after grumbling about how freedom's gone, im bored now that its back. :| hahs funny how im so used to being with them despite spending only three days togt

rightttt i feel like i just shot myself in the foot ._.

hahas suddenly thought of yesterday. i want strawberrieee, the drunkard and the total cam-whoring was just hilarious! :D okay drunkard part slightly scary but ohwells

okay great this doesnt make our decision any easier ._.

i miss having staje! and econs+math tutorial :( hahas damn this sucks


laters!

did you ever know that youre my hero,
and everything i would like to be?
i can fly higher than an eagle,
for you are the wind beneath my wings.


hahs this just reminds me of yesterday :) or this morning if you prefer. the night was simply HILARIOUS & extremely umglam! i mean how glam can it be trying to catch the words of Macarena & singing YMCA (complete with hand actions)? not at all, i assure you.

ahh wells :D the weather today's perfect for stoning! feeling damn lazy now aikes. hate shopping for prom UGHH and yt just made me feel damn idiotic! :( missed out all the shops INSIDE the damn building thinking that theyre only on the outside. hahas nearly wanted to ask my hairdressers if they were lying to me. but ohwells got my dress alrd :)

yayyyy thanks LEI & VONN for accompanying me! hahs being the last in the clique to get a dress ya all have to be sympathetic right? sorry for um not heeding yer advice but you guys know me too well heh :D

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some times i really wonder if im doing the right thing. but it gets so tiring to think i just push everything to the back of my head and hope they'll work out.

SIGH.


ohno just realised this entry is in the wrong order :( unhappy thoughts should come first so entries always end on a good note.

yawnsssss. im too sleepy to rearrange this. rawr so there

mm more on the trip :)

its pretty strange tht i ended up missing everyone during the trip. glad i got to meet yeetheng :)) it was kinda weird not seeing her when im so used to doing so on a daily basis when we mugged togt.

missed my gf terribly :( sigh guess im so used to shopping with ya tht i totally cant do without

missed the bbcians too !! LEI we can finally meet up without you hugging yer bio tys grinsss. heh serious therapy needed okays!

oh and i kept hearing songs tht reminded me of certain people. kinda strange actually cus those songs are so random but it just brought back strong memories that made me wanna laugh & cry at the same time

ohwells :)

off to bed ! :D been clocking plenty of rest recently yay. goodbye to eyebags & puffy eyes :D

THANKS KIAN LIN FOR BEING SUCH A GREAT HOST :D

hahs yeaps it deserves the first line of my entry aye! cus you really did a fab job from the hotel, to the coaches & everything else :) kudos to you dude


the trip was heaps of fun. loved the group activities the best :D shuffling the sitting arrangement for the movies plus the Rape session hehe! im really sorry Cicak Man for the sudden wild grabbing of yer arm/shirt :| its seriously a bad idea to sit with me during any movie tht is remotely thrilling. Rape was really fun, with roy's stupidity being the climax of the night. okay tht sounds wrong hahahhas but its true! -laughs. guess we'll never forget the King of Rapist & Ace Detective :D

mm thought about lotsa stuff during the trip. but more on tht another time aye


i thought about you for a long time
cant seem to get you off my mind
i cant understand why we're living life this way
i found your picture today
i swear i'll change my ways
i just called to say i want you to come back home

talking to xiang the sarcastic meanie now. hahahas its HILARIOUS !!!!

i miss the bbcians :D

when im back lets plan sth really fun yea! i wanna go blading plssss hahas LOVE


and xiang (hope youre reading this so i wont be talking to just my heart), im very loyal to you okays ! :D hehe

checking out the maps now, hopefully it'll come in handy during the trip aye :)

room's in a HUGE mess its even worse than when the exams were still on. hahs instead of notes, stationery & rough paper strewn across the table, its replaced my receipts, notes (dollar bills), bags, shopping bags, earrings, purses, hairpins etc. quite a nightmare if i may say so

feeling incredibly lazy to the extent i dont feel like packing for the trip. hahas can i take my entire closet there? its so difficult to pick clothes out when i dress according to mood ._.

