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he's so cute. hehehe! lucifer, on the other hand, is quite intelligent. she doesn't choke on things and run into glass doors. hahaha! anyway, today was nice. i stayed home and played guitar all day. i was excited about buffy, but it turned out to be a rerun. so, i changed the channel over to check out the new let's make a deal because the old one happens to be my favourite game show of all time. i was really disappointed. it made me miss monty and carol. oh well. i'm probably the only person who really cares anyway. ha! k...i'm off to start the sauce for my pasta. au revoir! sountrack: <a href="http://www.p-o-e.com">poe</a> </b></font><BR><BR> <font size="+2" face="Shirley"><b><u> <a href=""> escape when there's no one around...</a><br> </u> Monday, March 3, 2003 <br> argh! i have been typing up notes for my friends for the past hour because many of them were sick last week. i don't mind really, but the computer just shut down before i had a chance to email them off...and being the dumb ass that i am, i didn't save them! fuck! i'm not staying up and typing them again though...i'm just going to copy them tomorrow. it's worth the whatever amount of cents so that i don't have to stay up anymore. btw, i did end up going to higley's, where i finished a christmas carol and got quite a bit farther in two girls, fat and thin, which is really turning out to be an amazing book. methinks i'll add some quotes from it in a later entry. ooo! i also met this amazingly cute guy named andreas there. we discussed the war with seth and melissa's boyfriend, which was really interesting. he tried to introduce me to tom, but to his surprise, i already knew tom. i got tinglies when we touched. too bad he's too old and too cool for me. meh! anyway, i'm tired and incredibly pissed off at the computer. nighty night! </b></font><BR><BR> <font size="+2" face="Shirley"><b><u> <a href=""> satisfy this hungriness...</a><br> </u> Monday, March 3, 2003 <br> aaaaah! i'm feeling so damn sexy today (and horny...damn that red hot kitchen), and yet i'm so embittered. i don't feel like talking about my anger though, so i'll talk about my sexiness. i feel like running around naked. who's with me? ha! oo..by the way...annelise...you're welcome for letting you borrow my suspenders. mmm...suspenders...definitely on my list of sexy things. that includes...<a href="http://www.fortunecity.com/bally/tallow/51/index.html">guys in kilts</a> (btw...that page has some great pics of ewan in kilts) and guys with nail varnish and guys singing. oh god! anyway, nothing especially exciting happened today except in english...we're watching the muppet christmas carol! *dances* i absolutely love it. hehehe! meep to that! weeee...if you couldn't tell i'm really hyper, which is weird cos i'm also really tired. meh! methinks i shall go to higleys and get some hot chocolate now to finish my book...and the one i have to read for school, which i doubt i'll really read. meep meep! soundtrack: <a href="http://www.garbage.com">garbage...sleep together</a> ps. i got an email from the girl who's putting the <a href="http://www.spastica.net/garbage/tribute">trasher tribute</a> together, and it turns out that she really likes my recording of the song! yay! *dances* pps. <a href="http://nickmorzov.pitas.com">nick</a> has linked me from his site...muhahaha! </b></font><BR><BR> <font size="+2" face="Shirley"><b><u> <a href=""> feeling hella good so i'm gon' keep on dancing</a><br> </u> Sunday, March 2, 2003 <br> ahhh backwards...it was so much fun. hmmm...so i went down to <a href="http://plainjane.pitas.com/">emma's</a> house for a little shmoozing with people. we took pictures and had whores devores (hehehe...hors' dourves...spelling? meh!). then, it was off to the blue pyramid. we had been there two years ago for backwards, and it was really good then...but this time, the service was awful. they kept getting orders wrong, nicole never got her food, and they treated us like crap. it was really annoying. anyway, the best thing about the restaurant...they had ice cube stacked up in the urinals. it was great. i had to go see it, so i grabbed diana and we checked. yes! it was fabulous! so then we got to the dance and took pictures. the photographers had all these pirate props for our theme, "off to never never land". it was quite possibly the worst theme ever, but the props were awesome. they had parrots, hooks, swords, hats, and spy glasses. the gym also had the best decorations i've seen at a dance. they transformed it into a ship, and it was just amazing. the dance was fun. my legs are so sore though. i think it was the most fun i've ever had at a dance before. i did feel a little uncomfortable because i wasn't sure if diana was still mad at me or not, but she seemed fine. so, after the dance, people came over to my house. at around 1.30 ish, everyone left, except for <a href="http://www.livejournal.com/users/largerbarger/">shaun</a>, who spent the night. then, nicole joined us for breakfast. now i'm sitting here contemplating going back to sleep. i'm so tired! oo...ryan did the nicest thing ever last night. he knew that sammy had died, so he gave me a stuffed animal bunny to remind me of him. is that not the nicest thing ever? i love my friends! buh bye! soundtrack: <a href="http://www.garbage.com">garbage b-sides</a> ps. new friday five up later today...sorry so late! eep! </b></font><BR><BR> <font size="+2" face="Shirley"><b><u> <a href=""> it could be bunnies...</a><br> </u> Friday, February 28, 2003 <br> so today was an awful day in the world of bunnies. sammy hagar, my bunny, died sometime last night. i woke up and visited his cage to find him lying on his back. i thought he was just sleeping, but when i called his name, he didn't get up. i just don't understand what could have happened. he was barely a year old. i mean, i had twix for like seven years, and he was old before we got him. it makes me sad. anyway, other than that happening, today was pretty okay. the sopranos were supposed to have a meeting at lunch today, but since we know our stuff, we didn't have to go. we had an assembly for backwards tday also, so classes were shorter (woo hoo!), and our senior crowns had nintendo characters on the other side. yay for nintendo characters! anyway, as sad as i am about my sammy, i haven't really cried that much, which is strange because i am a crier. well, i have to go clean the house up for tomorrow. buh bye! soundtrack: <a href="http://www.garbage.com">garbage</a> </b></font><BR><BR> <font size="+2" face="Shirley"><b><u> <a href=""> so happy today...