Waiii!!! HP gue disita... Tarjo Mencret!!
[still limited in Indonesian Mode - I'm terribly sorry]
Udah 3/ 4 hari sejak HP gue bunyi di tengah-tengah mid-semesteran... Pusing gue. Nggak ada gairah hidup banget... Siapa sih yang nggak setuju bahwa "otak" kita serasa diambil kalo HP udah nggak ada??!
Tarjo (nama guru Fisika killer yang nyita HP gue) MENCRET!!!! Mati lo!! WAHAHAHAHA!!!! Xp
...sebetulnya yang paling ngebuat gue risih adalah.......
GUE NGGAK INGET NO. TELEPON ECHA!!!! WAHHH TOLOL....
Itulah yang gue maksud dengan "otak gue serasa diambil." Gue udah terlalu tergantung ama address book HP gue! Alamak, gue mo nangis deh... Dan 6 dari 8 temen gue bilang apaaa??
"LO ADALAH CEWEK GOBLOK YANG NGGAK HAPAL NO. TELEPON COWOK NDIRI!"
Gila dalem banget. Tapi yah, mau gimana lagi? Gue tergantung banget sama phone book HP gue tersayang, dan selama DUA BULAN gue harus lose contact sama Echa? Oh, please, dong! Bisa-bisa waktu HP gue balik, dia udah punya cewek lain!! (praduga tak bersalah yang paling kejam)
Abis, gue tinggal di Jakarta dan Echa di Bandung. Ada HP aja gue jarang janjian ketemu, gimana tanpa HP? Gimana gue mau ngehubungin dia?? [yang namanya Echa tuh pantang abis nelepon ke rumah gue]
[Monday, September 29, 2003][03:33 p.m.]
Conversation in Phone - Isn't "LOVE" Enough or...
[Limited - Only in Indonesian Mode]
COWOK "E": Aku sayang... deh sama kamu.
CEWEK "A": ....
COWOK "E": Kamu sayang nggak sama aku?
CEWEK "A": ....eehh...
COWOK "E": Kenapa?
CEWEK "A": ....aku nggak bisa jawab.
COWOK "E": Karena?
CEWEK "A": kamu tau...
COWOK "E": Ooh.
CEWEK "A": Sorry.
COWOK "E": Bukan salah kamu.
Mungkin bukan salah gue. Tapi kalo lo punya cowok yang sayang sama lo sedangkan lo suka sama orang lain, berarti lo ngelukain perasaan berapa orang?
Kenapa susah buat gue buat bilang "sayang". Seharusnya kan gampang, tinggal bilang "Aku juga sayang". Itu terjadi di telepon dan dia nggak bakal liat gue nangis waktu ngebohongin dia. Tapi gue nggak bisa.
[Thursday, September 25, 2003][08:34 p.m.]
New Layout, Few Trouble Ahead
Well,... what can I say? YES, YES, IT'S A NEW LAYOUT!! Just like the old one (Candy-Candy), this layout was made in only a day. I was thinking of having a new layout which is quite simple but doesn't make us - you and I - bored...
And since I found I like this black and white version, could you, my friends, tell me whether you like it or not?? :)
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Thank you very much to all of you, especially to
Kiya-Chan,
Lenka,
George and Andrey... for cheering me up through all the stupid saddest time in my life. I'm getting better a little though. Danke, all of you!
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QUESTION FOR YOU, FRIENDS!
This is kinda silly but I want a little quote about it:
Girl A gets along with boy B but she still thinks of summone else.
How long can they stay in relationship after boy B has already known about girl A's feeling on boy C?
Is what girl A's done (gets along with boy B) just a way to run?
Or is it possible for girl A to fall in love with 2 guys at the same time?
I've been asked about this question for times, but still I couldn't figure it out! Help...
[Wednesday, September 24, 2003][07:01 p.m.]
...Once Again I Wanna Die
I still don’t get why people blame others when they’re stuck in a goddamned situation. I don’t get why my friends – or at least they said they’re my FRIENDS – have to betray me all the time. I don’t get why my parents are pushing me with many different kind of things I should do – Even though I don’t want it. They never try to understand me. Look inside me. Find the real me. Life sucks.
The most important thing is I don’t have anybody to share my problems with. I don’t have a friend that I might not smile together with, but I could cry or hear them cry by my side. I don’t have any.
I ever had somebody. When I knew this person cared about me, I started thinking – after 4 years I tried to depend on me – that I finally had a place where I could stay, and the one I could rely on. But I was mistaken. I was realized by time that this guy was only a friend. And a friend gets closer, but disappears someday, someway. A friend makes you smile but hurts you more. A friend raises you up but lets you down. A friend is just a friend. A friend promises a better day, but causes worst relationship ever. Come to your life, make changes, whether it’s bad or good, leave spot and go away.
Then when now I’m trying to start living on my own once again, I just can’t. I’ve been broken. I’ve been spoilt and I’m scared of facing reality.
Once again I wanna die. Is it a sin, if I want this so much? And if God take me away this night I’m ready. I won’t regret it even I should left many things here. It’s OK all the way coz I have no one adores me this moment. Is it a sin? Once again I wanna die.
[Friday, September 12, 2003][08:12 p.m.]
Blanky Ahead. No Poems Today
[Indonesian Mode]
Hari ini gue nggak masuk sekolah. Kenapa begitu????? Waktu bangun tidur gue ngerasa... pusing... banget... Dan pas mau turun dari tempat tidur, tiba-tiba pandangan gue kabur dan kaki gue lemes. Gue jatuh dan terdiam beberapa saat, sampe bokap kebetulan masuk dan nanya, kok belum beres-beres mau ke sekolah. Gue cuma bisa diem karena ilang warna. Semua yang gue liat jadi kemerah-merahan. (Ini sering terjadi ama gue 2 minggu terakhir. Biasanya kalo nggak gini, kerjaan sehari-hari gue adalah sesek napas! Kasiannya gue!)
[End of Indonesian Mode]
What I'm recently feeling are...
Regretful. Hopeless. Desperate. Meaningless. Silly. Hurted. Alone. Dizzy. Stressful. Dim. Pale. Sick. Crazy. Unhappy. Lament. Anxious. Empty. Blank. Worthless. Bad. Doomed. Faint. Upset. Insane. Broken. Wretched. Miserable.
[Friday, September 5, 2003][10:59 p.m.]
