A Poem: My Love and What They Think About Love
Love can be blind, keep million secrets behind
Love can be fun before promise has begun
Love is a special gift, once given, never forgotten
Love is always tried in many way of temptation
My love is blind, but makes me open my eyes
My love is fun, without promises and lies
My love's like souvenirs, given to some people
My love's tempted so hard, but won by no evil.
[Monday, August 25, 2003][04:15 p.m.]
A Poem: MY THOUGHT LAST NIGHT
Last night, when I got in bed
A whispering sound went into my head
Made me felt like I'm losing something
And all of a sudden I started thinking
From now on, I'll be alone
Cause this day I found you're gone
Now I'm standing on my own
Let my heart turn into stone
What would happen tomorrow?
Would there be any sad or sorrow?
If I die this night then who would know?
And how many will let me go?
I'm empty, blank and hopeless
I'm stressfull, blinded, meaningless
I just realised that my love is true
And all I know is I've been missing you
By: Cleo Aurora
[Friday, August 22, 2003][01:44 p.m.]
A poem: REGRET
Is this what I meant to be?
i'm facing nothin' but sadness in reality
Gazing through the stars and find no beauty
Lookin' deep into his eyes and discover misery
God's the only one who stays beside me
It's getting too hard day by day
I'm living just with pain and dismay
I don't know what else to do
But to pray and rely on You
I'm forever searching for a way out
But no one hear me when I shout
My heart is cracked and torn
I wish I was never born.
Well, since my friend Andrey has been wanting me to put some poetry in my journal, this is the first poetry for this month which was finished 2 weeks ago.
by: Cleo Aurora
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Then, other news, I've been not very well this week, so sorry if I haven't, or forget to reply your message on the TB neither your e-mail... Or if you think I don't submit much entry. SORRRRRYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!! ^^;
[Wednesday, August 20, 2003][09:13 p.m.]
Untitled
I don't understand why God's doing this to me........
[Tuesday, August 19, 2003][08:18 p.m.]
Mutusin Pacar... --->> Khusus Buat George yang Ceweknya Minta Putus
[[[This entry is still in Indonesian mode, because this one is specially dedicated to george, whose girlfriend asked to break up]]]
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Well, George, sejujurnya gue nggak bisa bilang apa-apa tentang masalah yang lo ceritain ke gue hari ini... karena suatu hal lain tentang gue sendiri. By the way karena lo bilang ini boleh jadi bahan sharing di blog gue, gue mau ngemukain pendapat gue sedikit...
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Friends, George bilang ke gue ceweknya marah-marah sama dia. Alesannya adalah karena menurut dia, George abis 3 bulan jadian tiba-tiba berubah, yaitu Goerge nggak respect dan si cewek ngerasa tersisih. Terus ceweknya nggak tanggung-tanggung tanpa kasih waktu buat 2nd chance, langsung minta putus. Si cewek nanya jawaban pasti George dan George bingung. Now this is my answer:
GEORGE, APA YANG PERLU DIBINGUNGIN???
Sesuai ama yang lo tanya: Apa yang bakal gue lakukan kalo gue jadi elo...
Gue bukan tipe orang yang suka minta maaf (jujur aja). And in this case, dia bilang lo nggak respect itu, maksudnya kurang perhatian ya? Faktor-faktornya pasti antara lain:
- Lo jarang telepon dia alias cewek lo yang selalu telepon duluan.
- Lo jarang curhat/ cerita sama dia, selalu dia yang cerita dan dia jadi nganggep LOVE IS A ONE WAY CONNECTION. Ini jangan pernah terjadi. Gawat!
- Lo jarang ngasih kabar basa-basi atau paling nggak tanya kabar dia. (SMS kek, telepon barang 10 menit kek… Jangan sok miskin!! =P)
Kalo kayak gitu sih, gue juga pasti gerah dan minta putus! That's surely your fault! Xp
Dan pada saat ini, kalo dia bersikeras "PUTUS", setelah (lo bilang) lo udah minta maaf dan dia bilang nggak, kenapa nggak lo kasih aja? Emang buat lo kejam, dan lo juga sakit. Tapi ini kan sekarang tentang dia, karena dia yang minta putus,.. NO MATTER WHAT YOU FEEL. Jangan lupa dengan perbuatan lo, (apalagi kalo lo ngerasa salah) dia bisa jauh lebih sakit… (ini sudut pandang gue, jangan lupa!)
