Grrrrrr-ness, our shed got broken into again last night. So I'm pretty pissed off about that! And by the way, happy mothers' day!

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I feel so bad, I'll write this in script form as it's easier;
Me : What are you doing today?
Dad : Quite a lot.
Me : Have you got grandma anything for...... Opps I'm really sorry dad....
Dad : *chuckles* it's ok, you forget don't you
I'm such a f**king reject, my grandma past away in January and it totally slipped my mind

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Went in town to get some chocolates and a card for mothers day. Me and Jess saw these two moshers one was wearing an 'Idlewild' black t-shirt and baggy black pinstripe trousers, half way down his butt! Held (I say held I mean pull down!) with a studded belt and you could see his black boxers! :P He has brown wavy-ish hair shoulder lenght and was very cute! I told Jess I liked him and next time we saw them, she shouted "That one?" And pointed.... to the wrong one! I said "NO! The other one!" And they were laughing and smiling at me, so we went in the same shop as them but I'm too shy and didn't say anything so I'm regretting that! Then Jess saw this lass and rip-offed with her to go watch her boyfriend play pool, leaving me to get the bus home by myself!!! Worse still two kids from my year Dovey and Kirby where getting on the same bus! And then to top it all off, the bus filled up and this guy (20ish) had to sit near me, and like his legs were touching mine and I was all urghhhhhh. So today started off really fun and then turned into not so fun

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Blah!!!! I've eaten tons today! I came home and had the house to myself so I basically raided the cupboards! I like eat a full block of cheese nearly! And ermmmmm lots of chocolate and then a pot noodle thing and a bun and some of the cheese went towards a cheese and coleslaw sarnie! Yet I'm still hungry! Anyone wanna come get some donner meat with me?!

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Ok so today I'm mega happy, Mum bought me a new Fred Perry jacket, it's black with two pink stripes down the sleeves and a pink logo. Although I now have to do three months worth of washing up for it!!! She also bought me a pair of New York trackie bottoms, so I'm gunna look well kik in P.E. tomorrow!

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So all in all today has been OK, I've been in a good mood all day! Woowoo but I have practise tests in April and I have two lots of science coursework and some media studies coursework which needs to be done for tomorrow!!! Stress! Proper good in maths today 'coz Robert wasn't hear and I HATE him! I got a new email address yesterday too, my mate Becky made it up for me, it's violentturkishdelight@hotmail.com because Violent Delight are one of my fave bands and Turkish Delight is the food thing so, Violent - Turkish - Delight lol it seems weird but it's growing on me! OMI GOD! Tthe Weezer : Hash Pipe video the lead singer resembles Kurt Cobain in the 'Lithium' video I just noticed! It's the glasses! That reminds me you MUST get "Heavier Than Heaven : The biography of Kurt Cobain" by Charles R. Cross, it's a read good read, totally kik and enthralling he really struggled to get where he was. OOOh I just thought I'd let you guys know I have 35 Busted posters! LMAO actually I have more, but some are the same so I keep them all in my Busted folder but the swop ones are on my wall! Visit their site Busted They're like my tied fave band! Tied with Foo Fighters Hmmmm I'm going to quote my autobiography now to explain why I like those bands ^_^ " My favourite band is a tie between the 'Foo Fighters' and 'Busted' as I feel they are both incredibly talented. I really admire Dave Grohl, former drummer of 'Nirvana' and front man of the 'Foo Fighters.' He left 'Nirvana' after lead vocalist not to mention close friend, Kurt Cobain took one last dose of heroin and with gun laid in his mouth, shot away. In short he committed suicide. Dave formed the band 'Foo Fighters' and recorded the first self-titled album by himself, piecing together the band after in time for touring. He is known as a "drum god" and "the nicest man in rock." And what can I say for 'Busted'? Wow, what talent! I fell for the guys at a summer gig, Feel the Noise Live 2002, 27th July, East Park, Hull. To be precise! They performed their debut single, 'What I go to School For' which rocked the charts, entering at number three! And 'Crash and Burn' a track of their album, 'Busted' (soon to be their third single!) I have nothing but respect for these guys as they are young, writing their own original lyrics and can play a wide range of instruments between them, unlike most boy-bands who do cover after cover and probably couldn't tell the difference between and electric and an acoustic guitar!" That's extracted from "My Autobiography" which was a piece of English coursework I had to do, I got an 'A-' for it, not half bad, eh?! Oh yeah I'm going to write my song on here for you guys to read here it is; "Desire"
I'm sitting here
Drowning in my self doubt
Contemplating whether the end should be now
I feel like taking a knife to my wrist
Watching it bleed, bleed, bleed
This is what I need
Maybe overdose and sleep for a while
Saying "I'm fine" is just me in denial
'Coz I'm all smiles and sunshine on the outside
Baby you'd freak if you saw the inside
Everything's so twisted and everyone's so fake
Should I put an end to it all?
You wouldn't even notice
Like you don't now
Think I'm happy?
You're wrong, I'm suicidal
Twisted little freak; that's me
I'm fed up of this world
Why should I be so god damn perfect?
I want to be me, I need to be me
I feel like shouting and trashing this place
Almost choking on the tears
Why don't you realise I'm feeling this way,
Haven't you noticed over the years?
I'm just some girl to you
And all this girl wants is to be held
To felt loved
But no one even notices
Now here I sit
It won't hurt; it's only a mere slit
Draw the cold blade across my cold skin
My final sin
Blood and emotions trickle out
And all I ever wanted was to be held in your arms...
©Bethany 2003 Yep I wrote that, it's autobiographial but it's really dramatised and empathsised I would NEVER get THAT depressed or upset, I think! *crosses fingers* I just went over the top when writing it to push the song to the edge and make it a whole lot better, you might not like it and I admit, hands up I suck at song writing but this got a really good responce when I showed the people at a message board I'm on, I'd give you the link but it's private! I also really like this verse, it's isn't mine (obviously) so I can't give any credit as I don't know who wrote it. It has no title that I am aware of, but my friend Lou calls it "Pretty Fountain"
"I'm gunna write a poem
a poem with a twist
I'll write it with a razor blade
I'll write in on my wrist
and when i've finished writing
a fountain will appear
and with this pretty fountain
my problems dissapear"
Everybody seems to like it, appart from the mental images but they don't bother me and the poem doesn't freak me the least, I think it's cool! Anyway I've wrote enough! See you all later xxx

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Just figured out the whole older enteries and that stuff. My friend made me a really kik Avril layout but I'm way to much in love with this one to change it!!! By the way this layout that I'm currently using was made by Janette you can visit her blog at Forgotten Darkness

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