Recess week came and went so quickly I wonder if it existed at all. It's been a busy one, but definitely well-spent :)

1. My search for an internship+job has yield some fruitful results. Got the calls I've been waiting for like finally.
2. Spent an awesome weekend on a roadtrip to Malacca to attend my cousin's wedding.
3. Finally got to spend time with Love and celebrated our days together.


I think the big guy up there probably heard my cries to break the routine in Friday's entry. Initially I really dreaded the weekend cus I had a 20% assignment due Monday which I haven't started at all. So it just felt like a drag to go away. But it turned out to be a blessing in disguise.

The wedding was a really happy and glorius affair. It wasn't glitzy and glamorous, nor held in some white and awesome ballroom. The restaurant was small yet atmosphere exuberant; everyone was walking around taking pictures and catching up. :) There were no professional photographers or sophisticated lightings & costume changes. Everyone just walked up to the newlyweds and kept snapping away. It was relaxed, simple but full of laughter. I'm glad we went!

Some pictures from the weekend!




Hehee shopping! The mall is hugeee.








The newlyweds! Her dress is so fluffy and pretty!


The family + Alex


Hahs most of the photos are with Papa so I might upload more when I get them hehe laters!

The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints.

We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness.

We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.

We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to life not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We conquered outer space but not inner space. We've done larger things, but not better things.

We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes.

Remember to give time to love, give time to speak! And give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.

And always remember: Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.

by Dr. Bob Moorehead

Life has been so mundane I'm not sure what really occupies my thoughts anymore. I feel so trapped doing the same things all the time.

I want to feel alive again.

I want to smell some fresh air, lie on the grass and stare into the clear blue skies. I want to be free from all the things I have to do, all the expectations that people and the society force upon me. I want to jump out of a moving plane and know that I am but a mere speck in the sky.

I want to fly away.

After three days worth of trying to get myself meaningfully employed, I realised what I really want to be.

I want to be Molly !!



Yup that's Molly. She sits on my bed all day with the sole purpose of being round and cute.

Welll yes big dreams but never hurts to think about it just for a little bit innit? Well actually, there may just be one potential employer currently.



HAHA kidding (not). Sigh in case you were wondering I'm not that tall, I cheated with my tippytoes :C Hahahs yes that's why I cropped our feet ahem. Oh well I'm not trying to make myself look tall you know, just trying to make him look less huge (!!). Haha okay I am so not getting employed :/

On a different note, thank you for H.kitty :))



How adorable right!

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OKAY I really got to get my lazy ass moving to do some work. I am such a slug it is embarrassing. All I've done is eat, watch teevee and eat more. Come to think of it, I think I am starting to look like Molly already. Come on waisy do some work!!

It's so liberating everytime I cut my nails, I'd wonder why I didn't do it sooner.

Maybe it's because it's an annoying reminder that I need to get my nails done. Leftover nail polish is. not. acceptable.

It's good to "take a break" although we all know in reality this is no rest time. I will wake up in horror on Sunday morning and freak out. SIGH waisy stop being so lazy.

HURRRYYYYYY !

What a year it's been; time passes so quickly. Wellll despite all the drama & sometimes lack thereof, I'm looking forward for more.










Happy one year, Dearest :)

I'm leaving
But don't ask where I'm going
I'm not coming back
I can't anymore
Don't point a finger at me
I have asked nothing of you
and given everything of me
If I had what it took, I would have ended this long ago
But my feet are bound
Up in ties that bind
To which I tried in vain to be blind
But no more
as of now
3.10a.m. on a Wednesday morning
After thirty tired years of this
Day in Night out
I crave rest, that's all
Don't make me the martyr
The buck stops here
Cut-up worn-down

I have left.
What does it take?
I need a razor-blade
To make two incisions deep and wide enough
or more?
It looks blue to me
Imagine how blood red it'll look
when I'm done

I seem to have done this before
Many times over
Between the moment of contemplation and action
is a quiet universe in which I'm suspended
Numb, weightless, even liberated
If I cross that line
by making two lines or more
There may be nothing here or there
God, what if I tell you I don't believe in you anymore?
That I've got better things to do with my death
You could always visit me in hell if you want me back.

I like to surf UO during Valuation. Haha right that was pretty random. Anyway here's some of the awesomeness they featured


If only our homes in SG looked like that.


ADORABLE panda loaf omg.


