dearest OHFIVEASSTWELVE

monday 4th July 10am at Harbourfront MRT.
we're hitting the beach.
sentosa! PLEASE DO SAY YOURE FREE !
-gringrin.

okay im open to all other options too, but keep me updated alrighty?

love, wai (:

I HATE PHYSICS
I HATE PHYSICS
I HATE PHYSICS
I HATE PHYSICS
I HATE PHYSICS
I HATE PHYSICS
I HATE PHYSICS
I HATE PHYSICS
I HATE PHYSICS
I HATE PHYSICS
I HATE PHYSICS
I HATE PHYSICS
I HATE PHYSICS
I HATE PHYSICS


oh right. if that wasnt obvious to you, i hate physics. hahas okay i admit, it really is an easy subject to score, IF YOU KNOW WHAT YOURE DOING ..

if not, you'll end up like wai here, a completely useless bum who is whining while she ought to be studying.

OMG talking to kai on MSN makes me wanna laugh out loud literally. this is what you get, when you have a science student talking to an arts student. and both of them are from stAJeworks, hence they talk & imagine too much!


- kaii. mathematics 9233 - fail! says:
stay i prethee!

- waii. says:
prithee

- waii. says:
tell me what thou think'st of me

- waii. says:
or sth like tht

- waii. says:
hahahas

- kaii. mathematics 9233 - fail! says:
beauty of the moonlight...

- kaii. mathematics 9233 - fail! says:
bounty of the sea...

- kaii. mathematics 9233 - fail! says:
a bosom so hollow - does thou know love?

- kaii. mathematics 9233 - fail! says:
hahax...

- kaii. mathematics 9233 - fail! says:
macbeth

- waii. says:
the electron cloud of the molecule is distorted towards the highly electronegative fluorine atom

- waii. says:
hence, exposing the hydrogen nucleuc

- waii. says:
*nucleus

- kaii. mathematics 9233 - fail! says:
oki.. this is wad happens when u tok science to a arts student

- waii. says:
hahahas

- waii. says:
THEN

- waii. says:
LET ME FINISH !!!

- kaii. mathematics 9233 - fail! says:
see... electron cloud means confusion

- waii. says:
hahas

- kaii. mathematics 9233 - fail! says:
highly electronegative flourine atom repels... ie. broken relationship.. rejecting love...

- waii. says:
the positive charge of the thinly shielded hydrgoen atom, would then be attracted to the lone pair of another highly electronegative atom

- kaii. mathematics 9233 - fail! says:
exposing the hydrogen necleus would mean that the evil/melevolent intent of the party is revealed

- waii. says:
of another molecule

- waii. says:
FORMING THE HYDROGEN BOND

- kaii. mathematics 9233 - fail! says:
positive charge would be the hero

- kaii. mathematics 9233 - fail! says:
whom the rejected party turns to for help

- waii. says:
which is stronger than the dipole-dipole attraction btw polar molecules

- kaii. mathematics 9233 - fail! says:
then, a happy ever after ending cause a bond is formed

- waii. says:
and also stronger than the Van Der Waals forces present between small molecules

- kaii. mathematics 9233 - fail! says:
dipole attraction will be the temptation to move to the evil side

- kaii. mathematics 9233 - fail! says:
Van Der Waals = love attraction

- kaii. mathematics 9233 - fail! says:
hahax

- kaii. mathematics 9233 - fail! says:
heyx! i learnt all of the above in sec 4 la

- kaii. mathematics 9233 - fail! says:
hahax

- waii. says:
however, in a macromolecule with a large number of electrons, VAN DER WAALS FORCES PREVAIL !

- waii. says:
hahas

- waii. says:
serious ? lol including the explanation for hydroden bond

- kaii. mathematics 9233 - fail! says:
due to peer pressure, the charaacter succumbs to the evil side !

- kaii. mathematics 9233 - fail! says:
hahax..

- kaii. mathematics 9233 - fail! says:
i rmb the dipole thingy

- kaii. mathematics 9233 - fail! says:
it's some unwanted electrons thingy right?

- kaii. mathematics 9233 - fail! says:
when two magnets repel or something

- kaii. mathematics 9233 - fail! says:
hahax

- kaii. mathematics 9233 - fail! says:
cant rmb le la

- waii. says:
HUH ??? dipole thing is unwanted electrons ?????

- waii. says:
hahahs

- waii. says:
WOOHOO YOU GO !

- kaii. mathematics 9233 - fail! says:
hahax.. wtf is it ar?

- kaii. mathematics 9233 - fail! says:
hahax
- waii. says:
its the bond btw two polar molecules

- kaii. mathematics 9233 - fail! says:
hahax... i've learnt it somewhere.. u wan i pass u my whole physics file

- waii. says:
polar molecules are molecules with unequal distribution of the electron cloud, cus the electron cloud tends to distort to one atom

- kaii. mathematics 9233 - fail! says:
hahax

- waii. says:
THATS FRIKKIN CHEMISTRY

- kaii. mathematics 9233 - fail! says:
hahax...

- kaii. mathematics 9233 - fail! says:
oppps..

- kaii. mathematics 9233 - fail! says:
now.. wad was the physics thingy den?

- kaii. mathematics 9233 - fail! says:
HAIYA!

