Kalo dipikir-pikir...

Tuesday, February 8, 2005, 09:42 p.m.

kalo dipikir-pikir....

Ya kepikiran!

Huehehe map saya becanda..

Kalo dipikir-pikir, target gue kan 1 bulan satu leot.. Ini lagi2 belon ganti.. Padahal udah siap leotnya, cuma males banget nge-uploadnya. Jadi kepikiran juga kenapa dulu kok bisa Cle bertahan dengan 2 site... ^_^;;

Anyways ini leot kayaknya ga bakal diganti dulu sampe valentine selese, soalnya libur Chinese New Year ini ga menyenangkan sampe2 assignment numpuk semua... Derita anak IPA... T_T

Yoshhh! Gong Xi Fa Coi, Minna!

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Defining Yourself

Wednesday, January 26, 2005, 01:48 p.m.

Ada gituh, banyak, begitu ngeliat gue, katanya
gue mellow,

begitu kenal gue deket, sekelas ato apa, bilang
gue rusuh,

begitu liat make-up sama gambar-gambar gue, katanya
gue gothic,

begitu liat fashion style gue, menurut mereka
gue campuran metal sama goth,

begitu gue ngerubah pakean gue dikit, mereka nge-judge
gue punk,

di acara formal pada bilang
gue manis, a pretty chick

begitu tau musik yang gue denger, katanya
i'm all about hip-hop and R&B,

begitu tau gue suka marilyn manson, balik lagi pada bilang
i'm a true goth,

tapi klo lagi males dandan2, balik lagi, katanya
gue hiphop banget

TAE AH! ~

Kalo lo pernah peratiin kata-kata gue,
GUE GA PERNAH SEKALIPUN BILANG: "GUE GOTHIC"
But yes, I love marilyn manson and hiphop & RnB both.

Jujur, gue BENCI music emo, punk sama metal n core2 yg laen di mana vokalisnya scream melulu, kaya udah mau mati tapi ga rela. Tapi gue masih punya hati buat ngedengerin beberapa lagu mereka n dateng k konser2 indies semacem itu..

Sometimes gue emang pake kaos item, jeans belel, gelang2 syetan KAYAK PUNK. Yah, gue lagi pengen pake aja. Doesnt mean I'm punk.

Kalo lo peratiin there are times gue ake baju2 cewek, rok or tight jeans ato celana kaen lain, trus berdandan manis n pake tas ketek n high heels. Gue bukan AGJ tho'.

Gue nggak berprinsip that I'm goth, or I'm anything else. Punya prinsip sekonyol itu, apalagi soal fashion style and choices of music, cuma bikin batesan yang ga penting dan malah jadi penghalang lo buat ngeliat lebih luas.

Tapi gue nggak ngelarang orang2 yang emang punya satu style dan nggak mau nyentuh gaya laen. orang kayak gitu banyak, cuma i'm not one of them.

i'm anything. gue pake pakaian apa aja yang gue lagi pengen pake, dan dandan semanis dan seserem apapun yang gue mau. gue being mellow most of the times karena emang gue begitu, bukan karena sok misterius, dan gue tetep bisa [sering, maksud gue] rusuh bareng orang2 di sekitar gue.

Gue cuma manusia.

Are u ready to define urself?

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"Love... and I." - a poem

Wednesday, January 12, 2005, 04:26 p.m.

won't the beat stop and
will it ever start to mend?
my heart, it beats so fast
and hurts like it'll never end

will i ever quit or at least
will i feel enough?
i'll keep loving even if i know
there's no everlasting love

originally created: Jan 10'04

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Throwing Up

Wednesday, January 12, 2005, 01:19 a.m.

Do you know people that throw up, vomit their food after they eat? That bad habit is called bulimia.

And so what?

I'm throwing up! T_T haha.. I don't exactly remember when was the 1st time I did this horrible "activity", but I think it was when I fell sick at the end of my holiday and I felt a really, really bad stomachache. I decided to slip my fingers into my mouth [EWWW!!!] to force myself throwing up. N yessh I did throw up.

After that I often feel full easily - even too easy - that when I eat half or three forth of my daily meals, I will feel sick and again, I throw up. o_O

Most of the times I try not to vomit, especially on lunchs, and yes, sometimes it does work. But when it doesn't, I'll feel weak all day long.

I've lost 2kg in a week. Pretty much annoying cuz this is the 1st week of school and I have no strength to catch up on my study. BAH.

Trust me, don't try to force throwing-ups. It'll be bad for u! |=(

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Back from Hiatus

Sunday, January 9, 2005, 01:38 a.m.

Hahaha.. I didn't officially tell ya, but yesshh, I was in Hiatus ^_^;;

Anyways for those who have left messages on the TB,...
[+]Kk Rubbish... Halo k... Daku udah visit balik, tapi baru selewatan, blon baca2 journalnya.. Soalnya lagi ga sempet lama2 online! T_T
[+]Kengkeng, yeah I wish u a really, really great week too =D ahh... "a bit" late, isn't it? Thank you for d wish!!
[+]Kirika-chan, I've visited ur blog, but I didn't have time to do total surf... Huhuhu.... T_T sorry!!
[+]S'ley!! HAPPY HAPPY NEW YEAR! =D dah lama ga online MSN bareng...!

And my other blogpals,... HAPPY 2005, WISH U A BETTER YEAR AND LIVINGS!

P.S. to Dhea: Ayo kita rusuh2 laghiii!!!! u know what i mean... let's get loud smwhere... sm... TIME? =) Miss u already my babes!!

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beauty is my middle name +

Cleo, female, 16 and still in high school. An SD Kyo addict. Has just love HIM, and especially the frontman, Ville Hermanni Valo. ...MORE?

too beautiful to watch on +

HAPPY TREE FRIENDS, sarcasm, laughter, cutie cartoons.. they mix it here!!

steps to spell b.e.a.u.t.i.f.u.l +

2004
10+09+08+07+06+05 +04+03+02
+ 3 months hiatus +
2003
10+09+08+07+06

from beauty to beauty +

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