Tuesday, February 17, 2004 - 12:11 p.m.
Waaah! You're so LOVABLE! Everybody likes you,
because you're a great person to have around
and it's always happy about everything ^^.
congrats! and...can I hug you?? plz! ^///^
Yet another personality test ^-^ (nice anime pics!) NEW outcome!!
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Monday, February 9, 2004 - 10:56 a.m.
Having already taken my first chapter test in japanese (that class has more of a feeling of "high school" to me than any of my others) and then I've taken my first of 3 exams in psychology.
*sighs* Purdue places all your grades onto 3 measley little exams. And to make it worse, they leave you no room for error. (at least in math anyway)
My psychology class's exams are each 50 questions long, meaning that if your memory slips and you forget something you can miss a question or two and still pass with a pretty nice grade.
But math here is an evil demon. They give you 3 exams (plus a final).... the exams are only 15 questions. meaning that if you miscalculate and start missing any... your grade is going down the toliet.
I think that's why I hate all my classes but japanese... all my other classes base your grade solely on a few tests. Whereas japanese, you get several tests, quizzes, homeworks and extra credit opportunities to play a role in your grade.
Because in my other classes, you fail one exam... you are pretty much screwed of even HOPING to pass the class. In japanese, if you fail a test, it hurts your grade sure, but you have plenty of other things pulling in towards your grade that you can still pass.
I mean, I was half-asleep when i took one of my japanese tests (i failed it cause of that) and if it wouldn't have been for my getting sick and missing the last about 2 and a half weeks of class, I would have had a B in there. (in jap you're allowed 5 absences... after the 5th one they take 1% off your grade for each missed day - think about it... how many days did I miss? And I still managed a C....)
...wah. Chibi wishes she was a better test taker. But, since all my classes depend on that, Chibi has a tough time here. I guess I'll have to learn to adapt, I suppose.
In other news, the "Knight in shining armor" was kicked off his horse and trampled upon by it. *quirks* This idiot, who hung around me and my koibito all the time last semester supposedly "hadn't a clue" that we were going out.
He even ACCUSED me of not telling him. "Why didn't you tell me!!" he screams. *buh-link* How much more fucking evidence do you want pal? Did we have to go around hand-in-hand skipping and singing "WE'RE GOING OUT!!! WE'RE GOING OUT!!! WEEEEEEE!!!!" *sweatdrops* It's not like we're hiding it.... but it's not like that just because we are that we are obligated by some law to go around and make SURE that everyone KNOWS about it. We tell you or we don't. That's our business. You find out on your own, or you create random silences when you finally figure it out.... either way.
So, now knowing that I'm not in fact single... he seems to have retreated into the shadows.... for now. I think he took it far too easily too quickly if I don't say so myself. He all wants to be friends again, but he never talks to me much now, whereas before he would try to soak up as much attention from me as he could.
And to add to that, we're supposed to be going to an Evanescence concert.... and spending the night at monkeydude's house. *quirks* I wasn't too crazy about that part of the plan... I mean they didn't want to have to come up with money for a hotel.... (it'll be me and 3 others... monkeydude is one of the 3)
My parents of course HATE the idea. They ranted at me about it and then went "Ultimately we have to trust your best judgement" but in my parent's talke that means "You go to that mother fucking concert and we'll never trust you to make an adult decision about anything ever again"
*sighs*
I mean, I don't WANT to be a hermit here on campus, but there's really not much else for me to do here. All the people I know here are guys, I haven't yet met a tolerable female to date that I could become friends with.....one HAS to be out there damnit. And I get told I should come to a concert with people I've been hanging out with for quite some time now, and all of a sudden my parents think that they're magically gonna change and rape me or something. With this group.... I hardly doubt it. They're a bit on the weird side... but I wouldn't say they're dangerous. (that and they say that even if they DID think about trying to pull something they'd be too afraid my koibito would come back and kick their asses when he got back from Basic, because they know that sure as hell he'd find out about it ^^;;)
Hmmm.... I'm not too sure what Michael do if something like that happened.... All I'd know for sure if that he would not be a happy camper.... he'd probably even feel bad that he wasn't there to stop it. *smiles softly* He is such a sweetie you know.
I may be a Chibi... but I'm not completely defenseless you know. My parents think I'm completely uncapable of taking care of myself. Well news flash for them, wh oin the hell do they think took care of me when they completely disappeared off the face of the Earth my 8th grade year through about sophmore year? Yeah, my mom may have been at my aunt's house helping to take care of her while she had cancer.... I understood that. But, seeing as my good ole dad thought it was more important to always go and keep mommy dearest company ALL THE DAMN TIME.
