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Richard Reeves
Saturday, April 19, 2003
I really enjoyed Richard Reeves' comparison of Bush's foreign policy to manifest destiny today in the Sun. Manifest Destiny, I hope you know, was America's excuse to do anything to expand westward in the 19th Century.
I located his page.
I hope you can read the column (sometimes they change, then I suppose you have to do a search).

Nerve Magazine
Friday, April 18, 2003
I went to Maude's this afternoon to have a little extra coffee.
I had a cappucino.

I saw Ms. Cynthia Chestnut as I was leaving. She can be seen around there sometimes. She no longer has an office there though as she once did when she was a state representative instead of a county commissioner.
She has changed, you know. Not so nice about the environment and what was that thing about uniforms a few years ago. That really turned me off.
Hey! That's what I should have said to her when I saw her! I'm afraid I would be arrested though. She is such a cop!
I wanted to see Gerri, that movie at the Hipp today, but I missed it.
It's very busy at my house. Mom lost a page of labels I made for her and we had to look for that.I noticed my desk was kind of falling apart and I had to fix that. The Yankee game was on and I needed to look at that. I had recorded it. It started at 1 PM.

I watched some of the game and then I went to bed for about a half hour. I got up and there was something wrong with the toilet. The handle was flushing the water. Apparently the rubber thing inside the tank had rotted away and I had to rig up something to make the thing flush. I used one of those ties you get with plastic bags. I don't know how long that will last.
Then I wanted to snooze but one of the kids around the block had a young lady visitor and he had to take her on his mini bike. Do they still call those things mini bikes, or are they really known as RVs now?
So I decided I would go out and mow the front lawn which I had attempted a few days ago but I hadn't got far at. I did the thick grass in the back of my house but I only circled once in the front yard. My ass hurt so bad I couldn't do anymore. So today, I inserted a suppository and put some cream on my anus and marched out there and did the lawn.
It was no real problem.
Check you later!

Fast Eddie's
Tuesday, April 8, 2003
Please check out my page if you haven't lately. I've fixed some links, etc. Mom and I are changing credit card carriers. We are leaving Working Assets. We might also leave the Long Distance. Mom is very close to her bank and I think she wants to use a card from Wachovia which has some very good points. There are cheaper Long Distance carriers too. I've known that for a long time. I like that one that is one charge for all calls. Danny Glover is their feature promoter. I like Danny. He was here (in Gainesville) reading poetry. That was really nice. I wonder if Gibson is half that good. He (Mel Gibson) reminds me a lot of G.W. Bad news. And did you see Reese Whitherspoons new movie, Home Sweet Alabama. A REAL STINKER. Promoting Great Republican values, she leaves a job in High Fashion to go back home to Bama. Far away from the black fags, lesbians and big money, to her former husband whom she has told no one about, including the son of the Mayor of New York City, whom they have cast as a woman, Candice Bergen. She, the first, apparently woman mayor of NYC, liberal and naturally hypocrite as they all are, and rich, you know, like all us in the Rockin' Left, like Mick and Bob and Paul and Joan, etc., has a thing about the so-called "tramp" her son is marrying. It is very satisfying to the Bush Party because Candice can call a girl a bitch and avenge the party for all that nastiness that Grandma Bush caused when she called the former first lady Clinton that same name. I am sorry I paid $3.99 for that movie. I chose it over Mel Gibson's Signs. I guess you know why. Yeah, Gibson's GOPness. That's all for now. If I think of anything more, I'll be back. Otherwise check my page and check out my profile at Nerve if you're a young woman of in her forties or just crossing 50. It is francois881.

Siddha Yoga
Wednesday, April 2, 2003
I have bought Gurumayi's New Year's Day Talk, "Trust," and I have watched it all the way through once, already. It wasn't easy. Last night I read that we should take it in parts. There are four parts to the talk, as there are four letters in the word trust. We should watch it one part at a time, it is said. Anyway, I also have been receiving a subscription to Adidam's Tapes. Great thing about his subscription service is you get to keep the tapes. He is a serious fellow and his followers call him Lord, so be prepared for that if you decide to subscribe. I also bought a pen from Siddha Yoga with the word Trust inscribed on it as well as a replacement for my lost japa ring. Odd thing, I had bought the pen to replace another that I bought at the beginning of the year. When I got the new pen I found the other. I put the DVD of Mayi's New Year's talk in my Gateway and I noticed that since the beginning of the year the hardware has deteriorated, or something. The talk didn't play very well. Luckily I have a regular DVD player as well. My birthday recently passed. My Aunt and Uncle sent me a card with a small gift ($10). I'm 50 now. I watched the Gators a lot since my last entry. I'm sorry they couldn't get any further, but I disagree with some statements I've read that they were predicted to go to the Final Four before the season began. They're a very young team. And, alas, the War. I get a mag called The American Prospect, and it's perspective on the war is very keen to me. One columnist compared it to WWI which, if you remember was a war to make the world safe for democracy. Germany was not accustomed to a system like that and eventually it gave way to the Third Reich.

Adidam Gateway
Friday, February 28, 2003

I helped a friend of mine get online tonight.

Tonight is Shivaratri.

You should chant God's name tonight.

It's power is multiplied a thousand fold.

Om Namah Shivaya.

Shri Ram Jay Ram Jay Jay Ram Om.

Gainesville Sun
Monday, February 3, 2003
I read today about a movement among the liberals to reinstate the draft. They think this will make better representation in the military. I think that's ridiculous. It will just bring back draft dodging. If they want true representation in America instead of bringing back the draft so more poor kids have to go to some stupid war the politicians have cooked up they should reform the electoral college. That's what really has us all pissed off at Iraq. The electoral college which was responsible for the election of G.W. Bush.

