life of a flamingo who has flown way too far south

Monday, 1.20.03--05:04 p.m.
cnn.... nbc....etc

ok! dream time... whenever i remember my dreams (which is rare) i write them down as soon as i can, so this is what i wrote down four mornings ago:

Useless and I were at my house (the REAL one) and we decided we wanted little chips ahoy cookies, so we walked down to the Strausbaughs, where Jaimie answered the door. Lousie and Olivia were there too, and Penny had a Whoops skirt on her head. Eric and I couldn't remember what we had come for, but then Jaimie went downstairs and came back up dressed funny. Then Eric and Jaimie went downstairs and I went into the den-ish thing. Lousie and Olivia stayed where they were, but Joe and Leah popped up and joined me on the couch. Dad came up from the basement without a shirt on and gave me a lampshade. Then he told us to watch what we were watching cuz there were little kids. Joe said, "oh, don't worry, it's just HBO," and dad said, "exactly!" Joe and Leah and I just looked at each other; Dad disappeared. Then we all got up and went into the kitchen - it was the same layout as our [REAL] house, but the tan colors of the kitchen here. Leah leaned back on the counter, watching TV, and Joe leaned on the opposite counter and grabbed the clicker. I was eating something, and i remember feeling foolish. Then I saw this snake with a paper towel over it in a colander that was in the sink. I put my hand on it... no idea why. Then I stopped andsomeone said, "ahhhhh, snake!!" and I thought, "oh crap, I touched it." Then someone said it was poisonous. I walked away, and checked out my hand, and on the palm near the wrist there were two red marks. I got really scared and ran around, but no one seemed concerned. There were two other snakes loose, but i ended up just plopping down in a kitchen chiar asking if we could go to the hospital. Well, we never did, bbut this guy that looked like the Dr. from the Ghost and the Darkness came over and asked me to tell him about any previous scary experience I'd had with my job. I remember being annoyed, but telling him stuff anyway. I relived it as I told it, sort of like in the Christmas Carol... In the same house a mother had brought her REALLY LITTLE (Owen Meany-esque) daughter to me - but the child had no legs! (whoa, i just remembered that thats how Owen died... weirdness.) She had a dress on, but no legs sticking out. I got the impression that it was because of a snake. I don't remember doing anything for the girl, but then I saw her after she had grown up. She still didn't have legs, and someone said something about 48 years. She had two children though, a boy and a girl. The boy was talking about the woman (who still had the same dress on, only larger)walking on her non-existant legs. Then I woke up, right as the woman was walking out the door.

Strange, huh? When I remember dreams, I REMEMBER them :)

Sunday, 1.19.02--11:35 p.m.
hola chica

i want to live in richmond. you in? hah, yes! rockapella was uberawesome and really funny to boot... time for hwk type stuff. i'll type more quotes and a dream i had up later... hasta luego~

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Thursday, 1.16.03--05:36 p.m.
wha.. wha wha da daaa

so here i am... looking forward to snow and possibly no school tomorrow! that'd be great cuz i'd get to leave for richmond early, and i wouldn't have to sit through yet another day of private school. man, it's really different, and i'm pretty sure i don't like it all that much, but we'll see... so, yeah, laura mom and i are gonna go visit joe and his mom, and see a rockapella concert tomorrow, and life will be good :)

reading atlas shrugged... the librarians assistant here hadn't heard of it.. yeah. anyway:

"He wished she were back in New York. If she were, he would have gone there, now, at once, in the middle of the night."

"She had tried to think, but she could see no way of fighting, no rules of battle, no weapons. Helplessness was a strange experience, new to her; she had never found it had to face things and make decisions; but she was not dealing with things - this was a fog without shapes or definitions, in which something kept forming and shifting before it could be seen, like semi-clots in a not-quite-liquid - it was as if her eyes were reduced to side-vision and she were sensing blurs of disaster coiling toward her, but she could not move her glance, she had no glance to move and focus."