What about chibi? Couldn't I even get ONE day? Just one? Oh no.... Chibi wanted something... Chibi had to do it herself. Chibi wanted food, she most times had to WALK about a mile to the store and about a mile back, just so I could fucking eat. It got to the point that I got tired of walking so damned much I just pretty much stopped eating much of anything.
But who cares, right? Chibi's still alive, right?
And who took care of Chibi when she'd get terribly ill? CHIBI. Why? Because no one else was fucking around. Being violently sick is bad enough.... being that its bad enough that your mom still believes your faking it, thus no doctor's visit and being no one was around when Chibi needed some help because she'd go through bouts of weakness. Who cares, right?
Who gives a flying leap about da Chibi around here?
I got so used to taking care of myself, that I basically turned away from other people. THAT'S why I lost my "people person" personality. My mom told me the other day "Whatever happened to you? You used to be so friendly and outgoing!" Well, you know what? You try randomly fending for yourself one day for about 3 years and let's see how people person-y YOU'D be.
*sighs* I haven't a clue why I started ranting about that... it does me no good to scream about something I can't change. But, during those 3 years because I took care of myself.... everyone started believing I was just fine on my own. So when my parents DID come back.... they still pretty much left me alone because I did everything for myself now anyway. I fed myself, got myself up, did my laundry... etc... etc.... they no longer had any role in my life. It took me quite a while to even TALK to them again cause I was so used to being in the house all by myself.
*smirks* Oh, did I happen to mention that around the time of my parents "disappearance" in my 8th grade year was the SAME year I picked up my anime/video game habit? So guess what I was doing through the long nights. Toonami by day (since that's all I had) and video gaming by night.
I still do that too.... except Toonami.... I've grown and improved and had sought out other and better things to watch (as anime is the only thing I watch on my t.v.... except for my few movie DVDs I own... otherwise my t.v. is solely a gaming tool - muwhahahaha)
So that's one of the reasons Chibi appreciates da Mikey.... he was the first person to sit with me as I burned through a fever.... or just sat with me even though I refused to talk because doing so hurt a hella lot since i had a bad throat infection.... or even if it was a minor thing, and I was just kinda tired.... Nurse Helen to save the day. ^_^
I admit, before him, my mom used to sit with me when I was sick.... like back when I was 2. But it was kinda odd getting used to having something there when I was hurting. Cause when I get sick.... its a doozy. I literally have to flirt with death everytime I get sick. It's FUN... FUN I say!!! *coughs* Um... yeah.
Although it sucks cause mikey NEVER gets sick >.>;;; Well, it doesn't suck for him, obviously.... but some people are just not that lucky yo.I remember when I used to not get sick.... dem where da days... *grins crookedly*
Anyhoo, I've self-pitied myself long enough. I'm da Chibi I am cause of all that crap. I'm living with it, even if it does bother me on a few rare occasions.
But anyway, this here Chibi is gonna go eat as this here Chibi doesn't to that much here as Purdue doesn't time their dining court hours right for chibi's class schedule so chibi doesnt eat much desu ne....
I'm gonna shrink away!!!! o.o;;;
Nah, probably not.... I'd find food.... somewhere.... Sunday, January 25, 2004 - 12:36 p.m. As it seems, monkeydude, (he's too much in a retarded mental state to be respected enough to be called by his name at this point in history) is no longer posting in his journal (i did tell him i've read it, afterall) and he gets so depressed that he leaves whiny little away messages talking about how he "doesn't have the will to stay awake"
He's been doing this for the majority of last semester.... it's now officially sprung into this semester.
And why?
Because this chibi has had enough.... she's tired of always being the nice one. I'm tired of always thinking and calculating my words just so so that everything turns out happy in the end for the other guy, and being left to sit back and hate myself, knowing that that person believes it to be all right, when da chibi is left to know otherwise.
I'm tired of all that.
And so, without much grace inflected onto her words, da chibi snapped towards monkeydude, (as i predicted i probably would), I was still civil mind you, I wasn't capitalizing all my words or anything at him (we were talking through AIM.... it was really late at night....) if it would have been in person I probably would have gone insane at the whole convo we had and would have began laughing hysterically in his face, to turn around and watch him cry.
