aaahhhhhhhhhh :(

-growls. i need to get a grip, and stay focused man

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i need strength, and hope.

more importantly, i need some faith in myself. faith that is enough to make a difference. the answer is in the head, i believe i have the answers to everything i would need, its a matter of whether i fully maximise my potential.

as i read from Dan Brown's Angels and Demons, remember. i can straighten out my life, i know it, and i will do it because i want to.

:)

i guess staying home on this saturday afternoon will, like all other things that happened, serve its own purpose. as long as im alive, i will keep going, continue fighting.

not gonna give up, this is my ninja way :)

ahhhh :D hahas i reached home before eight today! -beams. im really happy btw, havent been home early in a long while, not to mention sit comfortably infront of the com & pitasing properly. been trying to mug (keyword is TRYING) lately, and im obviously far from success. :( hiaks.

been busy with stAJeworks stuff, lol meeting chin thin every evening since tuesday. first the board, then the billboard sign thingamajig for the tickets booth just now.

ohhh! hehhs it was sports day just now, and for our inter-cca novelty team, we got SECOND :DD hahas but judging from the way we were so ecstatic & cheering like crazy, you'd thought we got first or something. but heyy we expected to come in last seriously, plus justin happily didnt tell us about the practice session on tuesday. but yeahhh junkai & i got our mo qi back today, justin & xinyu were a fab team as usual :D

hahas ok im just being silly, but ohwells :) the simple joys of life, when the result far surpasses expectations. suddenly thought of something brendan always says, what is goodness to you, when excellence is your choice.

i do agree, but i just dont see the need in pushing myself so hard. well i guess it depends la, ahh im just too shagged to illustrate my point properly

i wanna SLEEP :( lol suddenly thought of something super hilarious that happened last night. something to do with mummy & i slacking on the curb outside my place when my dad looked out of the window. hahas confused? go figure.

mmmmm, missing my friends alot now, esp the lazybums! thinking about the times we used to bitch around so much, curse & swear like nobody's business, be totally antisocial & unglam, yet we were so happy then :D sunglade, fourbucks, the-next-guy's-gonna-wear-this-colour game we played on the island, pigging out (potwok & breeks!), long busrides to nowhere doing nothing, doing the most spastic things, BITCHING (!!) & just be ourselves.

sigh, hopefully we get to meet up soon man. i just seriously miss the way things were, simple & nice :)

well, we've all gotta move on, accept & make changes, whether positive or not, regardless of whether we like it at all. this is life, and it is unpredictable. gotta seek a compromise, strike a balance, and just hang in there i guess.

ahhh whatever, im tired, dont know what im saying anymore :( time to go off & just rest man. well its FRIDAY tomorrow! -gringrin.

i honestly wonder why im a science students sometimes, when i strongly believe that there's nothing that can be properly defined.

to me, everything is defined, relative to something else. but what is the basis to begin with, thats the question

hahas derived that after Mark Lo (NJ hist paper3 tutor) was talking about the Cold War & stuff. yes i miss taking history, and how in the world can i be taking science, when i dont really believe in definitions & such.

ohwells, i guess thats why i can see myself flunking the common tests already. ahhh :(

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well on a lighter note, i saw a really cute boy yesterday! :D hes called KERBY LIM !! :D heh heh that's my sister fabian's younger brother by the way. -gringrin. saw him when i was at fab's place slacking away. :D

ahhh im damn shagged now, stoning nonstop :| acks. laters.

ahhh FAB day with my dearest BP cerise :D missed her so darn much la. shant go into the details la, but i had SO MUCH FUN bitching, laughing, catching and just being with her!

walked from one end of town, to the other end, and omg my feet has blisters! but ohwells, it was worth it man. we did nothing but roam around aimlessly & talking :D and we saw so many people today!

first was xin & xiu in topshop, next was daphne in surfbabe. its seriously so darn coincidental man, both cerise & i knows her la! lol anyways, saw dora after that, then saw JED with a girl. hahas hes so darn goodlooking la! met Mr Derek Lee (my NJ civics tutor for first three months) in PS with his wife! hahas theyre so sweet :D chatted with him for awhile & he was so shocked to see us both together. hehs :D ohh after that, i saw my brother & his girlfriend too. and then i saw gen w but she was so far away, didnt bother to say hi. hahas yes im damn lazy la ok.

but seriously had a GREAT day with her! well obviously right, afterall we talked from 1pm to 7+pm nonstop? :D cant wait to meet up again la seriously, havent had an intellectually stimulating, yet at the same time totally amusing conversation for a long time.

