dreamgaze revival

10:13 p.m.
Thursday, November 18, 2004

Hey all!
I'm starting to not want to walk across the stage at Robert's Stadium on May 24, 2005 at 8 (yes i know the time that I'm gonna graduate). I guess I do have a few reasons as to why I don't want to do this. Although, I have a feeling that you all will find that my main reason is gonna be stupid for not wanting to graduate. But to me it's important and a valid reason. Also everytime that I think of it, it makes me sad in sad and if I'm alone I actually start to cry.
You see the reason I don't wanna do it is because my mother isn't going to be there in person. Yes, I've always been told that she'll be with me in sprit and that's good enough as here being there in person, but I actually want her to see me I want her there after I graduate to say while hugging me "Way'd go kiddo I knew you do it." or something like that. I just want her there to see her smile and be proud of what I've done. But that's not going to be able to happen obiviously, and as much as I wish it she won't be there.
Now that I've gotten that off my chest I'm going to get my bath and go to bed. And I could really careless for anyone to come up to me and be all, "We're sooo sorry for you Chibi," or "It'll be ok Chibi. We're here for you." I want none of that crap you hear me! NONE OF IT!

*~* Chibi *~*

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12:24 a.m.
Saturday, October 30, 2004

Yo! How y'all doin' tonight?! ....Sorry I'm listening to some country... group is Big n' Rich: Horse of a Different Color.
Anyways, life is fun over here I mean i find out today that I have a 2.6 gpa. Which I guess sucks. Also I figured out that the Ice is a hard nosed asshole. He goes and says that he doesn't need to read something that deals with me going and working at the polls on Tuesday. But it says on the fucking sheet of paper that I don't need to have my precipal sign the the thing because I am 18 and I've regestered to vote in the county. But hell I'm going to work at the polls anyways! My dad already said it was cool by him ^^x
Too bad I didn't get picked to work at Plaza that would be cool because then I might get the chance to see my old and fave. teachers.
Anyways, I have one thing to say to all those Cub fans who for some odd reason feel like gloating over the fact that the Cardinals lost. And that would be GO BUY A FUCKING GOAT!!!!!!!!!! Then come back and talk to me about your Cubs having a chance to go to the series....not like it's gonna happen any time soon....Red Sox were a special case...they were actually good this year and that helped them. However, the Cubs seem to fuck up out on the feild more than 20 people. After all, they were in the playoffs last year, but they managed to fuck up and lose...go figure. Also GO AND BUY A DAMN GOAT!!! ^^x;
Gotta love that little curse. Anyways, I'm gonna go and watch WK gultan (sp??) Yes, I know I bought two of the DVD's and the american voices are strange. However, I've only heard little clips of them. Get back to y'all when I get a chance.

Good night all!!!

*~*~*Chibi*~*~*

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01:48 a.m.
Saturday, August 14, 2004

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04:41 a.m.
Sunday, August 8, 2004

*Yawn* It's uhh...just look above and you'll find out what time I posted here. Anyways, I wish I could get all this anger out of my system. There's soo much of it in me that it's not even funny. I mean it's almost dangerous (the amount of anger that is within me right now). And the down side is that I don't know where it's all coming from. After all, if I knew what was causing this little problem of mine I would change or put a stop to whatever it was. But right now that's impossible. Anyways, on to other things. I can't wait to turn 18!!! However the down side to that is the fact that we are going to be at school that day. I mean that's gonna suck major balls.
As you've seen on the clipboard over there, I've decided to start over with the story again. I don't know if any of my characters will be like you guys...But if they are then they might have your personalities and that's about all. However, for right now I'm pretty damn happy with the way things are going right now in the story. But getting off to the new start was a hard part...couldn't think of anything to say or type that would bring you into the story. So if anybody wants to read it and give me deadlines (which are reasonable). I'll be more than happy to allow you all to read it. Although, I might just have nia do it, since I said I would when this all began. *yawn*
I keep on falling asleep at the compu. desk....guess I had better get some sleep; after all, I have to get up and go to some stupid mass in Julie's dad's name. I don't see why I have to go to it. I mean my mother died and yet Julie's dad is treated like a special case over my mother!!! It makes me wonder, does my dad even realized that my real mother died when I was about 5 years old (actually I was and no I don't care nor want you guys to feel sorry for me). Anywyas, I kdon't ksee whey I have to get up at around 8:00 in the morning so I can go to something that I could careless to go to. And I don't see why my dad is making me go over and go to the stupid mass. Kinda makes me wanna cry ya know. Feels like my mother has been forgotten my her own widower. I guess I miss her to a stronger point than what my dad does. She gave me life and yet to him all she was was a lover. Must be something that is not of any importance to him. But that woman brought me into this fucking hell and then left me here. But that's not her fault.
Sorry, I'm ranting...I have a lot to get off my chest. So I took this as the chance to do it. I guess I just needed some people to listen to me. Never really go to people to tell them how I feel. Try to keep to myself. Best thing to do ya know. ^^x; Anyways, I'm gonna go before I fall asleep at the keyboard.