- kaii. mathematics 9233 - fail! says:
i'm an ARTS student

- kaii. mathematics 9233 - fail! says:
screw science


lalalas :D things that make the daily life so hilarious. i feel the abs forming alrd man. :D

from lei's blog.

it is sad that ld has reached such a state that the sec 4s didn't really even want to turn up for the farewell and the planning for the farewell was so sucky..sigh sigh. and mrs tian and miss jeya are no longer around to take everyone in hand or to fuss about us. the days when ld girls dedicate themselves to rehearsals everyday so much so the teachers had to force them to go home to study for the finals coming up next week are gone. i really really feel sorry for the sec 4s, this is actually the last of the "not bad" batch. and their farewell ended up like that. btw wasted SO much time. i only got home at like 5.30 pm. panicking panicking panicking.

the farewell today was sad. because no one was crying. how ironic.

how mighty sad :( if i may say so, OUCH. thought about our sec4 farewell and it certainly brought back memories. the flowers, letters, booklet of farewell notes the exco compiled (among which had a couple of freaky ones), hugs, tears (LOTS contributed by yours truly), taking pictures & the blinding flashes, gossiping with the juniors & all the little gifts :) ohh cant forget the tiara & the wand thingamajig as well! lol :D mm kinda unfair la, that the very people who planned something so sweet for us, didnt get the same treatment. ouch.

on a lighter note, something else i found in her blog, that i found super hilarious. :D


words describing a typical ld girl:

bitchy
loud
dramatic
pretty
dancer
part of the cheerleading squad
wonderful english
top in literature
emotional
loves the camera
own the stage
attract attention (AA)
fierce
loves ld (:
perfect cca attendence
fails maths


aww how true :) lol although i agree with lei that less than half of those words describe me as well. nonetheless, LD girls are not to be messed with :D okay gonna end this entry with our CHEER! lol ripped this one off ta's blog, and yes i changed debates in the second verse to the dance cus that was how we used to say it. :)

we feel the arts
we feel the spirit
we feel the loveeeee
we are eldds eldds

we do the drama
we do the dance
we do the props
we are eldds eldds

say ld everybody
say ld everybody
say ld everybody
say ld everybody

give me a hip
a hip hip
hooray!

we are ld
we are unbelievable
rockin' up here like little cannibals
everythin' we do is
unpredictable
check us out cos we're
unbelievable
unbelievable
unbelievable
doom chi doom... CHI.

WE ARE UNBELIEVABLE!


:)

I CANT WAIT FOR THURSDAY 10.25AM ! :D

THE REVIVAL OF WAI'S SOCIAL FREEDOM ONCE AGAIN, YUMYUM :D

goshhhhh, this feels like some sort of exam la, okay it probably is but its called COMMON TESTS i thought? -growls. feels like im in prison or sth lahh, all i wanna do is go out, and meet my friends once again okay. seriously !!

hopefully i get to meet Seah Yi Xin my dearest deaddate :D i wanna grab them to go out with me cus i miss them LIKE CRAAAAZY!!!!! and ofcourse, my bestie vonn plus the bbcians :D was talking to xiu on the phone last night, completely disregarded my econs & maths (oh lets not talk about them) cus we were like engrossed in the conversation. okay at least i was like super focused on it :D wonder how are things now though

mm anyhows, talking to somebbody on msn now :D okay maybe its turning into a :( now. this sucks man, why does something like that always happen, -growls.

oh wait, now im back on :D again. just hafta constantly remind myself about certain things i guess. its always such a rollercoaster ride but ohwells. rollercoaster rides, thats what make things fun innit? :D and my ride just ended on a pleasant note so yepp in a good mood now. i shall mug hard :)

hiaks, have a sudden craving for pocky. bahhhhhh.

- waii. mugger): says:
im gonna paste tht in my blog !

- xin ; they say true love is suicide says:
dont hor!

- xin ; they say true love is suicide says:
if not i.../

- waii. mugger): says:
you ??

- xin ; they say true love is suicide says:
(this is an emoticon tht shows a butt shaking)

- waii. mugger): says:
OMG OMG

- waii. mugger): says:
hahas

- waii. mugger): says:
GO AHEAD BRING IT ON !

- xin ; they say true love is suicide says:
haha

- xin ; they say true love is suicide says:
i knew it

- xin ; they say true love is suicide says:
u wna see my ass

- xin ; they say true love is suicide says:
purposely dunt let you

- waii. mugger): says:
hahas THTS IT .. IM PASTING THIS PART ON MY BLOG !!!!!!

- waii. mugger): says:
YOURE DEADD !! HAHASH. EVERYONE WILL KNOW YOURE SUCH A PERVERT !!!

