I don't see why someone could be a lesbian when guys are so atractive. hehe. But, actually, I just don't get it.
[...Howled|I|06:13 p.m.|Thursday, March 13, 2003|...]
*pinches cheek*
I cannot get over how incredibly adorable Jorden is. EEEE!!
[...Howled|I|05:01 p.m.|Thursday, March 13, 2003|...]
Don't Read
Don't read the long post down there. I was having a breakdown just ignore it.
[...Howled|I|08:28 p.m.|Wednesday, March 12, 2003|...]
bleh
It's hard writing a story about cucumber sandwiches
[...Howled|I|05:40 p.m.|Wednesday, March 12, 2003|...]
My play
I need inspiration
[...Howled|I|05:39 p.m.|Wednesday, March 12, 2003|...]
I DONT GET IT!
When I have a good day I'm sad, when I have a bad day I'm ok.
[...Howled|I|03:39 p.m.|Wednesday, March 12, 2003|...]
Bloody
I hate being a girl
[...Howled|I|03:28 p.m.|Wednesday, March 12, 2003|...]
WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!
Even the sweet message in my g-book only makes me smile a little. This cannot be good/normal/ok.
[...Howled|I|10:10 p.m.|Tuesday, March 11, 2003|...]
Last post
This is my blog, my thoughts so there they are though I am not sure I want you to know, I cannot make myself delete it.
[...Howled|I|10:04 p.m.|Tuesday, March 11, 2003|...]
Thank you
Hilary, I don't deserve you. Thank you for the entry. I've been a big pain lately and I'm trying--really trying not to be. I just feel anti-social/depressed/stressed/lazy/beat, all the time. And I don't want to be around anyone or do anything. And no one seems to understand--but they can't because I don't tell anyone. I'm worried that I might be seriously depressed, but my mom says it just being a teenager, but I don't know. It seems worse, but I can't compare, and I don't know who to go to. I don't want my friends to think I am weird but I just feel like telling someone. I feel like dying sometimes, but I know I never could. I feel like crying all the time or curling up and dying. Maybe my mom doesn't realize how bad it is, maybe I'm overreacting. I don't want to write this but I can't stop now. It feels dark. I feel like yelling at everyone. I used to be so happy. I don't want to do anything. Even fun things. Happy moments only last a while before it gets dark again. I can't stop writing. I feel like a downer and a loser and no fun. But I'm not trying to be. I want to be happy! I do. I'm doing bad in school and I can't concentrate on anything anymore. I feel like crap. I feel like cussing. I feel like dying. I feel like crying. I wish I wasn't writing this but I still am. I don't know if I'll send it. I feel like I'm dragging you with me. But maybe I should tell. Maybe I need help. Maybe I'll get better. Maybe I don't know anything anymore. I feel the tears collect in my eyes as I write this. What the devil is wrong with me. I don't know. I want out. I don't know how this started, and now I am spilling my guts, the scroll bar keeps getting smaller but I can't stop. Somehow I can't. I need sleep, but I hate sleep. No I love sleep. No I just don't know anything anymore. I'm not who I used to be. I'm sorry.
[...Howled|I|09:51 p.m.|Tuesday, March 11, 2003|...]
Falling
"...Falling down. Just say hello to the ground."
I'm waiting for the elevator
[...Howled|I|07:17 p.m.|Monday, March 10, 2003|...]
She's so sweet.
I wouldn't mind having Tavia as a sister-in-law hehehe.
[...Howled|I|08:57 p.m.|Sunday, March 9, 2003|...]
Good works
What better way to spend a day [ryhmes] they helping an old lady?
[...Howled|I|08:05 p.m.|Saturday, March 8, 2003|...]
Ski Free
I have the best computer game in the word on my computer now!!!
[...Howled|I|09:53 p.m.|Friday, March 7, 2003|...]
The pandas are coming
"I'm drunk on Panda Mystery"
[...Howled|I|08:42 p.m.|Thursday, March 6, 2003|...]
PIZZA!
Yay! I get pizza woooooooooo hoooooo
[...Howled|I|05:51 p.m.|Wednesday, March 5, 2003|...]
Whoa,
that's grossly cool
[...Howled|I|05:50 p.m.|Wednesday, March 5, 2003|...]
Makes me happy
I like it when I say the right things.
[...Howled|I|10:03 p.m.|Tuesday, March 4, 2003|...]
Stay Gold Ponyboy
Run around the world with me
State your distance but it's not a million miles away
[...Howled|I|10:02 p.m.|Tuesday, March 4, 2003|...]
Confused
There is a lot of things I don't understand.
[...Howled|I|10:00 p.m.|Tuesday, March 4, 2003|...]
This just in
While reviewing test results Academic "people" discovered that some Oregonian doesn't know how to use space efficiently. She drew her rectangle through the instructions then drew dogs on the left over space. What are they teaching them? Oh yeah, they don't have any money.
