-11:06 p.m. on Monday, July 30, 2001:

wow....alot happened today or at least it felt really long for some reason...it started of at like 7:30 when my mom woke me up for my first day at drivers ed. it was cool but really long..z.zz....if ya know what i meen and that didnt get over till like 3:00 pm...i had my friend matt take it with me though...so he made it a bit funner.after that a couple of my other friends and i went kanal surfing and man did we get torn up! well i didnt but usally i never do that bad but today it all payed off. on the way back from the canal i was riding my friends GoPed with my other friend Derek (aka furious D....lol...) and he told me to get in the street cause theres lots of trees on the sidewalk and i did (and this was a busy street sorta) and we were driving almost full throttle and we hit this curb thing or something and man did we fly,we flew strait into the concrete street, well atleast i did, he fley on top of me,and as he was falling he pushed my head down and my chin just ripped along the ground as my shoulder (i wasnt wearing a shirt)dragged along with my wrists and fingers.i got pretty torn up today, but it was fun, exept for the puncture in my chin witch started to drip blood, and my shoulder witch is completely scraped,every inch ,and my wrist wich has a big gash in it. i also banged my nees but there not bad at all.(thank god).well that was my adventure for today ....see ya all tommarow!!!

-Signed: Cody - the book


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-02:03 a.m. on Saturday, July 28, 2001:

Today, i braded my hair, it looks cool. its late..

-Signed: Cody - the book


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-11:51 p.m. on Thursday, July 26, 2001:

GRRRRRRRRR.......why does every little part of my life not make since. its like i have no control over any thing exept front row seats to "MY LIFE". all i do is watch my life exept there no rewinding to watch things over, and theres no fast forward to get things over with......i feel like i have no life, but for some reason i feel like sometimes i change others. sometimes i probably do change others exept mine! i live the same life every day, see the same people, visit the same houses. say the same words, even watch the same things on TV every single day. is my life going to end this way? because this is the way it begun...i just wish it would change. i just wish everything would just change.........

-Signed: Cody - the book


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-11:08 p.m. on Tuesday, July 24, 2001:

tommarow im leeving to a friends house, a friend that i havnt seen for like 10 months. ill be back on saterday.hes my old neighbor that ive know since i was like 3. he moved away and when he did everything seemed to happen real fast and it didnt hit me till a wile after he moved, i felt bad and was angry at myself, for not caring, for not shedding a tear. i should of done something more than what i did just a little bit more and that would make me feel better. cause all i did was nothing. i guess and figure im not good with good byes. i try to be but it just dosnt happen. its like when you try to dance and you want to be good but you just cant pick up the rythem to the beat. maybe someday ill be good with good byes. but i dont think it will happen anytime soon. i wish i would of been better with good byes earlier, i messed up big. i wanted to say alot of stuff to alot of people but my mind just freezes up on me and i cant talk. theres alot of people i feel like i just left them behind, with thoughts, and erdges of thing they wish they would of done if i was still there, but i find myself doing that alot. almost to much.some people tell me that they hate them selves, i dont hate myself but im angry at myself,angry for not saying anything when everyones hoping that ill say something that will change everything............. but i still say nothing at all.even if im never gonna see them ever again. i do nothing. so if youve never met me and you do oneday dont expect a good goodbye, ill try but be warned. im sorry..... and .......................................................................Good Bye..........

-Signed: Cody - the book


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-11:09 p.m. on Monday, July 23, 2001:

"life is really werird,you know, how it works and stuff." sometimes its exiting, sometimes its frightning, scary, romantic, beautiful, ugly, lucky, unlucky, CONFUSING, IRRITATING, smooth, TERRIFING, happy, and all types of other things. but the weirdest ones are LOVE & HATE. how do they work. rite know my life is all of the above. but mostly confusing. i sometimes feel like i need to run away and not come back till im ready to experince my lifes turning points and changes. but other times i just want to crash down into a pit thats immpossable to get out of and screem for help any way!, just to know that some one cares for me. this whole passage is probably confussing who ever reads it.... im sorry for wasting your time with this............ill just end now..................