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i love my dead date :D i know you love me too my dear :D

Friday, April 02, 2004

haha! in e comp lab nw again!... ld...yea researchin 4 wat woman wear in e olden days of singapore!!!!! -arggggggssssssssssssssssss- haha... i'm mad! sittin bside lei lei hu's playin wif minesweepers n wai! hu is retarded n growlin lyk a lion n saein she wanna PEE! she's gettin irritated haha n mad! n xin's @ ondo! itz so lyk her! yeah! wai n i r gg chompin ltr... stingray!!!N -YUM YUM-

I HAVE INVADED XIU'S SPACE :D i need to pee urgently and shes here happily typing so slowing. UGH. terrible kidd lorr. -GROWLS. she's BEING her usual retard self claiming shes hungry. we're getting nowhere with this stupid thing. AND SHES SMELLING MY SHIRT. omg. and we had morn jog tods? disgusting girl. and she says it is nice smell .. ? weird xiu. uhhh, -forces a smell. ..... hurrs.
-waiiiiii

seriously lor! wai's shirt has nice smell! or mayb itzn bcoz i'm smelly... :( :( haiizzzz

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OMG hahas look what ive found! xiu's abandoned blog :D the very last entry that she posted. goodness i miss those stupid days, hahas where she was my sitting partner!! then we'll pms togt & it'll be totally havoc cus we're both SUPER bitchy when we pms.

lol i think only afew people, like the bbcians & fckers know what im like when i SERIOUSLY pms. ohwells, miss them :)

UGH. having a sore throat now :(
like how exciting.
to top it off, my maid is totally pms-ing!!

aniw, i really hafta MUG now. and i think, i might be giving up on physics for the time being cus its too darn depressing alrd. too much to handle for me man, will just stick to chem math & econs. or should i do away with econs?

ohwells. one thing's for sure, there's one that i'll definitely hafta give up for now.

anyways, time to mug :)

rahh, sth mighty frightening happened yesterday, i cried while doing math.

try to imagine what i felt.
like killing myself perhaps, to realise that i am unable to cope with something i once prided myself with.

utterly depressing.

gonna find that feeling i once knew, i can do it.

wai is gonna mug from now on
she finally got enough sleep, and is happy
so shes going over to kai's to mug

:)

okay, enough of typing in third person's. i feel a sense of, IM NOT GOING OUT ANYMORE already :) so i guess its time i start mugging properly.

why this feeling suddenly?
accomplished most of the stuff that i wanted to do, in terms of the social aspect. got to meet the important people in my life, the bbcians (yesterday evening no less, which is a major YAY for me), lazybums, ohfiveasstwelve, stAJeworks :D, 23/05 and some others too.

hence, ive got to put a stop in going out & having fun already. plus, gotta restore some sanity in my life man, its totally WRONG to be leaving the house before 1pm during weekends/holidays. and guess what, ive been spending my entire holidays doing that. hafta recharge man :D hehs first step was when i left vonn's place early last night instead of staying over, which i was highly tempted to do :) hahas okay i didnt leave that early either, about 11pm? reached home at about 1130pm, changed & just CRASHED. :D woke up at like 1220pm today :) happiness i swear! heh.

oh but i had a GREAT time at vonn's yesterday :) although i hafta ask them to pardon my bitchiness man, gosh i was being such a bitch whining & talking like that. hahas but hey, thats the wai that they know what :D ate SO MUCH i felt like puking already, like $120++ worth of pizzas. imagine that, bunch of girls and vonn's brother+gf with so much to eat :| had like three FULL boxes of pizzas left when i left la. had a photo-taking session, though we were all looking totally unglam in glasses, messy tied hair & hairbands. but goodness no matter what, I LOVE THEM :D my darling recess buddies and clique who made the daily life in stnicks like WOOHOOOO much better!

okay i think its about time i get ready to go to kai's place already. hehs as usual, im SO gonna be late :D ohwells.

STAJEWORKS :D

wheee back from the 3D2N chalet alrd! goodness it was like so fun, but im so shagged man, although i slept the most :D lol okay shall update properly with as much detail as possible

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saturday

was supposed to meet daphne & kai at 930 to buy the ingredients for the cake but i reached at like 1030? lol fell asleep again after my alarm went off at 730, and woke up at 845 so yeaa :D ehh i slept at 4am the night before la, could barely crawl out of bed man.

anyways, we bought the cake mix, chocolate syrup and whipped cream :D woohoo! walked to kai's place after that, picked up his stuff & then his dad drove over to my place to get the bbq pit and my stuff. we hadta make yet another detour while driving out cus i forgot all about my glasses! i brought the glasses case but left my glasses at home, thankfully kai reminded me man. :D hahas we were dropped off at daphne's place.

started mixing the ingredients & stuff, but we were sadly short of one egg. ohwells. :D hehs we hadta mix the stuff like THREE times. after mixing for the first time, there was still powder on the sides of the bowl. so we used the flappy white thing to help us. next, after we poured the stuff into the pan we realised, the bottom part of the mixing bowl was still powdery. hadta pour the stuff back and mix again. but ohwells all was good, sat in the kitchen stoning & waiting for the cake to be ready. hehs our cake was GOOD :D hahas although a little burnt.

went for lunch at serangoon gardens then kai's father came to pick us up and sent us to helmi's place to get fish & xavier together with the BBQ food :D dropped us off at downtown east after that. ooh and xavier passed me the earrings he made for me! :D

met harry & shannie there, and we all sat outside cheers to stone cus none of us were above 18, so couldnt check in :( but finally, yip ling came & her dad helped us with the signing in. headed to the chalet to unpack & prepare for the evening.

hehs started playing wit the disappearing ink, the sprays & stuff. :D plus we were pouring chocolate syrup & spraying whipped cream into each other's mouths. damn yummy la!

