Denny's Utopia | Version 2

UPDATE: I JUST MADE THE GRAND HAVEN HIGH SCHOOL 2001-2002 SCIENCE OLYMPIAD TEAM! GO BUCS!

Den wrote on Wednesday, December 5, 2001 at 04:22 p.m.

I do not feel as if I could be any angrier at a certain few. It is not possible. No, it is beyond pondering. I have never felt this way before. No, it's not love. Instead, it is the ultimate realization of a lost friendship. Again, a long story turned short means that a once good friend is going out with someone. This someone does not like me, despises me with absolute jealousy. My friend, I believe, has sided with her someone, and not with me. I told my friend that her someone should not be treating me this way, and that her someone needs an attitude adjustment. Well, I don't believe my friend thinks I'm right, although I have never felt anything strongly in my life, except for a few exceptions. There are a number of reasons I should be mad at my friend and her boyfriend...all leading to a monumentous decision. A decision that the friendship, although once potent and deciding, is no longer existance. It makes me feel very bad, because with my brief period of isolation, the loss of a friend does not help. Indeed, if our friendship is nothing, December will be filled with dreary misconceptions of the unknowns. All I know is that I am doing what I feel is right. I believe she and her boyfriend are wrong. He's committing the crime, and she is in turn his accomplice. Of all times to do this, it was on my birthday (yesterday). I felt like crap. I recall the scene of the Harry Potter movie, and when Harry sang to himself before Hagrid burst in. Although the bank account of friends is still rather full, it is missing a silver dollar. Kudos, again, and everyone- Happy Friday!

Den wrote on Friday, November 30, 2001 at 03:26 p.m.

Science Olympiad try-outs were horrible! The earth science tests...can I say misery? I did not know one of the answers at all. We were asked to identify rocks, birds, and a bunch of constellations! Since I skipped ES and didn't do any ES events in my previous years of SO, I screwed up big time...started making up answers! Tell me about it. I know, I know, the day Denny makes up an answer is like the day humans can fly. Well, I didn't really have any other choice. Mr. Stanley, one of the coaches, said it was much better to fill it in than leave it blank! So, I took his advice.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! In Chemistry, we have to memorize fifteen or so polyatomic ions and their charges by tomorrow! Can you think of anything else that is as harsh? Mr. Diederichsen teaches well, but he also expects great things from that teaching. Still, fifteen polyatomic ions seems impossible! Ugh! Plus, I have another day of Science Olympiad testing tomorrow...there goes another three hours. One good note: I aced my Algebra quiz. Kudos for now.

Den wrote on Wednesday, November 28, 2001 at 03:25 p.m.

Wow! This test I found off of Emma's site! The test is here. It is very accurate. The results I got are way too like me!

Here is your analysis

Your view on yourself

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties. The type of girl/boyfriend you are looking for.

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship.

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love.

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you.

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important; find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success?

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Do not give up when you have not even started yet! Be courageous!

What are you most afraid of?

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self?

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart, rather than your head, needs to solve.

Just thought that was interesting! Kudos for now.

Den wrote on Monday, November 26, 2001 at 07:12 p.m.

It's a Monday, and already, my brain is on overload from academia. I have two quizzes this week, and one timed writing in AP Comp over "Antigone." Today I wrapped up an AP US History essay test. In Algebra II, the number of A's has increased to three A's and one A-. It's very scary, and the class reminds me of this living portal of bad grades. My teacher is not exactly the best. BTW, I actually got cable internet! It's so fast! Forget about AOL! I love cable internet. Plus, I can talk on the phone and surf the web at the same time.

I was talking to O'Neill at lunch, and guess which house she wanted to be in? Slytherin! I also talked to Amayun after fifth hour. What house did he want to be in? Slytherin! What is with this whole "everyone likes the dark arts" theme? Can you believe all these people admiring the snake and all this stuff? All these great, brilliant minds lost to Slytherin! It's all a very strange thought. Imagine life if Slytherin was the dominant, prestigious house, and people wanted to get in that house. Okay, I am taking the books way too literally. Sorry! Anyways, personally, I don't have enough courage to be in Gryffindor, so I would probably be in Hufflepuff or Ravenclaw. I don't think I'd be sorted in Slytherin. Am I that conceited and immorally ill? Just something to ponder: which house do you belong to?

Did you see that the human embyro has been cloned? For once, I agree with the Bush administration, disagreeing with any human cloning whatsoever! Kudos for now!

Den wrote on Monday, November 26, 2001 at 03:42 p.m.

Finally! Mr. Sikkenga replied to my numerous (3) e-mails I sent him concerning the AP US History essays! It's even better than a Christmas present! Okay, maybe not. Still, I am thrilled he replied and gave me feedback about my essays since the essay portion of the test is tomorrow.

