Friday, October 31, 2003 ×

Name Four Things That You Wish You Had:
* a whole fucking lot of money
* time
* concentration
* nice clear skin

Name Five Scents You Love:
* my pillow
* Organics
* piping hot food :)
* the grass after rain
* the beach!

Name Four People That Know You the Best:
* my mum
* vonn
* +lite
* idontknow. i doubt people know me well

Name Four Things You'd Never Wear:
* really short shorts. fat thighs :|
* ive
* no
* idea

Name Four Things You Are Thinking About Now:
* chinese :| ugh. wots with me?
* broccoli
* why my maid is laughing like a hyena
* i cant multi-task you know. brain doesnt function well.

Name Four Things That You Have Done Today:
* ate. alot for that matter
* saw 3 out of my fourhalfBs :)
* got myself into a bad mood
* held back the urge to cry

Last Words You Said:
* "your callllllll!" to my maid.

Last Person You Hugged?
* kiat? cant rem

Last Thing You Laughed At?
* cant rem. laughter is rare these days

Last Time You Said 'I Love You' And Meant It?
* idontknow either. longlong time i guess

Last Time You Cried?
* i dont really cry. perhaps that time during the wake.

Current Longing?
* a lot of cash and time to spend it!

Current Desktop Picture?
* takashi! :) one of my Bs!

Current Number Of Icons On Your Desktop?
* 15?

Current Worry?
* doing fucking badly for chinese os.

Current Hate?
* people with the "idontcare" attitude. like get a grip.

Favorite Physical Feature Of The Opposite Sex?
* the overall appearance on the whole. i mean if you have like hell sexy features but they look like shit when put togt, theres no point. perhaps the eyes i guess

Favorite Place To Be?
* places where my eyecandies are :)

Least Favorite Place?:
* idontknow. varies with my mood lahh

If You Could Play An Instrument?:
* violin! i think it has a very soothing sound

Favorite Color?
* darker shades of green.

Do You Believe In An Afterlife?
* yes and no. i mean i do wonder about it but i never get much of a conclusion

How Tall Are You?
* 156. and yes i know my height is pathetic, which explains why im so stumpy :| ugh.

Current Favorite Word/Saying?
* get a grip. its nt my favourite but i say it pretty often

Favorite Season?
* autumn or early winter! its like hell windy but not like brrrr cold.

One Person From Your Past You Wish You Could Go Back And Talk To:
* idontknow, there are so many ..

Favorite Day?
* saturdays. really slack

What Is Your Career Going To Be Like?
* i have no idea. zilch. this is badd.

Type A Line You Remember From Any Book:
* "i dont want to lose you." "but you dont want to keep me either, do you?" -the rescue, nicholas sparks.

A Random Lyric:
* "its friday night shes all alone, he's a million miles away" -american hi-fi, flavor of the weak

Identify Ten Things Surrounding Your Computer:
* the modem
* speakers
* newspaper, yes i do read the papers
* my lilac hairband
* drinking mug
* the window
* printer
* cd rack
* my legs propped up the table
* its a computer table and you put yer com on it. so wot else would i have?!

Name Three People You Would Trust Your Life With:
* my mum
* my papa
* myself.

Name Three Songs On Your Playlist:
* torn, natalie imbruglia
* bright lights, matchbox 20
* she's having my baby, tension

Name Three People Who Are Online Right Now:
* im too lazy to check. :|

Name All The Windows Open On Your Taskbar: * pitas
* winamp
* messenger

Last Three Sites You Visited:
* lei's diaryland
* my pitas
* BBC diaryland.

Who Was The Last Person That Signed In:
* cant rem

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can you tell im bored :| ugh. gotta catch a nap or something. -sigh. this is terrible. just 5min ago the sky was really dark & threatening to rain any moment. now its bright and sunny. was looking forward to the little shower but i guess not now ..

