Sunday, January 30, 2005 ×

gawdd, im so shagged now :| i have no idea why, since ive been slacking the whole day. i think i have a mild case of food poisoning! -frowns.

aniw, it was rocker reuben's birthday celebration yesterday! :D the poor boy was so busy entertaining everyone he didnt even have time to eat. and wot's worse was that he drank on an empty stomach.

played lotsa lame games after we left, and i still dont get the string thing! -growls.

sighh. there's school again tomorrow :( how depressing. acks. off i go to do my tutorials already. so there.

Saturday, January 29, 2005 ×

its been some time since i last blogged, and i wont say im feeling any better (my mood & feelings). BUT im just really glad i met up with xiu yesterday. :D

it felt so good to just BITCH like there's no tomorrow. :) and the best part is that the babe (or rather, the BITCH) understood every single thing i was trying say without the need for further explanation. :D hahas it just felt SOSOSO good!

i was at an ultimate low yesterday la honestly, and when i talked to her i really felt like crying already. but since we were walking in town, it wasnt exactly the right venue to just burst into tears.

kinda silly la, we wanted to buy certain things, but our minds werent on shopping. just went into the shops, fiddled around with stuff while we just bitched non stop. hahas, so like we hadta wait till the end of the day when we kinda bitched enough, then we started to focus on buying things. :D

i remember at one point of time we were just walking around in circles & bitching. hahas. lovely lovely :)

aniw, i think some of the stuff has sort of resolved. or so i hope. i dont know what has happened, but lets just keep our fingers crossed that other complications dont arise.

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let me update on yesterday since im like pitasing. we had our road run yesterday, which was pretty ok la. lets just say i'd rather have that than have lessons :D ooh but our class boys did us proud man! hahas, ok at least i am mighty prouda them! :D with exception of leon & samooel who was so slack ._.

and if i find out who tripped my buddy, i'd like dsfbjlksbrgjebv that person!! -growls. i bet the person was like jealous of him. and of course, rocker reuben was super rock la :D hahas.

us girls were just, BAD. lol :D ohwells. some of us went home to change (myself included), while the rest headed to town straight cus they brought clothes to change into.

aft changing, i met the rocker reuben at PS where he was scaring me with his bundle of cash. hahas then we met yins & went down to glass house fish&co together. the three of us were like super late la, and it was hilarious trying to decide on what to order. in the end the three of us were like sharing the set meals & everyth.

went to youth park after lunch to slack. and sherwin accidentally blurted out who was my angel! hahas sheesh! i was like stoned, then i realise like "OMG! THATS MY ANGEL!"

oh, by the way, our class & the senior class are playing the angel & mortal game. hahas i think my angel will so kill him! :D but ohwells, i think i should just feign ignorance, its more fun that way innit? hahas.

aniw, we played a few rounds of mafia then like most of the people left by now, leaving NINE girls and fabian to go shopping. hahas he's part of the sisterhood now.

but yeah aniw i left them halfway to meet xiu where we bitched la. :D

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its the rocker's birthday dinner today! :D hahas gonna be meeting up with the rest of the class once again. sadly, the cresentians wont be around today :( but ohwells, we'll just meet up on monday or something.

and btw, ive met qing's AHEM. :D hahas ohgawd i think shes gonna kill me if she sees this. aniw, ive passed him! lalala :)

Tuesday, January 25, 2005 ×

i hate confessions, and revelations. truths tumble out, leaving you to face the consequences all by yourself. i feel so confused right now, it makes me sick.

i must brace myself for this i suppose, i practically set myself up for this situation to occur.

-sigh. i feel like calling qing up to just ramble on & on, but at the same time i dont know wot to tell her. mmmm, then again, with her there aint a need for words sometimes.

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disturbing thoughts aside, yins & i went back to SN! :D hahas, had our beloved orange bowls, saw our teachers (who exclaimed when they heard i dropped physics) & as usual i rolled my eyes at every student i saw.

but, it was really comfortable to be back :) we dont look so striking within the sea of blue uniforms. and many things were just same as before.

unfortunately, the school honestly looks like a kindergarten now. pink, red, green, yellow and everyth bright. i miss my man, the egytian one of course. and goodness, i miss our mirrors so much! NJC is really lacking in this area man. back in SN, there are mirrors at every corner of the school.

right now i wish i could just go back to secondary school, where things seemed so much simpler.

whatever la. -GROWLS.