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royS - NES era. says:
aint u suppose to be studying.

- waii. says:
ahhh SHHHH stop reminding me!!

- waii. says:
hahas

royS - NES era. says:
STUDY ! or elseeee...

royS - NES era. says:
hear footsteps

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ahhhhh hahas im being threatened!! lol i swear today is like a day, where everyone seems to be suaning me. hiaks :|

Wai Wai World

hahas i dont actually play that game, royston introduced it to me just now! hahas said he just started playing that game awhile ago, and its supposed really old.

well obviously la, its like 11months older than i am, so you can imagine how ancient this game is already.

well long day today, shagged! hahas. ohwells, but i can finally meet up with my Bitching Partner cerise tomorrow :D totally cant wait to see her la. miss her!

ahhh im so tired :( and to replenish all the loss of energy today, im eating like a cow. ok wait, i FEEL like one too. but wth, i cant care less right now

long LONG day today, consisting of both physics AND chemistry practicals, double-superboring-GP, horrible (as usual) PE ending at 535pm. to top it all off, i was somehow supposed to participate in some inter-cca novelty race thing. hahas but the last part was fun la, super hilarious :D plus we came in first for our race! -gringrin.

ohhh and im really SO PISSED with some asshole who is a total JERK. ughhh! i was so angry, that all sorts of profanities came flying right out of my mouth. goodness! for those who know me, you should know that i refrain from cursing & swearing as much as possible. but this bastard just pissed me off SO BADLY i wanted to chop his balls off & step on them right infront of his face. seriously infuriating im telling you.

DAMMIT.

hahahs ok stupid assholes aside, im really quite happy today la :) hahas. some stuff happened, got to talk to some people, and i collected the photos i sent for developing on tuesday. -gringrin. whee! hahas cant wait man.

now now, i hafta go complete my work! -nods. all that bingeing just now is making me very sick right now. ugh!

goodness what FAB songs :D hahas im not slow ok, its just that ive been too lazy to search for the lyrics to paste them here :)

i am just so very tired.

talked to wanwei just now, both in school & on my way home. well more accurately, i was tearing & feeling totally screwed when we were talking in the Reading Room.

well, thankful to have her around though :) gotta keep fighting, take a deep breath & tell myself that i can do it!

mmmmmmm, saw this AJCian today, that looked like ____. really freaked me out honestly, the first word that came into my mind, "F*CK!". hahas well very obviously i dont like ____ very much, infact i only have disdain & disgust for that person. so to that AJCian, please consider having plastic surgery cus i really cant the sight of you. and yes, it is your misfortune to look like ____.

hahas for those wondering who ____ is, you can just ask me. i wont name names here, cus this is the WorldWideWeb after all, cant take any chances aye.

quite a bad day today, although i did accomplish something! :D hahas went to develop some photos today, whee i love photographs la. mmm and i got a 8R one for the ohfiveasstwelve class photo, with our civics tutor mr derek lee. hahas that picture alone cost me 3bucks la, 12times of a normal 4R one. gawdddd!! but its all worth it man. cant wait to collect it honestly :D

i really have to get my sorry butt to start mugging today! fell asleep 5min after i TRIED to mug yesterday, how depressing la.

FOCUS wai, MUG MUG MUG !!

ahhh, what a day. im just really glad that there's no stajeworks today, too shagged to do anyth else already. well had a talk with my PD tutor after school, and initially i felt super demoralised. but it still turned out fine.

in fact, i think im gonna find that motivation to excel once again! :D and if i do find it, i really gotta thank him man.

well i guess it just felt good to have someone listening, and actually sort of understanding. hahas it sounds really freaky right, especially since that person is my PD tutor. ohwells.

going off now, time to wake up and smell the coffee. keep your fingers crossed for me, for the new me. :)

hahas the things you find in bloomington! :D im refering to my heading bytheway. the past two days has been spent feeling all surreal & happy :) ahhh sundays are just so depressing i swear, when all the workload comes crashing right back. acks :|

hahas okk im not gonna talk about work here obviously la, so lets just do recaps :D

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friday
totally slacker day at school, which passed in a blur basically. oh wait, we hadta go for physics makeup lesson+test cus we skipped tutorial that day. and GRR our test marks would still be recorded as zero no matter how we performed. like ahhhhh wth!

so yeah, headed home after the test to change & prepare for the evening. hahas goodness i just made my life sound glam, as opposed to how unglam it actually is.