-Signed: Cody - the book


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-01:41 a.m. on Saturday, July 21, 2001:

ok... im know i havnt wrote anything for awile, but,ive been pretty busy. i had a great time doing everything that i did. i did so much and had so many new experiences i dont know were to start. i met some people that i had a really good time with... they may not know it but they really opened me up and i dont think i can thank them enough for it.....ever....well thank you very much all of you that i met in these past four or five weeks, you should know who you are(especially those of EFY). thank you again for everything. your all great, i wish we could have like a reunion thing but i know thats never gonna happen.but that dosnt mean i cant stop thinking about it!........

-Signed: Cody - the book


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-06:49 p.m. on Saturday, June 30, 2001:

ok... im in St. George Utah and today something really scary and emotional happened to me. me my sister my mom,dad grandma, and grandpa were all at this dinasour tracks thing wich is supposed to be the biggest, or longest ones ever discovered, ever, any were and its like 110'degrees or hotter outside. i considder myself pretty white but compared to my sisiter im pretty tan, thats how white she is, and she cant handle heat very well and me and my parents are looking at some fossil things and my grandma comes up and says to my mom "your dauters not looking very well..." and we look over at her and start walking towards her and as we got closer i could see her face and skin paling out and getting whiter, and whiter as if she was dieing and her lips were white, everything from bottom to top was white, and this is like paper white. we screem "ABBY!.. ABBY!.." she couldnt even barly answer us! it was like the life was being sucked out of her and was showing no mercy at all! then everyone was panicking and my mom and i tried to pick her up, i grabed one arm, my mom, the other and my sister couldnt walk or any thing. it was like dragging someone that was dieing that you loved so much around and and letting that person die bit by bit, in fact that was exactly what it was.... she was dieing and there was nothing i could do.... then everything started happening so fast and eventally my dad took her and i was behind trying to figure what was going on and i couldnt think...i couldnt really help her or anything.. all i could do is watch. then the most scariest thing happened they were trying to get her to the car and her head fell back like she was looking at me upside down and i saw here eyes roll back in her head and i wanted to scream. i didnt want to let her go. shes a much better person than ill ever be and i wanted to give her my life but i couldnt... i couldnt do any of this...this is my only, 11 year old sister in front of me so close to dieing again! finaly we got her back to the car and sat her down in the front and turned the a/c on her. she could only wisper.... my heart was pounding a mile a minute as i sat in the back of the car (van). and thank god she started regaing conciousness back and the color in her face started coming back and i was so happy!and now i really know how much i really love my sister. i guess that saying "you never know how much you love something untill its gone" is true..... i love my sister no matter how much she pisses me off, and im glad shes ok.she still feels a little sick but at least shes going to be ok!..................

-Signed: Cody - the book


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-11:28 p.m. on Thursday, June 28, 2001:

sometimes i take things for granet and i am so lucky to have the coolest brothers EVER! especially my brother logan hes always been there for me and been there to help me out thank you Logan.......... and i love ya bro..............

-Signed: Cody - the book


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-08:57 p.m. on Thursday, June 28, 2001:

tomarrow i leave on a trip that will last for 3 weeks.im going far away to utah, then im going to a beach called San Clemente(its near LA). so far my summers been alright i sorta miss alot of people though already. especially my friends from school that i havnt seen for awile.well i guess i would just like to say good bye to every one....... have a nice summer without me........... ..... .. .

-Signed: Cody - the book


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-01:00 a.m. on Thursday, June 28, 2001:

sign my book please!!!!!!!!!!..... or whatever?

-Signed: Cody - the book


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-12:12 a.m. on Thursday, June 28, 2001:

have you ever been on a plane on a really cloudy day, its really pretty and cool it looks like a large white world without problems and holes in the ground made out of glass. i wished i lived there

-Signed: Cody - the book


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-12:00 a.m. on Thursday, June 28, 2001:

Today i got home from some where i didnt really want to leave.... but i did. i had alot of fun and got to get to know some people alot better that i already should of known pretty well.i hung out with my cousin tyler. hes one of the coolest(radest)persons i know, and my grandpa..........so cool, but soon ill probably never get to talk to so i talked to him as much as i could.

-Signed: Cody - the book


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-01:41 a.m. on Wednesday, June 27, 2001:

This is my first entry. yahoo! and a YEE HAW!

-Signed: Cody - the book


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