And sadly enough, at that point, on that night.... da chibi would probably have found GREAT satisfaction in watching him break down and cry. I would have soaked it in.
...the chibi is slowly becoming evil and demented in the mind....
Any other time in my life, if such an occurance were to happen, this chibi would have broke down and cried for her inthoughtfulness. That was a bit too naive of a thing to do, but to so quickly change from that to wanting to revel in someone else's pain....
Chibi isn't quite sure she likes that...
Or hopefully it's just in this situation.... I've allowed him to tromple over me and my feelings without so much as flinching in his direction. He has already abused, misreated, insulted, and ripped upon my intelligence and feelings.
Because as i've come to realize....(by reading his journal) that he's very selfish. (not to say that i've never been, but i'm not THIS extreme... i only have my few moments) He wants everything to happen for him.... just the way HE wants it... and if it doesn't happen that way, then by god, the world is against him, and he's depressed and he doesn't understand the universe at all.
Please DO note, that this child DOES actually and factually go on walks to "figure out how the universe works"
....and sadly enough he actually expects to get a full out clear answer.
The universe and everything in it, is far too great and ever changing, like all things to EVER be fully understood.... especially by just one lil person. To actually think that it would be possible to do such a thing..... not just to wonder about it from time to time, but to TRUELY BELIEVE you can figure everything out in just one little walk around the block....
*gives a low whistle*
Maybe someone will have such a revelation one day.... i'll give out enough optimism for that one. But seriously and TRUELY folks.... monkeydude in the end, just needs to realize the world doesn't circle around him.... that the world is NOT a fairytale story that will automatically give EVERYONE a happy ending or life for that matter.... and that you can't expect everything to just happen to you.
You have to go OUT and do it.
This is not to say that I have the best, happiest life in the world, that I understand all and EVERYONE should listen and abide by me.
I think not.
It's simply that, a person's life is what they make of it... if you sit on yer ass, waiting for everything to happen to and for you. You're either gonna 1.) be one of those lucky people that it actually works out for OR 2.) You are going to end up sitting around hating yourself because you're all depressed because you aren't happy... you're all alone... nothing is like it's suppose to be....
WHINE WHINE WHINE
On the other hand, just because you go out and work and try and do things out in the wide world, doesn't mean you'll get everything you want. BUT because you are actually out trying and working for it.... you have so much of a better chance of finding something fulfilling in your life than if you chose to sit on yer bum and wait for it to happen to you.
Who knows, maybe if you went out working towards one goal.... it may help you find something else out there in that life of yours that's more to your liking... or something to that effect.
Life has so many opportunities.... drawbacks... letdowns.... and doors to open for something new and maybe precious....
Life is not something that can nor ever be completely understood... although I won't say that it's impossible... because for each person life means something completely different. It's for each person to decide and figure out for themselves.
And I'm sorry.... but currently the monkeydude with his "I want to be a knight in shining armor riding around on his white horse" notions... living fully in his fairytale world.... he was even TRUELY believing that I was his damsel in distress (thus why he always wanted to "take care of michael" i guess my sweet koibito was his "dragon" *rolls eyes*) but you know what....
.... I just had to knock him off his horse.
I am NOT his one true love, that he so passionately believes I am. WE were not meant to be together. He needs to get his imaginary thoughts outta his damn head.
I am not for him to control. I am not his for the taking.
I decide (or have a say in the matter - lol) the person I believe I would let do those things... well, maybe not the control part. Never let anyone CONTROL me. (not that i'm a wild vagabond in the first place - lol)
Anyway... I'm done ranting for now. Maybe i'll turn on my little tape recorder and finish this little rant vocally.... i've found it to be ever so much fun.. and then just LISTENING to myself afterwards is so funny... cause then i either realize "wow, i'm smarter than i thought i was!" or "Damn, when did i get to be THAT stupid o.o;;;"
Anyway, offical end of rant now. This Chibi is going off "towards the sunset".... *coughs* Thursday, January 22, 2004 - 10:01 p.m. Simply put, I finally got into it with monkeydude... hell, for kicks lets call him by his name.... Josh.
And not meaning to be all childish and pointing fingers... but he started it. He's the one that started talking to me after all.
And I kinda stupidly let on that I read his web-journal... the one i had been know to post quotes and such from time to time.
And being the true gothic, depressive... whatever you wanna call it... he's fallen back into a state of full depression - I've crushed his little soul.
