Monday, December 22, 2003 - 02:05 p.m.
And just when I thought I had something going, it wasn't working properly for me *pouts* the meanie.
And in other news, I've been helping my "Kitty" make his journal over here at pitas. I be his host server for his pics and stuffs if he needs it, since pitas doesn't cater to that. (Pitas still has it good points)
Hm, what to do what to do. I still want me new layout. *pouts some more* I will just have to try harder!!
Yosh! That's what I'll do!
Jolly good!
(Hee hee hee... baka no neko...she's laying on me jap book taking a bath - I guess she wants to learn the new language I spout off from time to time) Sunday, December 21, 2003 - 04:35 p.m. No seriously. (...or not). After much retardation, Chibi has finally made it to where peoples can actually leave her messages after her ramblings that make absolutely no sense.
Isn't that great?
I've tried before, but was never quite successful. My html-ing skills are much rustyness and I wasn't placing my codes in the right spots and stuff. But now I have finally succeed!!
Muwhahahahahahahaahahahahaha!!
Um, yeah that's all I really had to say.... but I'll leave you with this random funny convo I had with Bubba (my dad) last night.
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Chibi: *scratches her itchy chin* Owwww.... (pause)
Bubba: I gotta learn to stop asking questions XD!!!! Tuesday, December 16, 2003 - 08:37 p.m. *Sigh*
So, the final didn't go so hot. I should still be passing the class at least, which is better than my last semester, overall. Had to get some DDR in to relieve stress. Isn't physical activity great?
Still haven't said goodbye to Michael yet. He is heading to basic after break, and I want to wish him luck. I should be seeing him sometime before we both leave, since he is putting off leaving as long as possible. As for that other goodbye....
Well, let me explain something, real quick. I am, at heart, a romantic. I always have been, and if life so far is an indication, I always will be. So, like many people, I have that one girl. That girl that you would give most anything to be with. I was pretty good friends with her, so I decided to ask her out. Long story short, she avoided me, and I eventually got the hint and said she didn't have to worry about it any more, forget about the whole thing, I just want to stay your friend. Unfortunately, she has continued to avoid me. I don't hang out with just her anymore, it is always with at least Michael, maybe more. The whole avoiding me thing is why I can write this here, I doubt she reads my web log.
Ok, so that wasn't quick after all. Ah well. Anyway, that girl is the one I might have to say goodbye to. I want to stay her friend, and I have tried, but it seems like I am the only one trying. It has made me quite the emotial wreck of late. I just want to get her alone, talk with her, ask her why she has been doing all this. And, if I could, tell her just how much I care about her. However, if it doesn't go well, I promised myself I would say goodbye, and get her out of my life. It hurts far too much to keep her at the distance she seems to want to be kept. That is why I have been unable to start this talk. I simply don't have that kind of courage. I know that she will get even more tears out of me no matter how it goes, just to add to what I have already cried for her.
Meh, now I am feeling all depressed again, thinking about this. I don't know what I should do, and I don't have anyone I can turn to. My family has been less than supportive on this subject. I don't suppose anyone that reads this knows of a girl around my age that would like to give a hopelessly romantic guy like me a chance? *rubs her temples* I just got finished reading this entry here from this guy I know here at Purdue. The reason why I'm posting it here...?
Simple.
The girl he keeps ranting about is none other than me. *sighs* He explained a little... now it's my turn.
He seems to be an all right guy when you first meet him. Nice, listens, doesn't really talk much, kinda shy. Nothing seems outta the ordinary, right? Well, it seems that this guy has a few life lessons yet to be learned that many have learned already.
Ok now... one, I usually talk to anyone at least once, for benefit of the doubt, and since he was in my japanese class, I saw no reason to kinda become friends with him.
What I didn't know?
I was the only girl he's really EVER talked to. And sometimes my personality is contagious and draws others in (once someone gets to know me).... as it did him. And since he's never really talked to any other female other than me, and he's really quite shy, and because I seemed to show a bit of interest in him, as I would any person I talk to.... he's become.... quite.... well,.... OBSESSED.
He'd skip his classes just to be around me. He was around me for almost 24/7. Although he is nice, he really isn't that much of a character, and most times, I was having a one-sided conversation with him, or none at all.
But the obsession grew. And scarily so.
