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[Tuesday, April 2, 2002] A serious case of blog block
 Nothing significant happened over the past few weeks other than my going to New Jersey with a bunch of friends.
Joey has been with Mikey for 8 MONTHS! You would have figured they have done something already! But NO! They haven't. I was completely shocked the day before yesterday when I heard this. We were in the car driving back to T.O, Joey was sitting beside me, Mikey in front listening to his walkman REALLY loud and I think he was asleep. Anyway, I was like, "OMG! YOU HAVEN'T DONE ANYTHING?! Not even give head?!" And he answers, "No, we havent. Not like I know how."
me: I'll teach you.
him: How? You don't have a dick.
me: I have a carrot! Now open WIDE! (You should have seen him blush at this moment)
him: No! You can't do that! Mikey will see!
me: You want to don't you?
him: Yeah...
me: Then open your mouth. (And so I shove the carrot into his mouth) Now... no teeth you hear?
him: *garble*
me: (mocking) Uh... Uh... Joey... Uh... feels so good... Uh... Ow! No teeth!
him: *chokes* I could kill you right now.
me: See! There's hardly any teeth marks on the carrot! You're a natural! Just remember no teeth and you'll do fine.
him: ::glare::
Meanwhile, Jimmy who was driving looks back at us and shakes his head at me. He was laughing really hard and had to pull over and stop for awhile. Mikey woke up when the car stopped.
mikey: We home? ::rubs eyes::
me: No, but you GOTTA see what Joey learned just now when you DO get home.
{music: Born Slippy - Underworld}{
mood:  Having fun}
[said anything @ 01:51 p.m.]
[Friday, March 8, 2002] Flies off to Japan
 Oh, I'm so in love. I've also come to a conclusion that I will hang onto him until time takes its toll, even if it would end up hurting more. I am a naive, stupid girl. So sue me.
I'm so in love. I find no faults in him. It feels so nice to be in his arms; it feels so right to just hold his hand. ::gushes like a blushing schoolgirl:: He's too perfect to be true. He's smart. Sometimes, I'd even say he's smarter than me - but only sometimes. I love smart men. Who else can get away with illegal-to-drive-on-the-street-fast-cars and still be able to pass the yearly inspections? He's also hot. I wonder what he sees in me? Anyway, I'd continue to gush about how wonderful I think he is, but I have a plane to catch and he's here to pick me up. We leave for Tokyo together, but he's not coming back... =( At least we get to see sakura blossoms like we did a year ago. Anniversary coming in 5 days. ^^ <3 <3
Baibai peoples! Have a nice March break!
{music: Small Happiness(Love Letter Theme)}
{mood:  exulted}
[said anything @ 05:38 p.m.]
[Sunday, March 3, 2002] I TOLD YOU SO!
 Ha! All you people who doubted me and wondered about my obcession, I grant you this! My idol and my God. Placed upon the pedestal beside Yoshiki, Hide is worshipped and mimicked. Now all I need to do is dye my hair pink and learn to play the guitar as well as him. Years of obcessing and idolizing comes right down to this. I knew it was good for something someday.
{music: POSE(hide's solo) - X-Japan Live}
{mood:  caffinated}
[said anything @ 08:34 p.m.]
[Sunday, March 3, 2002] Hair-pulling frustration
 This is not fair. Ms. Norwich gave no reasonable explanation to why she took 2 marks off my piece of writing. I thought it was decent, and definitely better the works of other people in the class. Why is it she took off TWO marks off for content?! There were no comments or corrections on the paper, just a marking scheme with 13/15 written on it. GRRR! All the more reason to dislike WC now. I think it's because I'm Asian. She probably has this presumption that Asian people cannot write and just put me into the niche category of good "fluke" work. Bah!
Anyway, this weekend we had planned to spend at Justin's place. However, Justin's parents came back early, so they all ended up crashing at my place instead. Keith's new girlfriend is really dumb. (Keith, if you are reading this, I'm sorry, but it's the truth. I've already told you my opinion of her in person.) She's really nice... in the Britney-Spears-airhead kind of way. Keith could do SO much better. I wonder why him and Josephine broke up? They just said they agreed to part ways. I liked Josephine. She was smart, but not smarter than me. Haha ^^;; I should phone her sometime to hang out. Probably when Tatsuya's gone, I'll need girlfriends to chill with. Keith has become a player for the past few months after him and Josephine broke up. He's gone through 3 girls. Hopefully, he will be playing Annie the new girlfriend too. I don't think I can tolerate her for too long. It's so frustrating that Keith never listens to me. If he were Rui, Tatsuya, or Jimmy, I'd be more adamant about breaking it off with a bimbo.