Should I feel bad about it? One part of me really wants me to break down and feel the pain I've cause.... another part is telling that otherside to "shut the fuck up"... i think the second feeling is winning out. I'm tired of shading over the truth to keep others happy in their own lil world.
All the while my world crumbles around me. But who cares, right? As long as the other guy is happy cause i didn't say what I should have.... then it's all okie dokie.
I suppose I'm glad that the first battle is over.... but with his clingy-ness I hardly think that was the end of it.
...who knows, by the end of it all I might actually really need counseling.
Just lovely. Wednesday, January 21, 2004 - 07:44 p.m. The reason? Well, knowing what a rambler I am... (i prove it time and time again) I feel that it might be bad of me to be constantly sending me koibito 'books' to read. ^_^;;; so I send him a condensed version of what's happened over the week or the past few days. I know that since he has basic training and all that he's not really going to have time to respond, so i figure that if i kept up a more detailed journal for him to flip through and browse if he so desires, that that'll be better than sending him a stuffed envelope everyday. (although i'm sure he'd love to hear from me a lot... i would feel a little bad ^^;;;)
I'm also going to be starting to do what i call "voice rants". You're probably thinking "...huh?" right? well, i've been told by a few people (the ones that I'm close to) that when I get into a rant... that its pretty damn funny. Because on certain things and certain topics, even if i'm completely WRONG I can rant my way through a completely BELIEVEABLE logic, that'll make you start to doubt what you thought to be true.
Now, I don't always do this.... but I've been thinking that after how many times i've been told "you should write a book" or "you should record your conversations sometime.. they're pretty interesting" I'm now kinda considering it. I mean, what else am i going to do in my free time since i'm not a big social butterfly?
Who knows.... mabye one day one of my rants will crack me up enough that i'll post it on the web. then everyone else can either roll their eyes at me or laugh... whatever.
And that, as I say,.... is that. Monday, January 19, 2004 - 09:44 p.m. Dumbasses who pee in trash cans.... *growls*Rawrrrrrrrr
So, my floor was charged $150
And I think i'm suffering from sleep deprivation.... my roomie truely is a nice person (even if I feel really young considering she told me she was a senior and was only 23 >.o)
So sleepy....so tired... gonna fall over now Friday, January 16, 2004 - 05:40 p.m. I got me first letter from da koibito last night! ^_^!!! I was a little despondent at the time when I went to check my mail, but as I around the corner and peeped in and saw an envelope I prayed to high heavens it wasn't for "Bert" as I call the guy I have to share my mailbox with.
Buwhahahahaha!!! I dun care how many people last night thought I was psycho "crazy go nuts" for happily clutching the letter from me koibito.... well, actually I do that everytime someone I know sends me a letter since people don't tend to write me EVER.... *sweatdrops* But this letter was super special, so it got a lot of my attention and my energy in celebrating it's arrival ^^
I have been doing a good job of playing the studious, attentive student this week.... until today *sweatdrops increase* I stayed up all night writing a reply letter that I didn't go to sleep until REALLY late, and friday is the only day of course that I have to wake up before the sun rises. *sighs* So i missed all my classes today except my japanese class.
And everyone from the other japanese section is realizing that Endo-sensei is the T.A. in my section and it feels like everyone is switching to me class just to be taught by Endo-sensei. *bows before the almighty Endo-sensei* If he's not planning on being a teacher later in life as his job.... HE REALLY SHOULD. He is absolutely AWESOME.
....O_O!!! damn... if my parents didn't just make feel me like the dumbest person alive just now. They bought and sent me a Algebra for Dummies book *sweatdrops multiply*
...whatever helps me remember.... i suppose. *quirks*
Now understand, that YES I did fail horribly in my math class last semester.... only because I'll admit that I haven't had math in over 2 years. I used to be able to do all this stuff... really... i promise. But I can't seem to pull the math database out from the dark depths of my brain for whatever reason. >.o
Anyway, gonna do some other stuff now.... ja mata ne minnasan!! Thursday, January 15, 2004 - 06:05 p.m. was talking to da Jarad, (guy i know here at purdue) and we made da plans for our version of anime club. wootabagen. *quirks* i'll be damned if outta all the things I could have picked up from michael... it had to be saying his word "wootabagen" o.o;;;
it seems like its gonna be the same people.... josh included. *sighs* just as long as i don't get the looks, sighs or a forced conversation from him... it'll all be ok.
