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I'm doomed.
Monday, December 17, 2001 12:22 a.m.
Depressed over various things. Had to tell my friend who was going to come visit me over Christmas and New Years that the change in timeline would be better for me. Part of the reason for this was because I would be busy during this time (have a luncheon to go and would like to just relax after all the madness named "Finals"), and another part of it was because my mom wanted to have a family-centered time during this holiday period.
I emailed her about that, and she just called me. She was fine with what I told her and apologized to me about visiting during a bad time. She was really nice about it, but it just made me feel bad. =(
I haven't seen her for 4 years... It's not likely that we will see each other that often from now on, since she lives in Korea. I feel so bad. She bought the ticket non-refundable, so she's actually thinking about giving up either arrival ticket or departure ticket and buying another one now. =(
This thing (<-not trivial one), and other trivial things are getting to my fragile final-time-stressed mind. I'm so depressed and de-motivated... sigh.... Small mistakes and regrets keep coming back to me from my memory, making me lose my self-confidence, and then I hate myself for being moody. Bad cycle. I wish this hellish time is over soon.
Vagrant story and Belly dance
Sunday, December 16, 2001 03:39 p.m.
I think Sydney must have learned how to do the belly dancing from Mullenkemp. His clothing is perfect for a belly-dancer, don't you agree? Maybe that's why he's sorta twisted (although he doesn't seem as insane as other insane evil fruitcakes that I've encountered - i.e. Kuja from ff9 or Kafka from ff6 - from what Kitsu told me). Mullenkemp was a harsh teacher in teaching him the belly dancing and that left a psychological scar on Sydney's young mind... what do you think? ^_^
The scary thing is, I can totally see Sydney learning the belly dancing from her, stading side by side.....
Too much work and too little motivatioin!!!!!!!!!!!!! Final sucks.
I got a new moto:
"Become one with weirdness. Happiness lies beyond."
What do you think? Te-chan and Kitsu liked it. =P
Thursday, December 13, 2001 09:21 p.m.
Final is in 12 hours and I haven't gotten into "final studying mode" yet. -_-;;;; I think I need a shower to freshen up, and then it will be time for Midnight breakfast, and then I'll never be able to study tonight!!!! T_T I was going to take the religion test tomorrow morning, but now we'll see what happens tomorrow. -_-;;;
I changed my computer background from a pretty Kaho picture (from CCS) to a scan of Sesshoumaru lost in thought with bloody finger. =P
I needed to cleanse my mind after reading a series of fanfics that featured "nice" Sesshoumaru. My view on Sesshoumaru is that he has a nice side behind his coolness, but I didn't really ilke the fact that it came out from his interactions with Kagome.... I guess I'm getting possessive of Sesshoumaru... -_-;;;;;;
LOL
Wednesday, December 12, 2001 04:55 p.m.
Guess what I got in the mail today? A republican membership card!!! What are they thinking? I'm not even a citizen!!! _0_ <- rolling on the floor laughing
I just came back from the Chemistry Dep. cookie party. Participated in the chem holiday singing (the lyrics of the holiday songs are all changed into something related chemistry and chemistry courses by Flick Coleman. =). I didn't plan to, but a prof. forced me to.. ^_^
It was actually fun. I knew all the melody by heart from going to the cookie party for four years after all. =P
And I got to get cookies!
Worship me!
Tuesday, December 11, 2001 11:30 p.m.
Miko-san!!!!
You might come back to the US!!!!! YAY~~~~~~
Wherever I end up living, it will be either in NJ or NY, so if you come in NY area, I will get to see you more often!! And it seems that Kitsu wants to be in NY area as well, so only if K-san moves over to the east coast.... ^_^ (Te-chan's gone since she's applying to JET)
oh, my future plans.. I made this effigy in my Religion class last week. The class is about females in Ancient Near East religion/myth (Mesopotamian and Ugaritic/Canaanite), so the prof. brought clays to the class last week. I made a figure of a randome goddess and a bunny following around her. =P I've been trying to get Kitsu to worship me and my statue (since I decided that what I made was a statue of myself as a goddess. ^_^;;;), but it's not working very well.
Oh, so at the last class, he asked all of us what we made with the clay (he was very sad that he forgot to bring cameras in the previous class so that he could take pictures of what we made). I told him that I made a figure of a goddess and a bunny. Then he said, "The bunny or any small animals following around the goddess will be eaten in no time!!" I was like "what?!" He said that it will be sacrified in a sec.... Maybe I should have told him that it was a Goddess of Bunnies.... I wonder what his reaction would have been? ^_^
The m words
Tuesday, December 11, 2001 11:22 p.m.
Miko-san, I squished Bubbels for you. ^_^ He's doing fine, getting squished or bitten (by me) every so often. I think I'm growing fangs. I have sudden urges to bite things. Kitsu usually gets to be the victim since she's the one who's usually available(?!). Besides, she has many soft clothings that just tempt me. =P
I forgot to list my favoriate "m words" here... =P
moo
mwah (I didn't notice that it was a kissing sound.. -_-;;; I just like how it sounds...)
meep! -> beep! -> eep!