"The boy had no inkling of any concept of morality; it had been bred out of him by his college; this had left him an odd frankness, naive and cynical at once, like the innocence of a savage."

there's another one i want to add, but i'm tired of typing, and should go pack for richmond :) yay! but think about those quotes... it's really cool, ayn rand writes so well - lots of awesome descriptions that are poetry and just add more to the story... adios por ahora, me

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Wednesday, 1.15.03--09:15 a.m.
blah

ok, so here i am, WAY too far south, and i just wanna come home... i miss everyone and everything so incredibly much. we got snow this morning, maybe half an inch of it, and they gave us a 2 hr delay :) so life isn't all bad, i guess. time to go shower, i'll be back later.

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Monday, 12.23.02--01:09 a.m.
getting the words wrong wasting the meaning

so i went and saw two towers at midnight last tuesday night, and it was so much fun. especially being sleep deprieved the next day and sleeping through a history test, literally :) i really liked the movie, just like everyone else. well, not everyone liked it, usually because the movie doesn't remain true to the book at all. but hey, it's a movie, so you're gonna get some of the hollywood stuff, that doesn't make it a bad movie. if you want the real thing you have to go read the book, that's all there is to it. gollum was so great in the movie though. such a schitz. anyway, we went and saw it again on friday, and i swear half the theater was full of suburban people. we had the best seats in the house: back row center. plus, we had SWORDS! ahahaha! courtesy of chris, i thank you my friend. gotta love the plastic golf tube things. so OF COURSE we had to have a swordfight after the movie, and OF COURSE we had to take pictures. it was epic, the dark side clashing with the light side and all that. it was all set to theme music too, or at least the final battle was. heh, good times, let me tell you. we got harassed by rent-a-cops too ("what's that you've got there?" "oh, they're just plastic...") they must really hate lotr people. they wouldn't let us take a picture with them either! ("uh, mmmhrhmp, cameras aren't allowed in the mall") can you imagine? lol. so we didn't get thrown out like expected, but we still had a heck of a lot of fun. tonight was dane's party, too. that was the best party i've been to in awhile, if not the best one. must do that again soon. A-S-S-H-O-L-E. ahem, yes. now to finish decorating our xmas tree, go look at the stars, wrap some xmas presents, finish some cds, and maybe think about sleeping. just think, a monday night and no school tomorrow. life is so good sometimes.

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Tuesday, 12.17.02--07:40 p.m.
drove my chevy to the levee

AHAHAHAHAHA! english debate over, don't care about school AT ALL anymore. what a great feeling. sigh. but yes! gonna go put my eng notecards in order, then look at history then sleep 'cause we're gonna go see the premiere of Two Towers at midnight! ohmanhowfun. life is good, no matter what they tell you. LotR makes it good. that and summer, but anyway... go listen to american pie!

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Wednesday, December 11, 2002--12:49 p.m.
i must go there to find my soul yeah

O Mount Kailas, uncover me;
Come my restoration, wash my body clean.

I’ve been walking along the crooked path
Where the walls have fallen and broken me in half.

I’m telling you,
I will not rest till I lay down my head.
I’m gonna go in the house of stone and light.

I shall not cry
For the blind man I leave behind
When I go in the house of stone and light,
In the house of stone and light.

awesome song, i used to listen to it on my little portable radio while sitting on my bed at like 8 at night while we lived in hunt valley.

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Wednesday, 12.11.02--12:38 p.m.
eat drink and be merry

ohgodamsohappy! snow days are soo wonderful! laura woke me up at 10 this morning, and informed me that "your not in school right now!" and i attacked her and gave her a huge hug and all was well. so, we have icicles that are two feet long hanging from our windows, and i'm blasting dmb while dancing around singing into a pen. life is good, eh? also: 6 months! love you!

