physics timed practice was BAD. i couldnt agree with kun lin more when he said fk luckily i didn't study. hahs revising but still being unable to do the paper wouldve demoralised me to no end.

like UGH i seriously dont give a damn about seismography, tsunamis or freaking earthquakes when doing a physics paper. i hope patrick doesnt die trying to mark our nonsensical scripts.

the weekend was pretty fab other than one tiny problem that i didnt manage to do any work :| couldnt find time to swim either UGH.

rate totally made my saturday :)) hahs i suddenly love nonya snacks a whole lot more grinssss. mm dinner with ass12 was good too, thanks cer for everyth aye :)

realised things that are very different about 2305 & ass12, hahs but its a good contrast i suppose :D twas great talking to some of the guys this time round cus its been ages since i last spoke to any of them. and we definitely need happy-go-lucky people like rocker in AJ to lighten things up hahs :D

oh wait, i do know of someone whos full of lame+funny comments & exaggerates so much that half of the stuff he says is totally inaccurate ._. goodness knows which female partner he offered to meet during breaks LOL

i want soya bean icecreammm!

and i want to go to the Hapuna Beach Prince Hotel too :D

much love girl :)


six week to our prelims sound awfully short suddenly

like i dont even have two weeks for each of my core subjects. :| righttt but as im typing this, im still wondering what i should wear later & tonight when im going out.

i ought to shoot myself yes?

sigh hate it when there's physics revision lecture cus i always end up not going :| yes that is BAD cus im seriously weak in the fundamental stuff as it is.

was planning how i'll spend my post-JC days and it definitely sounds waaaay more exciting than this.


okok studies aside, my expenditure reducing plan has gone well :) relatively well i suppose. at least im not dead broke right now, and i still have some cash with my mum :D

thought of something amusing that happened during physics lab on monday

patrick: royston lim did you do the question not?
roy: yes sir i did it already
patrick: okay tell us how you solved it
roy: uhh actually i left it blank
patrick: well done royston

we all thought roy was moronic enough not to dont say yes if he meant no. but here comes our tutor using our pet phrase well done to get back at him. hahs its difficult to explain la, but in short the entire lab was in an uproar lol :D

oh yea and friday's classes were like disastrous. nahh nothing to do with the shortened timetable but that practically all the class girls were either pmsing or plain cranky. it was pretty hilarious i guess, cus there would be some point where we're all damn high but the next moment we're plain grumpy and emo. hahas :D

gotta run now! laters.

(friday entry but the time's warped)

i feel happy :)

spent a great evening with someone who truly matters and that is just priceless

the discussion we had in class on wednesday made me realise quite alot. duh no im not miss materialistic who goes out with guys just so that i dont have to spend money or sth but the general idea is that girls dont pay. wait lemme establish this: im not rich (UGH no way) but im not that hard up either. but i realised thats not how it works sometimes, or how others think for that matter.

then again, graduating from sec4 made me realise plenty of things. so back to the topic, who pays? mm if we follow the way my household works, dudes out there have to work doubly hard. okay maybe the guys at home are a little extravagent at times, so lets try to seek a better balance: cut the expenditure on girl's shopping list. this is much more common i suppose, but real world is still so different aye :|

what do you think?

maybe ive been pampered since young so i cant grasp the concept of money that well. enlighten me please?

woah im so tired i wanna crash like now. cider sure didnt help with the fatigue from the long day

-yawns.

feeling much happier today :) many thanks to the lovely people around me who made my day

1. evil stepbrother
the chat this morning & the cab ride to school (hahs i wasnt even gonna be late actually) was definitely a good way to start my morning

2. floorball!
PE was so fun la, hehs our team (suann, wong, zibbie & i) are so gonna win the rocher cup! :D

3. three period PE break
hehe saw chunky :D finished my food today as well! (this is directed at the girls and you all know why) chatting during break, doing stupid things outside PE dept with wong, laughing so loud+hard it makes us breathless :) standing on the bench in the toilet trying to peep at those showering HAHAS lamenessss

4. fashion statement of the year
buttoned collars, shirts tucked, backs straight & totally alert during math & econs lectures :D i doubt most people have the balls to attempt something like that- especially not in AJ. wanted to upload the photo but photobucket is down UGH :( photobucket's working again :D



5. econs makeup lesson
twas crazy shifting from venue to venue & the leaves falling like autumn. bombarding her with random questions, laughing at lame things cus we're all so cranky & gossiping. :D the farewell party after lesson: singing, bitching (yes believe me), more gossiping, talking & etc. i love my classmates friends so much aye. :)
6. zibbie
Mr Bean soyamilk icecream!! :D tutukueh, tomato shop & just talking to her.


