well.. i finally got around to changing my freakin' blog yippishskippish! now.. the inspiration? KIWI!! I LOVE YOU!!! =0) heh. Kiwi calls me Strawberry.. i have no idea why. anyways... must be off. thoughts at the moment :
there has to be more to life than this, because in our confrontation with a cold cold universe, there is something comical to the idea that we can really impose our will on humanity.

:+:Incrimination!:+:
Here. just as i promised
LOL Incrimination!
swimming today tomorrow.. i'll blog tomorrow with details of my life...
smooches
Me.

:+:Tears streak down my face on Wednesday, June 5, 2002 at 02:44 a.m. :+:

:+:Ally Surf-eey:+:
I didn't do anything today... so.. heres a survey *smooch*

THE LONGEST QUIZ IN MY LIFE....
1. First Name: Melinda
2. Middle Name: Maria
3. Last Name: Well.. I hate it.. so... when i get one i like, i'll let you guys know =0)
4. Nickname(s): Mindy, Mindy-poo, Minda-linda-DingDong.. Mean Crazy Girl, White Girl, Min-Min, Meleelin, Ghost, Moose, Hey Girl! etc.etc
5. Town: ehh its too small to know! *giggle*
6. Zodiac Symbol: Taurus
7. Siblings: Chewbacca. ((whoops.)) Matthew and Linzers and Carmy and Dane.. and.. Robin =0) and .. umm anyone else i adopted =0)
8. Pets: sure. 2 cats.
9. Hair Color: Blonde
10. Eye Color: Green
11. Height: 5'5"
12. What hand do you write with?: right.
13. Hair Length: layered...
14. Do you bite your nails? nono.. my fingers i do bite
15. Do you think you are cute?: haaaahahahah!! Nonono
16. Do others think you are cute?: Neh, dun think so maybe little kid cute? ((LOL Im 16!! Not 6!!! heheh))
17. Shoe Size: 8 1/2-ish my skates are 7

~Relationships~

18. Do you have a boy/f or a girl/f right now? nonono!
19. If so, what is their name?: ---
20. Are you gay?: Nope. I'm SORRY tay! LOL

~Fashion Stuff 21. Where do you shop the most?: Bloomies and Nordies
22. Do you think your fashion is cool?: Yes hehe
23. Do you have any piercings?: Yep.
24. What do you want pierced?: Well, Im getting my navel done in august.. soo.. i guess my upper ear thing.. lol
25. Do you have a tattoo?: no! ooww

~Misc. Questions~

26. Do you do drugs?: Nope.
27. Do you drink?: umm on occasion i have been known to
28. Who are your friends?: They are... people.. you know.. them
29. What kind of shampoo do you use? Umm. right now its White Rain
30. What sports do you play?: Ice SKating? does that count?
31. What is one thing you don't wanna lose? I dont wanna lose.. umm... my stuffed bunny. i would die.
34. What are you listening to right now?: Robyn -"show Me Love" heheheeh
35. Who are you talking to right now?: Robin Jacob Trent And Chris.. well.. really im talking nobody is answering.. lol
36. What time is it?: 10:56 PM EST
37. Do you have your own phone line?: i wish.
38. What are the last 4 digits of your phone number?: 8000
39. What shoes do you wear? i wear sandals. and i have wayy tooo many to describe
40. What clothes do you sleep in?: umm.. a teeshirt.
41. What kind of car do you have?: soon to be getting one
42. Who is the last person that called you?: ..Chris.. i think.. to ask me if i was goin' swimmin tomorrow
43. Where do you want to get married?: beach.. or the church..
44. Who is the hottest guy/girl in your school? umm.. i dont know?
45. If you could change any one thing about you what would it be? imma need more than one *pulls out a mile long list*
46. Who do you really hate?: nobody.

~ Favorites~

47. What are the ugliest names?: i think all names have some beauty in them? heheh
48. Color: black and red and pink.
49. Number: 35, 42 adn 5
50. Movie: anything scary.. and scary movie 1 and 2 bwahahaha
51. Clothing Brand: hmm anything at nordies.
52. TV Show: umm.. that 80's show... that funny show with the rabbit and the screwed up muppets... and.. umm i dunno.. other ones
53. Food: Italian.. Chinese
54. Fast food restaurant?: ummmmm dunno.. mickey d;s for mcflurries heheeh and wendy's for their milkshakes
55. Nail polish color: ANY colour!!!!
56. Subject in school: hehe i loved all of em this year heheeheheheh
57. perfume: Sunflowers
58. Bath or Shower: shower.
59. Teacher: hmm.... mr. spears was alright... and mme johnson was just crazy.. but my favourite would be mr. alvis. his class was great fun.
60. Game: Twister!!!!