mm just as i was heading out, sister fabian called to ask me where i was, and if i wanted to meet up for awhile. hahas he was like super shocked that i was already at home la! went to meet him at the coffeeshop at 6.20pm despite the fact that i was supposed to meet the bbcians at 6.30pm at suntec city. hahas ohwells :D sat around talking, listening to royston & him talk, looking at fabian's hilarious pictures in royston's hp & etc. hahas im still amazed by them somehow, theyre so different from the usual stereotype & all. but yeahh funny people anyhows :D

bus-ed down to suntec city and reached at about 7+ almost 8pm. voila turns out that i was even earlier than them! hahas yes i ended up standing at the entrance of suntec city waiting for them to come.

mel's birthday! :D so yeahh walked down to look for xiaolin, and ended up meeting her on the way. the seven of us, dor, lei, mel, vonn, xiaolin, xt & myself, headed to PastaMania for dindin :) talked alot of rubbish as usual, and yeahh it was great to see them all again la. xiaolin left to go back to work after awhile, and joyce joined us! goodness her skirt is so short! hahas cant believe it was her mum who altered it for her man, must have been one of her attempts to further girly-fy joyce

lol so aniw walked around after awhile, and they headed home. i sent lei to the bus stop, since i was gonna wait for xiu there. turns out xiu & her friend reached much earlier than i expected.

after lei left, i went to meet them. ohh and her friend got breezer for us :D hahas this part was really funny la! cus xiu & i wanted to pick xin up from work, and meant for it as a surprise. yet i didnt know which breezer she wanted, so hadta call her to ask. and i lied to her la, saying that i was with sister fabian & he was buying for us! LOL what a lie man, when we were at Carrefour, just beside Secret Recipe.

so yea the three of us hid behind the pillar, in our attempts to ambush xin! :D and yea our surprise worked out just fine man. so anyway, xiu's friend left while us the lazybums headed for Sunglade to begin our night :D

dropped our stuff off, and went to have prata supper :D hahas and cus we felt fat (and for me, sleepy) we decided to WALK back to sunglade. then again, it was not as if there were gonna be buses at 1am in the morning aye. so yeah, we went back on our two feet & the xin was like getting freaked out by everything! cats, dogs, rustling of leaves & whatnot. lol and then she kept shrieking away la, which gave xiu & i a scare, being that it wasnt exactly early (or if you prefer, far too early) already.

mmm changed & grabbed our stuff to go down to the pool for our poolside talks on the island thingamajig. drank & ate (hahas whats new??), talked abit and i fell asleep on the white seats after awhile as usual. cant blame me what, i had school afterall, and i dont usually stay up till unearthly times either.

they woke me up & we all went back up to sleep. i think i barely slept when i went back up la! first, i had no pillow or blanket, and was sleeping directly under the aircon, so i was already freezing my butt off in my PE shorts. second, i woke up in the middle of the night really COLD, so i changed into my jeans & tried to sleep somemore. third, i really couldnt take it anymore, walked around the apartment trying to find somewhere to sleep in, and the fact was that the whole place was BARE. fourth, settled on the itchy beds & just slept there. hahas all that happened between 3+ to around 7+ la. so imagine how little i slept.

saturday

gave up trying to sleep in the apartment & went downstairs to sleep by the pool. ok i didnt intend to sleep initially, just wanted to enjoy the morning breeze but somehow i fell asleep anyway. mmm slept till about 9 & then went up to pack our stuff up. had macs breakfast at sgoon central! :D it was all in a rush though, what a pity our sleepover ended this way la. nonetheless, it was funn :)

i rushed home, chucked my stuff down & prepared to meet the girls for Sentosa! :D it was like seriously hectic la, looking for all my stuff & i was already late!

but not bad, i managed to reach Haborfront mrt station at about 11.20am, only 20mins late! met up with my dear OC girls huiyi, sammie, sui & waiyee. :D missed them all soso much la! hahas headed for the beach after buying some stuff :D woahh the weather was PERFECT! seriously, i was looking through the few pictures took with my camera, omg one of the backgrounds looked as if it was a poster or something! so beautiful la :D

went to the toilet to change & apply sunblock etc. hahas we took our first picture at the toilet i still remember, our periodically taken pictures :D tanned for quite awhile with the gorgeous sun, and the beach wasnt as crowded as i expected. and there was a serious lack of (if there were any to begin with) eyecandies. :|

played frisbee after that. ahhh it was like quite embarrassing la, our frisbee flew onto 2guys' chessboard & conveniently swept all their pieces onto the sand. hahas totally disrupted their game la, but then again, why go to the beach & play chinese chess right?? madness la. after our game, we just sat around talking :) really enjoyable la honestly, it was like we were in a different world altogether. and it felt good to just breakaway from the urban life & move towards someplace more calming :) and ofcourse, the company was perfect!

