spent my entire day on history. i had history make-up lecture until like 2pm then went to the central library branch and then after that, went to the woodlands one to do research on korean, vietnam and cold war. and this was how i spent half of my long-awaited weekend? either life must be becoming real bad or i'm becoming insane. and i think i am. when we were waiting going to another room for history cos the room were we using was needed by some club this morning, i was sure i heard the x-files theme song playing. BUT i was the only one who heard it. and after that when we were watching a video on the marshall plan, i heard it again. and i was the only one who did. thus i conclude i should never wake up at 7.30am on saturdays anymore. feeling tired now. i have lots and lots of mail to clear. not much energy left to do replies though. i miss my fellowship!!! jillz and chrissie - if you're reading this, i miss you! hope we get to talk tomorrow. that is if i don't spend my whole sunday trying to figure out what to write for my term paper. chrissie made me a blinkie!
 this is really funny cos i haven't asked her to make one for me cos i wanted her to be spending time on her studies but she went ahead to make one for me anyways! it's lovely, isn't it? my dear chrissie is sooo talented! thankies so much for it! *hugs* I am getting worried about Jillz's letter to me. I still haven't received it. I wonder how long it takes for a letter to travel from NZ to Singapore? If it never gets to me, it would be (to quote Jillz) "a waste of good Orli pictures". I've been checking the mailbox after school everyday, waiting and waiting... I hope it comes soon...before my hair turns white. (btw Jillz!!! you might want to see this... elijah wood news) Something fishy going on I think. I got two "Lost Password" requests for Neopets sent to my e-mail. Someone was trying to find out my password. Creepy. Changed my password immediately to be on the safe side and the thing was, it also happened to Chrissie which makes it even more creepy. And I couldn't log onto MSN cos it kept rejecting my password even though I was sure it was correct. Had to reset my password and then all went well. :) had a nice little chat with wenbing about school in general (and guys too haha). apparently both our i-will-work-hard plans didn't go very well... now where are my manners? hi and welcome elpz!!! i have no idea who you are but hi anyways :) where's your page? been either too tired or lazy to update so here's a looong entry to make up for three days' worth of entries. warning: possible major rambling ahead
Tuesday
Wednesday
by a stroke of luck, i called esther and then rushed back to nanyang to meet her! saw lots of old friends too! most importantly, ailian whom i haven't seen in ages. i miss her so much - my beloved team-mate & fellow pooh-fan! saw my juniors too... love the new 'c' division ball routine. after that, went with esther to our usual hangout at lido. i stayed off kfc and settled for taco-bell: supreme fries... which is like cheese fries except that they have beef for taco-bell. we stayed there for a long time...almost 2 hours? we had lots to catch up on though esther was doing her maths tutorial but i was talking while she did her work anyway. got home and was real tired. went online to surf for info on america - education but couldn't find much that was relervant for gp presentation (which was supposed to be today). guess my presentation partner (issac) didn't call me in the end - he was out celebrating the soccer team's win. couldn't really concentrate on the x-files and c.s.i and ended up doing my maths assignment. it was almost 1am when i finished so i decided to leave economics mcq questions undone and go to bed. Thursday chinese teacher didn't come today so i stayed in class with the rest of the class reading magazines and listening to all crap. i forgot to bring my pe tee so decided to skip pe, which was what most of the other girls had in mind too. sat around canteen, feeling so bored i could have started crying. maybe not to that extent, but there wasn't much to do. i went for maths make-up lesson on binomial theorem though i wasn't really planning to. after that, i went to eat ice-cream at macdonalds with wenting and lionel & we met nawwar and desiree there. aftre that, it was home sweet home. yayyy! it's finally going to be friday. i just love weekends. =) such prrettty eyes! don't you agree? *drool*  i wish people would just leave me alone to do what i want to do when i need it. typing in this school now. my other classmates are having chinese lessons again so i'm left to die of boredom. well, there