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More Quizzes. Yay!: Monday, July 14, 2003
You are every goth-kids dream!
Which Ultimate Beautiful Woman are You?
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You're the smirk,a frown-smile hybrid that's a
little bit cocky and usually associated with
evil or arrogant,but attractive people.You
probably just don't give a damn,but it's
everyone else's fault if you don't because
you're too awesome to have any real faults.
What Kind of Smile are You?
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Myarf... That's all you get... For now.
Commentator: Saturday, July 5, 2003
In case no one noticed, I changed the title of this place from 'Objective Reality' to 'The Dark Realm', because I can't find enough objective information to post here regularly to bother proclaiming it.
I got home around 12:30 last night thanks to DCB and his tripped-out new ride. I found some excellent music from overclocked, and have been jamming to it since.
This music inspired me to comment on a few things. I love epic music. The kind you can just feel ground shattering to, the kind that makes you see hurricanes, lightning, tornadoes, volcanoes, and the supremely powerful battling. I also love dark epic music. The slow, moody, demonic type that erupts with evil power. I love writing for powerful villains, and this music simply bleeds with inspiriation. I get chills...
This relates to why I listen to or like Nine Inch Nails. The music is fantastic, so I love the sound, but because its so horrendously sacriledgous, it allows me to analyze the points in my own mind, counter them, and mature. NIN's "Closer" is actually one of my favorite songs. With that famous lyric "I want to f*** you like an ANIMAL!" it startles you, makes you cringe, and then ask why. It gets *smack* your attention. I like seeing outrage, at least it shows people still care. I welcome NIN and music like it. If we can't handle such anger and violent self-hatred, why are we here?
I question myself more than most, that's why I have the extreme views that I do. Does the stance make sense? Why I did reach that conclusion? What factors influenced it? On balance, which side is more logical? Which one works? It is this self-examination, called examination of conscience, that makes me who I am. As I've said before, my chief abiliity is adaptation. If I learn something new, I incorporate it. Of course, if it can't survive a few questions, I have no need to incorporate a shattered, useless fallacy.
I also have my insticts, forged over my short life. When I can't answer a question at all, I test my instincts. I trust them now because they've literally saved my life (not physically, but in the ways that really matter) at least three times. When I see a red-flag, I react. It is my instincts that keep me away from drugs, in particular pot. I have an addictive personality, that's why I don't bother with much. I *personally* will never do pot, it would be stupid beyond reason. However, I have other reasons for recommending others against it also.
And the few times I didn't listen to my instincts when a red-flag came up, I got a nice smack-upside the head by life to remind me to listen to them. Counter my arguments all you like, if you want *me* to change my position, you have a formidable challenge before you unless you can show me very clearly how I'm wrong.
Quizes!: Monday, June 30, 2003
Behold the craziness of my online boredome:
What what did you expect?
Which Guilty Gear X character are you?
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The cosmic perfection... Yesss.
ICE is your chinese symbol!
What Chinese Symbol Are You?
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I'm Honored...
You are Peace.
You are at peace with your self and the world
around you. You have balance in your life and
exude tranquility from every pore of your body.
People are constantly asking you "what is
your secret?"
What Emotion Are You?
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Sweetness!
You represent... hope.
You're quite a daydreamer and can be a hopeless
romantic. You enjoy being creative and don't
mind being alone at times. You have goals, and
know what you want in life... even if they are
a little far fetched.
What feeling do you represent?
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Status Report: Saturday, June 28, 2003
Final Issue of the Westlakean is complete: Yay Sharky! Awesome work. I even got a final cameo and an artsy picture at the end! Arigato yo!
Zieram: Strength and honor my friend. Go with G'd.
Pics: Sharky-sama drew an excellent interpretation of Auron as an Aeon. Scroll down on her weblog a little to find it.
Data: Tuesday, June 24, 2003
Two views affecting the perception of my previous entry:
1) The DSM is a laughing stock. It contains many 'illnesses' which are common to all adolescents. (one source)
2) Sex is the physical male/female, but gender is a purely mental formation of the persons identity (masucline/feminine). Sexuality being both physical and mental, must also be a spectrum. This according to a 'decent majority' of the population. (one source.)
That's all so far.
Another issue recently brought to my attention is the Bible and hatred contained therein. The Bible doesn't contain any hate. If people take what it says and use it to justify evil, that's their fault and theirs and everyone else's problem as a result. The Bible must be read in its context, to achieve its meaning. The hatred it does show is representive of evil, that is soon quashed in just response.
But no one should read what they don't feel a desire to read. It would only cause preconcieved distortion of the meaning anyway.
Sexuality and Gender: Sunday, June 22, 2003
There are those who believe all sexual orientation should be accepted as equal, and those who believe there are five genders (and naturally there are also those who believe both.) Well the traditional Catholic stance is a simple one: perceptions not withstanding, there is one sexual orientation that can be exercised, and by the official definition of ‘gender’ there are only two. The question exists: Why bother holding such ‘outdated’ and ‘out of touch’ views? Factual basis is the answer.
Gender is defined physically, not mentally, thus there are only two genders, male and female. Hermaphrodites are defined as a mix of both in varying degrees. (No less human, of course, simply a fusion of genders.) To make homosexual, transgender, and bisexual ‘genders’ is a violation of the word’s definition. When speaking of the mental aspect, we can all agree that many men have feminine aspects (exaggerated), and many women vice versa. There is, however, a great difference between an effeminate man and a homosexual man. They may or may not coincide.