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so pretty right? okay so the nightmode on my hp isnt exactly good but the park's so pretty! shall organise something soon so we can go there togt :)

its friday tomorrow!

sigh i hate pms, it wrecks me to the extent of irrationality & stupidity.

we paint our sins on the ceiling
i keep them glued to my chest
it keeps me close like a promise kept


im totally in no mood to do any work but theyre staring at me in the face. oh wtf this is just depressing i swear. listening to comfort songs is stoning me, but its definitely hell lot better than indulging in comfort food

looking at all the glossy pictures on my room walls & all around makes me wish that i could teleport back to the wai in those pictures.

okay wait i take that back. suddenly recalled The Butterfly Effect & it made me shudder :| kinda creepy wontcha agree?

ahhh i wanna go to summer sonic :( its almost suicidal considering the date innit? hearing about it so often sure doesnt help cure my unhappiness okay


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lol omg was bored surfing friendster & my eyes almost popped outta the sockets man! my eyecandy looks so horrible in pictures its unbelievable considering he was definitely one of the best.

Empty frames, pictures torn apart.
No goodnight kisses anymore.
And goodbye sweetie,
now I have to go,
remember me.

There is a better place,
that awaits me, I'll see you there.
You've got the whole world,
ahead of you.

Ahead of you.

I'm sorry,
I didn't say goodbye.
I'm sorry that, I made you cry.
And I'd make it up to you,
If I had the, if I had the chance to.

And what are we supposed to do,
when everything goes wrong?
Is it possible to change our, destiny?
And what are we supposed to do,
when everything right goes wrong?
It's impossible, to change our, destiny.

To change our destiny.

There is a better place,
that awaits me.
I'll see you there.
You've got the whole world,
Ahead of you.
Ahead of you...



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heard this on my way home

feeling extremely low right now, mm like ive lost something to look forward to.

sigh.

but gelare was good, thanks lei :)

ugh, being sarcastic doesnt help one bit

if i wasnt motivated to reply previously, i totally abhor the thought now. sarcasm is one thing, another is how im so not obliged to doing this


okay now i feel better like *ding instantly :) some people are born with good looks & great personalities its difficult to be down. :D wheee rate

went for physics lecture today (yes finally). uhh shouldnt have though, having my head slumped on the desk isnt my idea of productive aye. hahs but i did have a good sleep :D

laters.

happy birthday, mr evil stepbrother :)

muchmuch love,
your evil stepsister.


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pool on saturday was totally weird, but ohwells lunch was good :) yumms vincinzg (okay i totally forgot the spelling but who really cares aye) was sinfulicious. i love icecream, i love chocolate and i looove deserts :)

met my sister, fabian, & royston after that! hahs there isnt much of a difference considering he didnt have much hair before either :|

was out exploring my neighbourhood in the evening :) WOAH found this reallyREALLY gorgeous place! the other estates had such fabulous houses too :D and i managed to find the Burgley tennis & squash centre woots! couldnt stop smiling like an idiot la hahs will upload the photos another time aye.

mm the party at home was not too bad i suppose. to papa's credit, i liked the potatoes best :D oh brocolli wasnt too bad either! food aside, i love the family most :D

watching Bring It On just totally reminded me of cheer pract :D especially the red costumes & all. ahhh talking to suann just makes me laugh! :D

WAI × staje <3 says:
omg was watching bring it on ! i miss cheer pract !!

____suann : || * says:
HAHAS

____suann : || * says:
same!


ohwells :)

mum's right, my shorts are really short. but i still like them anyway :D

saw this bag that i really wanna get but oh lordie my mum gets extremely annoyed whenever i get new bags regardless whether they cost $5 or $50.

doesnt quite help that its like 90bucks does it?

aikes i need a sugar daddy like now! oh dear, okay thought of something but its such a nasty thought it shouldnt even cross my head

nevermind shall try to calm down & not be governed by materialism NODS.


ugh my week has been completely unglam with today being the peak of it. i know walking around the canteen with horrid hair is social suicide but then again, the context here is AJ so ohwells whatever.

been severely lacking sleep thats why. spending hours writing freaking testimonials that poof disappear with random clicking the the keyboard is traumatising & draining i assure you

bought new shorts today :) theyre like my all time shortest pair but thats not a cause for concern


i wish you'd stop ignoring me,
because youre sending me to despair
without a sound youre calling me,
and i dont think its very fair
that your shoulders are frozen,
cold as the night
oh youre an explosion, youre dynamite
your name isnt Rio, but i dont care for sand
lighting the fuse might result in a bang

oh there int no love no, Montague’s or Capulets
just banging tunes in DJ sets and
dirty dancefloors and dreams of naughtiness

