i used to think jitterbugs was a word that sounds real cute. never realised having them sucked

the panic attacks today were unprecedented and seriously unnerving. i havent put in so much effort into something before and now its time to put all that to the test. i really dont wanna fail myself at this final hurdle. then again who does?

actually im not sure if im working for the grades now or something else. perhaps its the postcard on my wardrobe that has been taunting me.

mm feeling kinda burnt out lately. hope its just a phase aye. breathe wai~


words fall out of my mouth
and i cant seem to trace what im saying
everybody wants your time
im just dreaming out loud,
i cant have you for mine and i know it
i just wanna watch you shine.

ever felt like youve never wanted something or someone more than the way you want this?

yes and i really wanna get it.

sigh what if all that appears to be so seemingly within grasp, is in fact just my imagination? i dont know. :|

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really glad that i got to talk to the bestie yesterday :) its been a long time since the last time we took 24 togt! hahs and i guess youre right, it really is only half an hour lol. anyways talking to her really put certain things into perspective. okay and she freaked me out in the process but hahs ohwell we're in this togt :D

oh according to SimplyHer, every McDonald's happy meal bought would result in 5cents from each meal to be donated to the Ronald McDonald Children's Charity! supposedly the beneficiaries are children who are ill who get medical expense grants. yay i had a happy meal yesterday :D yumyum cheeseburger lol and hello Cinnamoroll! dont ask me what it is cus its our first time seeing it too.

speaking of SimplyHer, i finally found the November issue! UGHH shant mention where i did to protect somebody's identity but its so annoying! hahas and i found a stack of CLEOs too ._. but the november issue is still missing rawr!

craving for MrBean now! hahas shall walk to gardens to get it now :D woots and listening to FOB brightens my sunday morning aye! :D


we watch the season
pull up it’s own stakes
and catch the last weekend
of the last week
before the gold and the glimmer have been replaced
another sun soaked season fades away

you have stolen my heart

was thinking about quite alot of stuff during my jog yesterday. came to the conclusion that people like to classify things; whether its for understanding or rationalising. its not a bad thing i guess to know sth better through comparison, but stereotyping on the other hand is bad

sigh, why do we always hafta make value judgements? yesyes im a firm believer of it is what it is.. i mean no matter how you try to convince yourself, you dont really change much about what you feel no?

i dont know. hahs shant think too much :D life's happier like that


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woah feel like throwing up now :| but it was worth it i guess. :)

watched High School Musical while downing a bag of Doritos just now. hahs yes i ate the whole damn packet woots it was so yummy la :D and the show was not bad. their voices are quite good and the girl is so pretty! yayyyy double love :D nono triple :DD

finally saw wong today (: I MISSED YOU GIRL!
and mei-er too! ((:
hiaks i missed you both much! hahs so glad you all came back this morning :D oh but Wong Yilin Eileen i do not appreciate the fact that you hurled abuses at me just cus i wasnt at home when you called. omg imagine someone going you scandalous bitch! while youre trying to solve a math question for her. UGH TOO MUCH!

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only temperature changes and the presence of a catalyst will change the value of rate constant. so thank goodness for the warm weather plus favourable conditions :))

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oh gosh ive a craving for chocolates now but if anyth enters my stomach now i swear i'll hurl. eeks

this entry is so terribly random & incoherent (i can see Mrs Chng shaking her head already) im so sorry! hahs aniw i realised two things while walking home two days ago: firstly i havent walked home in the rain for a long time and secondly my physics tys is suddenly super precious to me. -laughs. i kinda figured the former out cus of my water-retaining shoes. as for the latter, im a mugger :)

i think that with time you can really see how much a relationship is worth. the people you call/called "friends" are really nothing at the end of the day. kinda sad actually but it makes me appreciate those who've stuck by me throughout so much more. LOVE yeas :)

hahs i realise im ending my paragraphs with a smiley :) thats good, being happy is always good.

alot of thoughts in my head right now but guess i'll just pen them down in The Book. its easier that way aye with my almighty therapeutic outlet :) hahs whee~

i love George Michael's voice :)


really motivated to do physics again! never had a more enlightening half hour than just now. :D guess its a blessing in disguise that we couldnt find him aye. and yes theng & i suddenly feel damn cheated after our 2years.

