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granma My ah ma's fall was seriously bad. Now she can't remember anyone. We're gonna go visit her later. I'm worried sick. Saturday, June 21, 2003 09:51 a.m.

A's are over THE A Level Exams are over!! And I miss waking up early to crew for Shal (i think i really really love shal, thanks for e chocolates and the yummy card!! :P), staying back late to see Albert and Lilian's piece (they were amazing!! i swear!!!! everyone MUST watch them for public p), Joyce's terrifying hot room and her amazing ds (wheeeeeeeee) and Fez and Yas. I think Yas did a great job, this was one of those times where I think she really pushed herself and it was one of the best performances I have ever seen her do. Yas has a lot of potential, I can see her doing some DS nest year and scoring like, A+++++++++++++++++++++++++. hahahaah!!! okok. Had a class BBQ!! So fun. I've been moody for a hell long time since busy TSD slots started coz I seem to get pissed at ppl who don't work or slack around or act like the big boss, and since its temporary pissiness I keep it to myself. So I became super irritated and bitchy. Then I refused to be sociable most of the time too :( I'm sorry if I pissed anyone off ok, I love all of you. It's just that I get annoyed by certain working styles. hee. Love TSD. Love everyone. SO!!! I talked and I talked and I talked nonstop during the BBQ. Made up for lost time!! I mean I've been quiet for like the past week!!! I love myself too. I love everyone. And I think crewing together was great. Lets see. Sue, Crys, Gen, Cheryl, Nigel, Jayne, Leonard, Nicole, Daphne, Calin, Yas, Mel, Joanne, Chris, Chloe, Bryna, Mosey. Yay! Did I miss anyone out? Okok. BBQ. Was really fun finally sitting down and doing nothing. I mean it. REAlly, NOTHing. That's what I did. I say and ate and drank and gossiped and talked and wheeee. Got full. Then Me, Lennie and Nikki were like fighting to be bitches of the world. Heh. Then after that, me charm and huan went to the beach to wash our hands after we poked fishballs into sticks (err..). then me and Lynn went to the climbing thing to climb. Was so funfunfun!!! We talked and talked and talked for like an hour. I think I hadn't been so close to Lynn in a long time. And I missed it. Same way I hadn't been close to Yas since A's started. Then we started talking. So I've regained two of my good friends!! :) Feels good. Feels happifying. I miss TSD. I miss Lilians cuckooness. I miss Albert's working style. He really is my BEST FAVORITEST senior. :) Shal is wonderful. Her DS is wonderful. Joyce works like crazy, but I admire her. Whooooooo. Fez was my senior, and I used to think she was a great actress. Now I know she's not just that, but wow. Her work and dedication is just, BWAM. I love Fez. You go girl!!!!! oh yeah. Watched ACJC play last night. The presentation was AMAZING, they had this dance thing at the beginning, interlude and ending, and the costumes were fantastic, the set was pretty, the choreographing looked good, but guess what? I couldn't understand a damn thing they said. Amogh too. Martin too. HAHAAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH. Well. The person who told Ellie that TSD should take a look at ACScian theatre, I did. And I didn't see any theatre in it. I was a sleek show, a showing, a performance, but it wasn't a solid theatre performance. There was minimal, if not, no acting, and it was indicative. I think it's true that VJC-TSD may not have the big money or wonderful space and everything, but we have the heart. And the talents. And whoever insulting Ellie can come and see our public performance, and we'll show you what THEATRE is. The showcase of talents. Whooooooo. It'll blow you away. And YOU should learn to respect other people for what they do. I love TSD. I love VJ. HAH! OH yay martin's back from camp! I love martin too!!!!!! After the play it was too late to go back, so I had to stay over at my friend's house. Heh. Got to spend some quality time with my darling. *muacks* ok. YAY! Weyling, when you coming down ah? Sunday, June 15, 2003 11:57 a.m.

marriage oh yes. since i'm talky now. Yas wants to be 28 now so she can get married. I wanna get married now too. Then we wouldn't have financial problems. Coz I can go and work. Me and martin are both down to our last 70$. Only problem, I lost 40$ of that 70$ in that wallet i lost (previous entry). Right. How are the both of us going to survive this stupid break???? Friday, May 30, 2003 10:51 a.m.

school Oh yes. And I think I'll not be skipping any damn lecture in a looooooooooong time to come. Skipped math on tuesday to be with Crystal coz she wasn't feeling up to it, then half of the Arts Fac decided to mass pon. Sucks, coz we all have to write letters and let our parents sign. Mrs Lee wasn't too pleased about it. grrrrrrrrrrrr. pissy eh. Then during econs lec, when every one was talking, we (me, yas and moses) got called. we were talking about indian movies. yes. stupido. we have extra assignments now, woo hoo! And Fatma, I have to admit that I haven't typed anything yet. Everyday I reach back after 10, I take a bath and I'm just too damn tired to do anything. Can't even wake up the next morning. This is, really, getting, to, me. Friday, May 30, 2003 10:29 a.m.

stress All this shit is taking a toll on me. I've never lost a wallet before, and suddenly, I lose TWO wallets TWICE in a week. Each with more than 20$. Feeling rather horrible. Did I do something wrong? I don't know. I'm also staying back later and later for my tsd slots. I feel as though I don't really know who I am anymore. I'm cranky day in day out, and I screamed at martin yesterday when I lost my wallet. Outbursts and annoyance and all these frustrations are just piling up on me. I feel bloody suffocated. Sometimes when you get to a point like this, you understand why some people choose to not go on. It's disgusting, how I hate myself now. Friday, May 30, 2003 10:26 a.m.