At the beginning of the of the year, I was apart of a lil trio made up of me and two guys from my jap class... one being Josh, the "whiny lil bitch" guy who's entry has been posted above, and the other is Michael, who was mentioned in the entry and who is now my adorable koibito. ^_^
Let's just say, we'd barely been hanging out together as this quirky lil threesome, and I already saw the conflict coming.... Josh was competing with Michael for my attention. You see, Michael can gain attention just by being himself - lol - he is quite the goofy, loveable character. Josh.... erm.... he's one of those people that kinda blends into the background most of the times, and all he really ever talks about is computer science, which is not the most interesting of subjects to hear about ALL THE DAMN TIME. -_-;;
It seems, as the obsession grew for Josh.... that... he started telling me how he'd let me hire him to remove Michael from the picture so that I'd never have to worry about him again. O_o;;;
I wouldn't wish that upon anyone. I blantantly ignored his offers, hopefully making it quite clear I wasn't happy with such an offer ever even being mentioned.
Josh eventually saw Michael as a "competitor", and still does to this day. He thinks that I only listen to Michael, and that I ignore him, and purposely avoid him and make no effort in trying to be friends with him again.
I'm sorry, I don't know if I could come to be friends with him like I was. He's a clingy, desperate, unstable emotionally, and he seems to have it stuck in his mind that he actually got the nerve to ask me out.
*coughs* Um, I really don't think when I was sitting in his room that day and after he insulted me and then said "And here I was actually considering asking you out." I don't really think that was asking me anything. Although I will give him this, after leaving me all by myself for over 15 minutes (where I considered just leaving, but figured that was rude >.o) he comes back and did ask me "Do you think I'd ever have a chance with you... ever?" - which is closer, I suppose... but was not really asking me to go out with him. *twitches* Just thinking of that day kinda makes me unconsciously twitchy.
And so after break, I might have to be a little worried. Michael leaves for basic since he's in National Guard, leaving me by myself to slowly go insane as Josh will undoubtedly pester the hell outta me. I mean come on, his "competitor" is no longer around, he'll probably see it as his new chance to get close to me.
It didn't happen the first time, it's not gonna happen this time.
I swear I don't know what I'll do if he tries to pull anything on me next semester. I really don't.
But if Josh thinks I'm going to magically just stop liking Michael because he's not around, and go for him, he's mistaken.
I mean, even if I get to the point to where I can like Josh again, and him not annoy me and we can be friends kinda like we used to be, I'm not just going to randomly pitch my precious Mikey out like a dirty sock (ewww... that comment reminded me of Lysol "special friend" dude... BAD Chibi BAAAAAAAAAAAD) I luvs me Mikey *huggles da Mikey*
I will admit that Josh is nice. He's an ok person. Except for that fact that he suffers from a little lost puppy syndrome on me at the moment.
But you know, people in my high school were real asses. They took advantage of my "niceness" I guess you'd call it. They'd get want they needed or wanted from me and then just off and ditched me, many of my 'friends' are included in this catagory. So I really don't trust people much at all. I suppose that's why I'm not quite as out going as I used to be.
The first person I ever let myself trust fully, was a little over 3 years ago when I met the oh so precious MD-chan *glomps da MD* ^_^ we be such a silly lil set of peoples, but its all good. She's wonderful I luvs her to death. We really don't talk anymore due to our schedules and we actually got ourselves "lives" (A life.... what's that!?! - lol) but she's still one of a select few that I would still trust.
More recently, and quite unexpectedly almost, I found that I have come to trust someone else as much as I do MD. And that be my sweet koibito Michael *glompies da Mikey* These two I could tell anything... now sometimes they might make fun of me (some of the things I admit to them deserve to be made fun of - lol - ^^;;) But I value their opinions, because I know they would answer me honestly. And that's what I love and respect most. Their honest opinions. Now, I'm sure they've probably curved their answers to me a few times, and that's fine. At least they're not like people who answer you how you want to be answered just so you'll still like them.
Blah, on that.
....
And you know, I must admit that I am probably a bit harsher to me dear koibito than I should be. *sweatdrops* But picking on people is in my nature. And he is the sweetest guy I know, even if he pokes, tickles and makes fun of me A LOT. =P
Gah, I'm really gonna miss him next semester. I'm sure I'll find someone else to pick on until he returns, but it just won't be the same.