ohh and xavier the bDD bluffed us! said he wasnt staying at all. grr. and sadly, chin thin couldnt join us cus she had fever!! :( miss her! goodness but she still came all the way down from malaysia to pass the stuff she bought to us.

the seniors & some others came and omg it was so funny when shama discovered xavier! it was like harry was asking people to clear the table, he passed the box of party poppers to shama & told her to put it in the cupboard where xavier was hiding. lol she started screaming & all. :D

ooh daph, kai & i hid in the toilet to decorate the cake. but sadly, we ran out of whipped cream cus we ate too much in the afternoon. lol so the entire cake was like soaked in chocolate syrup. ooh and we had the spastic relighting candles bought from concourse. lol but the cake was well received! considering i received a msg from fizzah on sunday morning saying Ooo i just woke up with a craving for your super chocolatey cake! -beams.

most of us sat around at the table stuffing ourselves with the cake, potato salad courtesy of helmi, and jelly that kai made while some of the guys slogged it out at the BBQ pit! hehs.

ooh then we had GP in the room !! tht stands for Gossip Point :D super hilarious although there were so many interruptions. omg and yip ling was like practically drunk after one sip of e33! she was all red & really high man. ooh eugene & kelvin finally came too. gave us all a flower & a card each. :) mm after that, kai, shannie & xavier sang the song they wrote for the seniors.

everyone sat around outside talking & playing lame drinking games. but yours truely, being an absolutely good girl, didnt drink at all :D ohh helmi started telling us spooky stories :( totally freaked us out la, TSK! sheau (goodness acks :|) was telling us some of her stories too.

justin & i started cleaning up after awhile, kept the food & all. we had SO MUCH otah left! there were lotsa leftovers as well. shoved everyth into the fridge, and like packed some of the stuff. continued to talk outside the room, and like the people left one by one.

mm ohh helmi didnt want to walk home alone in the dark so we all decided to go to his place :D daphne, fish, harry, jeremy, justin, kai, shannie, yip ling togt with brother ong decided to go to helmi's :D it was damn creepy la, the walk in :| and omg he stays beside the red house! but yea his house was nicee :D love the red light man.

most of us got really stoned while watching Be Cool, and like started playing cards & etc. tsk and helmi happily offered them absolute vodka la. brother ong crashed at his place, went upstairs to sleep after finishing whatever that is left after shannie's gulping. most of them ended up woozy on the way back later. sat around in his living room till the movie ended & then headed back to the chalet. gosh it was like around 5am already.


sunday

took turns to shower after reaching the chalet room, while the rest napped. hehs daph got so hyper after bathing & started counting everyone's toes! LOL. jeremy & justin left before breakfast, while we all headed to Macs :D hotcakes!

headed back to the room after breakfast & yip ling left. the six of us spent the morning totally wasted, slept (yes i know i slept ALOT), stoned, played cards, mahjong & etc. it was like omg totally unglam. hahas :D had cup noodles lunch after that, and slacked somemore after that. ohh and we were being so crazy la, ahhas trying to pretend that we were students from RJ.

after lunch, it was like more stoning & they decided to take an afternoon nap while i sat around stoning. akshaya came to rescue me from boredom, followed by xavier, namz then justin :D ohhhh xav bought horny pocky!! :D we sat outside eating the salad & jelly :D mm and i decided to stay on for sunday night as well although i had to clean up cus i lost the bet that i made with kai, thanks to harry! but it was good choice definitely to stay :) hehs could annoy everyone with my crankiness!

during the evening, we got a fire started specially for roasting marshmellows :D YUMMM! gosh with the chocolate syrup, deelisshh ! :D just sat there waiting for xavier to feed me. ooh and he roasted this marshmellow the the extent that it was like engulfed in flames man. woohooo :D nicee! mm but shaya & xavier left after that :(

omg and they were so horrible lahh, locked harry & i out of the room! TSK. sat at the stone table stoning until we both decided that we wanted to be in the cool comforts of the aircon room. joined them watching Rush Hour II :D hilarious man.

ooh helmi came after that and started BBQing again, although we were so sick of BBQ food already. went out to get Macs for some of them. but my goodness, the chicken wings were so nicee :D sambal & buttered, woohoo yumm! sat there and totally pigged out like crazy la, hiaks.

went to Cheers with justin kai to pick sheau up. lol hit the store to get drinks for them, and sheau brought along with her gin & tonic water. omg i swear there was something wrong wit the apple i ate man, made me feel so yucky.

hehs went back, sat around for awhile, and i decided to just sleep man :D since harry & justin were gonna sleep too. showered & then like watched Star Wars episode IV with the stoner brother, but i fell asleep in two minutes man. gosh! slept till about 4am, went out to join them talking. lol it was like raining already, squeezed on the porch talking. :D headed back to the room and we watched Battle Royale, but as usual i fell asleep in like 5minutes. tsk, in my ostrich position no less :|


monday

woke up still in my ostrich position, but this time with fish & helmi on the bed as well. washed up, tried to clean up, and stoned while waiting for the rest to wake up.