</a><br> </u> Thursday, February 27, 2003 <br> woooo hoooo! i finished my recording of 'kick my ass'!!! i'm so excited. it's sounds pretty awful, but i'm still so proud of myself. anyway, i made it into an mp3 and am listening to it right now. hehehe! you people can't get it though cos i made it special for the trasher tribute album. anyway, it took me forever to get it up because i record on my other computer, which is basically the slowest computer in the world. ooo...we made fried chicken in foods today. it was so good! greasy goodness! in sociology, we finished when a man loves a woman, which turned out to be a really good movie. i cried a little during it too. ha! i'm sure i mostly enjoyed it cos i love andy garcia, especially in the untouchables! i also had another great guitar lesson. so, it's been a damn good day, even though erin wasn't here. get well soon, erin! please! i love you! soundtrack: <a href="http://www.garbage.com">Garbage</a> </b></font><BR><BR> <font size="+2" face="Shirley"><b><u> <a href=""> can i dress you up in my love...</a><br> </u> Wednesday, February 26, 2003 <br> holy shit! my sister's birthday is in a few days. i already gave her the present i got her because i'm impatient when it comes to giving gifts. anyway, all this means that my birthday is coming up in two weeks. damn! i'm going to be 18. how strange is that? i can't wait, and at the same time it all seems so unreal. meep meep! meh...good eats is a rerun tonight. american idol should be good next week though, simply because my boy, <a href="http://idolonfox.com/contestants/clayaiken.htm">clay</a>, is coming back to try for a wild card spot. i doubt he'll get it, but i can always watch and fantasize. *wink* ok...i'm going now. buh bye! soundtrack: <a href="http://www.p-o-e.com">poe</a> </b></font><BR><BR> <font size="+2" face="Shirley"><b><u> <a href=""> i'm so sorry...you had to kick my ass...</a><br> </u> Tuesday, February 25, 2003 <br> meh...don't you love it when your head feels like it's going to explode? ok...i didn't realize how sexual that was until i just wrote it. anyway, i fogot to mention that i got an email from none other than jt leroy the other day about his new book. it is going to have the same characters as thidaat and sarah because "I am not ready to say good-bye yet to him. or my mom." *dances in anticipation of the new book* so, i've been recording stuff a lot lately, and i really like how things are turning out. the only problem is that i don't know if "kick my ass" is going to be ready by friday night. i think it will though because i've been working on it since christmas. all i'm doing now is adding the vocals. soundtrack: vic chestnutt...kick my ass </b></font><BR><BR> <font size="+2" face="Shirley"><b><u> <a href=""> rainbows have nothing to hide...</a><br> </u> Monday, February 24, 2003 <br> i was so tired today. i even contemplated going home when i started seeing things and got a headache, but i figured it'd be too much stress to go home. so i stuck it out, and i had a pretty good day. it was one of those relaxed days, which is so nice because i couldn' sleep at all last night. i was sleeping, but my sister woke me up in the middle of the night. so, i couldn't get back to sleep. meh! this afternoon was really nice though. i went to higleys to do my homework. mike gave me some free drinks, and i had a sandwich later. richard and scott showed up to study for ap bio, which made me laugh cos it reminded me of my lack of studying in that class last year. anyway, then emma showed up and we chatted with seth and john (big john) for a while. now i'm just sitting around figuring that i should go to sleep right now to make up fo my lack of sleep last night. good night! soundtrack: <a href="http://www.cranes-fan.com">cranes...population four</a> </b></font><BR><BR> <font size="+2" face="Shirley"><b><u> <a href=""> i'm not beautiful like you...i'm beautiful like me...</a><br> </u> Sunday, February 23, 2003 <br> ok...so for those who aren't going to read this long entry, just read this...i've changed the "my writing" link. check it out! ok...i'm writing this entry in response to may's recent entry in her blog. it's going to be a little long, but here goes anyway...may, i think that you are beautiful. in fact, i really think that everyone in the world is beautiful. when i was young, everyone would tell me that i was ugly. i would get questions about the scars on my face all the time and people would give me tips on how to improve my looks, as if to say that they didn't like the way i looked. not only did i get it from my peers, i also got it from my doctors. they'd always discuss the things that needed improvement on my face and how they'd made things uneven and should fix them. these were things that i had never really had a problem with until they had been brought up. then, i became incredibly self conscious and hated myself. since then, i've come to realize that i don't give a shit about what other people think anymore. i used to look at myself in the mirror and see someone beautiful, and i just couldn't understand why other people didn't see that person too. now, i really just think it's their loss if they can't see something beautiful in me. there's only one person i've ever been able to really believe when they said that they thought i was beautiful, and i do still believe him. so may, don't let people tell you that you're ugly because you aren't, and we do see that in you. i love you, may...and everyone else! </b></font><BR><BR> <font size="+2" face="Shirley"><b><u> <a href=""> my blood is pumping through my veins...</a><br> </u> Sunday, February 23, 2003 <br> went to higleys today with emma, annelise, ryan, and nicole. whilst there, we saw <a href="http://chirigami.pitas.com">kim</a>! yay! i haven't seen her in forever, so it was so nice. then, ryan, nicole, and i went with annelise to her house, where we played a little super smash bros. richard joined us a little later. nicole and ryan left to see a movie, so we ate dinner. then, richard hadn't seen sleepy hollow before, so we just had to watch it. i love christopher walken so much, and the headless horseman costume is just the coolest thing ever! so, that was my day. i'm so tired. i really wish that this was another three or four day weekend. methinks tomorrow i'll just stay home and sleep. nighty night! soundtrack: <a href="http://www.cranes-fan.com">cranes...population four</a> </b></font><BR><BR> <font size="+2" face="Shirley"><b><u> <a href=""> no, there was a peso in my ear...