Wednesday, December 31, 2003 ×

hahhas yes that was my name for yesterday. had heck load of funn :) whee! okei went to school for LD to find out im no longer a t-bird! :) gonna be playing with the lights now. but one very sad thing is that mrstian is gonna be in charge of library. retribution? yuckks. and we're getting gurung. ugh!

that aside, i saw broccoli! :) ooh baby she was sexyy. hehh. :D

headed to town with qing, xin & xiu. delifrance-ed for lunch then went to book the ktv thing. slacked around alott in cine level six just plainly talking cock.

went to the ktv lounge to wait in the end. then finally at threePM we went in!! :) all the tracks we picked were all either Very lovesick or sappy. we ended up feeling so lovesick while cuddling up togt. :| hahas. and the darn place was so cold.

--

i cant sleep,
everything i ever knew
is a lie without you.
i cant breathe,
when my heart is broke in two
there's no beat, without you.
youre not gone, but youre not here
at least thats the way it seems tonight
if we could try to end these wars,
i know that we can make it right.

Tuesday, December 30, 2003 ×

tired as hell :| ugh! woke up fucking early in the morning for LD, in which i shant eleborate. like yuckkks. met up with lei & vonn aft tht. went to compass point! hahas :D my second visit there. walked around alot then headed to town.

walked around heeren, lei got the wallet for her brother then she left after awhile. vonn & i kept on walking around, then headed off to cine to see eyecandy! -grin. hahas.

walked around alot until our feet ached and my poor bestie had a blister. shikes :| hahas but it was hell fun trying on all the stuff & some of the shops were plainly infuriating lahh. that bitchhhh! grr. hahas. :D

theres LD again tomm and im going! hahs. yes i am going. then after that going ktv! whee three free hours :) boy oh boy! hahas. :D

Saturday, December 27, 2003 ×

didnt really want to update but ohwells, ive nothing better to do either lahh. mmm wanted to go out with vonn since its been like two weeks since i last saw her, but she wasnt free eh?

met xin & xiu at wisma coffee club express [?] at threeplus cus i left the house pretty late. sat & talked until like fourplus then we went to meet qing & rol at ondo. dont roll yer eyes at me alrightttt. hahas.

yepp dont know why we ended up there lahh. sat around talking until sevenplus when the cute girl chased us out. lol. ohwells. -growls. went to cine to take ugly neos then qing & xiu left from there. rol, xin & i walked around for awhile more before settling down in cine. oh! and we discovered the cool place :D hahas.

talked for awhile more then we left. yepp thts about it i guess.

Saturday, December 27, 2003 ×

trust is built on understanding. and since i dont seem to know you anymore, wot makes you think i'll trust you. get a grip.

Friday, December 26, 2003 ×

as much as i dont want to admit, its true :| then again, its better than dreaming of somebody else. okei nevermind im being gibberish and probably nobody really understands wot the crap im saying. oh shoot me.

mmm i had a wonderful day tods :D like whoooshhhh! hahas dont mind my terrible vocab cus im so tired i cant think of any word to describe today, and thus "whoooshhhh".

went for the post christmas sale tods!! :) started off with wisma which left me in a big bad mood. was feeling really drained, my tummy was upset cus of gastric & the queue was super long since everybod seemed to be buying like its free or something. and my mummy was only buying this handbag thingamajig, so it was darn crap lahh.

went to crystal jade for lunch! :) i really wanted to eat pizza noodles but the taka foodcourt was jam-packed so forget it lahh. the food was gooood :) and no more grouchness [?] definitely!

went to paragon to continue shopping. bought 5 tops altogether! hahs :) yes happy i am. oh and i bought a bag! hahas. yipeeeeee. hahas. love shopping with my mummy :D lol.

Thursday, December 25, 2003 ×

yipeeee :D its christmas!! okei im being plainly silly here since theres no christmasy mood cus im home alone. well sort of since friggin nd is still sleeping now when its 6.15pm alr. -growls.

had a hell great time with my darlings last night! :D it was a complete ninetyones outting plus dinah. hahas. okei met xiu at serangoon mrt then the both of us NEL-ed down together.

walked around from dhoby ghaut to wisma to meet bern, dinah & xin at kfc. walked around heeren then decided to head to PS for dinner. lol :) walk halfway then felt thirsty so we went into ondo to drink something. hahas dinah was seriously very thirsty lahh huh?

