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Thursday, April 29, 2004 ×

today is a total screwed day for me. okei firstly,
DONT CALL OR MSG ME CUS I LOST MY HP
yes i lost my phone. -sigh. terribly depressing thing to happen since its only 3 months old? actually im pissed off, not so much of sad. i mean, its obviously an inside job so theres some lowlife in the class trying to make life difficult for me. -growls.

lets start from the top. my period came today. and those who know me well should know that i HATE HAVING MY PERIOD. ugh! and it came a week earlier? plus today was napfa 5item so its darn gross. and i wasnt wear my PE shorts in the morn and it came and its darn gross? yuckks.

my two black pens are missing. and they are the only pens in my pencil case that is actually usable :| then the hp incident. i mean seriously.

sasa locked the classroom door so i thought my hp would be safe in my bag, under my TWO pinafores. but nopes, i was wrong. got back to class, hp missing, money intact. and only the backdoor was open? the front door was locked? the worst part? xin & xiu left their hp on the table while mine was under a heap of things? -growls. i mean if the person wasnt against me, i dont know wot to say. and there is always laine or yins's hp which is worth so darn much more? ugh! some people are just SICK in the head.

thankfully my mum aint pissed with me or anyth. shes taking it calmly so yeahh. but that person is seriously pathetic lahh, wot cheap thrill do you get outta doing stupid things as such? GET A LIFE.

Wednesday, April 28, 2004 ×

im in a good mood right now so i should put up a new entry as opposed to the previous one which sounds rather depressing. ohwells, then again i really was feeling not too good then so yeah wells.

here's a brand new start! :D hahas to the page? aniw my fingers smell of my waffle crisps, and its yummm :) -grin. it really is!! smells like honey & all. xiu claims that she thinks i bathe in honey cus of my honey smelling hands. lol :) and mind you, i do wash my hands with scented handwash but the sweet smell of the waffle crisps linger until like the next day?

that aside, i did my 2.4km napfa today. -grin. hahas this is like the best timing ive had so far? pathetic yes i know but hey, its an achievement for the lazybum me! managed an A, as compared to last year's C. so yayyy for me.

oh but something darn comical happened lahh. after mrstan was read our timings to us, i dragged qing to the toilet/water cooler. then we went to check our grade for the run. we were looking and we both went like "YES!" at the same time? lol then we were so happy we hugged each other & laughed despite our sweaty bodies! monsterrrs :D

-sigh. my hair has been really difficult the past few days, ie. untie-able. ugh! i mean seriously. its all dry & tangled despite me constantly washing+combing my hair. highly depressing lahh :| esp since its ok at home. -growls.

mmm, nd hasnt been home to stay for like, since last friday? and i doubt he's coming home tonight either. which practically makes it almost 6days since he last slept at home. -faints. saw him today for like 5seconds then he went out alr after picking up some things. tsktsk.

seeing rol's new hairdo seriously tempts me into chopping off my lock of disgusting hair! :| but with my short fringe i cannot really do much eh? just gotta wait until stupid june.

really dont want to start studying for friggin emath :| yucks. i mean .. WOTS WITH TRANSFORMATION? total piss off if you ask me. that & loci ought to be banned or something. cant do this two chapters for nuts lahh. and physics practical should be banned too actually. i mean, they are all there, trying to be difficult and make you go nuts trying to do it.

tomm is the 5items. gonna give it my best shot, hopefully its good enough for get me a little gold. i just hope my standing broad jump dont choose to fail me tomm. -fingers crossed.

shall go & face the dreaded math worksheet. goodness ive never dreaded doing math so damn much in my entire life. yuckks. :( wish me luck.

Friday, April 23, 2004 ×

ive been really bitter lately, i do realise it too. i mean despite me trying to stop my inner moody self from bursting out, it gets to me very often still. -growls. a great big sorry to those whom ive pissed off. i really really dont mean to be difficult.

i guess this is once again another rough patch im going through. i mean when there were rehearsals, there was something to occupy my thoughts & make me happy. but life is really slow now, and the things haunt me again.

-sigh. wot am i saying eh? forget it, i dont really know howta put into words wot exactly i wanna express. so im gonna leave it as it is.

