are you ok, annie? Wednesday, 10.29.03 :: 11:03 p.m. hehe, just took the EMode IQ test and i scored a 129. is that good? am i stupid? :) apparently that means i am a "spatial liguist." according to EMode, this means i am "highly intelligent and have the natural fluency of a writer and the visual and spatial strengths of an artist. Those skills contribute to [my] creative and expressive mind." amen to that. and the math? me no like math. SAT in t minus 3 days, meh. i need to get better. yeah i do.

brrr dum dum dum Wednesday, 10.29.03 :: 07:45 p.m. mmm, i'm wearing socks that my mommy knitted me! <3 mom a lot! usually... :) also received not one, but TWO (yes, TWO) letters from tayn today. she is AWESOME! *and* she's in NHS! haha, even though we don't like NHS, go tayn! -- 3 and a half hours later... -- yeah, so i went and ate dinner - mostly applesauce. mmm, applesauce. i also did part of an SAT prac test, and helped my sister with her math homework. remember how word problems used to SUCK? yeah, i'm definitely revisiting that point in life :) oh, and i got a 98% on a paper that i wrote in under an hour, on a book that i only read maybe a third of. take that, AP english, TAKE THAT.

Tuesday, 10.28.03 :: 09:00 p.m. shit now i'm crying, and he just keeps on talking. STOP

i think i am a llama Tuesday, 10.28.03 :: 08:34 p.m. it's been raining for a while now and things work in cycles. currently i'm in the stage where i'm too tired to do anything, and i've run out of tears. my mind keeps whirling though, grinding through the same thoughts over and over again, continuously slamming them against a glass wall. fuck what am i doing what is laura doing and where the hell are we why do things happen like this and why does no one care i want to be anywhere but here but nothing's the same despondency polar opposites being forced together BAD shit there's a breaking point you can't run on a low-power generator forever and what happened to passion it's evanesced seemingly ephemeral just take a shot and everything'll be all right all right oh and who's that oh you well isn't that grand silent scream everything is so blank. and i'm sure this isn't helping my battle with the flu, because there's no reason to get better right now, really. and so i sleep. i know how you feel, at least in one aspect. and i wish i could remember how it felt to not be thinking all of this. i'm sure i miss it, desperately.

WTF, mates? Monday, 10.27.03 :: 09:21 p.m. still sick. cannot stop sneezing. did you know that your heart skips a beat not only whenever you see someone whom you really really like, but also everytime you sneeze or hiccup? am thinking this is not good. i wonder if there's a limit to how many beats your heart can skip before it says, "oh, this is stupid" and decides to permanently skip. do not want heart to stop functioning the next time i see josé (whenever that is), so i have a suggestion to self: STOP SNEEZING. *sniffle* so what did i do today? slept. also ate some toast, a fig newton, and soup. and drank a lot of hot tea. loving the hot tea right now. with honey. mmm... back to reading. The End of the World. the part about CA breaking off at the end made me laugh.

things that make lil happy Sunday, 10.26.03 :: 01:00 a.m. mint chocolate chip ice cream watching the Yankees lose. haha, yeah they did! watching 3 fairly decent movies in a row, thanks to HBO getting a letter from tayn realizing that hey, it's not 1 am, it's 12 am! poems by e. e. cummings, specifically "1x1" actually understanding harry potter in spanish being able to say "oh shit!" (¡caray!) and "oh, fuck it!" (¡chingalo!) in spanish. useful, sí? finding a spanish rap version of bohemian rhapsody clean clothes still warm from the dryer doing NOTHING for the entire day. mmm.

meh Saturday, 10.25.03 :: 08:12 p.m. ugh, so sick. laura's fish died. mom threw it in the trash, and all was well. i'm scared. also: father dearest moved his computer shiznit into the "study," the room below my room. i can now here the tappety tap tap of his keyboard, even with my door closed. oh, and all of his "UGGGGGHAHACOUGHCOUGHs." gah.

sing if you're with me Friday, 10.24.03 :: 06:18 p.m. ¿Quién lee los libros en español en las noches de viernes? ¡Yo! jaja, porque no tengo nada mejor hacer... y español es... cómo se dice... ¿fresco? ¿eso tiene sentido? Quién sabe. En todo caso, aquí están algunos buenos weblogs en español que he encontrado. Intente leerlos, es divertido: pjorge.com, y cada vez me levanto. Ahora, tomaré un siesta. Mmm, siesta... El aire libre es oscuro ahora, ¿qué sucedió al verano?

meh Friday, 10.24.03 :: 12:20 p.m. addiction city. i remember playing that almost every day in computer class with mr. wint in middle school. good times :) feel as if head will implode at any moment. will go read/lie down now. [EDIT] more link spam... a strange story about death. i'm in the process of re-reading it.