</a><br> </u> Friday, February 21, 2003 <br> argh! my ovaries were acting up again. my uterus was shedding. i hate this time of month! anyway, other than the awful cramps, today was fun. mrs. rios got back today. it was so nice because our class wasn't chaos. thank god! ooo...and we made these great hot pocket/calzone type things in foods today. so, after school, nicole, annelise, and i went to the galleria to get annelise some pants for backwards. they both bought some clothes, and i had to hold myself back from buying some too. we stopped to have a little snack at the cookie place, and then we left. later, ryan, john, and nicole came over. we played a little super smash bros, then emma, diana, ajay, and sarah arrived. ajay and emma left to get coffee. so, we watched my big fat greek wedding, which really was hilarious. i loved it. diana and sarah left after the movie, and then we played more super smash. oh how i love my video games! so that was my night. twas nice. now i'm watching my favourite television show, just shoot me. nighty night! soundtrack...chicago </b></font><BR><BR> <font size="+2" face="Shirley"><b><u> <a href=""> make just one someone happy...</a><br> </u> Thursday, February 20, 2003 <br> oh my god...i just got this email from someone on fanfiction/fictionpress, and i can't stop crying. it was one of the nicest things i've ever read. i mean, i get emails from people all the time for explanations or thanks, but this one was so touching. i'm such a pussy! </b></font><BR><BR> <font size="+2" face="Shirley"><b><u> <a href=""> everyday is a winding road...</a><br> </u> Thursday, February 20, 2003 <br> meep meep! had guitar today. yay! anyway, school was boring as usual. nothing too exciting happened. i was eating my meatball cheese sandwich in sociology today, but the lights were out. so, i couldn't really see what i was doing. the next thing i know, *plop* something lands in between my legs. i got meatball sauce all over the chair and my butt. hahaha!!! mrs. rios should be back tomorrow. i hope she will be at least. it's really been stressful without her here because everyone in choir thinks that they're the leader, when in fact, they aren't. i love my pets so much. lucifer and sammy were playing together today. it's so cute seeing a dog and a bunny lick each other. anyway...i'm off to do something else...haven't yet figured out what. bye! soundtrack: <a href="http://www.garbage.com">garbage bootlegs</a> </b></font><BR><BR> <font size="+2" face="Shirley"><b><u> <a href=""> right man...we don't give a fucking damn...</a><br> </u> Wednesday, February 19, 2003 <br> meh...it was back to school today. nothing really happened today at school. apparently there were 22 teachers out, which surprised r.b. mrs. rios is stuck in new york because of her choir conference thing. they got snowed in. after school, i went to meet my newest surgeon. we discussed crap, and he made fun of my desire to go to nyu. i actually felt like crying though. it's weird cos i never really cry about surgery stuff, but when he was talking about possibly having to have two more, i started to feel really sad. new poetry might be added sometime tonight. we'll see cos i have to finish some that i found today during government. soundtrack: chicago </b></font><BR><BR> <font size="+2" face="Shirley"><b><u> <a href=""> i'd sail ships for you...</a><br> </u> Tuesday, February 18, 2003 <br> god dammit. one minute i'm feeling really positive about something, and the next minute, i hate myself. i was feeling so good this morning. i saw this situation i'm in as a good thing, but now i can't stand it again. i feel like such an awful person, and i can't help but be depressed. you know what's even stranger? i don't feel like writing about it here, just how i feel because i'm afraid. that's not like me. argh! i'm going insane again. i swear! i am! i need to go scream...then, i'm going to go cook tons of garlic pasta and finish it off with some chocolate. that ought to make me feel better. soundtrack: <a href="http://www.garbage.com">Beautifulgarbage</a> </b></font><BR><BR> <font size="+2" face="Shirley"><b><u> <a href=""> It's gonna be may...</a><br> </u> Tuesday, February 18, 2003 <br> <a href="http://hometown.aol.com/garbge315/may.html"><img src="http://members.aol.com/garbge315/images/maybutton.jpg"></a><br> Join the Maysian Fanclub, the club for those who love May! </b></font><BR><BR> <font size="+2" face="Shirley"><b><u> <a href=""> walk on shells tonight...can't do right tonight...</a><br> </u> Tuesday, February 18, 2003 <br> why can't i stop crying? i feel like shit. fuck! </b></font><BR><BR> <font size="+2" face="Shirley"><b><u> <a href=""> she's a queen such a queen...</a><br> </u> Monday, February 17, 2003 <br> tonight we drove over to the paseo to see a movie. originally, we were going to see the guru, but we ended up seeing catch me if you can. it was pretty good, but i think that i didn't like it as much as i normally would have because i was really hyper. so, i wanted to do something a little more active. anyway, after the movie, we went to islands and had a mini celebration for john's birthday. then, we came back to my house to do some cubing. it was fun. we played charades, but that only lasted like 30 minutes cos it was getting too late. i don't know. i'm kind of bored and sad that everyone left already. why do people always have to leave before twelve? meh! soundtrack...the cranberries...everyone else is doing it... </b></font><BR><BR> <font size="+2" face="Shirley"><b><u> <a href=""> you would have done the same...</a><br> </u> Sunday, February 16, 2003 <br> do i have to express my love for chicago again? why yes i do...i saw it again tonight, and i have to say, i still love it. i'm a sucker for these new, flashy musicals...moulin rouge, hedwig, and now chicago. *sigh* i can only dream of playing velma kelly someday. what a great role. what perfect casting. what amazing entertainment! oh god. i feel empowered again. wooo hoooooo! hehehe! g'night! </b></font><BR><BR> <font size="+2" face="Shirley"><b><u> <a href=""> hanging by threads of palest silver...