-beams. enjoyed myself thoroughly la. :) we went to wash up after that anyway, and omg hahas got a total shock. i was so RED. my cheeks were totally rosy man, and my shoulders+chest were hurting already. goodness terrible la.

mm went to town after that, they got their MOSshakes while i grabbed a bite. walked around all stoned & shagged. hahas then headed home after that. i was really supersuper tired ok, went straight to bed after dindin & just totally crashed. slept like a log man, or rather a PIG. hahahs and as hengyi said, a ROASTED pig. RAHHH.

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had GREAT fun with them, both the lazybums & the OC girls :) it felt like i went on a holiday or something, a quick getaway, from home & the rest of the whole darn world.

its sunday already :( mighty depressing i swear. hiaks! well, shall end this long entry here. mmm shall try to organise my pictures & upload them all! :D hahas.

i am just so shagged, its killing me seriously.

but yeah, had lotsa fun yesterday! :D hahas, with the newly formed hentai (LOL) gang of five which consists of chee ryoutarou (i like his surname!), kian lin, suann, zibbie & i. we were slacking in Nexus (AJ's student lounge) during break yesterday, and happily decided to laze on the couches for three whole periods, GP & physics lect+tutorial.

hahas cant imagine what we talked about man, this part wasnt tht hentai yet. ohhh they took pictures of chee & i, it was like so sick la! before & after?? hilarious nonetheless. :D

mm we ended our school day with chemistry tutorial. had stajeworks after school, it was quite slack although the bottles were like so yucky!

so yea, met part of the hentai gang for dindin at Jalan Kayu. it was like bush, kian lin, muikoon, zibbie & i. omg they ordered TWENTY SIX pratas ok! madness i swear, luckily some of the stajeworks people came & bought the remaining from us. muikoon left after awhile, and we continued talking until around 10, while laughing nonstop! lol it was just so crazy, talked all sortsa rubbish man

met sister fabian for awhile, then headed home all shagged. and this morning i was like SO TIRED i could just dropdead or something.

lol but yea, hung out with the hentai gang as usual, LOL seriously crazy man. we're just so full of crap & totally SICK man, all about upgrading & whatnot. hahas super fun la, but really perverted man. :D

met sis again just now, together with yins, after stajeworks. ahh but right now, im really DYING. so tired :| bleeding profusely (quote unquote joyce) right now, second time already :( ackss.

off i go now, gotta really FOCUS man, this is not good at all. hiaks :| but thankfully, i'll be meeting the lazybums tomm for our sleepover. -gringrin. cant wait !!

met up with my darling today! :) its been TWO WEEKS since i last saw my bitchybum dearest xin. and hell yes, i missed her like crazy la.

hahas ok not to neglect the other two, qing & xiu :D wheee spent our time pigging out as usual. -beams. gonna be sunglading on friday, and i totally cannot wait for that already! i can picture myself sitting through more & more tutorials/lectures in agony, and DYING to go off on friday.

ended really early today (after a horrendous day with FIVE tutorials) so decided to meet up with them. headed off to town, and on my way saw pL rol! :D ahhh, its like a fkers gathering today man, other than dinah's absence.

mannn bitched like hell with xin la, while we were having our brownies with icecream. -beams. hahas yumm :) we were like totally bitchy & mean i swear! but ohwells, not that i actually mind ;D hehhs, how many friends do you have that you can actually be THAT bitchy with ok.

ohhh and justin called me (using suann's hp) asking to go to j8 from town to meet them, claiming to want to date me??!! no wait, make that a double date, i thought it was some Truth or Dare thing la. hahas crazy crazy people man, the poor girl is stuck with the whole bunch of them. to watch Samara no less, like NO WAY ok.

aniw i ate so much, i think my skirt's gonna burst! first the brownie+icecream, next the shihlin chicken at fareast, and then waffles at gelare, finally yami yoghurt! :D hahas yes i know im getting FAT la ok.

well, i AM fully aware of my increasing waistline la ok, so here i am going JOGGING now. -beams.

