× jay jay jay !! :)
Saturday, August 30, 2003 ×
the jay song is so nice :)
the one xlin has been singing ..
lol she sounds truly bad!
the original one is fabfabfab :)
totally hooked on it
nuff bt jay, aniw
am planning to get a haircut soon
to thin my hair a little
its kinda bushy & long now.
gonna tidy myself up for Energy :)
lol can't wait for wednesday
*dances around in glee.
yipadeedooooo :)
lol im a little crazy.
the Energy special last night was fab
lol okei maybe not lahh.
there was too many advertisements.
and too much wilbur :|
but wilbur cried!! so sweet :)
alrighty, stop me :|
shall get over the swooning!
--
rahhh really irritated with my brother.
the eldest one that is.
he's like PMS-ing or sth?
so annoying lorr.
convo btw him & me last night.
simplified version without vulgarities.
him: help me write a note to auntie [maid]
me: wott note?
him: wake me up at 6.45 tomm
me: orhh. -writes note-
i thought he said 9.45 so i wrote that down.
5 mins later ..
him: oui wots wrong with you?! you want to get me into trouble is it? 6.45 lahhh wah lao. ask you to do simple thing also dont know.
me: you so smart you write yerself lahh. so fierce fer wotts?
him: dont gimme attitude lahh.
--
my goodness he was sucha bitch
like who's giving who attitude huh?
wanted to slap him alr lorr.
dad was being annoying too
but he's of course forgiven cus he's ill.
poor man. *shakes head.
at least andy was normal.
rahhhh.
× you could be so happy
like kids getting ready to play
Friday, August 29, 2003 ×
was really tired just now.
read through my archives & blasted the music
saw many many things in them
memorable i must add.
the prev entry was the condensed version.
all the lovely stuff i had in my pitas.
i know nobody would bother bt it
but its really a huge memory to me.
oh wells.
im a little unwell tonight.
the math thing was great.
yepp the enrichment thingamajig
no sarcasm wotsoever.
i felt good doing math :)
*hiaks. i feel a tad crazy
then again,
i always feel crazy.
headed to marche aft math.
met up with xiu & bern
yins & pl came too :)
i ate & ate & ate.
kept spending money. rahh.
im so broke alr ..
but it was really nice seeing them.
--
there was a strange little girl,
she loved to smile.
she said to me once i remember,
"stretch your wings. fly my friend."
i didnt know what she meant.
nobody knew, or understood
she played alone in the corner,
with her favourite doll.
we all ignored her,
called her names and laughed.
she still smiled as sweetly,
radiating of the golden sun.
one day, she flew away.
soared high up into the skies.
she is gone now,
and we all knew deep within,
she was beautiful.
× do you feel wot i feel for you ?
Friday, August 29, 2003 ×
look into my eyes - you'll see,
what you mean to me.
search your heart - search your soul,
and when you find me there, you search no more.
don't tell me its not worth tryin' for.
you can't tell me it's not worth dyin' for.
you know its true,
everything i do - i do it for you.
theres no love - like your love.
and no other - could give more love.
theres nowhere - unless youre there.
all the time - all the way.
i would fight for you - i'd lie for you.
walk the wire for you - yeah i'd die for you.
you know it's true.
everything i do - i do it for you.
--
if i give up on you i give up on me
if we fight whats true, will we ever be
even God himself and the faith i knew
shouldnt hold me back, shouldnt keep me from you
i can feel the blood rushing though my veins
when i hear your voice, driving me insane
hour after hour day after day
every lonely night that i sit and pray
--
everyday reminisce with the past
of a love that we thought would last.
how we used to be when it was you and me
how did it all disappear so fast
there are days that i cant forget
there are things that i now regret
i was there for you when you were there for me
and i was thinkin' we were set
every night when im laying in my bed
i hear your voice going round in my head
think of all the things i could have done
and all those things i could have said
i really will make it up to you
i know now what i've got to do,
it took time but now ive realised
how much im missing you.
--
its catching up to me right now
everything that i said
the night i left her there
when i said i wanted out
i was angry and upset
and at the time i could care less about staying there
i had to prove i didnt care
as much as she thought i did
i showed her
i let my pride take me
far away from the only woman i loved
i showed her
and now she has found someone new
and her life will go on
and im all alone
but i showed her
--
called your name today but
no one answers any more,
you turned and ran away
like someone came and locked the door,
paper pieces lyin' on the floor,
i fall to pieces now the
coffee's black and my heart is sore.