...i think?
anyway, i have that to look forward to now..... ahhh... starting next week... anime every week on thursday.... buwhahahahahahaha!!!
*ahem*
Anyhoos, thursday is the day i have nothing to do.... and i really don't know what i want to do at the moment.... gah.
Get a load of me, get a load of you Oh, what this is just the beginning Isn't this the best part of breaking up? Here we go, we're at the beginning High enough for you to make me wonder Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you? Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you? Whenever I think about you Thursday, January 15, 2004 - 12:24 p.m. blah, the stinky, wears the same thing to school everyday kid that only owns one pair of socks (i'm not making any of this up, he confessed it to me at Anime Club when I still went long long ago) and the very same kid that kept getting closer and closer to me and about was trying to lay his head in my lap.
THAT lysol boy.... THE lysol boy.
That in itself made me wanna seriously think of switching class sections.... but then da sensei walked in and who was it...?
ENDO-SENSEI!!! WOOTABAGEN!!! *cheers* See, Endo-sensei was the other T.A. besides the one that I had last semester for jap 101 for our class time. He was the T.A. that knew how to teach.... he's the T.A. that KNOWS english and speaks it almost PERFECTLY.
And by GODS, this man actually has a personality. *is still waiting for the shock to fade away*
I mean, don't get me wrong.... Ikeda-sensei was a nice guy... and he really did try. But he was rather quiet and shy ( i think mostly because of his lack of knowing english and HAVING to use a lot of it...) I probably would have understood and learned more from Ikeda if i had been in a higher jap class... which did did teach a higher lvl jap class... but whatever.
anyway.... the first week of classes is going all right i suppose. i'm basically starting again at square one because da mikey is not here, and everyone that i know here is friends with josh.... and i don't think its possible for me and josh to be friends again if he cant accept and let go of the fact that there's nothing of the romantic nature between us. and since he's usually around the other people that i know, that means being around them means most likely being around him, and that's just not gonna work for me.
I'll reconsider being his friend once he's cleared up his emotional issues he seems to be dealing with and taking pretty hard. And I don't think that me being around him at this point of time would do him or me any good. actually, from my observation, me being around is very bad.
And so, I have been a devoted academic hermit. The only times I am around other people is when i'm in class and out around campus. As soon as class is over I eat and usually come back to the dorm to do some hard-core studying.
I know that I told Michael that I wouldn't become a hermit and I would still get out and do stuff.... but I have more classes than I did this past semester. And being that I'm on academic probation and currently hold a GPA of 1.08 here *sweatdrops* (I am the dumbest creature alive) I have sold my soul to the academic gods of death and i'm determined to pass all my classes this semester.
And I fear that if I don't keep up my regular hard-core studying and completing of assignments that i've kinda been doing here these past few days that i'll revert back to laziness.... being that I really have no friends (here or in ohio doesn't matter da chibi has never held a friend for very long ever in her life for reasons somewhat unknown to her) and since i'm really not into the whole "activity/club" things if i revert to laziness i'll sit in my dorm room.... ultimately become depressed and then everything will go downhill.
As I see it, with all the classes I have now... all the social interaction I get within the classroom and from talking here and there with my roomie
I think she's really homesick... and being that she doesn't understand "fast" english very well she doesn't pick up on what her profs are saying in their lectures entirely.... she was telling me last night that in her one class they had to do group work and she asked the girls in her group what the prof had said, explained she didn't understand everything he said that he talked too fast... and those jackasses looked at her like she was stupid *fumes* I don't really know her very well, but she's so nice.... she seemed so upset and talked about how she was so embarrassed and that she was thinking of dropping the course because of it.
I felt so bad for her. I mean, I wouldn't know personally... but i can kinda understand how it would feel to be in a new place out by yourself and and then to have people treat and look at you like you were stupid.... that's so rude. I try to speak slowly and use fairly simple words when i talk to my roomie... not to insult her intelligence... not because i thinks she's stupid.... but because going through help Ikeda-sensei with his english and him helping up with jap (as a teacher for a jap course should ^^;;;) i understand how hard it is to understand a language you don't know very well... especially if they are speaking it quickly.
well anyway.... i dont remember if i was making a point somewhere in that or not.... but I must prepare to head out for me jap class that's at 1:30.... I have to leave at 1:00 or a little after so that i will make it by then.
We start chapter 7 today and have vocab quiz tomorrow.... oh joyous days. after jap class the hard-core study mode will have to be put back into effect.