Since people don't visit my blog too much anyway, I don't even know why I bother posting. But, it's so fun...just letting people know how dysfunctional and horrible my life is. Last night, around 1:30 AM, I finished the outline for "Antigone." Aren't vacations wonderful? I actually get to pace my homework load, instead of jumping into it immediately when I get home. Today wasn't greatly eventful. I went to Barnes and Noble to pick up something for Jason Amayun, whose b-day party of sometime next weekend. Last year, I got him The Hobbit, so it was only right this year that I bought The Return of the King or something like that. It's another in the series written by Toliken. After that, we went shopping at Meijer. Do you ever notice how people say, "Meijers" instead of "Meijer" like it's supposed to be pronounced. I just thought that would be interesting to point out. Here I am rambling on and on about my terribly dull life which really has no point. Soon...I'll be fifteen! Goodbye fourteen! Wow! Can you believe it-Chemokinetic has over 1,000 hits (notably: most of which are mine!). Kudos for now.

Den wrote on Sunday, November 25, 2001 at 07:23 p.m.

Well, I finished "Antigone" for AP Comp. Still, I have to do the outline for the book, but I finished the AP US History essays. Mr. Sikkenga should be e-mailing me back about those anytime soon.

Sorry if my last post seemd dramatically sad. My best friend of all time has not e-mailed me in a few days, which probably added to the moment. It just seems like I should probably socialize more with people... A deep period of isolation is not reason enough to go to a shrink, is it? I don't think so. In all reality, I probably have tons of friends; I just don't get to talk to any of them as much as I would like. What I probably need is a girlfriend, of all things. Can you imagine non-social, anti-romance Denny getting a girlfriend? Don't worry, it's all in my crazy, mixed-up mind. Just don't bother trying to set me up with someone! Is my life too work orientated? Do grades mean more than anything to me? Note: those are rhetorical.

Isn't the new lay-out great? It's much more simplistic than Stars and Circles, which was too loopy and three-dimensional. It's green too, my second favorite color. I especially like the vertical Chemokinetic effect. Of course, it wouldn't have been possible without the brilliant thinking of Emma, so thank yous go out to her. Can you believe Thanksgiving break is almost over? One more day of complete relaxation left! Kudos for now.

Den wrote on Saturday, November 24, 2001 at 06:36 p.m.

Welcome everyone to the new Chemokinetic blog. Emma helped me change my lay-out yesterday. Good bye to Stars and Circles! I hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving, with tons of mashed potatoes, turkey, and cranberries!

The Harry Potter movie was absolutely wonderful. Well, it was probably a bit short of expectations, but the movie was still able to capture the essence of the plot. Of course, producer Chris Colombus left out some very important details--like not meeting Draco Malfoy before school, Hermione's detailed potions scene, etc, but the movie was not destroyed without those details...it was just that we Harry Potter fans were devastated without them. Overall, I would give the movie four and one half stars out of five. It's probably worth seeing, for all curious Harry Potter fans. I do admit, some of the characters were completely different than what I would have imagined them as, such as Professor Dumbledore, Filch, and even Ron. However, the casting for Hagrid, Professor McGonagall and Professor Snape were on target. After seeing pictures of Daniel Radcliffe all over the place, I was not surprised as for Harry's character.

After being reminded of Harry's brilliant and oh-so loyal friends, I was reminded of my lack of friends. It seems as if the "I love books" attitude deters everyone away from me. My closest friend is so far away, and we're only connected through e-mail. My other friends in this area do not know me so well. One of my friends is so busy...all of them are so hard to get a hold of. Do I really have friends like Hermione and Ron? In all honesty, I think not. I have some very honorable, good people who I see everyday, but how much would they sacrifice for me. I must admit, this is one of those personal entries. I did not mean for it to be...but I need to vent. All I have are books. What else? A great family...very supportive, but they can only do so much. My closet friends are those from the Science Olympiad, and even they do not seem so...friendly. Of course, they're nice, and they do respect, but I feel so completely different from them. My good, humourous friend once said, "If you build yourself up to be number one, you are going to have so much stress. Just be a Distinguished Academic Leader." Perhaps I do look at grades too heavily, or maybe I just put myself under constant stress. There's nothing wrong with liking school, is there? Since when did book isolate me? I do not think I have a Hermione and Ron. My entire life is...so completely different than everyone else's. Only once in a while am I ever invited to social events. Yes, I did see the HP movie with my Science Olympiad buddies, and I guess they're the only ones I have in this area. Sarah's so far away. Everyone else seems so distant, so impersonable. Of course, people say "Hi!" to me in the halls... Yet when did I become so isolated?

Anyway, I should probably get started an outline for the AP US History essays. I also have to finish "Antigone" for AP Comp by Monday. Kudos for now.

Den wrote on Friday, November 23, 2001 at 02:51 p.m.