Sunday, January 23, 2005 ×

sighh, was reading through my diary again, and it really makes me want laugh & cry at the same time. 2004 has been a year that has changed me so much, after all the bitching, eyecandies, ktv-ing, ondo-ing, mugging, playing, badhair episodes, LD & so many other things.

sweet sixteen definitely :) ok, maybe bittersweet, but its good enough for me. i wish to see all my friends in our yellow classroom with my egyptian man & give them a tight hug each.

such a rollercoaster ride this year has been, with more responsibilities, more stress yet more fun. the high points in my life got higher, and the low ones got worse. hahas i think this will probably go on year after year. when the contours of life gets steeper, yet more beautiful.

do i make sense?
i sense the glares, and heads shaking.

okok, i'll stop ranting.

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im hungry. :(

and im confused. i just hope its me thinking too much, cus i think im treading on dangerous waters.

ohwells.

Saturday, January 22, 2005 ×

sorry for tking so long, but ive got new pictures uploaded :D

been busy, so didnt have time to caption in, hence the long wait before the whole thing was done. so anyway, feast yer eyes :D its basically pictures of only qing, vonn & myself.

enjoy :)

Saturday, January 22, 2005 ×

yesterday was one helluva crazy day, it felt like i experienced a few days worth of emotions all at one go. in fact, my memory of the happenings of what happened yesterday seems almost fragmented.

met up with qing & yins to shop, gossip & basically just town. then met zhengyu too, and walked around for awhile before settling down at BK.

yins & zhengyu left after awhile & etc. received a msg that left me feeling really crushed, but i still enjoyed myself with qing, talking to her & everyth. love tht babe tonnes :D its a pity the bestie couldnt come though

aft tht, went down ta ondo to meet nevil. sat at maki counter & talked alot of lame stuff as usual, while waiting for ondo to close. that guy was so nosy its like seriously incredible. hahas we were like practically playing tug-o-war with my bag or something. rummaging through my things & reading my magazine etc. aniw after awhile we started ta help them out with their closing. and stupid adrian still had the cheek to blame me for helping him do his top ups. tsk!

sat around in maki counter after closing for a super long time writing cards & talking while waiting for alex. aniw at around 11+ we went downstairs to witness some weird ritual thing which i decline to comment on.

the party began at around 12+ & everyone went a crazy especially adrian who was SO GAY. ate alot, drank alot, and they smoked alot too. alex allowed us to take anyth we wanted from the fridge which ofcourse made us all happy kids :D sat around talking rubbish, watch them do crazy things, took silly photos & everyth. super funn except for a tiny part, but other than that, i really enjoyed myself a whole damn lot :D just sitting there made me feel really happy already, with the company of those crazy bunch who didnt judge me or anyth :)

really wished i could like record down what happened last night & replay it like a tape. went home with tricia aft tht & we talked alot as well.

really thankful for those bunch of people who made me laugh so much & cared for me :D adrian alex koonjia nevil pingting rechilda tini tricia xinyi zili zinc. and i really appreciated the way two persons (shant name who) tried so hard to make me laugh :D so sweeet :D hahas.

although my hair still smells of fag, but whatever. :D they take me for who i am, likewise me towards them.

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eating love letters now :D hahas my love. im just gonna stay home, binge & grow fat. ive had enough emotions for the past day to last me a week.

Friday, January 21, 2005 ×

had a sudden urge to blog. mmmm dont know why either, but just clicked on the pitas link on impulse, so TADAHHH. pardon me if this entry is crappy (that is, if i even press the done! button to begin with)

aniw, it has been an exhausting week i must say, albeit being short. from monday to thursday, ive ran 11.5km in total. can you believe it?? 10rounds on monday cus there was PE, then softball. 5 rounds during physical training (PT) on wedn. and today, 3.9km during road run trial, plus another 4rounds during softball.

so crazy innit? especially for the girl who HATES running. its pretty amazing when i think about it.