NORML
Monday, January 27, 2003
I read the Sun this morning and of course the big thing was the Super Bowl. There was an article about Super Bowl commercials. I didn't read it in its entirety but I did recall it saying humor was the key to the product advertisements this year which costs 1 or 2 million dollars a minute I think. This evening, having seen a terrific flik called Adaptation starring Nicolas Cage and Meryl Streep and set mainly here in Florida, I was driving home and I recalled a commercial I saw during the Super Bowl that wasn't funny at all. Did you see the commercial against marijuana? There was this pregnancy test being taken, and you thought it was these two adults who were concerned with its outcome, but it was really this girl whom we were supposed to believe was 13 or so and had been smoking pot and got pregnant. What a great commercial for this neanderthal anti-abortion administration. This tops the ones on terrorism and buying "drugs." I like to quote the word drugs because marijuana has become included in all discussions of the pain and destruction of narcotics abuse. This commercial ended by saying marijuana is not what we thought it was. I hate to put it this way, but marijuana, pot, dope as we often called it is being sold out as a harmless recreational intoxicant. It was really more than that. It broke down inhibitions. It awakened creativity. And it help us make friends with each other.

Gateway
Saturday, January 11, 2003
Did you have a nice Christmas? Happy New year? I have been waiting for my mom to become financially viable to buy the present she said she was going to buy. She finally let me make the purchase. Now, I hope she will proceed with her sofa!
I'm making some headway in my "sadhana", the yogi's word for your spiritual life. I read an interesting statement about our possessions. A woman had lost much of her belonging in a fire. She had little sense of loss and a voice said to her, those things were not yours, and what remains is not yours either. I think, maybe, it was in a dream. When she had occassion to talk to Gurumayi, Gurumayi said exactly that,"those things were not yours and what remains is not yours either." An idea like that , or that kind of consciousness, would certainly be very helpful in a work place where none of the things we use do belong to us.

Siddha Yoga
Monday, December 30, 2002
A friend of my mother's named Gladys died the other day. She was very old, much like another old friend, Tina Brock who also died recently. I happened to pick up one of Gurumayi's books of talks and I found a section that was talking about death. A very big line was about death laughing at you. She mentioned how we build houses and surround ourselves with friends and children as some kind of insurance against the future, but their is nothing we can do about death. She quoted from Tulsidas. In this poem Tulsidas asked what happened to the great kings who were so powerful and ruled the earth. He answers, death had them for breakfast. I had no idea the phrase went back that far. Oh, yes, I'm thinking of having someone for dinner. I wonder if making someone an offer they can't refuse goes back to a Tulsidas or a Kabir.
In the book of talks called Enthusiasm Gurumayi says,
“In one incisive song after another, the Indian saints throughout history have sent out the warning: death is laughing at you. They say, when you think you are busy with so many activities, when you think you are so important, pay attention: death is laughing at you. The poet saint Tulsidas sings:
It’s as if your body was shielded with copper

and you didn’t need the Lord.

But don’t you know death is hovering overhead?

Who hasn’t surrounded himself with land and house,

wife and wealth, children and friends?

But do they belong to you?

Can they go with you when you go?

Kings who thought they ruled the entire world,

where are they today?

Where are those kings?

Death ate them for breakfast.

What then will he do with you and me?

After quoting other God lovers, Gurumayi says these verses weren’t written to depress you but just to inform you of the ultimate helplessness of the physical body.

A Couch
Tuesday, December 24, 2002
Mom wants to buy a new couch. She is from the old school however so she is waiting 'til after the first to get "the best prices." She is also waiting 'til then to give me a Xmas present. She has been waiting a very long time to get this couch. We have a love seat that my brother and Missy gave to us and it has been the cause of many "outbursts." I use the term outbursts because it has become of some concern to me. Not getting the jobs I wanted at Xmas season has made these moments of anger that mom has and that I have of a little more concern.
Merry Christmas (anyway)!

Gateway
Sunday, December 22, 2002
My niece, Christine, had her baby this week. It was a girl and her name is Olivia. They told me the middle name, but I have completely forgotten it, now. There names are Cox. Funny, we have a cable company near about called that, Cox Cable. Otherwise, mom wants to get a new couch for Christmas. She has been waiting the longest time for one. At the same time she is talking to me about a computer. I don't know, I feel my options are being reduced to a lot of cards and monitors. It's funny how the numbers go up and down. I'm not sure I could run half of the things I begin to want when I read those computer ads and go to the web sites to "configure." Mom has an old pentium and I was just wishing I could get her a replacement. The idea came up that she could have my old one, as we did before, and I would get a new one. I have also had the idea I wouldn't need a new monitor, but that seems to be flying out the window as I look at these flat panel monitors and nvidia cards w/tv out and options for broadband.
IT'S DRIVING ME CRAZY!
And mom doesn't want to buy anything until after Christmas. That's a weird thing too.
IT REALLY DRIVES ME CRAZY!

I HAVE TO WONDER "WHERE IS HAPPINESS?"

The Archives
Tuesday, December 10, 2002
I went to the doctor yesterday. I have been treating this itch in my penis with a cream that a physician's assistant gave me, but it hasn't been doing much. The doctor diagnosed the problem as a yeast infection which she says I am getting because I am diabetic. She also gave me some Glucotrol, the brand name of Glipizide. If my sugar levels out my other problems may disappear. I have high cholesterol too. My triglycerides are in the 600s and they should be below 200; I'm not sure the exact numbers.