chee says:
oh yar

chee says:
i dreamt of u last night!

chee says:
ahaha

chee says:
i dreamt u send me ur shoe to say happy chinese new yr

chee says:
its like ???

chee says:
haha

  - MS WAII (: hurl says:
HAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAS

xin ; im begging you to be my e s c a p e says:
others have late night movies we have late night bitching

xin ; im begging you to be my e s c a p e says:
equally enjoyable


((:

im just gonna rant so just eff off im not interested in hearing anyth thankyouverymuch

dont tell me to cheer up cus im not upset/depressed/pissed. FULL BLAST PMS deal wit it or just simply find more intellectual reading material. i sure didnt invite you

feeling sick to the stomach it isnt funny. gawdd whats wit my tummy & this stupid indigestion that is making me so effing bloated. and no its not as if im eating alot either ._.

PLEASE STOP ASKING ME STUPID QUESTIONS. its almost as if youre carrying a SLAP ME sign, prompting me to act on it.

hate soccer, hate mahjong, hate commercialisation, hate pretense, hate money, hate everything y'all are so freaking obsessed with.

i think im gonna hurl

if this was a GP application question, i'll fail for sure. incoherence is evident no?

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on a muchMUCHmuch lighter note, mighty thanks to bud wit his constant jokes to brighten my day. i swear he has a bank okay!

oh yes not to mention looking at suann's bitchy display pic makes me :D hahas for some reason i love seeing people glare & looking all pissed. yes im weird so what?

somebody pls take me shopping before i burst.

just realised that tops are so not my thing, all hail graphic tees :D i can practically hear everyone TSK-ing me but i dont care

(supposed to be a saturday entry but the time blahblah)

hahas ohwells you get the idea im too lazy to type it again. mm hope everyone have a great cny aye? if not at least take this time to rest :D

oh yes im grumpy cus i stupidly turned down someone just now

and i even didnt bother to ask to go meet sister fabian either. (okay although with this, i predict mum would object cus its 1am alrd. but nonetheless not impossible if i really want to)

supposed to be out wit rate also, but RAHH just too darn lazy i suppose

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anyone wants to go shopping for shoes with me ? :D and im in the mood for more tees as well. oh yeah throw in a new bag and i'll be all set. hahs am seriously thinking of getting something to replace deadrockstar but i dont know what hiaks. the NewUrbanMale bag is beckoning but at the same time so OUCH on the pockets. think i'll probably hug it to sleep or something lol

mm think i might need to get new contacts soon :| eyes becoming irritated all the time eeks. hopefully its just a lack of sleep aye? or else i can kiss another 300bucks goodbye

i know im turning stingy :| hahas cant help it cus i realised im not working anymore! tht means no source of income and i cant spend as if im racing to deplete my bank account or something. -nods. gotta control a wee bit before im all depressed for the rest of the year

by the way ive found the first RANDOM PERSON WHO WOW-ED ME in 2006, last saturday! cant believe i forgot to pita about it.

hahas was waiting at the hairdresser's for xiu, and tadahh spotted him :D wanted to call him Cool Guy but the post has been filled so i decided that hes Mr My Kind Of Guy :D and its so true okay cus hes just mindblowingly charming. hahas okay xiu doesnt think so but i can swear to that man, hes HOT STUFF :D

ohwells if there was anyone REMOTELY close to that in aj, think i'll never be late for school, ever. LOL hes seriously cool okay :D lalala

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messaged somebbody just now :) hahas according to the lunar calender, today is our first year! laughs that sounds weird, but its true eh. cant believe its one year alrd, when i can still remember what happened then so clearly :D

ohwells, guess things are so different now. and im glad we're waaaaay past the stage of guessing & weirdness alrd GRINS

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i sure hope my parents enjoy longevity cus im trying my best to keep my eyes opened.

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HAHA

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ur back looks de same lahx..

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but de front..

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lol



a discerning person YAYNESSSSSSSSS :D hahahahas i dont care if hes lying cus im just gonna believe it !