Thursday, October 30, 2003 ×

ugh long & ugly day. seems like most of the special girls in my class is getting pretty grouchy, yours truly included. exam stress? ohwells. for a bunch of kidds like us who always do last minute work, its truly tough now.

there are alot of things i wanna do, like writing vonn a long letter. but nope, i dont even have time for that. how terribly annoying. 24hrs is not enough for me, esp when i spend 2hrs to churn out a chinese compo everyday. and yes, i am determined to keep my promise to the chinese teacher. did three pieces for her alr.

guess im off to get my fourth piece done huh? this is terrible. ive a shitload of undone things. for eg trying to think of ways to fill up the HUGE hole in my bank account. mum wants to update my bankbook. gosh :|

anybod wants to donate to the rescue poor wai fund? donations of any form are welcomed :) -looks around. hulloooo? anybod with the least bit of compassion? fine. hmpf!

Wednesday, October 29, 2003 ×

qing no lahh im not angry with ya alright? just pretty upset bt not seeing my halfB. but i watched Volcano High just now and yes, ive another person to swoon at now :) yes im fickle but wth? -grin. ooh btw nice new layout :) lovelove!

smg doesnt seem to like me very much. ugh.

Wednesday, October 29, 2003 ×

thats pretty apt huh? -growls. tods was a eyecandy-less day. terrible. aft the minidrama thing, headed to ondo with bern qing & xiu. then xin came down to join us :) but .. there was no signs of halfB at all. :| how saddening. i mean we were there from 1 to 3? ugh.

however, qing's eyecandy was hell entertaining :) lol he was dancing & singing to the song! so cute. had a clear view of the kitchen and couldnt stop giggling. although ive no idea why he & his friend kept staring at our table. oh wells, then again we were laughing & staring at them. hehhs :)

towned for awhile and they met up with people. slacked a whole damn lott then left. -sigh. didnt get to see bighands either :| this is sadd. oh wells. and im broke. hafta scrimp & save to get some stuff.

however, the best part about tods was watching the complete Volcano High :) oh and not to forget, the I Weekly i picked up from 7-11. basically the essence of the show was wot i watched prev but watching the whole show enlightened me greatly. thnk goodness andy has a thing for the show too cus he recorded it :) wheeee!

am thinking if i should come to school tomm. im broke & tired. but there's lotsa things that i wanna do. like having chinese lessons cus i havent started studying yet. goshh this is fucked man.

after the exam i swear i make sure i visit bighand & halfB! this is freaking me out sial. meanwhile, back to my magazine & the chinese compo awaiting me. im supposed to do a compo everyday as i promised the chinese teacher but it is tking up 2hours of my everyday. yes, lousy me tks two fucking hours to write ONE compo. laugh if it pleases you, although its not remotely amusing to me at all. hurr.

Monday, October 27, 2003 ×

-sigh. long tired day. actch not quite lahh but certain mind boggling things are uh, boggling my mind? okei that sounds perfectly stupid. its the Monday blues im sure. afterall i havent been to school since last thurs. lol ive been having three-day weeks! the week before was due to exams & this week was deepavali :)

had lessons tods & well they were as usual lahh, a huge drag. but it wasnt the lessons that did me in. i mean there were so many things that were procrastinated due to the exams and now ive too little time for too many things.

first up, chinese os. -groans. chinese lesson was a huge wake up call. i mean it slapped me right in the face. did the testpaper and im not so sure about my A anymore. afterall i havent even began looking thru my stuff. oh wait, i dont have books to begin with. wayy to go wai, youre sure gonna pass yer chinese.

second, dramafest thing. ugh. seriously ive no idea where to get something to dress in so that i'll look like Olivia. sheesh. and busy flirting away with Viola. its on wednesday bytheway. -weak smile.

third, lit :| King of the Castle? nopes nowhere near ending. yes i did try but sheesh im not progressing fast nuff. and we have some quiz crap on wedn? i happen to sit right smack infront. but ohwait, im beside xiu! :D maybe theres hope. :D afterall she read it alr :)

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ohwells. wots with me tods. strangely im so comfortable planted infront of the computer. i gotta hire some professionals to drag me away.

off i go to do my enormous long list of things to do. and pack my things of course. did i mention? i spent 30bucks buying stationery only. dont ask. ive no idea either. :|

Sunday, October 26, 2003 ×

one boy, one girl, two hearts, their world
time goes by, secrets rise
one more sad song, tears shed, she's gone
she'd take it back, if she only could

alone with you, alone with me
what can i do, i can not breath
my heart is torn, for all to see
alone with you, alone with me.