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oh yeah before i forget, hahas was talking to Leon on MSN yesterday, hilarious la. seriously cant imagine so much rubbish happened man, all thanks to my dearest sister fabian lim. hahas sheesh! a case of missed opportunities and wrong timing, lol go figure.

cant believe i am like spot-on this time round. i swear this is like the typical characteristic of a ______ person. my gawddd i NEED to talk to one of my darlings now, gonna go mad soon.

so anyway, i think im going to be ill soon. having the usual headaches, accompanied by this weird feeling in my throat. ugh :| effects of too much turpentine.

hahas ok i should continue with my update from last night aye? was too shagged last night i decided to leave it to this morning to complete. i was like practically falling asleep infront of the computer.

so yea basically after stajeworks yesterday, i rushed off without changing out of my turpentine smelling shirt to meet them at YouthPark. :D tht place holds some memories for us aye? our first class outting during orientation & all the stupid forfeits while playing the number game. the second one on the day of the NJ roadrun with the senior class at Fish&Co glasshouse, leny's birthday, and playing Mafia with sherwin around! hahas. then there was perfect10's screening of Fifty First Dates on the vday weekend with the girls, and they met shan. :) wow, youth park :)

so yea, anyway met fabian, huiyi, joanne, leon, mich, sammie, waiyee the birthdaygirl & yins there :) hahas its been quite a while since i last saw mich!!

i had to sing her a birthday song on my own since i was late & ate the cake :) sat around chatting for awhile, and waiyee started crying :| hiaks. so after that, joanne, leon, mich, waiyee & yins left, while the rest of us went to cine for the ATM machine. lol, ohh and i got my nike bottle! :D now jiamein wont be nagging at me for getting mineral water everyday anymore.

mm after that, it was just sister fabian & i, the other two headed off as well. lol the journey home was like horrendous! we couldnt get a cab at all, i swear they were opposing us on purpose.

lol so as usual, our attempts to take the cab failed. i can still remember the times we were late for school man, totally hilarious. so we ended up taking the train & bus back after all, and thankfully his movie was postponed to 2am (lol wth right?) so yeah we had plenty of time. talked alot (of rubbish) as usual, i still remember how his strange sentence structure made things sound so yucky! hahas :D

mm i guess yesterday went fine, although i got caught filing my nails in class by the physics tutor. mighty embarrassing i swear! it was so boring during tutorial i decided to file my nails under the table, and got so engrossed tht i didnt realise i was doing it openly in the middle of the class right infront of him. hahas and my response when he barked out Wai Ling what are you doing??? was totally LAME.

uhh my nail broke so very pain, hadta file it.

hahas my goodness, he gave a patronising nod & went on to question my understanding of the topic. i just nodded & smiled, while pointing to the empty sheet on my table. hahas remind me never to do this again man.

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starting to feel the drift already, and as wanwei says, i gotta let go. well im trying, hope that im faring fine though. but i hope it doesnt happen with sister though! that would seriously be damn sad la honestly. lol whos gonna cheer me up with lame stories when i have a crapped up day, and happens to stay so darn near?

hahas difficult to imagine aye? i guess i should just be thankful for what i have, and not think too much about the future for now. :)

mm now that im listening to Best Day Of My Life carefully, i realise its a really cute+nice song! :) hahas, cant believe how i could end up tearing while listening to it the other time. ahhh :)

mmm, the entire 16th December feelings are rushing right back to me. but i sense tht everyone's confused, so i shant eleborate on it, only xiu would understand man. afterall, i spent hours on the phone lamenting about how depressed i was & how i wanted to die.

well, its over for now. the key words are for now. lol this reminds me of suann & the whole highlight, underline, in caps & bold thing.

its time to update! :D been meeting my sister fabian for the past three days, and its always sheer lameness+laughter. totally crazy man :D

on thursday, went for the AJ Idol auditions with suann & zibbie to support their OG people. whee savage garden, i like :) after that, followed them to KFC for dinner & i dontknow how they started making fun of us, when there was no link. hahas weird la. so yeah met sister fabian at the coffeeshop to refill waiyee's lighter. tht guy happily played with it on wednesday night until the fuel ran out! so just sat there to chitchat, ohh and i met his friend royston. hilarious guy, i dont know why either, just tht hes so different i guess. headed home after that,

met sis again this morn (friday morn) to pass him the stuff. and afterschool, met him again! hahas.

goshhh im so sleepy. laters :D

i honestly cant decide, was the 16th December worse than today, or otherwise. :|

but i guess today was made much better cus i met up with sister fabian! :D hahas although i feel like strangling him for ruining that thing, it was still happy la. after all, how many lame+funny sisters can one have aye? was talking under the block near the bus stop, first at the nice benches thingamajigs, then at the mailbox area. lol & he was showing me the stupid lighter trick which was so obviously unsuccessful! infact, tried so much, until he hadta buy a new one.

