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just let me leave, i don't want to deal with any of this. f u c k.
and father and all of his "plans for the house" and his lack of his plans for the "communal family unit" can go to hell. screw life. blah. |
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and you feel like you're collapsing but everyone keeps yelling at you and you just want to sit there and stare |
if the question is "how much does lil hate coming back to salisbury after having lots of fun in richmond?" then the answer would be "a whole lotta lot." and i still have all my homework from this wkend to do, because i'm bad like that. oh well, school... can bite me. oh! one happy thing, i got back, and the first thing i saw was the dave matthews CD, some devil. more on that later, though i'm sure i'll love it.
so what did we do in richmond? well, for one thing, got lost, or at least mother and i did. if *i* had been driving, all would have been well, but no! (sidenote, i have to call to get an appointment to go get my license... wish me luck!) saturday was more fun than friday, let me tell you. i WAS NOT woken up by mom's snoring during the night, so i wasn't tired at all - and that makes for fun. judy, mom and i ate a breakfast of scones with double devonshire cream in ukrop's (best store EVAH!!) and talked for around an hour and a half. then it was decided that we should go find joe doin' his lib-ary thing, and bring a lunch of SUSHI and fruit and peach jam stuff. after much delay, we somehow ended up at a park... a cool park, with a lake and some huge wooden people. yay for strolling along the lake, and around the huge wooden people, and whatnot ;) after some picture-taking, we went and found mikey (he so coo'), and went to the a cappella concert. also coo'. then it was fuddrucker's and bn (caramel brownies and China Wakes!), and a ditching of the mother's... i mean, what? haha, yummmmm. OH and i finally met joey (yeah i did!), kerry and julie. finally. lol, and mikey. we watched trading spaces, yaaaaaaay. anyway, today it was breakfast, walking around UR, and being taught how to knit a poncho by judy. and i WILL be coming up to good old york on the 10th, and the 17th. must find homecoming dress. for under $75, preferabley. huzzah!
bah, i still have to unpack. and homework. should probably go do that....
WE GOT A DIGITAL CAMERA! makes me happy, even though father is irritating in the ways of spending money. oh well. pictures will come soonly, i promise. until then, night, i heart y'all! |
tomorrow = UR = thankgodfinally. lol, i *occationally* miss having people around me who i can talk to.
so we kicked St. Michael's butt today. (doesn't that sound bad? it's a school, really... but their mascot is a saint, and yeah.) bennett's never played them before, so we had no idea how they were going to play (not like i would anyway), but they were annoying, to put it nicely. and their field was wet. and we were the orange lines, NOT the white ones. and that was confusing. why were they annoying? well, i was shoved twice, and called a bitch once. now, when i say "shoved," i don't mean shoved in the the really-competitive-but-sort-of-friendly way. they let go of their sticks with one hand, and hit/pushed you as hard as they could. and our refs were former football players, who showed up in bright pink shirts, so they weren't calling anything. oh, and wouldn't you think the person marking you during a long hit would face THE PERSON TAKING THE HIT? but no, apparently this one girl decided she wanted to stand facing me, stare me in the eyes and say "you bitch." i'm not really used to being called that... so i asked her whether she wanted to play field hockey or not, and if so, the ball is OVER THERE. needless to say, i suppose she eventually figured out where the ball was, and that even though i had gigantic knee braces on, i'm most definitely not a slow person. you don't want to face me during a long hit. what a stupid way to mark! sorry, rant over... but we won 1-0, yaaay.
AND since we were so awesome (and we had 3 games in a row this wk... not that i played in 2 of them...), we DON'T HAVE PRACTICE TOMORROW which means mom and i can leave right from school and drive to UR. though there is apparently no dinner thing or concert, this is still a mighty cool thang.
school, however, is not. i'm giving up and that sucks.
and who is this UR MOM character? uh, randomness. but i'm lazy and don't feel like deleting that entry, so there.