Haha, lookie what I gots. Isn't it ironic I was doin' them on Friday? Hahah! The toilet is talking!
{music: Standing Bird - Love Psychedelico}
{mood:  thwarted}
[said anything @ 01:03 p.m.]
[Friday, March 1, 2002] Sleep deprived
 So sleepy. Came to school early today for my grad photo re-takes. The stupid keyboard is being a bitch and the spacebar is really hard to press down.
I hope the guy who is taking the grad photos is that Chinese guy again. We gots lots of things we want to do and its just easier to communicate with a Chinese person what you want. This time, NO hat! Those shots are ugly.
{music: Tenshi no Yubi - KareKano}
{mood:  dozy}
[said anything @ 10:00 a.m.]
[Thursday, February 28, 2002] Have sex; lose weight
 The cardio-vascular exercise that burns the most calories is the act of sex. Your heart speeds up and you are doing strenuous movements. So why don't they just have lots of sex to lose weight instead of buying all those useless aerobics videos? ::shrug:: Some people.
At school at the moment. Spare with nothing to do. Lydia here is informing me of the different forms of love. She has concluded that my love for Taya is a combination of "Eros", "Erotic", and "Storgic" love. The definition?
- Eros - a physical and sexual relationship
- Erotic - an image of an ideal lover
- Strogic - characterized by affectionate and loyal companionship.
Wow, you learn THIS stuff in FamCan?! I want to take.
Found out two days ago that he is not leaving THIS Friday but the Friday in two weeks. Ahhh... more time to spend with him. I like that.
As for what I am currently doing. Jack squat. I have like no homework in any of my classes... EVER. I love this semester. The classes are so mundane that I am free to do whatever I want afterschool. Today in P.E., we did a lab where we were to hold a weight for as long as possible to test muscle fatigue. It hurt. I lasted like 3 minutes only. Haha, yes I know, I'm a weakling. My reaction time is really low though between my index and thumb. I'm an agile little thing you know. My fingers are used to type and play piano. That is all. NOT to do hard physical labour.
{music: Tekken II - Sex MACHINEGUNS}
{mood: in love}
[said anything @ 11:16 a.m.]
[Sunday, February 24, 2002] A long neglected post
 WC is starting to get on my nerves. The fact that my big words are shunned really bugs me. I can't help it when a big word just pops up, using the little one syllable words would mean I have to THINK about what I write. I thought the purpose of timed writing was just to let go and not think. Whatever goes onto the paper is just there. BLEH. I have to do some last minute touches on my hand model.
Spent the weekend at Tatsuya's place. It was nice. He leaves Friday. I'm already starting to miss him... if that makes any sense at all... ^^;; Oh well, I'm going to enjoy what little time I have left.
Take the What
animal best portrays your sexual appetite?? Quiz
{music: Bie Shuo - Aaron Kwok}This is for you Wendy. Enjoy
{mood:  inapprehensible}
[said anything @ 01:33 p.m.]
[Friday, February 22, 2002] Tumult and Lamentations
 I spent last night contemplating Tatsuya's upcoming departure from Canada. He slept by my side, arms wrapped around me... I'll miss that. My life has pretty much revolved around him, work, and school for the past year and nine months. What am I going to do when such a big component of my life is an ocean away? I don't think I remember not having someone to hug me and kiss me when I'm upset, what now? Whom will I turn to after he leaves? He has become my security blanket. I tried to be indifferent to him leaving and I had even planned to move on. But now I realize I cannot. I'm weak, I seek attention, I get cold easily, I don't like being alone. For the longest time, he was the quick fix to all these problems. What now? When did I become so dependent on him?
As the day to his departure draws nearer, I feel myself more and more unwilling to let go. I know I have said many things to try to say strong, but now I am unabashedly blatant about this: I don't want him to leave. That is an extremely selfish thought since he is going after his long-time dream, but I am allowed to want things I can't have right? I already know he will be leaving and I am trying my best not to hold him back. I'm starting to cry now. It has finally hit me how important he is to me. He has been there during my toughest times and he has since become my anchor of support. I want to be selfish. I don't want to let him go. I am so in love and the thought of spending the rest of my life with him no longer feels so alien. Seeing him off at the airport is going to hurt. -_-
{music: Death Piano - Lareine}
{mood:  a sudden realization that hurts}
[said anything @ 05:41 p.m.]