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i dont know wots with me tods, really lethargic and restless -shrug. cant wait for chinese o's to be over. and yes i do know that i havent started my revision at all. and yes, i also do realise ive got a fucking C for higher chinese so ive no idea how im gonna force an a1 outta the chinese exams. this is bad.

havent been signing guestbks for a long time. too lazy i suppose? after having a online diary thingamajig for more than a year, i guess its slowly wearing out on me? i dont know. i mean i still enjoy pitasing & all but theres sth missing. mmm. i guess its strange how everybod has a blog or something the like nowadays.

everybod links everybod & like theres no more sorta "privacy" to it. okei so i am not making sense. there was no privacy to speak of from the start but now everybod is so into the blog idea youve no idea who's peeking into yer life.

yes i admit, i cant express myself properly.
nevermind.

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my hair looks crap now. ive no idea wot to do with it anymore. but yes despite it all, im still going back to bighands lahh. oh did i mention, my mum thinks i look like an OBASAN too. she finally admitted it ytd evening.

me: ughhh! i look like an OBASAN!
her: -tries to control her laughter- no lahh.
me: yes i doooooo!
her: -nodds while giggling, giving a sheepish look-

-sigh. this is terrible. im aging so fast :| and tods she went like "who says my daughter look like obasan?!"

.. right mum.

Saturday, October 25, 2003 ×

i know you think that i shouldnt still love you,
i'll tell you that.
but if i didnt say it, well id still have felt it
where's the sense in that?

i promise im not trying to make your life harder
or return to where we were

well i will go down with this ship
and i wont put my hands up and surrender
there will be no white flag above my door
im in love and always will be

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havent been having lyrics in the pitas fer quite some time. mmm. love this song although i dont understand why most dont really fancy it -shrug. oh wells. everybod is diff i guess.

Friday, October 24, 2003 ×

keep listening to shi nian by eason chan. dontknow why either .. pretty strange but its getting pretty addictive. maybe its because of the hell nice ringtone i heard! :) mmm lemme do a recap on ytd!

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yesterday
met yins aft she had school. went to ondo and met my brother's girlfriend there. and according to her he was supposed to be at work at 3 but like it was alr 3.30? and when i left the house he was still lying around watching tv like a slug. lol. he was really late lorr. yepp

then she left to meet my brother after awhile. oh but finally saw buck!! :D okei not much of an excitment cus his hair was gross. yuckk. like the very instant i saw his face i was like "omg why so ugly?!". got a shock lorr. hehs im so mean but he looked strange :| i like totally discarded him alr lorr. outta the list lerr.

lol then we were beside the booth mking sushi and suddenly andy was in the booth and he bent down and went like "excuse me ..." i was like wottt? like got a huge shock cus i didnt know he was inside. then like his face just suddenly appeared from nowhere.

he made me something to eat :) lol it looked helluva cute!! when we asked fer the bill, he told buck to not write the no of plates i ate. hell lame cus they were like hand signal and fidgeting away? yepp then in the end i got away for free.

wenta Heeren & ate x's icecream!! :) yumm mocha almond fudge. she wasnt there though. yepp then we went home aft that cus both of us were dead beat.

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tods was helllll fab :) goshh. loveit loveit! met dinah xin & xiu in town then wenta marche! :) shortly, bern & pl joined us. ate ate ate! wenta cine bowl after that. goshhh hell embarrassing sial? but yosshi's friend was hell cute :) oh wells. theyre all pretty cute lahh. all jap boys :)

everybod bowled cept fer bern & i. lol our scores were soooo terrible. bern & i wenta try & we got a grand total of 1. goshh we're like so bad? actch im worse cus i didnt even manage to get close to the pins? yikes :|

walked down to Singapore Shopping Center [SSC], the building beside parkmall. wanted to cut hair but edmund told us to come back 1hr ltr. -laughs. wenta ondo to slack & saw buck again. was wearing a cap so i guess he looks lot better. :) and he smiled at me!! okok get a grip wai. andy wasnt there though but finally met desmond!! he looks alot like andy but he's shorter & much fairer than andy. saw a hell funnylooking person that looked like this other guy from far. goodness couldnt stop looking. but when we got closer i realised he looked pretty bad :| yikes.