are three of us free this period but aizhen didn't come to school today so that leaves me and shimin. she's kinda tired so she went off to catch forty winks. me... online again as usual just that this computer is quite screwed & i have to keep refreshing pages so that they would show up. anyways, i've read like 74 pages of hard times. yayyy! going out for lunch later with class. =) talked to yingzhen quite a bit earlier during our 20 minute break. she seems like my kind of person. =) the others are ok... but some of them talk about nothing but guys (the good, the bad or the ugly) all day. it's ok to talk about guys but all the time? -rolls eyes- i had cheese fries again tonight! yayyy heehee we had kfc delivered for dinner. :) i know i said i would stay off kfc chicken (after the lovely description jillz told me) but i didn't really had a choice, did i? watched interview with the vampire one hour into the show. lovely lovely acting by brad pitt's hair =) it looks so soft and silky. tom cruise looked pretty good in his last scene too. i am now inspired to pick up an anne rice book. they make blood-suckers look so preeetty. plus kristen dunst was so enjoyable to watch as the little claudia throwing HUGE little vampire tanturms. this afternoon i was watching this japanese drama (summer snow) and korean drama (autumn in my heart). i missed the beginning of the former but it was not too bad. autumn in my heart was pretty engaging and the relationship between the brother and sister was so close... made me wish even more i had an elder brother to take care of me -sigh- trying to speed read hard times now so i can analyse chapter 8 for tomorrow's presentation. think i'll prolly make a fool out of myself. and as jillz said, i will be myself i have come to realise that if you want to catch me in a good mood...try the later part of the day or the wee hours of the morning. that's when i'm most hyper and being my chirpy self never ever try mornings cos i'm not a morning person most of the time unless you are sure that i'm in a really great mood. but then, i always knew i was never a morning kind of person the day started out bad. was moping around the whole morning and missed my secondary school's sports day, which i had been planning to go and was looking forward to. oh well. some people have this amazing ability to put a smile on my face when i'm feeling down. i thank them for having that amazing ability. they are such lovely people. god bless them. i was online almost the whole day, mainly chatting and editing pictures and stuff. joined a new clique today and now i have a blinkie that says "orli rocks my socks". i <3 it so much. hehehee I was going to e-mail Chrissie after this to make sure we don't lose touch with each other since she has been so busy with her studies lately and I haven't had a chance to have a good chat with her. but then!! she came online hehe...having fun talking to her as well. Also talking to Esther too, who I miss having around in school! Got lots of catching up to do. i was just thinking about something i observed. why is it that guys seem to bond faster than girls do?
typing this offline cos my sis is using the phone. i don't understand why she's using the phone all the time. why can't she use it when i'm not home? or when i'm in the shower? or just when i'm not using the net? the worst thing is that she talks for the longest time. doesn't she see her friends in school all day? heck she even went out this afternoon. even i don't talk to the people i would actually call my friends that much and i don't get to see them as much as she sees hers. i'm not having a particularly good day again. there was a tiny good bit which was break time but other than, just felt like an empty soul wandering the world aimlessly. without a notion of where she's going. lost. and worse, alone. *cries* i feel so tired. tired of leading the kind of life i lead day after day, night after night. oh yes! the x-files wasn't too bad last night! was so happy to hear the opening theme of the x-files playing~ plus gillian anderson is such a fantastic actress! wish mulder was there though. c.s.i was great~ love the direction especially...interesting and refreshing omg...ate cheese fries at kfc again today! stayed off chicken after what jillz told me yesterday though :P lionel is sooo funny...telling me and wenting the kind of stuff they do in a boys sch! *been swore to secrecy about other stuff he said* so i'm :X too tired to type something long tonight~ gotta go do my history tutorial -sigh- orlando is looking right at me again hee..lovely lovely lovely *goes looking for orli pictures* history can