mm lazed around for quite some time, until we realised its about time to start cleaning up & packing. sheau left as well. so yeah kept all the stuff & checked out at 10am. harry went back too cus he was sick. we lugged all the stuff out, and waited for the feeder bus service to helmi's place but the driver wouldnt stop for us! TSK so we decided to just hail a cab & chuck everything into the boot. but unfortunately we couldnt all get into the cab, so daph, fish, shannie & i took the cab, while justin & kai chased after helmi who was walking back.

justin, shannie & i prepared cup noodles for everyone using the constipated hot water flask. TSK. watched Battle Royale and then some of us started sleeping again. lol :D

mm took the bus from helmi's place, then cabbed home with daph, fish & kai. goshhh and we all agreed to go online once we reached home. hehs talking to them now, ahhh missing the chalet alrd. OMG i took like three hours for this entry man. goodness :|

eeks, gotta go prepare to head for vonn's already. im like so late alrd :| but anyhows, stAJeworks rocks :D

hahas had a crazy day yesterday with the new found crapping partner kai! basically consists of me being in total mess & him late. -growls. hahas but all was fun :D

-laughs. with my streetsmart-ness (hoho how ironic, wai was never streetsmart) we managed to arrive at Sim Lim safe & sound :D although the weather was like so warm la -growls. mm then with directions from the guy at the MRT station, my memory skills and kai's ability to spot the obvious, we got to Concourse! :D hehs the combined powers of the rich kid/spoilt brat & the lazy/blur stoner!

ahhwells, bought our stuff and FINALLY got to eat :D hahas tht stupid guy was starving me :( mm took a long time to decide on our journey back to AJ, and we ended up in Geylang where i was sold for a miserable $300 to um, _____. HORRIBLE lahh!!! gosh, took the train back to AJ after that.

passed the cds to harry, met shannon & xavier, kai handed in his lit essay and then the four of us went to the macs at j8 to wait for jeremy!

hahas :D yepyep, we left after jeremy came, too shagged alrd. hahas.

anyways, gonna be meeting sis like uh .. now? and then meeting cer later :D hahas im so late, ahhh but ohwells. :D

our concentration it contains a deadly flaw
our conversations change from words to blah blah blah
we took prescription drugs but look how much good that did
well i think i had a point, but i just got distracted

lately it just seems to me
like we've got the letters A.D.D.
branded into our mentality
we simply cant focus on anything

because its
17, 18, 19 routine
and here at 23 it's the same old me
and that one thing of the moment
that we all happen to like will
only very temporarily
kinda break the cycle
of the double edged sword
of being lazy and being bored
we just want more and more and more
till it's all we can afford

to keep our eyes open for just one more day
to keep on hoping that we'll stumble on a way
to keep our minds open for just one more day
cause its completely up to us
to maintain consciousness

well no one can possibly listen to this
more than 4 reps is just monotonous
we're losing interest, losing interest, losing interest


zhen said this song reminded her of me, i didnt think much of it then. that was months ago. and right now, i cant stop listening to it for some strange reason. i guess, it really is, a song that is very wai.

and i think, im gonna flunk my common tests. UGH

RAHH. omg im pitasing nonstop, ranting incessantly but i just had to get this off my mind. GROWLS wanted to do this a few times alrd, but stopped myself in time.

IM SO ANNOYED !! why is it tht i feel as if when someone needs me for something, then they'll start talking to me. if nt they'll just chuck me aside. its SO unfair UGH. im not naming names obviously, but its just so yucky i swear. like you dont contact me for afew days, then suddenly msg me (via sms or msn). im like thinking oh yay you didnt forget bt me after all, but like within like 2seconds that thought is gone cus they'll be asking me for something.

i mean yes, i do work on a need basis. i mean after all its mostly when im free that i'll look for my friends. and i guess it is pointless for a conversation if you dont feel like talking, but its JUST SO ANNOYING.

just feel SO made used of sometimes. LIKE UGH. seriously man, this is so pissifying.

oh waits, on second thought. but if you had a long draggy stupid conversation with me, JUST so that you could ask me for something, i'd be even more disappointed. like while im enjoying myself, youre just trying to achieve something. BLEH :(

hahas am i thinking too much? mmm, i wonder. but ohwells, cant help it if i feel that way can i? at the rate it keeps happening lately. -growls. ohwells

going down to sim lim later with kai since he's afraid that i'll get lost. hahas SHEESH im nt that stupid ok! uhh okay or so i hope :D then we'll be mugging together after that or something. all stAJeworks members are welcomed to join us at like, um j8 or something! :D

this was how it looked one week ago


and now ..




WOOHOOOOOO!
look how mr stupid jellyfish scarred me for life. took these pictures last night, gosh its itching like CRAZY! hehs yes i took these photos intentionally to gross everyone out. LOL

OMG hahas was going through the archives of my pitas, guess what i found?

-sigh. i suppose NJ might just kick me out cus im so stupid. hahahs, ok maybe not. - Monday, December 20, 2004

talk about predicting the future man. :| i was never THIS spot-on about anyth else before la. -laughs. TSK i was like !!!!!!!!!!!! when i saw this paragraph man. gosh.

feeling LOW now. -sigh. post-flu symptoms? :(

i wanna drop out of school like now, seriously i do lahh. how mighty depressing this is :( suddenly miss those days where i would just pop by xiu's place & we'll just slack & pig out. and the girl would always have YUMMY food at her house, which would make me feel totally guilty & all.

i remember christmas eve last year, i stayed over at her place. we were up till about six? hahas and we were totally wasted the next day la, especially since i was working before that.

dont know la, just so weird now that my life is back to studying & work. ewwww :( depressing.

