Saturday, July 31, 2004 ×

-sigh. feeling totally nostalgic right now, on the verge of crying once again. but anyhows, ive gotta record down everyth that happened cus its just such a huge point in my life.

we've closed the last chapter of our lives in LD yesterday. it was really memorable and im feel so damn proud of LD! let me start from the top ..

yesterday
after school i was still busy with packing the stuff & preparing the gifts. lol and i have to thank kiat, laine, rol, tingx, wend, xiu & yins for helping me out :) love those girls totally lahh! stopped preparing when it was nearing 3.30pm & since i left my list at home & thought i had enough alr.

went to the drama studio toilet to change after that. my goodness everyone looked so good in their gowns or dresses! i looked as if i was going to town ._. how embarrassing. aniw, we were only allowed to enter aft taking pictures. went in and it was all dark. was ushered in by jill, who was dressed in guy clothes. lol :) our names were called out by class, so i was like the second person. walked down the aisle formed by candles and the juniors at the side clapping & cheering. hahas but cus it was so dark, i was quite flustered and they were filming lahh. -growls. sat with lee & xiu at the table we were ushered to. heh.

aniw, first up was sec one performance. didnt really enjoy it cus i found it so assembly, totally not LD's style at all. and their plastic camera was pathetic lahh. cant they get a real digicam & tk afew pics? i mean they can delete it later wot. sheesh.

after that was the puppet show! it was totally cute & very funny lahh. it was like the most remembered lines of every secfour. :) yanhan did mine! i think gen s did a great version of jo's line, cus it was hell funny lahh. lee, tiff & xiu's was really funny too. lol.

mmmm, next was this year's fire play. i must say, its good. lol, anyth compared to the sec one item would seem much better? the fire play was well-rehearsed & quite entertaining lahh. cheerios :)

oh, then i was the teachers presenting the tiara & wand to us. sadly, both msjeya & mrstian wasnt present :( i got mine from msheng, she couldnt exactly fit the tiara properly on my head. lol the picture taking was so troublesome, and the ribbon was in my face ._. ahwells.

after that we had to search for our souvenirs from the things hanging from the ceiling. mmm, we each got this wire shaped into a spiral, our names written on this board taped to it, and a little booklet of messages in the spiral. it looked pretty nice :) but i couldnt find seitoh's message. -growls. and i found some really weird (almost freaky) messages amidst the booklet. -shudders. started to give out gifts to the juniors. oh! and we had a stagehands group hug :) but without seitoh though. i really LOVE the three juniors SO DARN MUCH. they make this farewell so much more meaningful!

lei & i changed into our LD shirts & proceeded to the AVA room after that. continued our sharing session there and i must say, the road of LD holds much memories. from the first fire play, to the elderly play, promenade, mark & xuan, fluid fusion, SGEM, the LD camps and finally unbound. each one holds tonnes of memories for me & from each one ive benefited in so many ways. i dont regret joining LD at all, cus every stage holds its meaning. like eunice said, you'll get your chance in the limelight, you just hafta work hard & wait for your chance, there is a oppurtunity for everyone. this is just so true lahh. we just hafta slowly wait & improve ourselves before the enjoyment comes. and im really glad they gave us a little time to remember cassandra. she is a part of LD & should be in our hearts during the farewell. mmm, and that part got me tearing quite abit.

watched a compilation of funny & memorable videos from the unbound period, the LD camp & mrstian's farewell. jasmine did a good job of putting it togt :) lol thnk goodness our (gen w, lari, peifang & my) version of genie in a bottle wasnt in the video. lol. and during the mrstian's farewell part, i cried like a mad girl. totally lost it and couldnt stop weeping. really miss mrstian & the great funny memories she gave us. after the video was over & they switched on the lights, i think i scared quite a few with my tearstreaked face & red nose. continued to hand out gifts aniw, with more hugs & tears.

on our way to the canteen after that, lei xiu & i were reminiscing about the past, and we took a pic in the LD room. cant believe that would be the last time i'll be in that room ive grown so attached to.

more photo taking, food, handing out gifts & chatting. mmm almost left this out! yanhan's our new LD president!! am mighty prouda her, and feel kinda sorry for jasmine. but wotever it is, i hope they all work well to bring LD to greater heights. but sadly, geraldine wasnt VP. i felt that she was most suitable for the job. but then again, its hard to say whose gonna be president 2006 lahh. yepp, aniw lei & i went to look for vonn to take picture! it was her farewell too. and the girl was in a skirt. -wolf whistles. lol. got huilin to take a few pictures for us. HEH.