wait... ;) the x-files will be back again in approximately 25 mins! i can't wait! i'm so excited!!! last season was quite bad... not sure if i should have high expectations this time but it's the last season so it had better be good! after that, would be c.s.i, another programme i've been looking forward to as well =) day was another typical school day again. though it was wednesday, we were operating on the tuesday time-table due to some events yesterday and it got me all confuzzled. anyways, was feeling horribly lonely & insignificant during gp lesson and it lasted through break and maths lecture. seems like i have nothing to share with the others. jillz suggested i talk about orlando bloom (my fave subject!) but i doubt anyone would really want to listen to me too from the way things look. i could jolly well end up talking to myself to keep my sanity at the rate things are going. got slightly better after that but i guess it was because i had work to keep my occupied. went out with wenting to eat cheese fries! after school. hmm...our conversation was the kind that was mainly about other people, like how things were in our ex-school & stuff. hehee...she thinks orlando is hot too! (though i think i'm a much bigger fan than her). sometimes, i feel like i could probably get along well with her, but yet, it's hard to fit myself in somewhere because she's obviously getting on better with aizhen, and when it's the three of us, i feel like the outsider. yesterday's breaktime was a clear indication of that. and then there's nawwar. i feel like forced in circumstances to be in a group of sort? doesn't feel right and only feels awkward. trying to get to know yingzhen. she's rather quiet though, but seems like a nice person. to the others, it is probably rather obilivious to them what i'm really feeling. like the other day, this girl told me that our class is basically divided into two big cliques - the guys & the girls. i think she would be horrified to know how wrong she actually is. what i think anyway. got home and went online. saw jillz!! chatting with her is great :) makes me laugh and as dr. jillz, offers great advice & support. made me feel so much better. after she went off to bed, esther came online and it feels good to talk to another special friend too. omg...it's 9:56pm already. after getting online to post this, gtg watch the x-files! lovely orlando bloom is now right in front of me. what a lovely face :) oohh...forgot to mention this - one of my best bud online's b-day! none other than my twin/sister Jillz! If you're reading this - Happy Birthday again! :) P.S: though we are "twins", we do not share the same birthday. go figure. see her birthday card oohh...forgot to mention this - one of my best bud online's b-day! none other than my twin/sister Jillz! If you're reading this - Happy Birthday again! :) P.S: though we are "twins", we do not share the same birthday. go figure. see her birthday card  if this belongs to you, please e-mail me so i can give you credit for it. :) been watching this over and over again. it's so funny! =) ...all that time could have been used to type a proper entry heehe...now i have it on my own page i shall continue watching it *drool* going to put up orli poster on my wall soon! i never liked mondays. today is no exception, of course. first, i don't like mondays, well simply because it's monday! the end of the weekend and it means work, work, work. second, i have pe on mondays, last lesson ending at 5.10pm! killer pe lesson again today - ran 6 rounds, did 15 push-ups, 20 star-jumps, 30 jumping-jacks, 35 crunches, 40 backraisiers and 40 sit-ups! am having trouble walking down stairs now. and also, all the tutorials on mondays are in the 2-8B classroom which isn't air-conditioned & stuffy! another bad thing about mondays: my only break (which lasts from 10.30 to 1.10 gives me too much time to eat. sat in the canteen for so long i couldn't wait for the others to finish chinese lessons to go out of school to eat. the three of us not doing chinese (and thus have this looong break) have decided to play board games next time :) classmate tried to persuade me to go support the school team in their soccer match. too bad i wasn't allowed to miss lessons to go. otherwise, i would have been the first to sign up. pretty proud of the fact that i actually completed my econs essay due today at almost 1.30am! i was watching forrest gump,completed one-quarter of it during that time and finished up the rest within an hour. couldn't fall asleep after that though. think i fell asleep @ around 2am? woke up at 6am and it wasn't the usual sleepy me...i practically jumped out of bed