[Thursday, February 21, 2002] A little bit of insanity
 Whatever it was I was obcessing about yesterday about the asbestos came true. Gym 3 is getting asbestos removed from the ceilings as tiny little asbestos particles continue floating in the air. If I get cancer, I'm sueing the school.
Tatsuya and I have been spending a lot of time together. He practically lives with me now, but that's ok. Desiree says I am completely in love and I think she is right. I have said that I'll miss him when he does leave and this little entry is to reflect upon and propitiate my conscience about either breaking it off with him or waiting for him to return. He's going to be leaving for a whole year, waiting for him will either make me go crazy or make me want to cheat. Yes, I am a lowly, shallow individual. I hate myself for it.
But as I have said beforehand, I do love him. Those three fateful words I have only said to Tatsuya and Daddy and meant it. This indecisiveness is going to kick me from behind in the end. I have decided at the moment to wait for him. If or if not my self-control caves is another issue, however, I'll try my best to appease to his wishes. I wish I weren't so weak and capricious. It does this situation no good.
But I guess the proverbial phrase goes, "If you love him, let him go. If he comes back, he's yours forever." I'm going to see if all this will be true with this dilema. All faith in love will be shattered if it ends up being a sham.
(Lydia says "Hi" to all my readers)
{music: Driver's High - L'arc~en~Ciel}
{mood:  vertiginous}
[said anything @ 10:45 a.m.]
[Wednesday, February 20, 2002] Oh boy... you think I'm getting too liberal?
 Now this little test must say something about me. Should I be worried? I have claimed for the past couple of years to be undeclared. At the moment at least, I don't think I swing the other way. But then again, I guess my old comment applies here: "How would you know if you haven't tried?"
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People continue to comment on how 'weird' I am. I wonder why? Oh well... I never claimed to be 'normal', whatever the definition for that is.
Ahh... and onto anther pressing issue - my timeworn school. It is in such a state of disrepair that I will no longer drink from the fountain. Disgusting is an understatement. I bet you the water comes out of those taps yellow. The pipes are most likely rusted through and some rat crawled into them and died in it. There is mold on the ceiling tiles and most likely, there is STILL asbestos up there, even though it was banned for usage since who knows when. There are no supplies in our classrooms and the washrooms have no toilet paper. Even in a state like this, no one is bothering to attend to these problems. Why would the government continue to cut school budgets when our schools are already in this threadbare condition? Why spend so much money x-raying my shoes at the airport and not at my school where I could die from drinking the water? There is a higher chance of that than a terrorist trying to blow Toronto up. Sometimes I wonder what the government's priorities are. I thought children were the future?
{music: Wong Fei Hong (trance mix)- [nWa] Nu World Asians MaXd}
{mood: I'm gay?!}
[said anything @ 08:30 p.m.]
[Tuesday, February 19, 2002] The Cool-Guy HandBook
1. Cut your hair short like Carson Daly's.
2. Buy Tommy Hilfiger, Old Navy, Abercrobmie & Fitch , Gap clothing.
3. Drink
4. Obtain a Mustang, Camaro, SUV/Truck (a big one).
5. Drink
6. Treat women like the stock options you want.
7. Drink and drive.
8. Do your part to increase the risk of STDs.
9. Drink a keg.
10. Travel in packs, especially ones called "frats."
11. Buy the latest alt-pop when you hear chicks dig it.
12. Maintain a clean-cut appearance but be a rebel nonetheless.
13. Drink
14. Party from thursday afternoon until tuesday morning.
15. Cut me off in traffic...
16. Drink
17. Spend money on flashy things to distract attention from obvious personality shortcomings.
18. Drink, then cheat on your girlfriend for a more attractive, and less intelligent bimbo, like the one on your jogging path.
19. Drink
20. Roll that expensive, late-model, newly-rimmed, and bass-thumpin' ride while trying to cut me off...
21. Demonstrate your manliness by hitting women and picking on the less assertive.
22. Prove your worth by peeling out at stop lights.
23. Buy clothing that makes me scream, "YUPPIE!!!"
24. Drink, cut me off in traffic, then roll your damn car into the median..
25. Make a big deal about something, then blow it off and inconvenience others.
26. If you cannot learn to take insults, spit them out instead.
27. After cutting your hair like Carson Daly's, frost/highlight it like any number of boy bands.
28. Complain about drinking laws.
29. Drink.
30. Repeat these steps until you are 38, married with 3 kids to a bitch that hates you, and stuck in a crap job. Lament with your few remaining friends about the "Old Skool."
