Me

girl, brilfeniel, witchmystik, princess of mirkwood, mei, angel of mercy, libra, sixteen!, student, not-so-good student, BIG orlando bloom lover, BIG legolas greenleaf lover, fave colors: yellow and blue, loves doing online tests, neopets addict, live to eat, couch potato, messy, slacker, disorganised, scatterbrain, enjoys looking at screensaver =), collects orli/legolas piccies, pooh-fan

Right Now

yes people can talk to whomever they like. next time i'll learn to keep my mouth shut to avoid arugments that top the list of "the world's most stupid arguments". and now i so stupidly regret what i did and i feel like crying.

sometimes i let things be, and it blows up in my face.
and yet sometimes i don't let them, they still blow up.

added a credits section (it's below cliques).

i would type about day out with esther yesterday if the weather wasn't so hot. check back again when it's not that warm anymore. neopets is being annoying too - giving me error messages half the time. can't wait for 3pm to come so i can watch korean tee vee!

dying
is an art, like everything else.
i do it exceptionally well.

i do it so it feels like hell
i do it so it feels real.
I guess you could say i've a call.
[plath]

that's like the lines from plath (studied her peoms in hc) that left the biggest impression on me for some unknown reason. the moment i heard them, it just stayed stuck in my head... and at this point, the song love me for a reason by boyzone is stuck in my head too...

something i wrote for Loving Legolas & Orlando Inc. a while back... just reading it again today...

nothing to watch on tv tonight. only some wwf which has got to the dumbest thing pple do on this planet known as earth. too awake to fall asleep after a three hour nap i took after getting home. how strange it was today that i was smiling and laughing and yet my heart felt so heavy. reality of the-things-known-as-common-tests has yet to hit me. my history tutor was just saying there's a trend that arts students grant themselves study leave the week before it happens. haha...and my friend was wondering why and i provided this theory that we tend to live in our own world where common tests don't exist and then in that two weeks we are forced to live in the world where common tests do exist...but then after that it's back into our nice little world again :)

just made an observation about myself... how i often seem to take the road less travelled. from my primary sch, i was one of the only two girls who went to my secondary sch...then from my secondary school i went to a place where i hardly know any one too...

today was a rather slack day again for me. started off with a national education talk by some high-ranking govt official...then mrs leong let us off for project work period to have lunch so had a looong break. then lit lecture which wasn't really taxing. after that was the council investiture soo yeah...actually i only had one lesson today.

after that was our learning journey trip to the tanah merah prison which is a class c prison (i.e maximum security prison). it was quite interesting and informative... and it's really quite different from what you see on tv... the officers who took us on the tour were also quite friendly and approachable :)

anyways after that, went to eat cheese fries at holland v (it's been 8 days since i last had it!) and then went home. just finished watching the x-files and even managed to complete assignment 7A while watching. think trigonometry isn't so bad after all... proving identities is fun! =)

oh yeah... someone was commenting that i don't looked stressed at all...(which is true because i don't do my work oops and the time when i get really stressed is like usually sunday nights when i'm rushing work...) and i seem to be "embracing school life with love". laughed at that comment. not true not true. maybe it's cos i have the "happy" kinda look (i remember 3 years ago, an ex-classmate told me i have the smiling kinda face... like i'm always smiling or something) how weird. of course, don't judge a book by its cover, and don't judge me by my face/expression? maybe i should consider being an actress lol

check out this test result, hehehe:

maybe i need help. i think i might have broken the record for having done the most number of online quizzes ever... check this out.

i was just thinking - maybe one day when i read back on my past entries, i will laugh at myself.

mail from jillz still hasn't arrived :( she says her dad (go jillz's dad lol) is tracking it down. and she finally told me what she sent me - a purple choker necklace! OMG - i was choking with shock, surprise, joy & a whole lot more - jillz dear thank you so much! even if it never gets here! :) i still appreciate it very much. i'll send something over to NZ for you soon. as for chrissie, i need an address to send stuff to ;)

wowwee...i actually reached home at 2.30pm today, one of the earliest in a long time. i shouldn't even have gone to school today - only 3 lessons! mrs leong was still on child-care leave so i was reading river's end by nora roberts while most pple sat around talking, sleeping, whatever. then shimin said she read the book before and just blurted out, "sam wasn't the killer" and i let out a shriek, sort of. and everyone turned and looked at me. and i was like oops. then it was gp and we were studying statistics on marriage and divorce rates. and gary was like going on and on and asking lots of questions about what happens to the guy when people divorce and how the property gets divided and such. urgh... us girls at the corner were getting annoyed and we were like...is he planning for his future or something?

then had maths lecture and lecturer kept drawing little triangles and had us all confuzzled. >_< i am so going to fail 3-d trignometry...and continued reading my book. then econs passed reallly slooowly. at this point this 12.30pm and i could have gone home but i didn't know i could. urghh

continued reading novel and did a bit of maths tutorial during the free period i had while the others had chinese. then it was maths tutorial and gary was just dying to look for mr tai (so that he can show that he has done his maths tutorial...) and we stopped him. anyways we sat around looking at the ri yearbook...laughing at pple we recognise around the sch and stuff. and then we finally found out that mr tai wasn't in school today which means i could have gone home like 2 hours ago...