anyways, its been great fun today :D i got a tan !! hahas um its barely visible but thts not the point. the sun was super gorgeous :D hahs and its really not my fault that i wore shades and thought the sky was dark initially okay :( growls meanie kettle calling pot black. ohwells in any case i cant wait for more beaching trips :DD it was GREAT meeting up !!

lei hope you end soon ! then we can do all the stuff we wanted to do togt :D hahs oh start looking out for recipes & guinea pigs to try our creations

okay off to pack ! :D

WAI × says:
and wht we doing

wahahha says:
Berjaya times square it is jux beside the hotel

wahahha says:
den eat lunch den pcc

wahahha says:
play the indoor theme park der and pcc

wahahha says:
den shop den watch midnight movie while pccing

wahahha says:
yah den go back hotel and pcc

wahahha says:
can?

WAI × says:
hahas can i'll paste on my blog tell the class okay ? :)

wahahha says:
woah 1st day dosn't sound wasted


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WELL DONE KIAN LIN :D hahahas great plan! suits you perverts just fine LOL

anyways, i cant wait for tomm! heh although im so super full now i'll prollie scare all of them with my flabs :| hahahs just pray tht there arent any weirdos filming!!

shall end here so diana can see kl's great plan

needs a hug :(


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guess i should get moving alrd, there's so much to do! hahs and the cluttered mess i call a room is screaming to be tidied too


oh and i need some help with painting my nails. i so totally cannot make it ._.

okay i feel like a major spendthrift now :| frownsssss.

rawrrr guilt-tripping myself big time right now aikes this is terrible :| not even the three aloe vera stalks can ease this

hahs but the aloe v. was pretty thoughtful :D

okok shant dwell on it anymore considering its over



the stars will cry
the blackest tears tonight
and this is the moment that i live for
i can smell the ocean air
and here i am
pouring my heart onto these rooftops
just a ghost to the world
thats exactly
exactly what i need

from up here the city lights burn
like a thousand miles of fire
and im here to sing this anthem
of our dying day


song's been stuck in my head all day

IM NOT A PENGUIN ! and i refuse to be called that :(

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anyways gotta make this quick so here goes the most important part of the entry


(click to enlarge and be jealous!)

that was sososo sweet! LOVE :DD

some "pick up lines" according to wong

(Walk up behind girl and point fingers shaped like gun into her back)
"You're under arrest!"
"For what?"
"For stealing my heart."


HAHAHAS i'll die laughing if something half as cheesy happened la madness.

clearing my inbox now its quite weird finding things from OGL workshop lol. its like what a year ago? okay found something even more ancient, econs case study notes for promos from weihan LOL. think mergers, labour theory its so thrilling to press tht little cross of a delete button :D

oh yeah and LEI can join us on tuesday yaynessss :DD you can have wai therapy, i'll have lei therapy & we'll be happy girls! hahs i miss the bbcians tonnes la

its funny how all the PCME-ians are talking about the relief from the 3day-horror-marathon :D hoho but its over~!

aikes supposed to meet someone to study like now but im so lazy. really sorry :| plus i was the one who suggested it eeks

and stop trying to matchmake me with Charlie Brown's best friend ahhhh. although theres a high chance i'll die as an old spinster but theres no need for ya all to do this :| hahas you guys are just waaay too stressed man


we ran past strawberry fields and smelled the summer time,
when it gets dark i'll hold your body close to mine,
and then we'll find some wood and hell we'll build a fire,
and then we'll find some rope and make a swinging tire.

captivated by the way you look tonight the light is dancing in your eyes
your sweet eyes
times like these we'll never forget,
staying out to watch the sunset,
im glad i shared this with you.
you set me free,
showed me how good my life could be,
how did this happen to me,
yeahhh aww


yay happy song :D and happy girl too!

WAI × still love you wong though you do the nastiest things to me says:
hahhas we are crazy people

bitch slap, my dear. bitch slap. BUT i love wai (more than she loves woodstock) says:
totallly OBSESSSED!



LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEE <3

the three days are over

the fact hasnt quite sunk in yet actually. half expected myself to jump for joy but im waaaay too tired to do that :| after seven papers in three days you cant fault me for that aye?

hahs anyway i conclude tht paper twos are all evil :( physics chem & econs growls. hahs still cant forgive myself for the freaking IODOHEXANE (WTH ?!?) and acid-base reaction. screamed into my blanket when i thought of it last night before sleeping

gotta say that im really thankful to have my classmates around for the past three days! especially the four subbers whos going through all this with me :D hahs counting down with suann has been exhilarating cus the numbers just get smaller! thanks y'all for safe-keeping my Barney Bottle before each paper :D hahs much as i always grumble, especially when im rationed that little cap of water only, i appreciate it aye!

oh but i did not appreciate certain people hiding my Barney Bottle in the boys' toilet and making me ask Charlie Brown's best friend for it -GLARES. its not as if im not weird enough :| and the accomplice who told the whole world about it is just as bad. faintsss and mui whoever yer friends are, theyre lying~!


just realised tht the exams erode my mental strength. been really Pathetic with a capital P and that definitely has to stop. hahs feeling quite silly now and just glad to be me again :D

as usual super thankful for the rate constant :D i'll prollie just die without the calls/messages & instant replies to my hollers for help.


paquita! says:
i cant wait for beaching!!!!

paquita! says:
i dreamt about it ystd!!!

WAI × says:
LOL

paquita! says:
got woken up by my alarm....

WAI × says:
hahahahs i finally replaced the hamburgerssss

WAI × says:
WOOHOOOO~~~~

paquita! says:
haha!!

paquita! says:
rightt

paquita! says:
i think the hamburgers come before the dreams



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I MISS YOU !


laters

[c=#FF0080]____suann : || *[/c=#0080FF] for making summer days out of winter nights. says:
if wai gets into smu

[c=#FF0080]____suann : || *[/c=#0080FF] for making summer days out of winter nights. says:
she might meet one

[c=#FF0080]____suann : || *[/c=#0080FF] for making summer days out of winter nights. says:
sweet romantic rich hot bod



youve just decided on my goal in life for me, Professor Prophet Tan :D

i
really
really
really
miss having staje :(


miss the energy in the room, the friendships, laughter and even the tears. i wouldnt even mind the horrendous warm-ups that resembled circuit trainings rather than drama rehearsals.

chinthin if youre reading this better organise something soon~! and make sure it involves mee goreng :D and icecream

oh oh i wanna play toora ebei tori ! :D hehe

ohwells it'll be over soon. hang in there people! gotta prove that we produce scholars yea?

LOVE (:

yumyum dinner was great :) hahs sorry that i was late though. but ummm whats new? hahs :D

aniw i realised that talking things out really helps me to have a better grasp of whats going on. guess its really naive of me to believe that i can do without material comforts :| oh crap this makes life even harder

ohh mui i hope youre reading this !! went back last week to study and your beloved mobil gave us "complimentary drinks" :D awwww jealous ?


cant wait for next week~! and i cant wait the trip :DD super super dying to go out la omg UGH

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/edit just thought of something :D was talking to suann online last night and we realised we're very deprived of gossip sessions :( hiaks i miss math tutorial suddenly. and yea thanks girl for the "HES SO MUCH BETTER LOOKING THAN YOU FAG" thing hahahahas hilarious~ please dont speculate what that means cus its between us :D mwaks! lets have a major shopping fest in kl :D

hyperventilating during math was really wayy creepy. afternoon papers really suck, they give you so much time to panic before that :|

anxiety cripples my brain ugh.


but yayy got a sorely-missed big hug from wong :DD missed you babe! though it was only one day lol. she gives the best hugs :D hahs and to the class girls, IM NOT A PERVERT TSK! enveloping hugs that squeezes the breath outta me are seriously the best ones!

kudos to McFly!



im looking up for my star girl
guess im stuck in this mad, mad world
things that i wanna say
but your a million miles away

so wouldnt you like to come with me
go surfin' the sun as it starts to rise
yeah, wouldnt you like to come with me (yeah)
girl i gotta tell ya,
im feelin' much better
i cant get enough of you