-faints. but ohwells, all in the good name of fun :) hopefully i'd be able to make it on friday la, or else it would be really depressing. seriously!

off i go now, there are more questions i wanna think about. honestly, my mind is in a mess right now. but then again, whats new right? hahas its been kinda screwed lately, not functioning well.

ohh and i cant believe i spent EIGHT friggin bucks on the stupid AJ tie, when like there are so many people i couldve gotten it from. brainless me, as usual :|

:D

hahas i think only sam can fully understand what that smiley up that means, and how it so aptly describes how im feeling now.

mannn. ahhhhh why isnt wanwei answering her hp??!! :| hiaks.

but yes, its still happiness, and now ive upgraded it to the REAL REAL deal :D this is like .. WOAH! im all hyped already. -gringrin.

ohhh on a lighter note, i bought my shoelaces already! its green :D hahas. hopefully my factory/mrt worker uniform wont look so sloppy like it did today anymore. my shirt kept dropping, cus its super long.

well, off i go now, to make some decisions ..

meanwhile, keep smiling! :D hahas and ohh, all ajcians (factory workers) have to start work (wear the uniform) tomm! reminds me of zibbie & her theory. :D toodles!

i miss my ohfiveasstwelve all over again.

simply cant believe that im tearing while listening to a song titled Best Day Of My Life, by Jesse McCartney.

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meanwhile, there are alot of questions on my mind. getting so insecure lately, that i cant even answer the smallest & silliest questions on my own.

should i join AJ council?
would i be able to commit myself?
do i wanna commit myself?
what should i be doing now, continue feeling so wasted or started getting my lazy butt to revise my work?
should i change my top from a size 6 to a size 4?
whats gonna happen in the near future?

questions, questions & MORE questions.
maybe as sam says, i should just follow my heart, whatever that means.

PUT AN "X" iN THE " ( ) " FOR THE MOVIES YOU HAVE SEEN. AND BLANK WITH THE MOVIES YOU HAVENT SEEN... GO SEE THEM!

