dreamgaze revival

11:06 a.m.
Monday, November 7, 2005

Alright I have a lot to tell you all. First had my g-pa McCoy not sold that farm land where the trailer park was located (you know the one that just got hit with the tornado) then obviously A: Evansville wouldn't be on National News. B: My Aunt Linda wouldn't be in the hospital and neither would my cousin Jennifer.
My Aunt Linda isn't the one that I'm worried about the most either. It's my cousin Jennifer. She has a fractured neck and a puntured lung which is partually colasped.
At first I was happy and excited that it was storming out and then when I heard from the customers that a tornado had touched down and had hit a trailer park by Angel Mounds I was freaked out(I work thirds on weekends now) Thought that my g-ma McCoy was in trouble. Hell she didn't even know that anything had happened. She heard the roar of the tornado tho and then the fire trucks and everything. Anyways, I was just giving up-dates on how my family was doing. I don't know if any harrison kids were hurt. I know that Andrew Snow is @ deconnis (sp) cretical, last that I checked, he was w/Jennifer and was pined under the trailer when it fell.
Anyways, onto other news. I'm out here @ Ivy Tech. I have a car, but I can't drive it. But it's cute. It's a hundai (sp?) elontra, 2005 (new!) and it's a pretty silver. However, I've already wrecked and I still have yet to be allowed to drive it out here to school. That and I have like no money now. Damn insureance co. Steal my money and not give it back to me. >That's wut I'll ask for for x-mas! *yawn* I must go now. I am sleepy and I have a short story, speech and essay all to write for tomorrow and the next day.

*~*Chibi-Enya*~*

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01:38 p.m.
Thursday, November 3, 2005

Wow! I almost forgot about this place. Sry Ni! I need to get in touch with you sometime soon. It'd be nice if we could all hang out or something. Then again I like the way that things have changed. We all started out together and now look at us. We are apart, or at least I am. Kinda interesting (I have no idea why I said that, but neways).
Everything with Zach is going good. Going on our 6month together and things couldn't be better. Then again anything that comes up we work out and work our way through it. That and he's finding out how hard headed I can actually be at times. Although, he can be pretty hard-headed as well.
Hmmm... did i mention that college sucks? I mean come on how many research papers/essays can you have in one fucking semester? I hate research papers or anything dealing with that shit!!!!! But right now I must leave before I start to rant about having to write poetry and short stories and other things.

*~*Enya*~*

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07:06 a.m.
Monday, May 23, 2005

Grah! Things are crazy over here in my life. I'm bf hopping right now. I got one that I had only known for a few days. But now I have another guy that I've known since Feb. (yes, we both liked each other when we first saw eaxh other). Also the second guy is hot as hell and he is sooo very sweet. He says things that are...grah...are what sweet, cute? No they have to be more. I just don't know what to call them.
However, I'm sick right now so yeah. I tried to get out of kissing him, but he said that he doesn't get sick. So now I'm waiting to see if he gets sick. And if he does then I'm gonna feel sooo bad. ^^x
Yeah ya'll can tell that my life is going pretty damn good, if I now have the one guy that I wanted since I saw him in grill at work. I just have to be prepared for him to go over seas. Well that and go through basic. He is gonna be a marine. And to that all I can say is WOW! He's hot enough as it is now. But just think of him in the marine uniform (the dress one). ^^x *drools* Anyways, there is work to be done over here, and sitting on the compu typing isn't getting it done. Therefore, JA MATTA NE!!!!
*~*Chibi-Jesse*~*

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09:06 p.m.
Wednesday, March 30, 2005

Ah, here I go again with my great ability to wonder at the things in this world. Like tonight I was supposed to get off at 10:00 but instead I manage to get off at 8:00. When I call my dad to have him come and get me (yeah working on that whole driving thing right now) he tells me that 20 to 30 mins. ago my Great Grandma Boerner died. I knew that she was gonna die soon enough. I mean she was in the hospital with congestive heart failure, but I guess I never thought it would happen so soon. I always thought that she'd live to be 100 years old and not 98. She was soo close to.
I don't get why I cry either. Not like I was close to her or anything, I guess I was always proud to say that I had a Great Grandma. That she was going to be 100 soon.
But why am I typing this all here? Not like people care. Death always comes, and never stops so what's the point, besides she didn't like this side of my family (grandpa boerner on down the line to me). So that means I shouldn't cry over her. Yet, blood is still blood no matter what. Right?

*~*Chibi*~*

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12:11 a.m.
Sunday, February 6, 2005

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Your inner soul is calling for help! You always
seem so depressed, lonely, and feel like an
outsider. You may have a cold, sad exterior,
but in all reality you are hurt inside and
bottling up all of your anger. Everyday you
wonder why are you still here when there is
nothing left? You use to once be a happy,
loving soul, but it was damaged by 'them' and
seems like it never can be fixed again.
However, you have yet seemed to realize that
there are people out there that deeply care for
you. They secretly have a thing for you because
they find you to be dark, mysterious, and full
of secrets, not to mention being the prettiest
person in the world! You like to enjoy your
time by yourself expressing your feelings
through forms of art, and enjoy nice quiet
scenaries that just dazzle your mind with awe.
Your bedroom is basically your sanctuary where
you can hide out, hidden from those who gave
you all of the pain. Try to loosen up and have
some fun! Never start frowning because you
never know who's falling in love with your
smile :)

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10:27 p.m.
Saturday, February 5, 2005

I've been having fun of late; although, I still spend my time by myself, seems I've grown used to my solitud ways and can't leave them behind for any reason.
Besides the point though. ^^x I've found that I now wonder if it is possible for people to feel like they have wings.
Yes now I know you all are sitting in front of your compu screens thinking I'm fucking nuts, or that I am on something. Well to the second one, you're right if you think that I am on something. However, rest asured that it's not drugs...well they are but yeah...nothing that I don't need. ^^x. So back to the topic of decussion here.
As I have said I wonder if it is possible for people to feel as if they can, do, or did at once have wings. I'm not talking like birds wings, where their wings are their arms as well. No I'm talking as in angel wings. The wings that would be on your back.
Yes sometimes if I'm just sitting around. I find that I feel like I have wings or I did at one point in time. Before life?? I wonder you know. (also I wonder how many of you will flame me for this ^^x )
Yet I think that if I did have wings like an angel they would be as black as the night sky, when there is a beautiful new moon (no moon for those of you stupid humans that don't know anything! > K, I'm gonna shut-up now because you all have to think that I'm nuts, and I wanna see if anybody wants to kill me for what I've said here tonight. ^^x
For somebody who happens to hate God right now it's strange to think I would want to be one of his higher creatures, like an angel. But then again don't say I want it. I don't think I could carry out His will. But I'm rambling and you must be sick of my talking of wings. So I shall leave you to your life.

*~*Chibi*~*

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08:53 a.m.
Sunday, December 26, 2004

I hope that every one had a merry christmas, or if you have a different religion you had a good holiday (trying to include everyone there)

Anyways, I have one word of advise for everyone. Never get anyone a puppy for christmas or anything in that order. The reason is because Julie's neew puppy managed to keep me up all night when she was here for four days, and now it's keeping Julie up. Here's the kicker, Julie wants me to stay at her house and baby sit the little dog. I'm like no. I enjoy sleeping too much rigtht now.

Yet, now my dad and I have to go over to Julie's because the puppy (we're thinking of calling her Ivy) has kept Julie up all night long and she wants us to go over there and watch her I guess. Or something in that order, I have no idea. But I just wanna sleep! *pout*

*~*~*~* Chibi *~*~*~*

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03:40 p.m.
Tuesday, December 14, 2004

I think that I should start posting here just as much as I do on open forums. It's only fair ya know. Anyways I think that's all I have for now. But that's ok

*~*~*~*Chibi*~*~*~*

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03:59 a.m.
Thursday, November 25, 2004

Hmm... ni, i also see something else that should change on the page, but we're not going there right now. I'll talk to you about that one later. ^^x Other than that I love the page, and it comes at the right time of the month! LOL! ^^x
What should I talk about now?? Oh I know! I'm getting happy pills. *rolls eyes* that and now my dad knows some of the things that i've tried in the past (doesn't really know how i like trying to do myself in, but he knows no the less). Also my dr. now knows as well.... -_-x But have no worries, I also have to take the pills and talk to some one as well. So we have everything covered for the time being.
Now you really don't have to worry about me all the time guys. Although, I wonder what will happen if I forget to take the pills on day. You think I would be on the highly down and depressed side?? I guess we'll see, not that I'm gonna go and do it right now. I don't even have them, and I can't remember the name of the meds that he has me on. I know it's not Zolaf (or howeever the hell you spell it!) it starts with an L, I htink. Anyways, I have a big and horrible day ahead of me tomorrow so I'm off to bed!

*~*~*Chibi*~*~*

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10:37 p.m.
Tuesday, November 23, 2004

MWUAHA... nia is back again! ^^

Wow. This page loads slooooowwww.... I might have to make a few minor changes to the layout still so it won't take so darn long.

Other than that... do you like? heehee!

~nia

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