>>phish - bouncing 'round the room
>>followed by DMB Live from Folsom Field Disc 2
>>morning all |
there is a tupperware container of leftover chinese noodles sitting on my desk. i got hungry. that being said, i love DMB. i heart them. there are different degrees of hearting, and though DMB doesn't fall at the top of the list, they're most definitely up there. who else could get 70,000 people to crowd into central park and stand there for hours? and have it be FUN? yeah, that's right, your mom. :)
so joe left today and that was sad. but he woke up when i did and said goodbye (until friday, HAH! take that non-existant family weekend), and that made me happy. as did the notes when i got home. makes a bad day seem somewhat bearable. and speaking of bad days, boy did i have one. it spit in my face and threw me in the dirt.
-fun in math class
-crazy boredom in "ap gov't" (tayn- you'll get another novel soon)
-continuation of boredom in all sucessive classes
-left the only semi-interesting class, physics, to go have the metal in my mouth reworked. this took 2.5 hours, and hurt like whoa.
-was late to detention (duh duh duuuuuuh... scarysoundingmusic) because of said appointment
-discovered that my detention was actually for yesterday. go figure.
-got lost on the way to the room, then got yelled at by a whore-ish looking lady with really long, really fake nails
-because of detention, was late to the fh game. did not play. again, go figure. i'm the watergirl. yaaaaaay.
-i can't move my right arm because of a gigantic knot that has lodged itself in my shoulder muscle (why is that word so hard to spell? muscele... mucsel... musel... roight.) and refused to come out.
somebody come slap me, please. i can't wait until the weekend... 2 days, just 2 days... except i'm missing the OTC dinner, and that sucks. i mean, stinks. yes. sigh.
LOL yes! or not. ewwww.
brig is cool and is talking thai to me right now. rock!
and yeah, i never did finish Light and for some reason it's really bothering me. i've never not finished a novel for school. such a nerd, such an awful, fake, nerd. and i just walked into the bathroom to get a tissue and the toilet paper holder looked like it was really low, and i felt really tall, and it was disorienting. need sleep.
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it's songs like this that make me want to paint again.
but then it ends... and i think "nah" and it's depressing...
and you know that paper that i was supposed to write for tomorrow? well, yeah. mental heath days are starting to become necessities.
on a tangent, The 158-Pound Marriage vas veird. very veird. i guess that's what you get when the book has two "central europeans" in it. heh
and the sad thing is, it took me 5 trys before i figured this out. |
AND IT'S ONLY SATURDAY. and if it wasn't, i'd be screwed, because i still have to write that paper, and, uh, do other hwk. would like to leave salisbury now. [[ it's like hitting your head against a wall ]] over and over again.
still no name for the fish. i don't try hard enough lol
when people are married for over 50 years, they become one person, and it's really hard to argue with yourself. and REALLY FUNNY. "who the hell sets the alarm clock for 7:30???" "i'm sorry!" "BUT YOU FELL BACK ASLEEP!! I got up and did laundry!" "I'm sorry!" "Ugggh! The decadence of today!" "???" "You need to read something other than that stupid horse book!" "But Seabiscuit was... *thinks for a second* COOL" "*gasp* You're turning into... into... a TEENAGER! Soon you'll be standing on the corner with a bong in one hand and a mocha latte in the other." "Because I set the alarm for 7:30?" "YES"
oh man. maybe you had to be there... but i love ainee and pop pop. gonna go read now, wonder how YS football did...? wish i could've gone and watched, because i'm still in love with suburban like that. not like THAT, but you get it. ah, i'll leave now. sorry for the ranting, i'm sooo bored. :P
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for some reason this made me laugh:
Fuzzer330: i wanna see the monty python that has the song "i'm a lumber jack and i'm ok......" i loooooooove that song!
Auto response from LiL6471: the joys of monty python:
"'E's not pinin'! 'E's passed on! This parrot is no more! He has ceased to be! 'E's expired and gone to meet 'is maker! 'E's a stiff! Bereft of life, 'e rests in peace! If you hadn't nailed 'im to the perch 'e'd be pushing up the daisies! 'Is metabolic processes are now 'istory! 'E's off the twig! 'E's kicked the bucket, 'e's shuffled off 'is mortal coil, run down the curtain and joined the bleedin' choir invisibile!!He's f**kin' snuffed it!..... THIS IS AN EX-PARROT!"