</a><br> </u> Sunday, February 16, 2003 <br> meh...i've been able to get so much rest this weekend. i'm so happy. i'm also glad that we have a four day weekend. it gives me a chance to catch up on my school work. hahaha! oo...speaking of school...i got into sonoma state and sacramento. i don't plan on going to either of them, but it's nice to know that i'll at least be going to college, even if i do have to go to one of my safety schools. valentine's day/night was nice. school was fun because everyone was happy, and there weren't actually that many people there. i like when my classes are smaller. we also got to work with bruce mayhall for choir. i adore working with him, and he really helped us out a lot. i only hope that our improvements stick with us. anyway, as i said, richard had called me wanting me to go to his house and watch videos with him, but i had already made plans to do something with annelise, diana, and sarah. so, i brought him along, and we all watched <a href="http://www.wasabi-lefilm.com/">wasabi</a> (which happens to be one of my favourite movies) and chocolat (another one of my favourites...ooo...johnny depp playing a guitar). anyway, nothing much happened, just flirting and cuddling. i stayed home all yesterday and just vegged. i wanted to see chicago today, but diana didn't want to go. i had actually planned to go because she hadn't seen it yet and told me she wanted to. so, she's going to call me later and we're gonna do something hopefully. buh bye! soundtrack: <a href="http://www.davidbowie.com">bowie...ziggy stardust</a> </b></font><BR><BR> <font size="+2" face="Shirley"><b><u> <a href=""> short little entry...happy valentine's day!</a><br> </u> Friday, February 14, 2003 <br> so i'm about to go out to have fun at a "girl's night" type thing, when richard calls...how interesting...i'll let you know what happens when i get back. ps. i asked john today! </b></font><BR><BR> <font size="+2" face="Shirley"><b><u> <a href=""> sometimes i regret i forgot all my dreams...</a><br> </u> Thursday, February 13, 2003 <br> i'm feeling so fabulous and calm right now. i just got back from my guitar lesson, and i talked to my teacher because i really wanted to quit. i have been playing for like three years, and i'm just not as excited by it as i used to be. he talked me out of it though. instead of working on random music that i bring in, we're working on scales again. i think he sensed my love for learning scales. hehehe! plus, he's going to ask some of his guitar students if they want to get together sometime and play with eachother. that sounds like so much fun. anyway, i'm just really glad that we talked about it rather than me just leaving. school was really interesting today too. we made french fries and tempura today in foods, which was great since i love fried food. then, in sociology, we had a panel of random school employees come in to talk about family and marriage. it was really so interesting. we had r.b., ms. ward, mrs. geisbauer (sp?), and dr something or other (he teaches math and i can't remember his name). it was actually a really good idea, which surprised me because of my contempt for harv as a teacher. now, it's raining like a bitch. it was beautiful and grey earlier, but there was no rain. all of a sudden, it just started pouring down really hard. twas quite nice. anyway, i'm going to go pilate-ize now. au revoir! soundtrack: <a href="http://www.thehippos.com">the hippos...both albums...</a> </b></font><BR><BR> <font size="+2" face="Shirley"><b><u> <a href=""> my life flows on in endless song...</a><br> </u> Wednesday, February 12, 2003 <br> oh the joys of chocolate. that's one of the things i really love about my house...there's always some kind of chocolatey goodness somewhere around here. i've been watching the food channel as usual, and it's been making me crave chocolate because it's chocolate obsession week. anyway, nothing too exciting happened today. i actually don't even know why i'm writing, so methinks i'm gonna go eat some more chocolate and do some pilates (good combo, i know). meep! shaun, when do i get my livejournal? ha! soundtrack: <a href="http://www.chairpage.com">silverchair...frogstomp</a> </b></font><BR><BR> <font size="+2" face="Shirley"><b><u> <a href=""> a riddle to soldier through this...</a><br> </u> Tuesday, February 11, 2003 <br> so now i think everything is going to be better. we both just needed to talk about our reasoning for everything that was involved in this situation. i was seriously hurt, but then again, so was she. i hate hurting other people, especially my friends. i'm glad that we resolved everything though cos i see diana as one of my best friends. i feel that i can relate to her better than i can with most people. i really don't know why, but i do. she seems to understand my problems and doesn't belittle my ideas when i talk to her. i should have realized how great of friends we were earlier and just confronted the whole situation before it got this out of hand. i did try to, but i guess i didn't do it in the right way. i hate learning things this way, but i guess it's all for the better. i'm just an idiot. to all my friends...i love you guys so much. i want you to know that i'd never intentionally hurt you, and i hope that you'd never intentionally hurt me either. *hugs* </b></font><BR><BR> <font size="+2" face="Shirley"><b><u> <a href=""> i am doll parts...</a><br> </u> Tuesday, February 11, 2003 <br> i'm feeling really depressed. once again, diana and i talked about things, but i feel like nothing is getting resolved. she tells me that it's fine that i ask him, but i get these vibes from her that she's secretly wishes death upon me. then, she told me that she was thinking of asking ricky, which i would totally be okay with cos that's completely over with, but then she changed her mind when i told her it was okay with me. so, not only am i confused, but i'm sad. i don't want to hurt diana or make her mad at me, but she's not really telling me the truth about what she wants. everyone else is telling me that i shouldn't even be worrying about her, but at the same time, i can't help but feel bad. i'm falling back into depression mode, which is never fun. i don't want to go talk to lynn, my psychologist, though cos i don't want to have to explain the whole situation to her. this whole thing is really just stressing me out, and now i'm thinking that may be i just won't go at all. then, there won't be any problems, and nobody will be angry. i don't mind me being hurt, as long as those around me aren't. i know that's not healthy, but i figure i can take it. meh! soundtrack: <a href="http://www.cc.jyu.fi/~petkasi/ccr-jcf/">ccr...who'll stop the rain?</a> </b></font><BR><BR> <font size="+2" face="Shirley"><b><u> <a href=""> you slowly fade and yet still remain...