went back to SSC with rol & bern. and like he was doing another girl's hair. told us we hadta wait for quite long. sat down & started waiting at 6. saw lotsa nice pictures in the magazines! woahhh. yepp waited till bt 8? then bern wenta cut her hair followed by me. theres like only one guy lahh so hadta wait so long. but he's hell frigggggg charming lorr :) not goodlooking but Very charming. too bad he's like gay. but seriously he's like woahhhhh :) hehs.

my hair looks like crap but its better than the "sha3 gua1 tou2" quote unquote him. lol :) he changed the parting and made it look really strange. oh but i cant seem to locate the parting now cus i washed everyth off. i look really tootsie now. bet xinyi's gonna say i look like jingjing from holland v. hmpf!

all the shops in the building was closed except for his. even the elevators didnt work :| yepp but quite an experience. he's like gonna be our permanent hairstylist. -laughs & nudges bern. oh wells he has BIG HANDS wot :D hehh.

train-ed down to far east to meet them. left with bern & xiu. i am so tired now but happpyyy :) thinking about big hands! mmm shall tryta locate my parting then. maybe ring vonn up & tell her more bt everyth :) hehs. called her just now on the way home & she said i was fickle! hehhs. but he's like how charming sial? hahas. anybod wanna cut hair must tk me along! :D

Thursday, October 23, 2003 ×

that is the english versn of the stupid SHE song. or rather the original one. used to get hell hooked onto this song but no more now. i guess stuff do wear out no matter how fantastic they are huh?

home now :| boredbored. and my dearr lei has chicken pox. goodness gracious me. shes on a 9 day MC which means like no more school for her for this term? yikes this is terrible. gonna be missing her badly

there are only 30 charitians in school tods according to +lite. like woahh everybod mass pon or sth. ah wells kinda expected too lahh aniw. i mean like how many are actch interested in games?

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slacked my morn away watching vcds & i made an amazing discovery! my vcd player is working alr!! :) okei i sound stupid but i thought the damn thing was spoilt but tods i found out it worked :) wheee.

-growls. off to slack off. so there.

Wednesday, October 22, 2003 ×

oct's a pretty empty month. i mean look at my pitas? there are only pathetically four entries? uh, plus this five but does it matter? yikes. usually it'll be brimming with entries but not now .. strange strange.

as i mentioned in the prev entry, i think i want to change hosts or something. but it'll be too troublesome to tell everybod about the change & all. this is terrible, im getting so lazy its scary. actually its not lahh. but vonn's getting hell hardworking? yikes. and her grades are tiptop while mine are comparatively lower? this bestie of mine is too smart!

gotta get a haircut, i look wayyy too shaggyfied, wotever that means. i look like an ah-soh! grr. even vonn said so! & yins & so many other people :| bahh. but im determined to keep it a tad longer before snipping it off. so i shalt wait :(

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according to xin, andy went back to ondo. okei explains alot like why he isnt home & the fact that his hols started alr? told me once his hols start he'd go back, but .. so soon?! badbadbad.

its kinda good actch come to think bt it ..
him working means i'll have another source of income since my parents refuses to let me tk up a parttime job. ohwells. but that also means lesser ondo trips & no buck swooning? ugh. thats deadly evil. how could he?! bahh.

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tomm's the lets play thing and i think lotsa people are gonna ponn? ohwells, yours truly has a diarrhoea. how coincidental you think? its sad but true. -shakes head. badbad.

-laughs. oh well.
how stupid can i get. cant hurt to try rightt? supposedly meeting mel at 7am or sth? lucks to me lahh. hope i manage to get outta bed on time cus she hasnt msged me yet? mmm.

oh she just replied! hehs. shall call her aft i finish my entry then. ladidums. shall end here then. hehs im so lameass. ohwells.

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i cannot resist typing this but andy just got back & i believe xin saw wrongly cus andy isnt in ondo uniform and he had a friggin test tods. strange strange. oh wells.

