late." I called Dad to check in for the day and told him that I was going out for supper. "At 11 at night, Lily??!!!" *sigh* At least Niza was driving.
Day 3
We woke up early to have an early breakfast and frolic at the beach. We decided that if we can't swim than lets play with the sea waves that swept the sands. Woo hoo. Lets play jump the waves. Gosh that sound awfully juvanile. I dont care:)
We drove to Cherating to see the beach. We took pictures and enjoyed the sea. We had lunch at Dora's aunt's house and barely made it for the bus. The bus was at 3.30pm and we arrived to the station at 3.20p.m. Talk about close calls.
That's it. The whole outline of the trip.
Later!!!
Love,
Julie
(Tuesday, December 30, 2003, 08:41 a.m.)
Dear ppl,
I don't understand why but this New Year I somehow set my heart on watching fireworks. Could this be an omen? Only if you are morbid. I said that I'd write about my trip to Kuantan so here it is.
Kuantan Trip
It was a spontanious idea. At first I was going to travel with my parents but something came up and my mom had to attend a seminar. I recieve an e-mail about a hotel discount in Swiss Garden Resort Hotel around Malaysia. So I told Niza and we decided why not. We booked in Kuantan since the Pangkor Laut one was fully booked until God knows when. So there, I have 1 week to finish all the deadlines before I leave. Beach..... glorious sand and water, sunshine...peace...
Day 1
We were taking the 11.30a.m. bus. The journey would take roughly 5 hours from KL. At 11.00 a.m. the phone rang. Looking at the caller ID, I knew it was my office. After much self debate, I picked up the phone.
"Lily, there's someone from XXX company that wants to see you."
What!!!???
"He's here to pick up the CD's."
Oh.....
"The stuff is on my desk neatly labled as YYY CD's."
"Found them, have a great holiday! Bye."
Sheesh ppl, give me a heart attack why not.
We safely arrived at 4.30p.m. Parked our bags at the service counters and decided to go to the Berjaya Megamall in Kuantan. At 7.00p.m., our ride to hotel arrived in the form of Michelle, our classmate in UKM. Wait..., I forgot to tell you, I went on this trip with 2 university friends, Dora and Niza. Checking in was a hassle I could live without. That night we picked up our rental car and had dinner at Michelle's place. She has really cool parents. Great sense of humor too. That night was the first time I drove in Kuantan.
Day 2
Woke up early cause we are going to travel to Kuala Terengganu. Had wonderfully huge breakfast. It was Dora's turn to drive. I sat at the back and enjoyed the scenery. The sky was sligtly overcast but nothing bad. The sea had this huge waves due to the monsoon season. No swimming. That's ok. It was the traveling that was fun.
I dumped both Niza and Dora at Niza's future-in-law's house and ran like the coward that I am. Her future mother is a power to reckon with and I seriously have a spine of jelly. I met my aunt for lunch instead. God bless my aunt. We went shopping at the famous Pasar Payang (Payang Market), a unique mix of wet market on the ground floor and clothes's store on the upper floors. We headed directly to the cloth store to ogle at Batik. Gosh, my aunt explained to me about about the different type of Batik silk available. I bought one for me and a kaftan for mom.
We left sometime around 4.30p.m. I drove this time. We have 3 hour journey ahead and we are trying to reach Cherating in less than that. On the way back, we stopped at the Kertih oil refinery area. I for one have a strange fascination for those oil refinery factories. I just adore to watch them at night when all the lights are switched on. The lights are for safety measure not vanity but, I don't know... it looks like a city of its own with glittering light.
Both Dora and Niza was convinced that they want their boyfriend to work there. Me? I'd rather just own the whole thing:) No questions asked. Gee.... simple and straight forward isn't it;) Due to the fact that it was dusk and the light isn't at their best, we had a little picnic by the side of the road whilst waiting for darkness. Guess how many lorries, cars, vans and motorcycles that honked at us? I don't know, maybe 90% of the vehicles that was using that road. Sheesh ppl...
GTG boss calls to be continued...
Love,
Julie.
(Monday, December 29, 2003, 03:55 p.m.)
Dear ppl,
Am sneaking this while I work.
Happy New Year!!!
Just in case my boss tie me up in the server room and refuse to let me out untill I finish my work:)
Seriously tired of playing catch up with deadlines. I'm beginning to bring my work home. I don't like it but hopefully *touches wood* this ends once this project is over. Have to build an Access database. Do you know how long ago that was? My last Access work was 5-6 months ago. I never learned to do it formally. I picked up a book. Plus the last database I made was simple. This new one is slightly trickier. Especially without Nisha, the Access guru. Hate doing stupid things.
GTG. Bye!!!!
Love,
Julie.
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(Friday, December 26, 2003, 08:37 a.m.)
Dear ppl,
I haven't been blogging since .... dunno... quite long I think. Mostly because the internet connection was totally down and recently I just got back from a vacation. I will write about the vacation soon I think. As soon as I get the time. Now that I'm back, I must start system testing to make sure that the launch of this system will be smoothly done:P
I resented the fact that the product was installed 1 week late. Both sides were at fault I'm sure but ppl, the launch deadline still stands. It's not like my boss is going to extend them. Argh!!!!!!!!!!
On the plus side, I just got back from a 3 days, 2 nights vacation in Kuantan. So I should be well rested:) Oh, darn! Look at the time. GTG, later!!! So happy to be back.
Love,
Julie.