eeks and i cant believe i reached school later than someone :| bahh no more tossing erasers into pockets for me. hahs nevermind shall wake up earlier tomm

sigh


the acoustic version of The Diary Of Jane is so nice :))

i hope i get some fees for helping them advertise :D a couple of vouchers and free merchandise would be really neat yea




yesyes i miss the class. life is just SO BORING without you guys around sigh. and although my OHP mirror secret is out (im still wondering why..) it doesnt stop me from wanting to continue :D ohwells so here are some pictures in the mean time since its been ages ive put any visuals here



hahs remember that fateful day we spent in the Nexus just cus we were too lazy to get out? the hentai gang (lol how did this name come abt?!). my first close friends in aj & 2305 :)



hahs its MINE wansu, accept that. sigh i'll miss scaring+fighting wit ya



my space in the ER. :) stay out!



spotlight :D


(click to enlarge!)

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hahas im so bored today its bad. i think i should stick to my usual breakfast staple (ie. peanut butter toast) cus today was just crappy. PLUS THE MALAY STALL AUNTIE WASNT IN SCHOOL :( cant believe she abandoned me & made me eat at the other stalls though i know why she did it blahh. hiaks for a science student im being absolutely ridiculous but today was truly bad.

mm okay as usual there were redeeming factors of course. had yummy abacus seeds for dinner ytd+tonight :)) hahas not literally but the Hakka dish made of yam! its special cus papa made them when i said i craved for it. this is LOVE at its best aye! :)

talked to JP too :)) heh its been sometime yes i know. hahs and it was fun aiming my eraser into someone's pocket! im so totally camp in school on wednesday morning. hehe prepare to lose dude :P

okay guess i ought to finish up on equilibria. its bad enough tht i barely did one-third of the stuff on my agenda today & ended up having the slacker convincing me to stay & do work instead :| ohwells hopefully tomm will be more productive with the girls!

xiu knows me so well its scary. and well yea she was right this time as usual, though her comparison was a little inaccurate.

so im bored all over again :( and a little guilty. but muse makes a good companion!

but i'll never let you go
if you promise not to fade away
never fade away


hahs if i listen to this at like 3am i'd prollie freak out la. reminds me of this talk we had in stnicks eeks

sigh the gap between As and Bs seems so huge. so i revisited superposition & G-field for the 7th time (hahs yesyes im listening to patrick!) in hopes to close that gap. sigh hope i really did master the concepts this time and not totally freak out when i forget everyth. oh by the way i think patrick is right, cus everytime i look at my notes i discover sth new!

the study sesh with the bbcians was pretty good (: much more effective than the previous ones we had LOL. and thanks to lei im more convinced of me not buying stacks of revision papers like what everyone else is doing.

we are not lazy and complacent; you are insecure.


yayness hahas i love my friends! :D breakfast yesterday at gardens was great. yay for yummy strawberry pancakes and freshly homemade bread whee~ oh and i found the dvd for "O" too! but its only available for rental though :(

cant wait for post-As! and i miss twentythree :(

that question you asked, im asking it right back now.
but where's my answer?

ohwells

listening to DCFC now :) yayyy! hahs thts so random i realised.

rawr okay time's up.

nobody knows
just why we're here
could it be fate
or random circumstance
at the right place
at the right time
two roads intertwine

and if the universe conspired
to meld our lives
to make us fuel and fire
then know where ever you will be
so too shall i be

close your eyes
dry your tears
cus when nothing seems clear
you'll be safe here
from the sheer weight
of your doubts and fears
weary heart
you'll be safe here

remember how we laughed
until we cried
at the most stupid things
like we were so high
but love was all that we were on
we belong

and though the world would
never understand
this unlikely union
and why it still stands
someday we will be set free
pray and believe

when the light disappears
and when this world's insincere
you'll be safe here
when nobody hears you scream
i'll scream with you
you'll be safe here

save your eyes
from your tears
when everything's unclear
you'll be safe here

in my arms
through the long cold night
sleep tight
you'll be safe here

when no one understands
i'll believe
you'll be safe,
you'll be safe
you'll be safe here
put your heart in my hands
you'll be safe here



this song still sounds so beautiful :) cant believe its been a year, time passes so quickly aye.

many things happened recently and im not so sure whts going on exactly. but its definitely a refreshing change and perhaps some sorta relief.

certain things are pretty weird. but it might just be me not being able to comprehend since this is unfamiliar grounds. ohwells then again, there are a million things bt me tht is strange. mmmmm

maybe youre gonna be the one tht saves me


yea, maybe.