*~*They newly Pissed off Chibi*~*

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03:03 a.m.
Wednesday, June 23, 2004

*Story teller comes into the dimly lit room* *She holds a few pieces of paper in her hands* *She finds a big comfy chair to sit in so that she can tell all of her listeners a few pages from a book that The Writter is working on* *After she is seated she looks at all of the listeners faces and begins* *sigh* ...Where to start? At the beginning would take to long.... at the end is pointless... there is no end for what must be said and done... this story never ends... it has fun going and going... *sigh* But let's begin in the middle or in that area... there is no middle in all reality... *sigh* Any ways, There are two people who are caught out in two strong storms. One is a twister with no mind of its own. The other is a very huracane with the ability to control other storms.
The two people that are caught in the two stroms have a friend who has found cover from the two storms. However, the stroms pervent this friend from letting the two people into the cover. All the friend can do is watch.
Yet, there is some good news to all of this. The huracane is about to go back out to sea for awhile. That means the twister will be able to control its self again. However, the good news is sad as well. For a friendship might end up being lost as well once the huracane leaves. Although, the hurcane feels the need to cause the two people pain; the two people wish to watch both the huracane with the ability to control other storms and the twister which has no mind to call its own.
Now, the two people in the stroms will so join with their friend, and even though this friend of the two people is a friend to the two stroms he had rather comfort and help the two people than become one with the two storms. For he feels that they just want to destory everything that just happens to be in their path.
*sigh* ...With all this told there is no end to this little chapter. The reason as to why is very simple to see. This story is still being written. It is a great work in progress. The characters might change or just die. Or the writter might set this book aside for another time and start a new one. It all depends on what happens in the future. The writter will record and write as long as the need is there. The writter will continue to write this book as long as It feels that there is need to keep these characters...to keep the two storms around
But I shall tell you of this story as long as the writter writes it. But when the writter stops with this story; then, so shall I. *sigh* .....but for now that is all this story teller has to say... good-bye for now....

**The Story Teller**

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12:56 a.m.
Friday, June 18, 2004

....Feeling streached... pulled... tweaked sideways.... empity... all around... cold.... nothingness... here and there... maybe... stormy... out or in... maybe both... forgotten out in the cold hard rain.... old... maybe older would fit like a charm... out of touch... with everyone... here and there... nothing more to say... not now... not here.... not for a while... maybe longer.... maybe shorter... don't know... don't care...

*~*Chibi*~*

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2:23a.m.
Saturday, June 12, 2004