Fuzzer330: yea, i don't understand that
thanks, tayn :)
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whoo-oooo-oooa! everyone's gotta get themselves one of those! people are so weird. |
so.... i have to read like 200 pages of light tonight, but since we went to the doylestown bookstore (i forget what it's actually called), i'm now reading thorton wilder's play "The Skin of Our Teeth." Es muy bueno. I almost got a book of Pablo Neruda's poetry, but opted for some John Irving instead: The 158-Pound Marriage. Yay for reading, since that's all I've been doing lately, as a result of, um, no social life. That's what happens when you move to Salisbury, so don't move there. I talked to Tayn for a nice long while tonight, and we decided that we need to make t-shirts that say "I survived Salisbury MD." :)
hehe, Pop Pop just yelled at Laura for having a burned/downloaded CD. "THIS IS ILLEGAL!!!!!!!" and now Lauras yelling at me for being online for "too long" because she NEEDS TO TALK TO SOMEONE even though she's been online all day long. we should take her computer away, and see how long she survives. i'd guess around 12 hours, because you can't sleep for much longer than that. yes, so anyway, i'm gonna go read some more, maybe sleep a little, and eat some yummy shortbread-type cookies. yay for joe, he so coo' :) |
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at ainee's now, and watching anger management while talking to josé, reading light in august, and eating dark chocolate hershey's kisses. yum! ocracoke (sp?) is underwater : |
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just came on the radio, and it still makes me cry... sigh |
so, first of all this site is good. a step in the right direction - we love crazy MIT students, i suppose. :)
so how was my day you ask? well, i walked into the middle of a fight, was hit on by four separate, though equally creepy guys, and read an entire issue of discover in spanish class. go figure, right? oh, and we won our hockey game... i mean, we CREAMED mardela. they shouldn't have even showed up! 7-0, yeah baby. and north dorchester tomorrow = long bus ride = getting out at 2:10 = yay! will now go help the 'rents move stuff inside so it won't fly away. we don't know if we're leaving yet, though if isabel decides to come up the bay then we'll be outta here - either to york or bucks county, both of which will still get hit pretty hard with rain and whatnot, i'm sure. and have fun in richmond! :) love y'all, call me! |
so now dad's freaking out about hurricane isabel... and has run out to get batteries. proactive father!
now this! just thought i'd share. |
so, this weekend was fuuuuuuuun. the ampitheater was really really nice (especially the grass!), and dave was great - he's a funny dancer :) they didn't play ants marching though. booooooooo.
it's been a year.
and julia told me aboutthis while i was at the concert. i was in a bus accident when i was little. definitely not good. when they say "taken to the hospital" it makes me very nervous... glad everyone's ok though. go big dogs! |
FINALLY!!!!!!!! tomorrow is the 13th... and the next day is the 14th, and oh man am i happy. school lasted forever today, but no matter, because it's T MINUS ZERO DAYS. and we didn't have hockey practice, so now i have time to do all my homework, and finish priestess, and PACK. it's supposed to rain tomorrow too, i'm kinda hoping the game'll be cancelled so i don't have to wait even longer to leave :) bad me.
guess what else?? I CAN'T FACTOR! i know math isn't my thing, but uh, i never learned how to do this. i've figured out the really simple ones, but after that... yeah, it's not good. switching schools sucks, because they were doing all this when i left YS, they don't learn it until geometry at whoops (i was in alg 2), and they learned it last year at bennett. so. lil is screwed. lol, yes!
i hate my spanish class. will switch out of it.