decided to make do with ondo for dinner though most of us didnt really eat. qing & rol joined us shortly after that. sat around waiting for laine & speculating wot really happened with the um, sentosa incident. and no, even after laine joined us we still didnt manage to draw a conclusion. rahh. annoying!

walked back to cine to take neos. lol it was chaoo fun lahh, especially since the last time i took a neo was eons ago. hung around meritus mandarin after that like h--k-rs, remember qing? lol :) met yins at somerset mrt! then both yins & laine left from there.

went to PS to grab a bite then headed down to esplanade! mmm sat around looking at the stars & river while being really lameass. you jump, we laugh. mean kids! humpf. hahas.

walked to clarke quay area. waited for xin outside madmonks & after that xiu & i walked to fulleton [spell?] hotel after bern & qing left. the place is fab especially with the candles & rose petals. :) and of course, grandpapa fish! :D hahhas private joke eh?

walked back to madmonks since jasper was there alr. lol shes dammit funny & lame lahh. hahas. i can float but i cant swim? LOL. mmm left after awhile then we did our countdown at the NEL station. it was so strange you know. like at 12 everyth just stopped. like a sudden silence. we were like mad kidds who kept saying merry christmas! :D hahas.

it was home after that since we were all so shagged. mmm had fun with all my darlings :) hahas. this is sucha long entry, and i took so long to type it. lol wots with me? its like 7pm alr? shikes. and yes, nd is still sleeping. hahas.

Wednesday, December 24, 2003 ×

xmas eve alr! :D im enjoying my 11mins of it. -grin. hahas thats the thing with online blogs man, after 12 its immediately the next day. uh, do i make sense? ahwells, nevermind! :D

-sings. vonn is coming home todayyy. yipee! :D i miss that girl a whole tonne lorr. fly home now babe! hahas. im feeling mad right now. oh shut up wai. lol :)

Sunday, December 21, 2003 ×

superstar! hahas. im slow lahh okei? mmm lemme do a little recap on yesterday eh.

met qing, xin & xiu in town. shopped around for awhile then went down to ondo again since it was raining so darn heavily. lol had fun with them although mb was being dumb & lame. -growls. "... my favourite thong" quote unquote him. ugh!

mmm yepp that was about it, went out for dinner last night. bored as hell now :| wondering wot im gonna have for dinner tonight eh.

going shopping with my mummy tomm! :) i think so anyway. hahas anybod can sense my excitment? but its more xmas shopping lahh. cant wait for xmas eve! -rub hands with glee. we're all gonna look so good huh? -wink wink. okei private joke :D

Friday, December 19, 2003 ×

the song reminds me of hurrr metalbriefs? HAHAS. shikes :| having terrible headache now. must be the retribution attacking me alr! mmm or rather, i laughed too much and too darn hard just now :D hahas.

okei let me start right from the top. met dinah, qing, rol, xin, xiu & xt at the school macs in the morn to do our math homework. hahas. -nerd grin. and yes, we're gonna be rich kids cus we filled in so many of that damn paper. lol :)

went to school to hand in the hwk, slacked around for awhile then we headed to town. i went to meet my mum at far east while they went to check out the movie times at cine. had lunch & did some shopping, and i got a couple of things in the mango sale! ooh mama :) hahas. it was like ahhhhh! exciting as hell im telling you.

met them at the ktv lounge after shopping :D sang & laughed alot cus we're like really out of tune sometimes. -hides. lol :) then after that dinah & xiu had to go so the four of us wanted to go far east. in the end it was raining really heavily so we decided to go to ondo for dinner lorr.

mmm. had TONNES of fun there lorr. seriously. okei, firstly mb was really high or something cus he was in a really good mood. it was so funny all the things he did sial. and all the crap we said about flashing the penknife? hahas. our uh, weapons! then how we're gonna dispose mb's youknowwot on chicken's noodles! lol how lame can? i laughed at that one until i couldnt walk to the toilet properly. i think we're seriously MAD! the aids ice lemon tea ehhh? -grin.

qing, rol & xin has to my favourite ondo partners eh. us with our mad mind & bitchy selves :D woohooo! sosososo much fun eh! and yes xin, it was a fabFABfab bitching session. :D hahas.

Thursday, December 18, 2003 ×

-growls. im alone at home now feeling so bored :| shouldve just went out with my mum or something. now im bored, tired & im prollie gonna be hungry cus im oh so lazy to go out & get something to eat. anyone wants to provide a delivery service? shikes, no :|

vonn is prollie at pulau ubin now for her stupid camp. ugh! cant go out until somebody comes home cus my house only has one set of keys? terrible terrible im telling ya.