For the more complex issue of variations in sexuality. Why does the Church not accept these variations as equal to standard, heterosexual orientation? Part of the answer is the Bible, yes, but the rest is filled in by scientific fact and common sense. The Bible portion is quite simple, it clearly states in the Bible that a ‘man shall not lie with another man as a woman’, and in the historical context, this is binding to the vice versa of lesbian behavior also. For the portion anyone willing to listen to factual evidence will accept, read further.
Transgender is still recognized as a mental defect, by the scientific community, it is simply accepted and ‘cured’ by surgery and hormone therapy to switch physical gender. Bisexuality is related to homosexuality, so I’ll discuss homosexuality to deal with both. Homosexuality *is* a mental illness. Why does no one agree to this? Because the American Psychiatric Association at its annual meeting in 1973, with only 4.6% of its members in attendance, voted to remove homosexuality from its handbook of mental diseases [Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders, DSM II). The meeting was highly politicized due to the activities of three homosexual-rights groups [the Gay Activists Association, the Mattachine Society (Mattachine was the founder of NAMBLA), and the Daughters of Bilitis]. So a scientific conclusion was removed by a vote, not by the standard procedure of peer review. Therefore the scientific fact is that homosexuality (psycho-sexual associative disorder) is a disease and this changes the reasonable person's views on the matter. Naturally anyone suffering any kind of illness is even more deserving of compassion and caring (stemming from Love), but the disease should not be accepted as normal or ‘natural.’
Final point. Whatever one considers oneself (bisexual, homosexual, ‘omnisexual’, etc.) the only fault that can be found with him or her is whether s/he behaves immorally or not. No one is ‘guilty’ of suffering from an illness. Nor is this illness debilitating in the slightest, so s/he can’t be refused work, service, etc.. Scientifically it *is* an illness, and morally these issues simply can not be allowed to lead to equivalent of Marriage. If someone is willing forego sexual relations outside of Marriage, like any Catholic, they are committing no sin. So even if one feels one is homosexual (or other variation), and ignores the science of this matter, one can still be morally correct by remaining celibate. Morally, homosexuality (or others) is only held to the same standard as heterosexuality. No sex outside of Marriage (the Sacrament). If one accepts that, the Church, and I personally, have no issue with said him/her.
Now if one doesn’t care about Marriage or morality either, then so be it, nothing here is for such a person anyway. Not until one wants it to be. If one wants to know, however, these are the Catholic stances on these issues, as phrased by me. At the very least, one can consider the scientific and historical evidence, and research it, by all means.
If you find that my data is incorrect, please email me. I have no fear of the truth.
Who what now?: Sunday, June 22, 2003
Precisely what personal information are you talking about? I post quiz-results and some commentary about a party and it's personal info? Bah. I'd like to see you try and apply any of that to me if you don't already know it.
When Quizilla comes back online, I will post the link to a quiz I created for the Dark Realm characters. Those of who've already taken it, feel free to post who you resulted like.
You expected more? Very well. I shall give you quotes:
"I have summoned you here for a purpose."
"Nobody summons Megatron..."
"Then it pleases me to be the first..."
Well isn't this ironic?: Friday, June 20, 2003
I found a few more quizzes. Two of them were pretty cool.
[take the test] - [by krystaljungle.com]
[take the test] - [by krystaljungle.com]
More Quizzes: Wednesday, June 18, 2003
You are Neo, from "The Matrix." You
display a perfect fusion of heroism and
compassion.
What Matrix Persona Are You?
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You are Proverbs.
Which book of the Bible are you?
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You are Psychic!
What's Your Magic Power?
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You're A Hero!
You live to save the world! You are honest, true,
and always victorious! You may not always get
the girls/boys, but all you really want to do
is battle the bad guys.
What Type Of Anime Character Are You?
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What Is Your Animal Personality?
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You are a Hermione at heart! You are obviously
smart and sophisticated...but you tend to get a
little annoying at times. I would put down the
books for a little while and get out more!
!!! The Ultimate Harry Potter Character Quiz !!!
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Anger.: Wednesday, June 18, 2003
The news has been talking about the recent act of a Bishop who *drove away* from a *lethal* hit and run crash. They found him with his front windshield dented in, and he apparently said he didn't know what he'd hit.
Before I even go to the morality of this issue, his story is idiotic. If it hit the windshield that hard, you SAW WHAT IT WAS.
Now then, let's see what we have here. A Bishop, someone intended to guide, educate, and form the morality and behavior of whoever he meets and his entire diocese, has KILLED a man through sheer SLOTH and LYING.
We get enough crap without there actually being awful clergy, Bishop. The only doubt you've given me is how a human being who attained your rank could be so rotten at the core. Such an act is worse than rape, abuse, or violence of any other kind. You were the guide, you wretch. Now suffer. Yes, G'd is merciful. He's also just. We'll find out what He does with you later... Judging by your behavior, I doubt any repentence would be very sincere, but that's not my call to make. Be thankful it isn't...
Herein lies the proof of selfishness failing. Those of you who believe all humanity is selfish, but simply changes the degree of that selfishness' complexity, should look at this story well. No matter how kind you are in the hopes of recieving kindness, eventually the selfishness pervades. Control yourself, or *this* happens. People die.
All this man has done is make a lie of every kind act he may have actually performed as a Bishop, which I am loathe to call him. For such an action, there is no slack to give. You knew better, 'Bishop'. You knew exactly what you were doing.
I am quite aware of "forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us", but this act demands justice. I speak not in vengeance, but in outrage. You were no man of G'd. You were a wolf in the sheep's skin. I need do nothing. G'd is the perfect judge, I need not disagree with whatever He chooses. But I recommend a healthy fear of G'd, 'Bishop', which you seem to lack...