(meant to be a Friday entry! time's all wrong)

ohwells just got back from flower shopping with my parents :D gawd theyre all so pretty & the colours are vibrant aye. much yayness! plus i got myself a stalk of tiger lily too :D

it was much FUN with twentythree (: ohwells WHATS NEW? :D hahas singing Gong Xi (x3) in the canteen+ohana, as well as the birthday songs for everyone else was mighty hilarious. brain teasers during math waaaay fab too GRINS.

cny celebrations were pretty okay, i still miss attending mass though. hahs but things were much better wit our insane cheering plus we won the best card :D hahs

class reunion dinner at marina was GOOD (: hahas okay turnout was poor. only chee, diana,mui, royston, suann, zibbie & i turned up rahh. somemore the ones who initiated the idea was no where to be found. TSK

i really love them all so much :) MWAHHHHH

yesterday made me realise how much things have changed, whether you notice it or not.

the dog that always smiled at me is no longer around, replaced by a malnourished one who whines & growls :( so i guess the walk in & out isnt gonna be the same anymore eh

new stuff was planted in the park, and paths previously covered with sand were cleared too. its all so bright now wit the fluoroscent street lamps

so i sat there hugging my legs, sobbing.

sigh there's staje tomorrow :(

i really really REALLY wish we could go back to msia this year, at least we can celebrate cny back there. miss spending those long holidays there waking up at 6am just to play silly boardgames wit my cousins! its been ages since i last saw everyone hiaks

so selfish i know, but i really miss the hype of cny approaching. not to mention the last minute shopping trips on the day before cnye. and i even miss attending mass in stnicks too :|

hate to sound so bimbotic but my eyebags are HUGE yucks. :(

anyone free to shop for new shoes wit me ? :D so many people are wearing white-based shoes now GRINS. i knew i had taste when i bought my gallaz a year ago! hahs maybe i should just follow nd & be totally old-school :D not to mention, cheapskate economical!

frowns why is it that there are so many who can act but arent in staje :( guys especially! lol and gossiping with the j1 guy aft screening was hilarious. let me finishhh LOL we didnt stopped you dude

can anyone explain the origins of Murphy's laws to me? some engineer being all philosophical seems pretty confusing to me

TIME FOR BED !

Sunday morning rain is falling
steal some covers share some skin
clouds are shrouding us in moments unforgettable
you twist to fit the mold that i am in


helmi said to sing our favourite song, so there.

it really isnt my fault that lessons are so insanely boring i sleep through them all. cant help it either if i have the tendency of falling off the chair right?

i insist im correct.

and i love love letters ((:

before i forget again, it was alex's birthday on saturday.

memories of us being all crazy & high one year ago are still so clearly etched in my head (:

thank you
and sorry i couldnt be there.

priorities girl, remember that (: good job aniw, keep it up!

the outing with Fertill was heaps of fun in my opinion! and i was on time BEAMS for the first time :D photos are up in the album alrd go check it out aye

i will do my work (:

my GP tutor is starting to amuse me greatly. no time? stop going clubbing & karaoke and do your GP homework

ohwell now dont look at me like that okay

WONG & I HAVE THE SAME DENTIST NOW YAYNESSSS WE CAN GO FOR APPOINTMENT TOGT ((: hahs thats more gossips!

because i am in a good mood, here goes:


after gelare with 2305 during the holidays (: hahs the huge straw hat at NUM!


the furniture exhibition at parkmall whee !

oh i love the colour red (: this is absolutely filled wit self-love but who are you to care eh? got my hp serviced yesterday, no more grids for me frowns :| but ohwells at least it tells the correct time now and annoyingly curious strangers cant peek at my messages anymore :D

on the topic of my phone, much THANKS to dor who found my ripcurl purse and earpiece (: so the weekend wasnt that bad afterall aye

completed my Capacitance tutorial. i feel 20times better now and okay maybe physics isnt THAAAAT bad afterall, as long as i put my heart to doing it. oh yeah and i managed to complete Halogen Derivatives by friday too much yayness for that :D im catching catching catching up !