*sighs* and i'll have to go down and check my mailbox later tonight. I've been trying to make it a point to check my mail everyday since I've returned from Purdue... to see if da Mikey finally got a bit of time to drop a note sending me his address in S. Carolina. *sniffles* I still haven't gotten anything.. and i'm hoping he didn't address it to "Chibi" because then the stupid people in the mailing room wouldn't probably put it in my box. *sighs again*
Now i'm depressed.... i'm all sad..... very much missing of da koibito. studying is now the only thing to help keep my mind off my heart's lonliness.... i mean, i myself am not really feeling too lonesome, since i talk a bit in my english class (the teacher is hilarious) and my jap class is full of nice people that i talk to and i can joke with them and Endo-sensei (excluding lysol boy)... psychology is BORING and math just sucks. especially since i have it in the morning again. and then occasionally i have a nice lil chat with my roomie.
so socially i'm not lonely.... i really do understand when mikey said to me long long ago (like october/november this past year) "i don't want to get involved with anyone here since i'll be leaving at the end of the semester. I just don't think it would be fair for me or for her."
Of course even though that was said and i understood it then... and i understood it still now, we got close and started going out anyway. and even though i miss him terribly... i think knowing that we kinda took a risk and talked and got closer to each and everything knowing that he was leaving.... I think I would rather miss him and know truely how we feel between the two of us... than be sitting here missing him and never knowing for sure.
Because though I love and miss him terribly.... at least I know for SURE that for him, it's the same way. Monday, January 12, 2004 - 05:21 p.m. I never knew that 16 credit hours would = a TON of books
I was studying and going over da school stuff earlier. I'm gonna be a good lil student this semester.... but currently when I got back to da room, da roomie be napping so I'm sitting here in the dark typing away with da headphones on.
Anyway, even though tomorrow came, I am still as bored as hell. I'm thinking I'm gonna go back down and do more school work.... geez, what a way to spend the hours....doing school work >.o
I better not get too far ahead though, cause if I do I don't know what I'll do in my spare time O_o;; Sunday, January 11, 2004 - 05:46 p.m. ...Meow? Sunday, January 11, 2004 - 04:14 p.m. yay, i suppose.
I keep trying to find something to keep my mind occupied, and for the first about 5 hours reviewing my jap up through the first about 4 chapters so that I don't look dumb and be all like "duh... i dun remember any of this stuff at all!" was how i was spending my time... that also included me going down doing laundry as i studied too - multitasker baby, yeah!
*sweatdrops* ok, so i'm not that lacking in my jap know-how, but you know it sure does feel like it at times, especially since now that I'm no longer in 101, but jap 102, we'll be continuing on where we left off, which would be the start of chapter 7 and where I'll start to learn my first 15 kanji. oh joyous days ^_^;;
I wouldn't be so teerribly concerned, but where I really got sick pretty badly towards the end of last semester I missed bascially the whole second half of chapter 6. which is not cool. i've been trying very hard to learn me particles and which ones you use for what, but when yer sick and miss the whole thing about double particle usage O_o;; And the people I know in the class, either werent there when they taught it or don't understand it.
And my almighty jap helper (aka: da koibito, da kitty, da mikey, etc...) is at his boot camp currently so i dun even have him to run and cry violently to. (ok, so I don't literally cry, but when I dun understand something i do get a tad frantic.... well, depending on what it is i dun understand)
I really hope that they do a review thing and go over the stuff we learned last semester during this first week, I PRAY they don't just jump right into chapter 7.... I'd have to cry. I want just a quick lil go over.... that's all, that's not asking too much, right?
In other news.... I met da roomie yesterday. It seems she be from Korea, and her english is pretty good. She seems to generally understand what i tell her. So far she seems pretty nice, and one of her friends from Korea also came here (they're doing like a study abroad thing here for just this one semester) it seems her friend is taking jap and really into the anime and what not, which is cool.
The dorm room is still kinda quiet though, I'm not used to having someone in the room with me, (so there's not too much talking going on between the two of us) since i had the room to myself for the basically the whole semester.... i'm not even including when towards the end me koibito basically was my room mate - lol - I don't think it'd be quite the same *coughs*
Blah, I still havent COMPLETELY moved back into this here room, its still pretty messy, and I can only GUESS what da roomie thinks of it.... although it was cute that she confessed that when she first came into the room and saw my stuff that she thought I was japanese. ^_^ Sugoi!!!