Dance! Dance! Everyone dance!
Tuesday, December 11, 2001 10:33 p.m.
Finally finished revamping the page... I'm not still totally satisfied with it, but it's better than before at least. And I got to make an archive. ^O^
so I finished watching Smallville just now.
When I first saw the commercial for it before it started the season, I seriously thought that it was a semi-X-file type show. Like the one that would have high school kids running into supernatural incidents. I never expected it to be another superman show. -_-;;;;
but actually, the show isn't too bad. That is, when Lex Luther is on screen. *grins*
He needs more screen time!!!!! I really like the actor and the character. He's just cool and charismatic. He's actually sort of nice. Not goody-goody (I don't like that type), but sensibly nice to people whom he likes (like Clark Kent for now. =P).
On the other hand,there's not many interesting things going on around Clark himself.. Kitsu and I watch the show to catch the part where Lex Luther appears. =P
I'm listening to Rurouni Kenshin OAV soundtrack now.. SOOOO GOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I love all the musics that they put in it. I've been listening to it for three days now..... still not tired of it.
oh, BTW, I'm done with classes for the semester now. Yay! so I was up all night on Sunday studying for Bio test on Monday morning 9:50am and for doing the research reading for my Religion paper that was due on Monday 3pm.
I took the test, went to another class, and then started writing my 5-7 page essay at 12:30pm. -_-;;;;
I finished it. I did!!! but by 3:30pm. and a crappy one.
This is how it went.
2:55pm: Still revising the paper (the one and only revision that I did in an hour... -_-;;). Knew that I wouldn't make it to Founders even if I finished the revision right then. Frantically emailed the prof. begging for a bit more time.
3:30pm: Finally finished the revision. Emailed the prof. saying that I was going over to Founders. Ran.
3:35pm: Arrived at Founders. He was still in his office (I could see the light on). Knocked on his door. He said "Come in."
Me: Hi.
Prof.: Hi.
Me: I brought my essay. Did you get my email?
Prof.: Oh, I was just reading them. That's fine. I look forward to reading the essay!
Me thinking: (I don't wanna be there when you read it!)
Me: um.. it's not very good because I was rushed.....
Prof.: Oh, I'm sure it's fine.
oh, well. It's done at least. I feel bad about writing the paper so rushed because I liked the class. It was fun. The prof. was fun. But oh, well.......
I slept for 12 hours last night. Felt so good!!! But I think I'm still hyper. (well, Kitsu can atest to that.... -_-;;;) Last week wasn't a very good week for me, either, so I was sleeping in weird hours, like 2 hours from 4-6am, 4 hours from 3-7am, and 10 min nap here and there... wasn't sleeping much overall... Maybe I'm already completely destroyed beyond the hope of repair. Miko-san, how do you live on so little sleep?!
Actually, it might not the sleep thing. Maybe I got the early stage of bipolar disorder. I'm on the hyper side of it, but I do get into depression from time to time..... hm......
. . .
On a happier note, I decided call my car "Sess-chan"! ^_^
It's short for Sesshoumaru from Inuyasha. Well, my car doesn't look like him at all (unlike K-san's car that seems to resemble Sei-chan...), but with snow piled on top of it does remind me of the puffy tail of Sesshoumaru. ^_^
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A conversation that I had with Kitsu today.
While playing Vagrant Story, Ashley Riot got hit on his butt by a zombie (For those who doesn't know about his clothing.. he wears pants that kindly(?) reveals his buttock (sp?). So the backside of his pants looks like his wearing a thong or something. -_-;;;).
Me: Look! He got hit on his butt!
Kitsu: [I don't remember exactly what Kitsu said.. but it was something like this] I wonder why he wears something that bares his butt. He has a pretty high rank in riskbreakers. It's not like he doesn't have money.
Me: Maybe since he's so powerful that he thinks he would never get hit on the butt, and therefore, there's no need to protect it?
It's still a mystery why he wears something like that. Not that I'm complaining...... =p
On the similar note, I think Sephiroth (FF7), Kuja (FF9) and Sydney (Vargant Story) would have a fun time having a meeting with each other. They will have conversations like..
Sydney: Look! I have the most cleavage!
Kuja: No, it's me! YOU don't bare any of the lower parts of your body!
Sephiroth: Why am I here with these "evil insane fruitcakes"? I don't have that much cleavage! I dress normally!!!!
ok. I'm done. I'm going to sleep now. I didn't do anything productive today, but that's good, right?
I made an Archive!
Tuesday, December 11, 2001 09:52 p.m.
This entry is purely to see if my archive works. ^_^
I'm a bit distracted because I'm watching Smallville~
I really like Lex Luther! *hearts*
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