She's perky, she's fun! And now she's number 1!

[Monday, June 27, 2005]

Had a fight with D just now. I was so frustrated with him. I was sitting at the ROCKWALL during my break time and he came later to sit far beside me. Had a called from "SOME MISTERY NUMBERS". I don't know even who! Thought that was an emergency calls from someone. My D saw someone at Level 2 was calling me. Don't know how the hack they get my number eventhough i don't know them. D keep scolding me. I'm so frustrated with him. I can't stand his ATITTUDE towards me. Freakly speaking, i nearly broke up with him just now but i given him a chance to refresh himself to better person

"I never regret anything. I think things happened because we either allow it to happen or it's the path that we choose. And if it's not meant to be then it's not meant to be. Life goes on and you're given another chance to live again. The time comes when you forget and recover, and when you can't, you will be given another chance to learn again."

At that time also, i can't even talk or walk with my chinese guys friend. This is too much for me! I hate it! They bring me to life when i was down. Friends for Life!

My friends are my inspirations. They are the ones who have motivated me to go on with life. Without them, i have nothing with me"

[D, read this if you are reading my blog]

"Where's your promises to me? Your promises on your cigrattes, scold/shouted me in front of your friends or anytning. Where are they? I hate it u know! Yet u dare to throw vulgarities at me! How could you do this to me?! You gone beyond my limits. I still can cool dowm myself for now. Just don't let me give up on you. Everytime, i trust you to do anything but now can you trust me? Can you please trust me just for once that i can stand up for my ownself? You control me TOO MUCH! You won't able to have a happy life if you don't change yourself. Everytime you go away, my heart goes with you. Everytime you go away, my heart is torn in two. Is there something I can say because my heart can't stand the pain everytime you go away. I hate the way you're always right. I hate it when you lie. I hate it when you make me laugh even worse when you make me cry. I hate it when you're not around and that you didn't call, but mostly I hate the way I don't hate you, not even close, not at all! Love has no season, no beginning nor end. No rhyme or reason to the way the story ends. NO way of knowing how a broken heart mends and still we keep falling in love time and time again."

She Bitch @ 09:52 p.m.

[Sunday, June 26, 2005]
New Layout

Ok people! Changed my new layout. Nice? Give me some comments. I been busy so i change my layout every 3 or 4 months at a time. I been sick for few days and now i feeling better and i be back to school soon. *sweet* I Miss my D! He at JB now. I wonder how he is doing right now.

"If I could have just one wish, I would wish to wake up everyday to the sound of your breath on my neck, the warmth of your lips on my cheek, the touch of your fingers on my skin, and the feel of your heart beating with mine... Knowing that I could never find that feeling with anyone other than you. A stranger you were once. Then, with a gentle look you took my hand. As our lives engaged, you lit my life and I held both your hands. Now that decades have passed, ours souls have indeed become one. How fortunate we are that we have found the love so true that everyone dreams about. "

D, how's my new layout? Cantik tak? If you don't like it i can change to a better one. Tag me okay D if you have read this okay? Love ya! My feelings for you would never change each day. I will just cool myself down if you angry or shouted at me because i believe myself that you are the only one for me and i don't one our relationship to be apart as you know "I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU". No matter what, eventhough we are far apart, you are still in my heart that i always remember.

She Bitch @ 12:35 p.m.

[Tuesday, June 21, 2005]

"As the days pass, my love for you grows more and more everyday. When your telling me that you love me, I feel better for who I am because I got you everyday. All my life was a disaster, but when you appear in my life, my disaster turn into happiness because you appear. I believe in you, your the light in my deepest, darkest hour, your the key to my very soul, you are my savior when I fall. In your arms I found my paradise. As 1000 years would past, I would fall in love with you again. You are my only chance for happiness, if I lose you" - especially for u D - Doink!

Jiwang tak? *laughs* Didn't went to school school just now because i was sick, down with flu. Shit! Miss all my friends whoever know me. Kiss for you all *MUACKS* I'm going to school tomorrow. Dear is sending me. YUPPIE! (*MuAcKs* for my D too) Hope that my friends will be nice to me. Heard from Begum that had some rumours between me and tian xiang (my cute monitor). Spread, spread, spread. Sick and tired of it! The only thing was, he just touch and play with my hair yesterday. That's all! I'm soory Tian Xiang. Going to explain the situation to him tomorrow. =) Chatted with DIN (one of my ITE Bukit BAtok student) just now. He said that i very "SOMBONG" towards him yesterday. Please people! I'm not "SOMBONG". When i walk to anywhere, i don't bother to look at guys. I just can't stand them flirting with me or asking me for my number. Next time, i will just waves or smile at them back ok?! Do you all know there are some rumours about me few months ago. If i'm too "PERAMAH", they would say that i'm a "PLAYGIRL". If i'm not, they would say that i'm "SOMBONG". OK, now tell me, which one should i be? I just confused about it.

She Bitch @ 06:38 p.m.

[Monday, June 20, 2005]
First Day!

Well, first day of school was great. Had my new time-table and it's totally SUCKS! I can just meet my D on wednesday only. Nevermind. Saw Aszhar just now. He said i'm sombong. Oh Gosh! At least i just smile right? I'm not TOTALLY THAT SOMBONG! Next time i will just smile and waves at him back. My day was totally great and slack. I didn't bring anything to school. This term i want to work hard and focus more about my studies. That is my target for this year. I made a couple of new friends around me.

Had some misunderstanding between me and D again. He said that i have CHANGED my ATTITUDE. In what way dear? Do i have a attitude problem? I do think so i have an attitude problem. It's just me, myself and i need to change to a better person.

She Bitch @ 08:50 p.m.

[Wednesday, June 15, 2005]

Miss me? Well, people i'm back to blog again! *claps* Recently, many things had happen between me & my D but i don't want to think about it. It's so childish to fight over a small matter. I can still recall the very 1st time we get to know each other. Chat with ASZHAR yesterday. He let his feelings out to me. I knew his feelings will never change since last time but my heart only goes to Anip/my D-Doink. *laughs* but whatever is it you are still my best buddy in school. Nothing would make me and D falls apart. I'm sorry Aszhar, i still can't accept your love yet althought we knew each other for 6 months!

I miss my D! I used to call him DOINK!. We are THE DOINK COUPLE!. Cute right? *laughs* Next week school re-open. Can't wait to go back school to meet all my sweet friends back. Miss my friends!Hope that me and my Laughing Gas will be back to normal like last time. I never regret to have them as my friends.

Here are some newest picture of me:

She Bitch @ 05:08 p.m.