AHHH MY JELLYFISH SCAR IS SO ITCHY !!!! and it looks more & more hideous by the day :( ugh im dying already i swear. rotting my arm away. i think i should cut my nails, it doesnt help tht i give in to the itch sometimes :(

Your #1 Match: ENFP

The Inspirer You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends. You are also unconventional, irreverant, and unimpressed by authority and rules. Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives. You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're qutie the storyteller! You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist.

Your #2 Match: ESFP

The Performer You are a natural performer and happiest when you're entertaining others. A great friend, you are generous, fun-loving and optimistic. You love to laugh - and you like almost all people equally. You accept life as it is, and you do your best to make each day fantastic. You would make a good actor, designer, or counselor.

Your #3 Match: ENFJ

The Giver You strive to maintain harmony in relationships, and usually succeed. Articulate and enthusiastic, you are good at making personal connections. Sometimes you idealize relationships too much - and end up being let down. You find the most energy and comfort in social situations ... where you shine. You would make a good writer, human resources director, or psychologist.

Your #4 Match: ESFJ

The Caregiver You are sympathetic and caring, putting friends and family first. A creature of habit, you prefer routines and have trouble with change. You love being in groups - whether you're helping people or working on a project. You are good at listening, laughing, and bringing out the best in people. You would make a great nurse, social worker, or teacher.

Your #5 Match: INFP

The Idealist You are creative with a great imagination, living in your own inner world. Open minded and accepting, you strive for harmony in your important relationships. It takes a long time for people to get to know you. You are hesitant to let people get close. But once you care for someone, you do everything you can to help them grow and develop. You would make an excellent writer, psychologist, or artist.

hate being sick, makes me feel so vulnerable.

-sigh. i start to think about things that are already history, and wonder if ive done the right things. nopes not regretting anyth, like i promised myself not to, just thinking random thoughts.

sigh, sorry to everyone tht all i talk about is random vague thoughts. just tht if i were to pen everyth down in here, i'll take years. basically its something like what junkai was saying, the idea of a breaking point where things just seem so overwhelming. wells, im not breaking definitely, guess i just need to get a grip on myself.

life is never simple, but i guess thats what makes it worth living :)

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i tear my heart open, i sew myself shut
and my weakness is that i care too much
and our scars remind us that the past is real
i tear my heart open just to feel

papa roach- scars
the latest song that is on my mind, heard it just now im my semi-conscious state. i slept from 2+ to 6+ just now in case you were wondering. :) hahas nice sad song!

in a good mood now. heh yes ok it has quite alot to do with the rate constant :D nothing chemistry, hahas okok i doubt i make sense, but i dont intend to publicise anyth on the WorldWideWeb :)

anyways, am having a flu man. GRR. sneezing like nobody's business :( how depressing. hiaks!

PHOTOS TAKEN DURING SSF'05

mm lotsa things going on in my head now. wells, just look at the pictures for the time being yea :)

i cant breathe.
im getting so emo emo it really is scaring me. after the outing on monday, looking at those pictures taken with the njcians really brings tears to my eyes. makes me miss the whole NJC experience, life in ohfiveasstwelve during the first three months.

no dont get me wrong, im not suffering in AJC or what. sighh, just miss the whole feeling alot la i guess. ohwells :)

part two of the recaps of monday :D hahas OMG ACCIDENTALLY IN LOVE IS PLAYING ON MY WINAMP NOW !! anyways, thats not the point here :D

yepyep we continued playing with the frisbee, hahas then they settled down to play bridge. tsktsk. mm cer, fab & i went to play in the water. then we splashed water on leon after that, so he hadta come down as well. hoho big mistake to venture into the waters! cus mr jellyfish decided to join us. just as the two guys were gonna drag daryl down, mr jellyfish attacked leon on his upper arm. and soon after, on MY left arm. -GROWLS.

went to the toilet to rinse the horrible sting with fresh water, which i have to point out at this point, IT IS WRONG TO DO SO! hahas went to the pharmacist yesterday, and he said i shouldnt have did that. ohh but the lotion he recommended is really useful, it is MUCH less swollen today :)

so anyway, some sat around after that while the others played some ball games. took plenty of random photos too :D mm after that alex came down too! goshh that guy's still such a poser, lol but i dont mean it in a bad way.

mm leon & alex went kayaking, so cer & i got a free ride as well :) omg hahas my FIRST TIME kayaking !! so fun. yesyes call me swaku if you please, I DONT CARE ! lol.

ohhh after that kwek & yins came to join us too. we all started playing all sortsa lame games togt. BUT IT WAS SUPER FUN! :D hahas first was captain's ball, next was dog & bone which was like wayyyy fun! hahas our patting the ball skills, TSK. oh yes, not forgetting, leon's ahem accident which fabian captured on my camera. ooh and we played touch rug too :DD ahahhas supersuper lame, but fun la :)

after that, some of them when to get drinks from 7-11, AND THEY TOOK FOREVER TO RETURN :( hahas we were all dying from thirst alrd and they were still strolling back tsktsk!