feeling giddy with joy for so reason...maybe cos i'm talking to jillz, sharing things that happened today... and also cos ally mcbeal and gilmore girls are on tonight...

feeling incredibly good cos i scored 9 out of 10 on a Orlando Bloom Quiz! upset about the loss of the one mark due to the fact i didn't know which tv shows inspired him to go into acting - i thought it was superman that lured him into showbiz grrr.

and this was what Esther said when i told her about it: "Of course. What else can be expected of the princess of mirkwood?" =) yes, i agree. duh mei! lol though i should be getting a ten!

woke up with a bad headache and asked to be allowed to sleep in and so i did...till like 10-plus. was feeling much better after that. :) started to tidy my room and sort the one TALL pile of papers on my table. after that, was mainly chatting with jillz and then the day just passed like that & it was already 5.30pm!

then i found out that mrs leong (my ct) wasn't around today and she wouldn't be around tomorrow as well (means i start with 3 free periods!) and i will end even earlier around 3pm...and i'm only going to meet esther at 6pm. got lots of time to killl.

catching up on orli, the hottest star of the hottest 25 Under 25 ;), as usual. =] somehow the song from the gap commercial is stuck in my head. i feel in my fingers, i feel it in my toes...the love is all around me and the feeling grows...

i find my entries getting shorter and shorter. the thing is sometimes i put off writing in entries which is bad cos by the time i get around doing it, i forget most of what i had intended to write in the first place.

sister is out of the room now. and my head hurts. and i don't feel like going to school at all tomorrow. :(

i suddenly feel down for no reason. and i hate this feeling. i fell asleep after watching autumn in my heart so i just ate dinner and stepped out of the bathroom. i really should be doing my history essay. i can't hand it in late cos the deadline has already been extended and mrs chia threatened to tear the essay if we hand it in on tuesday. my sister is watching tv in my room now and i can't concentrate even if my life depended on it i think. irritated but my mom told her to watch it in my room so i am even madder. i think a big hug would be nice now. *looks for pooh bear*

i can't believe it's already sunday afternoon. woke up at 6am this morning (omg!) for the raffles walkathon which i am forced to go to represent my class. so we walked a whole 3km... bor-ing. and that was how i spent my sunday morning.

yesterday was the school sports day which was so strangely held in the afternoon... totally bor-ing again. only thing i was looking for was the cheerleading competition between the faculties. and they were all more like dancing than cheerleading...tried to get out of school by climbing over the school wall with some classmates since all the gates were locked and guarded. how dumb. got caught though and was sent back to watch the rest of the events. after that, saw qin yin (not sure about the spelling) on the traina & she was telling me about the sch chinese dance, sort of inviting me to join. think i'll go for one session and how it goes.

we finally did the gp presentation on thursday and i know it wasn't really good -sigh- and the history test (which i didn't really study for) became an open-book test (thank goodness!) but i didn't bring my readings so i only had lecture notes to rely on. doesn't look too good cos i wrote too slowly. urghh

wednesday was may 1st - labour day... i went to the uk fun fair and the rides were really fun. sat on 3 of the thrill rides, one tiny rollercoaster and this ghost ride (which was quite pathetic and i felt cheated of my money). hhee..and tay ping hui (local tv star) was on the same ride as me! after that, spent lots of money trying to win this jumbo-sized winnie the pooh bear but ended up with this huge orange-coloured doggie instead. watched james marsden on disturbing behaviour though i think he still looks better on ally mcbeal. =]

feeling drained of energy right now. watched spiderman with classmates. great movie...and the ending came as a shock, sorta. anyways, it was still really cool =)

met two ex-nygh gals at the mrt station. spoke to them for a short while (since i was only a home away from home) and then it made me think for no reason as i walked home from the mrt station. the thing about me is probably that sometimes i tend to not think about things, so sometimes even though it bothers me i forget about it for a while but then the problem never gets solved.

and tonight, i was thinking about whether i could be truly happy where i am now. it seems a state that is not really reach-able at this point. sure, i laugh and have fun, but at the end of the day, it feels like nothing, nothing at all.

and i think i need to widen my social circle. thinking of learning something new, or maybe pick up ballet or something again.

on a brighter note, just downloaded the orli gap commercial and watched it 4 times already =) actually i have more to say about my week but i think i'm going offline. not in the mood to do any more typing at this point.

was going to do a looong entry to make up for yesterday. but too tired now to type too much. spiderman opens tomorrow. yay! probably going to watch with some classmates after school (if we can get tixs hmm...) i see a busy weekend ahead - sports day on sat, ora walkathon on sun ...have to wake up at 6 plus on sun =( and complete history essay (deadline's been extended)

anyways, was working on this tonight ;)

just coming on to check mail a bit... eyelids feeling really heavy now after 3 hours of TV. still considering whether i should go watch interview with the vampire in 10mins or wait another 13 days for the re-run... btw...cut off 2 - 3 inches off my hair but it looks almost the same except it is layered. feels short though when i run my fingers through my hair. oh well. almost done with mourning the loss of my hair.