I'm pretty close... as close as i am able to be anyway.
I'm almost praying tomorrow will come just so classes will start, i'll have something to DO and this semester will finally be over faster - lol - ok, so admittedly just because it becomes tomorrow doesn't mean that the semester will end, but it'll be one day closer to being done and then that's one day closer to my koibito!! WAI WAI!! ^_^
Cause seriously folks, Purdue is just not the same without him. *shrugs* See, so far in my experience here at purdue I've suffered through being kicked out of the band for no real good apparent reason, a whiny, babified roomie that's now across the hall, failing math, failing my cinema class only because I was sick during dead week and when I showed up to take the final, no one was there...meaning sometime during dead week the prof said when it was changed or whatever. So I didn't take the final for that class and failed. -__-;;; being that I failed two classes I'm now currently on academic probation. Meaning? If I fail me classes this semester, Chibi is no longer a student at Purdue, and that also means that da Chibi will be majorly pissed and majorly depressed since I shouldn't be failing out of school.... and if I get kicked out, I can't see da mikey O_O!!
Adding on to the troubles above, I've gotten sick basically EVERY month I've been here, I'm a 20-25 minute walk from campus (so I get exercise i suppose *shrugs*) but at the same time I risk my life by almost always getting run over by some random car that happens to appear out of nowhere and try to kill me. And trust me I DO look... and many times too.
So overall, me and da mikey both came to the conclusion that meeting each other was the best thing to happen to us thus far at Purdue. >^.^<
*twiddles da thumbs* blah, I still have more jap to cover, but i really dun feel like studying anymore. I do have a mandatory floor meeting to go to at 9... but thats basically 5 hours away, so i have to find something to do until then, cause then i could go to bed to start my training of getting up BEFORE noon *GASPOFHORROR* Yeah, ever since I got sick I started enforcing the law of anytime before noon was EARLY, and therefore anything that was before then was ignored. ^^;;
But considering that all my classes start 8:30 - 9:30am throughout the week, I think I'll have to veto that chibi law for this semester, especially if I plan on PASSING my classes.... yeah, see... actually being there might help me a little. That and paying attention.... that would help also. yeah.... it just might....
....damn, i'm bored. *sighs*
Walking down the street and I hardly know you
It's just like we were meant to be
Holding hands with you when we're out at night
Got a girlfriend, you say it isn't right
And I've got someone waiting too
We're already wet and we're gonna go swimming
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you?
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you?
It's inevitable, it's the fact that we're gonna get down to it so tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you?
Finding someone else you can't get enough of
Someone who wants to be with you too
It's an itch we know we are gonna scratch
Gonna take a while for this egg to hatch
But wouldn't it be beautiful?
We haven't fucked yet, but my head's spinning
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you?
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you?
It's inevitable, it's the fact that we're gonna get down to it so tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you?
(Where's its going)
High enough for you to pull me under
(Something's growing)
Outta this that we can't control
Baby I am dying
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you?
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you?
It's inevitable, it's the fact that we're gonna get down to it so tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you?
Whenever I think about you
Whenever I think about you
Whenever I think about you
Innocence. A true angel. Probaly a younger one. Not
yet shown the real way of this planet. Let me
give you some advice, stay that way, for as
long as you can. The pure make it.
^*>,<*^Which Anime Angel Are You^*>,<*^
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Me
Name: Chibi
Age: 18
Email: hokuto_03@yahoo.com
Job: Full Time Student @ Purdue
D.O.B.: 08.26.03
Sign: Virgo
Resides: OH & IN
AIM: ShngmMoon
Anime/Manga
Final Fantasy
Tokyo Babylon
X/1999
Ayashi no Ceres
Earthian
Gundam Wing
Dragonball Z
Cowboy Bebop
Inu Yasha
GateKeepers 21
Sailor Moon
Gundam 0083
Witch Hunter Robin
Wild ARMS
Haibane Renmei
Azumanga Daioh
Rah Xephon
Vandread
Naruto
Trigun
Love Hina
Neon Genesis Evangelion
Hellsing
Games
Final Fantasy I – X2
Primal
Kingdom Hearts
Shadow Hearts
Xenosaga
Silent Hill 1- 3
Devil May Cry
Persona 2: Eternal Punishment
Orphen: Scion of Sorcery
Zelda: Ocarina of Time
Lunar: Silver Star (Story Complete)
Dance Dance Revolution
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Past Rantings
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