this aside, i think im getting more & more enlightened as days pass. :D and honestly, i think i ought to hang out with haikel, samantha & waiyee more! hahas :D

was with them after softball & they started to inform me about the happenings in our class. hahas. all the scandalous events & stuff like tht. -winks. ohh, then wilson (our OGL) joined us too. and he is even more well-informed than i am. GROWLS. hahas. this is so unfair i swear, but ohwells, i guess we exchanged information so im no longer so ignorant anymore. -grins. ohhh sam & waiyee was so cute trying ta do the bimbotic stuff la :) go girls!! hahas.

yepp. mmmmm its kinda sad tht ive got no plans for tomm :( -frowns. anyone wants ta date me? hahahas, please do drop me a line or sms alrights?

speaking of dates, huiyi wants ta date me for vday! hahahs my cool girl is asking me out. lol im like so honoured! :D

hahas, i really do love S12 so much :D and im glad ta say tht im nt afraid of zhengyu anymore, although tht mean guy is still making fun of my ugly handwriting! hehhhs suddenly thought of reuben & his funny antics during econs tutorials. you are a rocker man!

hahahs and of course, there's my fellow WAI :D hahhas lazy to list everyone down now, considering its 1am in the morn. shall end here la. :D

laterrrs :D

Saturday, January 15, 2005 ×

i love visiting dinah's blog! :D hahahs, she has the spanglish version of Purest Of Pain playing, so i have the window open now to hear the song replaying over & over again!

sheer happiness i must say, cus i love tht song so darn much :D

ok, i enjoyed myself thoroughly today :D its been really long since i had so much fun. and i really have to thank the bestie & the biatch for it. i thank God for this two bimbotic, bitchy, sweet, taitai-wannabes, non-judgemental, funloving Very Quirky Women in my life :) btw, VQW is an acronym for vonn, qing & wai. hahas

ok met up with them, gossiped, shared scandalous stories (tsk), got in touch with our bimbotic selves, shopped, walked plenty, and took ALOT of pictures :D i swear i just love them so darn much.

ohhh, sth SUPER EMBARRASSING happened just now. i was in one of the shops in Paragon, then was waiting at the counter to pay & messaging at the same time. when it was my turn, i fished out a card from my pocket (cus i have no wallet) without looking, and handed it to the salesgirl. turns out, i handed her my EZLINK CARD instead of my ATM CARD. she was so stunned, and i was SO embarrassed. hahas the worst part is tht the picture is like Very Ugly. but it was ok la, we both ended up laughing like crazy.

i love paragon, honestly :D -nudges the vqw.

Friday, January 14, 2005 ×

im in an extremely depressed state now. and watching the ppt that the OGLs prepared for us, is definitely not making me feel any better.

i suddenly miss everyone & everything. s12, orientation, my highlights, the fckers, the bbcians, charitians, my (once) energetic & happy self, bitching, swearing & cursing, laoshi, mrskhong, and everyth that was (and still is) part of my life.

im binging so much i scare myself. sigh. i'll just blame it on PMS i suppose.

-sigh. and i need new shoes. queensway anyone?

Thursday, January 13, 2005 ×

i am like so shagged :| had second servings during dinner just now. its like totally crazy cus dinner alone was like enough to make me bloated usually.

softball trainings are like wearing me out, but yeah pretty fun. i loved the parts we jogged round the track. yes call me psycho if you wish, but jogging (almost leisurely) without being timed feels damn good. never thought i'd feel this way before.

hahahs, i must be deprived of jogging.
oooh btw i lost weight! :D hahahs im friggin happy about it honestly. now qing owes me icecream. it was supposed to be Ben & Jerry's, but i'll just make do with the one at taka. :D hahas yins & i are like ADDICTED to it alr.

sometimes i wish i could make time go fast forward, so i can find out if wot im doing now is worth it.

Wednesday, January 12, 2005 ×

this is a day of retribution i swear.

hahahs i think only yins & her bestfriend, alex would know wot im talking about. -frowns. its like throwing money into the drain or something.

i dread tomm though :| we end so late! GROWLS. sigh, hopefully i can get into softball.

-sigh. i think its time to go & do my math tutorials. before i doze off later or something. ohhh! but we get to go to school later tomm! :D wheeee.

