soylent green is people! Thursday, 5.27.04 :: 09:32 p.m. EWWWWWWWW. EWWWWWWWWWWW.

and on and on and on and on Wednesday, 5.26.04 :: 09:00 p.m. So remember when I used to update this thing a lot more often? It's funny that now that I have productive things to do, I don't write about them. Well, I don't like blanket "this is what I've done for the past week" entries, so I won't do that, but I will talk about today and how it began as a bad day and turned into an okay bordering on good day. Physucks sucks whatever energy I have in the morning out of me. Like the quiz we took this morning, the one that I had no idea what to do for. The one that I actually studied for, but still didn't get it. What happened to understanding science and stuff? I attribute my physics failures to the fact that it's more pure math than anything. So there. But that doesn't explain Spanish, and the fact that I really don't understand anything that we're doing. I studied for an hour and a half last night, and I still can't do the in class worksheets and such on the subjunctive. Kelsey (NOT Chelsea, heh) is in the same boat I'm in, since she hasn't had the subjunctive before now either, and it sucks. But anyway, I threw a frisbee with Joe and Scott after school, then Alex Rausch and Nick Williams showed up, so we threw it with them for awhile. We're going to play at 3:30 tomorrow if anyone else is interested - come play, we'll love you forever! After frisbee Joe and I showered and hopped on over to Mack's, then hopped back over to Wachovia sine neither of us really had any money. En route we passed Natanya by her car, pulled over on the side of Hollywood. As of this moment I still don't know what's up, but Tayn, I hope everything's okay! Yay for tennis and ordering cell phone betteries that will hopefully fix my phone. Pleeeease...

look, 3:30 and no track! Monday, 5.24.04 :: 03:31 p.m. Openshoebox is making me mad. Grrrr. But it'a a nice day out! And we may have found a house! Keep your fingers crossed :)

wow, Monday again? Monday, 5.24.04 :: 12:24 a.m. This weekend, starting at 9 AM on Friday and ending around 10 tonight, was awesome. Districts, prom, post-prom, sleeping a lot, frisbee, Sarah's mini party... sooo much fun! How is it Monday already? Now I have to go back to actually doing work, or just pretending to. 12.5 days, though, that's all. I'll write more later, when it's not 12:30 AM. Love all of you!

in my khaki pants Wednesday, 5.19.04 :: 09:39 p.m. Practice hurt, a lot. We only did 6 200's, but it felt like it took an eternity and that with every step my leg was being thrown into a pit of hellfire and ravenous lions. The fact that I only got to eat like half a bagel at lunch only compounded the problem, causing my hands to shake after we were done running. But, other than that, it was a good practice. It's fun when there are only a few people there, and you can sing Sadie Hawkins Dance really loudly multiple times without someone yelling at you. We got our summer reading today: The Plague, Frankenstein,and Metamorphosis. I've already read Frankenstein and Metamorphosis (is it strange that I thought everyone had already read both of those too?), but that's cool. I'm kind of tired of Metamorphosis though, since we spent a month on it at WPS. I even have all of the questions that we had to answer, yay. Maybe I'll start with The Plague first, and just hope that I forget what happens in the other two books. Only problem is that Plague is written by some French guy, and that's a little sketchy. I am completely ready for school to end. I have books to find and read, a flute to rediscover, and roads that I haven't run yet all waiting for me. I have a feeling that once this weekend's over, and the track season is finished, I'll feel like I have way too much time. And I can't wait. Joe is ticklish and gives me Joe arm burns on my back. And I wish I could take cultural diversity next year. Damnation. Maggie Smith! I love Ian McKellen.

of historic events and upsoming fun things Monday, 5.17.04 :: 10:16 p.m. Today marks: * 50th anniversary of Brown vs. Board of Ed. * MA becoming the first state to legalize same-sex marriages * The head of the Iraqi Governing Council was assassinated by a suicide car explosion,. possibly delaying the June 30 handover of power. Ouch. Um, also, I unintentionally watched the Nick Berg video. Holy shit. I cried for half an hour. The screaming... I stand by my statement that death is death no matter what... but God. I don't understand. ... on a completely different note, Julia is OK, really: Juls: OHHH HUH-UH YOU DID NOT JUST....HELLS YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH Juls: lifdsaufdsaauydsoiudsfavd Juls: lesahfwieuyyiurdsar848774ufcnvckr Juls: eee Juls: euryfchr7e733'eeme Juls: dj43gdbche73ws Juls: asdifiim goihng toe break my feefeiing keyborard Juls: HELSLSYEHSYEHAHYEHEHAHHEYEHAH I LOEOVOEOEOEI HATE PHSYCISSSSSS AND PMRS PERACE AND MRS OUTATHTAOUT AND MATHHHHHHHHHHHHH AND HISTOSYR CIVIL LAWYA SHITITTIITITI Matt's also on a roll with the quotes tonight, but I'm too lazy to type anymore, or copy and paste. Refer to my profile, if you will :) Night all!