Wednesday, April 21, 2004 ×

heh eating papaya now! :) hahas and this is much sweeter than the one at the reception just now.

just wanted to add something that made me mighty prouda myself! :) hehhh. i jogged six rounds around this park+estate. -beams. didnt stop at all though i really wanted to and i had the usual sharp acute pain at the tumm too. but nono i didnt stop!

prouda me? plus cus of my ma's heels, my feet were darn tired alr i still went for the jog! this made me very much happier today and cleared my head alot bt the stuff that bothered me alot :) woohooo!

ooh, btw ive gotta mention this. ive got a 50bucks kino voucher for participating in this thing! -gringrin. not the run lahh, but the launch of the movement this morn. didnt expect them to give this much actch. but ohwells, i'd gladly accept anyth since i really didnt think they would give anyth in the first place.

really dont regret joining it at all. thankfully dearest lei agreed to join with me :) wheee!

Wednesday, April 21, 2004 ×

this reminds me of jeffrey! -laughs. thats our sissy director by the way. he made us debate using only that sentence and it was really funny the way we were arguing about nothing in particular.

aniw the launch of the Speak Good English Movement is today and its over! :) really glad & cant bear to part with it at the same time. -frowns. as in ive grown used to miss heng rushing us for rehearsals, listening to jeffrey's lame jokes+karen's hyperness and hearing jeffrey+karen talking lame. oh, karen refers to karen tan by the way. and ofcourse i'll miss the junior's laughter & the whole crew in general. lol yes i know im really emotional sometimes. i dont deny it, and dont wish to either :) hahas.

aniw tods went really fine. oh but the parliament house was freezing lahh. ms heng & i were shivering in our seats and my teeth were chattering? aidil [spell?] agreed too! hahas. was so cold couldnt really speak well or think properly. -growls. mmm but the good thing was that the audience responded and it was really funky to find that the person from the media sitting beside me actually agreed with my point of view. lol :)

mmm having dindin now :) hahas. shall stop here then!

Tuesday, April 20, 2004 ×

all i know is im lost without you,
im not gonna lie
how am i going to be strong without you
i need you by my side
if we ever say we'd never be together
and we ended with goodbye
dont know what i'd do,
im lost without you
i keep trying to find my way
but all i know is im lost without you
i keep trying to face the day im lost without you

how am i ever gonna get rid of these blues
baby im so lonely all the time
everywhere i go i get so confused
youre the only thing thats on my mind

Tuesday, April 20, 2004 ×

qing thanks for being there for me yeah? you know i appreciate wot youre doing a whole darn lott. ilu my dearest monster darling. -hughug. thanks alot once again :)

Tuesday, April 20, 2004 ×

smile torn in two
sweetened pain
she always laughs
at the most horrible things
knife in her heart
she's smiling again
drowning inside

going numb on the outside
ripped all apart on the in
holding back the tears
feeling pain
she says it's better than
not feeling at all
some form of being alive

--

was on a certain somebody's site and saw this. really pretty darn sad so i decided to rip it off. ohwells. really drained/tired so am not gonna pita for the time being.

Monday, April 19, 2004 ×

im darn shagged now ive no idea why :| acks. whole bod's just really tired & ive aching shoulders plus i feel really hungry despite dindin in my tumm alr. hiaks. this is BAD!

just had rehearsals aniw. karen tan is a really funny person lahh, as in a totally different person from wot i expected her to be? and she does get panic attacks too, despite being best actress! lol :) in case you were wondering who's that, she the prisoner mother in Iron! yepyep. really amusing person. hahas :)

gonna have rehearsals again tomm and i'll be missing physics! but the juniors get to miss a test?! -growls. how unfair. ohwells, but then again, the juniors are darndarn cute so im happy for them? hehh.

ooh am darn touched by qing dearest! :) she has wrote a 5-testi long testimonial for me!! heh thnks darling :) and ive uh, rewarded her alr. -laughs. ilya babe :)

i believe im gonna grow fat soon, no thanks to my parents :| cus of family lunch on saturday, my appetite has increased and today im a hungry pig :| ate dindin, then ate an apple, then biscuits, now drinking green bean soup. -growls. you get wot i mean when i say im growing FAT? :(

ohwells, gonna watch my fav tv show alr! hahas. so there! :D

Sunday, April 18, 2004 ×

a little more time, a little less wait.
a little more heart, a little less break.
simple and true, what they say.
a little bit goes a long way.
a little less talk, a little more do.
a little more me, a little less you.
baby at the end of the day,
a little bit goes a long way.

i need your heart.
i need your love.

i dont wanna walk away or
let you go and you know it.
im not telling you all of this
to make you sad.
its not about the tears we cry.
its about how hard we try,
to give a little more and see the other side.

and it hurts me,
cus i care and im telling you why,
im unhappy so if you love me,
a little bit is not that much
to ask to make things right.