[...Howled|I|04:53 p.m.|Tuesday, March 4, 2003|...]
bleh
I hate work
[...Howled|I|04:16 p.m.|Tuesday, March 4, 2003|...]
Eh?
What's breakfast again?
[...Howled|I|03:59 p.m.|Tuesday, March 4, 2003|...]
Things I learned
Being friends with the janitor is the key to a good career
When Brian says he's going to get "candy" it really means music books
I'm lazy
Pig Latin is not considered a second language.
Ms. Shirley is Not a morning person
I like missing Spanish
I'm begining to care less and less about stuff
Cookies are good
I need more sleep
[...Howled|I|03:30 p.m.|Tuesday, March 4, 2003|...]
Hangin' Out Yo
Waiting in front of the school for an hour is my idea of a good time lets see. I watched Vinnie and Kylee flirt, watched Will, Maddie, Jesse, and some other guys take apart Jesse's CD player, then saw Jeff throw part of it in front of some car on accident, got a book thrown at me, then a backpack full of books, tried to fall asleep, almost got gum up my sleeve, watched people try and get on the roof, realized I have like 5 loves, realized I need to clean my Bone, realized that the trumpets know who I am, yelled at Megan about how stupid the field trip was, then realized it wasn't that bad I just wanted to complain,watched Megan show everyone how she had two different socks on, and told a guy I don't even know that he couldn't sit on my bone.
[...Howled|I|08:59 p.m.|Monday, March 3, 2003|...]
More than Fair
"Fair? Look, I saw him up there and I didn't shoot him, and I didn't push him over. I think I was more than fair"
[...Howled|I|08:51 p.m.|Monday, March 3, 2003|...]
Disorders
I thing I'm obsessive-compulsize, I think I am schitzo-phrenic, I think I am stressed, I think I'm depressed, my mom says I am a hyper-condriac, I think I have ADD, I think I am somehow mentally disabled. If you're a lil of all you must me none right? Right.
[...Howled|I|08:31 p.m.|Monday, March 3, 2003|...]
My crazed bone teacher
"Try and play like a 50 year old fat german man instead of a lil white girl that's 14--13? How old are you?"
[...Howled|I|08:29 p.m.|Monday, March 3, 2003|...]
Purple?
What is the deal with purple anyway?
[...Howled|I|08:20 p.m.|Monday, March 3, 2003|...]
Heck,
Why don't we just all waltz to the moon?
[...Howled|I|08:18 p.m.|Monday, March 3, 2003|...]
Waltz to the moon
I miss my music. heh.
[...Howled|I|08:17 p.m.|Monday, March 3, 2003|...]
To previous
And no, I'm not playing favorites it's true.
[...Howled|I|08:16 p.m.|Monday, March 3, 2003|...]
Oh my
The South singers are better than the broadway ones. Hmm, not sure what to say to that.
[...Howled|I|08:16 p.m.|Monday, March 3, 2003|...]
Get Up Kids T-shirt
Yay! My shirts come Friday or Tuesday.
[...Howled|I|08:15 p.m.|Monday, March 3, 2003|...]
Stupid humuans
I don't see why someone would purposly hurt someone else. I just don't get it.
[...Howled|I|06:39 p.m.|Monday, March 3, 2003|...]
Jakey-Boy
I think Jake is my new love. I've become rathar attached and that can't be normal.
[...Howled|I|06:22 p.m.|Monday, March 3, 2003|...]
Easily Amused
The words come out of the wolf's back hahaha.
[...Howled|I|06:21 p.m.|Monday, March 3, 2003|...]
Geez
I act drunk when I am tired
[...Howled|I|06:21 p.m.|Monday, March 3, 2003|...]
Korean Food
Kim-chi looks scary, but Katie thinks its good so we'll see.
[...Howled|I|06:15 p.m.|Monday, March 3, 2003|...]
Forgetful
Why is it so easy to forget how much you like someone during such a short time?
[...Howled|I|06:12 p.m.|Monday, March 3, 2003|...]
Blind?
Some of us can't see past our noses.
[...Howled|I|06:06 p.m.|Monday, March 3, 2003|...]
Field Trip
I don't want to go on the bloody Suess field trip. I wish we could do a real play.
[...Howled|I|08:46 p.m.|Sunday, March 2, 2003|...]
I don't want to be suicidal
[...Howled|I|08:43 p.m.|Sunday, March 2, 2003|...]
Friendship
"If they ever put a bullet through your brain. We'll complain"
[...Howled|I|03:03 p.m.|Sunday, March 2, 2003|...]
Food
There is so much food in our house. They could have another paarty will all that is left. Cast Party Round 2. Please no, unless it's earlier in the day. Or should I say later.
[...Howled|I|03:02 p.m.|Sunday, March 2, 2003|...]