That is all for now.
"Smith... Agent... Smith.": Monday, June 16, 2003
Which Agent Smith are you?
By Madeline Elster
Ah yes. Truly I am a snarky Smith. "Still using all the muscles except the one that matters."
Lily! Craziness. Racing your own mother? How French. Sorry, sorry, just kidding. Take it out on the next DoA2 shindig, Manslayer. ("With every fiber of your being, you are truly a manslayer"-Kenshin) Sorry, couldn't resist.
Keep the personality quizzes comin' people. I'm a quiz-addict! They're like crack! I swear! *ahem*.
Well this was a half-@$$ entry! Ja!
Activity! At last...: Sunday, June 15, 2003
Excellent, everyone (--->) is finally updating regularly again. Well let's see. Since you were all at the party at you-know-who's place, I'll give a basic overview. Personal info, perhaps, but nothing revealing. The DCB gave me a ride while we enjoyed the pulsing rhythms of Paul van Dyke. Upon arriving, I watched some saving madness with Sharky and Drasnor while DCB took the pool. At this point many others considered going into the pool, so I enacted my security plan, and utilized a torso-covering device to minimize the revealing nature of a swimming suit. My water-toting swimming suit proved quite effective for adding extra mass for cannon-balls or jack-knives. Excellent, yesss.
With that revving up nicely, we all had our fun trying to splash Lilisin, who had perched like a little French bird at the far end from the diving on the fence. All failed. That irracible Manslayer strikes again.
Pool-noodle battles were my personal favorite beyond the viewing of Cirque later in the party. It was especially fun when Sharky and Zieram teamed up on me, so I got to fly into crazy side-to-side attacking action. I wore meself out, but it was oh-so-fun.
And most of this time little ole Kayte (Kaite? Kaet? Myarf...) remained quiet and observant. I approve!
Anyway, Lilisin had to leave earlier than the others, so I went inside, cleaned up a bit (left hair ragged), and we played DoA2, where she retained her Manslayer title once again with our tied record of 6-6 (10-round matches).
Drasnor was cool and played AC3 with me despite never having played it before. He was quite patient considering I left out a key command until *after* the first fight. Even so, he proved |337 with our 1-1 record before lunch.
I played Shinobi for a bit while everyone chilled out with icecream. Then it was time for "Varekai!", the latest Bravo-released Cirque du Soleil show.
After that, DCB and I got into AceCombat 4. He revealed his |337||355 in single-player, and then kicked my rudders in a versus, where I had the best possible ship, and he had an average one. After this, he agreed to a possible pounding in AC3. He used the super-mech, and I used one of my customs, and while he lost, he'd never played AC3, hadn't practiced AC2:AA in eons, and he still got me down to 98 AP (which is like a sliver of impercitable health in a fighting game).
And then Whitecat arrived. A surprise, but a most welcome one, to be sure. And she's so KAWAI! *wink*
[[Side note: Whitecat, I love your new weblog lay-out, but the actual text is shifted over onto your info on the right, and the central column is blank to my browser. May just be me, but it means I can't read anything you put on your weblog currently. Gomen, gomen.]]
Then there was DDR madness. Wedge, Tomo, and DCB were the obvious fore-runners. Zieram performed admirably despite an injury still bothering him.
And then many of us joined Whitecat for a showing of Get Backers. Interesting story, and potential, but I obviously need to see more than 2 episodes to make a real call on whether I like it or not. Very Japanese, which doesn't always appeal to me in the terms of drama.
And upon a return ride courtesy of the DCB, I managed to ask da-man Zieram to find me Max 300 and Max Unlimited as mp3s. As always, he delivered. Now those are what I'm talkin' about.
I'll likely re-title this weblog soon. I don't post enough actual information on her to call it 'objective reality'. I may just change it to the Dark Realm completely.
And Sharky! How many times must I tell you that watching an RPG is not boring for me! I simply go into a restive state when watching something that requires much time, so I look like I'm on the verge of sleep. I've played RPGs, I know what they're like to get around in. However! Since you're feeling guilty, you can come play the end of it for me to make up for it! Mwahahahaha!
Heh, Ja arimasen! *bows*
Wow, an entry: Saturday, June 7, 2003
I took my time updating, didn't I? Mainly because others haven't posted on their weblogs, so I felt not desire to do so. Going with the crowd? Perhaps. It's more like the desire is nonexistent with no crowd to go with.
Peer pressure? Something I never really understood. Beyond trifles, like this, which I could easily do without, it's rarely, if ever, had an effect on me at all. Any effect it does have is to the opposite of what is desired by the crowd. "You can tell an Irishman, but you can't tell 'im much."
Some news: Apparently a Priest was outspoken in one sermon on how the Catholic Church will and should not allow homosexual marriage. A homosexual group heard of this in advance (don't ask me how they pulled that off), and the moment he said it, stood up in the back of the Church and started making out.
As a result, the same laws that force protestors to stay away from abortion clinics will now be used to keep homosexual protestors away from Churches if they intend to disrupt the ceremony.
We can worship how we like, and no one can say we were forcing anything down anybody else's throats with this one. There are more effective forms of protest that down't villify your own cause.
Becoming a bigot doesn't help you stop bigotry. I could get going on the anti-Catholicism of the modern era, but 1) most reading this don't believe its there, 2) I don't have enough information to make it as powerful as it should be, and 3) there's a book just released that gives all the facts and issues needed anyway.
You have no idea...: Tuesday, June 3, 2003
"Do you have any idea how hard one of those things is to kill!?"
"Yes."
"Oh good."
"Be quiet."
"You first."
"Behold the serpentine devine!"