i'm afraid of rachel Fuck. I didn't know so many people were afraid of me. I'm feeling kinda upset now. Ok, I know I'm one hell of a bitch and I tend to get very loud sometimes, but I'm well, sane, and nice, most of the times. I thought. So even though I say I know I'm not a very likeable person because I can't hide my feelings about people (ie. if I hate you, I'll show it, if I like you, I'll talk to you), I still can't help feeling damn shitty and horrible and one hell of a blubber that I know at least 2 people in class are AFRAID of me. Am I that scary? At least I'm honest. And if I'm bad to someone unintentionally, I try to make up to the person by being friendly again (I'm bad at apologies). I don't see how. i. can. be. that. scary. GRRRRRR. Wednesday, May 28, 2003 09:52 a.m.

Right. I eat people. According to this survey. And my middle finger is swollen. So is Jayne's and so is Crystal's sister. Its the attack of the middle finger mosquitoes!!! HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU EAT PEOPLE!!! what's YOUR deepest secret? brought to you by Quizilla Monday, May 26, 2003 08:40 a.m.

grandma's sick Hello there. Feeling a bit woozy today. My daddy isn't back yet and no one knows when he'll be back. Hope he's ok. He doesn't know my ah ma's in hospital. Its the 2nd time she's fallen from the stairs. The first time it happened, her whole body system when haywire. She started forgetting things, couldn't work her back, couldn't do anything. So I suppose this time round things might be worse. Alot worse. My mum can't get to her coz she can't drive. I miss my ah ma. Monday, May 26, 2003 08:32 a.m.

For those who wanna see how my nadia and my weyling looks like: pictures from Weyling :) Monday, May 26, 2003 08:24 a.m.

i'm a bimbo everyone calls me a bimbo nowadays Went to VS hostel yesterday with Charm and Yvonne to check it out. IT IS SO MUCH BETTER THAN DUNMAN HIGH HOSTEL, NO MATTER WHAT ANYONE ELSE SAYS. In fact, in so many ways, it's better than RIB. The rooms are unbelievably spacious, the 2-bedder wardrobe is SO BIG!!!!!!, the toilet mirror is long, you can see almost your whole body (above knees), the view is pretty, the 4-bedders are so lucky coz the sea breeze is cooler than aircon!!!!!!!!!, toilet's bigger than dunman, and there's privary in the bath, the tables are so cute, and the windows ARE HUGE. Lots of ventilation and 4-plugs, and a lan point. Oh, and pretty light thingys. YAY!! I'm so excited to move in. I hope it'll be ready soon. It's 11 floors high, and I really hope I'll get one the top levels. I *hope* no lift ever breaks down though. ack. VS itself is really gorgeous too, why don't VJ move in? hehe, the architecture really is quite good, I especially like that building that looks like a stadium. Whoooooooeeeey. Lovely lovely lovely. I am in awe. Heh. Happy that I'm rooming with phuong. We can have underwear parties and do all sorts of gay things together. YAY! :) No la, but the staff there genuinely seem concerned for us, asking us our average time for returning and out needs and everything. Not like a certain hostel, so inconsiderate their 20 computers don't even have internet connection in ANY of them. Well, dunman hostel, good riddance and rot in hell!!! Friday, May 23, 2003 08:26 a.m.

hot days It's getting hotter and hotter and hotter and hotter and hotter even as I type. I think my butt is sweating. This is damn gross. Nadia used to say things like that, not me. Heh. I think I'm adopting a bit of her gestures because she's not here and I kinda miss her. It's weird. It's like 4 years of having someone who becomes your best friend. And then you just go separate ways. Now I don't know any of her friends, and she doesn't know any of mine. In fact, I'm not really sure what we talk about anymore. It's sad how things turn out the way they do. But I'm not sad I met you. Hehe. You're on of the most interesting people I've ever met. Lemme try to remember some things. It's weird how our relationship was. We could talk about anything (almost, martin was quite a hard topic) under the sun. We'd talk and talk and talk, and we were in the same class, same school, same hostel. That was crazy. Then we'd get sick of each other and shut up for a while. Then we'd talk again. We actually did do everything together. Guides, shopping, skipping guides, drama... Yeah. And it'll be so weird without Nadia next to me. Heh. OH.. and I remember everytime we fought. We'd fight on the way back from school, walk further apart, one in front of the other, then slowly, get back together again. One person says something. And then we're friends again. Never really the apology. But there's the understanding. And then we never really were very huggy feely with each other. That was weird. Like a best friend you feel awkward to hug. And we hugged everyone else. Always, hardest. Each other. The more I think of it, the more I'm thinking. What happened to us? Thursday, May 22, 2003 02:00 p.m.

after burger king i'm going crazy crazy crazy crazy i miss martin so much so much so much when can i see him see him see him i love him love him love him martin martin martin martin martin. It's so hot in here. Just a while ago me, Charmaine and Crystal were lying down in the costume room, three of us on a comfy purple matressy thing. Listening to the radio. Talking. Boring. Nothing to do. It looks like a boring day. It looks like a horrible horrible day. Talked to my darling for a loooooooooooong time yesterday. Had a sweetest conversation in days because after talking (some of us at BK yesterday), I realised that I really, really, really, am very very very blessed (I know, Charm). So we had a lovely conversation, eager to thank, eager to show our appreciation. Not trying to sound preachy or anything, but I realised one probable reason why me and him are still together. Every time there's a problem, or if one of us starts falling away, the other is always here to catch the fall, to pull back and to hold on to, again. Is that why people break up? When both sides don't want to hold on? When you don't see any reason to pull the other person back? Wednesday, May 21, 2003 11:13 a.m.

oh no! oh dear. ] Charm is so in love with me its scary. Tuesday, May 20, 2003 12:23 p.m.