</a><br> </u> Monday, February 10, 2003 <br> i'm really confused today. so i was all set to ask john to backwards, and i was talking to nicole about how i should ask him. then, she mentioned that diana might ask him, so i asked her about it...and she kind of guilted me into letting her ask him. i don't know if she meant to, but that's how it felt. so then i was all sad and confused cos john told made this whole vow never to go to a dance with her again. i really want to talk to her to figure out what the hell is going on, but i'm so afraid cos i don't want to piss her off. anyway, today was quite uneventful other than that. i was playing with sammy hagar (my bunny) and i ended up falling asleep. ha! now i'm just watching snl, which makes me happy cos it's the sylvester stalone one, and i had been thinking about it a lot cos of the orange julius sketch. i've been seeing orange julius stores everywhere (ok...just once...but shut up). i'm updating cos ajay told me to, so there you have it. are you happy now, brown man? soundtrack: <a href="http://www.p-o-e.com/index.php">Poe</a> </b></font><BR><BR> <font size="+2" face="Shirley"><b><u> <a href=""> i go out walking after midnight...</a><br> </u> Sunday, February 9, 2003 <br> i got a dress for backwards today. it's dark blue and flowy. the only problem is it's a little big, but whatever. i can live with that. now, i just need to get a date. methinks i'm going to ask john, but i'm not completely sure yet. either him or richard would be good. so i went shopping with nicole, felicia, sarah, annelise, and emma today. most of us found dresses that we liked, so that was good. i'm just really tired now. i really despise sundays cos there's always that monday looming over trying to attack. eep! whatever...i just gotta relax. nighty night! soundtrack: <a href="http://www.curve.co.uk">curve</a> </b></font><BR><BR> <font size="+2" face="Shirley"><b><u> <a href=""> a true obsession is on the rise...</a><br> </u> Saturday, February 8, 2003 <br> aaaaaaah! everyone must go get <a href="http://www.cduniverse.com/productinfo.asp?PID=5455560">The String Quartet Tribute to Garbage</a>. it's so absolutely fabulous! i love their version of 'when i grow up'. they even have an original composition dedicated to garbage called 'rapped in a pink rubber suit'. it's been added to the collection page, not that anyone really reads that but me. anyway, i've been thinking a lot today, and i've realized that my high school career has really been filled with me not getting into things that i wanted to. i mean...i've tried out for chamber singers three years in a row, cheerleading (yes, i wanted to be a cheerleader at one point for many reasons...we can talk about that later), a part in the school musical, a position on the literary arts magazine staff, choir officer positions, amongst other things. i wasn't picked for any of these, and these are really the only things i ever tried out for. i admit that the abundance of failure is probably may fault in one way or another. the thing that really started to depress me was thinking of getting rejected for college just like i had been rejected from so many things in high school. i really got down on myself today, and i know i shouldn't do that because i really am a lucky, happy person. i suppose it's just one of those days. anywho...i need to figure out who i'm asking to backwards! i have it narrowed down to three potentials. hahaha! i can't wait! and then there are the joys of fanfiction. only those who post on there know the joys of opening up their mailbox to find that email with a new review of something you wrote. i'm not that great of a writer, but i love posting there to get positive or negative feedback and help with my writing from other writers. ps...join the maysian fanclub! </b></font><BR><BR> <font size="+2" face="Shirley"><b><u> <a href=""> i can't go on like this...a little bit of love, not a kiss...</a><br> </u> Saturday, February 8, 2003 <br> so tonight (last night kind of) diana, richard, ryan, nicole, annelise, may, and john came over to watch shakespeare in love. it turned out to be a really good movie, which i suspected. i shared a chair with john. i like sitting by him cos i like the way he smells. hahaha. anyway, after the movie was over, super smash bros. was played and the girls talked. i got to cuddle up with richard, which kind of got me more excited again about having a slight crush on him. i don't know. i'm so confused about my love life at this moment. i'm being too fickle for my own good. oh well...it's just the joys of being single. hahaha! meh! mmm..one of my arms smells like john and the other smells like richard. how funny is that? hahahahahaha! anyway...i'm going to stop annoying y'all with my "stupid girl talk". nighty night! </b></font><BR><BR> <font size="+2" face="Shirley"><b><u> <a href=""> boys in the girl's room...girls in the men's room...</a><br> </u> Friday, February 7, 2003 <br> *sigh* i'm so excited about my new may page. i plan to update it more later...ooo la la! hehehe! anyway, today was fun. i came to school for choir pictures, then it was off to the doctor to see what the fuck is wrong with my throat. it turns out it's only a virus, so there goes my theory about the dildo. after that, i went back to school. we all decided that we deserved a higley's break, so me, nicole, richard, ryan, may, diana, emma, and erin went to higley's to chill a bit. it was nice, but we all had to leave eventually because ryan wasn't feeling so great. at 7.30...people are coming over to my house to do something. so, that should be exciting. come on over if you see this by then. ha! anyway...off to look for a part to my digital camera. bye! *hugs and kisses* soundtrack: <a href="http://www.garbage.com">garbage...can't cry these tears</a> </b></font><BR><BR> <font size="+2" face="Shirley"><b><u> <a href=""> tell him what we said bout paint it black...</a><br> </u> Thursday, February 6, 2003 <br> poo! my throat feels so awful still. i'm going to the doctor tomorrow to get everything straightened out. hopefully i'm ok, which i probably am. the good thing about today is that i got a garbage bootleg today cos i won a contest on trash talk. that's always nice. i love trash talk. we're such a happy, friendly little community of garbage lovers. anyway, i'm gonna go back to sleep now...or maybe take andrew's advice and read bad poetry or get some ko's in a la dr. mario...hahaha! bye. </b></font><BR><BR> <font size="+2" face="Shirley"><b><u> <a href=""> but i have a talent, a wonderful thing...