The layout features a charcter called Lu Suen from the game "The waltz of three countries" or however you translate it. The game is based on a Chinese classical story about war. Lu Suen is a young general who is very soft spoken and polite, when he's actually plotting to invade another country. So you can see, he's very smart and cute and I like him a lot ^^
As for me, I'm just a crazy fangirl with many obsessions, who uses emoticons everywhere XD >:] o.0 ^_^ and has a tendency to scream if the word manga or anime is ever mentioned. All my friends are also crazy, each worse than the other, and insanity is our nature. So in other words, read my blog at your own risk! No compensations will be given out for psychiatric fees!
Home Alone I only came to school today for Math (can't miss any lessons at the speed we are going) and Ext english asessment. On my speech for english asessment, I went over time by 2.5-3 minutes, which isn't good at all, I got all my notes mixed up, and the school laptop is frighteningly slow. I don't think I'll ever do a visual representation using web pages or powerpoint ever again, the computers are all stuffed!
I read the whole of Harry Potter, which I downloaded off IRC channels. I cannot believe that someone actually typed the whole thing up, but I'm not complaining, we need no-lifes like that out there :D
Elanor and baka neko has started a scanlation project for black cat -___- called something like Chrono's Time Guardians... I can't believe they did that, their manga obsessive level has reached new heights.
I'm falling behind on math and chemistry, but I feel really sleepy now, don't want to work, don't want to go to school... Maybe I'll miss out on the first two periods tomorrow and use that time to sleep, afterall, it's only double business studies, which is consequantly the most pointless subject I've ever taken. I've learnt more stuff in P.E and Health... -____-
My parents have left me by myself for a week, this normally wouldn't be so bad, but since I discovered today that I am sick, being by yourself really sucks.
School, work, X.X fanfiction?
School has started, which means less time for doing anything else... I got the english essay and study guide out of the way, now just need to do the rest X.X school can be fun and also downright miserable sometimes. However, instead of studying today, I have been reading fanfiction and downloading songs... I really need to break this habit...
Essay, assesments, angry teachers oh my!
The layout for scarlet's stories is up! That's the last layout I'm doing before I finish all my school work. I also won't be going online nad blogging very often, probably even less when school actually starts...
Elanor's self portrait...
I have been so busy lately T_T so many assesments! T_T I have, however, finished doing the layout for elanor's art gallery and uploaded it. Now I'm working on another layout for scarlet's writings ^^;; busy busy...
Googlism! Typing in diamond hunter I got:
Typing in my chinese name I got:
Typing in my real name I got a looong list, so not going to put it here, guess my name is too common...
I found something hilarious. Go to http://www.googlism.com and enter your name, and you'll get a whole list of stuff concerning your name that is in the google search engine.
diamond hunter is a one player game
diamond hunter is quite correct in everything he says
xinyue is the manager of beijing zhaolong international youth hostel
xinyue is celebrating her birthday tonight
xinyue is coming back today
Mobile phones and Adolf Hitler And I watched a two-part series on Adolf hitler on TV that will finish tomorrow. Actually, since it's past midnight, this is technically tomorrow today... Ummm, I'm not making any sense ^^;;
About the show, I must say that it is scary, I mean, Hitler totally freaked me out... On the other hand, I think he was just a smart crazy man who makes fantastic speeches... Now I'm just trying to decide if he was crazy, amart, or stupid... or maybe he's all three. Anyways, I'll be able to comment better once I watched the second half of it.
The title is self-explanatory! I got a new mobile phone! So I can accept calls and be on the internet at the same time! Yay! ^^
Alex's Party! The food was delicious, and there were lots of food too! Andrew says Greeks are crazy about food, and I think I agree now ^^ They also had nice fruit punch and a big chocolate mud cake. All of us (plus Alex’s relatives?) was only able to eat half of the cake, but that maybe was due to the fact that we ate so much before hand. During dinner we watched the movie Two Weeks Notice, starring Sandra Bullock and some other dude.