I LOVE YOU LEI :)

thanks so much for the much needed morale booster girl cus i feel 100x better now seriously

and yes ive stopped craving for chocolates alrd :)

(although its a little late considering ive downed snickers, toblerone AND magnum :|)

ohwells :D

going shopping tomm! hahs im so excited after being severely deprived for um quite awhile. yesyes im one of those they mentioned in the survey who makes shopping a pasttime.

ahh okay i need some help people. wanna get a laptop but i dnt know which one to get :| so anyone who can gimme some tech help/suggestions please do!

rawr been extremely unlucky recently. ohwells been seeing faces i dont wish to see & not seeing those i want to :( okay there is only one face in the whole aj i wanna see (excluding 2305 of course), but like 10faces that i'd gladly not see for the rest of my life.

omg andie is such an idiot!! i have to warn the world that his vicious mouth is mightier than any sword UGH

okok i shall prepare for tomm's physics lecture lecture/tutorial before i end up skipping it altogether again :|

oh before i go, gotta mention the recent popularity of lame jokes within the class. and the main contributor is .. WEIHAN! -faints. hahhas ultimate lameness la, to think we took so long to discover it albeit him sitting across me during econs all this time!


aint no other man is true,
aint no other man but you

if we're supposed to be all stressed after Mass Civics yesterday, i guess im a little weird then.

nono wait, special. :D

hahs almost forgot my theory of self-confidence. i have no idea why the panic button is not flashing when in fact i have less time for each subject than most :| here i am still online wasting my life away

ohwells maybe its the flu bug

on a lighter note, my appetite is back :) at least ive stopped feeling like puking for the time being cheerios! and theres an increased desire to eat yay

and looking at the pics from syf makes me :)) everyone pls upload everyth you have quickly! hahs

audio|Jimmy Eat World- If You Don't, Don't

DIG THIS, CHINTHIN:


hahs ripped it from ash :D taken on syf day i think LOL



bored girls hanging out in the washroom between/during lectures. ooh love :)


(click to enlarge)

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hahs i conclude i am extremely lucky when it comes to playing pool. trust me


i know who i want to take me home

oh dear i still feel so down :(

Upset, with a capital U.

doesnt exactly help that im listening to emo songs either i suppose but theyre just so therapeutic in a strange way.

omg someone's using my radioblogclub account & adding weird songs into my playlist ugh. some of my songs seem to have disappeared along the way wth?!

from an empty room on the first floor
as the cars pass
by the liqour store
i deconstruct my thoughts
at this piano
and its all that i
can do to stay
with all the things
i didnt say to you
before you moved across the country
and from the burning building
where i lay
as i watch the stars
become the day
the LA girls are lacing up their sneakers
they run the boardwalks
and the beach
this fishbowl life is all they need
its everything i needed, too

(friday entry but date's kinda wrong)

i didnt want to pita but just had to

we had our final performance of X-Country tonight, and really enjoyed it :) each of y'all are just so close to heart i swear

cast
ash- everyone loves me!
bindi- i knew i made a difference
chinthin- neglected fellow crew-screwer to emsemble
dil- chocolate addict :D
farah- twin!
fish- blooop! lets go whoosh
justin- neglected stonerbro :(
kai- annoying at times but ohwells hahs
momo- i think hes more cranky than i am
namz- crazy hairstylist
shannon- ughhh unglam photos
xinjie- i really love the way you play the flute! *food club
yilong- casanova long-ge! :D


crew
akshaya- HAHAHHAHAS :D ask-kaya! ask peanutbutter!
angela
chin khim
dingfeng- crazy hardgay!
ena- girl with great taste (she likes my projectshop bag!) and eats wit her fingers :D
fangqing- eyecandy alert hehe
jeremy
pyiush- yes sir?
raktim- president who was frightened out of his wits by a cat!
shuqin
thanesh
xavier- dealfeal withfith itfit
yips- :D
zoe- its always the executioner whos to blame


in alphabetical order & do pardon me for any spelling errors :D


thanks everyone for everyth :D shant pretend like i really have sth special to share with each one so there. but definitely hafta extend my gratitude to all :)

the applause during curtain call was simple amazing. at that point i knew it was all worth it :) never felt energy at such intensity with so much motivation behind it. im just glad we told our stories together


having post-production blues (ppb) again hiaks. miss everyone so much :(

something made me quite pissed/upset today. but yea glad i got over it after awhile. guess its a way to make me stronger; by breaking me first

gosh listening to Ronin is making ppb even more serious :| cant help myself though

time for bed!