</a><br> </u> Wednesday, February 5, 2003 <br> i'm beginning to realize that my dreams journal is rarely going to be updated because i'm too lazy to write about them. methinks i'll just write the really exciting/eventful/meaningful ones. anyway, my throat feels like shit. i took a nap earlier, and when i woke up, it felt like someone had rammed a long, hard, dildo down it. shit! it hurts! argh! i'm so incredibly depressed, but danyell has her new bunny. that's so exciting! plus, we did a sectional with linda today, and i was so proud of us because we got so much work done...especially on the eric whitacre piece we've been trying to work on. it's tough, but we're really seeming to make progress. also, linda loves our class so much, which really helps. it's really sad, but she always tell us that the other classes (mainly chamber and 8th grade) abuse her and yell at her. when someone volunteers her time to help us learn our music for <i>our</i> benefit...i think it's only right that she be treated with respect. it really saddens me because she puts up with so much crap. *sigh* i'm going to go sleep now to see if i can shake this throat thing. night! soundtrack...<a href="http://www.curve.co.uk">curve</a> </b></font><BR><BR> <font size="+2" face="Shirley"><b><u> <a href=""> you walked into the room the sun hit my eyes</a><br> </u> Tuesday, February 4, 2003 <br> so i've started a new painting of shirley manson. i love drawing her. she's just so beautiful. that's about all that's been exciting about today. i suppose it's now time for me to decide who to ask to backwards. well, i'm not sure. so, if you guys have any suggestions...let me know. i'm off to paint...or read poetry. nighty night! soundtrack...<a href="http://www.garbage.com">Garbage...BeautifulGarbage</a> ps...bras make my nipples itch...and nobody but bridget has left a message about my new poem...poo! </b></font><BR><BR> <font size="+2" face="Shirley"><b><u> <a href=""> come down from your altar...</a><br> </u> Monday, February 3, 2003 <br> oh god! today was just so nice, until the auditions for the school musical, guys and dolls. i really wanted the part of adelaide because i guess i relate to her better than any of the other characters, and i figured that i might as well try out just to get more used to being up in front of people. i usually get really nervous and can't breathe. this time was no different. as i was singing the song, i choked. it was so bad and so embarassing. at least i did it though. i suppose i should just be proud of that. anyway, i made an arse of myself, and that's always fun. bleh! shit! i love the people in my english class now! scott and stewart, my two favourite people in the world, are in it. plus, emma and sara are there. then, there's richard, anne, caitlin, john, virgile, and kevin. i'm so incredibly excited! plus, i have miss anselm, who i absolutely adore! well, that's about it. *hugs and kisses* soundtrack...<a href="http://www.garbage.com">garbage...when i grow up</a> </b></font><BR><BR> <font size="+2" face="Shirley"><b><u> <a href=""> i wanna be dirty...</a><br> </u> Monday, February 3, 2003 <br> grr...the coding on my page got deleted cos i was being stupid, so i redid it. i actually like it this way better. i just have to find a font colour that's better than this gray madness. sorry for the inconvenience. i did, however, make a dreams blog! </b></font><BR><BR> <font size="+2" face="Shirley"><b><u> <a href=""> i move the stars for no one...</a><br> </u> Saturday, February 1, 2003 <br> holy crap! it's been such a david bowie kind of day. first of all, when we all went to noah's bagels this morning, there was this guy that looked just like david bowie. it was odd. whilst at nicole's house, we listened to the moulin rouge soundtrack, which is just filled with bowie songs. then, i listened to bowie music a little at my house, and i put on one of my david bowie shirts. after that, annelise and i went to pick a video. we happened to choose zoolander, which i forgot had david bowie in it. *sigh* he's just one of those people who just knows how to use their voice. so, annelise, diana, john, russell, emma, and blum came over and watched the movie tonight. that was fun. methinks i might just have to go watch labyrinth, my absolute favourite movie, now to complete my bowie experience. *grin* </b></font><BR><BR> <font size="+2" face="Shirley"><b><u> <a href=""> or a little plaid g-string...</a><br> </u> Saturday, February 1, 2003 <br> so i stayed home all friday til about 6.30, when annelise came to pick me up to go to nicole's house for the sleepover. we had to pick up a few things from the market, so whilst there, we saw lawrence, richard (different one), and bonnie. me, nicole, ryan, john, ajay, emma, diana, annelise, and may went to nicole's apartment. erin and jason were supposed to be there, but they called and said that they didn't feel like coming. we all just kind of rolled our eyes and got over it. it was another one of those fun, chill nights. we eventually watched national lampoons van wilder, which turned out to be pretty funny. the best part was when this fat man was being lowered down to a window...and the rope broke. hahaha! only emma, diana, and i ended up sleeping over, and in the morning, we went to noah's bagels and had breakfast. i've got this horrible, weird feeling now. oh yeah...and that whole richard thing. i don't think i like him anymore. the date was fun, but i'm just seriously losing interest. maybe i'll just go watch guys and dolls to see if i really feel like trying out. that sounds good. bye for now...*hugs and kisses* soundtrack: <a href="http://www.davidbowie.com">david bowie...diamond dogs</a> </b></font><BR><BR> <font size="+2" face="Shirley"><b><u> <a href=""> a gift from god...a small creation...</a><br> </u> Thursday, January 30, 2003 <br> *sigh* today was so much fun. it was the last day of finals, so we're finally ready to celebrate as second semester seniors! wooo hooooooooooo! anyway, me, richard, annelise, andrew, emma, ryan, nicole, erin, diana, and sarah ended up going to burger places and then meeting at the park in montrose. it was bunches of fun. then, we went to diana's to watch romeo and juliet. later, we ended up at my house watching yet another shakespearean movie, scotland, pa, with christopher walken. it was based on macbeth. i enjoyed it quite a bit, not to mention that i got to snuggle up with john. he smells nice. ha! anyway, i'm really tired now, but i'm so happy that finals are over. methinks i'll head over to fanfiction and read some poetry. bye! *hugs and kisses* love you guys! soundtrack...curve...doppleganger... </b></font><BR><BR> <font size="+2" face="Shirley"><b><u> <a href=""> tarts and whores, but you're much more...