DMB AND JOE SOON AHHHHHHH
is it bad when you start talking to your fish? uh, i mean... when your friends starts talking to their fish? roight. i still don't have a name for mine. please give me ideas!! poor little guy.
must register for the PSAT and SAT.
mom uncovered a huuuge gas station plot. they make the squeeze handle thing really sensitive, so that when you just take it out of the cradle it senses it and charges you 20 cents. and you don't get any gas, because hey, the nozzle isn't even in the tank yet. we're definitely being cheated. make a difference - complain about super sensitive nozzle thingys. i want an oreo.
sorry for all caps and bold and whatnot. AM SO HAPPY.
tayn - call meeeeeee, julia and sarah toooo, and nadia and zarin and laura and jean and becky and anyone else who reads this! (bridget - go get that cell phone :) ) please! i miss you guys (like whoa)! anyone find a homecoming dress yet? i found this really really cool one online, but a) it's beaded and joe would kill me, and b) it's too much moolah. oh well. lets go shopping!
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ps. um, so today's apparently "patriot day." whoever thought of that should shove it, because you don't call a day when so many people died an effing patriot day. |
haha such a good song :)
September 11, 2003 - uberhappy 15 months, but then again, it's also been 2 years since 9-11-01. so much has changed since that horrible morning... we now have a department of homeland defense, color-coded national security levels, the patriot act, heightened airport security... the list continues. as americans, the most we can do is to never forget those who lost their lives, and continue to educate ourselves about what's happening in the world today. for starters, this amazes me. a positive thing for september 11, 2003.
on another note, we won our hockey game :) not only did we win, we dominated the entire time, scored with a stroke, and we were playing parkside! haha 3-1, we win. on yet another note, i just have to get through school and practice tomorrow, saturday morning, and then it's down to VA beach for dmb, and JOE. i have to keep reminding myself that we're going to the concert too, because for awhile there i was just getting excited about seeing JOE, and then this morning i realized, hey, not only do i get JOE, i get to go to the concert too! so now i'm like so excited i could just fall over and laugh, except i'm sure the laughter would turn to tears. because that's how life seems now.
for anyone who's looking for a book to read, i highly recommend the Avalon series by Marion Zimmer Bradley. maybe it's just because i love the king arthur stories (start with mists of avalon if you like that), but i love these books. they're all written from the women's point of view (usually a good thing :) ), and they'll give you a new perspective on religion. so, go read now my little chickadees, unless you have some crazy homework stuff to do. like me. but i'm gonna go read now anyway... Priestess of Avalon, yay!
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had to fight to keep from crying in physics, got stung by a bee at practice, had to fight to keep from crying while doing hwk, went downstairs to my sister in tears, came back upstairs and called sarah and tayn. so, that was my day, how was yours? |
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grammar is so very irritating. |
love this song!
the college thing with father was less painful than i expected it to be, and surprisingly, we didn't kill each other.
lindsay's master plan of stuff to do to keep busy until next summer so she won't go insane :
1. get license (woot!)
2. figure out a way to get the 'rents to by me a beat up old car
3. read. a lot.
4. practice flute, and learn guitar
5. hold random rave parties, invitation only. :)
6. take the train up to UConn to shadow Aunt Kris for a wk. maybe visit the Buglis in newburyport too. shall be fun :D
7. visit Duke, Tufts, and any other place that pops into my head
8. start best buddies at bennett
9. take things aquired in #s 1 and 2, and visit joe and mis amigos de YORK!
10. run track, yay!
11. paint room
12. convince mother that she needs to start a coffeehouse! ohmansocool! what would we call it? hmm... but really, it would totally be right up her alley - coffee + books + decorating + art + mad people skills... we'd have to work on the business side of it though i suppose. GO MOM!
13. convince parents to let me go to peru with the visions program thing. would also be cool.
yes. i am so organized :) now to think about how much i don't want to go to school. to drop spanish and take AP chem... or not to drop spanish and take AP chem... that my friends, is the question. need... guidance counselor... ugh! bad thoughts! |
Oh your reputation is so golden
youre never lonely and youre never home
I know you've been talking about leaving
you've lost all your feelings for this town.
Paint your nails and put on your lipstick
you don't want to miss your ticket out.