Sunday, April 18, 2004 ×

nd's pissing me off. -growls. dont know why either but yepp im getting really irritated with him. ugh! let me not talk about that stupid person. aniw i just flooded qing's testimonial! :D hahas. its all because of stupid friendster & its character limits lahh. -growls.

aniw there's gonna be school tomm again. and i didnt get to swim this weekend, no thanks to my mum. ugh! and since theres gonna be arts house rehearsals tomm & tuesday, i doubt i'll get to swim. -growls. and wedn is the perfomance!! hahas. which reminds me, ive to find some footwear and a longer skirt soon. ugh! terribly annoying this is.

cant wait for my haircut in june. ugh! gotta hang in there since i promised myself. why did i make stupid resolutions for myself to keep to?! my papa says that whenever he sees me with my hair untied, he feels like chopping it off ._. so much for parental support huh?

going offline now i guess. really tired+sticky. -growls.

Wednesday, April 14, 2004 ×

survivor! :D hahas am mighty prouda myself todays lahh. afterall i managed to complete SIX WHOLE DARN FRIGGIN ROUNDS within the time i set for myself. -beams. although i felt like i was about to collapse right after the run but wot matter is that i pulled through :)

hahas you dont know how much this means to me since i only ran six rounds for .. around 5 times? yours truly have been faithfully skipping her trial run yearly so yeahhhhh. it just felt darn good with all that determination within me :) hahas.

rantings of a strange kidd, wai! lol :) anyhows had rehearsal for the arts house performance today and it was pretty funn. then again, i enjoy rehearsals most of the time lahh :)

i realise i really dont like it when people give up on themselves, it seriously annoys me alot. im not talking anyone in particular, just generally lahh. like yeah sure, nobody can blame you for feeling sad after a setback, but puh-lease do not wallow in self-pity for ages. oh then make empty talk about wot youre gonna do about it, i mean like get serious lahh.

ohwells, let get shake all that seriousness off. mmm .. xiu the evil girl has got me so hooked to this B.A.D song. -growls. i have to listen to it everyday now cus its just so nice? -mumbles grumbles.

shall stop here alr :) gonna hafta pick something to show ms heng tomm. cant understand why they make us go to school on wedn for 15min of lessons. ugh! we've to go in uniform somemore. am highly annoyed lahh! ._. asdfghjkl

Monday, April 12, 2004 ×

in a mighty good mood now though i seem to be attracting insects? maybe i should go bathe or something. -frowns. but listening to blink182 is making me smile! :D

yes its my darling bestie's sweet sixteen tods! i loveLOVElove her tonnes :D seriously. met up with her after school & went out for awhile with joyce, lingyi, xlin, xt tooo :) -nods

anyhows, some person is getting on my nerves badly. she thinks shes so pretty & oh puh-lease, shes just making herself sound more desperate huh? get a grip.

ive decided to do some reforms to my slack life now. gonna go on a diet plan. okei not really a plan, but i intend to stop binging from now on. ive a serious problem with overeating and then completely not eating at other times, and its annoying me :| AND im saving up. seriously i am! so dont try to tempt me.

since im feeling really screwed these days (if you bothered to notice at all), ive decided to make something good out of my life. -nods. off i go to bathe alr, cus my mum's really pissing me off about how im dirty and stinky. besides im getting grouchy alr.