a mole is a number, or haven't you heard? Thursday, 10.23.03 :: 09:25 p.m. we lost our first play-off game, 0-5. major suckage, especially since it was againt rising sun. it was quite cold/windy out there, let me tell you. surprisingly, the five hours we spent on the bus were actually fairly enjoyable... i spent the last two and a half sleeping :) oh, and i almost got whacked in the face by the door of the Arby's in Dover. be careful of those doors, folks, they SWING and catch you very unawares. funny shiznit, heh. i guess there's not really anything else to say, hmm. my fish (still un-named as of yet) appears to be having a severe seizure. WHAT DO YOU DO WHEN A FISH HAS A SEIZURE? ahh! poor fish, don't die, please! not until you have a name! father just informed me that i "have an attitude problem." well, so sorry. and i'm off to eat my package of a total of SIX mini-oreos, and maybe do hwk. maybe. but wait, one last side-note: sar and julia, remember that whole thing that happened in 7th grade with srta. and what she said about maggie? have you ever thought that, after it happened, she was only nice to us (at least, sar and me) because of the fact that julia's mom could have had her suspended/fired? i just realized that. a few months after that incident, i had pretty much forgotten that it had ever happened... which was probably the point, but still, it's unsettling to think that we can sort of put something like that aside, but she probably remembered it for a long time afterwards - whenever she saw us. i'm know i'm digging up an old topic, and probably exageratting things a bit, but i just remembered that situation and now i kinda see it in a different light. yeah, so that's my insightful thought for the day. bye for now.

so bad Wednesday, 10.22.03 :: 10:30 p.m. throat getting sore, can feel cold coming on... meh. the run-down: sister sick. granny totaled car, now we have to decide whether to buy her a new car, or put her in "assited living." bad things going on at the bank - not good for dad/his job. school sucks, want to come back now. on that note, i sleep. when will the water stop, will it pour all day? when will the water stop? I know that you can't say. she is washed up on his shore, there's no time to get into his life, she is washed up on his shore, there's no time to get into his life.

judo CHOP! Wednesday, 10.22.03 :: 06:11 p.m. fingers. are. cold. won't. work. gah! practice: pictures, being COLD, scrimmage, being FREEZING, corners, being EXTREMELY FREEZING, then rain and more FREEZING. so now i am slightly damp (and ill-suited for fire-making), and still quite cold. would like to come home now. please? thanks. did basically nothing in school. nothing. zip, nada, zero, negative, NOTHING. then listened to a bunch of people put others down. so that was fun... now i have to shower and go to a team dinner. mmm, pizza, yum. would rather come home, but pizza is ok, i suppose. for now. tomorrow is the first bayside play-off game, and it's at rising sun. guess where that is? balmer! yep, so we get to leave school around 11:15, sit on a bus for 2 and a half hours, play, sit on the bus again, eat dinner at some point, then get back to the school around 7:30 (maybe). loooong day. don't be surprised if you get a call from me saying how bored i am :) hehe. ~~~~~~~~~~ Fingers trace your every outline Paint a picture with my hands Back and forth we sway like branches in a storm Change the weather still together when it ends wish i could just go from the game down to UR for the formal! that'd be awesome, but alas... no. maybe next year? have fun!! (but not TOO much fun! :) ) also, laura, stay the hell out of my room.

i know i know Tuesday, 10.21.03 :: 06:10 p.m. welcome back, pitas... and thanks for losing some of my entries. too bad google didn't cache my page before all of the server crap started to happen. oh well, whatever i had up... is no longer there! :) last night i definitely fell asleep on my bed (not IN it), with wet hair, at 8. i think joe called at some point, but i don't really remember that conversation. i was sooo tired. note to self: never attempt to write a spanish essay at 2 am, es un idea muy malo. this morning we took the PSATs, so of course that was fun. so easy, except they're so long! my brain felt a little squishy after all that. we'll see how i did after not studying at all for it. hmm... in other news, homecoming weekend was FABULOUS! i have some of the pics up on openshoebox.com, so click on the fotos link at the top of this page to see 'em! cada persona es muy bonita :) oh, and becky gave me the track county champion 2002 sweatshirt (finally!) it's bright orange and i love it, mmm. oh, and judy finally left. i ended up saying goodbye to her around 5 or 6 times... then i'd show up again and they'd still be there. but now it's hehe :) now i suppose it's off to... shower, nap, and maybe do homework? sounds like a plan. i miss everyone :( and i wish i could come to the RC formal! meh!

there is no spoon Tuesday, 10.7.03 :: 11:44 p.m. 6-0 was the score; the score was 6-0. we lost to pocomoke. by a lot. the end. er, wait. just in case everyone hasn't been thoroughly reminded that there is a chance that ahnold might become a freaking GOVERENOR tonight, i'll remind you again. we may soon have an austrian-turned-american psuedo-butt-kicking movie star for the governor of poor california. maybe this is a good thing? maybe a bad thing? i don't know! there is no spoon. am v. tired. had v. taxing day. sar, sorry i didn't call, but i was probably sleeping, whether it be in the bleachers, on the bus, or in the car. tomorrow :) i got a cool poster from Duke. yummm. and there are only TRES MÁS DÍAS HASTA YORK. please go by quickly. pretty please.

um Monday, 10.6.03 :: 11:31 p.m. have no clue what to think about this.

the door is open c'mon insiiiiiide Monday, 10.6.03 :: 09:42 p.m. my fish is repeatedly slamming into the glass of his fishbowl. and swimming in circles. is this a sign? or has he just been slipped some ecstasy or something? I DON'T WANT TO DO THIS IT IS STUPID *throws trig book across room and sulks* stupid.