Wednesday, December 17, 2003 ×

nose is acting up again. shikes :| eyes look like tiny slits now even though its 11.16pm and i took a three hour afternoon nap? just sneezed again. ugh!

ive no idea wot am i doing typing this actch since i did practically nothing tods? hahas. okei, made my own tea this morning! :D and yes, it tasted much better than the one my mum made yesterday morn. lol :)

slacked around and had lunch, instant noodles. wot were you expecting from two women who know nuts about cooking? oh! i helped to hang the clothes to dry even though i was almost dozing off while standing.

went upstairs & napped :) hahas it felt GOOD :D havent slept well in ages already. but unfortunately, it rained while i was sleeping so the clothes .. ohwells, next time lahh huh?

woke up for dinner [notice im either eating or sleeping]. or rather, helping my mum with the dinner. had baked potatos. again, no cooking required eh? but we couldnt open the friggin mayoinaise bottle. like all the cooking is fine but we're stumped at the very last stage. but my mum managed to pry it open in the end lahh.

uh yes, thats about the summary of my short day.

Tuesday, December 16, 2003 ×

whooosh! i smell of the sea :| acks. hahas im too lazy to go & take a bath right now, so friggin sleepy! well of course lahh, had a long happy day!

mmmm dragged myself out of bed reluctantly this morning cus i was sooo tired lahh. slept at two & ive to wake at friggin 8.45? yuckks. hahas. got my dad to send me to the NEL station cus im plainly too lazy to go there myself. lol and its true you know, andy nods off in less than 1 minute after boarding the car. tsktsk!

met qing on the train there, wot a coincidence eh? hahas. reached haborfront to meet xin, xiu & yins. went to get some things then proceeded to sentosa! :D hahas. oh and i must highlight this, toby tham yin har took almost half an hour to choose one bottle of sunblock. -faints. and after buying the thing, she was still going on about how she should have gotten the other one.

got there & started eating away. hahas yes i know we're so greedy but hey, a hungry man is an angry man. is there this saying? lol. yepp sun came out so yins & i started tanning. it kept hiding away so i gave up & started to play/swim in the water with qing & xin :)

slacked around alot cus the sun kept playing hide&seek with us. hahas but i had a heck load of fun trying to find out if that person was j! hahas. our silly plan & etc. mmmmm and not to forget, HER! -grin. hahas. how dumb.

showered, changed & headed back to the main island. yins left for home while the four of us took the train down all the way to sengkang compasspoint. hahas its xiu & my first time there :D had delifrance and bitched a whole damn lott. yes, i discarded all my retribution idea for the afternoon. it was a GREAT bitching session im telling you. whooshh :)

walked around & tried on stuff. mmmm all the silly things we did eh? was mighty fun i swear eh babes. mmm we all left at evening time since we were all so shagged already. took the NEL back to serangoon & my dad picked me up from there for dinner. hahas yes, no more nasi lemak for dinner already.

im so shagged now :| acks. hahas. gonna get a good long sleep tonight man.

--

if i die tonight,
i'd go with no regrets.
if its in your arms,
i know that i was blessed.
and if your eyes,
are the last thing that i see,
then i know the beauty Heaven holds for me.

Monday, December 15, 2003 ×

baby you need no dictionary to find out the meaning of a hypocrite, its right there in the mirror. just look in it, the answer is obvious innit?

Monday, December 15, 2003 ×

mmm am eating my birthday cake from the sweets secret cake box/plate now. yummmmmmm :) hahas. i know its friggin gross but THERES NOBODY TO WASH THE DAMN PLATES FOR ME. so there. ahahs.

went to school for LD tods. im one heck of a tired kidd :| -growls. didnt sleep very well last night even though ive stopped dreaming of uh, youknowwho. how annoying. but a really dissolved all disappointment/anger in me. mmm left earlier to go home & drop off my things.

went to SIR to get my ic done with xiu. and i tell you, dont take the picture on the second level cus theres this hell bitchy woman working there. ugh! i looked like a stupid thing with my ugly face :| was squinting away lorr.

headed to bugis to walk around abit since i felt so fucked. mmm got a pair of shorts to wear tommm :) ladidums, cant wait! hehhs :)

Sunday, December 14, 2003 ×

grouch queen in control again. ugh! i want this day to be over soon, drawn some conclusions about the fucking birthday already. and no, i dont intend to share them.

went lingerie shopping today with my parents. mmm bought uh, four bras? hahas. cus my maid is going back & nobody will do the damn laundry so better get more eh?

been dreaming of this person for the past two nights. scary shit i tell you. totally yuckks man.