I really have nothing new to say here. Well, I mean I wanna take back what I said before about wanting to live forever. I really don't feel that way any more. The main reason is because my dad has gone and basically said to a point that I'm not perfect to him. He keeps talking about Shanen, one of Julie's friend's daughter. This girl graduated this year, she was a cheerleader and all that great shit. She was what we would call a prep. However, she is nice to talk to and everything. But I just wish my dad would stop and think before he says things. I mean I'm siting here tearing up and crying because of what he has said. It's almost like I'm not good enough for him or something like that. What he has said has basically driven a knife in my heart, all's left is someone coming up and twisting the damn thing.
Yeah, ever since I got home tonight I've been crying and thinking once again of ending it all right now and not worrying about anything and everything. I guess this is and out cry to a point. I've all ready joked with myself about doing it. Took a bath and held the wash rag to my face almost sufficating myself. Tried drowning but it didn't seem right to end everything like that, even tho. I almost drowned in the swimming pool at the Y.
I get the feeling that just maybe for the time being I should actually be commited just because I'm thinking about ending it. I seriously looked around the bathroom and thought of all the great ways to do it. I looked from the tub to the toilet, to the pluges on the wall with the light switch. Or I just thought of holding my breath for a good while to see what would happen. However, this thought came to me as I was looking in the mirror (you should try doing that and looking into your eyes....scary man!)
I have a few burning questions that I would like to ask, I mean no one has to come up with an answer to them...Just wanna ask them: Why can't I be myself and be loved and liked by my dad for who and what I am? Why do I have to be like a prep in order for my dad to be happy with me? Why am I always being compared to other girls my age no matter what? Am I supposed to not be my own self? Is there a place like Stepford? I mean if there is then I can go there and become The Stepford Daughter!! Then I'm sure my father would be happy with me! I would be just like all the other girls in this fucking world!!!!!!!!! I wouldn't be like myself, I wouldn't be my own person!!! Which is something my dad has to be totally against! Why else would he be the way he is towards me! Why else would he think of me as not being perfect in his eyes!!!!!!! I mean I only get made fun of for the things that I want to do in life. I only get told that I don't have any friends. I only get told that I should look and act and dress like someone else's daughter!!!!!!
See what I mean by some one needing to watch me! I'm thinking 24 sucid watch! HELL I DON'T CARE IF I SPELLED IT WRONG OR ANYTHING!!! FUCK IT ALL!! I HOPE THIS IS BIG ENOUGH OF A RED FLAG FOR ANY BODY THAT GIVES A FUCK!!! BECAUSE I COULD CARE LESS FOR ANYTHING RIGHT NOW!!!!!

*~*Chibi*~*

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01:53 a.m.
Wednesday, May 26, 2004

I guess the saying all's well that ends well fits here. ^^x I'm now happy! And this morning was the best. It topped everything off! I mean I could've failed a final or two and I still would've been smiling like a freaking nut. I mean we all know that I really don't go and smile all that much. Unless I'm around you guys and you do something totally funny or just plan out stupid!
I guess you all can pretty well guess why I'm happy. Yes, sure, today was the last day of school ('til my B-day). But what happened this morning at school is what's made me sooooooo freaking happy. You all know probably how I've been feeling like shit and down in the dumps right? Well that all changed! The reason is because as I was walking into school David comes out from by the stares (I'm guessing he just came from upstares). I was basically shocked as hell to see him in school. After all, he didn't have to go to school. That and he had graduation. But his reason for coming back was to say good-bye to everyone that he knew. I'm guess that would be mostly teachers and a few friends that he was leaving behind.
Well, I spent the morning walking around school with him trying to talk to him like it was old times. Heck, I made him feel bad (or at least I hope I did). I told him that on Friday I did end up tearing up and crying. He went and asked me why in a kind little voice. I told him that it was because most of my friends were leaving (didn't feel like saying it was because of him).
Now I'm going to make a long story real short....wanna get to bed....After the first bell rang and we walked upstares to Mrs. Helms's room. He went in there and trying to find her and I had to go there for my final. So he couldn't find her in her room so I went and stood out in the hall as he said good-bye to some people like Ross and some one else. Well, he comes out wondering where Mrs. Helms is, and I point over to Mrs. Robertson's room and put my hand on his back as if to push him over there...gentally. That didn't exactlly happen; because he turns to me and says something like give me a hug before I leave or something like that. Sooo yeah I got my hug and it made me as happy as hell for the remainder of the day! That and I told him to call me, but I don't know if that'll ever happen.
yeah and here it is that he writes in my year book for me to keep in touch over the summer, and he goes and says that he'll try to call me sometime. Am I the only one who sees a problem there?? Really! Any ways, I wanna go to sleep before I have to get up and go and take care of my g-ma. She's not doing sooo good right now. So I'm going over there in the morning to help her out if she needs it. But if she doesn't then I'm going to keep her company until Josh comes and picks me up. So good night!!!!!

**Chibi**

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11:00 p.m.
Thursday, May 20, 2004