( ) Napoleon Dynamite
( ) Saw
( ) White Noise
( ) White Oleander
(x) Anger Management
(x) 50 First Dates
( ) Jason X
(x) Scream
(x) Scream 2
( ) Scream 3
( ) Scary Movie
( ) Scary Movie 2
( ) Scary Movie 3
( ) American Pie
( ) American Pie 2
( ) American Wedding
(x) Harry Potter
(x) Harry Potter 2
(x) Harry Potter 3
( ) Resident Evil I
( ) Resident Evil 2
(x) The Wedding Singer
( ) Little Black Book
( ) The Village
( ) Donnie Darko
(x) Lilo & Stitch
(x) Finding Nemo
( ) Finding Neverland ---> supposed to catch it with the bbcians, but ive no idea what happened man. hahas.
(x) 13 Ghosts ---> reminds me of weiting! :D
(x) Signs
( ) The Grinch
( ) Texas Chainsaw Massacre (original)
( ) White Chicks
( ) Butterfly Effect
( ) Thirteen ---> thirteen?? hahas i thought more like fifteen? LOL.
( ) I Robot
( ) Dodge ball
( ) Universal S
(x) Lemony Snickett- A Series Of Unfortunate Events ---> oooh Sunny Baudelaire! :D
( ) Along Came A Spider
( ) Deep impact ---> cant remember if i caught it.
( ) KingPin
(x) Never Been Kissed
(x) Meet The Parents ---> uh half of it?
(x) Meet The Fockers
( ) Eight Crazy Nights
( ) A Cinderella Story
( ) The Terminal
( ) The Lizzie McGuire Movie
( ) Passport to Paris
(x) Dumb & Dumber
( ) Dumb & Dumberer
( ) Final Destination
( ) Final Destination 2
( ) Halloween ---> sounds familiar, cant remember either.
(x) The Ring
( ) Harold & Kumar (white castle)
(x) Practical Magic
(x) Chicago
( ) Ghost Ship
( ) From Hell
( ) Hellboy
( ) Secret Window ---> i wanted to!!
( ) I Am Sam
( ) The Whole Nine Yards
( ) The Day After Tomorrow
( ) Child's Play
( ) Bride of Chucky ---> how about the Seed of Chucky?
(x) Ten Things I Hate About You ---> ahh my alltime favourite show :D
( ) Just Married
( ) Gothika
( ) A Nightmare on Elm Street
( ) Sixteen Candles
( ) Bad Boys 2
( ) Joy Ride
( ) Seven
(x) Ocean Eleven
(x) Ocean Twelve
( ) Identity
( ) Lone Star
( ) Bedazzled ---> uhh parts of it?
( ) Predator I
( ) Predator II
(x) Independence Day
( ) Cujo
( ) A Bronx Tale
( ) Darkness Falls
( ) Christine
( ) ET
( ) Children of the Corn
( ) My boss' daughter
( ) Maid in Manhattan
( ) Frailty
( ) Best bet
(x) How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days ---> ahhh i like!! :D
( ) She's All That
( ) Calendar Girls
( ) Sideways
( ) Mars Attacks
( ) Event Horizon
(x) Ever after ---> another one tht i adore. watched it a million times or sth.
( ) Forrest Gump
( ) Big Trouble in Little China
(x) x-men 1
(x) x-men 2
( ) Jeepers Creepers
( ) Jeepers Creepers 2
( ) Catch Me If You Can
( ) The Others
( ) Freaky Friday
( ) Reign of Fire
( ) Cruel Intentions
(x) The Hot Chick
(x) Swimfan ---> lol i still remember tht guy's name, Jesse Bradford! reminds me of the LD girls. :D
( ) Miracle
( ) Old School
( ) Ray
( ) The Notebook
( ) K-Pax
( ) The Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
( ) The Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
( ) The Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
(x) A Walk to Remember ---> it was good man, totally weepy!
( ) Boogeyman
(x) Hitch
( ) Back Door Sluts 9
( ) The fifth element
( ) Star wars episode I
( ) Star wars episode II
( ) Star wars episode IV
( ) Star wars episode V
( ) Star wars episode VI
---> to be honest, i watched many of the episodes, but cant remember which is which. hahas.
( ) Troop Beverly Hills
( ) Swimming with Sharks
( ) Transporting
( ) People under the stairs
( ) Blue Velvet
(x) Sound of music ---> lol watched it during sectwo music lesson i still remember!
(x) Parent Trap
( ) THE BURBS
( ) SLC Punk
( ) Meet Joe Black
( ) Wild girls
( ) a clockwork orange
( ) The Order
(x) Spiderman
(x) Spiderman 2
( ) Amelie
(x) Mean Girls ---> no girl should ever miss this one.
(x) Shrek
(x) Shrek 2
(x) The Incredibles
( ) Collateral
( ) The Fast & The Furious
( ) 2 Fast 2 Furious
( ) Sky captain & world of tomorrow
( ) Close
( ) The sixth sense (partially)
( ) Artificial intelligence
(x) Love actually ---> ohmy! :D this is another mustwatch!
( ) Shutters
( ) Ella Enchanted
( ) Princess diaries 1
(x) Princess diaries 2

friendster's pretty useful at times aye? hahas :D i am bored!

hahas im still feeling DAMN HIGH this morning :) while pitasing that entry last night, i fell asleep at the computer table la! my mum hadta wake me up & all.

quickly ended it last night, so yeah hadta edit it this morning. :D all was worth it of course! had a great night's sleep as well, cus i was seriously shagged from all that partying last night! mannnn what a night. really glad la, cus even if its my last time there, at least i had a blast! dont regret it man :D

talking to the nj-ajcians now. i do agree that the place holds different significance for us, and yesterday was probably our final time there.

hahas ok i dont know what im saying anymore, shall leave it as this for now. still in a daze somehow, but feeling good :) till the next time i pitas, so there.

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ok i just recalled what i wanted to say. hahas so here i am again. anyway, this is like revisiting an old issue i suppose, a bad habit of mine. i always try to not get too attached for fear of loss, but im glad i let go of that idea after getting back my o's results. :)

and more so last night. i was in a semi-foul mood initially, ok not foul, maybe just really stoned & all. but i still managed to let go, and have fun.

i guess this is what it really means, to make the best out of things :) spend my time, with no regrets. there really is no point in sulking & being sad, cus ultimately you wont feel any better. i dont deny that at certain points (during the NJC cheers & school song to be exact), i felt really torn. didnt know what i should do, not cheer cus i have to move on or just sing/yell my lungs out. well i did the latter, not sure if i made the right choice, but it sure felt good.

i guess im gonna draw a conclusion now. yes i still fear loss & separations, im still wary about letting go completely, but i will try in future. make the best out of things, and i wont wait till goodbyes before i start to regret. my point is, treasure what you have, and not be afraid to do things, and end up with more regrets.