went to macs after LD. that was so memorable. i can still remember the times we went to macs after LD in sec one. we would go there practically as a level, sit togt & eat. and ytd, sitting there togt again, really brought back pleasant memories. things i took for granted then, seems so precious now. sat down, read our messages and chitchat. finally, after that peifang, lei, xiu & i took our last 269 home togt. hahas, i remember last time we were the 266-ers, then the 269-ers. :D those time really rocked lahh.

thats basically our farewell. its been a great four years in LD. and i remember so many things, all our seniors, our productions, ld sessions, laughter, tears & joy. i think LD really made me grow so much, and unknowing, it became a huge part of my life. im really thankful for all the people who have been there for the large part of the time. this may seem long winded but im gonna do a recap of all the memorable things in LD.

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sec one orientation. up till now i can still remember it clearly. michelle lai whos so enthusiastic, learning the LD cheer, introducing ourselves (which i made a fool outta myself ._.) & etc. that seems so long ago.

fire play'01. i remember the shock i got when i found out i was in. but it was the first opportunity that opened me out to acting. eternally grateful for that. how ta & i couldnt work out the cigarette butt part. worked with vernia & esther too. definitely wont forget it, and we've got first prize. :)

elderly play'02. charyee, ruth, claire, lei, ta & i. had so much fun & laughter working on the script that weekend. i still remember charyee's italiano marble tiles while i stand there clutching my old biscuit tin. then the part II of it. the stress, the tears, the macs sessions, that whole week just seemed so long & tiring. thankfully we still survived.

promenade. knowing all the armageddies & putting up our performance at the little green patch. lying down on the little green patch, looking at the sky and chatting during the night rehearsals. :) the flowers, the pipakao, the container classroom holding area. all oh so memorable. *pong chi pe

mark & xuan'02. learnt alot from their course & had so much fun. one of the happiest times i had in LD, learning voice projection, trying improptu acting, the fun games (prisoner, ka-pish ka-pooh), singing the rose song, the fun stunts. :) holds a great deal of happy memories.

fluid fusion'03. hated it completely. but had great times with lari, weijin, jo, & pf as narrators. lol, tor-toise, teaching jeeva chinese, wrapping the sari cloth, and the makeup. lol so much fun :)

SGEM'04. so glad i made lei sign up with me for it. got to meet karen tan & arnold gay. LOL. glad to have known the 4 sectwo juniors geraldine, rachel, sonia & xinlin. our picture in connexio! -laughs. and receiving corny sms-es from 'KK'. rocked lahh.

nu unbound'04. slacking around & grumbling initially. but after being in charge of props, ive learnt so much, and gained so much. glad to have worked with the screens people, and to have charisse, mabel & vivian as my stagehands crew. being backstage in a production is so different from being frontstage. backstage work is so much more meaningful to me, and kudos to lee & steph k who was up there playing with lights & sounds.

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guess this is the end of the entry. its really long i know, but compared to whats in my heart, its just a small portion. i thank LD for all these people ive met, all the things ive been through. i hope it is as rachel said, this is just goodnight, not goodbye.

farewell LD, take care. :)

Saturday, July 24, 2004 ×

just heard that song in the car! :D really tired now but i decided i dont wanna sleep just yet. so many things racing through my head that i want to sort out. just kinda stony & sad all at the same time. hiaks. pms? -growls.

its my brother's birthday today aniw. totally forgot about it lahh, thank goodness my mum reminded me. walked into the house after CIP & i totally ignored him. then i strolled around looking for things & i still didnt wish him. no wonder he gave me weird looks. acks :| its xinni's (spell?) birthday party today tooooo! to be exact its a combined party for her brother & her. her 21st birthday. whee. and her brother's 15th i think. lol his friends were mostly girls? mmmmm. yepp went down to pasir ris for her party. its at the chalet. she & her bro each booked adjacent rooms i think. ah wells.

im like slowly backtracking lahh. shall talk about CIP at amk library. totally tiring lahh. initially shelving the adult fiction section was fine, but going to the children's section was a horror. this was this bunch of girls who kept shelving the books at the wrong shelf, which led to xiu & i cleaning up after them. wot a pissoff. ugh! but i really like to handle the upstairs area, which is indian, malay, chinese & YP section. the people there are so much better & the books are SO neat lorr. rocked lahh! took a very short lunchbreak and we didnt get to sit down for the whole damn day cept when we went to the toilet? -shakes head.