Sunday, December 14, 2003 ×

its 2am in the morn & ive no idea wot the hell im doing online though im bored as hell sitting here. im finally 15 i guess, wot the heck?

-growls. im in a monstrous mood. anyways, thnks to all well-wishers who messaged/MSN-ed & etc. thnks a bunch. believe it or not, i can seriously feel who cares & who doesnt, shant name anybody though. so to those darlings who genuinely care, thank you, thank you so much :).

and a big thankyou to +lite for making me laugh & smile on my way home :) loveya babe, tonnes!

Saturday, December 13, 2003 ×

caught love actually tods! it was really really sweet :) one of the best romance movies in a long long while. then headed off to vonn's for bbq. alright i suppose. but i really wanna thnk the dear bestie for being so fab even though she probably felt as rotten as i did in the morning. ilu vonnn! :) -hugs. you rock totally.

Friday, December 12, 2003 ×

bored bored now! -growls. mmm but had a good day with +lite though! :D hahas. i always have a good time with that babe mann.

went to her house in the morn, or rather afternoon since i was late. uh ignore that. aniw, it was so funny with the singtel people man. lol uh wot was that guy's name again eh, patrick? okei private joke :D hahas. mmm swam for awhile then decided to have lunch. walked all the way to s'goon central but the stupid stall disappeared all of a sudden. ugh!

went back & waited for the bloody painter to come. waited for 1&half hrs until like 5pm lorr and the stupid man still didnt come. got really tired of waiting so we just left the house.

NELed down to buy things! wooohooooooo :D highlight of the day man. hahas i had sucha HUGE dilemma i tell you. couldnt decide on wot to buy at all, but still got something lahh ofcourse. hahas. it was so terrible not to have enough cash on us & i really didnt want to use NETS lahh. hahahs we're both gonna grow fat & die mann! hahas :D

Thursday, December 11, 2003 ×

joke i heard on power98 just now:

how does michael jackson pick his nose?
from a beauty catalogue! :D

Thursday, December 11, 2003 ×

mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm :) hahas he's back on my desktop again! takashi that is :D im a happy girl again. wheee. mmm watched the 2 episodes of big wing that i recorded last time. thought i erased the tape already so it was pretty damn sad, until i saw it! hahas i was like squealing & everyth. hahas :)

and fiona's seriously evil man! -growls. brought so much titbits to my house, now i cant stop binging. ugh! hahas or rather, i cant stop myself from doing it. bahhh :| oh baby's gone already if you were wondering.

Wednesday, December 10, 2003 ×

ive no more nails left! -growls. ugh! was so pissed last night i started snipping all my nails off. its grossly short now lorr. i ought to kick the bloody habit. cut my nails very short the last time too cus i was angry too. yikes :|

mmm went to the gym yesterday with xiu! hahas lost weight but gained everyth during dinner last night. -grin. but it was yummm right xiu? hahas.

gonna stay at home for the rest of the week. im determined! hahas so dont you dare tempt me.

Tuesday, December 9, 2003 ×

lol did anyone know that power98 isnt under mediacorp radio? goodness i never realised until like recently lahh. was trying to find the power98 webpage through the mediacorp site but couldnt find it. lol its SAFRA RADIO power98! hahas.

to think im one helluva loyal listener eh? make that swaku loyal listener lahh. hahas.

Tuesday, December 9, 2003 ×

pitas was down again last night. -sigh. just when i wanted to type something down so badly. acks. mmm didnt clean out my bank account yesterday afterall. couldnt seem to see that philosophy bag i wanted! so friggin annoying lahh. ugh! was all prepared & armed to get it alr.

got a pair of jeans at far east though. it was cheap! :D hahas. got a bloody haircut which is totally gross lahh. wot was i thinking huh? mmm went to wisma & got this huge pullover thing. dont know why i got it either, just felt like it i guess. and mind you, it was size S alr? hahas.

mmm saw something really saddening on the way home. it was just totally screwed lahh, wish i wasnt that observant. acks. -sigh. at least he's straight lahh i guess. wot kinda consolation is this eh? lol better than nothing. and i gotta admit he looks crap after the haircut, so strange & not like him. so ohwells. im over it alr lahh, and no qing & vonn, im not gonna do something so terrible like incest okei? hahas.

on the whole, yesterday was pretty terrible lahh. didnt bring my phone out, no bag, ugly hair, d & woman-irritating-mother of mine. yuckks.