I can never stay mad at him, which he well knows - nor, can I manage to give him a mean look for more than 2 seconds at most. ^^;;; He just generally has the effect to make me want to do nothing but smile. And even though I probably aggravate him from time to time with my joke of "I'd feel better if I just died" (hey, I'm recovering from getting pnuemonia... AGAIN *sweatdrops*) of course I wouldn't be allowed because he didn't give me permission to die (and a couple of other people told me I didn't have their permission either when I told them about it ^^;;)
In the end I am the undying 'Messiah'. (Purdue shortens my name to Christ - therefore I call myself the 'Messiah'). I mean, who else repeatedly about gets run over by buses, cars, trucks.... gets really badly sick (more than once in a two week span) and repeatedly gets up and takes it some more. I'm almost believing that I am indestructable and will live til I'm 200 years old.
*quirks* but living that long would suck cause then I'd outlive all the people I know now and be all lonely and stuffs.
"I'm all alone... there's no one here beside me. My troubles have all gone... there's no one here to deride me.... but you gotta have friends!!!"
All right, all right I'll stop my horrendous singing now. I don't need to crack any glass, shatter any ear drums, or make any little babies cry. I'll do that later when I steal they're candy from them right from under their tiny lil noses. *evil laugh*
Ok, so maybe I wouldn't do that either.... that'd be really MEAN.
And in the end, if nothing else I hope that Mikey realizes that no matter my mood, or whatever crazy crap has been happening to me all week or all day whatever, I just hope he knows this....
He makes me happy. (Even if I DO "hate" him - lol)
Monday, December 15, 2003 - 09:32 a.m. They have some hella side effects though. First 3 days they would knock me out.... they still kinda made me sleepy on the fourth day, but I managed to make myself stay awake. Or if they didn't have me off in dreamy dream land.... I was all loopy.
Seriously folks, sitting in your dorm room watching it swirl... is a amusing..... for awhile. Later its's just like >.< damnit! make the world stop moving!!
Anyhoos, got out and actually did something last night/early this morning. Someone thought it would be cool if a bunch of us got together and went down to see 'The Last Samurai' ... at like 9:15 at night.
Typically, I wouldn't care.... I'm a creature of the night. But I kinda had a final to go to that started at 8am this morning. So I set my alarm for 6:30.... that way I kinda wake myself up, and then by the time I actually DO get up its like ten-till 7 or about 7-ish which is when i REALLY wanted to get up in the first place.
Smart, ne? - lol
Not only did I have my alarm going off..... My sweet koibito was determined to make sure that I got up this morning and got to my final.... he has nothing to today.... could have slept in.... did he?
Of COURSE not.... he purposely wakes himself up wicked early to call me numerous times until I pick up and assure him that I'm up already.
He's currently sleeping though - lol
I don't blame him. I'd probably still be sleeping right now if it wasn't for the stupid ass final.
I have to study for my japanes final that's tomorrow though.... it's in the afternoon though, not qualms about actually getting up for that one. Might get me koi over here to help me study - he had two years of jap in high school, so he helps straighten out my confused lil head about particles.... the demons that laugh horribly in my face.
And I need to learn double particles, as I was sick and missed class on the day they taught that.... they've been very briefly told to me a few times, but it hasnt stuck yet.
Sometimes, school just sucks the big one.
Anyways, I think I might take a nap before wasting my life away studying for my next final.
College finals consume my very soul. Friday, December 12, 2003 - 10:17 p.m. *coughcough* erm, I'm now (hopefully DEFINITELY) back on the road to full recovery. I was told by my parents as I talked to them wednesday night that I was "going to the hospital NOW before it got any worse... it might be more serious than you think and we don't want to see you carried out in a body bag. we wouldn't want to have to go through the trouble of taking all your christmas presents back"
*SWEATDROPS* all right... the body bag comment was creepy and the christmas present comment was absurd. besides they already told me that i wasn't getting anything for christmas, so what would they be taking back, exactly? - lol
anyhoos, ended up they called my dorm and told them that i was seriously ill and needed to get my RA to take me to the hospital. The RA comes.... like an hour later *quirks* and goes "i'm legally not allowed to drive you anywhere... but i can call the EMT and they'll give you a free ride to wherever you need to go for treatments."
I think not.