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Sunday, 12.8.02--01:24 a.m.
california here we come right back where we started from

whoa, it's the month 12 already. just realized that... i'm listening to salisbury hill, and tears in heaven, and shadow stabbing and whole bunch of other songs that remind me of last summer. that was the best summer ever, and i didn't figure that out until around a month ago. nostalgia... anyway, just got back from a concert with tayn. heh, we got really cool shirts, they say "get up" on the back. and nothing could be cooler. bwhahaha. also, i figured out that life isn't as complicated as everyone makes it out to be. stuff would be so much easier if i just didn't care, but i'm not gonna go into anything with that mindset, so scratch that thought. in other news, i get to be an elf tomorrow. that should be interesting, if not fun. we'll see. maybe i'll go fall asleep while writing by candlelight, like i did last night. it was nice. plus: dashboard confessional. night all.

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Friday, 12.6.02--10:32 p.m.
something your eyes never told me

blue reflection on the snow... so poetic :) apple crisp,. butt-sliding, and sledding on wyndham. i love snow days.

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Tuesday, 12.03.02--06:49 a.m.
juicyfruit

i really wish i could just sleep when i need it, and go to school *awake* for once. that would be such a nice change, except I'd probably end up waking up at noon then going to school at around 2, then come home the required 7 hours later. 7 freaking hours. and maybe an hour, tops, is spent actually learning something useful.. ah well. time to steal a shower.

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Friday, November 29, 2002--12:16 p.m.

yes.

and thanksgiving was fun. monopoly with pop pop, laura and joe. and a red foam thing.

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Sunday, 11.24.02--11:44 p.m.
yeah

forgot to talk about sparky and clarke's the other night. was veery nice. i got tea shirt. they good. heh :) but really, tea is great. it was packed, suburban people, west york people, and parents. over 100 of us, i'm sure. at one point i was sitting in a corner. and coffe, good coffee. and the party at leahs house afterwards, with lots of green tea, oolong tea, and temple massages for all. staying up til 3:30 was fun too. now, back to hwk... blah

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Sunday, 11.24.02--11:36 p.m.
rains down in africa

to inner haror for the day with some of the coolest people i know. i love this place. however much we talk about how we're gonna leave york as soon as we get the chance, maybe it won't work like that. but: the chesapeake is really beautiful at night, and i wanted to paint it. on dane's hand. only, we didn't have paint. i don't think he would've let me do it anyway. oh well. fudrucker's is awesome, lots of food for not too much moolah = good. especially the free refills on the drinks :) scotland road (the play we saw... the excuse for being down there) was so unbelieveable cool. i wanted to see it again, but alas, it was not to be. heh, we had to go grab dinner, run away from people, hang out in barnes and noble, and steal pennies from sculptures. oh, and get checked out by creepy barnes and noble employees. that was just strange.... and then we slept on the way home. i love that.

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Wednesday, 11.20.02--08:25 p.m.
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mmm... just a little longer til thanksgiving.

time for more homework... i remember in middle school when we would always talk about how cool high school would be. i would always say that i could wait for it, that i didn't necessarily want to go. not that we had a choice...

ps. i don't like trying to talk like an old person. i wanna be young for as long as i can, thanks...

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Wednesday, 11.20.02--10:58 a.m.
also

they have tea-shirts! how cool is that?

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Wednesday, 11.20.02--10:53 a.m.
open your eyes

it's really nice out today. a day for running, i suppose, after hwk and michael's. it's terible to just try to live from day to day, but that's what's happening. but i painted last night. in the middleof the kitchen... i need to find a place where i can set up an easel and not be forced to take it down every 3 seconds. like in my room. but that's not gonna happen. now, "spring and summer, fall and winter, and spring again; after each other drifting, past my window drifting..." what fun. sha!

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Monday, 11.18.02--04:19 p.m.
they say she had a heat attack

note: call mrs. c back.

"To be a revolutionary one must at least have a vision of the future and a plan to effect fundamental changes." said the philisophical one... "Now there were only himself and the line of white. He felt himslf going faster and faster with every step: but at the same time he was slowing-up to motionless. He was a runner in a frieze, the lover in Keats' Ode, for ever astrain and for ever doomed to remain on the same spot... There ws no good, no evil, no success, no failure. There was only the man eternally running, eternaly motionless." god i love running.