"Oh happy noodle boy!"
"What?"
"De-feather this hooligan."
"Hootenany what?"
"Assss-sphincter says what?"
"That was the asinine comment I've heard in a long time."
"Heh, you said-"
*WHAM*
"d00d, //|-|47 the-"
*WHAM*
"No swearing..."
"You need help. I mean you are seriously mentally ill."
"Well hooray for you, Captain Obvious. Would you like a prize today?"
*Borrows Chibi-Snake*
"Well hooray for you chuckles!"
*throws him back*
"You see my point?"
"You have, what we call, 'issues'."
"Doesn't everyone?"
"A what?"
"Tissues."
"No, no! ISSUES!"
"Yeah, tissues."
"AGH! Just shut up! Just shut the -"
*WHAM WHAM WHAM*
"Ah, ah, ah... No swearing."
"Whoa... fubar..."
"No, no. Snafu."
"FUBAR!"
"SNAFU!"
"WILL YOU BOTH SHUT UP! You're swearing in abbrieviations."
"Actually those are-"
*WHAM*
"WhoooOOooa... You messed him UP, yo!"
"MASTER OF THE OBVIOUS! Now get out!"
*gulp* "Right!" *zip*
"Thank you for attempting to reach the coherent mind of *WHAM* please... t-try aa-gainnnnn..."
"Aaaaahhh, peace... and... quiet..."
"Wazzzzpinator is happy as lasssst..."
*Grrrr*
*WHAM THWACK CRASH BANG SLAM SMACK POW!*
"Ka-butt-sex?"
*SPLAT PLURTCH*
"Ew... now he's all sticky and messy and red and stuff..."
*looms*
"eh... heh, heh... BYE!" *zip*
*sigh* "Now... I can relax."
Reporting...: Tuesday, May 27, 2003
Before she or my other friend comment on it, I may as well report the DoA2 and GGX affairs of this morning, and afternoon. Personal info, yes, but nothing too revealing.
It started off as before, with DoA2, and both of them trouncing me violently. He got 4-1 at my best (me being the 1), and she started mixing me up even worse with her Lei-Fang |337||355. Then I started getting my flow back, thank G'd. I never got much better against either of them, really, because both got more tired just as I came into form, so my wins mean little, but I still pulled out at the finish.
I used Tina and Kasumi almost exclusively, but Genfu and Leon helped me quite a bit in a few fights. I did, finally, get my counter-throw skill back toward the end, and I remembered all of the combo throws without having to review outside the fights. I was pleased with how it went, personally.
After she left, he and I went to an arcade, and I played GGX2 for the first time. I tried out the guitar lady and the possessed man, but, while interesting, neither of them were extemely appealing. The possessed man was cool, but too difficult to button mash with for me enjoy the first-play. And the guitar lady... cool, but... Her clothes could use some... touching up. Few too many 'windows of oppurtunity' there. I then played Jam, my good friend, through several fights before the controls absolutely killed my arm, and he took command for the final fight. He did very well, but coming in mid-fight with an unfamiliar character would be rough on anyone, so he didn't win the fight, but pulled extemely close. (By coincidence, it was against the possessed man).
So there you go, some personal info for a change. I have no really valuable information, I'm afraid.
Finally, an update.: Saturday, May 24, 2003
I took my time adding, didn't I? Well for those of you wondering why I didn't make it to the shindig today (Saturday, for those of you too lazy to look up a line and a half). I went to see X2 and Reloaded again. Lady Deathstrike is cool. She shouldn't have *blank*ed.
I may alter her *blank* with a fan-fic, yes. Then her *blank* could lead to a cool story. Something like the League of Extraordinary Gentlemen, but with all-women. Yes, I like women. A lot.
Or I could just make it a gender-open team, and *blank* several *blanks* from their *blanks*. However, I don't need *more* stories. No. But keep the images flowing brain, yes, yes, don't stop being imaginative. I know better than to complain against that. Writer's-block is evil, evil, evil. Did I mention bad?
I could reveal more about myself, but let me thi- No.
Oh, and I apologize to you for leaving my AIM on. I thought it quit when I shut off the list-window, but obviously it does not. I would've loved to play DoA2, but perhaps another time? I'm out Sundays, Saturday afternoons, and this monday, but I'm open most other times. This may be personal info, but if you don't know me, just try to use it... Hehehe, I am so sinister sometimes...
All others who messaged me during my ghosted AIM log-in, I apologize as well. I really hate leaving people hanging like that. ...I despise it...
Good day.
Some real information finally.: Wednesday, May 21, 2003
Most people will agree that we each have a unique spin on the definitions of the words we use. Anything from 'joy' to 'boredom' have different connotations to each person. But they're just that... connotations.
A connotation is something accepted for a word, but not official. 'Facetious' has a negative, sarcastic connotation, but it can actually be used for anything jocular.
The denotative meaning of a word is the official, undebatable use of the word. If you don't like it, you don't use the word, there's no way around it except sarcasm, which limits you to the opposite meaning.
So there is no point in debating connotative meanings, because they can be completely different. The only definition one can discuss, and use in a discussion properly, is the denotative one. Using any other definition is inviting misunderstanding, and only delays the fruition of any good information from the discussion.
An example. To me, 'wisdom' has a very calm, sagely, virtuous connotation. To some others it has a boring, old, ragged connotation. The actual meaning is simply a statement of a person's ability to apply knowledge. So while I might use 'wisdom' in my stories in my own little way, if I were to enter a discussion, the meaning I am using is the official, standard, singular meaning. It is folly to attempt anything else, because it will only cause trouble.