HAHA! Raffles Institution The School That Suited You Most! brought to you by Quizilla I always knew I was meant for RI. I should be there with the throng of hot men..................... ohmygoodness. Tuesday, May 20, 2003 12:15 p.m.

tsd exam, over! Finally!!! My TSD exam is finally over (yay!) and I can finally relax again. It's amazing how my temperature rises just on the exam day, 37.0-37.5 (on the brink of being sent home :P) and today... its 36.3 again. woo hoo! :) shows my stress and worry. I think I shouldn't think of how the exam has gone, I'm just hoping for the best and that the examiners didn't notice all my little mistakes (or big ones) that I made. I know. I know everyone else will just ask me to shut up and just be glad that the exams are over, but I'm just a bit of and overboard perfectionist there. GRRR. But yes, the few performances I watched, Bryna, Lynn, Chitra, wow. They were amazing. Its just beautiful what our TSD people are made of, and I just feel that... well.... This is it. We're made to do this. Ellie told me that once, this AC guy went up to her and told her, hey, tsd sucks, ac drama was waay better than tsd. And I just think, at least we have the heart. We have the heart, the soul, the passion. It's like our lives. I've seen all of us work fervently, losing sleep and food (gen :P), studies (or classes) and friends, and time and, our outcome is beautiful. It may not always look sleek or polished, but there's true talent. So true that the rawness in our performances become beautiful. And we don't need all those money and gimmicks and sets and lights and props, and we could outbeat anyone with all that. Because of our wonderful teachers who have helped us so much (I especially think Lofty really woke me up from my level of comfort, making me work hard on my voice; and Ms Poon's help was just... I dunno.. really could not have done it without her), amazing seniors who I could see, loved us as much as we loved our theatre, and all the effort we put in... It's just so beautiful. I love you all tsd people. We rock. And you, whoever you are who insulted us, you come and watch us, and we show you what theatre is, raw, pure, TRUE. REAL. Tuesday, May 20, 2003 10:06 a.m.

monologue monologue in 6 days. I'm freaked. Mr Lofthouse (tsd teacher) hates the way I speak I think. I'm too Singlishly cut off. Say 'look at' really fast. He says thats how I sound like. I'm dead worried. I love everyone though. Hope everyone makes it too. And my phone is like abrand new phone!!!!! Weyling, when are you coming to SG? tell me!!! Wednesday, May 14, 2003 05:31 p.m.

yeah, me. Ok. Now that I've let it out, I'm slightly calmer. I was relatively happy today coz we're all gonna move to THE NEW VICTORIA HALL!!!! Doesn't that sound waaaay cooler than, 'Dunman High School Hostel'? haha... happiness. Or rather, I was supposed to be anyway. It's actually a cool place coz they have the wireless network thing that I've been pining for ever since I left RI. AND........ Siglap is just next to it, I don't EVER need to take the bus back to the hostel anymore(!!!), the food will be better (at least they won't find the yummy egg tarts and sandwiches from us normal beings), and I will be happier staying next to the sea. At least I think. But I'm really peeved coz my friends don't wanna stay together. They say we'll all get sick of one another. Thing is, I like my roomie, but I have a sneaking suspicion she's pissed at me for letting some people into my room all the time. Furthermore, she's kinda unhygienic in the TOILET side, while I'm a messy freak around the room. So there. I'm really really raelly pissed at that certain someone who's a know it all and thinks everything about her is so great, though. It's not. HAHA! BRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. Oh yeah, a good malaysia friend of mine, Hanna's here. Go see her. Thursday, May 8, 2003 12:45 p.m.

Pissed off. BAD MOOOOOOOOOOOOOD. I'm really starting to be very very angry at someone. Stupid know-it-all, how dare she shhhhhhhhhhhh me. Fuck. Haha, I should say her name because she isn't ever gonna read this anyway. So annoying. Why can't all of us friends live together? The only friggin reason why my roommate is upset with me about the noise is because everyone comes to my room, but they don't let people go to their rooms. Shitheads. The whole place is full of conceited self- centred morons. I'm so damn pissed today. I'm sorry I'm swearing. Thursday, May 8, 2003 12:41 p.m.