Afterwards, Alex, her mom and Tamshella played some piano. We sat around and opened presents, played CDs, and watched movies, and took a dozen or so photos too. The movie The Ghost Ship we only watched the beginning, because it was really disturbing and making everyone paranoid. *cough* Never going on a cruise again *cough* We also watched The Tuxedo staring Jackie Chan, which was like the usually Jackie Chan stuff. I never finished that movie because my parents came then to pick me up.
I just came back from Alex’s BD party. It was really fun! Her house was big, and it was very tidy and clean. The party wasn’t very big, only about 6 or 7 people, but it was very cosy. Her sister was cute and her mom was pretty. When I first got there, everyone else was sitting around, talking and listening to MP3. Then Tamshella had a go at Alex’s Start Wars game. It looked really cool but I don’t think I’ll be able to play it, since it requires good coordination which I don’t have.
Reflections At the moment I am calm, and yet I am not at the same time. I want to hurl something, to scream something, to break something for a small measure of satisfaction. Yet I do not. I sit here and write. What I am writing now will not be published, because it is not professional, therefore deemed utterly useless. Most adults would prefer to see me studying, exercising, and learning new things in the prime of my life. Do I listen? No, of course not. I have long since learnt not to drink every drink given to you. For some may be harmful. I can make my own choices, one supposed trait of humanity is being able to think and choose. Even if my choice is wrong, I made the decision and I should harbour no regrets.
I am not angry, not really. In thirty years time I will be just like them, or so I predict. I am more frustrated than angry. I write this now for myself, to plant a land mark in my life, so that in thirty years time I can look back and compare, and change if necessary. I want to be able to see how I thought at the age of adolescence and reconsider my views later on. I do not wish to become like them.
Adults raises children, children becomes adults and raises their own children. A never-ending cycle. The transition to each stage is so slow that it feels like an eternity. No one notices that the transition is not a few big steps, but many little steps leading to the next level. Once each step is taken, there is no going back. One must keep walking forward to survive. Once we reach the next level, we can only look back on the previous level with wistful thinking. During our hassle and bustle in life, we never notices all the little steps we take, we only notices once we reach the next level. Thus life feels like a marathon, a long arduous journey. Therefore I want to set landmarks in my life, and record this moment, record my current thoughts and ideas, feelings and emotions, to last for as long as I still care.
Adolescence is a period of transition, where teenagers practise for the life ahead of them. It is like a test run of a new car. So why not test the boundaries and power, even if we are not at the correct level in life? If we are given a restriction, why not test the boundaries? See how far it will stretch, collect this knowledge and store it as experience. This I believe is why the adolescence stage is also the rebellious stage.
In an adult’s eyes, the only way to maintain control is to either add more restrictions, or release all restrictions. Like a beggar hanging onto his last coin, adults hangs onto control, onto tradition, onto their believes, onto their own pasts and onto us.
As a person grows, their way of thinking changes. Right now I am trying to think how I would have thought five years ago, but I cannot do it. Once a step is taken, you can never go back again. The doors of childhood have shut up on me, and I am forced to leave and never return. The way an individual’s way of thinking is just like components in a computer, we always assume that the latest version of a program is best. The world always assumes that as we grow, our way of thinking improves as we are updated. This may be true, but not always right in every situation and time. Even if another path is better, adults will go on their current path, because they choose it. Just as they stick to their choices, we stick to ours. Both parties are blind and deaf to each other, a solid barrier has formed and nothing passes through. Like compartments on a train, each compartment flows with the passage of time, one behind another, and moves forward together, but the compartments do not mix. They stay in separate cells. Trapped and alone, while emotions and pressure builds up. This is how we live. Why change to a different system if the current one is functional? Why attempt to improve if the improvement may harms us? So the components are locked together, moving as one, and yet forever apart.
A pleasant and cloud free night, evoking the creative spirit. I write as I watched the clock turn, as the cars rolled by and the world spined into a new day. Peaceful and calm, like a drug. A bitter-sweet melody woven to cover up and hide in. Such a simple irony.