~More Extra Stuff~
61. Smoked?: nope
63. Got drunk?: not "drunk" persay.. just tipsy
64. Bunjee jumped?: hehe nono
65. Went movie hopping?: umm... we went in and saw like 5 minutes of the grinch before we realized it blew
66. Broke the law?: umm. well.. is it illegal to drink?
67. Ran from the cops?: nope
68. Tried to kill yourself?: umm.? i dont know how to answer this one .
69. Made yourself throw-up?: nuh-uh 70. Gone skinny dipping?: hehehehe i'll never tell.
71. Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: yep, even tho i kicked his ass.. is till cried, and it worked

~What Do You Think Of When You Hear These Words~
72. Red: Passion
73. Cow: Bell?
74. Pig: UGH! stupid mean boys!
75. Rubber: Cement
76. Barfing on your date, or your date barfing on you?: ew.
77. Have your tonsils or appendix removed?: hehehe umm. my tonsils.. maybe it'll make my throat a little more deep hehehe
FRIENDS:
78. Coolest: umm all of em i suppose?
79. Weirdest: dear God.. Lee!!!!!
80. Funniest: Jacob James and Trenty.
81. Smartest: Tiffany and all of them in AP classes.
82. Happiest: umm... happy friends?
83. Meanest: ALL OF THEM!
85. Quietest: umm i dont have quiet friends.. probably sarah .. she can be shy
86. Best friends: umm i dont really know anymore..
87. Who do you go to for advice? advice? umm..nobody really
88 Who all knows your secrets?: LOL all of them!? nobody!!

~Have You Ever....~
89. Caused a Car Accident: neh
90. Seen the Ocean: of course. i like the ocean.

raaaaaaaaannnnnnddddooommm

~This or That~
91. Night or Day?: night night night
92. Chocolate Chip or Mint Chip: mint chip
93. Ocean or Lake: Ocean
94. Chocolate, Vanilla, or Strawberry: strawberry
95. Lion or Tiger: tiiiiggrreeee
96. Love or Lust: in the long run i want love..
97. Silver or Gold: silver.. i cant stand gold on my skin.. (sept my ring)
98. Pencil or Pen: pen hehe
99. Skirt or Jeans: skirt
100. Rose or Tulip: Tulip or Snapdragon

~In the past 48 hours have you...~
101. Cried: nope
102. Bought something? almost bought a car.. lol
103. Worn a skirt: nope, my bathing suit tho.
104 Gone for a walk: yup
105. Gone for a drive: yup
106. Gone out for dinner: onpe
107. Taken a test: nope, schools out for me hehe
108. Talked to an Ex: believe it or not, yesterday i mistakenly did.
109. Missed an Ex: nope.
110. Watched your fav movie: nopers
111. Missed someone: yeaaaaaaa
112. Hugged somebody: .... actually.. no
113. Kissed someone: nope
114. Danced with somebody: hehe i dance alone lol
115. Had a nightmare: yes
116. Fought with your parents: yup

~The Feeling Side~
117. What do you feel about a Ouija board?: i have one in my closet.. its cool, jsut a game... sometimes gets a little fuhreakay
118. Do you believe in yourself?: When do i ever?
119. Worst feeling in the world?: lonlieness... and feeling fat and unpretty =0P
120. Best feeling in the world?: umm.. happiness and revenge *grin*
121 Are u for world peace? well i WAS because i wanted a 100 in world history ;0) hehe
122. Are you a health freak? ahhhhhh no!! LOL

~ Final Questions~
124. Did you have fun filling this out?: sure?
125. How many people are you sending this to?: im posting it
126. Who sent this to you: ALLYYYYYYYYYYYY *pounce*
127. What do you think of the person that sent this to you? Ally is a sweetheart and i love her! *double pounce* mm aly we are so sexaayyyyyyyyyy heheehehehheh=0* 128. Why'd the chicken cross the road?: To... meet his friend.
129. What are you going to do after this email is done? heheh go take a picture or three! LOL
130 Do you want to answer anymore questions?: not really.. hehehe

its over and done. *smoooch*
moi.