birfday! Sunday, 5.16.04 :: 09:28 p.m. For the record, it's my birthday, and that's awesome :) This is what I came back to after having dinner with Joe: Learning2Fly: HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR LINDSAY, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!! Learning2Fly: GOOD LORD I WANT TO CALL YOU BUT I DON'T KNOW YOUR PHONE NUMBER AND I CAN'T FIND ANYBODY THAT CAN TELL ME WHAT IT IS BECAUSE THEY'RE ALL OUT Learning2Fly: AT LEAST I HAVE THIS Learning2Fly:I HOPE THAT IT'S THE BEST BIRTHDAY EVER Learning2Fly: LOVE YOU! GetUpKid: HAPPY BIRTHDAY LINDSAY, I LOVE YOU!!!!! (DONT WORRY, I DIDNT FORGET, ITS BEEN ON MY CALENDER :-) Fuzzer: happy birthday to you...happy birthday to you!...hapy birthday dear L-TRAIN...happy birthday to YOU!!!!!!!!!!! ItsyBitsyDitzy: ah yes I forget to tell my little Trice Face a great (even greater than her personality) big HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :'( ah sniffles my little Spicy Trice is growing up.. and older than me! hahahah I LOVE YOU LINDSAY!!!!!! Puttyman: happy birthday Hehe, yay! Also for the record, I am very very sunburned as a result of frisbeeing for like 2 hours this morning, even though I was WEARING SUNSCREEN. Ahhhh: Also, Mom, Dad, Laura and I went to visit Georgetown yesterday. I loved it even more than Duke, which is crazy! Took lots of pics, too, maybe I'll put them up sometime. Two last things: we made it to districts for the 4x8 (haha..ha), and I have a lot of work to do. Why do I put things off until Sunday night? Why?!

brownie or poop Saturday, 5.15.04 :: 12:21 a.m. Hershey Park Thursday and school (5 tests/quizzes) plus counties today equals a really tired Lil. And tomorrow it's down to Georgetown, where I will call Nicole and she'll have me all excited about college all over again :) Props to everyone who KICKED THE SAT'S BUTT. We rock. Some pics from Hershey Park are up, and I'm sure I'll have some from counties today and Georgetown tomorrow up sometime soon, too. I love digital cameras. And we got fourth in the 4x8, and that's the last time I have to run it until next year! Hah! I'm 17 on Sunday! Ultimate frisbee/capture the flag at 11, if we can get enough people. So, everyone come :)

couple of bananas and a bottle of booze Wednesday, 5.12.04 :: 11:51 p.m. With something like 22 days or so of school left, I've become extraordinarily busy. Well, actually, I'm not really all that busy by Suburban standards, but I am by my standards as of the past year. If it's not school and homework, it's track, and if it's not track, it's school and homework... and if it's none of those then I'm either with Joe somewhere or chillin' with da crew. Overall, a fabulous existence, especially considering the Hershey Park trip that's scheduled for tomorrow. Phuck physucks, we're only there for the rides :) (Minus the coasters, of course. Shhhh...) Three things that should get better asap: my legs, the plant that Judy gave me, and my cell phone battery. If you haven't heard about the cell phone fiasco, just let it be known that salad dressing and electronics do not mix. I repeat, don't dunk your phone in salad dressing! Oops, I mean, what? Stupid verizon people telling me the wrong things, though - never trust a verizon person. For the record, Joe makes good, semi-burned chocolate chip cookies. Also, Natanya's chin bounces on the floor, and Laura is going to write PHUCK PHYSUCKS really really big on her t-shirt for tomorrow. At least, that's what she said she was gonna do. :) This is for you, Tayn and Laura: Words for thought, spoken by Rush Limbaugh on the subject of the torture of the Iraqi prisoners: This is no different than what happens at the Skull and Bones initiation and we're gonna ruin people's lives over it, and we're gonna hamper our military effort, and then we're gonna really hammer 'em 'cause they had a good time. You know, these people are being fired at every day, I'm talking about the people having a good time. These people ... you ever heard of 'emotional release'? You ever heard of 'need to blow some steam off'? These people are the enemy. And now with the -beheading- of the American contractor, Nicholas Berg, and the new pictures that are being shown of more Iraqi prisoners... I don't know what to think. No, wait, I do. I think it's disgusting. I think it makes me ashamed to be a member of the human race. I've half-typed a few sentences and I can't even get out what I'm thinking, mostly because my thoughts about this are so jumbled - they're in technicolor and I can't seem to tell the greens from the reds. Black and white is easy enough, though - up until now the term "beheaded" has been an idea straight out of the past. Humans are combining the violence of the past and the technology of the future and it's terrifying. The Iraqis may kill using a knife, but we kill also; the only difference is that we justify our killing by using high-tech gadgets, smart bombs and the like. It's all the same. The only result that I can see right now is a split world where people take sides and kill their enemies, only they don't understand why they're fighting. The whole idea behind war, to fight for freedom and human rights, is being thrust behind business initiatives and politics. However cliché this sounds, we need to practice that kindergarden concept of sharing: sharing beliefs, ideas, land... without becoming the bully or the teacher who thinks he's always right and disrupting the balance. Problems is, that tends to be a rare occurence within the human race. Our only hope is to make the best choices we can possibly make, to educate our citizens, to take each breaking news story with a grain of salt, and to effect good change. What do you want your granchildren to read in their history books? And what do you want their world to look like? Freedom isn't just necessary within a country, it's necessary throughout the world, and we need to learn to live with each other.