* It's a Saturday and I'm in school. WHAT AM I DOING HERE??? I'm hungry, my group mates aren't here yet, I have no friggin idea what Martin is up to. It sucks. There's a long day ahead. haha. Saturday, May 3, 2003 10:28 a.m.

auspicious phone number! According to this, my phone number is very auspicious. Haha! :) Wonderfullnesss. Wednesday, April 30, 2003 10:54 a.m.

randomwhine Hm. While emailing my dearest friends in Msia, I was remembered by the sad yuckified fact that I WOULD NOT BE ALLOWED TO GO HOME THIS FRIGGIN JUNE HOLS!!! Contary to what Mr Ho says, I really do not find this whole thing very fair at all. Why can't I go home? If I were to choose a place to die in, it would be a place with my family, and if I couldn't go, at least it'd be somewhere with my loved one, and NOT IN THE STUPID DUNMAN HIGH SCHOOL HOSTEL. Someone save me. Still, according to The Death Clock, I have exactly 1,932,685,923 seconds left to live. At 10.52 am. way to go. I'm gonna start thinking of my RIP statement. I remember some years back when I hosted a activities thingy at kinktastic.nu (removed now, i think) I wanted to have a RIP section where we could all write our own death statements, our will and all that stuff. Fun eh? I would have to give my clothes, my money, my stuffed toys to my little sister, my perfumes to my yummy martin, and the rest of the stuff to.... Okok. I don't really wanna die. Wednesday, April 30, 2003 10:47 a.m.

love This is beautiful. And if you are reading this, I just want you to know that I love you very much. :) 1. I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you. 2. No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry. 3. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have. This part just made me think hell a lot. And I'm sorry for hurting you when I wanted you to just think the way I did. 4. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart. LIKE MY WONDERFUL A52 PPL I LOVE!!!!! 5. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them. 6. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile. 7. To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world. 8. Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't willing to waste their time on you. 9. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful. 10. Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened. 11. There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time around. 12. Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and know someone else and expect them to know you! 13. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to. I'm happy. This is one enlightening message :) for me, at least. Wednesday, April 30, 2003 10:34 a.m.

great font! HAH! I found the font. This is a great site!! :) You can download the lovely Franklin Gothic Book font I was talking about (2 blogs down). Unlike all other horrible sites with truetype fonts that you need to PAY for. haha! :) off for school mag meeting now! Me and Charm are gonna chair it. MWUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHH. Tuesday, April 29, 2003 04:54 p.m.

oh my goodness. AND THEN, A MESSAGE CAME. Tuesday, April 29, 2003 04:33 p.m.

an entry Alrighty. I've finally typed out my monologue and the computer lab in the library is so silent in the evening. Hardly anyone is about, and I'm feeling quite.. lonely. Sniff. I just typed the meeting minutes for my project, we actually decided to do the legalising of abortion, but we haven't really figured out the lessons that can be learnt. right. A bit bimbotic there, but oh well, who cares. Right now I'm trying to find the Franklin Gothic Book font coz my computer had it (its a beautiful classic of a font to use for projects and stuff) but the damn computers in school don't have it. ARGH!!! And I'm waiting for replies on my phone. It's so lonely, I've not even exceeded the messages for YESTERDAY!!! I've got 3 more messages to go. Life's the dump, man. D'you know its my birthday next, next week? Whee- ums. Tuesday, April 29, 2003 04:27 p.m.

pool 2 YES!!! I did it. *beams* Ok. I'm happy. Poor charmaine is lying on the table next to me waiting for me to end the game. I'm gonna go off now. Love you black ball. *muacks* Anyone for the pool table this weekend???? :) Wednesday, April 23, 2003 11:33 a.m.

pool I'm really frustrated. Thing is: I've been spending all of my 3 breaks in this computer room playing pool. And I've lost 3 out of 5 games already. this is a crucial game! Argh!!! The stupid black ball just. would. not. go. in!!! I can't believe I waste all the internet time I have on a silly pool game. Yelp. Help. Bah. Wednesday, April 23, 2003 11:30 a.m.

long hiatus Hey there!!! One bloody damn long hiatus, but I'm back! I just sort of forgot how fun writing in my pita was. Whee. Weirdsomees. But there's yasmin in here and sue in here. Yup. So where do I begin? Ther's so much to say, so much that's happened since January that I feel lost to even begin. Well. Wey Ling, I see you and Tong look really happy. That's really great you know, I think love is such a beautiful thing. Heh, It can make your life go up and down and round and everything lovely, and also bad. And when it's down, it goes really down. Me and him went down last Friday. I mean really really down. I think we were both upset, and we both misunderstood each other, so we kinda screwed the relationship up a little. But thank god we eventually talked about it, so things are looking a little better. I'm just hoping the faith we need stays. Heh. :P Thinking of happier stuff, I'm really starting to like the 2nd intakes. Although I thought I'd really hate them at first coz they'd be this extra "load" on the class. But I'm wrong!!! And I'm glad I'm wrong coz Siva is really cool and funky, Huan Ling, Fatma, Christina are really sweet dears, Jian Guang is just damn cuckoo, erm, I don't really know Kelda and Nikki yet, but they're cool. I think my class ROCKS. waaay cool. Heh. Wednesday, April 16, 2003 10:21 a.m.