:+:Tears streak down my face on Monday, June 3, 2002 at 10:42 p.m. :+:

:+:kisses&tears:+:
Kisses are for everyone.. Tears are for me. Went and looked at a car today.. didnt run.. didnt get it.. ah well.. volare here i come =0) *wish* anyways.. talkin to james and jacob and trenty.. funfilled. =0/ matt imed me saying hes lonely without me.. *obvious sarcasm time* aww.. that makes me feel like getting back together with him. *end obvious sarcasm* *cue irony* HAAAAAAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH ohhh jeeeeezeee can we get more lame?! *NewsFlash* Bu-udy i didnt like you the FIRST time we dated. i went out with you b/c of soemthing me and lindsay were discussing.. and iw anted to prove her wrong.. i didnt.. but still.. plus at the time i really wanted a boyfriend, and well.. he was around and willing so.. whatever. anywyas.. im off to discuss things
Was It like an echo? Badapapapa..
signed,
the girl who lives at the end of the 5 and 1/2 minute hallway...

:+:Tears streak down my face on Monday, June 3, 2002 at 01:36 a.m. :+:

:+: eeek! :+:
Well This is what happens when demented people play with powerful toys... hehehe *giggle* I have been messin around with my funfilled digital camera.. and my goodness... i got sum pictuuuures ~! LOL Of course im in a swimsuit in one of them so its embarassing. PLUS the stupid dragon! i didn't even realize where *his* head was! Oi! I felt like an idiot, but it kind of ties the picture all together, doncha think? well.. i'll put the linx in.. b/c pictures take 5 million years to load on this thing. BTW - i am bored. Bored bored bored bored bored. If you didnt already know. I need some night life excitement. you know? hmm.. Either that or someone to talk to! *pounds table with fists* well.. i guess thats all for now.. at 1:21 in the morning im taking pictures ! =0O! maybe i'll get super brave and practice my playboy modeling! LOL! Don't get your hopes up, i wouldnt post those pictures *winkwink* hehe. only joking. but anyways.. check out my pictures while i go check out my buddy list to see who's here and who's ignoring me.
Huge Picture.. You are Warned.
Ack The Dragon!

well, I have nothing better to do than blog, so i will go work on the layout for the fanfic. blog for lindzers.
*smooches*
Me.
AHHH!!! I posted me in a bathing suit *freaks out*

:+:Tears streak down my face on Sunday, June 2, 2002 at 01:18 a.m. :+:

:+:"Looks" Surf-ee:+:
Stole it frum Ally Babe... hehe just what i need.. an entire survey about looks... ahck
~*~*~*~*~*~All about your looks!~*~*~*~*~*~ <--EEEK!!! i hate that!!
1. How tall are you?
5'5"
2. Do you have long hair or short hair?
layered.. lol
3. What color is your hair?
blonde. also classifyed as.. umm.. blond. lol
4. What color are your eyes?
YAY! the only feature i like about myself!! i've been told that they are "cold dead eyes" hehe they're green
5. What color is your complextion?
Fair.. and now its sunburnt
6. How do you like to style your hair?
Down.. Up.. in a clip? right now its up in a blue bandana
7. Do you like to wear make-up?
yeaaa.. only not to the pool... lol.. if you wanna see me makeupless.. then.. go to the pool . hehe
8. If so what colors do you use?
well.. usually what goes with what im wearing.. but its always dark
9. Do you like to wear lots of glitter?
YES! hehehe GlitterGoth <--awwww so.. notcute. lololol
10. Do you like to wear jewelery?
Yep. i have my kokopelli necklace.. my massive amounts of rings.. (("umm.. your finger.. is umm.. looking at me?")) tee hee.. and soon im gonna break out the anklets.. and get my belly button pierced.. yippie!!
11. What type of clothes do you wear?
dark ones? LOL right now im wearing "short-shorts" and a haltertop. lol
12. What's your favorite store to shop at?
Bloomingdales and Nortstrom <--omg so stuck up sounding lol
13. Does EVERYTHING you wear have to match?
Yes?!?! why wouldnt i match!?
14. Does your mood reflect what you're wearing?
Yea. I always wear black. lol
15. How long does it take you to get ready for school in the morning?
not long.. i pick out what im gonna wear the night before
16. Do you HAVE to have make-up on before you leave the house?
yea.
17. Do you reapplie make-up throughout the day?
as needed yea
18. Do you wear perfume?
yup.
19. If so what kind?
Sunflowers.. Endless Love..
20. Do you really care about your looks?
Yep.

well.. the torment is over...
love and kisses XOXOXO,
moi.