Gue bakal terima diputusin cowok gue kalo dia emang udah nggak mau jalan ama gue... KARENA GUE SAYANG AMA DIA, SO GUE PENGEN KABULIN APA YANG DIA MAU. GUE LEBIH PILIH DIA HEPI DAN GUE SAKIT HATI DIBANDING GUE HEPI DAN DIA SAKIT HATI, ya nggak sih??
George sobat gue,… gue putus sama orang yang gue sayang banget, dan gue terluka banget. Dan dia mungkin lebih terluka daripada gue. Karena bukan salah dia, tapi soal ketakutan gue akan yang namanya “putus”. Dulu gue dan mantan gue yang pertama juga berawal dari “temen”, sampe deket banget dan dia jadi cowok gue. Tapi kita ancur. Bahkan kita musuhan, jauh lebih buruk dari pertama kali gue kenal dia. Gue nggak mau hal itu terjadi lagi dan dengan bodohnya gue minta kita bertemen aja, walau saat ini gue pengeeennn banget jadian ama dia. Hal terkonyol dan terbodoh yang pernah gue lakukan dalam hidup gue.
Udah gitu aja,… nanti gue bisa-bisa nangis lagi. GOOD LUCK ya…
[Thursday, August 14, 2003][04:59 p.m.]
Just Drop By (2)
Attention! I feel sick to write anything in English mode, so I apologise all of you for I wrote this entry in Indonesian and some might not understand! ^_^
Hari ini gue di sekolah beteee.... banget!!!!!! Pusing deh, kemaren gue demam ampe 40,1OC dan nggak ada yang peduli!!!!!! Teganya semua orang di dunia ini ama gue! Bahkan nyokap and bokap nggak ada tengok-tengok gue ke kamar barang sekalipun! TAE!!
Gue baru beli CD Ragnarok Online... tapi begitu gue selesai install dan mau coba maen, gue nunggu lamaaaaaa.. banget, ngga ada kemajuan gitu! Cuma terlihat tulisan attempt to connect patch server yang ampe gue offline ga berubah-berubah! O_o HELLLLPPPP!!!!!
Gue beli SALAD DAYS 14, hehe... senengnya... Tapi yang ke-14, kok isinya cipokan-cipokan mulu yah?? Pusing deh..! (sebetulnya nggak jelas apakah gue sirik ato bete ngeliatin adegan cipokan berkali-kali - ^_^)
Akhir kata gue mau cabut dulu, ah... Mau les dulu, yaw! ILP udah mulai hari ini dan gue bakal ketemu ama anak-anak laghee!
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Btw, Andrey betapa kasiannya elo, siapa suruh lo masuk BiNus?? Hehe... OK bolehlah kita ke Citos hari Jum'at. Udah lama ga ketemu lo!
[Tuesday, August 12, 2003][03:51 p.m.]
Just Drop By and Ask a Silly Question...
What will happened when you think you've got a crush on your pal?
What do you think you would become, when you hate yourself, who slowly want to be together with your best friend?
Until when will my friendship with him stay, after I recognize, I MIGHT be in love with him?
Somebody please answer.
[Friday, August 8, 2003][09:54 p.m.]
New Layout + Archive + New Working TB
Yeaaaahhh............!!!! Finally I finished this layout!!
I always love Candy Candy and I've planned it to be my new layout for about a month or so... That's why I'm extremely happy this time!
I put the opening theme song of Candy Candy here, b'coz I think it makes the layout more alive, and makes me feel like: "Aha! It's Candy's showtime!" just like what I used to do when I heard it.
By the way, if you don't like the music or you'd like to play your own music on the computer, just click the STOP button (usually appears before REFRESH button) and the music will be automatically stopped. Easy, huh? But I hope you enjoy it...
When you see this layout, you might think this is a silly simple layout, but I really LOVE it!!! Yes, it's simple but the "simple" thing makes every contents, especially the links doesn't seem complicated.
Hmm... looks like I've started confusing you. Just forget it.
Another good news, I've changed my TB. Now you can start tagging there or at least just drop by and say hi to me... (Miss U All - since the TB didn't work)
The last news is I've archived the old entries. And sorry again that I've been ignoring my blog for a while. I'm kinda busy. Even for this layout, I only spent 2 days having all shit done by myself. Well.... not lone, actually, but with my Adobe Photoshop 7 which offers me LOTSA help! Thank you, baby!
[Wednesday, August 6, 2003][07:54 p.m.]