--
im holding on waiting for your call
its simple but i cant explain this
im sinking down i feel like i could die
im falling off i dont know why
i still believe it when you say
its another perfect day
another perfect day
i still believe it when you say
its another perfect day
another perfect day
so i might try to leave it all behind
i know tomorrow's not so bright now
i'll say goodbye cause nothing good can last
you wear and figured no where fast
when today i dont know how to keep it all inside
but i guess i'll let it slide
today i dont know why
i thought that it was real
but i guess its no big deal
--
let me be the one you call
if you jump i'll break your fall
lift you up and fly away with you into the night
if you need to fall apart
i can mend a broken heart
if you need to crash then crash and burn
you're not alone
--
the sun went down so long ago,
i watched you cry i had to go.
forever only lasted just a day.
and now without you by my side,
the visions of a lonely life,
take me to a place in a dream so far away.
i see an angel and i think of you,
i watch her hide behind a smile.
and then i think of what i have to do.
if only i had listened for a while.
the emptiness of what could be,
shows everyth you mean to me
it started out a game i'd never played.
if i defy the foolish pride,
and find that place so deep inside,
take me to my dream, i know i have to stay.
i see a rainbow and i think of you.
of what we had, of what we were
and then i think of what i have to do
if only i had listened for a while.
everybody's always asking me why,
why i did, what i did to make you cry.
please believe me when i say what i say.
i didn't mean to go away.
at the time i couldn't stay.
i see an angel and she sees me too.
and as she wipes a teary eye.
i know exactly what i have to do,
to start a new beginning in my life.
× everybody shake your bodyy
Thursday, August 28, 2003 ×
mmms. :)
listening to More Than Words!
its like really fab.
it leaves me smiling every single time i hear it
love it totally :)
*sigh.
went out with the BGBC tods.
supposed to watch Down With Love but ..
no suitable time slots ?
i dont know lahh.
slacked, stoned alotalot.
hell cranky the whole day lahh
slept at like 2?
and im still gonna flunk friggin SS.
damnn wot was i thinking last night mann?
saw this cute bung!
i still insist shes a bung lorr
okei basically rightt,
the person was Very pretty & handsome :)
difficulty differentiating.
but eyecandy material still :)
i think things were badd tods.
guilttripping myself fuckloads lorr.
rahhhhh. shoot me.
tomm is teachers day celebration.
and theres still math :|
wot the baba .. !
not gonna wear jersey though.
afterall we're towning aft that wots.
marche! hehs :)
× im about to give you away,
for someone else to take
Monday, August 25, 2003 ×
big evil day.
Energy is without toro
damnnn
f c u k i t .
×
Monday, August 25, 2003 ×
this entry fer little rol :)
since she want entry!!
lol okei
for yins too lahh :)
having english lessons in da lab now
rahh.
hello pl! i love youuu! heh.
yins say she love u too! lalala. :))
muacks!
× she tore my feelings like i had none
Sunday, August 24, 2003 ×
oh wells.
the sun will still shine
fucking bored nows
must start ss
*nodds.
--
one day, Love met Friendship. Love asked, "why do u exist when there's already me?"
Friendship then replied, "to put smiles where you leave tears.."
--
cry no more little one,
its over.
× died of a broken heart
Saturday, August 23, 2003 ×
to you*
nothing's fine im torn
im all out of faith
this is how i feel
im cold and i am shamed
lying naked on the floor
illusion never changed
into something real
im wide awake
and i can see
the perfect sky is torn
youre a little late
im already torn
× starr struck bucked !
Thursday, August 21, 2003 ×
lol im madd lehh.
mighty mighty mesmerised lahh!
too cute alr :)
as usual, school was boring ..
'cept fer math english?
it was pretty fun with the circles
esp since we were so fast :)
whoopeeee! love it
and the english debate.
fun fun fun!
went ondo after school.
yes again
after dieting & saving up for a week,
i splurged it all in one day
terrible me :|
went with kiat xin xiu :)
we ate like so much lorr
*hides. terrible!
hehs but it was worth it!
buck was sososo cute :D
*snigger. friendly too!
sheesh im acting stupid & crazy.
but cannot deny lahh ..
and we were really really silly
stared & stared like nobod's business :)
oh wells. he's nice lahh
smiley smiley guy :)
*rubs tumm. im fat!
ive seriously decided, its diet time.
gotta get those pounds off!
*determined look.