[said anything @ 02:36 p.m.]
[Tuesday, February 19, 2002] School sucks
Fell asleep in P.E. Rehab of the knee and problems of the knee video. -_- Bored is an understatement. Spare now, nothing much to do. It was a waste of time to come to class today. I have had 2 classes of utter pointlessness. The only reason I decided to come was because I had that stupid paper and thesis to hand in today. ::sigh::
Marshall is beside me as I write. I wonder what he's thinking. Maybe of how cute hide is in my layout ^^;; hehehe ^^ Oh, to everyone who reads this, Marshall's birthday is tomorrow. Remember to hit him hard. Preferably, with a hard, blunt object, we don't want to kill him with a sharp one. 
{music: The Rage Beat - Kotani Kinya}
{mood: Bored stiff}
[said anything @ 02:01 p.m.]
[Tuesday, February 19, 2002] WOOHOO!
School should start at 12 everyday. I slept through my alarm this morning and it didn't matter! I'm still not late! I know, Ms. Chapman must be tired of seeing me on a regular basis. I hate tardy slips and the detentions they end up getting me. bleh. ><
My harddrive is SO full right now. I need to burn off some stuff. I wonder how it filled up so quickly. Must be the excessive downloading. I should cut down. Now that's a laugh! Downloading is addictive. SO much stuff out there to watch/play/listen to/use/read. Stopping is NOT an option. heheh ^^;;
Trying to make amends with my grandmother for whining so much about her yesterday. She ruined my manga pen nib. Now I gotta import another batch in. That was my last one. ::sigh:: I can't really ask her to pay for it... but the least she could have done was wash out the nib so that the ink doesn't crud on it. Bah! Ruined now! What am I going to use for the next 2 weeks waiting for my stuff to arrive? GAH! NOOOO!!! I have to go out to buy those cheap caligraphy nibs. I hate caligraphy nibs. q( ><)p(>< )q( ><)p
{music: Party Join Us - Crayon Shin-chan}
{mood:  giddy}
[said anything @ 11:15 a.m.]
[Monday, February 18, 2002] OW! My backside!
I just got shot in the right buttock with a paintball gun by none other than Rui-chan a few moments ago. GRRRR! I wish I still had my gun right now to get him back. Haha, but I still have a frying pan! ::swings frying pan madly in the air:: Come here Rui... I won't hurt you...
Earlier today, I was showing someone a SHOXX magazine and I kept commenting on the cute boys in it. Their comment? "What boys?! Those are all girls!" Mwahahahahaha! Damn it was funny when (name withheld for his reputation) thought IZAM was pretty. Oh the blood draining from his face then immediately pumping back up making him into a tomato... Ha! It was priceless! I must say, I shouldn't have bursted his bubble and told him that IZAM was indeed a boy. It was quite mean to do it in front of a small group of people. But then again, when was I ever nice?
{music: Porno Star - SADS}
{mood:  vengeful} I'm going to hunt you down Rui
[said anything @ 03:21 p.m.]
[Sunday, February 17, 2002] What the hell?!
I'm watching the Olympics right now... ice dancing?! O.o;; That can't seriously be considered a sport. It's as stupid as ballroom dancing for the summer Olympics. They don't consider Wing Chun a sport, yet they consider that stuff a sport?! >.< Ludicrous!
Hey! Look what I got!
I was meant to be a member of Malice Mizer. I like the aristocratic look, and I have a very fascinating sex life.
Take the "Which J-Rock Band Should You Be a Member Of?" quiz by  malloreigh
^^;; I don't think my love life even comes CLOSE to that of Gackt's. I wonder how I got this result from the test...? Hehe, I certainly would like to be a member of Malice Mizer. If only they were still together.
{music: Kumori nochi hare - Siam Shade}
{mood:  confuzzled}
[said anything @ 09:12 p.m.]
[Sunday, February 17, 2002] Happy Day
 Today was one of the best days I've had this week. Buffalo had a major sale (75% off baby!), COLES had a sale on LOTR books (50% off), Baskin Robins had peanut butter and chocolate ice cream in their freezer, and Desiree made a blog so that I now have someone on my blog linkage area! More people I know should make blogs. I believe everyone should have one. Des and I are maintaining an X-Japan theme here... because THEY ARE GOD!