:+:Tears streak down my face on Saturday, June 1, 2002 at 02:46 a.m. :+:

:+: ..Well.. :+:
Well.. today.. I went swimming w/ Trent Chris and my brother. It was great fun. I'm glad I have people I can hang out with, you know? Its nice sometimes to just chill, and the fact that we have a community pool makes it even more fun to chill. =0)~ The stupid lifeguard wasn't there today, neither was the extremely cute guy that was there yesterday. hehe. There was a storm last night, so I had to interrupt my conversations to sign off... then , of course miss. paranoia ((me)) couldn't sleep so I played Super Mario Land ((on my game boy)) and sat around.. Jeeze. I can't stand being paranoid. I can't go to sleep until I check my closets, just in case. I can't go into like a public bathroom without looking in all the open stalls.. and if I'm the only one in there, God help the next person who walks in.. I end up freaking out.. I can't sleep facing away from the door. Hell, when I lived in VA I used to prop my rocking chair up against my closet door to keep it from opening. Jeezee, I'm a nutcase. I wonder if anyone else is this crazy? Arrg. Oh Well.. I guess I'll flip for now.. Its gonna storm later.. arrrg!
love,
melinda

:+:Tears streak down my face on Friday, May 31, 2002 at 10:08 p.m. :+:

:+:I 0wnz.p3r10d.:+:
w00t!!! I finally fixed the daggone layout! i dont know if you guys know how happy this makes me =0)=0) well... the quote of inspiration.. is um.. wait let me look *rumage*

Come here
I've got the pieces here
Time to gather up the splinters
Build a casket for my tears

niiice. thats poe. *sigh* i guess im just sick of it. i hate to cry, and i feel like i failed myself in doing that.. and over stupid reasons too! geeze! i am supposed to be the strong independent.. you know.. me!? eesschhh! not the little wispy flower who cries all the time. ugh. i cant stand that. anyways.. i suppose i need to gather up my splinters... so thats what i plan on doing.. i got a little sun today... but not alot.. and a painful scratch on my knee.. hmm.. anyways.. more later...

HAve fun with this survey
1. IF YOU COULD BUILD A HOUSE ANYWHERE, WHERE WOULD IT BE? hmm..damn.. Coastline of Italy.. or... Capri .. *sigh
2. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE ARTICLE OF CLOTHING? umm clothes? Well lets see here.... a bathing suit? =0) nah. all my cute tops *yay!* *gets all superficial and blonde*
3. FAVORITE PHYSICAL FEATURE OF THE OPPOSITE SEX? eyes and muscles =0) heheh
4. WHAT'S THE LAST CD THAT YOU BOUGHT? that i bought? i dunno.. ? last CD i got.. was um.. JAgged Little Pill I guess. Nono.. Jacob burned me Surfacing.. so thats the last CD that i got..
5. WHERE'S YOUR FAVORITE PLACE TO BE? Ice skating Rink.. and now the pool..
6. WHERE'S YOUR LEAST FAVORITE PLACE TO BE? like.. nature walking.. errch
7. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE PLACE TO BE MASSAGED? well right now my back and my neck it would be nice. =0/
8. STRONG IN MIND OR STRONG IN BODY? I am strong in mind. ((HAHA strong in body that makes me giggle))
9. WHAT TIME DO YOU WAKE IN THE MORNING? .. Morning?
10. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE KITCHEN APPLIANCE? does the kitchen table count? ;0) hehehe
11. WHAT MAKES YOU REALLY ANGRY? lol i agree with britters. people who run their mouths and dont know what they're talking about.. and people who talk constantly about stuff that is so shallow. lol
12. IF YOU COULD PLAY ANY INSTRUMENT, WHAT WOULD IT BE?guitar
13. FAVORITE COLOR? well.. red and black.. but to wear i'd say black or blue.
14. WHICH DO YOU PREFER SPORTS CAR OR SUV? sports car.
15. DO YOU BELIEVE IN AFTERLIFE? yup .. heaven =0)
16. FAVORITE CHILDREN'S BOOK? haha Put Me In The Zoo!!!!!!!
17. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SEASON? Summer and Winter 18. WHAT'S YOUR LEAST FAVORITE HOUSEHOLD CHORE? cleaning my room. lol give me any other room
19. IF YOU COULD HAVE ONE SUPER POWER, WHAT WOULD IT BE? transmogrification! ((LOL I love calvin and hobbes. hehe))
20. IF YOU HAVE A TATTOO, WHAT IS IT? nope. i sure dont.
21. CAN YOU JUGGLE? LOL Mr. alvis was tryin' to show us how.
22. THE ONE PERSON FROM YOUR PAST YOU WISH YOU COULD GO BACK AND TALK TO? go back in time and talk to? Damn.. Danny Befumo *siiiiiigh* LOL and... probably laura and kick some sense into her damn head.
23. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE DAY? day? its summer.. i dont know what "day" is
24. WHAT'S IN THE TRUNK OF YOUR CAR? .. bodies? hehe
25. WHICH DO YOU PREFER, SUSHI OR HAMBURGER? ehh.. how about... hamburger i guess.. yuuck i so am not in the mood for a hamburger. lol