Overcoming fear
I've come to love Jakey-Boy, but he is still scared of me.
[...Howled|I|03:01 p.m.|Sunday, March 2, 2003|...]
*sigh*
Why does Lazelle have to like me? Tho, maybe he doesn't but, he always stares at me and teases me about everything.
[...Howled|I|02:14 p.m.|Sunday, March 2, 2003|...]
Scrampy
Caleb is such a Scramp!!
[...Howled|I|02:14 p.m.|Sunday, March 2, 2003|...]
Anything Goes
I'm never going to get those songs out of my head.
[...Howled|I|02:13 p.m.|Sunday, March 2, 2003|...]
Tavia is so cute!
"I found this dog and I thought it was cute and I don't usually think dogs are cute so I had to get it for you!"
Me: *half asleep at 1:30 AM lying in bed* huh? oh thanks
Now that I am awake I love the lil stuffed dog it is cute!!
[...Howled|I|02:09 p.m.|Sunday, March 2, 2003|...]
Cast Party
I slept through the party. Go me. But they didn't show up until 1 and I was tired.
[...Howled|I|12:56 p.m.|Sunday, March 2, 2003|...]
*sigh*
This is so weird. I wish I was in the cast. The party's at my house but I'm not invited.
[...Howled|I|12:35 a.m.|Sunday, March 2, 2003|...]
And ode to Mr. Rogers
It's a beautiful day in this neighborhood,
A beautiful day for a neighbor.
Would you be mine?
Could you be mine?...
It's a neighborly day in this beauty wood,
A neighborly day for a beauty.
Would you be mine?
Could you be mine?...
I've always wanted to have a neighbor just like you.
I've always wanted to live in a neighborhood with you.
So, let's make the most of this beautiful day.
Since we're together we might as well say:
Would you be mine?
Could you be mine?
Won't you be my neighbor?
Won't you please,
Won't you please?
Please won't you be my neighbor?
[...Howled|I|12:33 a.m.|Sunday, March 2, 2003|...]
Anything Goes
"Cheery Bye!"
[...Howled|I|12:33 a.m.|Sunday, March 2, 2003|...]
Jakey-Boy
Helping me overcome my fear of fish.
[...Howled|I|11:40 p.m.|Saturday, March 1, 2003|...]
Be like the bluebird
"Tweet! Tweet! Tra la, la la, la la"
[...Howled|I|11:39 p.m.|Saturday, March 1, 2003|...]
Anything Goes
"If you're ever down a well ring my bell"
"If you're ever stuck in jail, I'm your bail."
"If you're ever in a mess SOS"
"Friendship, friendship, that's the perfect planship"
"ladeelalala chug chug"
[...Howled|I|11:38 p.m.|Saturday, March 1, 2003|...]
Anything Goes
"Are you sure you can perform the wedding?"
"Sure, I've never done one before but I've had lots of experience with funerals!"
Next Day:
"We are gathered together over the bodies of--I mean we unite this couple in holy..."
[...Howled|I|11:36 p.m.|Saturday, March 1, 2003|...]
Of course
Of course I am proud!!
[...Howled|I|11:36 p.m.|Saturday, March 1, 2003|...]
Nick
I feel like I should be nice to him, but he kinda annoys me, and I'm not sure what terms we are on. I mean we were in band together last year. What does that mean?
[...Howled|I|11:33 p.m.|Saturday, March 1, 2003|...]
Cast Party
Ahhh Hot Guy #1 and Hot Guy #2.5 are coming to my house what do I do???
[...Howled|I|11:09 p.m.|Saturday, March 1, 2003|...]
Yay!
I just ordered two Get Up Kids t-shirts, I can't wait until they come!
[...Howled|I|04:17 p.m.|Saturday, March 1, 2003|...]
happiness
If it makes you happy it can't be bad I wish that was true
[...Howled|I|03:51 p.m.|Saturday, March 1, 2003|...]
falling out
"every hour kills a flower, I am falling out of love with you"
[...Howled|I|03:50 p.m.|Saturday, March 1, 2003|...]
layout
All said and done I'm content with the layout
[...Howled|I|03:16 p.m.|Saturday, March 1, 2003|...]
Lalal
one more post and the scroll bar will come up
[...Howled|I|02:12 p.m.|Saturday, March 1, 2003|...]
bleh
It takes a long time to load the pic
[...Howled|I|02:12 p.m.|Saturday, March 1, 2003|...]
layout
The new layout doesn't look exactly how I want but it'll do.
[...Howled|I|02:11 p.m.|Saturday, March 1, 2003|...]
*SCREAMS IN HAPPINESS*
OMG! ITS GONE!!! YAY!!!
[...Howled|I|01:50 p.m.|Saturday, March 1, 2003|...]
Sigh
Wish I could get rid of the blasted orangeness
[...Howled|I|01:45 p.m.|Saturday, March 1, 2003|...]