Sunday, April 11, 2004 ×

am in the mood to pita now so i guess i shall do just that? mmm been having pretty bad moodswings lately. -snarls. terrible! its saturday night now but since its aft 12am it shows sunday alr. bahh.

aniw, had GREAT fun at sentosa yest. :) went there with joyce, lei, lingyi, vonn, xlin & xt. hahas seriously enjoyed myself tonnes although i couldnt swim, lei & i took the time whilst they were swimming & buried all their left flipflop/sandal. :D hehhhs. ohwells. and we took the cable car which had a really pretty view :D and we uh, smuggled vonn in. -laughs. darndarn embarrassing but we scrapped through it.

had steamboat dindin last night too. goodness was darn bloated that i had to wear another shirt over my top to hide the budging tumm? and ofcourse i took out my top inside lahh, dont expect me to wear 2layers rightt?

aniw that was that lahh. too lazy to eleborate incase i get too bored in the middle and decide to scrap the entire entry altogether.

tods was darn crap lahh. went to xiu's house early in the morn feeling all shagged, and i was the earliest by the way. -beams. lol actch credit goes to papa since he kindly sent me there! hahas.

slacked/stoned/studied while waiting for qing to come. actch after she came we still continued with that lahh. was feeling darn restless the whole day ive no idea why, couldnt focus and was in a bad mood. acks. got started on the lit project since we got tired of waiting. ooh but halfway through we went for lunch! :D hahhas.

more stoning for me while they were eating. bernice came after that and we continued with the thing. mmm we all left at around 5pm. ooh then qing & i flew down to pasir ris. -laughs. and both of us are super goons? dont mention it lahh. took the wrong bus & ended up going nowhere. stayed around the area then started walking around looking for the way home.

missed several buses & got lost somewhere. but thankfully for bus no. 81! -smiles. im GLAD for that bus :) cus pasir ris being so far in the east, would have took me at least 1half hrs to get home. BUT since we missed the straight bus home, we took 81 which flew back to s'goon! :) hahas. yepp arrived home earlier than my papa which saved me alot of trouble of explaining. woohoo!

i think thats the only good thing that happened to me tod? oh, and apart from the fact that my period is over. yepp. tods is just not my day lahh. -growls.

ive found out the source of my swollen eyelid alr. its friggin gross ok, ive a pimple [i think] on my inner eyelid. so gross :( yuckks. but its alot better now. this morn it was all puffy & disgusting.

shall just end here lahh. too tired to continue on alr. nighty :D

--

wend your guestbk is pissing me off. -growls. tried to sign but it OOPS me again. asdfghjkl. -grumbles.

Saturday, April 10, 2004 ×

im not a perfect person
there's many things i wish i didnt do
but i continue learning
i never meant to do those things to you
and so i have to say before i go
that i just want you to know

ive found a reason for me
to change who i used to be
a reason to start over new
and the reason is you

im sorry that i hurt you
its something i must live with everyday
and all the pain i put you through
i wish that i could take it all away
and be the one who catches all your tears
thats why i need you to hear

ive found a reason for me
to change who i used to be
a reason to start over new
and the reason is you

im not a perfect person
i never meant to do those things to you
and so i have to say before i go
that i just want you to know

ive found a reason for me
to change who i used to be
a reason to start over new
and the reason is you

ive found a reason to show
a side of me you didnt know
a reason for all that i do
and the reason is you

--

havent been pasting lyrics in my blog for quite some time, especially the full lyrics of the song. really love this song quite alot, its darn sad+sweet? ohwells, i always fall victim to this sorta songs eh. :)

Friday, April 9, 2004 ×

mmm getting ready to go to the beach now! hahas. and im really excited now though ive a stupid swollen left eye. -growls. just received all their morning calls. lol im up early alright? hehh. i intend to be early eh.

gonna start to prepare now if i still intend to be early. heh im trying! mmmmm but its ANNOYING, the fact i cant play in the water. -grumbles. ohwells. hope its fun lahh.

OHH. my papa is darn funny? cus my mum is going to m'sia today and last night when my papa came home ..

papa: (to mum) youre going to m'sia tomm right? ive some m'sian money, give you.
mum: oh okei!
me: heyy im going to sentosa tomm! give me some sentosa money tooo? :D
papa: ohh, sentosa money? mmmm (fishing out some notes) is this sentosa money?

lol in the end he gave me some sentosa money to spend. and i was like "im gonna eat steamboat after that" and he was like .. "orh steamboat money lorr". lol silly man of a father :D hehhh.