I was NOT riding in a stupid ambulance just because my forehead burned outrageously from time to time. *quirk*
Anyway, my mom ended up making a 3 hour drive here, the next morning, to take me to Purdue's doctor.... who then told me that i have a throat infection and i got my pneumonia back again. lovely stuff pneumonia. *coughcough* um, yeah.... really it is.
so now i'm on me antibiotics... something or other that's suppose to help for both... but i tell ya that the only thing it does for me is make either loopy or very sleepy. it like knocks me out for hours at a time and i wake up feeling like not a minute has past and and i see what time it is and i'm like "HOLY SHIT!!! WHEN DID THAT HAPPEN?!?!"
*ahem*
Anyhoos, now that i'm "better" i get to spend my weekend studying my ass off as i have my first final bright and early monday morning and have not been able to study all week. (when you head feels like its about to explode, its a little hard to do so, ne?)
Anyhoosers, (not hoosiers.... i dun care if i AM in indiana... indiana SUCKS. *coughs*) i is gonna have a guest here soon. Me kibito is coming to see me >^.^<
Yay!!! anywho, he'll probably be here so, so must go... and um, lay around some more ^_^;;;
Sounds like fun, ne? Tuesday, December 9, 2003 - 08:42 p.m. I have currently been suffering through the worst three days of my life. I've had the most hellish, nightmare of a fever that... as you probably have guessed, has lasted for the past three days.
As of now, I am alive enough to say something on here, but I'd really like to be able to say that the worst of my fever is over.
Sadly, I can not say this, for as my luck goes, just when I think I'm finally getting better and making progress recovering.... God decides to be "a mean little kid with a magnfying glass"
So yes, there have been many times in this past three days that I really thought that "If I just died... I'd feel so much better" and then I'd think "Yeah, but if I did... people would be sad.... that would be mean.... I couldn't do that to them..."
And heaven forbid that *I* be mean. ;_; I couldn't be mean even if I WANTED to. It's just not in my nature. Just like being depressed is not in my nature either. It happens... but usually my mind goes "DANGER WILL ROBINSON!!!" and it immediately comes up with something funny to elude the dark clouds trying to eat me.
Ok, that sounded a lil odd.... but it's the best I can do with a fried brain.
=P Damn, I'm hungry.... I was going to actually drag myself out to a dining hall and eat a lil something (that's something else I haven't done in the past 3 days.... EAT x.x;;;) but around the time I wanted to go.... Someone up there thought "Hee hee hee!!! Let's make her BURN!!!"
And thus, I suffered as my brain, body and soul was fried yet again. v.v;;;
"SMITE ME ALMIGHTY SMITER!!!!"
I WOULD go out and get something NOW.... but I'm just now starting to feel better... and I really don't wanna go out by myself. I'm still not sure enough of my strength to so anywhere besides halfway down the hall of my dorm floor to the bathroom. That in itself is a task.
And I'd feel TERRIBLE asking my sweet, sweet koibito to walk out in the cold for 20 minutes, to come over here from his dorm to mine just to make sure I don't collapse and that I finally eat something.
And he would too, the sweatheart. He's been spending the last couple of days keeping me company as I suffered through my misery of a fever.
Except today, which I don't blame him.... I wouldn't want him to drop everything for me the whole time I'm sick.... which will probably be the rest of the week.
When I get sick man, it's a doozy.
And thus ends my ranting, and whining.... which I believe when your as sick as I am, you have the right to do.... to a POINT.... and also ends my "quoting" from Bruce ALMIGHTY one of the funniest movies I know.
That's it for me *bows... looking a lil green as she does so*
Eh-heheh.... maybe I shouldn't have done that.... Saturday, December 6, 2003 - 06:08 p.m. Muwahahaha!!! I is perfect!!! Erm... or not.
1 o 2
Anyway, its the weekend before the start of dead week here at Purdue. Monday I get to see my advisor about what classes I'd liked to take next semester. And currently it seems I'm gonna have to give up on my main major, unless I can talk to my advisor about making it a minor. Wanna do computers.... Purdue... too smart for me.... Chibi not smart enough anymore for advanced math.
v.v;;; I'm hopeless.
My jap is pretty fun though... i get all excited as I figure out that I'm getting to know more and more comprehension and i realize I know what the charas in the diffrent animes are saying. ^_^
*quirks* although I seem to want to reverse my particle usage, I'm slowly fixing that bad lil error and starting to do it right. Bah desu ne.