lalalas :D continued playing for awhile more then went to wash up. hehs proceeded to do the paper thing, which wilson taught us during la famiglia. basically you write yer name on a piece of blank paper, everyone sit a circle, and you'll pass the paper in one direction. then you'll write down a message or whatever you want to say to the person, whos name is on the paper. hahas if you get what im saying.

mm its honestly reminded me of orientation :D but that was the whole idea ofcourse, getting to know everyone all over again, and playing togt :) however, this time the paper wasnt filled with hope to get to know you better & hope we'll still stay as a class after first three months. but more of meet up soon, take care & all that sorta things. I MISS EVERYONE SO MUCHH!! mm basically we hung around in sentosa till about 8+, and by then it was like SO DARK & they kept making jokes bt ghosts & stuff. tsk! oooh and we managed to catch the sentosa line bus out to the visitors departure centre. the bus was all ours :D lol but the journey was kinda freaky though, all the places that ive never seen before :|

took the bus back to the main island, and took our group photo at HarbourFront mrt :) daryl alighted at outram park while the rest of us took the train to dhoby ghaut, alex & cer left for home from there. we then headed for the food court at Plaza Singapura, where we all gobbled away like PIGS ! lol played the number game, where waiyee then leon had their five seconds of fame ;)

we all headed home after that. mmm i really really do miss them SO DARN MUCH. :( and thanks for letting me keep the volleyball, rest assured that i'll bring it along the next time! :D

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okie doks recaps of monday aside, i went down to support cer at SSF yesterday :D the girl was FAB :) ohhh and i was mugging in town ALONE too!! hahas so loser i know, but ohwells it was worth it, since i caught my BP dance :DD saw rocker too! its been SO LONG since i last saw him, tsk! lalalas :D

ohno, supposed to head for junkai's place like NOW? hahahs SHOOTS, okie doks, off i go now. :D

mmmm hahas time to do post mortem? and probably a proper recap. i ought to pen this down in DETAILS, wouldnt want to forget any part of yesterday! :)

woke up yesterday at around 7+ thanks to fabian's sms. hahas yepp was supposed to go his house first, but i took so long to prepare that we might as just meet at the bus stop & head straight down.

OMG I WAS TWENTY MINUTES EARLY. -beams. yes dig that, i was EARLY ok! hahas :D ok la thanks to him, since i wouldve got out of the house at 9.30 or sth if we werent meeting. the both of us early birds walked around & finally settled on the railings, and started guessing who would come first & from which direction they would come from. hehe i was right! BP cerise came first, on my side at 10am on the dot! -gringrin. no doubt two body one mind la, no fight ok. :D lol and she informed me that leon intended to pangseh us, -glares. hahas i was so AHHHH!-ed by it, then i ended up hyperventilating on the phone, even before i could use my whining to persuade him to come. LOL but yay after our um power of persuasion (or so i hope), he decided to come after all! :D

mm after that, it was huiyi & sammie, next mish, then waiyee, aft tht sui & the last latecomer daryl. heh ok im nt very sure if i got the sequence right, but if anyone remembers, then tell me yea. lol ok actually daryl wasnt THAT late either, but since the rest of them were here alrd, i called & scared him abit! hehe. lol and ofcourse, it worked especially when i said "EHHH I WAS TWENTY MINUTES EARLY!" hahas but ofcourse, none of us were pissed la :D

heh heh ohhh and we decided to troop off to get supplies from the Cold Storage at harbourfront center, since getting them at sentosa is a total ripoff. BP cerise & i sneaked away to get a small cake each for the birthday girl mish, and birthday boy daryl :D lol we were like hiding & stuff, all sneaky sneaky. fabian being our partner-in-crime, was supposed to lead them away & inform us after they passed by BreadTalk. LOL and after they did, he messaged me "Coast is clear." totally cracked me up i swear, so hilarious! anyways, we chose a blueberry one for mish & a mango one for daryl :D heh took us alot of trouble to change the plastic bag so that they wouldnt suspect anyth so fast.

met them at Cold Storage, and then after buying stuff, we headed over to the bus interchange & to sentosa :D mm settled down at siloso beach, then went to change & apply sunblock/suntan lotion. tsk! and some of them didnt apply anyth, or barely did so thinking it'll give them a better tan. tsktsk NO! hahas im serious, put sunblock, it wouldnt hinder yer tan at all!

played frisbee for awhile & already it was super funny, cant really remember what we said though. HEHS. mm then leon joined us. ooh BP & i went to prepare the cake while they continued with the frisbee. :D but cus of the wind, we couldnt light the candles. sang birthday song for them & took photos :D hahas.

ohno .. gotta stop here first. lol ive PW meeting :| wells update later. would be heading to town to catch cerise in the NJ dance group, during the SSF :D

LATERS !

photos uploaded already :D -beams. I KNOW IM EFFICIENT! :D but cus im seriously FAR TOO SHAGGED alrd, so didnt caption it yet. but ohwells, who needs words when its all in our heads right? :) well enjoy the pictures, CLICK HERE to view!

