Catshade's Catharsis Corner v. 5.00 : Dodge This

Saturday, March 6, 2004

Mood : ...
BGM : "Iris" – Goo Goo Dolls

Dreaming of you again. Not like "One Sweet Dream" that once you have shared with me. This was nightmare. But why I'm crying for both? The memories are fading away. Should I preserve it to eternity, or let it sink away to the deepest layer of my unconsciousness with rocks tied to prevent sudden recollection?

HASH(0x88f8478)
Your defense mechanism is denial.

***** What's Your Defense Mechanism? (With Pictures) *****
brought to you by Quizilla

Catshade jacked in at 07:37 p.m.

011000110110000101110100

Sunday, February 29, 2004

Mood : -_-
BGM : "Firasat" – Marcell

Seems that my slackery (if there's such term) have disappointed many people around me for these last few days, even if they don't blatantly express that feeling in front of me. Maybe the old man in the sky too, for 'that' matter. No can do about that, since the word 'sorry' would be too simple to be taken seriously, eh guys? I want to blame everything to the unscheduled one week holiday in the third circle of heavens, but I just can't, cause one of those people is myself. *sigh* Something within me changes. Again. But I'm still surprised that I'm not surprised at all with that. And this kind of change is never good to begin with... >_>

wind
You're Elemant is Wind. You're light-hearted,
care-free, kind, sensative, and mysterious. You
have friends and most absolutely love you. You
can be calm and soothing one minute and ragging
in anger the next so no one wants to get on
your bad side. You're beauty is inspiring and
magical.

What's Your Element(girls)? (PICTURES)
brought to you by Quizilla

Catshade jacked in at 09:15 p.m.

011000110110000101110100

Wednesday, February 25, 2004

Mood :'_'
BGM : "I'll Be Coming Home Next Year" – Foo Fighters

I'm in the sky tonight
there i can keep by your side
watching the wide world riot and hiding out
i'll be coming home next year...

Eeee, sebenarnya cuma buat seminggu sih saya terjebak (apa dijebak ya?) di third circle of heavens. Tapi serasa seperti setahun sih, makanya begitu keluar kok saya merasa dunia ini jadi begitu panas dan suram amat. Mungkin terlalu banyak kontaminasi dengan yang 'putih-putih', not to mention their affinity with 'conditioned air'. Some angels are cute, though every morning one of em will come to suck your blood ...*digeplak* Entah kenapa yang co2nya kebanyakan lebih ignorant daripada ce2nya...karena saya emang di dorm co, mayb. Overall, quite a pleasant experience, well-done escapism (though, escapism IS still an escapism)...two pinkies up. >_>

Again, thanks to Neko-chan and Nee-chan for accompanying my lonely days in heavens through the only possible communication means. Hail the cellphone!

Catshade jacked in at 05:30 p.m.

011000110110000101110100

Wednesday, February 18, 2004

Mood : +_+
BGM : "Beautiful Balloon" – Mew

*coughs* Ini kali pertama dalam semester kedua saya bolos kuliah karena sakit (demam, to be precise). Secara fisik, saya bisa menyalahkan hujan deras yang turun tak henti-hentinya selama beberapa hari terakhir ini. Secara psike, saya mau menyalahkan tugas-tugas kepanitiaan pekan anime yang bisa dibilang bertentangan dengan kepribadian saya. Humas dan Publikasi. Sudah sejak lama saya tidak mengalami apa yang saya namakan ' paranoia bicara' sampai saya dibebani tugas-tugas itu, sehingga mungkin shock tersebut membuat saya mendapat penyakit psikosomatis. Saya masih menggunakan term 'mau' dan 'mungkin', karena bisa saja alasan yang terakhir cuma rasionalisasi atas ketidakkompetenan saya...*shrugs*

Anyway, thanks to Neko-chan and Nee-chan for concerning my health...

Catshade jacked in at 09:02 p.m.

011000110110000101110100

Sunday, February 15, 2004

Mood : ^_^
BGM : "Hands" – m-flo

Delapan belas jam dan empat belas hari sudah berlalu semenjak terakhir kali menulis entry. Eskapisme yang ada berjalan tidak seburuk yang diduga. Liburan terlihat seperti pelarian, atau pelarian yang terlihat seperti liburan; sama saja. Seolah bermain-main dengan gravitasi tanpa terikat dengannya, dunia yang berputar di sekitar kita: pusat alam semesta. Boost of enlightment dari dua buku cerita membuat mata terbuka, paranoia yang sia-sia. Tapi kita akan selalu kembali di sana, sekedar untuk sejenak merasakan seperti apa rasanya kembali jadi manusia biasa.

Valentine, hati yang merah, hari yang berdarah. Kupikir akan membuatkanmu secarik kenangan sebelum masa-masa bersama kita hilang dalam ingatan. Kenapa waktu seolah berjalan dengan begitu pelan? Maka tergigitlah apel yang menggoda, dosa yang pertama. Lilith dan Eva. Sejenak ragu apakah memang pantas mendampingimu menjejak di dunia, setelah kita terbuang dari surga. Tapi takdir telah berbicara, sedikit riak di dalamnya tidak akan berarti apa-apa. Aku tahu kalau kau belum tentu setuju, bisa kulihat belum ada maaf di matamu, tak apa-apa soal itu. Sungguh.

I want to be at the end of the dream
Even if it's close by, even if it's far away
On the day it was solved by the puzzle
I want to feel your hands more than anything

DesireLove
Love. You Truly Desire Love. You long for someone
to hold you and take the pain away. You haven't
been in much relationships or you need to work
on how to handle them. You always seem lost in
a daydream about the person you care about
most.

PLEASE RATE

What Do You Truly Desire?
brought to you by Quizilla

Catshade jacked in at 09:21 p.m.

011000110110000101110100