woah so its down to math now. -takes a deep breath. i'll be fine :) hiaks okay and IHDC minutes to compile which seems like work considering my illegible script. oh crap who says girls are more meticulous?

meeting Fertill later! hahs oh please i pray i dont get food poisoning again :|

CNY is coming~ :D okay so what if we wont be celebrating much this year, im still allowed to get excited innit ? GRINS.

times like this make me wonder if i made the right choice

i really hate regrets

so i havent been keeping to my Birthday/NewYear resolutions at all, bite me. WAI focus please you made an effing promise so you jolly well keep it ugh

RAHHHHHHHH i hate this so very much, WEAK

and i hear patrick echoing that

all that talk about fighting to keep my four subjs seems like utter rubbish now. sitting through anything to do with physics is such a freaking torture i'd rather do GP. oh dear lord please bless me with some sorta ability to understand the whole crap about electric charges & what not.

my ring finger is swollen, think i sprained it ugh. and i lost my purse (three days old mind you) togt with my ear piece UGH pissifying.

i really love staje (:

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INTERHOUSE DRAMA COMPETITION .. WIT A TWIST (:

hellos all AJCians :D if youre interested in theatre/drama do sign up wit either your class leaders, or at the stajeworks notice board outside LT1. can approach any staje member too !

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEI (okay the pitas greeting is a little late but i msged you!)

much <3

i dont want to run away
but i cant take it,
i dont understand
if im not made for you
then why does my heart
tell me that i am?

is there any way that i can stay in your arms?


collected my 137photos after staje just now! just realised i shouldve just bought the package deal thingamajig GRR. couldve save uhh 60bucks? okay right now that ive calculated it i feel really dumb.

hahs affected by my class's sudden craze to save up ._. or maybe its just diana. girl's trying to cut down on expenditures so that she can buy this pair of pants she hasnt even tried on ._. hahas that silly girl aye? so shes eating beehoon everyday now hiaks

so its been hell during lessons (cept for econs) BUT i love my class ! :D gelare+specs day tuesday was a success cept for the sms,date,bed couple whom i shant name.

forfeits in the canteen were as usual HILARIOUS :D hottie (ahem) kianlin flexing his bod in the middle of the canteen and diana proclaiming her love for royston to our dear vending machine! so we laughed our days away feeling all high & happy :) not to mention, we have a couple of common breaks with 10/06 MAJOR YAYNESS ! :D

cant believe my mum couldnt bake a Betty Crocker properly, but im still growing fat on brownies aniw :D

staje today was .. not too good :| ohwells

oh yeah got a new hp. (togt one two three ..) LIKE FINALLY ! i know ive been lazy blahblah but yea i did alrd hahas and i got a strap this time so hopefully i wont lose it anymore :|

im really sorry :( my bad. this guilt's gonna kill me hiaks.

not to mention, thank goodness hero's messages are no longer in my new hp cus it still gives me the creeps eeks. im totally not interested to go to Manila and be a rich tai-tai there thankyouverymuch.

ohwells, OKAY TIME TO DO WORK !

as always, im feeling confused.

mm maybe its time i stop this mess im creating

do something about my mental problem?

listening to a particular song just reminds me of plenty of things. cant believe its soon gonna be one whole year since then aye

-takes a deep breath

when will i fall to the ultimate low before all this negativity disperses?

no, dont get me wrong im not depressed okay. please no way im a firm believer of spastic smiles, laughter & chocolates :) and in any case, i am still functioning perfectly well.

it just isnt fun anymore when i feel so tired all the time. that every single moment i have to myself seems so precious & personal.