I'm trying to put 'Say Anything' in an area where it could be downloaded, but free webspace isn't liking mp3 files very much. I am thinking of buying a domain from doteasy, but I don't have a credit card to freely use and I don't know what I would use it for besides a little bit of file linking. That would be a waste of space. Bleh, still debating.
In the mean time, I have put the 'Say Anything' and 'Biribiri Crashmen' on my myplay account. Feel free to download from there. I think I will be putting every song I list on my {music} section into the account.
go to: myplay.com
e-mail: yumiko@iloveraving.com
password: yumiko
{music: Biribiri Crashmen - GLAY}
{mood:  vivacious}
[said anything @ 07:36 p.m.]
[Saturday, February 16, 2002] DayQuil, the wonder drug
I can breathe, my head doesn't hurt anymore and I feel just fine. Ahhh... feels good. Thank you DayQuil.
My skeleton hand model is now completely finished. It turned out really well, at least better than I had expected it to turn out. Yes, since I am sick today, I spent the day finishing my homework for my classes. Bleh >< At least I'm ready for the tests I have next week in law and P.E.
People who read this blog continually question why I have labs and homework for P.E. The course is physical education - a bioscientific perspective. In other words, it is just an anatomy course, rehash of some of the things I learned in biology. It's rather interesting, although this is the class where I have the most work in. heh ^^;; Yes, my semester is quite easy.
Oh, Taya just visited me. He's such a sweetie. He brought me soup and tissues and a bunch of movies. He's going to come back in a little while to watch them with me, but until then, I am going to finish this entry.
Something I thought was funny:
{music: Once Bitten, Twice Fuck Off - ZERI}
{mood:  recuperating}
[said anything @ 08:09 p.m.]
[Saturday, February 16, 2002] Waiting for my pasta to cook
Hehe, I love the blog. I can't believe I abandoned my blog so long ago and never went back to blogging until now. Ah well, we start anew right? I wish I still remember the password to my old blog. I loved the name of it - idi0syncrasy.
{music: Say Anything - X-Japan}
{mood:  cadaverous}
Oops! Better check on my lunch!
[said anything @ 12:19 p.m.]
[Saturday, February 16, 2002] ::sniffle::
Man, I'm sick. BAH! So many ppl are sick at school, I most likely caught it from them. ::whines:: I hate being sick!!!
I forgot to say yesterday that I had spent more time getting to school than I had spent in class. -_- I shouldn't have gone. Half the class wasn't there anyway. What was the reason I wanted to go again? Oh yeah, there was supposed to be a lab in P.E., how was I supposed to know we weren't even going to be evaluated on it. We just went around the room sticking tags onto skeletons. Bah!
[said anything @ 11:46 a.m.]
[Friday, February 15, 2002] The metacarpals are connected to the carpals
AHH!! I've studied more body parts in the past two weeks than I have in my entire life! Why can't they just call the knee cap a knee cap?! Why does it have to be a patella?! Scientists... I just don't understand them.
::sigh:: I feel kind of stupid for yesterday, bawling after W/C. But seriously, why does everyone talk about what I do not wish to hear? HAPPY thoughts people! Don't you have any?! I love angst when it comes to mob fights and romances, but I hate it when it relates so closely to my own. My own angst I have spent lots of time burrying, only to have you people dig it up again now. You little moles. Stay out of my hole!
Ha! Taya-chan! You wrote the best comment in my guestbook! THANK YOU! I'll be using you in an assignment I have to hand in on Tuesday alright? ::kisses:: Yeah, the topic is why I write, I guess I'll find something. I write because I like attention. haha ^^;;
[said anything @ 10:59 p.m.]
[Friday, February 15, 2002] Ahh... the maiden post
Welcome to my new blog. I have been meaning to start one for some time now. I guess I finally got around to it huh??
At least school hasn't been too tough this semester. I got over with all the hard subjects last semester. Now I'm just breezing through. Anyway, I'll post something when I have something to say. I wil leave this new layout untarnished for a little while longer.
Oh, and if you didn't know, the guy who is hiding in the barrel is named hide (pronounced hee-day). He is as close to God-like on the guitar as a mere mortal can possibly get. It's so sad he passed away. Long live hide. RIP.
[said anything @ 06:53 p.m.]
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