</a><br> </u> Tuesday, January 28, 2003 <br> so there are some good things to having your two easiest finals first, being that i have more time to study, but going with that, i also have more time to worry. i had choir and foods today. needless to say, i had a nice day at school. after school, i started to feel really nauseous though. i came home and immediately started working on my english final because i had no idea what other final i had tomorrow up until a little while ago. melody and russell stopped by, but i had to go to the hospital today, which was fun and exciting. i got to learn more about my next surgery, and my doctor was begging me to let him use me in a presentation. hahaha! i would've said "yes" without his long speech about why it would be important. after that, i had an interview with some lady from some paper about my experiences dealing with the hospital and our insurance plan. weeeee...fun day! hahaha! now i'm just stalling cos i don't want to study. soundtrack...garbage...sleep together! </b></font><BR><BR> <font size="+2" face="Shirley"><b><u> <a href=""> i'm overworked but i'm undersexed...</a><br> </u> Monday, January 27, 2003 <br> so...today was as really great day. it's the first day before finals starts, and i have foods and choir tomorrow. so, i went to higleys with andrew and bridget to talk for a while since she was in from harvard and andrew is leaving on thursday. such sadness, but it was still the most i've laughed in a long time. just hearing about their college experiences made me look forward to college that much more, and this time, it wasn't for the social aspect so much as the fabulous mannerisms that they associated with their wacky professors. oh how i love crazy people! hahaha! anyway, i stayed at higleys all night, waiting for emma. i "studied", basically that means i drew pictures for my english final and drew new pictures for the background of my blog. the bad thing about the night was that i found out a lot of things about seth that are really awful. i'm a little sketchy about the information i got since my source is quite biased, but i can really see some of the qualities in him. that makes me really sad, but i'm also really creeped out by him at the same time. yesterday, my puppy, lucifer, was running around outside, and she broke one of her toe nails. so she was running (well, limping really) around the house bleeding everywhere. seriously, there were circles of blood around the whole house. it was so awful. she went to the animal er and got it taken off. now she has a cute little bootie covering her foot, but it just breaks my heart seeing her limp around everywhere. i love my animals. so that was another bad thing. i'm really feeling so much better now though. so yay!! hehehe! soundtrack...ccr...lodi!! </b></font><BR><BR> <font size="+2" face="Shirley"><b><u> <a href=""> And I'll feed your obsession...</a><br> </u> Saturday, January 25, 2003 <br> ok...so whoa! strange day. i got up and was on the computer puttering around, when richard called. he wanted to go to tea with me. i was so surprised by his call cos i thought that he wasn't interested at all. well, i felt kind of weird going alone cos i was afraid of awkward silence moments developing, so i tried to find someone to come with us (even if he didn't want anyone else there). also, neither of us drive. anyway, annelise said she could come, but she had to cancel at the last minute. i got my dad to drive us there (he kept rambling about the beatles upon hearing his accent...it was so funny...normally people are embarassed by their parents, but i just think mine are funny when they act stupid). the tea place was really nice. i had never gone to a place like that before, so it was also different. once we had finished our tea and snacks, we wandered around old town a bit. it was fun just walking and talking. i suppose this was kind of like my first date since breaking up with ricky. how sad that his name was richard too. hahaha! anyway, then i called a few people. only annelise was home, so we met her at higleys and came back to my house, where we watched tv a bit. then, blum and diana came over and we watched some movie with chris rock and anthony hopkins. it wasn't actually that bad. my favourite part was when chris rock said, "CIA? Does that stand for cracker in my ass?" or something like that. he was really obsessed with things up his ass though, cos he kept talking about objects going up his ass the whole movie. anyway, that was fun, and everyone just left. so, now i'm sitting here, writing in my blog. i'm in pain too cos of my period. god damn ovaries. hahaha! anyway, that's it for now i guess. i've had a nice day, but now i'm tired. good night! soundtrack...kylie minogue...fever...ps...i hadn't realized that it's been almost a year since i've had this...i started in the beginning of february or sometime around then (midterms/superbowl time). strange... </b></font><BR><BR> <font size="+2" face="Shirley"><b><u> <a href=""> hide me in a hollow sound...happy ever more...</a><br> </u> Friday, January 24, 2003 <br> ahhh...today was so nice. people have been so angry lately, so it was nice to just relax. i went shopping with emma right after school. then, diana and i went to andrew's to hot tub it. it was so nice and relaxing. i still couldn't find a top for any of my suits, so i just wore a bra. of course, my nipples were quite visible, but like it mattered with andrew and diana. i actually think diana saw my cunt today too. hahaha! how hilarious is that? anyway, after that, andrew was going to go out with clinton (go baby go go!), so diana and i went to higley's to chat it up. it was so nice cos we both were quite frustrated with everything, so it was great to vent. last night, i ended up going to higley's for a couple hours just reading my new dennis cooper book, <u>period</u>, which proved to be enjoyable with my little cup of hot chocolate. i curled into a little ball on the couch that had some annoying sophomore girls, who were "studying" for some math test. anyway, it was a nice, relaxing day. i'm feeling so much less stress, but i'm <i>really</i> tired now...so good night! i love you! soundtrack: garbage...self-titled!!! </b></font><BR><BR> <font size="+2" face="Shirley"><b><u> <a href=""> Right down on my knees crumbling in disgrace...