Tuesday, January 11, 2005 ×

now now, i really feel like a stupid bimbo ._.

was asking people out to catch The Aviator together in the afternoon. when i checked the Shaw website just now, i realised its not even out yet! and not coming out anytime soon either. how friggin dumb i swear.

i can just imagine Haikel using that youre sucha bimbo look, glaring at me. hahahs, but ohwells. its not like he's any better la, that himbo!

ooohh, my mum was so cute last night! cus my dad called from China, and i answered the call. my mum was bathing, but when i told her it was my dad, she practically rushed out from the bathroom la. hahas fortunately i was wise enough to excuse myself from the room ;)

-sigh. maybe i should go offline to do my homework or something. hahahs, this is so NOT slacker behavior i know, but seeing all my classmates so hardworking, i feel Very guilty :|

ohwells now. ahhhh some Lazy Person Who Loves Sleeping keeps teasing me!! -growls. and if that person is reading now, HMPF I WONT EVEN TYPE YOUR NAME CUS YOURE SO BAD! AND NO, IM NOT IN LOVE WITH CHEF OK! hahhahas ok im not pissed. man, shouldnt have told Lazy Person Who Loves Sleeping about that incident la. GROWLS.

well well, if youre the Lazy Person Who Loves Sleeping reading this, hahahs you should know im talking about you! its pretty obvious innit?

alrighty, time ta go offline to do my homework. im in nerd mode. glasses, check. messy & uncombed hair, check. new black pen (wheee got it just now), check. thick stack of tutorial & lecture notes, check.

i suppose i have most of my ahem, equipment already! off i go now :D

Sunday, January 9, 2005 ×

i am no longer part of sushi ondo. its quite depressing, honestly.

and Alex was so nice about it, i thought i might faint. seriously. i couldnt even bring myself to ask about my pay, or anything else.

i cant believe i just did it. ondo has been such a large part of my life, changing it completely. but now ..

-sigh. ohwells.
im at a loss for words. then again, i probably neednt say much la. but i'll definitely miss them all so darn much. adrian ahqiang alex amy desmond jason nevil rechilda szehua tini tricia zhiwei zili zinc. im really sorry if i left anyone out.

even though they always bluff me, scold me & even bully me, its been great with them around. cus i'd remember all the laughters, the lame jokes, the fun times & everyth else.

sigh. with them, i was less afraid, more confident, and i realise that with every crisis, there would always be a solution to it, even though it aint perfect. wrong orders, picky annoying customers, empty chawanmushi cups on the belt (yuck) & etc. it was great.

they'd probably never read this, but hell, it feels good to just type like that.

as i close yet another chapter of my life, i'll just hafta move on to a new phase, albeit unwillingly. but thankfully S12 is one heck of a fab class, so things are not so bad.

Sunday, January 9, 2005 ×

its evil that our school is so near to town. i realised for the past six days, ive been going home from town for five days. hahas.

and im still in my social reject mood, but whatever.

changed my hair parting this morning. i think it looks a tad better, albeit not much. but ohwells.

friendster has to be like the most amusing network on earth la. some people are just like so weird its freaky but funny at the same time.

Sunday, January 9, 2005 ×

things feels kinda wrong, i dont know why either. i feel like a social reject :(

no wait, i think i AM a social reject. as in like, i feel that im not as good, that i lack something special that everyone else have.

or perhaps, im just depressed la.

whatever.

work today was really tiring, i dont know why either. and its really sad tht ondo is going to close at the end of this month. sigh.

had a haircut just now, i think its a BAD one. my hair is like too thin now, and it looks really weird. and i still hafta dye my hair tomorrow, which means i hafta condition it as well. hiaks so troublesome ._.

off i go to cut my hairs alr la. whatever.

Saturday, January 8, 2005 ×

there are so many things that i can pita about, but the whole week of orientation has been like a wonderful experience.

mmm, but i do enjoy the company of the Slackers United! the president is my buddy, dev, and im in the exco! :D members are samoo-el & yins who's still on probation! ok i know it sounds damn lame la, but yeah had great fun with those people!

actually i honestly love S12 a whole darn lot la, great people in the class. :D

hahah talking to jason (the sushi master at ondo) on MSN now. oh man hes like a super slacker like me la. we're like exchanging ways to not answer phonecalls. hahas. but it gets quite scary sometimes, cus i just tell him so much stuff that i dont usually tell most people.

oh wells, i think i can trust him la. as compared to a certain somebody whom i know know of, who cannot keep secrets at all.

mmm, its dinah's birthday! haha 1.39am in the morning now, and im getting sleepy :| going back to SNGS to eat orange bowl tomm! :D hahas.

sigh ok i think i better go to bed now, im like nodding off alr ._.