(not) made of steel. fah. Monday, 10.6.03 :: 06:33 p.m. so. practice? ball slammed into my knee. made odd cracking sound. didn't feel very good. and i didn't have the brace on... hope nothing's really wrong. it hurts like no other, but that might just be a result of the massive bruise that's forming. hmm. once again, happy birthday to julia, since now it's actually the 6th :) i love you chica! on the list for tonight: hwk (damnit), tacos, clean fishbowl, do laundry, go to BN (?), call sar. but that'a after a shower, yum. And the same black line that was drawn on you Was drawn on me And now it's drawn me in 6th Avenue heartache

wallflowers - sixth avenue heartache Sunday, 10.5.03 :: 03:56 p.m. digital camera playing time... yaaaaay :) have rediscovered how gross my sister can be at times. have also rediscovered how awesome raspberry jam is. yum. [EDIT] and we have the obligatory pic-of-self-in-mirror. :) aren't i creative? [#2] listening to life in a northern town, while a dog barks away outside my window. i thought it was raleigh. then i remembered that i'm here, and he's in york, and really sick. and the nostalgia is overwhelming. and julia, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!! and i wish i could be in spanish for your party :\ but this wkend... oooh yes. we'll rock the country club like there's no tomorrow. they won't know what hit them. (FONDUE!) whatever happened to having a normal family? meh.

Sunday, 10.5.03 :: 03:01 a.m. because i couldn't sleep... this just proves that most guys at UR a) have way too much time and b) have way too much money. crazy, crazy. poor grey court.

tem shekel shirt - lindsay's song Sunday, 10.5.03 :: 02:24 a.m. I will build for all time A house of memories Just for you and I There you'll find Rooms inside Filled with laughter, joy And your daddy's pride Around the table And down the hall We'll chase each other Till the laughter makes us fall In the evening We'll lay our heads down And thank God for these memories and the sad thing is that that's called "Lindsay's Song." what happened? and why?

queen - bohemian rhapsody Saturday, 10.4.03 :: 05:19 p.m. now would be a good time for going home. "They got Taiwan, We got Egg Rolls" - U.S. headline after Nixon's 1972 visit to China. I really like this book, China Wakes. Go read, that's all I've been doing for the past week. Oh, and there's this incredibly amazing picture of a Tibetan boy after one of the authors of this book let him play with a plastic bag. He'd never seen plastic before. His face is so... wondering. Ahh i love it. reminds me of Raine, in a twisted, backwards kind of way.

LOLOLOL Friday, 10.3.03 :: 07:37 p.m. GO HERE!!! that just TOTALLY made my day!!! suburban people who're in student council/video communications or whatever that class is called... MAKE A VIDEO LIKE THAT! who's the trojan man this year? hmmm. COOL. [EDIT] RELIENT K DID A COVER OF "THE PIRATES WHO DON'T DO ANYTHING!!!!!" oh this makes me happy.

ronan keating - when you say nothing at all Friday, 10.3.03 :: 07:08 p.m. it really is fall. i practiced today with my YS track sweat pants, my Richmond track and field t-shirt and my really awesome orange bungee fleece thing. and i was all ghetto and whatnot with my oh-so-sexy red shinguards and rolled pant legs. woot woot! but really, i can run again! my knees don't hurt, and i'm not wearing the braces. lindsay is finally catching up with lizzy (she's a quick one), and today i ran 2 miles in 13 minutes. yes. it felt soooooo sooo soooooooo good. i haven't felt that good since after the county 400 race (6th place! hah!). now i just need joe, and we could go eat pizza and stromboli and whatnot at Ledo's. mmm. i miss that. i miss everyone, in fact. and i'm facing a weekend of... nothing. so, please please call, and i'll call you and i'll survive. if i don't sneeze myself to death first. <3

Thursday, 10.2.03 :: 08:31 p.m. and people are going about life as usual. we lost, 0-1 in double overtime cause of bad officials. yup. it was cold, and now it's october, somehow. hello fall, i think i missed summer. homecoming? it's ironic.

hahahaha Wednesday, 10.1.03 :: 11:13 p.m. i forget if i posted this link earlier, but go here because it's the best site ev-ah. (and i want this. :) ) aaaaand now i proceed to sleep and whatnot. mmmhmm. thanks tayn, and go hulia!! york county tennis better look out ;)

dexter freebish - leaving town Wednesday, 10.1.03 :: 08:10 p.m. "i burn, i pine, i perish." yes. my hair is ridiculously long. wanna know something else? we had a spelling quiz in AP ENGLISH today. wanna know something sad? i spelled "knowledge" wrong. yup yup. and the metric unit for measuring weight is the NEWTON. mother of pearl i feel dumb. oh well, did you know that as of 1994, there were 900 million peasants in China? that was 1 in six people in the world at the time. just think, if they revolted, the civil war would affect more people than WW2. yowza. so, i'll go read that now, and sleep. and maybe eat dinner. then i get to get up tomorrow and go to school again. damn.