again! Did you people go to Langkawi? I'm so jealous its killing me. School has started, and its absolutely terrifying how different it is from secondary school. VJC is freaky, I had to run 2.2km to ECP today and back. Its bloody tiring, but this isn't the worst yet. We have to train to run 3.2km for a normal PE day. Its killing me and its freakin crazy!!! :( And classes end at 4.45pm everyday except Wednesday (cca days) and Fridays. I'm so tired by the time I reach home everyday, I just wanna go to sleep, but there's so many tutorials and so much work to do. Things are a little different (ok, maybe hard) for me and him coz we see so little of each other nowadays, and when we do meet, there's usually other people or we're too tired usually to do much. I'm starting to understand what people mean when they say its hard. But we're both trying, and I feel like I'm falling in love with him, all over again. Its a really wonderful feeling, and I'm happy that way. Oh, and I absolutely adore my small class of 15. We're mostly united and we have lots of fun during breaks (and even lectures). I'm slowly learning more and more of everyone, and its helping me in everything. I miss Anderson and all my lovely friends, but still, this is where I have to grow, right? Lastly, coz I have to rush, I think by the end of this 2 years I might become a very different person from what I am now. Literature and TSD seems to challenge and change the students to become mature and adult-thinking. Although there's room for fun, it seems as if they require us more to think and behave like grown ups. Both my British TSD and Lit tutors critisized the Orientation as means of getting us to remain as children and acting like 4 and 5 yr olds. To a certain extent I do agree about certain things they brought up, like some of the things they do is really quite childish, but its all in the name of fun, and also for us to get to blend in properly with the school. But they too are right, there must be some other way without degrading ourselves. But is it really, a degration? Sunday, January 12, 2003 02:04 p.m.

finally!!! loveliest people!!!! YAY! I realised that I could use my boring free periods to go online! College is GREAT FUN, but Dunman Hostel is really kinda lousy. I really miss RI and if I could do it again, I definitely wouldn't complain anymore :( First things first, I got my Arts Combi (I'm the only scholar taking Arts course, so when it comes to cheering time, I'm sorta..... all against one. WAAAAAAAAAAA.) which is Theatre Studies, Literature, Econs and Maths. TSD seems like helluva fun, the teacher is really really funny , but Lit seems like a real hellstress subject. First task of the year: LETTER TO SELF: WHY I'M AN A-STUDENT IN LIT. Oh God. Haven't been for the rest yet, another Lit and Econs lecture later. Funness. And Orientation was really greater than what I had expected. Not exactly the most fun thing in earth, but VJ girls are really sexy and they can do the most raunchiest dances. Not like me. I'm so gonna be a reject :-P Thankfully I can keep up with most of the mass dances, heh. So it isn't that bad. I've met lots of great people, and I'm hoping life will be better. Boo-yah. Gotta go. Wednesday, January 8, 2003 01:03 p.m.

merry christmas MERRY CHRISTMAS ALL!!! I'm back from Singapore! I got kinda sick of my mum for awhile, coz she kept telling everyone, oh, my daughter's in VJ, but only because she put it as her first choice. She put RJ as her second, you see. That's SO annoying!!!! She's bragging, unneccessarily. Its not as if if I had put RJ as my first, I would've gotten in. :| That's coz MOE sucks. They put Chooi Yun in Anderson, so she declined it. I would have to, if they had dared to put me there. Horriblenesses. Anyway, I got new Reebok shoes for christmas! :) HAppyNeSS!! Erhm. Be going back to SG soon.... For real. Sighs. School starting so soon, and I feel as if I haven't done enough. Gurgh. Wednesday, December 25, 2002 12:58 a.m.

censorship Oh, and would you believe it? My sis bought December's Girlfriend and guess what? Some kissing pictures, and revealing parts of a picture of Aguilera are censored!!! Amazing huh! Malaysia is getting a bit.... kongkong, too. Sunday, December 22, 2002 05:10 p.m.

shopping Just came back from mega mall. Had a fun time shopping today!! I bought a padini & diesel/bum tee each, a cool red m:30 blouse, an american atheletic teeny shorts (haha!!), a cute little pdi jeans bag, voir underwear (my favourite after jockey :P), a HUGE xmas card! and this wonderful tissue wrapping paper. Gorgeous. Had loads of fun, I'm happy. :) Oh, and Nando's chicken is getting worse and worse. It's chicken is spicier, but the price is a bit kongkong. =S But I like it..... Oh yeah, and I got so mad at our first taxi driver of the day! He stopped for us, and when we got on, he was talking on the phone, so we just told him, "Mega Mall". He continued yakking and was even smoking (rule: not supposed to smoke unless the passenger allows it)! The nerve of the fat bastard. Aside from that, he flicked the damn cigarette butt and those ash thingies flew all around us. And then, when he put down his phone, he asked where we were heading to. Then he said, no, i'm gonna meet my friend in sri petaling, let me drop you off at carrefour then. So that's just precisely what he did, while charging us RM3. Considering it would never cost that much to go to somewhere less that 3km away from my house, and the fact that his bloody meter wasn't even on. I wish I copied down his license plate. Idiot. Still, thankfully it didn't spoil my day. So there :) Sunday, December 22, 2002 04:56 p.m.

More darling people in VJ! The 9 indon scholars, including Hidayat (whom I've grown to like) and Andrew (so cute!!!). Oh yeah, and Ridhuan, I think. Woooocky! Sunday, December 22, 2002 01:25 a.m.

