past three days were insanely fun :D wheee even the air smells fresher now! hahs pardon the previous entry aye, was dead tired and slightly woozy LOL

aniw was thinking of the times we had rehearsals. nahh not with staje but LD. miss rehearsing for the plays, and all the little competitions with crazy deadlines. hahs randomness but miss those days (:

aniw i need to shop for sth. hahs the bbcians should know best cus i kept flashing them! sorry :| meeting joyce tomm yaynessss~

and i want more BEACHING!

cant wait for next weekend to come :)

hellos ! :D

my gf says: i bought new clothes
and her boxers are CUTE!

wheeee we're all ready to rock the nightttt~

by the way, John T Must Die.
and girls in dresses are HOT (:


yay random random!

who would have thought
that you could hurt me
the way you've done it?
so deliberate, so determined

and since you have been gone
i bite my nails for days and hours
and question my own questions on and on

so tell me now, tell me now
why you're so far away
when i'm still so close

you don't even know the meaning of the words "i'm sorry"
you said you would love me until you die
and as far as i know you're still alive, baby
you don't even know the meaning of the words "i'm sorry"
i'm starting to believe it should be illegal to deceive a woman's heart

i tried so hard to be attentive
to all you wanted
always supportive, always patient
what did i do wrong?
i'm wondering for days and hours
it's here, it isn't here where you belong

anyhow, anyhow
i wish you both all the best
i hope you get along



rawr my entire entry disappeared with a couple of wrong buttons ._. ohwells maybe its a good thing to have all that unhappiness gone afterall!

yay listening to fall out boy again :D hahs happy! oh we're liars but we're the besttttttt :D dont ask why i like them so much, i just do. plus the song that has been stuck in my head just came on, saving me the trouble of finding it cus i forgot the title :| hey its not my fault for forgetting the title considering how random they are

gotta admit that ive been feeling real low lately. then again, i guess most people arent at their peak with the stress & all. this week was quite a disaster not being able to complete all my papers, with the exception of GP. shant go into that since it doesnt make me feel any better

caught The Devil Wears Prada yesterday! :D hahs twas pretty good actually, as opposed to what critics said. ive no idea why i got so high laughing that i couldnt stop even on my way home. all conversations after the movie generally resulted in me giggling at nothing at all hahas im sorry my dear!

hiaks my fringe is kinda long again :( should i trim it or leave it? hahs feeling quite random ive no idea why. xiu says i like weird things & i told her she has great taste :D hahs explains our choice in friends ;)

ohhhhhh one important thing i was pitasing about that disappeared just now! havent seen lei for quite some time :( havent met up with others since forever too but i dnt really care for that as much. girl i miss you, MUCH! hahs due to my lousy mood recently i put a happy picture in my file to cheer myself up. and the first photo i used was the one taken with her on 15dec last year :D lets go beaching/bitching togt soon! and bake brownies/oreo cheesecakes tooooo gringrin :D

to end my entry in a happy note, i cant help but thank rate again :) hahs i would have died sometime this week if it wasnt for all the encouragement. thanks dude and you owe me something LOL okay i doubt hes reading this.

week two, here i come! :D

Sigh.

although i know there isnt pressure for me to perform well in the prelims cus i havent quite started full steam, i dont wanna do badly either

who does, right?

Happy Birthday, xiang & alex :) though im not so sure about the happy part


but uh oh, i love her because
she moves in her own way
but uh oh, she came to my show
just to hear about my day


cute happy song :D i sure need more of them; the stress is getting to me. dont know how it started or why i bother at all. right from the start ive already planned to study with the A's in mind to prevent burning out prematurely. but apparently not, judging from everything thats happening. i never knew dropping hair could be so depressing until last night when it wouldnt stop. my appetite is so poor i feel like im trapped in the poverty cycle or sth

maybe rate is right, i might just die while im halfway done with the paper. if that really happens please tell my parents i love them and my mum sorry i cant celebrate her birthday with her

rawr :( okok i ought to drive these morbid thoughts from my head. its probably the lack of sleep

happy thoughts .. mm oh im glad for rate :) for the first time i managed to cheer him up, albeit not by much. well at least i dont turn to him only when im down & need help. hahs okay its just me cus i constantly feel like a liability to him though he doesnt say or feel tht way

dont cry to me.
if you loved me,
you would be here with me.
you want me,
come find me.
make up your mind.