Got me my FFX-2 and i'm already at the end of it. Studying as prevented me from continuing, but I shall still prevail! of course, I was not successful enough I dont believe to get the Ulitmate Ending on the first try. I cam pretty damn close. I'll have to see when I get that far as to beating it all the way.
And then I have FFXI that occupies my time every once in a while. I am a mighty (first a lvl 14 med mage turned now a...) lvl 10 white mage mithra.... exploring the world of Vana'diel in the vast republic of Bastok.
...where I basically become other players bitch because all I can do is run around and heal. My chara really isnt a fighter, and thus i refrain from such activity unless I go out solo-ing. which is a slow and tedious process in which to lvl up. (as a white mage anyway)
*twiddles her thumbs*
Many events that have happened within the past month have left me pondering many things when I get moments alone. I'm quite the popular one here at Purdue, with my group of "special friends" and whatnot. but... oh well. I'll just not let these things bother me. I can afford to be all downcast and depressing right now.
Being moody, is very unlike me, and if I am, its either with great reason or just cause I'm being stupid on purpose, and that version of moodiness is usually comical. *shrugs* i'm babbling when i've things to do.
Laundry and figuring out my classes... and so on and so forth.
*la sigh* A chibi's job is never done. Monday, November 24, 2003 - 06:08 p.m. It was snowing here, this morning. Its stopped, but the frosty winds have still kept their icy presence.
Tomorrow is last day of classes, and then thanksgiving break. Although I could go home, tomorrow, I was told I should leave wednesday instead, by someone pretty persuasive - lol - and that person is not me or either of my parents. *grins*
Anyhoos, so i'll be gone from sometime wednesday and return back to purdue... sat or sunday. one of the two... maybe earlier. who knows.
Hopefully i convinced my parents to get me my 'early christmas gift' that i requested.... Final Fantasy X-2, baby!!! I've watched someone play it ;__; I want it for myself so baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad. I've played the demo.... but dude... gotta have the game man, gotta have the game. i have been agonizing over this one game for QUITE a awhile.... as in around a year long... lol - i'm quite the obsessive FF fan, all right? I love it... it sometimes loves me. and that's all that matters.
let the mystery be with you. Monday, November 10, 2003 - 01:40 a.m. Currently, I'm playing Final Fantasy XI, I is a cool lil Mithra chick, who's supposed to be a red mage, but ultimately I act as the "honorary white mage". Which i do fairly well i suppose. I tend to use up all my mp and quickly because I cure everyone a lot, and make sure they be happy healthy warrior-dudes. I'm a selfless healer, all right? I may be dying, but I'd heal the others before my myself. Sue me.
Anyway, my parents came up this weekend along with a friend of mine. She wants to come to Purdue next year. She went to the game that was this past saturday and I figured she'd want to go around campus, so I recruited my bitch to come with. lol - it's still funny that I have a 'man whore' XDD
Anywho, it seems that after the game contact about what was up was lostbetween us and my friend, so we had a Pizza Hut run, my parents went home, and the rest of the night was spent playing DDR in my room and using the whip on my bitch - lol.
Oh yes, I did finally start bowing down to the DDR Gods. And just about everyday now too. All right I admit, it gets me back into my whole dance thing, kinda, that i always liked to do when I was little. But it's also fun exercise. gets ya moving and the sweat to start pouring. Well, technically I'll being kicked in the ass by Standard mode songs, but I've barely been playing a week. I'm doing well enough. I guess...?
Let's just say this weekend has been interesting.
Also earlier this week, someone randomly blurted out their feelings for me. It was..... odd. But, unfortunately for the dude, I do NOT return those feelings. And now it's just plain annoying to be around him, not because he confessed to me his feelings mind you, but because he's suddenly become bitchy and desperate around me. Vying for my attention or something. I've started to ignore him, because I'm tired of our convos turning into him bitching me out. I try to be nice. I've tried to talk to him normally, but you know... it can only go so far. And now I'm afraid that I'm gonna say something to lead him on more. Because I apparently did earlier one way or another.
I think I may throw some people off, because although I have a pretty nice demeanor about me, I'm very open about what I say. Literally I lay out the truth. (Thus, cruelhonesty... name of site *hinthint*) I don't sugar things up. I tell it how it is, or how I believe it to be. This doesn't mean that I beat others down with my opinions, I'm quite the indecisive one - lol - but if you ask my opinion I will tell you what I honestly think. A lot of the girls I've met thus far have not really been like that. They say one thing and then turn around and say something else when that person is away.