</a><br> </u> Thursday, January 23, 2003 <br> so today i got in a mini-fight with nicole. i was just really irked by the way she handled other peoples irresposibility. i felt like she was belittling us and trying to make us feel like awful people, which i'm sure she wasn't. it's just, when someone walks around telling people things really loudly just so that another person (today being both me and ryan) could overhear her thoughts on the whole thing, i can't take it. it really pissed me off, and i exploded, which i really shouldn't have done. but, i was sincerely angered and hurt by what she said. anyway, that kind-of-not-really got resolved. we made pizza in foods today, so that made the day a little better. the thing is that i feel like i'm betraying myself by letting myself get down this low, but i can't help but feel really depressed lately. also, everyone else is really stressed too, so i feel like nobody will ever have time to help me. at least i can take solace in this blog kind of. maybe i'll go to higleys tonight by myself with a nice book and get some hot chocolate. oh...that sounds really nice. soundtrack...poe...hello adding a little entry here a couple minutes later...i just read <a href="http://hkzcowgirl.livejournal.com/">bridget's blog</a>, and it made me feel so gooshy. aww...bridget. we miss you too! i love you all! </b></font><BR><BR> <font size="+2" face="Shirley"><b><u> <a href=""> i wish i had not woke up today...</a><br> </u> Wednesday, January 22, 2003 <br> bleh. i'm feeling so crappy right now. i just got back from this long search for my keys. methinks they fell out of the car somewhere along my journey. i went to my psychologist for my visit that i take every 6 weeks just to monitor things. that went fine. she told me that guys are useless boobies. hahaha! anyway, then i went to savon to get some construction paper for an english project. once i arrived home, i realised that my keys were no longer with me. so, i went back everywhere to find them, and i found nothing. so today wasn't one of my better days. plus, i really wanted to go to higleys sometime today, but i couldn't get up the nerve to call anyone to go with me because i was afraid that i wouldn't be able to find anyone. i'm hoping that tomorrow will be a better day. at least i wrote a poem today, no matter how terrible it might be. it's up at ff. au revoir! soundtrack...garbage...not my idea! </b></font><BR><BR> <font size="+2" face="Shirley"><b><u> <a href=""> you know, some guys just can't hold their arsenic...</a><br> </u> Tuesday, January 21, 2003 <br> nothing too exciting happened at school, but mrs rios expressed her love for chicago. so, being the good students we are, pascale, sarah, and i decided to go give it a little peek. i invited andrew along, and we went. it was great. first of all, i already love musicals, so that was a big plus. catherine zeta jones amazed me. she was so fabulous! also, it was one of those movies that just makes me feel empowered like an angelina jolie film. i love seeing a movie that makes me feel sexy and strong. plus, i can't stop dancing around and humming. i definitely wouldn't mind seeing it again. i suppose that's it for now. i'm off to feed my addiction to fanfiction (hey that rhymed!). anyway...nighty night! soundtrack...curve...doppleganger!!! ps...happy birthday, russell!!! </b></font><BR><BR> <font size="+2" face="Shirley"><b><u> <a href=""> i am afraid there is much to be afraid of...</a><br> </u> Monday, January 20, 2003 <br> so i went to the neurologist today. that sucked, mainly because she kept talking about my blood pressure being so low. forget the whole brain cyst thing...let's talk about my blood pressure. argh! what a waste of an appointment. i already know that my blood pressure is low! it's cos my heart leaks blood. argh! oh well. anyway, nothing else happened today really. i'm not looking forward to tomorrow, but methinks it will be fun anyway cos i'm feeling horny. hahaha! soundtrack...poe...angry johnny! <i>"i wanna kill you...i wanna blow you...away"</i> </b></font><BR><BR> <font size="+2" face="Shirley"><b><u> <a href=""> you're on the ride...you might as well open your eyes...</a><br> </u> Monday, January 20, 2003 <br> so today we had a little golden globes party at my house. matt and andrew arrived first, and they played a little super smash before the other guests arrived. then, it was basically a bunch of people watching the awards and a bunch of other people playing game cube. i did a little of both, but i was really starting to get my headache back because diana was yelling at the television the whole time. so, i went to play with ryan and john. we did a little super smash and a little mortal kombat. it was fun. once we were all done here, we went over to andrew's house for a little hot tub action. it was nice, but the only action was between me, diana, emma, and andrew. it was fun, but it would've been much better if i wasn't playing touchy feely with two girls and a gay guy. actually, it wouldn't have necessarily been more fun, but it would have definitely been more sexually exciting. oh well. all in all, it was a good day. i'm so glad that there is no school tomorrow. it's kind of nice to get a break sometimes. well...tis time to sleep. nighty night! soundtrack...hello...poe! ps...can anyone see the background that i have? emma says that all she sees is yellow. it's supposed to be me with little devil horns... </b></font><BR><BR> <font size="+2" face="Shirley"><b><u> <a href=""> how can i explain if you don't want me to?</a><br> </u> Saturday, January 18, 2003 <br> hahaha! so you know that crappy ass garbage tribute cd i bought yesterday for the sake of my collection? well it's worse than i thought. first off, the band's name is wicked vixen, and apparently they're from sweden, the land where people should stick to looking pretty (unless you sing dancing queen...hahaha). anyway, it's so bad that it's probably the funniest cd i own. the songs sound like a drunk asian tourist group doing karaoke...or madonna. ooo...and the fabulous back up singers sound like the spice girls, especially that nasally one that does all the kung fu flips. the world is not enough is definitely the worst track that i've heard so far. the background music sounds almost exactly like garbage did, which i'm not a fan of either, in covers at least. i love when covers are like the song, but not exactly like it. on the other hand, i can't wait to buy my instrumental tribute to garbage or the trash talk one that i'm featured on cos at least i know that the tracks won't <i>all</i> be incredibly horrible. with that out of the way, i've been feeling so crappy today. my throat is dying. i slept all day, and i really wanted to do something with my friends today too. oh well! at least it's a three day weekend. that's something to be happy about. well...i'm off to fanfiction land. if you wanna see what i did yesterday, i archived...so use the link. nighty night! soundtrack...crappy ass tribute by wicked vixen...hahaha!!! </b></font><BR><BR> </P> <PRE> </PRE> </BLOCKQUOTE> </TD> </TABLE> <br> </TD> </TABLE> </CENTER> </BODY></HTML>