awake, which is pretty unusual, especially on a monday! anyways, felt quite energetic for the rest of the day. only thing was the weather and stuffy classroom and prospect of running a kazillion rounds for pe that made me seem not so alive. anyways, back to the essay, i actually managed to fill 4 pages! BUT when i got to school, i realised i was like one of the few who actually did it. wasn't trying to be a goody-two shoes or anything (and i'm not, handed in lit assignment late)... but econs tutor didn't really ask for our assignments, so oh well. at least one less thing to worry about! :) sunday passes by too quickly for its own good. that's sad cos there are things i wanna do! time indeed does not not stop for anyone. looking at pictures of Orlando now =) makes me feel better even though there's school tomorrow and p.e. i just realised that Orlando usually looks happier at LOTR stuff or when he's around the cast? Don't know but that the impression i get. It seems that when he's at events alone he seems kinda uncomfortable. can't wait for december to come! wish i had gone to watch FOTR last week instead of waiting... most lotr/orli sites are slowing down too. maybe i should go look for wilde too~ or write in & request they show it on tv! can't wait to get a new computer so my cable connection will get going...then i could download all those cool stuff heehe. forrest gump showing tonight! can't wait! now if only i'll get done with my history readings! omg it's sunday already... i wonder where my weekend went. it was an especially short one since i was in school saturday morning & slept at 9.30pm last night. this is the earliest i remember sleeping in a long time & my hair was still wet! anyways, i'm such a pig... i ended up waking up at 11am. but yesterday turned out to better than friday =) although i spent of it in front of the computer! had a great time chatting with jillz who made me feel much better! you know about days that seem to start out good but it turns out to be real shitty? they suck. big time. & i'm having one of those days. drats. still in my uniform. details later~ i wonder who i am writing for. it feels like no one is reading what i write and that feels ...lonely dull. boring. insignificant. suddenly that was what i felt about myself. my life, my existence. what kind of meaning does my life hold? it feels like nothing more than a continuous cycle of dragging myself of bed in the morning, getting through various lectures and tutorials, then getting home - going online, doing homework. how totally predictable. and sometimes i hate it because it's this way. it seems like life itself is so lifeless. and it drives me even more crazy especially since i'm in school almost all day and at times, i feel like there's no one to talk to. we can just sit down there and stare into blank space. and i hate it this way. so awkward, so dumb. yet at other times, we all seem to be "together" - laughing loudly and having so much fun. when it's like that, i feel good and part of something. but when it ends, i realise it's nothing more than some superficiality to cover up the awkward silence between us. i feel like i would never be part of anything where i am. that makes me sad. because most of the time, i do hate being alone. it's even sadder cos i'm surrounded by so people and yet still feel so lonely. so far, the week has been a busy one. on monday, p.e was a killer ~ we had to run 8 rounds (i told jillz it was 6 cos i thought it was so but then my friend corrected me and reminded of the 2 we ran as warm-up...) when i got home, talked to jillz and her dad~ it was real cool! heehee didn't say much though but he knew someone who talked to Orli!!! OMG *would die to be in her shoes* yesterday (tuesday) was a long one as well since i had econs make-up lecture until 6-plus... came home and lazed around for a while, then went online & talked to Esther! been trying to reach her for a while (but she was just so busy) and it *almost* freaked me on monday when she wasn't home at 9plus lol then i went off to do my history readings and was too tired to do my literature assignment on othello. oh yeah, stupidly, somehow "agreed" to my teacher's request to do a presentation American Education in 3 weeks' time. not a very smart choice since issac *i think* seems to be as much as a slacker as me... uh-oh...no work will get done and we'll prolly rush to get it done just the day before. oh well. that's me. today i was out most of the day again. it was drizzling the whole morning and i was hoping the sch swim meet would be cancelled so i wouldn't have to go... but after noon, the sun shined as brightly as it