If you like trouble, fine, but don't complain to me when we start arguing over the definition of a word. Use the denotative, or just leave it alone. If you can't agree on the standard, you sure as hell won't agree in the discussion, nor even learn anything of value beyond the other person's connotation to the word, which is usually only a small portion of the real point of a discussion.
So some advice. If you get into a serious discussion, make sure to get your definitions straight. You'll be intrigued to see how different people start out. Once a standard is agreed upon, the discussion progresses quite nicely, and usually ends very soon after because a calm, stable sharing of ideas is allowed, and either agreement or disagreement is clear.
The personal side of this point? Relativity is a scientific principle of perception, it sucks when trying to talk philosophy, theology, morality, or ethics. Two cars moving at different speeds can not be compared to a murder being right or wrong. Science is the foundation, reason is the link to Faith, and Faith is what gives you the final solution.
Another tangent. Science and Faith are inexorably connected and complimentary, not opposites. Science is the art of G'd, Faith is the attempt to believe in and love G'd. You need both to really appreciate G'd. Science is wonderful, but there are some things it will never be able to explain. Continue to strive for scientific understanding, but be humble with that knowledge of limited possible success, and true happiness can flow.
We are finite, and thus our possible comprehension is finite. We can't even actually fathom the *size* of the universe, do you really think we can eventually learn everything there is to know about nature? Find out more at all times, by all means, but never assume we can become like gods of knowledge. Do not make science your religion, it is inherently lacking. By all means question G'd, but consider how He works in your question instead of how He doesn't. One question should never push you off a course, nor put you on one. If you have one singular point of disagreement with G'd, no matter the form (like if He even exists or not), look more into it, even if everything you've seen points to the same answer you've gotten.
Do what you've always done, and you'll get what you've always gotten. Live outside the box. Think, learn, understand, and be hopeful. Life is harsh, but also good.
'passion' actually originates in the words 'to suffer'. Passion is actually a true sign of devotion, growth, and maturity. "passion" is not lust, heavy emotions, or uncontrollable feelings. Passion and seflish desire are opposites, in actual fact. Your connotations may disagree, and even some denotations these days, but the real source of the word is clear.
Another personal comment... I hate poeple stealing my words. 'gay', 'choice', 'freedom', 'passion', and even trying to make other words look nicer, like 'lust'. Gay meant happy, energetic, joyful, not homosexual. Choice is a possibility of action in general, not the specific dicision between life or death of an unborn child. Freedom is not license, the greatest freedom is personal responsibility. And passion is not uncontrollable desire or emotion. Passion is the heart-felt power to sacrifice one's self for the better.
And another thing. 'Uncontrollable' and desire/emotion/thought don't mix. *YOU* control your desires, emotions, and thoughts. They may arrive, but *YOU* dismiss them. They may be strong, but *YOU* are their source, not their slave. This is not easy, but it is true.
Thank you.
Responding: Tuesday, May 20, 2003
Why do I not put personal info on here? Because I'm a private person. Why does a private person have a web log? Boredom.
My friend, here, has commented on differing uses for web logs. An apt, sharp, and timely observation, as she usually manages.
My response? It is indeed fascinating to watch others web logs. I am observer, I focus, watch, listen, learn, analyze. Web logs? Pure information. Very personal, informative blocks of information. Not fluff, but the very core of people's minds at some times.
I can not fathom putting my personal experience on the internet to read. What you are reading here is my reaction to an already 'netted' idea. While one can infer my persona from this, one can not be certain.
I would like to state that this blog isn't necessarily for my views on religion only. They play a role, of course, but I would much rather appeal to the literal, common-sense form of morality and reality. This is supposed to be a possible resource for others, not my vent.
Today's information is simple. While media can influence a mind, that mind is only receptive to that influence if it is undesciplined. Who places discipline? That's the parents' job, or the persons who fill that role in a child's life. If the mind is not disciplined, reactions will occur. This is simple cause and effect.
Intriguing, isn't it?
Random Addition: Sunday, May 18, 2003
I'm alive. There's your personal info for the update.
The question of whether something is good or evil is actually quite simple, but in this day and age, most people want it to be complex. This is nothing more than an excuse to ignore the consequences of being selfish.
What is a sin? Religiously, it's the willful action against G'd's Will. More logically? Something you do that hurts you, or someone else, either now, or in the long run. This is regardless of your own comprehension of that fact. Mortal sins? Sins so grave they can ruin your life (or, Religiously, put your Soul in danger, hence 'mortal').
Most poeple find the word 'sin' ugly, and don't want to associate it with anything. Of course not. No one would sin if they felt they were actually doing something wrong. Does the murderer feel murder is wrong? Of course not. Does the rapist feel what he does is wrong? Of course not. They're doing what they want.
Sin is actually very attractive. Usually very aesthetically pleasing, physically pleasuring, very tasty, etc., etc., etc. Or it is the simple bliss of doing nothing when you should be doing something.
Drug-abuse is gluttony. Pot, heh, all it really does is kill your work-ethic, so that's sloth and gluttony in one shot. Sex? Hah. Sex outside of marriage isn't sex, it's fornication. That's why the word 'fornication' exists, because sex is a beautiful thing, fornication is a sin. Sex is G'd's gift to a Married couple. Fornication is what people take from each other to feel better about themselves.
Self-esteem is good, self-dilusion is not.
Harsh? Of course. Life is harsh. It's also good.