URGH looking for the lyrics for Cecilia is driving me nuts :( anyone has it?

oh yeah just recalled something. imagine bumping into a person around in school on an average of four times a day? yes even though we're on study break ._. seriously you cannot blame me for calling names right?

mm i thought of nevil on my way home just now. really miss those times hanging out. those four hours, which felt like forever, just became so much more bearable.


ohwells.

rawr think im screwing myself over big time.

:(



thankfully chemistry is fairly engaging. thiosulphate anyone? but


sigh this is getting worse by the minute

i need a fix right now.





the month ahead is gonna be boring without that smile.

:(

so many things happened today; weird, crazy, high, silly, happy and slightly traumatic

but most importantly, the euphoric one :D

you have no idea how much that made my day aye. like a rush of blood to the head and the grin plastered on my face, it was so swift, simple but sweet.


cus i am hanging on every word you said
and even if you dont wanna speak tonight
thats alright, alright with me

twentythreeohfive: y'all are the reason i had a blast in AJ. from ponning lessons with the hentai gang when i first entered the school to being the close-knit class we are today, every single moment was well worth it. coming to school was never a dread cus you guys kept me going with the daily laughters. :) sitting at the guys' table this year was an eye opener (and ear-shutter). hahas getting closer to the class girls really brought heaps of joy+laughter. last but not least, MR PHANG :D ohoh ohoh ohohohohoh~

thanks hunks & babes! I LOVE YOU ALL!


i'll continue another time. thrs just waaaay too much to say & im just waaay too overwhelmed right now.

this is ten percent luck,
twenty percent skill
fifteen percent concentrated power of will
five percent pleasure,
fifty percent pain
and a hundred percent reason to remember the name


human nature is so unpredictable. how does one spot someone like Hugo and the likes? its like a trap youre bound to fall for

anyways im currently looking for the dvd/vcd for a movie from a few years back called O. if anyone is going to such shops soon pls make an enquiry for me. thanks i'll pay you back :)

you would kill for this,
just a little bit

i swear im jinxed. it didnt rain last week, but nope there was no sun either. UGH when we stretched our hands out, there wasnt even a shadow la ._. super pathetic. so i decided to go this morning, BUT THE SAME THING HAPPENS AGAIN

rawr. this is so unfair, i'll stake out at the beach everyday after A's or sth LOL. and i get the feeling i wont be alone (:

aniw my september fun has obviously been super effective & therapeutic :D the night spent at joyce's was definitely a great way to end my month. the photos we took were SUPER classic la. its definitely going on the resolution board next year! hahs oh and the two of us met like, the weirdest people too

speaking of which, there just seems to be an increasing amount of weirdos around :| its rather disturbing & eyebrow raising eeks. for instance, when we boarded the bus to sentosa, a whole row of girls suddenly stopped talking and just STARED at us. creepy innit? like woah we dont even know y'all :|

weirdos and september issues aside, i just realised that theres a MrBean outlet at gardens! OMG feel like ive been living in a cave or sth la. but its not too late now :D kudos to more soyabean!

ooh mid-autumn festival was just yesterday. hiaks but we have so little mooncakes at home :( as in variety wise. but whos to blame since we dont eat much either hiaks. hahs but its yumyum aniw! i prefer the traditional baked mooncakes to the weird modern flavours anytime. hahas oh and thanks for the cute Minnie Mouse (yes so cute right!) one :D

sadly mooncakes are so fattening though :( and i hafta watch my diet cus SOMEONE called me a tree trunk rawr. yes im talking about twigly the pervert who is a schizoid that calls me anorexic at the same time. meanie mo!

(:

woah the haze is real bad lately :| could hardly see the skyline by the river yesterday. and my eyes are super puffy & irritated too :( yuckssss.


alrights this is about it i guess, take care folks :D study hard!

rawr i so dislike being pangseh-ed :(

UGH.

hahs joyce is working hard on my bracelet now thanks alot babe (: the sushi dinner was GREAT too!

life has been tonnes of fun recently. going out till late everyday & meeting up with people who're important to me :) okay the only drawback is that im dead broke and my mum's not so generous with cash recently :| ohwells

september has officially ended which means im supposed to start studying as promised. hahs after the beaching trip later i guess :D its really fab to have the whole bunch of us bbcians being so darn close :)

oh had icecream ytd with the usual gang! hahs i broke diet for you guys la, arent y'all glad ? :)

alrights going off now! hahs we have a long night of FUN ahead :D and an even better day tomm to look forward to! hope it doesnt rain :D