Just because you graduate from school
so high in the gene pool that's point of view.
But when your broken and down and no one else is around
You'll come running back to this town and
I'll be there, yeah I'll be there.
Cause I remember how we shared time together
and how you used to say that the stars are forever.
And dreamed about how to make your life better by
leaving town, leaving town.
Pack your bags, your smokes in your pocket
Your wearing my locket around your neck
Take your drag and wait for the Greyhound
the world is your playground and you want to win.
But when your broke and down and no one else is around.
You'll come running back to this town and
I'll be there, yeah I'll be there.
Cause I remember how we shared time and
how you used to say that the stars are forever.
And dreamed about how to make your life better by
leaving town, leaving town.
Nothing in life will ever come that easy.
Doesn't mean it has to be that hard.
I know you will find out who you are
But when your broke and down and no one else is around.
You'll come running back to this town and
I'll be there, yeah I'll be there.
Cause I remember how we shared time together
and how you used to say that the stars are forever.
And dreamed about how to make your life better by
leaving town, leaving town.
Yeah I remember how we shared time together and
how you used to say that the stars are forever.
And dreamed about how to make your life better by
leaving town, leaving town.
Your leaving town, yeah
so, that's my theme song for... i dunno what. sounds kinda like what i wanna do, except i'll just go back to york. so, yeah.
a recap of my last few days:
Wednesday - first day of school. it royally sucked, for lack of a better adjective (sorry mom). was definitely in a mindset along the lines of "whew, this isn't any fun, glad i can just leave. SHIT, WAIT! i have NINE FREAKING MONTHS TO GET THROUGH." hot damn. oh, and my stuff got locked in a gym locker, so the dean of students had to cut the combination lock off with these gigantic scissor things (i can't think of the word :) ).
Thursday - got up early to get to Dunkin Donuts at 7:15 for breakfast with the hockey girls. ate half of a yummy blueberry muffin, then got a ride with jess to school. school = blah. spent 5th period in physics writing a note to tayn and trying not to cry. definitely not fun. then there was a thunderstorm!!! ahhh i love them! so, that cheered me up some, but then we couldn't have the hockey game, so that pissed me off. wore that silly kilt to school for nothing! and DID NOT appreciate the comment the girl at lunch made - i CAN'T HELP that my kilt's so freaking long, i have to wear it, and you don't, so don't act like it's killing you thanks!
Friday - holymotherTGIF. have never been so happy to see a friday in my entire life. didn't want to get out of bed AT ALL. went to school, it sucked, spent the day trying not to cry... left early for an ortho appointment... yay for no spanish or "intro to engineering!" the ortho told me that my jaw isn't aligned correctly. sheez. was also told that i get to wear braces for AT LEAST another year. what the fro?! went back to bennett for hockey practice, but left my backpack in mom's car. ok, so my backpack had my agenda in it, which had my combo lock # in it. not good. sprinted back outside to try to get to the car before mom pulled out... got within 2 ft of it, and SHE LEFT. long story short,
gah. i am now the new kid, the injured kid, and the kid who can't handle combination locks. go me! meh... we had to go to granny's for the night, because they were staining the hardwood floors here. stayed up watching Billy Elliot (good good movie - go watch!) with mom and laura, while granny snored, and dad was being antisocial. fell asleep to the sounds of rockappella :)
Today - SLEPT IN. then got... drum roll pah-leeease... a cell phone! haha finally, after getting stuck at school for three days straight. so, it's cool, but now the text messaging won't work. want to fix it, but don't know how. it's the LG VX4400 one, if anyone knows anything a'tall about cell phones... please help me out? had really good dominoe's pizza for dinner, while watching the UMD vs FSU football game. would've rather been watching YS vs Littlestown, but eh, football is football. i just like cheering for crazy-cool joe hill. soo... GO JOE HILL! :) go Joe Leece too, and OTC! can't wait to hear 'em sing ;) speaking of that, i can't wait for next wkend either! it'll be spent in VA beach with joe and mom (hopefully more joe than mom), and DMB on sunday night! ahh so fun! but for now it's goodnight my little chickadees, and CALL ME! tomorrow is my laundry, homework, and college financial aid presentation thing day. would definitely appreciate social contact! <3