This and that Assesments:
Assignments:
Homework
Must study
I'm fairly certain there's more, just can't seem to remember T_T;;
Just a little to do list so that I stay on track, since I have only one week left of holidays I'm starting to panic that I haven't done any work yet >.<
Ext English visual representation
Adv English Ted Hughes Essay
Adv English Journal
Business studies marketing plan
I'm sure there's more! can't remember!
Adv English Ted Hughes study guide
Maths/Tutorial maths
Chemistry
Economics (revison)
Maths (coordinate geometry, calclus, trigonometry)
Chemistry (everything)
Stepping out... Anyways, I have a new avatar and sig for Manga Readers! Since I'm reading San Guo (the book) at the moment I made a San Guo avvy and sig ^^ I'm putting it up cos it matches the blog! lol
Yes, the title is from a really annoying song in the manga Meteror Garden that gets stuck in your head. And before you ask, I do NOT read Meteror Garden, I just have friends who read it, watch the series and the anime -___-
Avvy ^^
Sig *drool*
Merging all my sites >.< I have a whole stack of school work to do (litterally a whole stack). And tomorrow I'm going to the city to catch up with friends, and on Saturday I have to go to another friend's party... I need some initiative to do my work!
Actually, since all the results from exams and assesments don't count towards next year, it doesn't really matter, since only the results of next year will count. This year is like a practice run for next year, everything is in the same format, but it doesn't count at all. All that matters is that you suck up to the teachers so that they can give you good marks next year, which is what I'm trying to do ;)
I've decided to merge all three of my sites together on my current host. It's going to have a personal section which will have stuff that no one other than my friends will understand. It's full of insanities so if anyone else read it they'll probably think I need psychological treatment. The public section is going to be hell to do, I have about over 100+ animated gifs and dolls, courtesy of my toybox. I have about over 50 CGs from random sites, and I've already archived elanor's stories and scarlet's stories, that along with my midi collection is probably going to fill the 10MB storage space... But since this site is going to take a decade for me to finish, storage is the least of my problems.
The one and only Amanda! If you are game, click here
Do you know what goes on in the mind of a special (not average) teenage girl? Well, here's your chance! But beware, to understand the mind of amanda can explode your brain...
Dentist appointments and guestbooks... I made a new layout for my guestbook today. Well, I can't really call it a new layout since the g-book itself is new... The image I used is from one of my rough sketches, so therefore looks simple and badly done, but the layout loads really fast ^^
I sometimes gets scared that my drawings are now so similar to the cg artist I learn't cg tutorials off. However, no matter how similar our sketches look, her cg is still way better than mine, and will probably stay that way too T_T I guess I should really learn how to use Adobe Photoshop, I just got it yestoday, along with a million other cool programs on a CD I never knew I had -__- But I'm too used to working with Paintshop Pro to change programs straight away.
I went to the dentist today! I don't get how people think it's so scary and such. Sure, the tools they use makes noises, so what? I think the machines are cool! I would love to own a copy ^^
New Blog! Speaking of sites, I moved host from geocities to TPG. The main reason was that you had to pay to have FTP in geocities, and it was banned in China. So all my Chinese relatives can't see it. Since the main reason I've made the site is so that I can show off to my cousin (who thinks she's so great just because she can use the computer), it's only logical so I make sure that they are able to see it. I know it's very childish and all, but I've had this grudge against her ever since I was young... It's sometimes good to have enermies ^^
Today was crazy, we had a 5 way conversation on MSN. Including those who left our school last year, we caught up on news and swaped websites. Well, in tymeplaya's case, she made flash animation of elanor -__- If she ever make one of me, I'll sue her for missuse of privacy, or something like that... She also made a site dedicted me and elanor calling us sisters... tsk tsk, people with no life these days... As if we are sisters, she's born 2 month after me, so we can't be sisters OR twins!
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