What the... are you talkin' about?: Saturday, May 17, 2003
And what 'uber-personal-info' are you talking about? Bah, either I was responding to other info raised by someone else, being notoriously vague, or saying how much you all suck because you weren't home schooled. Not very nice of me, granted, but what on earth qualifies it all as 'uber-personal-info'? You think I would fail so easily!? Mwahahahahaha! I can not be stopped from stopping myself! Mwahahahaha... haha... *sigh*
Well that was pointless. Anyway. I saw the new Matrix movie. I then went to a board I frequently visit and someone said the pole-fight was too long. Well... Anyone who knows me can guess my opinion of the matter. Moving on.
Word to the wise. Wait through the credits to see the preview of the next movie. Long credit, too...
So it looks like you've discovered your chibi, m'boy. Disturbing... as always, but whatever adds buouancy to your aquatic vessel.
Chibi-Ayanami: ...Cy-kun?
W-what?! Oh! *bows* Konichi wa, Ayanami-sama! Daijobu ka?
Chibi-A: Hai *tips head*. Do you find all chibis disturbing...?
*blanches* Nononononononono! Not at all! My dearest young lady, never could I consider you disturbing, nor anything else remotely negative. I'm afraid I'm far too obsessed for that.
Chibi-A: *blinks slowly*
...Right, gomen... Well... don't you think a chibi Sean Connery is just... well... wrong?
Chibi-A: ...He is very focused on unique things.
How esquisitely phrased, my dear Ayanami-sama! *bows* My apologies for any... mis-phrasings of my own with regard to over-generalizing chibis...
Chibi-A: You should calm down, Cy-kun. Your face is becoming very red, and your blood-pressure may be causing heart difficulties.
Of course, of course... Ayanami-sama. Gomen for worrying you. I'll be fine!
*Chibi-Ayanami tips her head again, and then leaves*
Ah, my crimson-eyed lady! How kawai! *ahem* ...What are you staring at? Go away!
What a day...: Friday, May 16, 2003
Today was interesting. If by 'interesting' you mean emotionally jarring, or just wearying. But then I've had a wearying... week? Month? Whatever.
Gomen, gomen, Sharky-chan. I'm a firm believer in 'talk if you want, just cry if you want' in situations like what you're talking about, so I tend to stay out of them directly. Nyoh, my arm still hurts from that arm-wrestle you so soundly defeated me in. (Drat, personal info... grrr)
Some gloating for your all:
"Speaking of school choice, congratulations are in order for a group of young people on the home team! Six homeschoolers representing Family Christian Academy in Chattanooga, won the Tennessee State High School Mock Trial competition this spring and went on to win the national competition in New Orleans last Saturday, defeating 44 other teams and becoming the first team ever to win the competition two years running. The mock-trial competitions are sponsored by state and national bar associations, and this year's case was modeled after the legal questions raised in the Florida election in the 2000 presidential campaign. The
homeschoolers not only received winning ballots from all judges in every round but also scored the highest cumulative point total in the history of national high-school mock-trial championships."
Homeschooling r0x0r5. p|-|34r 0|_|r a|_|7|-|0r|7y!!!
As one who has taken considerable education from both public and home schooling, I can safely say: the public-school system is grossly inefficient. I had 15 classes and was done by 2, and now I have 7 classes, at the most, and after leaving at 4, I still have three or four hours of homework per night. That's just stupid by comparison, and you all know it.
That being said, I'd like to state how much I love this country. No where else in the world can you rant so nastily about the place you live, and not get panned for it. I see so many people screaming 'America sucks', and 'Bush is evil/stupid', and it just makes me shake my head. Move to China, we'll see how much you think communism doesn't suck after that. Or France, maybe? By the time you finish paying taxes on your nothing-job, you'll be starting the next round of taxes. Socialism, wow.
Leave community service to us Religious, folks. Government isn't supposed to run your life for you, nor are we, but we handle the personal aid when it works.
Chibis!?: Thursday, May 15, 2003
So then. It seems this one, this one, and this one have all noticed my weblog. Such strangeness, and on my behalf... I'm almost... touched. Fortunately such moments pass quickly.
Information for the post: Last AP this morning. That's all you get. Mwahahahahahahaha. *ahem* Yesss
Ah, my dear, you poor thing. Don't feel too bad. Guys get too eager... I know, I know... He had it coming, and whatever makes you look at yourself analytically is a good thing in the long run, so be glad.
Drat... more real info. Time for inane quotes again:
"Uuuuu... Wazbinatorrr has a head-ache in 'is 'ole bodyyyy." - Waspinator (...duh)
"Yes, my queen!"
*BANG* "For the last time, stop calling me THAT!" - Inferno and Megatron.
"Clicking makes me twitch..." - Cheetor
"You wouldn't dare fire in here! It might upset history..."
"We have four million years to clean you off the walls, Megatron... I might risk it..." - Megatron and Optimus
Some of my favorites, yesss. Oh, by the way. A friend of mine... and I use the term loosely... has shown interest in these 'chibis' the others are going on and on about. Well come on then... Hello?
*POOF*
*I am replaced by a small stuffed black rabbit as chibi-Virus steps onto the scene, his diminished and disproportionate shape maintaing the dark demeanor and faint smirk. Pale skin, black spiky hair, and a black gi of baggy shirt and pants, bound at the waist, wrists, and ankles with black silk. And solid black eyes, of course.*
Virus: Friend? Indeed not. Run along and chew cabbage.
*the bunny hops off*
V: This weblog belongs to me now. Whenver I want it to, at any rate. Chibis, you say? *faint chuckle* I am intrigued. I do get so bored every now and then.
??: Virus-san...
*Virus gives an uncomfortable expression, and then turns around with a lighter smile*
V: Ayanami-sama, a pleasure to see you... here... A chibi?
