>>   Wednesday, March 21, 2001 07:43 a.m.
web: www.djchuang.com
welcome back.. it's been a long period of low profile silence here, and there's a good reason for that. I've just gone thru a 3-month period of depression and lost most if not all of my motivation, and barely clinged on by faith.. God has been patient and gracious with me, and prevented me from doing something terribly self-destructive or super-harmful during that period. I received the insight I needed on Thursday, March 15th, and I'm feeling more integrated than I've ever felt and at peace with myself, as for the first time. A one-sentence summary: I found the missing link to my motivation (or lack thereof), and when I gave permission to myself to know what I want and to act on it, I got in touch with my HEART!!! Not just my heart's attitude or motives or feelings or sincerity or wishes, but my heart's desire specifically in the area of what I want to do with my life (in terms of action, inaction, career, leisure, likes and dislikes). For years I have been disconnected from that-- being bound by duty and responsibility and constantly searching my attitudes for what I should do, and waiting until I knew for certain before I took action. This might be overstating the obvious for some of you, those of you who are type-A obsessive compulsive competitive driven types, but for me, this is gold. And I want to write a book to tell the full story. You got a sneak preview right here.

>>   Sunday, January 7, 2001 03:08 p.m.
web: urbana.org
returned from Urbana with a cold, still trying to shake it.. Urbana was an excellent display of multiethnic community, see the webcasts for yourself :) ... it's a new year, and time for a new start; not to be trite or short-lived as new year's resolutions usually are, but to be renewed in life and commitment, knowing that God's mercies are new every morning, and to rest in that, and to live out of the love of God that is so richly lavished.. this is a personal journey for me even, and it shall be by His grace that I can persevere to the end.. God knows I don't have it in myself alone..