Simply.... that's not me.
I'm a simple person really... even if I'm told I can be difficult (I have no idea what they're talking about... REALLY *whistles*) but I truely believe in truth, loyalty, sincerity.... many things that a lot of people seem to have abandoned more than they should have.
Not to say that I'm saying EVERYONE does. They most certainly don't. But people are a lot more dumb than they need to be. Or something to that effect.
I'm blabbering on today, aren't I? hmm... oh well, this is my blog damn it. I will talk if I wanna. =P
And I must DRR to the S.U.O Mix, that we've created. *smiles innocently* It's so evil.... and I'm usually not so. But man, this is too funny.
But when all is said done, I suppose I feel bad, because it's in my nature to. I feel bad dumping my worries and such onto another, I feel like I'm burdening them.... I dont like to mess with other's feeling because I've had it happen to me in the past, and I figure I dont like it, so neither would someone else. But you know what? The annoying idiot deserves the S.U.O Mix, and thus it must be done at least once to appease the inner evil demons that laugh evilly in my head like that demonic Furby.
Hee Hee Hee!!!
Anyway, hope all is well with those who read my bloggie, things are interesting as always with me. My life wouldn't go any other way, of course.
I really need to go to sleep, and as I dream of saying the new "incorrect" japanese.... and adding 'desu ne' to the end of everything you say. and going around saying "NI!!!" because of watching Monty Python and the Holy Grail... yeah, it's awesome, no da!?
Anyway, I'm seriously finishing this time. No seriously. Ok, fine.... don't believe me, but if you REALLY want something to do go here: "It's Dot Com!!!" and leave me alone!!!! lol ^_^ Sunday, October 26, 2003 - 02:12 p.m. As of right now, a list is being compiled of "List of Things Chibi should do while she's up here" Those things being... (well, the ones that i know are on there):
1. Play Dance Dance Revolution
Um... there was other stuff, but i cant remember. BUT! I have gotten to watch so much more anime since I've been here. I is so happy! ^_^
But! O_o;;; I haven't gotten through watching all of X/1999 series and I downloaded a music video and it... yeah... it kinda showed something I suspect, but guess I didn't completely believe it. I'd write it out, but I figure that then someone else would just happen to come along and get pissed because they just started it and I ruined something for them.
Seriously. I have that type of luck. The worst of luck, actually.
And relating more to school things this random girl calls me up and wants to room with me now. I'm like "But I LIKE having no room mate *POUTS*"
^__^;;; it was bound to happen eventually I suppose, but I was hoping I'd at least get the room to myself for the rest of the semester. At least.
Hm... well, let's see....Chibi=hungry .... but dorm dining=closed
What's a Chibi to do? @__@;;; Weather=COLD and Chibi=lazy hungry person
So, chibi=starved OR chibi=happy, cold unhungry person
Which is will win...? v.v;;; - Wait!! I have soup! I have a microwave!!! it's not exactly what I want to eat, but at least I don't have to go out in the cold!!
*laughs semi-evilly*
Ok, so it's really not that big of a deal, but damnit, I feel like just being lazy today and watching some anime - all right!?!?
^__^ anime..... yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay Monday, October 6, 2003 - 02:06 a.m. *smiles innocently* Who knew? Wednesday, October 1, 2003 - 08:05 p.m. I am also bowing down before the Failing Gods when it comes to my math class, because now no matter what I can't even seem to even get TO class. -__-;;; Hai, I have missed my math class the past THREE. TIMES. IN. A. ROW. *continues her bowing before the almighty Failing Gods* I've been told that I've appeased them enough, but not likely. I have a strong winning streak going on here.
So now I have my SECOND tutor I get to go through. My first lasted a minute tops before I threw him out on his ear. My new one is no other than my good buddy also known as my "Counselor, doctor/medic, teacher, and tutor (the list is ever growing)" or before I got to know him... "stalker" - lol
I pretty much call every guy here that. Some are more serious cases than others though. LYSOL boy being one of them. *small grumble*
I currently have to type up a paper for my film class that's due tomorrow. I'm suppose to express what I feel is the most important lesson in the film and why. I'm sorry minna-san but I can't seem to grasp the theme or lesson of a movie only watching it ONE time.... not only that but I was shivering my ass off towards the last half and couldn't concentrate.