× lies, i can't stand these lies anymore
Tuesday, August 19, 2003 ×
yesterday
school was a dragg
went to j8 fer awhile
with bern xiu yins
ate crepes with yins! :)
mocha almond fudge rocks totally.
saw laogong there!
silin lahh. with bithiah [?]
slacked around & towned with yins
walked walked ate ate
it was pretty empty actch
wanted to show her the top i bought on sunday
.. yes i was in town on sunday too
but aniw the shop wasnt opened yet
slacked around & stared at ____
*giggles. how dumb!
that girl wanted to compare lahh
crazy crazy. hahah
went to cine ..
lol sat down & doodled around.
that silly girl is madd.
tsktsk. but cutecute lahh.
--
i wish i loved energy more :|
then maybe physics would be easier huh?
rahh. no fun ..
ima smelly cow now
yikes had PE tods and
im sucha lousy softball player!
*hides. embarrassed alr
but it was mighty fun though :)
had LD after school.
finished up my SS assignment!
*beams. whoopeeee :)
ohhhhh :)
i wanna watch Freaky Friday!
for all you swakus,
its not a horror movie okei.
lol im so lame ._.
bet im the only idiot around who thought so!
*embarrassed.
oh wells.
off to study physics!
× sometimes i feel youre not listening
Saturday, August 16, 2003 ×
sick sick sick :|
throat hurts like bahbah
slight cough,
and my nose is like a tap
i mean literally!
water comes out lorr.
-grr. annoyed!
got my allowance alr :)
thnk goodness
have no idea how im gonna survive ..
huge hole in my bank acc :|
its been a rainy day.
slacked my whole afternoon away :)
loved it :)
-sighhh.
am highly tempted to cut my hair
but obviously i shouldnt!
esp when my mum just said i looked decent
.. oh wells.
but all hairdos look the same to her
-shakes head. how?!
×
Friday, August 15, 2003 ×
bored :|
-grr.
waiting fer qing's call ..
caught a fucking virus
both computer & wai
-scrunches nose.
com has this 1min thingamajig
& ive sore throat
not a good thing at all
-tapps foot impatiently.
where is qing?!
shes supposed to send me da anti-virus
hope it works!
long tiring fcuked day :|
bad bad bad.
studied fer Malvolio all thnks to msjacob!!
turned out to be Olivia ..
& gave up chem lorr
stupid decision, totally
wasted yesterday :|
-sighh.
× baby i dont know wot hurts you
i just wanna make it right
Wednesday, August 13, 2003 ×
once upon a time there was a girl
in her early years she had to learn
how to grow up living in a war that she called Home
never knew just where to turn
for shelter from the storm
hurt me to see the pain across my mother's face
everytime my father's fist
would put her in her place
hearing all the yelling,
i would cry up in my room
hoping it would be over soon
bruises fade Father,
but the pain remains the same
i still remember how you kept me so afraid
strength is my mother,
for all the love she gave
every morning that i wake,
i look back at yesterday
and im ok
i often wonder why i carry all this guilt
when its you that helped me
put up all these walls ive built
shadows stir at night through a crack in the door
the echo of a broken child
screaming, please no more
Daddy dont you understand the damage you have done?
to you it's just a memory
but for me it still lives on
its not so easy to forget
all the marks you left along her neck
when i was thrown against old stairs
and everyday afraid to come home
in fear of what i might see next
mmmm, im ok
× we're caught in a trap
i cant walk out
because i love you too much baby
Friday, August 8, 2003 ×
tired & cranky
and im refusing to sleep
oh wells, im madd
long long day with the BBC-ians
havent been out for long!
.. not with them aniw
thats not the point lahh
had much fun with them :)
caught daddy day care
the kidds were so fucking adorable!
especially ben!
his slippers were so cute :)
tony/flash was so loveable!
goodness theyre really cute you know
though the show was okei ..
broke :|
gotta mend the huge hole in my bank acc
-crosses fingers-
save me somebody ..
saw so many nice tops tods
but totally cldnt buy anyth
helpless me :|
anybody feeling nice & rich tods?
-hopeful look-
pretty please?