heh, now about oral. i think this was a badly done one. though mrs gurung kept smiling but ugh, still bad. my hp was confiscated lahh. -growls. forget it. oh! when it was my turn, i had to pee Very urgently, was sniffing away like a drug addict & shivering very badly. was quite a sight. :|

oh! this one part i MUST update. :D its about yesterday. basically aft LD ytd we had another gossip session!! -grins. yes my favourite pastime. btw, we refers to lei, xiu, charrise, mabel & vivian. hehh. we went into one of the classrooms beside the new AVA room. i think its 2faith or sth. gossiped for 1++hr about LD people, non-LD people & exchanged bits of info. totally rocked my day lahh. theyre seriously my fav bitching partners, the juniors! hehh. and sorry man char, kinda uh, did sth gross to you :| -hides. the thing i REALLY liked about my crew was our total need for exchanging bits of info. hahas, even when we were walking out togt right, we had so much fun being mean! ok fine, i failed cus i sounded nice. and vivian, being the polite girl, said uh, something. -laughs. shant embarrass her here man. okok private joke man. but aniw i hope we gave them a scare lahh. -grins.

i cant bear for farewell :( and i'll really miss my dearest stagehands juniors. oh, hopefully the person that i want, would be LD president 2005. keeping my fingers crossed for her!

-sigh. having the horror flu now. sneezing & blowing my nose nonstop. plus i hafta keep drinking water or my throat would hurt. so im drinking water, and its all coming out through my nose. eee. gonna take a rest now. hopefully tomm's CIP would be better. -yawns.

Thursday, July 22, 2004 ×

updating once again, since its liberation day! :D then again, it doesnt really matter since im so tired of studying alr. im like trying to escape the cruel fate of mugging every week but, ah well, certain things you just cant avoid :|

been really _____ (fill in whatever adjective that is negative) this week. -growls. like im so drained everyday, i simply disregard things, and dont care to find out either.

tomm's the beginning of the farewell :| it feels like that to me aniw. elections for committee members are on & certain choices are difficult. then again, its hard to tell lahh. ah wells. oh! msheng is intending to break LD tradition, much to the displeasure of us seniors (sec twos to fours). so friggin annoying lahh. i mean, new LD teacher, sure there should be change, but breaking tradition? theres are reasons for traditions & im totally against chucking it aside. ugh! but sadly, im not in a decision making position.

extracted 2 of my teeth just now. its pretty alright lahh, doesnt really hurt that much. thank goodness it isnt swelling lahh! but theres a hole at the side of my mouth :| mmm, the doctor was this supersuper nice lady who really made me smile & feel like a kid. :) kept talking to me & trying to make me feel better! whee.

oh! is there anyone who's willing to lend me their camera? doesnt matter if its digital or not! :D hehh.

Sunday, July 18, 2004 ×

mmm, its the day after the perfomances and im feeling really sad that its over already. yes call me psycho but i do miss it a whole lot. like the amount of time we put in, and suddenly its all over. how depressing :|

anyhows, im glad i survived all the madness and insanity, never knew i could handle so much stress. :) but i really really have to thank my dearest stagehands crew which consists of xiu, seitoh, vivian, charisse & mabel for helping me with everything and being so calm when im panicking the hell outta myself. and of course certain people who helped me a whole lot in many many ways & supported me. namely, stage managers gen s & tiff, gen w & peifang for always helping with the props from the LD room, lei for sticking around and helping us out backstage & cheering me up, and lastly+most importantly, my mother! yepp. i know like none of them would probably be reading this, but wotever it is, i'd like to express my gratitude to them. thank you :)

oh btw, i am really disliking a certain group of people more & more. one, for misusing our things without even informing us. two, for messing up our preparations when we left theirs alone. i think some would know who im talking about but i believe im not wrong. wot i said is the truth.

oh, and there were things missing from our crew dressing room after saturday's performance. my file+shorts, seitoh+xiu's flowers and some other things. lets just hope its with the things in the hall on monday morning.

lastly, thank you for all the flowers, sweets, chocolates & words of compliments :) i hope youve enjoyed unbound.

Wednesday, July 14, 2004 ×

mmmm just watched the show again. and no doubt, its still one of my top favourites :) and thank goodness for qing's vcd or i think i'll snap just thinking about tomorrow.

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i know i pasted this before but, it wont hurt to do it again. anyhows its been more than a week since the last update. to be precise, 9 days. plenty has happened since then and im really pooped and tired :| i mean theres something to do every single day of my life, and today it was extra bad. major crisis and i feel totally screwed up lahh. like hell man. ugh!

lemme try to recall certain things that happened. mmmm, over the weekend i caught spidey and mean girls! i swear it is unfair lahh. there are like so many shows for spidey for only TWO for mean girls on a saturday. guess wot, i booked online at 2pm for a 7pm show and could only get a third row seat. like our necks almost broke? sheesh. it was a hectic day too. had LD in the morn until 2pm when it was supposed to end at noon? and hadta push back all my plans. the army came over to "study", she changed and we headed to town. lol :) but we hung around town till late. oh wells, too late for "study" time if you get me. rushed home while her hp kept ringing. managed to spin a little lie about how her hp had no batt while my parents brought us out for supper etc etc. -laughs. ah well.

mmmm on the day before that, we met at ondo for dindin. and we even took the same train home as metalbriefs, who was gonna meet his tb. ahwell coincidence coincidence. :)

the performance is on friday and im sure we've tonnes of loose ends to tie up. another thing im sure of theres definitely more heartaches to come after wot happened today. nope im not looking forward to them at all. like knowing us, i can almost feel it coming that we'll leave out some prop or another. this is not good at all. and the rehearsal today was a total mess. other than random screaming & sore arms, i believe we got nothing out of it. oh but it was fun lahh. that is, the parts before disaster struck. i mean before crisis we were all laughing and rolling on the floor while i would yell out, uh something. hahas.

just a random shoutout, go watch Unbound. if we stage crew dont mess it up, its great. -sigh. i'll do a proper update if i can survive till monday. im not sure if i can pull through tomm at all.

see you next week,

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another day goes by,
we'll never know just wonder why
you made me feel good,
made me smile

Monday, July 5, 2004 ×

oh baby let it rain
i feel it washing over me
the anxiety
i watch it fade away
cus everything can change
it changes right in front of me
could you set me free
to where i wanna be

is something wrong, is there a reason why
we're putting up a fight
dont be ashamed to open up your heart
everybody cries

goodbye is kinda hard
its not a thing i like to do
can you pull me through
into a better day

forever in my heart
you'll always be a part of me
you believed in me
and that i wont forget

is something wrong, is there a reason why
we're putting up a fight
dont be ashamed to open up your heart
everybody cries

i look above and search into the sky
to help me make it right
and now youre gone, well what am i to do
everybody cries

no-one
should ever be lonely
and we were meant to walk together
together

Monday, July 5, 2004 ×

after a few days of searching for ben jelen, im prepared to give up :( i just cant find the darn song lahh. -sigh.

anyhows, its youth day today!! :D i am thankful for the holiday man. hehs. uh, not that i watched the euro2004 finals last night though. -growls. i heard greece won last night? yuck. i was supporting portugal! ugh!

oh, someone actually thought xin & i quarrelled. lol. then again, i dont blame that person for thinking that way. i mean just look at xin & my MSN nick ..

xin ; take my photo off the wall if it just wont sing for you. (xin's)
- i keep your photograph, i know it serves me well; (mine)

i mean .. hahas, it does sound like we fought or sth huh? but nono, i love my dead date alot :D

anyhows, the army came over yesterday. did relative velocity & after dindin, we both ended up with migranes+tummyaches. sheesh, too much math alr lahh. it wasnt the food cus my family looked fine to me. shikes :| aniw she left earlier than usual last night to go home & sleep. hahas, avid soccer fan that girl. i took a panadol & struggled with a headache plus a nauseating feeling. terrible lahh. but this morn was fresh & awake :D whee.

i guess its back to relative velocity for me now .. acks. afterall im kinda done with all the downloading of songs. :)

Saturday, July 3, 2004 ×

and finally the silence
looking out, looking back across the sky
trying to find a meaning
knowing that i just left it all behind
still i smell a lingering softness
where did she go
how did she go
i wanna wanna know
i wanna know that she'll be coming here to me

come on
without you i'll never feel the love inside of me
come on, you know that we belong

thinking back before her
i never knew the meaning of alone
still the flag is feeling foreign
i live the day to escape into a phone
speaking of a world not real then
where did she go
how did she go
i wanna wanna know
i wanna know that she'll be coming here to me

cus shes sharp for kisses
and my heart misses
she's coming
she's coming here to me
im needing
desiring to kiss her now
im living for her
breathing for her
singing for her fairytale

:)

Saturday, July 3, 2004 ×

i wanted you to know i love the way you laugh
i wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
i keep your photograph; i know it serves me well
i wanna hold you high and steal your pain

cus im broken when im lonesome
and i dont feel right when youre gone away

you got away
you dont feel me here
any more

the worst is over now and we can breathe again
i wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
theres so much left to learn, and no one left to fight
i wanna hold you high and steal your pain

cus im broken when im open
and i dont feel like i am strong enough
cus im broken when im lonesome
and i dont feel right when youre gone away