*chibi-Rei was standing a few meters away from him the dark void that was the Dark Realm weblog space, her rounded face flat in expression, her eyes half-closed in a strange stare*
Rei: Please turn Cy-kun back to normal.
V: oh... Fiiiiiine.
*I pop back into place behind Ayanami-sama, then flop on my back from weariness*
Rei: Arigato, Virus-san. Ja arimasen *she bows, and vanishes*
V: ...Spoiling all my fun... Must you INSIST on keeping that already demi-goddess with such insane amounts of power?
me: You're a fine one to talk...
V: I'm supposed to be the deus-ex-machina, you dolt. She was supposed to be-... *trails off as he is overshadowed by red haze from beyond* Hmm... That's an impressive bit of power you can manifest when you're... Nevermind...
*Virus vanishes*
As I said... loosely. *ahem* *coughs up red mist* Pardon me... *looks at watch* Oh dear me, look at the time... Must be going!
PS: Dude, ... sick.
Information? Pshaw!: Wednesday, May 14, 2003
Once again, do you really expect personal information here? Oh fine. I took a government AP exam today. Happy now? Good, because that's all you're getting, yesss.
I'm afraid I have little else to give you today. No helpful anecdotes or quotes. Well... okay, here are some funny Beast Wars quotes:
"Why do you always talk to yourself?"
"Oh... I simply have a penchant for ingelligent conversation."
"Aw, don't worry, cuz I ain't lettin' nobody get ya down heah. That's a pleasure I'm reservin' for MYself!"
"Ooooohhh, I appreciate your concern! But I somehow doubt that being shot in the back by a malodorous mouse will exactly get me into the halls of Silicon Valhalla!"
Oh yeah... I hate cameras. With a passion. Almost as bad as phone-rings. Yes, personal info, I know, but that's fairly common knowledge about me at this point anyway. NO PICCY!
If you would like to actually learn about those Dark Realm characters, go to the forge. The link's on the right side of my bloggy thing here. Look for 'The Forge' in blue text, yesss. There are basic character profiles, but more directly the stories they come from. Because the storylines rip-off so much stuff from so many series, I consider them 'original fan-fiction'. Totally new stories, but so copyright infringing they'd be too expensive to publish (die Publishing company, die). Character bios are here, and the stories can be found here. Go... you want to, yesss... Heh.
Quiz, folks. Pop-quiz, hot-shot. Whatcha gonna do?: Tuesday, May 13, 2003
You expect actual personal information from me? Hah. I think not. Instead I shall give you a character Quiz I personally designed based off my Dark Realm universe of characters. Including the character which has my name, my avatar.
So here's how the quiz will work. I'll post the ten questions and eight options each below. Then you can email me at cyrex_wingblade@hotmail.com (that's an underscore between the names), and I'll send you back you result/description. Sorry, no graphics.
If there's a question you can't find a real answer option that applies to you, please just pick the closest one. This is not exact, and you shouldn't take it very seriously anyway, but it's important to have ten answers or the scoring it totally messed up.
The Dark Realm Character Quiz:
1) The companion you are traveling with suddenly sprang his or her ankle. You:
a: immediately move to help without complaint or expecting thanks.
b: empathize as you help tend to the injury.
c: ask if he or she is hurt on instinct, then you help tend the injury.
d: politely make him or her comfortable before tending to the injury
e: (assuming you could) pick him or her up and carry them to the nearest treatment area
f: admonish him or her for slipping, but then help.
g: Inquire if he or she can walk, then either lead the way onward, or carry him or her to your destination
h: Feel guilty and responsible on instinct, then help and heal the injury.
2) (Assuming you would fight) If your comrade and yourself were split up during a battle and you heard them shout and go silent, you would:
a: Clear a path to her or him instantly and calmly, you weren’t using your power before.
b: Leap over the remaining foes between you both and come to her or his aid.
c: Slip through the foes to your comrade immediately.
d: Out of necessity, use a powerful blast of power at your disposal to clear a path.
e: Grow angry to some extent and ram through to your comrade.
f: Become greatly annoyed at your comrade, but then skillfully move over to her or him through the melee
g: Deal with your foes first, then tend to the enemies around the comrade, if s/he is still alive.
h: Grow furious and ram all of enemies away with sheer force of power, rushing to your comrade.
3) When it comes to scenery, you prefer:
a: Blue sky, some clouds, plains of greenery
b: Anything comfortable and enjoyable, which would be almost anything with good friends.
c: Enjoy clear sky, but are mostly indifferent.
d: Enjoy both rain and clear sky, knowing how to appreciate both.
e: Take it as it comes, you’re usually looking to the next goal or chore.
f: Rain, thick clouds, plenty of shadow, and wind with lightning.
g: Night.
h: Anything so long as those you care for are content.
4) Your greatest personal short-coming is closest to which of the following?
A: little sense of self-worth.
B: almost too humble.
C: feel weaker than you are, that you should be stronger for some reason.
D: not enough control over the focuses of your emotions.
E: fear of failure.
F: arrogant, prideful.
G: Cold, callous, unfeeling.
H: Over-ridden with guilt, finding it very difficult to accept forgiveness from others
5) Your favorite texture is:
a: anything gentle or soft, welcoming.
b: worn, old shirt under your hands in an embrace.
c: anything smooth and soft.
d: cool or smooth, or both.
e: fluid, water.
f: leather; smooth, tight, and soft.
g: indifferent.
h: soft hair.
6) Your view towards fighting or violence in general is closest to which of the following?
A: Strange and foolish, but sometimes forced.
B: Only in defense of those you care for.
C: When the innocent are suffering.
D: When you feel you are needed to help fight.