Monday, January 3, 2005 ×

tricia
ok hey! :D (youre tricia from ondo right?) hahas mmmm how can i get back to you? nahh, youre not eavesdropping la. its not like there's much to eavesdrop on either anyway. hahas. mmmm ok see you at work then!

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first day of school was boring ._. everyone was practically asleep when Miss Phua (discipline mistress) was making her speech. and the principal's speech was equally bad lahh.

ohh but the dance & cheer part was a little bit more fun :D hahas although i have two right feet

was released at about 4.45pm (wot the horrors), and headed to town with yins to fill our tummies. went down to ondo to talk to alex about my schedule, then caught a ride home from my dad.

we're gonna be split into our classes (ie OG) tomorrow. hope all goes well! :D

Saturday, January 1, 2005 ×

im so lazy to pita about wot happened just now. lets just do it point form

- supposed to meet qing, vonn & xiu to watch Meet The Fockers.
- i was on time, while qing & xiu made me wait HALF AN HOUR for them
- while waiting for them, i was looked at as if i was a prostitute by so many dirty old men. YUCK
- received a phonecall that scared the shit out of me from Nevil (or so i'd like to believe, but Alex claimed he was the one who made the phonecall ._.)
- went down to ondo to clarify things, and bring my uniform home
- had lunch at Mos Burger while waiting for vonn
- walked around shopping then proceeded to watch the movie
- Meet The Fockers was Very hilarious :)
- went back to x:odus to purchase my heels! :D
- headed home after that for the bbq

thats basically wot happened today.
mmmms, and im really happy about getting my heels! haha, although perhaps i should have bought another pair. but ohwells :)

certain things keep replaying itself in my head. and the more i think about it, the less i actually feel it. im too rational it leaves me with little room for imagination. hahas i should stop trying to make everything into a logical formula man.

mmmm, im beginning binge on chocolates again. :( i mean like usually after work its so late already so i wont eat anyth. but now its like im eating to kill time.

i hafta stop binging man. imagine losing all that weight, and gaining it back in 2days? hahas i heard NJC will measure height & weight very soon, so i'll be heavy & fat all over again :(

-sigh. wots new?

Saturday, January 1, 2005 ×

im really tired now :| wasnt in the mood to sleep somemore, albeit being very sleepy.

oh man, 2005 is here. time is passing so quickly :( it means im starting school in 2days time. this is just depressing man, the entire cycle of school life again. i dread.

ok lets not talk about that anymore, im going out later! :D hahas like FINALLY right? and i hafta go down ta ondo to bring my uniform home to wash. i havent washed it for like 2weeks alr? -hides. yes im a dirty pig.

speaking of ondo, i was working yesterday, doing station two. surprisingly it was less busy than christmas eve. but there were a few groups of people who kept teasing of me. :( GROWLS.

mmmm, qing & rol walked past again, hahas and they spotted b! was trying to hide, looking everywhere else, cleaning tables like it fascinated me. but b just stood in front of me staring. had no choice but ta acknowledge b. mmmmm, but i shortened the conversation as much as possible lahh. b left after awhile.

and since Seah Yi Xin played out on me (-GROWLS), i went to countdown with the ondo people at chijmes. we practically ran all the way there la. UGH. i hate running :(

hahas but we made it for the countdown! and of course everyone got sprayed everywhere by foam & the stringy thing. and there was confetti as well. mmmm they all started drinking their Tiger (courtesy of ondo) while tini & i drank our TigerCokeLight. hahas

left after awhile to catch the last train home with tini while the rest went clubbing. and i swear that the stupid boards which tell the times for the last buses are inaccurate la.

was at serangoon at 12.55, and the last bus was supposedly at 1.02am, so i happily waited. until 1.10am, there was still no sight of the bus, so i got tired of waiting & decided to walk home. and when i reached my house area at around 1.25am, there was still no bus la. how dumb ._.

thank goodness i didnt just sit there holding on to hopes for the unknown future.

its pouring outside :( how am i gonna go out. hiaks. and im sleepy. oh wait, how are we gonna have our bbq? mmmmmm, this is bad :|

rain rain go away,
(dont) come again another day
little children wanna play

ahhhh, nursery rhymes :)