Oh yeah, The Nanny Diaries is one hell of a funny book. Get it and READ it!!! Saturday, December 21, 2002 11:00 p.m.

todaynesses. I PASSED MY UNDANGS!!!!!! yaa hoooooooo!! (and it wasn't even a borderline, not full marks la) All those nightly fears after Daniel dat smartass started scaring me.... *phew. No more. Until, the, scarier, driving, lessons. Gulp. How am I going to EVER get up the courage to drive down my slope? Oh god, oh god, oh god. Better things. Mum gave us 300 bucks to go shopping tomorrow. Actually I think they're in guilt mode because they won't be with us tomorrow. Well, well, well. I would tell all of you what I'm going to buy Martin, but then, he would know! :) So I'll save it. wheeeeeness!!! Weyling, if you read this, remember to call me ok? Don't forget those files for me!!! Till now, I've got great friends who are gonna be with me in VJ!!! Alme, James, Yasmin, Kasturi, me! :) Goodnesses. Still, I'm angry with MOE. Poor Hui Lian is really a genius in Art. I mean, real drawing art. And guess what? MOE gave her a JC without AEP. And I would tell you that she most definitely would have qualified for NJ. How horrible is that? People all over are getting reallllliiieeee mad with MOE. I'll say it here, I think their system sucks. People should have their INTERESTS taken into account when they apply for their choice of JC? Just because we have to fill in 8/12 choices for our JC doesn't mean that we wanna go to those jcs!! It's just not fair to turn it around and say, "Hey, its one of your choices!" That really sucks! Saturday, December 21, 2002 10:41 p.m.

Oh yeah, I want The Literary Book of Answers by Carol Bolt for christmas. Thursday, December 19, 2002 11:37 p.m.

victoria!!! YAY! I'm happy and contented :) Thursday, December 19, 2002 10:00 a.m.

legolas!!! Can't believe I forgot Legolas. He is my hero. Thursday, December 19, 2002 01:37 a.m.

lord of the rings If I could describe Lord of the Rings 2 in one word, it would be UTTERLYAMAZING. heh. I was so enticed by it, I sat there with my eyes glued to the screen for a friggin 2 hrs and 40 minutes in awe. LOTR is truly the best movie I have ever seen. :) I wanted to jump out of my seat and cheer for the brave Frodo who battled against the ring and the loyal, dear sweet Sam; for the handsome rugged Aragorn and his will to survive; smack the funny and adorable Gimli, who is a dwarf as much as ever; the brave people of Rohan who fought so hard and deserved to win as much; oh and I loved the cute Gollum and the Ents (heh).... and I do, hate, so, much, mr. evil. May you DIE in the end. Oh yeah, Gandalf is SO COOL here. You go, man! And Martin says that he read the guide book, and supposedly Gandalf is actually an angel, that's why he never dies. Oh yeah, and I have cool new copper highlights, my results come out tomorrow, and a huge zit on my nose. yuckyuckyuck! Thursday, December 19, 2002 01:26 a.m.

blah. Can you understand how frustrated a person can get? I'm very very angry, yet I don't know why. Or mayb I don't want to know why. I'm just friggin pissed. You can say that. Hmph. Better things, my dad's back. He bought me a leather jacket. The long kind. Cool huh. :) Wednesday, December 18, 2002 12:56 a.m.

ASEAN scholarship Seems like a lot of people I know/friends of people I know are applying for the scholarship. Some people have already had their appilcations comfirmed. Oh, I hope I'll be able to make new friends. *wisheswisheswishes* I'm so worried now. And I hope I'll get VJ or AC. twiddledums. Tuesday, December 17, 2002 01:15 a.m.

All's said and done, I still feel unloved and lonely tonight. I think I'll go to sleep and think over my shit of a life. Happier point: Please pray and hope that Chooi Yun gets the ASEAN scholarship. I think this is a great opportunity for us to be great friends again. I've really missed her friendship and companionship. :) Monday, December 16, 2002 02:33 a.m.

i wanna learn how to drive It was, predictably, the most exciting day of my whole week today. (I'm starting to sound more and more like L.M. Montgomery, uhm) I had to wake up at SEVEN AM to get ready for a FIVE HOUR sit-in course on the rules of driving and all that blah. Of course, I had not been looking forward to it, since I have been very scared of how I will fare when I start the theory part (yes, I'm a scaredy- cat) when I come to that part. Furthermore, I'm scared that I will crash any house and get put in jail for it (gulp). Anyhow, since my mother seems really keen on it, I registered for it and well, I had to attend the course. What struck me at the very beginning was the different kinds of Malaysian teens that I have missed out since I was in Spore. Alot of them look really, really ah beng and ah lianish. While most of them took care to dress appropriately for the occasion, some just looked plain... awful. There was this person who wore a sleeveless checkered collar shirt with a netted backing. YUCK. Some purposely intended to show their underwear (male ok!). One girl wore army pants and a fisherman hat. Of course, I noticed two very pretty girls (one was seriously pretty, the other was "made up") and a couple of hotties. Heh. I had 5 hours of time to waste, after all. I felt real sick, and since I sat at the back, and everybody knows how short I am, I couldn't really see, neither was I really paying attention anyway. I was doodling little cartoons of martin, ladybirds, hands-and-feet, flowers, hearts, and alphabets all over my book. And my stomach really ached because of the breakfast I had taken. We started the course with some really old made-in-singapore video showing all the possible actions leading to accidents, each ending with a question, 'Who is responsible?'. Although the videos were corny, I thought they were very good. Only there was no use in showing them to us kids who can't drive, they should air it on TV for the oldies to see how THEY should behave themselves. The lecturer spoke in Malay and I really couldn't catch him when he spoke too fast sometimes. Ugh, dratted Singapore. It became better after a while though, but by then, my concentration was gone. I didn't really like the whole thing, though, because people were free to 'go outside and take a break whenever they wanted'. How rude. Alot of people went out to smoke inbetween breaks. Are we allowed to smoke at 17? Nevermind, I suppose I would go out to smoke too, if I were a smoker. He was damn boring anyway. Advice for anyone who hasn't gone yet: bring some source of entertainment for yourself!!!! Well, we must have been a really attentive crowd, for our lecturer let us out early. By one hour. Cool huh? It felt pretty good to have sat through the whole thing though, and I felt quite proud of myself. Heh. Lets hope I pass on Saturday and I *still* feel proud of myself. YAY! Oh, posting results come out on Thursday, by 10am. Shit. I feel like peeing in my pants. PLEASE, please tell me your results! Monday, December 16, 2002 02:26 a.m.