you never call me when youre sober.
you only want it cause its over,
its over.


song's stuck in my head for some reason. anyhows im glad ive someone to call in such depressing times :) shouldve done so early, like last night, but better late than never eh? hahs hope my rate constant stays that way despite temperature changes. LOL okay i shouldnt bring in chemistry in my entry

speaking of which. you know those instances where girls sleep with others to gain some form of benefit right? ive been doing that ALOT, and hopefully it pays off man

hahs not with the examiner obviously ._. ive been holding my Chem prelim package to sleep (or more accurately, dozing off) so hopefully i'll benefit from it too! uhh benefits do not include a strain neck or grumpiness

was listening to a countdown of the top10 boyband hits and realised how they cease to exist now. hahs kinda miss hearing those cheesy ballads and happy silly songs somehow.

alrights good luck everyone :D

and fabian if youre reading it IS your fault though i dnt really see how you couldve controlled it. :D hahs happy birthday in advance!

im trying to make it through each day
im falling apart now i every way
im finding harder to get by
theres a hole in my heart
and i dont know why
now ive come to realize
im slipping away


been riding on a rollercoaster of extreme emotions & moods. sigh today was Unglam :| woke up & went to school without changing. hahas my lazyass at work i guess. ohwells it makes a dfference to have someone sending you to school cus i sure dont care about everyth else

another thing i wanna say (though every one probably knows this alrd): i reaaaaally dislike children. yes go on about how i used to be one yada yada but it wont change my mind. i dont like them, period

oh and AJ's full of stalkers recently :| scary shit


If you want to drink out of that beautiful Chinese teacup, do so, but know that if you break it you will forever deprive yourself of drinking from it again.

rawr i really cant stand DC circuits!! doesnt help that there are great forces behind it either UGH :(

someone please tell me wtf does a potentiometer do?

yuckssss im starting to wonder if i have ever knew the function of a freaking voltmeter from the day i heard of it. depressing issues i swear :(

now i know why i wanted to drop physics. its so abstract. a point can have zero potential but still experience an existing E field like HUHHH???

(yes i am aware that i am ranting but seriouslyyyyyy)


whatever.

little things adding up
try so hard not to rush
giving in, letting go
of the world we know
they wont see you
force it down, lose the taste
they all think its a waste
we dont need to believe
every word they say now
they dont know me


i love planning little schemes that seem oh-so-random but are obviously not -nudges wong. :D and girl, now we know why i totally suck at DC circuits yes? there are such great forces behind it tsk.

this feels so joyce but i have to say: Cheese Sandwich Crackers are yummy! :)

intended to sleep 3hours ago but decided to come online instead. its really strange that when im trying to study my eyelids weigh a thousand pounds. yet when im doing stuff i like, im wide awake :D hahas sounds familiar eh?

really enjoyed thursday alot :) looking at the photos alone is sufficient to make me happy. hahs was loading the photos from my handphone & thinking about what we did.

anyways here goes the classic moment of joyce: (on the topic of not resting well) it always works for meb to think of hamburgers before i sleep
(im sorry bim but its so cute & hilarious!!)

laughs and the stnicks-aj girls are just waaaaay gossipy. :D even back in the big old canteen we're still chattering away about everyone around.

think my brain's all messed up. been trying to open the gate at home using my school locker combination ._. yes imagine being super tired after a long day out and not being able to enter when im just outside! hahas look what school has done to me ugh. the first few numbers tht come into my head isnt my home lock combination but the school locker's.


dinner was happy+yummy (: albeit the longLONG wait and gastric pains. thankfully for tom&jerry which was so entertaining :D



if you want me to wait,
i will wait for you
if you want me to say,
i will stay right through
if you dont wanna say anything at all
im happy wondering