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Thursday, 11.14.02--08:43 p.m.
the seduction

i need to figure out how to:

a) buy a stand up easel
b) speak correctly
c) paint

dern it. i think the school lunch food was laced or something today, ive had the worst headache since i ate those mashed potatoes.

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Thursday, 11.14.02--08:34 p.m.
night so fine.. eh... stay?

ok, so now i finally have TIME to paint or draw or do SOMETHING creative. where do i end up? on the computer. ok, i have a good reason, really. i can't think of anything to paint. sadness... i think i'm just gonna go mess around, and generally waste paint.

also: went to see the tea studio or loft or whatever they're calling it. i was there a lot over the summer, but hadn't seen it finished until now. again, sadness... but it's possibly the coolest room i've ever seen. man. everyone go here ok? and come to the coffeehouse on friday! and sparky and clarke's the friday after that. tea for everyone. now, to paint.

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Wednesday, 11.13.02--09:54 p.m.
waaaaiting

in the midst of all this crap called life through the eyes of a stressed girl, it's weird to think that summer will come again.

another weird thing: this is the first time in a long time that i haven't felt like i have to be doing something. is nice. ::relax:: until tomorrow at least. grammar sucks.

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Tuesday, 11.12.02--07:13 a.m.
sha

i don't feel so wonderful today. and it's rainy. i like rain. i don't like school, nor do i like sitting in my room for 3 hrs doing hwk. ah well.

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Monday, 11.11.02--06:47 a.m.
make a wish

ahhhh. why is it monday again??? dammit. too much i haven't done. time to get a shower and drag my poor body outside.

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Sunday, 11.10.02--06:53 p.m.
vulcanized ruber

so, here i am watching the discovery channel. this stuff is so great, i mean, where else could you learn about the nile, roman sweat and what the greeks used sheep's bellies for? it's one of the small joys of life i guess. a thought: i miss last spring and summer so much. it's one of those times that you don't realize how much fun it was, until you hit autumn. gah. i would do anything to go back to that. well, almost anything. nothing involving sheep's bellies though. laura and dad are downstairs watching some dennis quaid movie, mom's making dinner, joe's in the car driving back to richmond, and here i am, not doing homework. oh well. i don't understand anything anymore. i have no idea what i'm doing. gah. school can go jump off a cliff. that'd be amusing, actually. teehee. all the leaves are falling, and you can't tell the grass from the driveway in our yard. next friday will be raking day. but it's depressing, i didn't really go outside at all this weekend, except for a ten minute bike ride on saturday night, and to read candide in the "hammock" at dusk this afternoon. so i've pretty much missed all the bright red, yellow and orange leaves and the gorgeous weather. wanna know why? hmm? SCHOOL goddamn it. and JOE. mrh! it's all your fault :) weekends fly, and the weekdays crawl. i can't wait for thanksgiving... but on the other hand, it can stay away. far FAR away. yesh. oh, by the way, NEVER read 20,000 leagues under the sea. have i said that before? yes, of course, so: DON'T READ IT. horrible stuff it is. heh. however, DO read candide, and anything voltaire. no classifications there... at least no fish. ::shiver:: time to draw don quixote, 2002 style.

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Saturday, 11.9.02--12:34 p.m.
every move will hypnotize you

and so i have wasted much time. oh well. now, to frantically try to get homework and such done. i can't stand the fun! i can't stand it! aaahahahaha!! good lord i need a vacation. the ketchup song is funny, go listen to it, ok? so, ANYWAY, we went a-bowlin' last night. country glow bowling. it was fun, i hadn't been bowling in something like a year, and i didn't do too badly. joe and i tied at 108 at the last game, and mom beat us by one point. :) then we watched the little mermaid until we were all pretty much asleep. mmm, i didn't wanna get up, but it was 1 am. dads still not home, and i remain happy. i leave on that note... maybe to run?

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