I am so worn out I'm going to sleep soon! I'm so glad it's finally the weekend cus I can finally sleeeep in omg. Tortured soulxxx :( Wellll and it's finally recess week yeay what a relief.

Brief recap on the past few days:
- Dinner with UConn friends on thursday. Omg Jon came to school, like finally :D :D
- MY LOVEE (papa) sent me home after tutorial so happyyy!
- Lunch with Candice, Griddy & Nettes on friday :))
- Burnt beeswax during R&P lecture (haha)
- Bumped into Huisy (!!) like freaking finally in the canteen zomg
- Ayam Panggang + study with Philip friday night!
- Finally caught a glimpse of Love during the NUS-DBS International Case. :)))


Well yes meaningless updating ohwellsss. I can't wait to complete my jersey necklace heheeee :))

2 more hours!

I'm tired.

I wish yesterday would last forever. I miss my friends already.

And, I need to stop attempting to making UO necklaces and actually start studying for tax.

ARGH my stupid computer destroyed the entry!

Anywaysss I decided to start over since it was a good day :)) Met the girls for dinner and it was really fun! <3 two-thirds of us were punctual today its unprecedented in clique history!

After deliberating for awhile outside Sushi Tei about the merits of Kuishin Bo, we decided to have our own buffet at Sushi Tei zomg greedygalzzzz. Sheer happiness though!


HAPPY BIRTHDAY XIAOOOO :))






HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEE




OMGG THE FISH! (hehee the one I refused to share)











I need more days like this. Can't wait for next week :))

Can someone revive the 80s please??



Debbie Gibson looked so cute then. Come on, who goes on stage with a tee-shirt and a ponytail? :) Listening to this song makes me happy everytime!

There are no guarantees
but if it means
there's even a possibility
then I'll give up whatever it takes
I know I've made some mistakes before
It may be just another closed door
But we could be together
for a while

I want some GG.

I have awoken from my sickly stupor and realised:

1. I am hungry; and
2. I have tonnes of work to be done - that I've previously procrastinated.


I am amazing glad to be hungry cus that means I am actually well! But my appetite grew too quickly omg be careful of what you wish for. Okay so what should I do? :(

1. Sleep right now, which solves the hunger; or
2. Stay up to press on in my 3603 tutorial.

What a tough choice. I think... I'll choose the former. BEAUTY sleep >> shrivelled auditor. Tomorrow will be a brand new day. :)

I like my choice already.

Hahs yes I am so very happy with my skirt :)) Thrifted at 10dollars, and after a little hemming on my part, it looks perfect (to me at least) actually. Good job waisy

Yesterday was happy :) Had a first date which ended really abruptly ohwell we'll try again next time. So anyway Love and I had dinner and started talking about dates. Hilarity I swear, thanks for listenings to me.

Made it through the night without fainting (thankfully). Told you I was healthy like an ox. Okay maybe not hahs. Sighhh the weekend is ending! :C

Had a little fun on Thursday:








HAHAHAS like Adrian would say: don't judge! Well realised I hardly wear my boots (esp in SG) so I had to take some photos! Twas fun :)

Anyways, Thursday was a good day :) Finally got the class facilitation for my GEM module done! Hurray 30% down :)) Then my papa picked us from school after my horrid tutorial which ends at 915pm. Hahs saved us the trouble of public transport. And most importantly we finally got to spend some time together :)) It's been awhile since we last did this heheee YAY

Oh yes, I skipped Valuation today. Well besides the fact that I am sick, I decided that I probably won't learn much even if I went. Haha ohwell...

Anyways I was feeling kinda sick since yesterday. Tried to sleep it off but it didn't really work cus I was still pretty feverish in the morning. Decided to take Tylenol and after two hours of sleep, my temp dropped from 37.9degC to 36.1degC. OMG I am alive again! :D I can't wait to eat! My appetite has been like shit for the past two days.

This was a photo taken when we were leaving Death Valley. It was a really beautiful place, although the weather is so harsh. What seems like water ahead is actually just a mirage. How cruel innit?

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I have been trying really hard in school to be a good student. It is pretty hell-ish sometimes but things seem pretty okay thus far (omg I'm jinxing it right now). Well anyway, took a break from doing work the past two days and I kinda started doubting my life. I'm not sure if this is what I want to be. I see others really challenging their creative limits and I wonder why it isn't me. I'm not sure.