I'm sad...really I am. The seniors are leaving tomorrow! I won't see them again. Also tomorrow morning is the last morning I get to walk aimlessly around in the halls with David. Also tomorrow is the last time I can get my hugs from the other David that I know. *pout* Why do they all have to go?! I wish I were a senior then I could leave too! *smiles* It would be sooo cool to graduate right now and get the hell out of school. At least then I would be 17 instead of 18 like next year and when I start college I would be 18 instead of 19 like I actually would be. ^^x I guess that makes a lot of sense right? I mean I bet I just confused the hell out of everybody right?
Yeah, I went and I did it again...I went and made friends with a lot of the seniors and now that they're leaving I have no more upper classmen to hang around with. But then again I am going to be an upper classmen next year. I get to be on top of the world, as they say. Yet, I don't wanna be on top! I wanna be out of Harrison! I wanna be able to say "04!" instead of "05!" ^^x; But then again if I were with that class then I wouldn't know the people I know now, so I might as well be happy right?
Owell, I still get to play a small part in class day. I get to walk down on to the gym floor (along with the rest of the junior class) and take my seat as a senior (05) ^^x But the funny thing is...I keep getting this picture of me falling face first on to the floor (you know like in a movie or something) but I know what's causing these visions...nerves!

Any ways, I'm figuring on going ahead and jumping off of here and getting my bath and then heading to bed...gotta get up early enough to put on a little make-up, like usual...but I missed the bus because I fucked up and fell back asleep because I stayed up until 3! But that's not going to happen tonight! Nope! *yawns* Me need me sleep!

**Chibi**

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09:52 p.m.
Tuesday, May 18, 2004

K, I'm sitting here in front of this computer screen. I'm thinking as I type this random shit and as I listen to music....Rob Zombie "Two-Lane Blacktop"....at least for right now. Anyways that's a little besides the point. I figure this is going to be a sad week or at least the rest of the week is going to be sad. I don't want the senior class to leave, well at least i don't want some of the people in that class to leave. Yeah, one should never make friends with upper classmen. You'll just lose touch as time passes. I have to say good-bye to Curtus, David, Hubbard, 'Becca, Monte, Rashad, Nosher, Nick, Eric, and Chris. Just to name a few of the seniors that I know and I'm going to have to watch go and leave.
Any ways, let's see what else is going on in my life..... I really don't know ....uh...I think or at least I feel deeply confused right now. I really don't know why either. Maybe it's just this week or something. So many people are going to be leaving. Also one of my friends Amanda Rhine will be leaving....actually moving to Florda for good because her dad got a better job down there. I think she will be moving to Jacksonville or somewhere around there. So next year I won't have her around. Owell, I guess I'll be able to make it at Harrison with some of the people I've met this year.
So it sounds like I'm on a feel sorry for me trip. But I'm not. Although it might sound like that but I don't mean for it to. Hmmm... what I said up there about time passing and all that, it all makes me kind of write something in a sercet little place that only 4 people will be able to read. Although, I don't know why I want to write something in that place...it's dead. It will not come back to life or so I now believe (yes I know I'm doing it again, but I really have nothing to actually talk about here). K I'm leaveing now!

**Chibi**

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06:00 p.m.
Saturday, May 1, 2004

I figure tonight is going to suck to a point. The main reason being obivious to anyone. Well maybe not. But I'll tell you why tonight is going to suck anyways. Tonight is Harrison's prom and of course I didn't have anybody to go with so hence forth I'm stuck at home with nothing to do.
Besides the point the guy that I wanted to go with didn't want to go, and why I don't know. After all, it is his sr. prom and my jr. prom. Maybe he just didn't want to spend the money or something of the sort. But then again I didn't ask him and I didn't ask to see if he wanted to go to prom. What I mean is, I didn't ask him if he wanted to go to prom with me. Jennifer George did that. And his answer was no. But the reason behind the answer is something that I don't know because I didn't go and pestor him about his reasoning. I figured he'd have his own reasons as to why he didn't want to go. So I left it at that. Maybe I'm a little afraid of getting too close to him or something.
But then again everyone around me is saying that we should just go out...well all of us except Amanda-chan. She seems to think that I'm not his type or something like that. I don't know what to do in all reallity. I don't think I've ever felt this strong for some one. HELL I'VE EVEN STARTED TO GO AND WEAR MAKE UP FOR HIM!!! Yes, I now wear maskera, eye liner, and foundation to school every day. That and I go and fix my hair every morning as well. Is anybody scared yet?? I mean the tom-boy is almost no more! ^^x;;
Anyways I think I'm gonna go and pestor some one now. Not for sure who it's gonna be. It's almost 7:00! Prom goers better get a move on it before it starts to rain again! Hopefully the guys will understand that the girls don't want to get their hair and their dresses all nice and wet before the dance begins! ^^x

**Chibi**

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10:55 p.m.
Friday, April 9, 2004