Wednesday, October 22, 2003 ×

typed this on monday. so i might as well post it here huh? i guess im intending to shift soon. pitas is getting down kinda frequently too. ohwells, we'll see la aniws.

mond
-growls. pitas is down again. wth? wots with the stupid thing. -sigh. forget it, pitas is dying soon :| yikes

got back a couple of papers tods & i did pretty fine. no failures wotsoever which is really good cus i mean duhh, who wants a friggin D, E or F huh? not retaining for sure but whether im gonna continue with h.chinese? its crazybananas cus if i screw my h.c up i would have wasted friggin threeyears studying the stupid subj! badbadbad.

yes im highly tempted to chop the head of the person who introduced exams off. damn. as if i'd ever find out who?

tomm is like woahh scary shite. hist, ss :|, lit & h.chinese lorr. think im gonna fail all. ewww. :| ohwells. im just praying i dont do too badly, esp for combined humans. and elit. and chinese. which happens to be everyth? goodness gracious me. this is badd :|

and no,
i do not enjoy you gloating.
over wot, you ask? over my lower-than-you results. nopes, not at all. no thnks to you alright. keep it for yerself cus theres no need at all to rub it in.

my mum thinks im with yins. wow. like how amusing is that? ugh. im like straight? and why huh. cus she peeped at my things. no thnks to you too.

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other than all these, my day has been fine.
-huge plastic smile- merely spent my afternoon doing math while they were at ondo looking at buck. wow. -bitter laugh- hurr.

how amusing.

Monday, October 6, 2003 ×

Monday, October 6, 2003 ×

jay chou's got me addicted, badly addicted. linkin park too. numb is taking eons to download and i cant seem to find the mp3 for Bright Lights by Matchbox Twenty. -growls.

wots with me tonight?
-raises both hands up. okei i admit, im trying to talk about anyth and everyth in the world but my amath paper tods.

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she dug through the big bag full of ice cream, looking for her triple chocolate. she picked up every single packet and none of them said wot she wanted to hear. then it hit her, it was gone. for good.

where did it go? nobody knows. -shrug.

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chinese paper, you cant beat me. i'll emerge as the champion. watch me.

.. right
i mustve been thinking too much huh? -growls. why do they place such a heavy weightage on the stupids exams? a fucking 75% is not okei alright, especially for a friggin chinese paper. wot are they thinking?

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to cheer me up, matchbox twenty would do the trick :) for the people who've been following my pitas closely, which is none, you'd know it has appeared in my pitas before. i know i know im always have the same stuff in my pitas but this one rock. totally.

baby, baby, baby
when all your love is gone
who will save me
from all I'm up against out in this world
maybe, maybe, maybe
you'll find something
thats enough to keep you
but if the bright lights dont receive you
you can turn yourself around
and come on home

i got a hole in me now
i got a scar i can talk about
she keeps a picture of me
in her apartment in the city
some things in this world
they dont make sense
some things you dont need
until they leave you
and theyre things that you miss

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i thank power98's jeremy r. for playing the song last night after i sms-ed in :) cus it cheered me up plenty. thnk god for djs who actually read sms. i looove double j :)

Sunday, October 5, 2003 ×

sheryl crow's been stuck in my head for the whole damn day and i didnt get to even here this song once tods :| -growls. havent been online for the past week, anybod missed me? ..maybe not huh?

spent my week mugging and obviously slacking in between. i spent every night dozing off while trying to study some stupid facts that wont ever matter to me when im sixty. then in the morn oversleeping and rushing while trying to pack my stupid bag, wash up, bathe & have breakfast all in 15mins flat. yes, worship me. most amazing thing of all? i survived through all this with my fucking period.

waiting for dinner to be ready and apparently i got badly cheated :| came downstairs since like 6.50pm and im still waiting now after half an hour. -shakes head. my papa is tking far too long. or rather, i gave myself too much allowance to slack.

coming down with a flu/fever now. i have a strong urge to just kick myself squarely in the face for being sick every fucking exam. ohh friggin stupid me.

this is sucha ranting place man. gotta get my ass off the stupid computer chair and like do something more productive. yes, exam stress is getting to me. sheesh wots with me mann?

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anyhows goodluck to all. tomm is the start of horror 2weeks, breathe and kickass. charitians we're gonna pull through!!