I don't just want to do things that I am competent at, I want to do things that I like. I don't want my youth to slip through my fingers and later clench my fist with regrets.

I want to feel alive again.

I miss you :C

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Did a little bit of sewing early afternoon which kinda helped to kill my restlessness. :) I didn't make anything (unless bows count), just kinda altered some of my clothes.

Can't believe it's week 5 already. This time last semester, I probably just got back from a weekend trip to New Haven. Ahh, the goodness of Frank Pepe, Louis' Lunch, superyummy Ethiopian food, Chips with salsa+guacamole && Sangrias :)) SIGH, the good old times.

Anyways while having lunch with my Fruity friends yesterday, we were discussing plans for recess week. Jiams asked if we were going anywhere, and we promptly pointed out "It's not springbreak!!" I want to go to Miami again. Aikes I wish we had a week's break where we can just be free to do absolutely anything.

Ohwells, time for a nap. Laters

Happy days.

I want one of these:



And in every colour too.




Oh, the joys of UO.

Today's black and green day.

Black tank, green jeans.
Black bag, green carrier.

And I'm drinking from a can with a black label and green packaging- Heineken. Awesome, been awhile since I last had a beer.

Well I'm glad today's over and done with. It was way too long to be tolerable. But we did have class together today, love. And, I was handsomely rewarded at the end of the day. <3 Thank you.

I want to go back to UConn.

(Post-dated entry)


Had a really long day today, literally and figuratively. Valuation today just felt like a finance class, a topic I probably dislike more than valuation itself. Felt pretty darn depressed in class drifting through the motions like what I used to do.

Caught Coco Avant Chanel which was pretty awesome IMO. Tautou is a such a delight to watch, I like her more so than before. I'm so glad I caught the show!


In Priceless, which was seriously brilliant.


Coco Avant Chanel


Met the BBCians after for some bitchy action in Xiang's place. Actually we met for her bday celebration, just that my friends are just bitchy (HAHA). Happy affair seeing the girls, and hp drove :)) Pat on the back!

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Well, I had this song stuck in my head I'm not sure what. Part of it had to do the part of the song sounding like Herald Square. I miss the place and I miss America. And another reason why it was stuck was probably the hook. Powerful shitz it's doing a great job in making me feel smaller than I already am. I wish I was smart, or good at something.


I know I got a bad reputation
And it isn't just talk talk talk
If I could only give you everything
You know I haven't got
I couldn't have one conversation
If it wasn't for the lies lies lies
And still I wanna tell you everything
Til I close my eyes

Suddenly I'm down in Harold Square
Looking in a crowd
Your face is everywhere
Been turning round
Do you want me now?
Do you want me now?

Well, believe it or not, he's wearing a dress. Yes like seriously click on the picture to look. How awesome is that?

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So lately I've been toying with the idea of shifting to tumblr. But we'll see, don't think I'll bear to leave everything behind.

This thing is impossibly CUTEEE !

Well I finally archived. Sad to see Lissy go, but that means new space for more stuff. :)

I am so glad it's finally Wednesday, also known as weekend to yours truly. :) Feels good to wake up knowing I don't need to go anywhere.

So anyway, yesterday was a happy day :) Tax ended really early cus our Prof thought he was wayyy behind so he sped like a train and threw us passengers off one by one. So by the end of the lesson, our usually inquisitive (more like endless bombarding questioning) class had zero questions. Think we were just dying to get out; okay at least I was.

Met the fruity friends for our usual Tuesday lunches. Had some xoxo time, but it was just the good old happy times. Finally got the chance to talk to Sara on our way home :))

Took a 2.5hour afternoon nap after downing insane amount of food. Then Love picked me up for dinner :)) It was good to spend some drama-free time together. We tried to study after but I succumbed to the zz monster after answering one part of my law tutorial. I TRIED :/

Listening to this song from Mauracher. The video's pretty creepy btw

It's me / in the train compartment /
two girls / sitting next to me /
I was / on a trip that last five hours /
the girls / took out a rosary.

Life had been pretty good since I came back. Things were going smoothly and they somehow seemed to work out. I'm not sure what's happened but seems like Lady Luck decided to shove me back into the hellish life in NUS.

I don't like myself anymore

Sigh, I get the feeling this might just be the start of a vicious cycle that we're all too familiar with.