PS. i was thinking about you YS hockey girls, how'd the DTown Tourny go? didja kick some boo-tay? and how'd the Tea release party go? ahh miss everyone so much... |
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i am so tired. as in, drop down dead tired. let me tell you, if i hadn't known people from field hockey today, i think i would've gone more than a little crazy. bennett is a maze to me right now, and i would really like to just go back to YS... and i'm afraid of digging myself into a hole like what happened at whoops. meh meh meh. but i'll be ok eventually i suppose. just hope that i find someone that i can really talk to soon. i need a movie night or something. or a phone call... please? i'm sick of being the outsider, and then hearing that stupid accent everywhere i go... gah. |
score: lil - 1, printer - 0; lil - 1, school - 0. i kicked those stupid papers all the way to australia baby, but now i have to print out some sparknotes on cry, the beloved country, and actually read 3 other essays by virginia woolf. then SLEEP in all it's wonderful forms. i seriously can't wait until the wkend, and hey, school hasn't even started yet. i still have my 7 hours of freedom :)
word of the day: makar (n) a poet.
song of the day: circle game - joni mitchell and james taylor
an appropriate song for the beginning of school i think. now to pack my backpack, hockey bag, and get some shut-eye. |
almost passed out at practice. meh. came home and drank the last of the gatorade, ate some hint of lime chips (yum!) and felt all better. now it's back to gulliver, i suppose. so much for getting the paper done tonight... maybe i'll be good and finish the book, then start the paper at like midnight tonight. so maybe i'll finish tomorrow morning? woot!
now that school's almost upon me, i've decided that i'm ok with it. not that i have any choice in the matter, but still, it has to count for something, right? i just don't want the leaves to turn pretty colors yet. not yet, we have to get a hammock first. and i can't wait until the dave concert, family wkend, then HOMECOMING! i get to see you, and you, and you, and you again! and give you a present! fun times shall be had by all :) |
so, half an hour until it's september. what happened to the summer? nothing's changed, this happens every year... yet so much has changed. hrm.
we're back from ainee's, and we have two totally awesome oriental (or persian? one of the two) rugs. i mean, they're effing GORGEOUS, and we walk in... and dad hates them. oh well, he has to live with it.
"and rain falls, angry on the tin roof; as we lie awake in my bed... i'll be captivated, i'll hang from your lips... and i'll be your cryin' shoulder, i'll be your love superstar..."
more tomorrow, for i have much reading (and BSing) to do. |
meh. i can't believe it's already been 2 years...
we leave for ainee's tomorrow morning - thank goodness for labor day and a little break from field hockey. but dude, i have a lot of english crap to do. mrrh. |
yay for kicking some butt at the pokomoke playday! (even if i didn't really play...) we won 3, lost 1, and tied 1, i think. at least, that's what coach said when we got back. but yes, it was sooo hot. the heat index was up around 105º. everyone was getting dehydrated, and well, that's bad. hopefully today's practice won't be too hard - i can finally practice again. we shall see. oh, and i got a cool hockey t shirt at the playday. it has elephants on it! if i had a digital camera i'd take a picture and put it up here, just to show y'all the total awesomeousity of it :) practice today is from 3:30 - 5:30, then we have a team dinner at 7. salad and bread for all! lol...
i also get to pack a bunch of bags for ainee's this wkend, then for field hockey and school, because when we get back the hardwood floor guys will be working their magic on our floors. we get to stay at granny's for the first couple days of school... meh.
and summer reading! and paper writing! all to be done in 5 days! while staying at the grandma's! where the computer doesn't work! hrm... |
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i'm sitting here trying to figure out how the HELL i'm gonna be able to wear shin guards with these knee braces. it's gonna be soooooo uncomfortable. also: two towers came out! woot!! |
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