E: Sometimes people will not listen to reason.
F: Splendid fun, an art of dance.
G: Necessity.
H: A necessary evil at times.
7) Of the following abilities or lists of abilities, which would you most prefer?
A: An impenetrable shield and vast energy powers.
B: Almost invincible bodily, very fast, and with natural fighting ability.
C: Only liquid metal and martial arts.
d: Pyro-kinetics and martial arts
e: Telekinetics and martial arts
F: Magic and graceful melee combat, like dancing.
G: Immense magical power and a large blade.
H: Lots of weapons, powers, liquid metal, and martial arts.
8) What kind of relationship is the most valuable to you?
a: the other sees immense value in you.
b: the other has kindness, warmth, and is easy to be with in silence.
c: shared support and sincere affection.
d: shared open-ness, sincerity, and an ability to forgive mistakes.
e: mutual respect, affection, and humor.
f: the other respects you and your wishes, but their suggestions are always on the mark.
g: honor, duty, and efficiency. An ally.
h: deep forgiveness in the other towards your actions, given unconditionally and sincerely.
9) If you knew a delicate piece of information about a friend, would you:
a: keep it private, but on mind in case this friend needs help on it later.
b: keep it private and speak with them about it, offering support.
c: consider revealing it, depending on what is involved.
d: keep it very private and let she or he reveal it, but remain supportive and kind to him or her.
e: keep it private and let him or her bring it up again if s/he wants help. Better to stay out of it.
f: smile privately at the humor in revealing it to everyone, but then dismiss it and move on.
g: forget it afterwards, there are more important things.
h: discuss the issue with him or her until a possible conclusion can be aimed toward and set out for.
10) Do you see yourself as:
a: Perceptive and quiet
b: Caring and compassionate
c: Well loved
d: Somewhat misguided, but doing your best and back on the right track
e: Perhaps too callous externally, but at heart you are deeply compassionate
f: Powerful and beautiful, commanding of respect and attention without effort
g: Powerful, intelligent, determined
h: Ridden with deep feelings of guilt, but also gratitude.
So email me the results! See above for address. And a reminder to check the below additions in case you missed them. There's some interesting stuff down there, especially if you like online quizzes.
Wow, an update: Monday, May 12, 2003
I took the Dante's Inferno Test which my friend Abe enjoyed. Some of the questions got me pretty bad, reminding me of my need for Confession and some more powerful self-discipline, but here's the 'paste this in your blog' thingy:
The Dante's Inferno Test has sent you to Purgatory!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:
Take the Dante's Inferno Test
Likely has a like to itself in their somewhere, they all do.
A few words of wisdom for today:
"There remains for us only the very narrow way, often extremely difficult to find, of living every day as though it were our last, and yet living in faith and responsibility as though there were to be a great future."
--Dietrich Bonhoeffer
The personal info you likely desire out of boredom:
-took a physics 1 AP exam. It was long, tiring, and the free-response was difficult.
-Talked to Evan, one of my best friends, on the phone for the first time in a while.
-Am tired.
Since I'm here, I will go ahead and post several other character/net quiz results I've recieved. Enjoy:
What type of Bishounen are you? Find out at artificial-soul.net by Rin.
What's YOUR Writing Style?
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What Kind of Anime Character Are You?
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find your element
at mutedfaith.com.
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Wolf. You like your solitude.
What Is Your Animagus?
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You are Storm!
You are very strong and very protective of those
you love. You are in tune with nature and are
very concerned with justice and humanity.
Unfortunately, certain apprehensions and fears
are very hard for you to overcome, and can
often inhibit you when most need to be strong.
Which X-Men character are you most like?
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I will look over these again, but I recall most of them seeming fairly accurate, on both the good and bad, but then, they always do, don't they? At least for some.
Ad meiorum Dei gloriam
So check this out: Sunday, May 11, 2003
Alright, I'll give this thing a real shot, how about that?
Fascinating little things, these 'blogs'. I get to watch all of my friends through their own eyes, and they don't even understand the possible advantage that would give me over them. Not that I'd use it, but I don't like leaving myself open like that, so I don't understand when others do. Just love different perspectives, right?
Hehehe...
So ka. I finished a story last night, there's your useless fact for the day. I tweaked it a little this morning, and am now proofing it for final turn-in to my creative writing class.
Writing has been my hobby for a long time now. Hehehe, perhaps too long...
As you'll notice, the title of this place is the Dark Realm, but also goes by 'Objective Reality'. Not the best title for a personal blog, you might think, but one tries to be objective.
If you're reading this, you're obviously mildly curious about me (and extemely bored), so let me save you the effort. I enjoy my privacy, and I keep most of my feelings to myself until they are necessary to reveal. Why am I so odd? I'd rather be healthy than normal, and there's a big different between those two states of being, keep that in mind.
This person's rambling is very odd, in case you hadn't noticed. I have odd segments to my personality that put me in 'moods', which make one specific action immensely desirable above all others. At the moment it's blog-writing after a session of absorbing the raw information all my friends feel like pasting all over the internet in their own blogs.
The real point of today's entry? To establish this blog. I may tweak this place more and more as time goes by, like most blog-users, but I may not. Honestly the ability to care for such a thing is not in my entity.
Word to the wise. Pray. Pray a lot. Don't stop, just Pray. When you notice little things just falling into place for you, Grace is moving through your life.
*shakes head* They really shouldn't have given me access to this. P|-|34r /\/\y a|_|t|-|0r|ty!!! Or p0\/\/3r. I have plenty of both that many should be skippy about.
More importantly? P|-|34r |-||5 p0\/\/3r. Yesss...
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