So what to talk about is the big question on my mind. I want to post about something, but I've got no clue as to what to post about. Maybe I should just talk about random things and call it a post. Like you know not say anything and just put down things that mean absoultly nothing to anybody (including me). Than when I hit the little button that says done! I can say that I posted. Although I wouldn't have said anything wroth saying. I wonder does that mean I have no life? I guess it would wouldn't it. (Ye, know that sentence doesn't look right but at the sametime it looks super cool!)
Anyways, here I go again trying to think of something to post. You all should try this not having a life it's really fun! >FUCKING BUBBLE!!!! so you really have no idea how to grow up since you've always been treated like a FUCKING KID AT EVERY TURN IN YOU FUCKING LIFE!!!
I guess you could say I just found something to say. My dear-old-dad decided last night to tell me that I need to grow up and all that great shit, but ya know what I really can't since he's always treated me like a little kid. I mean Hell I'm always being draged over to Julie's. And just recently I have managed to almost always be left at home by myself. And ya know what?! Now he wonders why I'm always home and not out with any of my friends. HELL LET'S THINK ABOUT THIS! I MEAN IT'S REAL EASY TO FIGURE OUT! I'VE HAD NO LIFE SINCE I BECAME A TEEN AND SO THEN I JUST LOST TOUCH WITH EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE! NO THANKS TO THE BULLSHIT HE PULLED WHEN I WAS JUST A FUCKING KID!!!! Yeah, I guess you could say that I'm a little mad at him for some of the things that go wrong in my life. Maybe some day I'll get over it and find something to do in my life (what's left of it)
I wish I could live forever...I don't really know why, but the more I think about things I wish I could just go on living. Like I would become 21 or so and just stop aging. Heh I find this wish to be funny. A few good years ago, well maybe not that long ago, I would have given anything to die. I was always thinking about ways to kill myself. Hell! We all know that I actually tried to kill myself! I always wondered who would miss me, who would think that I wasted my life, and all taht good shit. But now I want to go on living forever! I know that my mom had a strong pull on me when I was young, and she still does. But it's been almost 11 years since she died from cancer (waiting for May to come around).
I guess on that note I'm leaving for awhile (no I'm not planing on doing anything to myself...like I've said I want to live forever!)

Chibi!

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09:32 a.m.
Monday, March 22, 2004

Hey all! It's Spring Break and here I am sitting in front of the compu. with a hurt finger tip trying to figure out what to say to you all. Something like that....also I'm trying to get boerner up so that we can go and help our g-ma out today. She has somethings that she needs our help with up at the Holder Farm as we call it. However, Mr. Josh decieded he wanted to stay up all night talking to some girl that lives up north. And now I'm having to yell and scream to get him up....NOT FUN!!!
Anyways, I think I'm gonna have to kill some one when I get back to school....well that is if i don't get to talk to them at all during this week. I don't feel like saying any names because you all should know who I'm talking about. Anyways, he pulled some shit on me on thr. and a little of fri. before we left for break, and now I'm thinking on killing him for it. (he messed with my emotions or something in that order) K now that you know the just of things in my life again I figure that I should go and wake my dear old brother up and see if he feels like helping his grandma out with me. That nd I have to let the dog in so yeah!

Chibi ^^x;

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10:48 p.m.
Thursday, March 4, 2004

Hey all lookie who I'm most like out of Anne Rice's Vampires!!

You are Lestat!
Congratulations! You are truly the Brat Prince.
What an honor to be as cool as Lestat.

Chibi

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11:21 p.m.
Friday, February 27, 2004

Why is it that everything in life has to be sooo freaking hard! K, Curtis (we all remember him) goes and asks Hubbard if he knows that I like him....He did this today. And Hubbard's answer was yes. So now Hub. knows that I just happen to like him; yet, you'd think this would make my life easier, right? Well it doesn't! Because I don't know how he thinks of this; after all, the answer that I heard Curtis got was "Yeah I know." It really doesn't sound to good right?
I guess I'm just gonna have to wait and see what happens after all of this, and I still have yet to ask the guy out. Which I'm planning on doing when I damn ready to. But then today I had something else happen to me. It kinda makes me feel as if I'm stuck in a freaking love triangle or something.
This guy, that I have in my foods class group, goes and asks me why I like David. Why do I like some of the ugly guys. He wanders if it's be cause of my self esteam(sp?) is low or something like that. Well, he keeps this up and then says to me, and I don't know even now if he was jokeing or being serious. But he says that He would go out with me. He said, at the time, that he was being serious, but I really don't know. Thus, I get the feeling that I'm in a love triangle or something of the sort. And now I have no real idea as to what I'm gonna do.....I think everything just took a step or two in the wrong direction!!!

