Lead My Own Way @ 03:13 p.m.

Back to blogging. Have problems facing up with everyone thesedays. Even with HIM. I just don't know why. Why such thing happen to me? Yesterday, we had some misunderstanding with each other. I lost his precious necklace after he left me alone from behind. I really didn't meant to lose it. Although the necklace is lost, you still have me right beside you. Forget the past and move on. I'm truly sorry about that. We are better after that.

Went to school without HIM today. *sob sob* Met HIM at "GO" after i reached school. I'm so glad to meet HIM again. Love ya! *MUACKS* Every lesson the lecturer dismiss us early or no lesson. Stopid! Went home after first leeson since i have no one to hang around with. I checked his handphone yesterday. His inbox, sent items, message counter, call register and photo gallery. I remembered he promised me that he will not message his ex back. When i looked at the time and date of the message counter of his ex, i was shocked to find out that he message her last week. He deleted all the messages that he message to his ex. Then, i also found out that last Sunday (08/05/2005) he went to JB to play Snooker without telling me! I remembered he said that he was at his auntie house at AMK. He lied to me twice! *Sampai lobang cacing pon i akan cari ar!* Just have to patient with HIM. We had some misunderstanding with each other AGAIN!. He thought i went to WestMall to flirt with other guys. *Excuse Me! I'm that kind of girl and what you did in the past to other girls. I'm not a HOSTESS for your info.*

What i wrote, "Dah lah you! U asik tak percaye kat i aje. Selame nie i ade tipu kat u tak? Ye lah. I ckp dgn u kemane i nak gi tau. Kalau i tak syg u, i dah lame tipu u ar. Skrg i ade tipu u tak? U tipu i pon tapi i dun mind. I tak tipu u pon, u ckp i tipu. Dahlah! I tak kisa ar kalau u nak percaye ke tak. I tak takot coz i tak buat salah. I bukan mcm pompuan lain k. Buat ape i nak dgn jantan lain. U dah cukup utk me. I'm not a HOSTESS for ur info. U tak syg me lagik tts y u tak trust me." Now, talking with him on the phone. Had so much time together. I promise you that, you are only one in my heart. I'm sorry for putting up what i sent messages to you. It's for my memories what i did with you. I knew in school, many people likes me alot and even put a heart shape at my locker but whatever it is, you are still the one i always LOVE. D, remembered this pharse -> "Baby i love you and I'll never let you go"

*Deep in my heart I would like you to know that I'll hold on to what I promise you. You will always be my Baby, always. Sometimes, some things we got to leave to the fate. God only know what is the best for us. Thanks for being by my side when i need you. I can still remember the time you cried for me. I was in silent as I was shocked to see you in tears. I can still remember the time we both cried together. Put all the heartbreak and heartache aside. Put all the tears and pains behind. Never even care about what others say. Cos we know we have our own ways. Do you remember how we get together? Is was all so sweet and arrange by God. I was sent by Him to be with you. I promise, that I'll be good.*

Lead My Own Way @ 07:08 p.m.

[Friday, May 6, 2005]
Please don't leave me...

It had been a long time i haven't update. Been busy with schoolwork thesedays. D bought for me a bear with a heart shape and chocolates. Both of them my favourite. Thanks D! *Muacks* Had some misunderstanding between us for these few days. *I need him.. He is important in my life.. No matter what, my love for him will never change but will be increasing day after day.. Love my D soo much.. God! Please bless my relationship with D.. He is my strength in everything I do* I can't bear being apart from him. Actually is now how long a couple is together. It is how deep is the feeling towards each other. I already fall in love with someone. The first time i met him, was at the WestMall @ Level 4. He was so damn cute. He asked his friend to asked me for my number. Oh, What a boy! We became friends and now he is my heart and soul. Each time we meet like a coincidence to each other. It's fate brought us together and he's all mine.

How can I forget someone like you?
How can I forget someone who have change my life?
How can I forget someone as precious as you?
How can I forget someone when I can't stop thinking about him?
How can I forget someone who I love so much?

Please dont get jealous with anyone especially with my lovely *Baby Jeponz*. He done nothing wrong. He is my life which i love him so much. I can't bear to lose him but now, i completely don't know where have he gone to. I need him. Please God! I'm begging u let me to be with my *Baby Jeponz* back. *I miss you badly B.. Where are you?* Had been searching for him high and low but had no respone from him.

Where is him? I need you, B!

*D, i don't wish to lose you. It's enough for me to lose my B. Now, i only have you and my *Abby*. I never even care about what others say cause we know we have our own ways to be happy. I will never stop loving you as the same to my Baby Jeponz & Abby.*

Lead My Own Way @ 10:14 p.m.