feel Listen to: Feel - Robbie dearest Come on hold my hand, I wanna contact the living. not sure I understand, this role I've been given. I sit and talk to god and he just laughs at my plans, my head speaks a language, I don't understand. (Chorus) I just wanna feel real love, feel the home that I live in. 'Cause I got too much life, running through my veins, going to waste. I dont wanna die,  but I aint keen on living either. Before I fall in love, I'm preparing to leave her. I scare myself to death, that's why I keep on running. Before I've arrived, I can see myself coming. (Chorus) I just wanna feel real love, feel the home that I live in. 'Cause I got too much life, running through my veins, going to waste. and I need to feel, real love  and a life ever after. I cannot get enough. (Chorus) I just wanna feel real love, feel the home that I live in, I got too much love,  running through my veins, going to waste. I just wanna feel real love, in a life ever after There's a hole in my soul, you can see it in my face, its a real big place. Come and hold my hand, I wanna contact the living, not sure I understand, this role I've been given not sure I understand. not sure I understand. not sure I understand. not sure I understand. Monday, December 16, 2002 02:00 a.m.

%^$*@# Conversation with Daniel: D: are you feeling bored? me: hmm, sort of.... heh... feeling quite tired... D: tired? hmm.. ask martin to help energize u lor.. me: he's not here :) D: call him.. =) me: no la, so ex... D: it's worth it ma.. i will definitely do it for my gf.. Yeah, my idealisms were so very similar not so very long ago. But then, time changes and you just learn to adapt to how the other person is. When you don't expect so much, you don't get hurt. That's how it works, isn't it? So WHY does what Daniel said bug me so much? I never wanted to be this way. Heh, when I said I envy WL, I think I do very much, even more. I wish me and him could go back to our very first days. Sometimes, all I want is a little bit more. Ugh. Oh yeah, I decided my new favourite Anne book isn't Windy Poplars anymore. Its the Ingleside one. The stories of Anne's children really charmed me. Especially Jem and Walter, my favourite. I love sensitive kids. And I became very, very teary when I got to the part where Anne thought Gilbert didn't love her anymore. How many times we feel that way, but never have I ever read something that made me feel almost as if - as if, I were in the story itself. That I felt Anne's pain, as if it were mine. I'm glad Gilbert still loved her as much as he did when he was 7. I love their fairytale. And I hope my life can be one. Monday, December 16, 2002 01:44 a.m.

angry Sometimes people say things that make you think twice about your life, and what you've been living through for a period of time. I think i might have been denying myself some of the rights that I should have. I feel angry at you. Monday, December 16, 2002 01:02 a.m.

guestbook added a guestbook. Not that you guys sign my book anyway. Tssk. Friday, December 13, 2002 11:49 p.m.

amazing race 3 I'm depressed. I cannot believe Derek and Drew got eliminated from the race. It was just too depressing for me, I couldn't help but cry. Do you know how unfair it was for the poor twins to be eliminated? And those evil, EVIL, evil Ken and Gerard!!!!!! I hope they get eliminated next, those evil people. :( Sadness. I wanna go and sleep. This must be a nightmare. Poooooor, pooooor Derek and Drew. *sniff* Friday, December 13, 2002 01:02 a.m.

khairul Do YOU know Khairul? He's my favourite little brother, and since he's not feeling too good about himself today, I'm gonna tell him all the nice things about him so he can feel better about himself :) I thought Khairul was the cutest little thing the first time I saw him (hah, martin's the best looking though :P) and my frens *ahem* fell in love with him just as much. It took a lot to talk to him though, he was just so shy, he thought that we were just making a big joke out of him and that we didn't seriously wanna be friends. So, we made Martin drag him to the library, and wrote nice notes to him :P and then he blushed*** and became even redder. So cute. Hahah. Well, soon, he was better, he would talk to us, and me and Vila even managed to bring him to have Mcds with us and martin!! yay! Whenever I was upset, or if I had an argument with someone, Khairul's always able to talk me out of my frustration by his funny way of communicating. He's a real cutie, and my favourite little brother :) So don't be so upset, dear, I know some people love you, like ME, VILA, HUILIAN, MARTIN (i'm sure, in his own "manly" way)!!! YAY!! Thursday, December 12, 2002 11:26 p.m.