LIFE SUCKS!!!!

Fucked Chibi-Hiru

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08:58 p.m.
Wednesday, February 18, 2004

Grah right now I'm beginning to hate a few things right now. Like I have a project to do for geometry, but I hate it. Also.....MY FUCKING TEETH HURT!!!!!! DAMNIT!!!!1 I think those are the only things that are bugging me. Oh well, at least I'm still stuck on a high from gym class. ^^x;; K it's a long story, but I'll make try to make it short for you guys (but yami I stiil want to tell you this over the phone, when ever that will be). K, today in gym I had asked Zack (form the sixth grade) to spot me on the bench (i haven't done that in a long time). So I'm getting ready to put the weight on, and then Hub. shows up and stands there just watching and waiting for me to put the weight on the bar. Well I don't really want him to know how much I can lift. Well then Hubber goes and put and even 100 on the bar and they both gain up on me and tell me to bench it. Well some where along the line Hub becomes my spotter. ^^x; K, I left out a few things but you see what my high is? He's actually helping me in gym! Not to mention I can talk to him a lot more. ^^x Tis all good! ^^x
*~*~*~*Chibi-Hiru*~*~*~*

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03:44 p.m.
Thursday, February 12, 2004

I've got great news....That is if I call and get more info. on this little workshop up at the Lake Forest College. You see They have this workshop...It's called Writing & Thinking Workshop. It's a national program, and I'll be a short train ride away from Chicago. Also the Lake Forest is located close to Lake Michigan. It sounds sooo freaking cool. The only problem is that it costs ,450 to do this. It's two months out of the summer that goes from June 20-July 3. And the best part about it is that my dad wants me to go to it. It's like...WOW COOL SWEET!!!! So I'm really happy about this. I just hope they have some kind of financial aid....oh it says it LImited financial aid...That's good I know that I'm qualified for it...after all I'm from a single parent home. I can't wait! I wanna go! Yami I might be able to see you this summer it looks like...Hey that could be one of those be-lated birthday gifts! ^^x; Anyways, I'm gonna go and do my homework!
Chibi Hiru

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08:12 p.m.
Monday, February 9, 2004

Ya know what I really don't like about some of these people that talk about computers and everything like that on a TV programe is that they seem to confuse the two types of people out there. One being a Hacker and the other, which they don't really know much about, is Cracker.

Now if you don't know the difference between the two of these computer people then you're really sad. K, I'll tell you something about the two that people on TV programes, such as documentaries (sp?), don't know is that a Hacker is some one who goes and hackes into computer programes trying to find the holes in the codes of the programe. Once this is done they, the Hackers, go and tell the people that own the computer programe tell them about the holes in the codes and the programs. But on the other hand you have Crackers. Crackers are people who go and hack the codes of the computer programes and codes, just like Hackers. The only difference is that Crackers go find the holes and use them to their advantage. They don't tell the programe owners about the holes. They are the ones who cause all the problems on the net anymore.

To bad some of the documentary people don't know about the crackers; because all they're doing is giving hackers a bad name. Oh well not my problem....I just thought that I would give my two cents wroth.... ^^x; I think I'm gonna go and sleep now Bi Bi!!! ^^x;;

*~*~*~*Chibi-Hiruko*~*~*~*

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09:59 p.m.
Friday, January 23, 2004

I hate this....Hell I can't even write out a post for today. Let's see here, y-day was my mom's B-day, she would have been 48 if she were still here. However, I wasn't really sad y-day, and the only reason that I could come up with is that I was able to be around Hub and when I'm around him I really don't think much about being sad. Which is a good thing; because y-day I had that chance to be depressed which isn't really all that good.

I need to stop babaling about things...got make since of all this shit. Hmmm....Let's see tomorrow is my g-ma McCoy's B-day...ack I don't have a card for her!! -_-x; CALL HER AND SAY HAPPY B-DAY TO HER!!! ^^x;;; she's everybody's g-ma if ya think about it...^^x; Random yes, I know that, but who cares...that's just how I feel today...