yes to the extent i just break down all the time

please, offer me a great big hug the next time you see me. you know the kind that seems to last forever? hiaks this makes me miss stnicks so darn much

and yes im really YEARNING to ..
- have gelare wtf its been 3weeks since :( but ive got a waffle date wit twentythree this tues yayness!
- meet my lazybums
- go back for orange bowl ((:
- see the ohfiveasstwelve people
- go beaching!
- catch some movies (oh shut up i know im deprived)
- slack, stone & sleep


im hopelessly hopeful,
that youre just hopeless enough
but we never had it at all

and the record wont stop skipping
and the lies just wont stop slipping
and besides my reputation's on the line
we can fake it for the airwaves
force our smiles, baby, half dead
from comparing myself to everyone else around me


the idea of leaving just to break away makes much sense, doesnt it? why hold on to something that isnt even yours to keep anymore, when all things become routine and stagnant

time to find precious item number two

oh yes, and do my tutorials

hard to believe that it was only one week ago when i was also at AMK market. didnt strike until yipz reminded me just now

wow, this week was incredible i must say. one heck of a roller coaster ride which's got me screaming, crying, whining incessantly, stoning seriously, wishing i was dead, sleeping during GP+math test and in CLAB during reflux.

so very exhausted right now, but i gotta say staje is getting more interesting :D oh please bring a cloth to clean our pigeon holes okay! no way is my living area gonna be so dirty yucks

and oh dear lord please say i dont look like CAL :( ive been wearing my glasses just so that we look totally different hiaks

despite all the fatigue & disorientation, im still glad for the little blessings (: so ima count them all aye! silly fights with zibzib, hugs wit diana causing PE dept to raise their eyebrows, revisiting j1 physics lol

yawns time for bed !

and it is my fault i know.
my bad, okay?
sigh this really sucks, honestly

i suppose new years were never my thing aye? its like how i dont particularly fancy growing up one bit.

sorry for the excessive whining everyone, i know its getting from bad to worse. believe me its just my way of releasing whatever's bugging me inside

promise i'll try not to overdo it!

anyways i just realised something that just adds on to the swirling in my head hiaks. infatuations are insanely confusing i swear

'cant wait for the weekend

YOU PROMISED :( GROWLS

hahs but im not gonna get angry cus im in a good mood today

infact im still smiling :D

wells sleeping at 9pm after stuffing myself with chocolates is a pretty good way to end a crappy day

and starting the next day fresh (literally, since i took a bath and almost died coughing) makes things so much better. of course, i was doing my Numerical Methods tutorial DEAL WIT THAT.

i will damn sure keep my four A's- watch me shine.

okay wait the only sad thing is, i dont get to go out and celebrate HARI RAYA HAJI hiaks :(

hahs ohwells that aside, ima make sure i'll keep smiling :)

and yes, i'll do my GP later okay.

fuck

today, i feel like i dont have the strength to walk on.

its no fun seeing only half the class once at a go, watching them complete work during their many breaks while i can barely breathe.

having PE until 5.15 sure isnt a comfort

neither is counselling by Chng Chng Chng my idea of a favourite past-time i assure you.

im sorry Patrick, to make you blow up like that.

im desperate enough to stuff myself with lemon cheesecake icecream (thank heavens for that) in attempt to brighten my day. yes i know im coughing already i dont care

the very person i want to talk to isnt around.

i want to go to xiu's place now, and she'll whip up something nice for me :) just like how i used to go straight there from NJ to get away. we'll watch endless movies, take stupid photos/videos, sing, laugh, bitch & be happy.

oh lord save me.

if this is how monday blues feel like, i forsee myself being part of the absenteeism clan.

i suddenly miss Hero, and yes hes leaving too

this entry is entirely random, and about 2305

we havent had our prize from the NE trip, do you all remember? :)

i still have the voucher

but sadly it has expired already aye

and the stall owner supposedly passed on, so the stall's closed anyway

strange innit, how quickly time passes?

and its back to school for everyone of us all tomorrow.

guess i'll be seeing much less of two dear girls

i know we will never miss y'all the way you two yearn to be here with us. if anyth, we'll never understand or experience what you two are going through.

but i we promise, and i know i can safely say this on behalf of everyone, we love y'all :) the absence will damn sure be felt. and theres always an open invitation to come join us any time okay?

hell you guys better make sure you come help us dress chee up the next time round

and play the finger guessing game, laughing till our sides ache as we watch someone embarrass him/her/it-self again :)

dont forget gossip fixes for the bitchy ones!

oh well now.

i'll see you all tomorrow, my class of twentyfive precious ones

(okay maybe im not so eager to see Mr Phang since my math tutorials are uhh still in their fresh original state)

'cant wait :)


when the light disappears
and when this world's insincere
you'll be safe here
when nobody hears you scream
i'll scream with you
you'll be safe here

life tastes good ((:

although i'll probably get roasted for the zilch amount of work done but WHAT THE FCK. send me for counselling for not submitting anyth if it pleases you i dont give a damn now man

yes im hell tired now but all the satisfaction and sense of peace & tranquility are swimming around me.

proud to say, i enjoyed Novitas ALOT. many firsts for me ..

- learning & singing the school song
- tucking in my shirt
- cheering/dancing/singing like there's no tomorrow
- getting a self-induced high for so many times in a day.
- having SUCH a sexy voice
- realising that you can actually bargain for extra sugarcane LOL (contributed by Fertill)


much thanks & love to Fertill for everyth (: although i seriously felt like shoving my shoe up their ass initially, things turned out pretty well aye. my dearest fellow OGLS, ryan & yipz are just FANTASTIC~! sorry that you all had to handle all the admin stuff while all i did is smile, cheer, greet morning! & take attendance.

laters.

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hahas alright here ta continue this entry cus i was waaay too shagged last night!

speaking of work, my dearest chem rep has just informed me that we've a chem test on monday. thats not the worst .. we have to hand in our holiday assignment only if we got D & below. GRRRRRRRR i swear i'll never start with attempting chem anymore this is so pissifying! the only thing i did (albeit only half) was the one that didnt require submission OMG.

that aside .. im looking through my 170photos of Fertill ((: hahah thats a heck load of them aye? but mostly candid ones that are super unglam. SEE I TOLD YOU ALL TO POSE!!!!!!!!!!!

AND SHANNON LING IM SO ANNOYED WIT YOU GRRRRRRR. YOU HAD TO POP YOUR HEAD IN MY FAVOURITE PICTURE OF THE WHOLE DAMN THING. GLARES UGH DAMMIT.

-takes a deep breath. i can hear yipz going woah woah already LOL

since im so random already, i'll just continue by saying ugh my nail broke while bowling with them yesterday GRRRR. omg its like the longest & nicest ive ever kept them la :( now one decided to commit suicide ugh!

petty issues aside, there's much to be thankful for this orientation (: FERTILL, terra ogls, the 23/05 ogls (it just makes me super happy seeing them!), dancing+cheering, those who popped by occasionally (to let me bitch to lol), council & basically everyone whos part of the whole thing!

of course, it was priceless seeing them cheer, laugh, play as one ((: i feel like a mum now i swear! my little ducklings LOL :D (im not suggesting im a duck, but kids honestly irk me. hahas i'd rather have little duckies!)

in true spirit of being their OGL, im gonna paste all our cheers here so please dont read on if youre not (i quote buddy) super enthu rah rah type. :D THEY LED & CAME UP WIT IT THEMSELVESSSSS !!


entrance cheer

OH MY GOSH! FERTILL IS HERE~


FERTILL'S CHEER ((:

(1,2 clap)
we are from Fertill
we are the champs
we are the best
a cut above the rest
think you can fight us
oh oh oh
think you can win us
no no no
ahhhhhh .. FERTILL!


attitude cheer!

clap x2 .. whatever!


movement cheer (cus i'll make them sing it whenever we move)

fertill x6 (sang to the ole ole song)


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and so its back to school next week. sigh time to move on already :( guess up next will be interhouse? mm shrugs.

ohwells let me enjoy my last weekend of grace period before i bang my head against the wall wit all my undone work ugh.

cus i dont want you to know where i am
cus then you'll see my heart
in the saddest state its ever been

this is no place to try and live my life

stop right there,
thats exactly where i lost it
see that line,
well i never should have crossed it
stop right there,
well i never should have said that
its the very moment that i wish that i could take back

im sorry for the person i became
im sorry that it took so long for me to change
im ready to try and never become that way again
cus who i am hates who ive been


heartbreak you dont know.

sigh, i cant escape from PMS. ate so much yet it does nothing to chase the grouchess in me. growls this is hopeless.

i vaguely remember feeling this way two years ago, pre-secfour blues. :(

was reading something i wrote when we got our olevel's results back. it seems so ancient now, but for some reason i can remember the day's events so vividly. from photo-taking to the bus ride back, honey stars, tension mounting, sitting at the piano crying to nevil (wit mrs seet interrupting ._.), calls from cer & rocker, towning/venezia with yins and the eight missed calls from nd. buying bricks of chocolates & stacks of magazines to xiu's the next day.

random i know. but to realise its almost a year since then makes me realise how much has happened since then.

orientation tomorrow. i really miss ohfiveasstwelve & la famiglia so much i can cry right now. ohwell now, lets just focus on making Novitas happen aye?

another death in the family, not so good after all eh?

and youve disappeared again. :( pretty please just dont go away im begging you.

(time is ALL WRONG AGAIN. ugh i should make this a permananent fixture in my entries to save me the trouble of typing)

i really wish we could all stay at joyce's place forever. then again, good times never last do they? (:

the past two days (sat-sun) has been all mashed up into one big memory that is all great

being the slob that i am, i only managed to reached marina at 7pm in time for dinner. uhh doesnt matter that they met at 4pm :D hahs

Asian Kitchen was really not my idea of good food but something hilarious happened. its funny only when i think of it now actually, took this from lei's:

joyce and vonn were on the brink of a cat fight all night and this is a typical convo between joyce and wai:

wai (to the waiter): i want no. 3

joyce: har, u're eating no. 3??

wai (turns to joyce): SHUT UP BITCH

-waiter looks on in amusement...


yeah pretty much that. hahs put two cranky/bitchy girls togt and thats what you get aye. -laughs. especially if we already usually have bitch fits WITHOUT the mood.

so dor was fidgeting in the crowd; joyce whining about her goldring turned silver; lei disappeared halfway though she looked great in that top (I MISSED YOU GIRL!); vonn who seemed so very sleepy; xiang with her theory about how stars will shan; xiao getting tortured & the bulk of the bitchiness from us all (SORRY GIRL! hiaks)

we survived the night without any major fallouts & the pretty fireworks (seemingly close enough to touch) sure made things much better. with the exclamations of purple! or green! and ohmygodds, we stood amazed :D (okay call us swaku or easily pleased if you wish)

walked back to joyce's place, and i swear my favourite pair of heels are a goner now :( didnt do much, or so i believe since i was pretty much wasted after the shower. uhh and Bailey's sure didnt help keep me awake either aye, though it was yummm.

sunday morning was just having macs breakfast delivered right to our doorstep thank god. stoned whatever was left of the morning away watching Disney Channel

joyce & i went out for a walk to develop some photos & grab food. took uhh MUCH longer than intended & we couldnt find an FHM to browse :( so back to crawford with PHOTOS, tao huay (say YAYNESS!), pretzels, kettle chips, mini oreos & what not :D i know we're gluttonous, oh shut up

more stoning & eating while watching this show featuring GOOD FOOD (: hahs then got our lazy asses down to doing the collage! so very prouda it & i really love them all MUCH (: -HUGS. girls ask me for the photos cus im too lazy to upload them to the net now.

back home and there was a mini party :D more GOOD FOOD!! laughs okay im gonna explode but what the hell aye.

sigh and after waiting for like the whole night, its still out to lunch :( GROWLS. i hope you dont choke on your food GRR. okay that was mean hahs but i dont like being ignored UGH.