Sunday, December 7, 2003 ×

mmmmmmmmmmm.
ive no idea how to start this entry off. this is terrible :| acks. its like a sudden sense of unfamiliarity [?] when i place my hands on the keyboard. the month's entries has been pretty short, boring & about the same topic. but wot can i do eh? the kidd doesnt have a life so filled with glam that could be captured down daily.

that aside, im really excited about tomorrow & i dont really know why. gonna be cleaning out my poor bank account which already looks really sad. mmm gonna get a little shopping done, hopefully i'll get a list of things down by tonight or something.

wots with me eh?
something very wrong, thats wot. mmm was watching the star awards thing on channel8 & wot gurmit singh said really was very sad. -sigh. ive a bad feeling something's gonna happen yet i cant actually put it into words. help me?

.. then again, it might just be me thinking far too much huh?

Saturday, December 6, 2003 ×

went to town again tods. im so friggin sick of the place although im pretty sure im gonna be back there again to get some shopping done. ahwells. and its the fourth day in a row in town :| yuckks & still there's no sign of any of them.

mmm gonna get a shopping list soon! hahas im inspired by dear lei :) and yes, i'll try to keep to my budget. hehhh :D

Saturday, December 6, 2003 ×

im BORED! -growls. too lazy to move my lazy ass out of the house yet i refuse to stay at home. wots with me eh?

been out the past few days & nope i still didnt see d. ugh! like wot the hell eh? theres no point in going to town later either since i doubt he's gonna be there. AND, ive been towning for the past three days. sick & tired of the place alr eh. although i do wanna get some shopping done! -sigh.

Thursday, December 4, 2003 ×

-sigh. two weeks up & i didnt see d. how friggin disappointing. ugh! -stomps around. im annoyed! but there was this other person who was so cute. hahas. but the poor girl was harrassed by this group of mad guys behind us. lol

went to the gym just now with xiu. ooh mama i bet i lost a little bit of weight :D although i think i gained everything back again. acks. at least i exercised eh? -grin.

mmm i doubt im gonna get the green bag anymore. probably gonna get the philosophy bag thing that i saw with qing just now. its pretty too! but i think its a little too narrow though she says its not. oh wells it still looks good though :D

ive decided to visit the gym regularly! it makes me feel a little less fat :D hahas and my dear woman mother is pretty supportive of me doing that. time to work those fats of mine huh?

cant wait to do my new year shopping. im alr planning wot to get & all! hahas yes i do know theres people who did theirs already, like kermin, but lazy o' me is gonna wait till the last minute as usual.

Tuesday, December 2, 2003 ×

hahas. my mum & maid is crazy over the dog! :D not mine obviously but its hell cute. and yes, baby is its name. it doesnt bark or growl you know, goshh so cute! first time im saying good things about a dog eh?

but when fiona left the house it was like friggin sad, stationed itself at the gate & everyth. -sigh. poor thing!

Monday, December 1, 2003 ×

archived my stuff cus its a new month! :) okei theres absolutely nothing to be excited about this. i sound stupidly nonsensical. acks.

bored & tired lahh. :| had LD day camp thing which basically consisted of running around amk. ugh! super tiring i swear.

and yes lazy me is still sitting in front of the com refusing to move my fat ass. im all sticky & etc. yuckks i gross myself out lorr :| eww. and ive my hair all tied up looking like an obasan, quote unquote qing & xiu. im seriously considering tiff t.'s suggestion of keeping the damn thing long. afterall its already out of shape, might as well tie it up so nobod can see it. mmm we'll see lahh huh?

that aside. the dog is supposed to come tods but apparently i dont see it. ah wells. i think a's off the chalet so im home alone tonight i expect. -sigh. im getting used to him slowly, how strange eh.

Monday, December 1, 2003 ×

can you hear it in my voice
was it something i let slip
does the whole world know
isnt it obvious?

im the one who's in control
now im acting like a fool
do my feelings show?
is my face aglow?
isnt it obvious?

that i dont know what im doing anymore
im feeling like a little girl
caught up in emotions
im out of control
isnt it obvious?

do you see my hands, they tremble
wonder why i cant look you in the eyes
dont know how long
i can keep this inside
isnt it obvious?

suddenly these emotions are in control of my heart
can you see it in my eyes
every glance, every smile
must give me away
and i feel so much i cant hide