i thank everyone of you who came down today for putting in this effort :D i really really feel SO GOOD now, and its just FAB to know that everyone's still like tht :)

went sentosa for our OHFIVEASSTWELVE gathering :D although i got stung by a stupid jellyfish, the rest of the day was great! tanning, kayaking, bridge (typically asstwelve), volleyball, basketball, captain's ball, dog & bone, touch rug, icecream with cerise, being oh-so bimbotic, whining for water, slacking, talking rubbish, taking random candid shots & looking goofy in them :D hahas memories memories!

i really liked the paper thing though. hahas ok maybe its just me la, as in it just reminded me of the anticipation i felt, wondering what people wrote & stuff. and im really glad you all enjoyed it la :D

OHFIVEASSTWELVE ! thank you all for every single thing, and i really like the way we're all so different, it make things so interesting at times. :) and special thanks to alex, cerise, daryl, fabian, huiyi, kwek, leon, mish, sammie, sui, waiyee & yins who came down today. i have faith in my dearest ohfiveasstwelve, that things wouldnt just die like that. and to those who really couldnt make it, yepp i know, i promise another one ok? :D hahas just wait till i have the motivation again yea. lol gotta realise this is FAR TOO MUCH for THE slacker !! hahas.

well i'll update properly tomm la, im really SHAGGED alrd.

im so tired! -growls. been SEVERELY deprived of sleep recently albeit it being the holidays now :( i remember yesterday afternoon, i told myself that i'll just lie down (who am i kidding man?) for awhile. and the thing is, i felt so restless cus i thought i couldnt get to sleep. yet, until fabian called me, i realised that i was sleeping soundly like a log :| i mean i had like six messages & i didnt hear a thing la.

AND HE CALLED ME SO LATE !!!! GROWLS. i RUSHED to town, in a huge mess but i still missed so many of the performances :( hahas shouldve stayed home a little longer to fix my hair or sth.

mm yeah but managed to catch ALC's performance of course :D hahas saw um, royston's brother there. it was hilarious la

oh but i missed the breakdancing though, sadly :( hiaks, wonder which group won, heh hopefully its either the cuteboy alex's or melvin's :D lalala. okok i shall stop ranting about the ssf already, guess everyone is bored alrd.

oh and yes, my hair now is kinda bad after the horror haircut. lol i get a scare every morn when i face the mirror basically, cus its in a huge mess.

mmmm cant wait for monday, sentosa!! :D mm this week's programme is kinda messy though. hahas all plans are like uncertain and not confirmed. hiakkkks terrible :(

and i really need to MUG! revert back to my alter-ego :) hahas, THE MUGGER STRIKES :D

sigh, was reading naruto again. :( it never fails to make me feel totally emotional somehow, all the memories. i know i shouldnt look back & regret anymore, time & time again ive told myself to move on.

it certainly has changed my life in a great deal. afterall, look what happened so far, so many things beyond my imagination actually happened.

sigh. i always wonder, if all these didnt happen, what would our lives be like? would it be much more smooth sailing, much simpler? would we have been happier? look what our obsession has led us to? maybe it is unfair to push the blame like that, but its true innit.

guess we'll never know.

sigh .. i was going to be a so-so ninja and earn a ok salary ... marry a regular girl who'd neither be a beauty or a hag .. have two kids, first a girl then, after that, a boy ... then i'd retire when my oldest girl got married and my son became independent ... after that i'd play shogi and go all day long, living a relaxed and easy retired life ... then i'd go of old age before my wife ... i wanted that kind of life and then ...

:)

- waii. strawberry icecream says:
EHH ON FRIENDSTER HE SAYS HES CAPRICORN

- waii. strawberry icecream says:
but on his blog hes ARIES !

- waii. strawberry icecream says:
what is he????

uchiha sasuke! ( just like me, they long to be, close to you....) says:
hahahaha

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ACORN

- waii. strawberry icecream says:
HAHAHSHHSHS

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SHIT YOURE SO LAMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

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goodness, its friends like this that makes like worth living man :D while i was fretting about whether i forgot uhhh, somebbody's birthday, xiu managed to make me really go LOL. ahh wells :) lol i dont have a problem with my spelling ok, its my attempt to be discreet :D hahas go figure.

but yeahhh its unhealthy man, that i keep getting so flustered about that somebbody :( first was in cine, second was when i received the sms, and now the birthday :|

wells, this too shall pass, like all things :D hahas mm off i go now, gonna be meeting xiu later, hopefully for a haircut! lalala :)

:D im a good mood now! hahas

it is partially due to the rate constant, the L word, talking to certain people, and yeahh everyth :D

was out with my pw mates just now :D hahas goshh we're so slack i swear

ahh wells. but had fun nonetheless, though we were so stoned & slackerish. tsk. ahhh cant wait for our outing though :D

okok off i go now, to BATHE :) hahas goshh really am in a good mood man.

goodness i feel like puking now :( its horrible. UGH :(

yuck. i feel so sick, this is super depressing la. anyhows, i just got back from sister fabian's place. was slacking+watching movies at his place :D hahas but he headed off to town for streetfest while im back home again.

anyways, to all ohfiveasstwelve people, PLEASE get back to me asap ok? :D no change of hp number whatsoever. thnks.