could... had the first project work period today. i'm in the same group as monica, raffli, lionel and andrew. (and me, in an un-lucky draw got picked to be leader... they prolly going to regret it cos i'm most likely to lose the group file) we brainstormed on ideas and we were most keen on the topic of movies (lol...an excuse to watch more movies :P). undecided though... i *think* we would spend most of our time laughing (like we did today... we were making stupid jokes more than half the time). laughing is good. good. good. anyways, missed the bus from sch to the swimming complex so we took our time to get there by mrt =) it wasn't terribly interesting/ exciting especially since the arts faculty team wasn't that good. plus it was so hot and i was sitting in the front row so my legs were in the sun...grr... *stinging pain from sun rays* after that, went to HC to meet Esther. talked to Alby for a while & saw Yuan Shan but the school was actually quite empty...was hoping to see some of my old friends but... anyways we went to our fave trailer-watching place again lol and had great food and talked and talked and talked lol had a great time! if i wrote about all we talked about it would take a long time... but i'm glad to see she's not so depressed anymore =) yeah and it was great since i think i saw Shane West on the screen at least 6 times? YAY... not sure how long we spent there but it was almost 8pm when Esther left the place and I headed for Kinoyuniya AND I BOUGHT A COPY OF DOLLY MAY 2002!!! HUGE ORLANDO POSTER! OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG waas Sooooooo happy when i saw it!! (going a bit crazy here, pardon me but it's Orlando Bloom so i think i should be excused for such behaviour :P) going to put it up soon!! As for Christine, here's some hugs for ya *hugs* *hugs* *hugs* don't get too upset with your results, k?? at least you have another chance to learn what went wrong then for your CE you can pass with flying colours~ =) GO GIRL! hey twin Jillz!! hope you sent out the letter for me out already lol...in a week's time i'll be eagerly anticipating, looking for it in my mailbox. not sure if i'll see you online again soon, so until then, take care~ & *hugs* okies...gotta go do maths and drool over Orli (again!) btw, my chatterbox is kinda pathetic *hint hint nudge nudge* ;) i have to be in school in like 7 hours and i'm still up! probably won't sleep for another hour. just finished all of my international history readings and starting on my south-east asian ones (luckily there are only 2!) spent way too much time on hole-punching & file-organising... but well, at least it's taken care of and i wouldn't have to worry about it anymore. put the orlando poster i got from cosmogirl into this clear sheet protector and into my file heehee...oh orlando! how i adore you...now i can see you in school too~ YIPPPPPPEE also put up a harry potter poster in my room (nothing much, just a really blue backdrop with the back of harry and hagrid) & an a4-sized Legolas picture i printed (originally meant for my file) and now when i read in bed and look up i see him YAY! kinda small though cos it's a full body picture... also saw a copy of DOLLY magazine @ popular bookstore... it was the april issue (which jillz has ***JEALOUS***). unfortunately, some selfish person took the stickers out of the magazine and it was the only copy they had. i have to go down to town soon and check out kino's magazine section...quite sure i saw it there before. the may issue has a poster of orlando!! (the size of 4 a4-sized papers put together!!!). check it out! while you're there, vote for orli in the HOT 100! =) i also saw heard that girlfriend magazine has a feature on orlando too! omg! i love the editors! anyways, time to get back to history which reminds me i had better read a quick summary of my shakespeare text for tomorrow's tutorial too... just showed jillz this page and she decided she wanted to write something about me...so here it goes, thanks my evil twin (well, maybe you're not so evil anymore)! isn't it sweet? will keep you in my heart always :)
"Hey, Jillian here, everyone calls me Jillz. Awhile ago I started talking to a stranger called witchmystik, little did I know but this young lady was both kind funny and just like me
Of course being the Jillz that I am I kept on talking to the girl I know call my twin sister (she being the nosey one, me the EVIL one)
Chooi Mei you are my best friend (can't forget chrissie) I love you very much, thank you for bringing a smile to my lifeless face and sharing a love for the gorgeous Orli! Mei, Sister, Friend fellow Orli lover.........I love you!!