I told Ni that I would come here and post, but I'm running out of things to say here....what to talk about.....I wish Ni would get back on or at least come back from away....grrrr.....I'm gonna kill that girl...not really, but it sounded good to me at the time. ^^x; Anyways, I'm gonna go now Ja!!! ^^x;

*~*~*~*Chibi-Hiru*~*~*~*

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11:54 p.m.
Friday, January 16, 2004

I've got serious problems...but they're really funny. K since the first week or so of school I've liked this guy, David Hubber. Well it turns out that at the first of the year I had this chance to go out with him or just to build a realtionship with the guy. But some how I managed to blow the damn thing; because, I found out that he was going to with this other girl...think she's in the 10th grade or something like that....she was butt ugly too. However, there's some good news behind all of this....Since the start of this sememster I've managed to get a lot closer to the guy, but there is that chance that I'm just reading way too much into things...but hey I can hope right? Well anyways there are somethings that hint to the fact that Hub (part of his last name...nickname if you will) he does like me or then again I could be reading too much into it. Like all the little things...No Tsuki nothing like holding hands or anything like that....more like little things that you wouldn't really take for anything else that being super playful.

Anyways it seems that I just wanted to come here and post something totally randome and I think I have done this so now I'm gonna go back to folding the clothes that I have to fold, or else I'm gonna get my ass in trouble....not something that I want to have happen mind you so Ja ne!!!!

*~*~*~*Chibi*~*~*~*

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12:03 a.m.
Thursday, January 1, 2004

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 TO EVERYONE!!!It's about 12:04am now, but that's not the point right? It's a new year and i hope that it's a good year for all ya know?!

I hear peiople setting off fireworks around the place.....but they're a little late...Anyways I think it's about time that i get back to the movie "The Ninth Gate" it's a weird movie, but it's still a good one...i think?

I know it's been awhile sence i last posted in the blog its self, but life has been a little busy and all. So hopefully I'll be able to fix that little problem, wonder what else i have to fix...well that's another story right? Hmmm....i think that's all i have to say for right now....in a few days you guys might want to go and see the old place...^^x; Think there might be something special on it....that is if can think of something to top the last thing that i posted there....doudt that to happen ya know...but ya never know....JA NE AND HAPPPY NEW YEAR ONCE AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

Chibi-Hiru ^^x;

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10:40 p.m.
Friday, November 28, 2003

I think I'm going to have to start working on Fridays... not exactly what I wanted to have happen ya know. I really don't like work all that much and I'm going to be seeing a lot more of it...*grumbles*

Anyways, I hated Thanksgiving and I'm definatly going to hate Chirstmas. The only reason why is because Juile wants to have it at her house this year. I don't like the idea of it. But then again we've always had it at our house. I've never opened up my gifts from my dad any where else but at my house. I don't want to move it around. I have a lot of memories of Chirstmas at my house. That reminds me I still have to figur out what I'm going to get you for Chirstmas, Mandi! Give me an idea, I already know what I want to get evreryone else. Then again I already have Ni and Yami's gifts. Tsuki, I hope you like what I'm going to get you. But then again you might not want it. Oh well! ^^x (that's sad, that I don't act like I care...But don't worry I do! Really I do!!)

I think I'm going to go and watch something on TV or just think about a new story, too bad ni an't on; because I could go and rpg with her! Y_Yx It's soooo sad...Hey i could go and play Underground. I have a race or two to go and finish before I can go and up-grade my car on the game. Oh yeah Speed Reacer is on Speed Vision TV. It's so cool ya know...well it's the old version though -_-x; It's real scary, well to a point at least. Anyways, Ja ne!!

*~*~*~*Chibi-Hiru*~*~*~*

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10:45 a.m.
Tuesday, November 11, 2003

I wonder if this will work considering the fact that the last two posts...no make that the last three post haven't worked out for me. And in all reality I have yet to figure out why. Unless pitas is about to die or something, maybe it is...ya never know until somethings happen ya know what I mean. Anyways, that's all i'm going to post for right now.

*~*~*~* Chibi-Hiru *~*~*~*

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07:39 p.m.
Sunday, October 26, 2003

This is not Hiroko.

That it is not.

This is NIAKO.

(who is hot hot hot)

This is not for boogers,

Nor for snot,

Nor for hitting

One's head with a pot,

Nor is it for

A man named Lot;

This layout is for HIROKO

....?

(her name doesn't rhyme)

(that it does not)

SURPRISE HIRU-CHAN! I hope you like it. ^^

~Niako

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