well there goes the thing. *dance* so now you have more insight to moi. =0) heheh j/p anyways... gotta flip
=0*
me.
I 0wnz!!! LOL quote of the day "Oh, Praise Allah! He's Leaving!" hehehehe.. that was so fun. =0)=0)

:+:Tears streak down my face on Thursday, May 30, 2002 at 01:34 a.m. :+:

:+:Well Now:+:
wellp... i went swimmin' today.. it was fun.. hehe.. the lifeguard however, was not. he threw a freakin' hissy fit because trent chris and my brother were "roughhousing" or something? he was like "A!! A!! dont do that!" he was so stupid. he put on his headphones and would stare straight forward. so idiotic. how do these people get their jobs? i mean seriously! then we would go jump in.. and he'd watch us sooo closely. im like.. alright babe, i know you arent checkin' me out.. so... im guessin' you're making sure i am not gonna drown.. and well, i've been swimming since forever .. so..... you can turn around in your little chair and put n'sync back on or whatever... anyways.. i must be off... i am having not an interesting conversation.. im not even talking to anyone! Good grief! oh well.. im gonna blow this popsicle stand. ;0)
me.

:+:Tears streak down my face on Wednesday, May 29, 2002 at 10:21 p.m. :+:

:+:so..:+:
So last night i curled up with my bunny rabbit and just cried. i hate crying. especially to a stuffed animal! those cold judgemental eyes.. staring me down.. *shudder* anyways. I guess I'm feeling better.. the fact that when i signed on.. i got 3 IMs that said "Are you Okay!?" made me feel better.. and the fact that the 2 people i polled said they did indeed love me.. the fact that james listened to me bitch for lke 15 minutes made me feel better.. and the fact that i am not boring really cheered me up.. i still feel like i have tears in the back of my head.. i dont know why.. my head is killing me.. my back hurts.. my neck hurts.. everything hurts... they're all killing me.. killing me.. slowly? softly? i dont know. all i know is that they are... hmm. odd.. anyways. im out like a fat girl in a game of dodgeball.. still no pictures dammit.
me.

:+:Tears streak down my face on Wednesday, May 29, 2002 at 01:41 a.m. :+:

:+:New.. Yippie:+:
Well Hip-Hip-Horray. I have a new layout. Isn't it just precious? Yes. Yes It is. I guess the weather was my inspiration.. that among other things.. yes, the title of it is "Loosing Hope." Perche you ask? Well Listen my children and you shall hear a tale
A Long, Long Time Ago..
hah, only joking. anyways. I suppose the title was derived from the fact that I have lost hope. Don't ask why.. I just have. I just sat here in my room tonight, like 15 minutes ago, and just cried. And I don't know why! Dammit!! It has to do with conversations ((and lack of conversations)) And dammit, it just doesn't seem to be fair anymore. I don't feel like i have a point. I feel like God is going "here see him? yay! you like him now.. oh wait.. he doesn't like you.. what a pity, and how damn obvious was that one? Jeeze! sharpen your wits!" I dunno.. I mean.. everything is calming down in one part of my life.. but its getting so screwed up on the opposite end. Seriously. I don't know what I did to piss people off.. and suddenly everyone is like "Hi, You Suck, Bye." Well whatever. Maybe that is how it is meant to be. Well F-that. Amanda once told me "you know.. if you ever commited suicide.. nobody would know why.. you look so happy all the time.." HAH happy. all the time. Goodness. I couldn't do it even if I wanted to.
NOT FAIR-not fair-not fair not fair not fair! I just want... Oh who the hell knows anymore. James called me Fickle because ((@ the time of yesterday)) he read my blog which mentioned me liking someone.. but now.. its just like.. It wouldn't work. no matter what. You know? I seem to bother him.. So why deal with that anymore? I'm so tired of it. I am so sick of everything. My stomach hurts now.. I don't know why I let people get me so upset. I guess it kills me that my friends could give a damn if they spoke to me or not.. Hah.. Funny thing.. Kills me..
me.

:+:Tears streak down my face on Tuesday, May 28, 2002 at 02:02 a.m. :+: