1st Ladi
Never be Replaced

[Chorus]
Baby I love you and i'll never let you go
But if I have to boy I think that you should know
All the love we make can never be erase
And i promise you that you will never be replaced
Baby I love you and I'll never let you go
But if I have to boy I think that you should know
All the love we make can never be erase
And i promise you that you will never be replaced

I love you yes i do
I'll be with you as long as you want me too
Until the end of time
From the day I met you
I know we've be together
And now I know I wanna be with you forever
I wanna marry you and i wanna have your kids
Thinking never compare to feel enough to kisses
I can say i'm truly happy to the same
You've made me think I'll die and live my life hesitate

There's never been no doubt in my mind
That i'll regret ever having you by my side
But if the day come that i'll have to let you go
I think that something I should probadly let you know
With everything that i spent with you
Then i will miss you cuz i'm happy that i have you at all

[Repeat Chorus]

I feel for you yes i do
I'll be with you as long as you want

Lead My Own Way @ 10:25 p.m.

I don't know why everyone hate Hanif so much. Is he bad? People PLEASE don't judge him by his looks. I hate it! He's MINE! No one could take him away from me. Although we are nearly 2 months old, i have strong feelings that we could make it far. I do cherish him all my life! Wish he's here by my side and I'll hug him and cry on his shoulder. I need him. God please help me. I can't go on like this. This is what it meant by part and parcels of love. Please don't treat him like this. He trying to change his attitude very hard. It's hard to forget the past but he trying. Give his time and chance to change to a better person.

Message for my dear: "I promise that I'll be with you each time when need me regardless whether it is easy or hard, regardless whether it is rain or shine. I gave you my words- 'I'll be there for you' this five words I promise you. No matter what happen, I'll always be by your side and gave you strength, confident and faith that you can make it. Dear, I really hope for the best in our relationship. Each time when I pray, I thank God that I found someone like you. I love you lots Dear. May God bless us every now and then. I do cherish you, For the rest of my life, You don't have to think twice, I will love you still, From the depths of my soul, It's beyond my control, I've waited so long to say this to you, If you're asking do I love you this much, I do "

Sound familiar? *laughs* It's a lyrics from 98 Degrees. Well, i used to hear it everyday last time and this song reminds me of how do i cherish him. Do i cherish him for really or just toying with him? Of course i cherish him. Maybe sometimes, i'm quite playful. Chatting and smsing other with guys but he doesn't know that he is still in my heart.

Dear, if you are reading this tag me alright? I be always by yourside if you need any help. I do cherish you for the rest of my life. You mean everything to me. Regardless what happen to you or me, hope that we can find a way out. This is the right place to express my feelings for you. I just can't say it face-to-face. When ever i see your face, i laughed. You had such a cute face. *Katekan BOI JEPON* I wish you could with me all my life.

I Do Cherish You
98 Dregrees

All I am, all I'll be
Everything in this world
All that I'll ever need
Is in your eyes
Shining at me
When you smile I can feel
All my passion unfolding
Your hand brushes mine
And a thousand sensations
Seduce me 'cause I

Chorus:
I do cherish you
For the rest of my life
You don't have to think twice
I will love you still
From the depths of my soul
It's beyond my control
I've waited so long to say this to you
If you're asking do I love you this much
I do

In my world, before you
I lived outside my emotions
Didn't know where I was going
'Till that day I found you
How you opened my life
To a new paradise
In a world torn by change
Still with all my heart
'Till my dying day

Chorus:
I do cherish you
For the rest of my life
You don't have to think twice
I will love you still
From the depths of my soul
It's beyond my control
I've waited so long to say this to you
If you're asking do I love you this much
I do

*JIWANG GIRL is back!

Lead My Own Way @ 12:03 a.m.

[Tuesday, April 19, 2005]
ANIP... I won't leave you just like that...

Just had a talk with my mum just now. My mum know about my problem/relationship about both of them already and now she doesn't want neither Hanif nor Hariz in my life. Well, i confused now but i won't leave Hanif just like that. He will be FOREVER MINE! No one can break us apart. It's only we can make our own decision. People might think that Hanif is bad boy who always smoke, lepak, playboy, rude but REMEMBER!, Don't judge a book by its cover. He is not that kind. I know him well enough. Hanif won't disturb people if people don't disturb him. He is just normal same as us. Why do he usually lepak with his friends? It just because, his parents was not at home and he have no key so he just hanged around under his void deck until his parents reached home. Many people said that i have changed alot. Even my parents, siblings, uncles, aunties and even friends. Oh Yeah! People change right but i change bad to worst. I may not notice it but people do.

People sometimes ask me What is so special about HANIF? Why am i falling in love with him? Do you guys want to know the reason? He is my first love. I don't know why my eyes and heart attract to him. Feel that i want to stay with him forever in my life. There is something special that you guys don't know about it. Once you in love with that person whom you love the most, you will do anything for your love sake(but not stupid one). I never felt the same way with Hariz last time. Never ever! I really don't want to lose him. I love him lots. Damn lot. No word can describe how much I love him and I need him. I want to be with him all the time, always. *muackz* When you're in relationship you must be ready to face both happiness and sadness. You must also be prepare to face all the emotions. My heart is already stolen. Stolen by a person I love so much *HANIF*. I just want to be faithful to him. Only him! Together, we will go through thick and thin. He is the other half of me, my soul-mate,my bestfriend and everything to me and my love life. We still together after countless fight, tears and difficulty.

Lead My Own Way @ 08:52 p.m.

[Sunday, April 17, 2005]
I'm Sorry SAYANG...

Had a fight with my Sayang just now. I don't know why he is in bad mood today. My ex top-up for me my prepaid card and i was shocked. I told Sayang about it and he blew up. I'm telling the truth since you don't like me to lie. He's at Johor and he called me. I was very happy to hear his voice. He said that now i can do whatever i want and he dont care. Then he just hung up the phone. I couldn't call him back cuase he's at malaysia.

I found a new song which i think it's suitable for both of us. He might be reading this: Kaulah cinta pertama dan terakhir untukku, Ku berjanji kan menanti mu, Setia menunggu di pintu syurga. Whatever he wants to do or take me as, i will be always waiting for you. My ex and I have nothing between us. "Why can't you just trust me? The thing is, he is trying very hard to get me back but i won't go back to him cause my heart is only for you. Only YOU!" I'm so confused... *In RELATIONSHIP ade banyak dugaan. Kita kene terima ape saje dugaan yang Tuhan beri dan banyak bersabar. Janji, kita setia pada satu same lain.*

Di Pintu Syurga
KRU & Elite

Sekukuh... Sekukuh mana ikrar kasih kita
Setebal mana masih ada sempadannya
Akan tiba nanti... Harus ditempuhi
Apa daya kita melawan masa

Takdirnya... Takdirnya dunia hanya sementara
Walau begitu cinta suci tuk selamanya
Ini realiti... Hilang tak terganti
Namun ku tahu kau dan aku akhirnya kembali bersatu

( Chorus )
Andainya ku pergi sebelummu
Kenangkanlah ku selalu didalam doa mu
Kaulah cinta pertama dan terakhir untukku
Ku berjanji kan menanti mu
Setia menunggu di pintu syurga

Di sana... Di sana menanti gemilang cinta
Jadi lenyapkanlah titisan air mata
Tabahkanlah hati mengharungi hari
Abadikanlah saat indah...
Kita kan tetap bersama

( Repeat Chorus )

Lead My Own Way @ 12:19 p.m.

[Sunday, April 10, 2005]
We meet again guys!

It's Sunday Morning! Had a great fun outing with my friends yesterday. Anip came and took me from my house and off to meet Dayah at CCk MRT Station. Meeting time and place @ 12pm, CCK Mrt Station. Waited for the rest to come and the last couple arrived at 2pm. *Excuse me (Juey & Yayah), we waited for you guys and slacked for 2 hours. All we do just chatting and smoking* Fuck! 2 hours of waiting.

Took bus 190 and off to town. Planning to catch the 3.00pm "SAMARA" show but ended up at 5.10pm show. So we booked our ticket at 5.10pm show at Lido and went to eat our lunch at Far East Plaza @ Puncak. Yummy! Ate Cripsy Noodle Beef together with Pineapple Juice. That stupid Anip choose for me. I thought i want to drop by at my mum work place but we are running out of time.

In the theatre, i sat at the corner with Anip. That show was quite cool and interesting. It's scary. Damn scary. It have a mixed of "the ring" and "scream". You guys should watch it! I can't stand sitting beside Anip and Juey. Their mouth cannot be shut up. Screams, vulgar words and everywords they want to say will be out from their mouth and they even jumped out from their chair. What a boy! Anip is the worst one. I always close his mouth. *laughs* I remembered the first scariest part, Anip squeeze my neck with his arm and jumped out from his chair. Oh Gosh! We girls didn't even scream. Next time, if i want to watch movie with Anip, i should bring him to watch Scary Movie again. *hahakz*

After the movie, we went my mum work place and look for my mum but unfortunately, my mum has gone home. Poor Me! After that, as usual, we slacked and smoked. Anip sent me home around 8 plus. Fuh! I enjoyed my day but the only thing was, i don't have enough cash with me to go shopping. I only bring 15 bucks with me. I will go TOWN area again, once i get enough money. SHOPPING TIME GIRL!

Lead My Own Way @ 12:00 p.m.

[Friday, April 8, 2005]

It had been 1 week i havent update. It's time for me to update now. Been busy with school-work thesedays. Lots of projects and assignment to do. I just stress up with myself. I was early for assembly today. I did went to assembly! Yeah! First time in Term 2! *Hahakz* My attendance quite low cause i always "late" for classes by few minutes and they marked me "absent". FUCK! Stupid! Must change my attitude now. Begum and Anip came to my house just now after school to do project. He get lecture from my mum for 1 hour 30 minutes cause my mum know our relationship. He was so damn nervous until he is all sweat. *Relax boi, my mum won't eat you up. She just want to get knowing you better and have a nice talk.* He step belajar buku electronics (that is my course) in front of my mum but he is different course. Step Alim Konon!

Tomorrow, i'm going out with my friends to watch movie "SAMARA". It's my friend birthday so we are celebrating his birthday at the TOWN area. See you there guys! Thanks to Anip cause he asked my mum permission if he can bring me out. Love ya Boi!

Lead My Own Way @ 07:16 p.m.

[Friday, April 1, 2005]
April Fool!

I'm tired. Just came back from somewhere few hours ago. In the morning, had some misunderstanding between me and Anip. I just ingored him while walking to school and now we are together back to normal. Well, he fooled me since today is April Fool Day. He said that he can't accept me anymore further after i lied to him about my past. I really don't mind his decision cause i lied to him many times about my past time life. I respect his decision if he wants to leave me. At 12.15am, he told me he can't bear to leave me and he loves me very much. It's APRIL FOOL! FUCK SIAL! *Bingit* I can't take it but whatever he says, i still love him. I just couldn't get him out of my mind. After school, i lepak with my friends, Ikan, Nizam, Mashita, Anip and me outside BK and KFC. Saw many of my others friends too. Just chat around and Nizam helped Mashita to re-do her project. Went back home at 3.30pm. Was shocked to see Hariz came to my house. At 5 plus, met Hidayah & Khai under my void deck together with Anip. They wants to settle something with Hariz. We girls don't want to get involve in this matter. It is guys talk. We girls went for our dinner at KFC while they have something to settle to each other behind WestMall. Met Barni with his friends and he joined us. He ate our leftover since we are too full. All of them sent me home. Sweet right?! *Love you guys* But we still havent settle down the matter. Stupid Hariz wants to hide but in the end Anip caught him at the another block. Hariz thought that after Hidayah, Khai & Anip go home, he wants to turn back to my house and meet me but Anip caught him. *laughs*

Tomorrow i'm going out with Ikan, Nizam, Mashita and maybe one of Ikan friend, Rahmat. We all going to study at Tampines Library. I got to ask Nizam and Ikan to help me in my project which supposed to be passed up by today. Gosh! Nizam, Ikan and me have to do the same project. Yeah! Exactly the same! Same paper, planning, project and everything. That is tough. At least he a 2nd year student can help me in my project. Meeting Ikan and Mashita at Bukit Batok MRT at 12pm. Oh Man! Can i wake up? It's so early. Well, i try my best. Need to have some sleep now.

Lead My Own Way @ 10:26 p.m.