have a nice saturday everyone :)

:)

i loved today, every single bit of it was so thoroughly memorable, hahas as us piggies said, a MILESTONE!

this is gonna be lengthy, i am warning you first. hahas :D

i'll skip the aj bits la, it basically consists of lectures & buying the MRT worker uniform. hahas yes i'll use my favourite word, UNGLAM! left the chem lecture halfway through cus i really couldnt take it, sitting through the squeaky-voiced lecturer's rantings.

met yuwen at the bus stop, took the bus back home to drop my stuff & change before heading for NJ on our 156. :D hahas we were like crazy girls, taking pictures on the way like nobody's business. in fact, we even stopped at MacRitchie to change bus like we used to. its kinda amazing la, i knew her as my partner in the ohno we're gonna be late again situation. :D take the same bus & everyth. hahas we took an especially long walk crossing the overhead bridge, and talked about our feelings. took plenty of photos too.

walked in through the main gate, wanwei came to pick us up. went to the canteen & bought Pocky (strawberry & chocolate), saw alex & kwek. chatted with alex for awhile at the grandstand, about the new 05s12 and where everyone else went. lol but he no longer has the "clean boy" image like he used to have, in the SJI uniform.

chatted with buddy for a short while too, and tht guy just simply refused to take my Pocky!! slacked around at the shooting range with wanwei, winston & yuwen until dearest BP cerise called me.

i practically dashed out of the room to find them! lol them refers to cerise, fabian, haikel huiyi, joanne, sammie, sui, waiyee, yins! hope i didnt miss anyone out :D lol the two wais ran towards each other on the track excitedly to hug each other! what a sight it was i bet, probably looked like one of those couples at the beach, apart from the fact that we're both girls. :D after hugging everyone of them (except for fabian), i went back to the shooting range to sit around for awhile more with cerise before joining the rest of them. oooh and i saw my dearest flirting partner (no longer one-sided already) aha! slacked at the oasis, since bytes & the container classrooms werent open. hahas spent practically the whole time talking to the dearest BP, updating each other about stuff. :) and mich came back too!!

oooh! and i bought bubble tea!! :D strawberry yoghurt drink with pearls! hahas i love strawberries honestly. after all the talking & pigging out, we headed down to Parade Square for the dance party.

it wasnt exactly happening initially, i was really stoning & kinda upset to be honest. shant eleborate on it la, cus yeah its really difficult to put it down in words, especially on the WorldWideWeb. but yeah after dancing the mass dance with my fellow WAI, things changed man. :D got really high, i dont even know why, and danced (or so i'd like to believe) like a crazy woman! us girls (and sometimes, haikel joined us) basically stood in a circle & just had SO MUCH FUN like nobody's business. it was like super hot, and we were all perspiring like crazy, but yea DAMN HIGH & loadsa screaming :D they claimed that both WAIs got really high. LOL, so here we go, HI WAI :D (pun fully intended)

it felt real good i swear, to just let loose & not care what others would think AT ALL. hahas cus i dont suppose anyone would be seeing much of me so yeah did crazy stuff :D i bet i looked super goofy but it was insanely fun!!

ohh and the school played an April Fools' joke on us! they lied saying that someone was consuming alcohol & the whole party had to be cancelled halfway through. we were all grumbling cus it was so unfair la! hahas but yeah, turns out that it was just a joke. so more partying for us :D lol

mmmm saw mr vowel (OOHHHHH) too!! so glad that i asked sui to fill my bottle with me. -gringrin. so yeah after all that dancing, we went to the canteen to get drinks & take pictures!

lol and they claimed i sounded like a man after the dance party!! hahas my voice was hoarse after all the wild screaming. after the group photo, the three piggies took pictures infront of the Chinese Noodles stall!! :D lol the "strategic" location as we call it. ohhh, and i took a picture with the funky guy, pradeep! :D hahas no i dont by any chance happen to be some sort of groupies, just think hes a really cool guy! hehe. ohh and although things got kinda awkward towards the end, im real glad that it was resolved in KAP after that :)

so yeah, we headed for KAP after that to grab a bite. woahh the place was with filled with njcians! pigged out as usual, and towards the end, there was only the three pigs left :D ohh & wilson came to talk to us for awhile too! mm im really glad huiyi kept urging us, and yea im even more relieved that sammie & i went straight to him to clarify things at KAP :D so yeah sorted things out la.

headed home after. :D hahas really had a FAB night la :) hahas. off i go now, sleepy!