Monday, April 5, 2004 ×

am totally bloated :| -growls. the maid just stuffed me with food. mmmm had quite a fun day :) hahas. didnt tie my stupid hair today cus it was being difficult, and well i was plainly too lazy aniw. thnk goodness the weather was good! :) yepp today's weather was the best compared to the past few days?

had the TheatreWorks thing after school again. got released from class early which is DARN good cus i was on the verge of dozing off alr. -growls. math and its stupid shearing [?] thing. yes i seriously prefer amath than math lahh.

aniw yepp thats pretty much the day lahh. lol and my juniors are really funny! the 4 sec twos i mean. amusing people :)

oh but its quite crap cus im having the bloody period. pun fully intended. hell tired now though its been quite a relaxing day. the worst part is that im having a terrible break out! ive zits all over my face :( and yes, i really do hate having my period a whole darn lott.

just thought of something. my mum is such a bimbo! seriously lahh. we were going out to my gran's place, and she looked at me very seriously and went like "YOUR HAIR IS SO LONG ALREADY!" she then scrutinised [spell?] me and turnede my head side to side. finally, she broke into a half giggle half laughter. -faints. she talks like she hasnt saw me for a decade or something!

mmmm gonna give my pita a revamp some time soon. hahas new clothes for the one-year old :) just get some inspiration from everyth around i guess. meanwhile, watch this space! hahas i sound like a stupid advertisement ._.

Saturday, April 3, 2004 ×

-nods. thats wot qing, rol, wend, xin & i are. lol :) lets see .. had boring lit seminar in the afternoon, like wth? as in it was baking in the MPR as well? ugh! terrible lorr

headed to town aft tht for noodle bar dindin! but unfortunately it was closed :( infact, some of the other shops in Heeren werent open either. hiaks. headed to cine for Lips.

had tiramisu with chocolate icecream and fudge. yes i know im growing fatt but it was nicenice :) hahas wasnt very hungry then so ate the thing only. -smiles. and some people tried to hide wend's lip balm? weird weird people.

walked around and was talking & laughing Heeren. it was really really funny cus we went mad going all indian-y and giggly! and ive new mummys. rol & wend! :) went to paragon rooftop, sat there and talked until the lizard appeared! acks.

walked down to dhoby ghaut then home :) ahh. in the mood to pita now so its not as vague as usual. yesyes boring lahh ._. aniw the bestbrand told me that somebody's new fav color is green. ugh! disgusting. how can she like my fav color? yuckks.

there's something seriously wrong with friendster. xiu wrote me two testimonials yet they say "You do not have any new testimonials to approve." like hurr? and i received email notifications. strange ..

ohwells. shall end the entry here :)

Saturday, April 3, 2004 ×

just realised i didnt archive my entries for march so had to take the april ones out and insert it in again. -growls. oh aniw my pitas is finally a year old!! :) lol been bloggin since sectwo? thats really pretty long. wanted to go see my old blog entries but theyre totally screwed. ugh.

and yes i know my prev pita entries have been ending really abruptly but yeah well :) had something to do halfway so just left it hanging there. aniw it was gen's birthday yesterday! :D towned with her & xiu. yepp. havent been to town for ages alr. -growls.

mmmm should i go for lit seminar? dont really feeling like going at all. i mean, afterall would i really tk pen & paper to copy everyth down? i doubt. hiaks.

considering to close my darn ear piercing since its really ugly. as in ive no idea why also. ugh! decisions decisions. totally hate making them seriously :| -growls. confessions of the indecisive :(

nasty moodswing monster is eating the monster wai whole. :( and no, chocolates cant seem to drive it away. -pats tumtum. terrible!

asdfghjkl :(

Friday, April 2, 2004 ×

acks. :| im having a huge dilemma now. -groans. should i, or shouldnt i? -sigh.

that aside, had a long day tods. oh and dearest xiu has gone mad or something. -shrugs. like we had morning jog tods lahh, then afterschool we were at the com lab. she started smelling my PE shirt and said it had a nice smell. -faints. if it aint madness wot is it?

ltrs.

Thursday, April 1, 2004 ×

oh the liberated feeling once again :) was totally freaking out before the lit test. hahas now its OVER :D spent like the whole darn weekend right up till today recess studying. and yes, i even disregarded math for it. hopefully i'll do more than a mere pass.

dont feel like studying for hist anymore :| i feel like going to sleep or something alr? well lets just say thnk God its source based. but come to think of it, its not exactly comforting either since i fare badly in source based :| acks.

oh wells. shikes. ive no idea wot to do with my hair anymore. it is like a monster or something? its long, out of shape, and uh, plainly ugly? -sigh. the saddening things in life :|

on the phone with the favourite person now! toodles! :D