oh believe me Monday, 5.10.04 :: 11:15 p.m. We can live like Jack and Sally if we want Where you can always find me We'll have Halloween on Christmas And in the night we'll wish this never ends We'll wish this never ends First we thought my phone was ok. Then it died. Now it's semi-ok. The end. Too much to do, and not even close to enough time to do it all!! Ahhhh!

and the bug is still gone Sunday, 5.9.04 :: 10:22 p.m. 3 days > Wednesday night fun 7 days > I'm 17 32 days > Junior year is over 66 days > DMB in Columbia aaaand... it's raining and flooding and lightning-ing a lot right now. Rock.

done gone blue Sunday, 5.9.04 :: 04:00 p.m. Only have a second to type, but Suburban Relays were yesterday (yay!) and we ran well, as usual. :) I'm running better, too, I just wish that the season wasn't already pretty much over. Next year, I guess. Anyway, a few pictures from the relays are up, here. I forgot I had a camera until the end, so that's why there aren't more. Now it's off to do Mother's Day type stuff like go shopping con mi madre en Wal-Mart, joy. I mean, joy! Hehe, later.

cause i give my best for you Saturday, 5.8.04 :: 12:06 a.m. After the little internet hiatus, I'm back. And by "back" I mean back online, since I never really went anywhere. Oh internet, how you suck me in and spit me out, the worse for the journey... H'okay, so I don't know what to think of this whole Donald Rumsfeld, let's torture Iraquis thing. I've been thinking about it since those pictures first came out, but after the discussion we had in US today, I've found myself running a constant mental dialogue; what's really been happening in Iraq? What happened before the war started, in terms of planning and Bush? What's morally wrong, and what's right? There's almost no way for us to find answers to any of these questions, or to the many others that I wish I could ask some higher power, yet we're expected to make assumptions and base our opinions off of those. Everyone plays devil's advocate when it comes to assuming... but I suppose there's nothing else to do, for now. I digress, and not even very coherently, at that. In my own very valuable opinion (that is subject to change, according to new facts and viewpoints), I agree with Mr. Triggs, Mr. Ludwig, Greg and co. that heavy interrogation is SOP - Standard Operating Procedure - during war. That's just a fact; war is inherently cruel and horrible, and during wartime people are forced to resort to cruel and horrible deeds. It doesn't matter whether they are forced by their superiors, by their own mindsets, or by immenent threats, it is simply a fact of war. Now, I'm not condoning anything that those American soldiers did to the Iraqui prisoners, I'm just saying that we need to look at the facts in context. Information is valuable, and if interrogators must resort to psychologically (I do not think we should physically hurt prisoners, in any circumstances) damaging tactics, then so be it. But I believe they should only resort to such measures after trying more subtle, more gentle techniques, as time permits. Not that such things are necessary today, but far worse things than public humiliation or mindgames have transpired during past wars. Also, the American War Mentality has been bothering me. We cannot play the all-powerful Americans in every aspect of this "game" of war, for that will catch up with us eventually. In fact, it already is. America is in the limelight, we're playing the lead role, for better or for worse. Currently, I equate our country with a greedy little child who thinks that he knows everything, and can therefore play King of the Hill and possess everything and anything. I think the harshness of that statement can be traced to my current pessimistic mood, but that's how I feel right now. I'm an American who's proud of her country's morals, but wishes that about half of her country's actions could be erased and reversed. I hope I live to be 100, just so I can see how the world reacts to the word "American" 83 years from now. I wonder how much will change between now and then; how many wars we will have participated in, led, lost, won. How many men will have died, how many lives we will have saved, and how many countries will be true democracies. Will we have two warring 1984-esque states, mind-controlling propaganda, and a common government regulated language? Or will the world be at peace, religions integrated and coexisting? Will California fall off? It's interesting how I begin by thinking-through-typing about war, and end up 100 years in the future, on a state that should probably be called Northern Mexico or something. Suburban Relays tomorrow: the entire meet starts at 9; I run in the 4x8 at 1:10, and in the distance medely at 3:15. Come cheer for all of us sprinter-turned-distance folk :)