OH ! before i forgot, did you know that ADRENALINE is a molecule ? :D hahs yess there an organic compound with that name. lol this is so interesting cus ive always thought that it was a feeling

the molecule consists of the following functional groups: two phenol groups, one secondary alcohol and one secondary amine :D

betcha didnt know ;)
uhh unless you did pg266 of the chem tys too.

i think McFly is a good start to revamping my playlist! :) ooooh wouldnt you like to come with me? yes i do! lol

so glad i got out of the house today :D and i wasnt alone this time! :DD thanks so much.

mood's getting a little better after soyabean icecream, meeting up & the call on my way home! :) yay~ hahs bought some kinder bueno but the cereal section there was pretty pathetic :| rawrrr i want Marks & Spencer's!

on a lighter note, its less than two weeks to FREEDOMMM~~~ woohooo okay i sense lei & vonn glaring at me already. :| but hey i'll need a headstart in getting a tan! i bet if y'all spend 2hours at the beach, yer skin would be more tanned than mine even if i spent 2 weeks in the sun. :D

keep going everyone~!

i think i ought to delete all the songs on my playlist & start adding happy songs instead. :| getting awfully depressed lately, which explains the sudden increase in frequency of entries.

sigh sigh sigh. :(

my dreams are getting worse by the day, or rather, night. do the times tht i felt equally depressed as i do now have to haunt me at night as well?

i want a kinder bueno !


:(

theres a piece of you thats here with me,
its everywhere i go, its everything i see
when i sleep, i dream and it gets me by,
i can make believe that youre here tonight,
that youre here tonight.

if i could find you now,
things would get better.
we could leave this town,
and run forever
i know somewhere, somehow, we'll be together
let your waves crash down on me,
and take me away, yeah


the math paper for 2002 is disgustingly difficult :( rawr maybe im just dumb.

on a lighter note, cranberry and almonds are yummy!

and a cute song just came on :D -sings. video killed the radio star! hahas okay maybe its not such a good idea.

study wai !!

been thinking about alot lately. part of me wants to stand up and do something about it; yet another part is Miss Procrastinate.

sigh.

hate having weird dreams. :(

listening to Muse is awfully depressing cus his voice seems to ring in my head. but i cant stop myself either hahs this is so dumb


i wanna run away, and never say goodbye
i wanna know the truth, instead of wondering why
i wanna know the answers, no more lies
i wanna shut the door and open up my mind


but we dont always get what we want in life aye?

when the rainy days are dying
gotta keep on, keep on trying
all the bees and birds are flying (ahh ahh ahh)
never let go, gotta hold on in
non-stop 'til the break of dawnin'
keep movin' dont stop rockin' (ahh ahh ahh)

get on up when youre down
baby, take a good look around
i know its not much, but its okay
we'll keep on moving on anyway


thanks kianlin for the useful advice. :D hahs i promise to stop saying that youre full of **** (though its true :|)

gonna stop being all pissy cus i only have myself to blame, much as i hate to admit it. yesyes i'll just have to (in my our words..) DEAL WITH IT. much thanks for the phonecalls & being all gracious while im ranting :D love y'all~

oh yes and i definitely owe Ms Daljit one.

THANK YOU SO MUCH (:

that was the sweetest letter ive ever received aye. i love my girlfriend <3



'cant wait

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had a great day yesterday (: okay not great but it was pretty good despite the panic attacks. walked home from AJ after getting chased out cus the security guards had some dinner to attend. hahas but i saw JP before i left ((: that guy has such a cute smile i cant help but laugh when i see it. oh yea back to the walk home, i was already reaching when i saw CHUNKY! not on the streets but on the bus that drove passed me omg. hahas my eyeballs nearly popped outta the sockets~

hahs what made my day was obviously not those two, im not so superficial okay! gotta say that the walk really helped me find the faith that was dwindling :) just gonna try and give it my best shot in the final lap.

go WAI the great :D