Needless to say, I have to present this in front of a bunch of MUCH older peers (I'm technically in a higher grade than I'm supposed to be, having started school earlier than I was supposed to, and basically that means almost all the people in this class are seniors or graduate students, so I feel a TAD out of place *sweatdrops*) I don't necessarily have to read my paper to the class, but still.... I've only managed to say one semi-intelligent thing in this class so far, now is when it counts and I think I'm a little screwed.
I recieved an interesting er... email today. All it was was a simple little poem, but.... no explanation. No reason as to why it was randomly sent to me. It was a nice poem, in a dark sort of way... but now I really wonder if I should have replied to it or not?
<<;;; I've gotten so many weirdo emails in the past, it's sometimes hard to judge on these types of things for me
Example, I once recieved an email for a fanfic I wrote (I wont mention which one or who this person is) and I open it to be told up the wazoo how wonderful my story is, but that I spelled "no" in japanese wrong... this dude went spouting forever on that, and then he randomly went to screaming at me about how "if I thought the honorable shinigami was weak then I should think again and that he would never hesistate to kill...." and on and on and on... and then as if he hadn't been threatening and beating me down verbally he ends with "great fic, I really love it!"
And the dude even p.s.-ed requesting I write back. >.o;;; I think not.
I later got another email, same guy, and he was all telling me about how he would shed the light to me about everything and he would make me understand.
I was a bit perturbed. Can you blame me?
Perhaps that is why I STOPPED writing. Because the last two fics I did.... I recieved a bunch of psycho fan mail like that and it scared the ba-jee-uz outta me.
My faint little heart can only take so much. @_@;;;
But, I can say, that I have never been flamed for any of my works. *blinks* I don't know if I should find that odd or not.*shrugs*
Anyway, I must return to fixing and writing my paper... and I must make the randomness end or I will babble for the rest of eternity.
Oh, and I was told what my purpose in life is.... and I quote:
"To be poked"
O__o;;; Wow... what a purpose. And with that random thought I bid you farewell *bows and seeps into the darkness* Thursday, September 25, 2003 - 11:59 p.m. *HIIIIIIIIIIIIISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!*
Arigatou.
*bows and walks out*
Bubba: I know.... you want your orange Gatorade.
Chibi: Um, ok. But I said 'ow' because I scratched my chin cause it was itchy, but it hurts to do so.
Bubba: And why does your chin hurt?
Chibi: Um.... cause it does?
Bubba: uh-huh... and why does your neck look like a cat attacked it?
Chibi: *tries not to laugh* Um.... because it can?
Bubba: Does your chin have anything to do with your neck?
Chibi: It might...? *cracks up laughing* Hey, I can't help it I didn't do anything! I didn't do this!
Chibi: Hey... I can't help it if he's scratchy. *crosses her arms*
Bubba: O_o;;; All right... no more questions. I'm never asking again.
-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which
means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
care about presents or about going to fancy
places. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
being around your boyfriend.
What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
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2. Go bowling (only because I mentioned my nickname was 'Gutter Queen' -__-;;)
3. Go miniature golf
4. Do a fountain run (There's several big fountains around campus - they want me to run through it while it's running and basically get completely soaked ^_^;;;)
Me
Name: Chibi
Age: 18
Email: hokuto_03@yahoo.com
Job: Full Time Student @ Purdue
D.O.B.: 08.26.03
Sign: Virgo
Resides: OH & IN
AIM: ShngmMoon
Anime/Manga
Final Fantasy
Tokyo Babylon
X/1999
Ayashi no Ceres
Earthian
Gundam Wing
Dragonball Z
Cowboy Bebop
Inu Yasha
GateKeepers 21
Sailor Moon
Gundam 0083
Witch Hunter Robin
Wild ARMS
Haibane Renmei
Azumanga Daioh
Rah Xephon
Vandread
Naruto
Trigun
Love Hina
Neon Genesis Evangelion
Hellsing
Games
Final Fantasy I – X2
Primal
Kingdom Hearts
Shadow Hearts
Xenosaga
Silent Hill 1- 3
Devil May Cry
Persona 2: Eternal Punishment
Orphen: Scion of Sorcery
Zelda: Ocarina of Time
Lunar: Silver Star (Story Complete)
Dance Dance Revolution
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>> Katwithkei <<
>> Afton <<
>> Madhall <<
>> Otoko Saseko <<
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