its being thrown in the deep end of the pool; frantic limbs thrusting in all directions all for one breath of fresh air. mind starts panicking, heart racing for any chance of hope as the lungs begin collapsing. yet just when all seems like a lost cause,

a firm grip lifts the exhausted soul out.


feels good to be able to breathe again, i reckon. nothing could be as precious as something you almost lost in that instant.

well, one hurdle down and many more to come.

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omgosh i really love sewing hahas the satisfaction is superrrr. :D

the rhythm of my footsteps crossing flood lands to your door have been silenced forever more.
the distance is quite simply much too far for me to row
it seems farther than ever before

I'm here without you. says:
wow
I'm here without you. says:
im impress wai
I'm here without you. says:
no like seriously
deceit@hotmail.com says:
?
I'm here without you. says:
donno. didnt seem like u'll admit to tt even if u did feel tt way about him

hrmmmmmmm well i'll take it as a good thing hahas. anyways im kinda done designing my latest piece, such an eggciting surprise! ((: aikes cant wait to shop for fabrics hehe time is running out!

alrighty latersss !

heard this on my way to school.

we should get jerseys cus we make a good team
but yours would look better than mine,
cus youre outta my league
and i know that its so cliche to tell you that everyday
i spend with you is the new best day of my life
everyone watching us just turns away with disgust
its jealously, they can see that we've got it going on

and im racking my brain for a new improved way
to let you know your more to me than what i know how to say
youre ok with the way this is going to be
this is going to be the best thing we've ever seen

if anyone can make me a better person you could
all i gotta say is i mustve done something good
i came along one day and you rearranged my life
all i gotta say is i mustve done something right
i mustve done something right

maybe im just lucky cus its hard to believe
believe that somebody like you'd end up with someone like me
and i know that it's so cliche to talk about you this way
but i'll push all my inhibitions aside
its so very obvious to everyone watching us
that we have got something real good going on

so we've finally completed our dresses :) YAYNESS woots !

sigh i really hate school and its only the beginning :C miss having lectures/lunches with the girls. miss going to classes with D, jel, meryl, brent & xyz. i am kind of afraid now i guess sigh this is really not my lifestyle eeks!

the happy summer days slipped through my fingers; now out of reach. sighsighsigh i hate worrying :(( i just wanna hide from the world hug my pillow all day

welll on a lighter note, im glad i ran away from SS lect ytd! the journey home was nothing short of interesting hehe, although we were both drained. plusss hung out with mumsie, two couch potatoes watching the olympics and laughing at my disgusting brother. :D ahh, bliss.

i hate the dull grey weather makes me feel sad & insecure about life ahhh this is not how a day should begin :(

okayyyy as usual no sad endings for an entry. heads up long day ahead to look forward to! :) dinner with <33 tonight yeay. song to dispel the depression HELLOOO time to prep for schoolios


when the light disappears
and when this world's insincere
you'll be safe here
when nobody hears you scream
i'll scream with you
you'll be safe here

hiakssss papa & my eldest brother are making me feel bad :C think i need to go out less sigh though rag's over im still hardly home criesss. its not my fault!

so its been quite a busy week dcfc was gooooood :) :) omgawdzz happiness seriously! hehe like what we always say "drop from the sky!" LOVEEEE ! Ben's voice is just as good live && they sang Photobooth <33 but they didnt perform Marching Bands hahs but all is well gringrin

okayyy laters time for dinner!

((((:

hehe okay supposed to meet K now but im happily taking my own sweet time ! but hellooo its almost midnight im allowed to be tardy :D in case you read this, im waiting for my mum to be aslp!

anywaysss shopping with melmel like finally whee ! happydays :D wheee we've a grand plan gringrin i hope it works out aye

sometimes i can feel the distance, but i guess its bound to happen aikes !

alrightyyyy im off youre calling :|


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aikesss still couldnt escape mumsie hahas dont silence her ! :| hehe im quite glad you came over although its all so random & that i kinda fell asleep on you (again) HAHAS. <33

(postdated entry)

it really isnt a good idea to go out randomly at night for beer hahhahs okay im JOKINGGG. :D hahs good days are worth celebrating esp with good friends grins.

we're going for deathcab afterall i LOOOOVE my d hehe ((: im so eggcited cant wait for tuesday! grumpsss but it was so not fun when he scared the shit outta me URGHHHH STUPID IDIOT. yikes that was totally like you taking revenge on me for what i did on ragday! hurhur thankyou boyfriend ._. okay but im glad we're no longer RS hehe sorry i disappeared, didnt mean to break our love (!!) yeayyy cheerios to tuesday && saty ! ((:

i remember from OTH:

There are two tragedies in life. One is to lose your heart's desire. The other is to gain it.

so what happens when you never had it to begin with, and dont achieve it in the end?

okaaaay but on a lighter note,

And losing your way on a journey is unfortunate. But, losing your reason for the journey is a fate more cruel.

not yet, thankfully.


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verbal diarrhoea aikes i think ive been afk for too long. feels kinda like PPB (post production blues), except that the theatre has changed.

its something worth being proud of when



becomes




manymillionheartsssss

so breathe in so deep
breathe me in
im yours to keep
and hold onto your words
cus talk is cheap
and remember me tonight
when youre asleep

H S H, at last.


and its not just for the bRaggers.

the chancellor shield lives both in our hearts & back home in bizad.