will you take me there, to a distant place ive never been before? i will follow you like oceans to the shore

youve got a fast car
is it fast enough to fly us away?

i dont know if i want the performance to be over so soon. im really gonna miss the staje people sososo much :( rehearsals have been much less intense lately but much more FUN aye: playing dog & bone (ugh my knees are so bruised!), them hiding xinjie's shoe, bindi's leadership qualities, laughing fits with ask-kaya (this is NOT a typo), toilet paper woes, shouting lame stuff like kai is an idiot in the middle of AJsquare & all :) just so used to them and the things we do togt

i love staje :) although it gets super bitchy & hypocritical at times. but hullo thats what makes life normal what. theres no fun in it being all sweet & nice innit?

yesyes i know im not Miss Cutey-pie (other than buddy who would disagree) so deal with it la aights

so aniw life in class has been pretty fun & happy :) we all just realised that kian lin has been hiding in a cave somewhere. hes so backdated!! omg i cannot believe it la seriously. lol please situate yourself in strategic locations during math tutorial or youre just gonna be stuck in the cave forever la

and alot of hilarious dumb stuff too. okay i go YAYNESS when im happy right, but dearest suann & wong have tainted it yucks! now my pet phrase becomes: ANUS!

see what i mean? ._. but yea still glad cus ive been laughing alot lately & it makes me happier

mm but still have some issues with my stomach. as in the frequency of me feeling nauseated & pukey has generally decreased but its still damn weird la ugh

okay this is by far the most ridiculous gossip ive ever known

time can do wonders says:
jiayi fighting wf shaopeng over youuuu

hahhahas i swear andie's the ultimate okay, so full of shit la!! havent talked to him since "i wanna catch your wave" and hes still so LAME. hahhaas

ohgosh i love laughing :D hehe i miss yaya! lets laugh togt :D

Common Tests

ohwells thats what everyone's been talking about anyway.

did fine i guess, pretty much expected all those grades though i kinda hoped better for GP. but yea definitely more spurred on to work harder

sigh so tired i dozed off while watching MTV just now. whats worse was that they were featuring rock bands, which werent exactly sleep-inducing. hahs woke up at 5.10pm all panicky hiaks cus rehearsal starts at 5.15pm :| wasted 7bucks on cab fare la ouchhhhhh.

hahas im supposed to be saving money okay! although my mum still owes me like 100bucks :D

CUS YAY ITALY WON~!
AND I LOVE MY BROTHER WHEEEE :D

hahs deal with it, i know youre all jealous!

feeling so tired right now it makes me kinda random & incoherent. but once again, deal with it :)


should i, should i not?

feels like i constantly lose the important things in life

rahhh i know he would not blame me for it, or give a damn but it just bugs me like hell UGH. sigh i want my charm bracelet back :(


if anyone was to sing me song, i'd have this one please

in the light of the sun,
is there anyone?
oh it has begun...
oh dear, you look so lost,
your eyes are red
the tears are shed,
this world you mustve crossed.
you said,

you dont know me,
and you dont even care, oh yeah,
you said,
you dont know me,
and you dont wear my chains, oh yeah.

hate to bitch here but going through quite a rough patch recently la sigh. kinda losing interest in stuff i do (though i dont exactly do much) and its really demoralising

guess the whole university+career fair didnt exactly help either. there are so many options ahead & everyone is telling me to do different things. do i really not look like the engineer type?? hahas okay maybe not. but hey its not as if i can be trusted with finance either right? cant even manage my own alrd la

mm plus the serious anti-social feeling really sucks. i just wanna hide in comfort zone (ie. home) and be alone. okay family's fine but thats about it

alright im cool with twentythree too :) i still love having lessons tonnes cus of the fab company aye! cant quite imagine life without this bunch of people :) definitely keeps me going in life

anyways, ITALY WON~!
-beams.
lol positive externality arising from the bet between my mum & bro :D


rahh any suggestions to drive morbid thoughts from my head? to rid the nauseated feeling i get all day as well.

hahs think i need a strong dosage of a chocolate fix la. havent had one for quite some time actually. anyone interested? :D oh shikes but i cant chew on anyth solid though. hahs guess i'll work that tiny detail out later on

everyone knows im in over my head
over my head
with eight seconds left till overtime
shes on your mind
shes on your mind

rahhhhh i just cant help but feel like puking UGH

im sorry to be declaring this on the WorldWideWeb, pardon me please. but hell its true la and the worst part is nothing comes out though i practically shoved my damn fingers down the throat yucks

oh wait before someone tells zibbie about this please dont! or she'll start accusing me of having some weird eating disorder again

had quite a lousy day today actually, majority of which can be attributed to the dental appointment