Love your fellowship sister, forevor and ever Jillz!" OMG! Jillz's back!! YAY...my evil twin. if you're seeing this, *waves hi* love ya & miss ya! christine~ love ya too...keep on going with the studying, k? don't be slacker like me & good luck for the results tomorrow! =) my horoscope for the week: libra (sept 23 - oct 24):
piggy me woke up only at around 11am to the sound of MTV blasting from the living room. well, it wasn't too bad since i woke up in time to hear a1's caught in the middle. then sat around the living room watching more music videos and reading the papers until noon. decided that i would tidy my room! which was what i did but it took me forever. in fact, i wouldn't say i'm done now. :( yeah, i'm slow cos in between i was going online to check mail/ chat/ surf and eat. my room looks much better now. at least i see more of the floor. only thing left to do is to sort all the papers on my table into files or at least neat piles. which i tried doing earlier & *hopefully* will be done when i next wake up :) tidying is like always interesting cos i always find things from like ages ago especially magazines (which i then take time to read) and assignments (especially those i get decent grades for, and there are only a few *sobs*) and photos!! omg...they're so not going to see daylight unless i'm forced to let them! i looked like a totally mushroom head with my short haircut. i think look better after i started growing out my fringe (and maybe my hair as well) but then, tidying always does things to my nose. and i end up blowing my nose half the time. somehow, i ended arguing with my mom over getting a new CPU.. don't ask how it started; it's always so dumb. didn't have the mood to continue tidying anymore so i went online but there wasn't much to do. yeah the started thinking about things and just started crying for no apparent reason. hate it when it happens because it doesn't make any sense. wanted to go down to buy a waffle to eat, then discovered my sis wore my sandals to tuition without asking me!. got majorly pissed since it wasn't the first time, or the second or maybe even the third. didn't end up going down in the end. so i cut myself 2 slices of sara lee cake. after dinner i sat around and watched music happenings...the songs are like old... but nice too! =) then watched final destination on cable. it was quite nice...didn't recognise any of the actors but the whole concept was quite interesting, about how death designs a certain pattern for each and everyone of us. and to get out of it would be to cheat but then death would still come after you. i mean, it's the ultimate end for everyone, regardless of when it happens. of course, it was freaky how the characters all had to die really horrible deaths. still, it's quite a cool show and would probably have been better if i watched it on the big screen. still trying to figure out how i can watch lord of the rings again. and i probably have to do it soon before they stop screening it. unfortunately, i don't see how i can watch it on a weekday and i can't watch it today since i'm broke and left with $ 3.08 =( actually i'm feeling quite bored now. no one online to talk to really *wonders where did everyone go* oh well, shall try some new games on neopets. today was a looong day. can't really remember what actually happened since nothing significant happened i guess & i have a very short memory so it makes things worse. econs lecture was a total bore. spent it doing history reading and was done before the lecture was over... now that is time well-spent since she was going on about stuff that would be taught next year?? anyways, for GP today, we had to watch a documentary about parent-child relationships. it was rather interesting and informative i think, but not because there were uncensored scenes of mothers breast-feeding. learnt that there's some Russian tradition to wrap babies really tight with a cloth (supposedly to simulate the feeling of being in the mother's womb) though i felt like it was really tight and felt kinda sorry for them cos it was so stiff! oh...and apparently babies, in their first 10 months, have the ability to hold their breath in water (by sticking out their tongues?) and swim! only had to run 3 rounds for P.E today so it wasn't that bad and then we had netball after that. not an immensely exciting game but enough to work up a sweat. then boring mrt ride home. saw no one _interesting_ so it to describe my day in a word: dull. no plans for the weekend yet. not sure whether i should go all the way down to hc to pass my friend my maths tys too. messaged esther using my mom's mobile phone to see if she's free tomorrow. waiting for phone call now (typing this offline). i can't stand my own room actually. the table and shelves are so messy!! i don't usually have a problem with that but i think it's just how i'm turning into this big slacker. anyways, took several online tests today. hop over to my livejournal to see them! i think i've somehow accepted the fact that i'm in rj. going to school is less tiring now though there are still many instances when i wished that things were different. well, if i'm going to be there for another 17 months, i might as well have fun instead of making it all miserable for myself and end up regreting in the years to come. anyways, yesterday was a rather slack day since lessons ended at around 1.30pm then it was the second round of the council nominees speeches. the one on the first day bored throughly and most of the candidates barely made an impression on me. of course, i wasn't the only one sharing the same sentiments. so i skipped the whole thing with 3 other classmates and we went to burger king to eat. after that, 3 of us headed down to lido but only me and monica ended up watching the count of monte cristo. it was quite a good story though i didn't get any of the characters' names at all other than the female lead, mercedes. good ending too cos while watching the movie, i was getting this sinking feeling that like all other movies, the bad guys would die and so would the good one. oh and the count of monte cristo has got nice blue eyes. :) today was a rather short day for me. ended lessons at 1.50pm cos i don't have chinese lessons any more. got the new timetable and it is horrible! my days are longer now. only good thing is that they moved the 5.10pm day to monday from friday. quite dumb actually cos i get a long 160mins break on mondays. other than that, nothing much happened today. maybe tomorrow will get more exciting. but i seriously doubt it. oh well. 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