× if anyth could last forever,
its wot i feel for you
Wednesday, August 6, 2003 ×
happyhappy day tods :)
mrskoh didnt come!
which means no math, no trigo
hahas see how well the day started off?
the chi paper was okei.
didnt copy at all
-beams. mighty prouda myself!
please applaud :)
i mean i can barely do a paper without help
but i did it!!
and it was MANAGABLE :)
-giggles. im mad alr
passed my hist too :)
like woahh.
totally didnt expect it
i mean like,
one day of cramming actch worked!
lol :)
towned aft school!
chinese lessons were cancelled :)
went to taka ..
yins vonn qing & i ate noodles
while bern & xin scooted off
spotted dr___ lookalike!!
tracked her down at MOS
lol yins & i majorly embarrassed ourselves
we thought she was gone,
so we openly talked bt where she was sitting
then she realised ..
she was still there!!
omg laughed like crazy lorr
we're like crazy people
then we got really LAME
like i was singing fang shou to yins
while she sang Oh!Yes
okei i sound nonsensical
only Energy fans would understand!
.. maybe not lahh
got tired of waiting for xin & bern
trooped off to heeren!
met wend & tingx
bought hairband :)
ate x's icecream too! -yummm.
tumm bulging alr :|
slacked arnd
got silin her e3
had to come to their rescue lorr
short of money ..
had a hell funn day :)
whoopeeee!
oh and da chi man sang!
like WOAH :)
i like the 10years song he sang.
really damn nice lorr.
nicer than the original one :)
-impressed.
× please be careful with my paper heart
Monday, August 4, 2003 ×
seriously dont piss me off
MIP, no kidding man.
Mens In Progress
been a grouchy little bitch the whole day
was doddling away with my pink pen
it had a really sharp tip
and i wanted to stab everybod with it
particularly teachers lahh
math, physics, chinese ..
school was sucha drag tods :(
someone in our class is creepy man
more like really cheap.
-grr. stealing from yer own classmates?
kinda disappointing lorr
especially from all the nice people
-sighh. terrible people.
then again, im not much better huh?
--
knockout
you know i wanna out the light, i wanna
knockout
you know i wanna start a fight, i wanna
knockout
you know i wanna do this right
cus ya stressin me messin me
i wont fall so easily
i wanna knock out
you know i wanna let it go, i wanna
knockout
do you like you did me before, i wanna
knockout
be the one thats opening the door
time for me to say good-bye
got to get you out my life
english version of Tui Mo Lu :)
triple 8- knockout
× tantra means doctrines of conduct
or modes of action ..
Saturday, August 2, 2003 ×
its over! :D
and it went pretty smoothly
-satisfied smile-
in fact, one of the best
stumbled on the introduction though,
but it was okei i guess ..
the wild thumping & thrashing around was gone :)
i was refering to my heart ..
yepp kinda relaxed & happy actch.
lol im kinda weird huh?
breaking out in a rash though
my face is hell itchy!
-grr. im so highly annoyed
im scratching all over the place
anyhows muchmuch fun :)
love the narrators plentyplenty!!
and my counterpart, claire, too :)
im enjoying everybit of this
wheeeee :)
feel kinda tired & happy at the same time!
tiredd :|
lol though i cabbed to school & back
kinda dumb lahh actch.
-droppy eyes-
× niunai kunda ahdi toro shuwei :)
Friday, August 1, 2003 ×
lol Energy's got me crazed!
that was arranged according to pref ..
and niunai has cute hair :)
toro's one is b a d from some angles
but from others he's cute :)
gotta save up alr
dying to go to the autograph session!
theyy rockkk :)
and theres the jay album ..
cant wait!! :)
according to claire,
its coming out todds lorr.
whoopeeeeee :D
--
yesterday
school passed in an instant!
duhh we only had 2 lessons?
two periods chinese ones,
spent gossiping away with bern & xiu
and one period of math!
it was supposed to be two,
but mrskoh lost the bet.
hahahah! had 1 hr recess :)
we charitians are really damn good man
off to kallang aft that!
lol we indians had 2 rooms lorr :)
so seniors one room,
and the juniors all squeezed into the other
-giggles. too badd lahh huh?
there was 9 of us there,
and like 15 of them there or something lorr
rehearsals & all
screwed up on the introductions
so now im free from them :)
sorry man weijin!
she had to remember all of 'em
'cept for .. one line?
sat around,
sang, played & laughed
really funn :)
everybod got stuck in the toilets!
went for dinner aft that :)
with karm tiff & xiu
ate so much lorr!
bugis has so much food around
gossiped & gossiped
hahah okei put it nicely, talked.
oh wells :)
--
mmm no school todds :)
-smirks.
oh wells .. poorthings at school
off to watch 15!! :)
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