~ Feeling slightly over-the-top and happified today. Don't know what's come over me. Watched all the chinese serials and cried at all the happy and sad parts. Started reading Anne of Green Gables series 'coz it made me happy. Dreamt happy dreams which I shall not divulge - for now. :) Happiness makes me want to sing. G'nyt, you all. *loves* Thursday, December 12, 2002 12:37 a.m.

Actually, I don't know why I seem to be complaining. I'm quite happy today :D ~~~ Wednesday, December 11, 2002 02:26 a.m.

for you You know wat I really wanted to say before you left? I don't like this at all. I don't like the way time works, I think its too damn slow the way things are. I hate the way we just miss each other, I hate the way I miss you by one bloody second. I hate it when you laugh things off. I hate all this uncertainty. I want time to fly to when we can try to be happy again. When you say something, do you really mean it? Can you try to understand, how maybe I'm not as strong as you think I am? Wednesday, December 11, 2002 01:26 a.m.

you're my wonderwall How I feel about you tonight: Wonderwall - Oasis Today is gonna be the day That they're gonna throw it back to you By now you should've somehow  Realized what you gotta do I don't believe that anybody Feels the way I do about you now Backbeat the word was on the street That the fire in your heart is out I'm sure you've heard it all before But you never really had a doubt I don't believe that anybody feels The way I do about you now And all the roads we have to walk are winding And all the lights that lead us there are blinding There are many things that I would Like to say to you But I don't know how Because maybe You're gonna be the one that saves me  And after all You're my wonderwall Today was gonna be the day But they'll never throw it back to you By now you should've somehow Realized what you're not to do I don't believe that anybody Feels the way I do About you now And all the roads that lead you there were winding And all the lights that light the way are blinding There are many things that I would like to say to you But I don't know how I said maybe You're gonna be the one that saves me  And after all You're my wonderwall I said maybe You're gonna be the one that saves me  And after all You're my wonderwall Said maybe You're gonna be the one that saves me Wednesday, December 11, 2002 01:23 a.m.

waxes, ooh lala! Weyling talking about bikini waxes? I'm not sure if it's the love, the deprivation, or the fact that she's getting older. Hahaha, just kidding :P I wanna go too though... Except, I read in the mag about when the hair grows back again........ That, its kinda gross. Hmmmm. *thinks* Wednesday, December 11, 2002 12:22 a.m.

insomnia insomnia In*som"ni*a, n. [L., fr. insomnis sleepless; pref. in- not + somnus sleep.] Want of sleep; inability to sleep; wakefulness; sleeplessness. My mum is understaffed. So this morning, at 9am, I get dragged out of bed by little kids who chant, "tachel che-che, tachel che-che, wake up, wake up!" It was crazy. I took 1 hr to wake myself up. Hah. It wasn't that I'm a lazy worm, but I think there's something wrong with my sleep cycle. I put myself to bed by 2, but I just couldn't fall alseep till 4+. Weird eh? I'm seriously considering some pills. Heh. But in the meantime, I think I'll just hug my bolster and pretend someone is next to me to keep me company until I fall into dreamland. Oh yeah, teaching was so tiring. From 10 to 12, I gave out worksheets, explained tenses, verbs, vocabulary and how to write essays in Malay. I had a lot of trouble with explaining though, 'coz my Mandarin now really really sucks :P Oh well, lets see how things go in the next few days eh.. p.s. something seems to be wrong with my internet connection. i can't connect to icq or msn. sorry guys.. Tuesday, December 10, 2002 11:58 p.m.

sleepness. Sleepy. Will try to blog later. *kisses* Tuesday, December 10, 2002 12:02 p.m.

i'm turning blue with envy WeyLing is so lucky. She can have long phone talks with "someone", she can meet "someone" online all the time, she can go out with "someone" this holidays. She can do anything she wants with this "someone" any time this December... *JEALOUS* And me? I'm lucky if I can get an email. Aw, #*%&#(@%. Some people have all the fun. Monday, December 9, 2002 11:53 p.m.

I have been keeping something in me for quite some time, because I was very unhappy with a certain someone, but I promised not to confront the person.. Because of that, I've sort of been kinda angry and frustrated at the person, and at myself for trusting this person. Today I got to share my feelings with a good friend, and I feel a whole lot better now. Woo hoo! I can go to sleep feeling all happy inside! :) Gnyt my dearies.. Weyling, if you read this, I'll call you. To make up for e last time. Monday, December 9, 2002 01:18 a.m.

happy day yay!!! It's up! Thanks to Khairul who helped me out with some of the uploading. You rock, little brother! :P Anyway since I'm really bored, I am going to be blogging alot. I think. Oh yeah! I'm so happy! I got a really sweet email from martin! Ok, its a normal email but it made me feel all happy and warm and nice inside. I really miss him. :( 20 more days to go! Hm, welcome back, Weyling, Tong, Wee Lee. *muacks* Monday, December 9, 2002 01:06 a.m.

anewbeginning I'm starting my blog again. :) I miss telling things. The layout isn't very nice coz I haven't really done anything in a long while, so it will take time. By the way, SELAMAT HARI RAYA! NADIA! FAREENA! HUDA! TASSHA! ATIQAH! EVERYONE! ok, I'm going to get myself some food to eat. I'm starving... Friday, December 6, 2002 03:11 p.m.