Janee said sorry more than 10time today. i know that probably doesnt mean a thing to anyone. the thing is during these two years, she said it less than what one hand can count. and consider this: braces-related issues never gave me much problems but today was the ultimate. i fidgeted like crazy while she poked, prodded & pricked me

UGH. this not counting waiting half hour for my appointment, and another half hour to get my next one ._. good gracious me shall i mention the cab back?

other than the orthodontist, our "first day" was welcomed by econs essay timed practice followed by physics. sounds like fun innit?

BUT ohwells there are always redeeming factors. for starters, seeing the class in general :D gossiping, talking & being LAME.

wai: hey do y'all have change? -waves a 10dollar bill.
-classmates start diggin in their wallets.
kian lin: sorry i didnt bring clothes today
roys & wai: huh??
kian lin: didnt bring extra clothes, cant change..


hahas okay this wasnt the exact thing but pretty close. you get the idea anyway. (please dont kill me kl!)

oh yeah and the warped bingo session with suann & zibbie :D courtesy of the notepad (with grids!) distributed earlier during civics. 3x3, 4x4, 5x5, 7x7 and the super hardcore 10x10 :D in short, hilarious and fun :D

oh yea do feel free to ask for a huge GRIN when you see me cus i got lovely lime green bands :D

i also believe that xinjie has been transformed into a fellow inquisitive girl :) hahs girl if youre reading this, yes youre definitely in. OH and i did what you told me to already, goodness gracious me tskkkk! we need a food club gathering soon please, just thought of sth!

speaking of which, life's been kinda dull cus topics tend to converge to the same few. :|

sigh

plus i still have zilch idea who that person is. :( not a sighting recently either hiakssss

ohoh my brother rocks though :D oh lordie i pray Italy wins the match tonight. the guy made a bet with my mum, him supporting Italy & she Germany. the bet goes like this: if he loses, thats one week's allowance gone. if he wins however, yours truly gets a doubled allowance this week :))

i told you he rocks. :D thats my kinda guy LOL hey im not mercenary okay! hahas in order to appreciate his kind gesture better, im cheering Italy on :D

righttt, think i ought to start on Complex Numbers aye? as it is, the back portion of my math midyear common test is filled with zeros already :| or at least thats what Mr Phang said this morning. pathetic la eeks


from day one i talked about getting out
but not forgetting about how my worst fears are letting out
he said: why put a new address on the same old loneliness
when breathing just passes the time
till we all get old and die

youve got this new head filled up with smoke
ive got my veins all tangled close
to the jukebox bars you frequent
the safest place to hide
long nights spent with your most obvious weaknesses
you start shaking at the thought
you are everything i want
cause you are everything im not


think i need a cure for pms :( vulnerability is hollowing me from within.

but im bent on not being Miss Insecure, maybe just Miss Pissy :D

hahas anyways i loved dinner last night, and especially the company. potatoes of the world unite! it was probably the best part of my Sunday albeit being extremely fattening :| and some people had to rub it in

plan to do (the REAL) Nuclear Physics today hahs. :D why real you ask? ohwells my stupidity led me to believe that Nuclear Physics & Charged Particles are the same freaking chapter so i happily didnt study for the former thinking it was tested only in mcq. didnt discover the truth until like 2days before common tests started ._. i was super happy initially that i at least managed to cover my physics topics relatively well this time round.

ohyea speaking of common tests, lol im almost thankful that they cant exactly make us drop anyth now. oh it'll be adieu to chem, which was beyond pathetic

kudos to the long weekend :D and the relatively slack week ahead whee! i miss twentythreeohfive though, but i'll see them tomm yaynesss :D hahas

click to enlarge; ripped from wansu's

if it wasnt for this picture, i prollie wouldnt have the impetus to pita again. so june's come & gone with a grand total of one entry

so anyways, shopping for pa & ma was a success ((: whee say happiness!

oh! just recalled something tht made Wednesday a tad bearable. after econs paper, we were in the reading room trying to cram organic chem. suddenly i received a call from huiyi (shes from NJ btw) going like: hullo wai where are you all?

LOL instantly i realised whats happening :D she was looking for waiYEE. hahs much misses girl'

aye i can feel the forces of pms taking control alrd so please stop annoying me cus im getting really pissy. if it wasnt for some things & people, i'd prollie be a goner by now


augustana <3